I stopped eating so I would disappear

[@M0ZZY-PAWZY]

I used to watch your videos a lot when I was struggling with SH and I’m proud to say that I’m now one year clean from SH and attempting to take my life and seeing you flourish and work on healing has been a big part of that I’m working really hard now and learning healthy coping skills, thank you for everything over the years

[@bertoltbrecht5303]

I read about a great alternative term for 'attention seeking' somewhere: support seeking. It really takes away the negative connotation and reveals the underlying emotional need ♡ Everyone needs and deserves support, especially if you're not in a good place mentally.

[@astral.fae444]

I've been relapsing lately with my ED for the first time in over a decade, unfortunately 😢 I really needed this video Ana, so thank you! 🙏 I really appreciate you venting to all of us. I'm trying hard to change my mindset as well. One moment at a time of course. Thank you again for making me feel less alone today! Sending love and blessings! 😊🌻❤

[@BabvBlues]

Sending love right back 🌻 I believe in u, u got this!!

[@meredithgrace3394]

Oh girl SAME. I’m in relapse over a decade of partial recovery ❤️‍🩹

[@aliceanonymous8361]

Girl my life got worse than when I watched you in middle school & high school, just bc my self destructive rebellious teen tendencies have caught up with me as a young adult and I struggle with becoming stagnant in stressful situation like fight flight fawn freeze- I be freezing, it’s a struggle with ed, addiction, toxic personality thus experiences & environments- I’m so happy to hear from you tho I missed you and I’m glad you’re doing so good- the listen to your body advice is really simple but a helpful and necessary reminder thank you mama sunflower

[@cosmicstormz]

Omg i literally was just talking about this! My ED is not about control its about making myself go away. Also not feeling and being good enough. The worst mistake is listening to people when I was never the problem i know that now. The damage is done the best i can do is take day by day. I have many other issues as well but it really messed me up still does. Thank you for speaking on this. ❤

[@BabvBlues]

You got this! You know, I believe in u🥺🩵

[@tarabrockgreitens8487]

❤

[@annak3325]

poppin in a comment before I watch the video..but always appreciate seeing you on my feed thru the years. isn't it crazy to be 26?! im the same age and funny enough im Anna too. being 26 we can look through the past 10 years and realize that old patterns die hard and sometimes we get back to our old ways but we have new perspectives when dealing with them which makes it easier to get through it eventually. sending love

[@BabvBlues]

OMG 😭🌻 it’s like we grew up together

[@doomdoll6321]

@@BabvBlues❤

[@doomdoll6321]

❤

[@BabvBlues]

I stopped eating so I would be as small as I felt I wanted there to be less of me to hate I thought if I ate less and less I would disappear This is such a ramble! I contradict myself so many times!! But key take aways are: - listen to ur body - work on ur mindset (They go hand in hand!) - be active even if u hate it - reward yourself for small steps Eating disorders are a symptom of a struggling mind

[@doomdoll6321]

Thank you I needed this

[@BabvBlues]

@@doomdoll6321 I hope u r doing oki!!!

[@gracefulbarbie]

oh my god i have always said, “even if they’re doing it for attention, give them the attention they need!!!” sometime a little attention goes a long way🥺

[@BabvBlues]

🥺🩵 it does

[@tarabrockgreitens8487]

❤

[@stefanmilicevic5322]

There seems to be a correlation between mental and physical health, each influencing the other to some degree. I'm glad to hear that you are doing better, Ana. That's wonderful news.

[@annak3325]

oh I see you're just reflecting. yeeeapp I feel that so hard about eating healthy. you know you just feel better mentally!!

[@tarabrockgreitens8487]

Ur beautiful too ❤

[@corinner4860]

I have kept an eye on you!!You were so inspiring how you talked when you got diagnosed,- you are so smart!! Admire you✨

[@takeanap9458]

Your videos are so helpful and needed ❤ I’m glad you’re back ☺️☺️

[@normarivera5544]

When I was watching your video, I looked into your eyes. It is not hard to see that you have a pure soul and the saddest me to see that you had to go through so many difficult situations in life. I pray that you seek and find the paradise that you deserve. A paradise that can help you overcome any emotions that you may be struggling with through the process of learning and understanding and overcoming any obstacle, you may face in life your existence is an achievement and your positive messages I like the most beautiful us angels, calling us to heaven, your words help me find peace within myself, and I hold my words can repay the favor. God bless you and you will always have my support even if I don’t know you.

[@marianaortega1166]

I’ve missed your videos so much, thanks a lot for sharing with us. You are one of my comfort people ☀️

[@amyanything7092]

I do love listening to you talk and actually all of it made sense

[@patrickm1981]

Ana thank you for talking about this!❤ You are amazing for overcoming this problem and having the courage to bring it to light ✨️ ❤️ 🙌

[@BabvBlues]

Thank u so much for commenting and reassuring me🩵🥺🌻

[@wacken7687]

You're so strong, thanks for sharing all of this, I know it ain't easy,

[@Charles-cb3lo]

I've been watching this girl for like years but suddenly she shows up out of nowhere lol. Very glad to see you are here 😊

[@aela5521]

turing 22 soon haven’t watched the video bc i’m not mentally prepared to have someone force me to face my fear through themselves. i’m scared, terrified of everything but know you’ve been where i’m at and are ok now brings me comfort. i’m not as strong as you are but i hope one day to start recovery like you.

