I Took A Leap Of Faith

[@MegaVolcano]

When I was 22, I moved out of my VA town with $500 in my pocket to Florida. Everybody, friends, family, etc. told me not to. 2 years later I took out loans and went to film school, once again against everybody’s advice. 10 years ago I once again packed a car and drove out to Los Angeles, where once again mom and siblings tried to tell me I wouldn’t make it. I made it just fine ( not without struggles, of course) but I did fine. I met my wife, changed careers had a son and still fine.

[@iexist7408]

@@MegaVolcano I LOVE this!! Good for you! It’s inspiring

[@MegaVolcano]

@@iexist7408 Yeah, I figured you needed to hear it, after watching a couple of your videos about those around you making you doubt yourself. You determine your own destiny. Do t ever let anybody tell you who you are or what you can or cannot do. Keep on getting out there. I’m proud of you.

[@johnmoreno5965]

Is there some reason I can't reply in any of your videos?​@@iexist7408

[@TheVirginGary]

@@iexist7408 Proverbs 16:25 There is a way that seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death. Be very careful about following your heart, especially when it comes to men. Always use your brain first. Jeremiah 17:9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? Proverbs 9:10 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: and the knowledge of the holy is understanding.

[@joojoojuice]

Always remember that we suffer more from fear an anxiety than we do from actual hurt. I'm proud of you.

[@vancoke10001]

When I was 30,i went to Russia from norway all by my self to meet my boyfrioend that I had met in norway couple of months before.I didnt know the languige,I was totally crazy..haha.Now Im 51 and live in Berlin with him still married,speaking rRssian and German.Have no regrets,follow your dream.I was like you when younger,no selfesteem and naive like hell.Later I got diagnosed with adhd and autism,that is hard to work through but its possible.

[@mcentepede]

That's a great Cinderella story with a happy ending.

[@obscured.by.clouds.]

Second video of yours I’ve watched. Quite a major change from the “loser” video. The idea of breaking free is scary, but look at what it has done for you! You’re on the right track. Keep your head up.

[@steveknievel]

Try not to give an F about what people think, its liberating

[@edmundnewwave-synchronizer2802]

No loving parents would mock their own child. I'm glad you took the move to go on the vacation. Sorry you were sick though.

[@aidanfgc8312]

People do not want to see you thrive. Much less coworkers. Even family, if you are unfortunate enough. Good thing you took the leap of faith, you should keep doing what you think is best for yourself. Don't bother with other people, they will kick you when you are down. Best of luck out there.

[@jesseregenauer630]

Just caught a video of you from 8 months ago. Glad you're doing much better!!!

[@jamesbinns8528]

Families can be a drag!

[@jdspreest]

leaving my parents home and living on my own was the best move I ever made. I'm Hispanic, so one's parents expect you to live at home until you get married. I said hell naw, I'm out. It was scary, challenging, and caused a bit of friction, but it taught me to fend for myself. That said, I've been watching your videos and I am so proud of you with the progress you've made. As some have written in the comments, don't give a shit about what others think is best for you. Real friends and people who care about you will let support you. You are doing nothing wrong by wanting to seek adventures, to explore the world. Do what you want to do and what makes you happy. My youngest brother suffers from anxiety too, and we've been trying to break him free from his chains, but still he refuses to. All that to say, you've now tasted freedom. Don't stop now. Life's too short to not do the things you want to do!

[@iexist7408]

@@jdspreest Thank you! I found this really encouraging. Glad you stood up for yourself and did what felt right

[@DonLewis9274]

Glad to see a semi smile. Congrats. Small victories daily.

[@Josh-sv4vo]

You’re on the right track!!! You’re honoring your own ideals and that made you happy. Keep that up!

[@timmellin2815]

Have you ever heard the Beatles' song: "She's Leaving Home" from the Sgt. Pepper C.D. ? Listen to the lyrics....reminds me of your trip to Calif and breaking free.