[@BabvBlues]

Baby steps! Don’t be so hard on yourself! 🩵

[@summersunshine1507]

The timing of this is so perfect ❤thank you

[@emmaberger3748]

My mental health still sucks. Gotten worse in some ways and better in others. I don’t have a clinical eating disorder. I just don’t have a great relationship with food due to other mental issues. Mostly because I’m too tired to cook but I have recently learned some good food hacks for when you don’t have a lot of energy (basically like a menu for easy meals - I go with protein if I don’t want to cook and fruits/veggies if I don’t want to eat). And also, it’s important to remember that spending money on yourself especially if it is for your health & wellbeing. So it’s ok to spend a bit more money on something like cut up lettuce if you know you’re more likely to eat it (still struggling to accept this)

[@Bernadettevlogs1980xoxo]

No matter your size and/or what you look like, that doesn’t change the fact that you’re still a human being!

[@MrChunkerton2001]

Been following you since you told us about morning glory seeds lol Everything you're saying is facts 💯

[@Kylacvci]

Aw I’m so glad I thought I had lost your account forever I used to watch many years ago 💕 love to you girl x

[@thirteenwolfies]

Thank you so much for this video and I have loved watching your videos for years now ❤

[@Narinari97]

Stay strong Ana! Love you always !!❤

[@BabvBlues]

Love you! Stay strong too! 🌻🥰

[@jasoncuculo7035]

Please don't disappear! ❤❤

[@ZizYoubizHERE]

this spoke to me, thank you 😢❤❤

[@xsobertea]

my ed drove me insane now i’m just trying to keep my weight low through fasting and calorie restriction and keeping busy to burn calories i think it’s possible that could still be left over ed behavior. i personally think being thin suits my gender identity cause i guess i want to look less “womanly” and more androgynous

[@caspar8963]

thank you for making this

[@hellokittyfifi]

i just recently relapsed. also this is unrelated but a few years ago u had a video montage to the song Poison Dart by the Bug (i believe) and i commented with a time stamp to a clip of a guy smashing a can with his head and said “when i’m angry but want a soda” (i was literally like 10) and u replied laughing (i appreciate it LOL). the video is not up anymore but it has been living inside of the core of my brain for the past 10 years. love u bae

[@PsychiCorey]

😍 ur transcendingly cuteaiful 😭 anyway glad ur well.

[@NitroBoarder17]

BEGONE SIMP! SHE MUH QUEEN, not urs!!

[@jahmark9336]

peace and love from Bristol, England :)

[@sickvick83]

She’s so beautiful 🥰

[@nateabruzzese7433]

My pych doctor is denying me my meds because im smoking weed. I dont get it. I replaced my meds with the weed and thought id be fine . Its been 2 years with out them. Im getting more and more depressed where im to the point of having urges again to hurt myself. Ive wrote my feelings down and read it to him but hes still withdrawling my meds which i clearly need but i dont know what to do

[@tarabrockgreitens8487]

Ur so beautiful ❤you DO NOT deserve to starve urself 2 death. You deserve love, warmth and happiness. I'm so proud of you 🙏💖I love ur hair ur gorgeous please eat ur too beautiful to die 😇⭐️

[@marty5281]

Love these videos

[@نونو-ص6س2ق]

I love you so much 😢❤

[@kiffy2634]

How do I cope with every human ignoring me and nobody shows me any attention/ sexual attraction? I’m a 31 man and have no sensual/ sexual touch in over 7 years

[@CNYKnifeNut]

Continue complaining to the internet. Or exert a tiny bit of effort, use one of the billion resources for making friends on the internet and get over any inflated ego you may have. Also be yourself and accept that not everyone is going to like you; don't try to be what you think someone else wants you to be.

[@smokeweed-everyday7906]

I ain’t gonna you lie you bad tho 👀😍

[@quentinbroom5844]

I think u should leave your videos online because you can't escape your past "history." Forgetting it makes more likely to repeat it. No reason to be ashamed. But "feeling too proud" to savor the past won't get anywhere. Accept yourself and your past and know better who you are now. And if any trolls are out there , then you just have to agree with them and they will see that you are better. Tell them " yes, that was me in the past but ive changed from the old me. Be the change u want to see. But don't erase the past.

[@maijanika]

❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[@meredithgrace3394]

Love you so much Ana❤️‍🩹🫂🥺🙏🏻. I’m sorry you also battle these struggles! I’ve been in relapse after like 9 years of recovery. It’s so so hard.. I’ve been doing a lot better than I have been the past couple months, while as before earlier this year I wanted to die. But then things shifted after I lost my friend to anorexia.. I wish I could say that snapped me out of it. But it’s still really hard.