[@jakehammon8631]

Damn right!!! About a year ago I got layed off, and instead of going back into a fast food job I started my own business. Eventually I keep going and I kept finding happiness against what people thought was best for me. When I truly feel free even if it’s something different than normal. Got an old car so I could learn to work on it as my first carand nobody else did. I tried 3 different things before finding the businesses I’m doing now. Nobody seems to understand, but I’m happy. Good job girl👍👍👍

[@unplugged2432]

Thats a perfect example of why you never tell people your plans and ideas. A lot of people dont mean to do it but they sow seeds of doubt or negativity in what you are wanting to do which could mess up your plans before they have even begun. Heck they csn even sabotage stuff (crabs in a bucket mentality) You just plan and prepare then do it and inform people the very last second you can or even not at all until its done

[@dawidkotlinski]

Or you just distance yourself from such people because they're clearly a negative part of your life if you need to do that.

[@unplugged2432]

@@dawidkotlinskieasy to say but sometimes you don't even realise who those people are until you mention it. Or they plant the seeds of doubt subtlety that you didn't even notice. then before you realise who those negative people are your plans have failed. You could have people who are openly supportive to begin with, but you might be the type who genuinely doesn't take action, but then once you finally do, that's when their true colours emerge subtley

[@BrettLesPaul]

Wow! That’s great! And look at you. You’re glowing ! Keep doing what’s the best for YOU!

[@richardbrophy4120]

She WAS glowing. I noticed that too !

[@gg_sam7847]

Regular small town obsessive older people being irrationally terrified of big cities. And we're products of our upbringing, the majority of our personal problems stem from our parents and how we were raised

[@Rene67]

My dear, you are inspiring many people right now!

[@chen_shahaf]

Huge progress!!!!!!! Soooo proud of u!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@1ND1V1DUAL1ST]

It makes me happy to see you smile after seeing that last video I saw. Im from southern NJ, went to CA in 2019 for about a month and it was amazing, I always think about going back. That mommas and poppas song "California dreaming" pops in my head all the time. Its refreshing to see a modest woman on here that isnt just trying to use her body to make money. Please always be you, you are appreciated.

[@Jordan808Hawaii]

Wow, the first video I saw of you (earlier tonight) was from 9 months ago and just 6 months later you're already doing all sorts of cool stuff! Going to cali, traveling, meeting new people and giving US advice about going out there and doing stuff even if you have anxiety. Love it! Keep going! Can't wait to hear about your next trip!

[@schumannbeing]

I just saw your other video and realized it was old. Wow this is such a different you! It seems like you are going through the same type of self-awakening inner journey that I did a couple of years ago or at least something similar because all of our journeys are different. I am so glad that you're listening to yourself and your inner voice! It shows!!

[@krusnik94]

That's awesome. Same reason I moved to Chicago was because I needed a change. You're young, there's so much life left for you to live

[@babaschwein4308]

Very inspiring video. It reminded me of a time of my life in my early twenties during which I was forced out of my comfortzone after I finished school. Back then all males in Germany would either have to join the army or do civil service for 9 months and even though all my friends chose the latter, I really wanted to know how army life was like (I guess I watched to many war-movies with my dad when I was a kid). As a person who also suffers from anxiety and feels extremely uncomfortable around large groups of people this was a huge step for me. I broke down in week 2 because I was often in total panic-mode and sometimes could not comprehend the simplest orders, so my superiors just thought they had a very stupid individual in front of them. Nonetheless, I pulled through and the whole experience gave me a confidence boost in the end and also fond memories to look back at. By now I've returned to square one due to some poor life decisions of mine (or lack thereof), but seeing a couple of your videos and what an impact this leap of faith had on your mentality, I come to realize that I have dug too deeply into my comfortzone over the years and regular jumps into cold water are required to spark the passion for life. Thank you for sharing this moment with us.

[@gentlemanx7987]

Right the first 10 seconds. Yes. I resonate. Let's be dreamers, dreaming ourselves into this reality. I send love.

[@timmellin2815]

You have grown so much and have shown great courage in opening up to your pain and hurt and then seeking help. Kudos to you ! and keep the faith !

[@thesaucemaker1319]

Glad you're fighting to change, it's hard and takes time, but as long as you don't give up, you'll grow as a person, hope you keep it up.

[@lonestar3433]

Hey IE! You're looking good and seem happy. Proud of you for becoming more independent from the parents. I understand where they're coming from. They are concerned, but you're an adult and you're at a point where you know what you want in life. You'll be ok.

[@GrimmRipper88]

Good for you! Don't let anyone manipulate or control you! Do what's best for u! Bet that experience felt amazing! You're a beautiful person! Continue doing what makes you happy! I live in NJ, but I usually travel a few times a year. :)

[@WinModel88]

Smile more!! Happy to hear you went to California. Keep doing things you enjoy. I'm also from a small town in Pennsylvania by the way. ✌️

[@kinetictheory9012]

I am happy for you that you found someone. You really do deserve having peace and happiness. Good luck on your journey.😊

[@benji4196]

Yooooo, good for you!!! I hope it feels amazing and reassuring that you followed your heart and it ended up being an amazing time.

[@realgold8290]

Glad to hear you went anyway. I've had an anxiety disorder for most of my life but like you, I wanted to see the world so I didn't let it stop me. I went to San Francisco, New York, and Pennslyvania alone in my early 20''s. Not really intentionally, a friend was supposed to join me but he broke his leg like a week before and this was only a couple of weeks after 9/11. Hence, my stress level was through the roof, but I didn't want to waste all the money I invested in the trip so I went anyway. I'm glad I did, I met several people along the way and learned that I can do hard things alone, even flying which I still to this day don't very much care for. Since then I've been to Italy, Thailand, Canada, Rio, Argentina, Bali...I'll stop there. Traveling doesn't kill your anxiety but it does make your world feel less small and I think there's a lot of value in seeing how other people live. It reminds you of how much opportunity there really is out there. Keep doing things for yourself. That's the way it should always be. The older we get the less other peoples opinions matter anyway.

[@marcanthony3676]

You just need a lovingly hug 😊

[@EstherHunt-p6d]

A year ago when my life fell apart completely I went so crazy I actually left my body. Tried to unalive myself 3 times in the same day. My sister had to come bring me back. After that I packed a suitcase and moved from Washington state to Wyoming. It's been over a year since I moved here, I got a job, I actually feel alive

[@kevin-sv4rp]

Congratulations on your channel success and your trip 🎉 keep being authentic it's rare these days high five ✋️

[@johnchamberlain8034]

I am so happy for you. I started traveling alone at about the same age you did, and I never regretted it. My parents hated it, but they never went anywhere. I did, and you will as well.

[@michaelyiannett4515]

Good for you. You even look different. Keep this attitude going, it suits you.

[@serge6038]

Your experience is so real, it’s inspiring. I wish you all the best

[@emirduratovic9954]

There you go girl! You made a really huuuuge progress....i remember your older videos.....Difference is there I'm telling you

[@timmellin2815]

Woah....you've got a sister....that's cool ! Yes. you can tell you've been hurt, but grateful that you are coming out of your major depressive disorder rut. Go go, girl !

[@jeffdowell1255]

That is awesome! I see you starting to come out of your shell. I am proud of you for this. Believe it or not I had never been on an airplane before until I flew by myself to the Philippines from Kentucky. I had no idea how to navigate an airport before that, and everyone was telling me how dangerous it would be that I am going alone and that I am going to a foreign country. I literally went to meet my fiance for the first time in person and stay a month in the Philippines, and when I was there I had the time of my life, I got married and we ended up making our first child. So now I am going to be married for 5 years this September and we have a 4 year old son. I went back last year and stayed a few more months and I make trips while we are waiting on the government to process our spousal visa. Anyhow, I was scared, shy and got very little to no sleep at all on the flights. But I got to have layovers in Japan, China, the Philippines..and I don't regret it one bit. To think I almost gave in to my fears and almost didn't get on to the airplane. Bye the way I was 36 at the time. I am glad that you found a guy and I hope that everything works out well for you. Just be safe in all that you do and GO BE HAPPY!!!!! You deserve it!

[@abugchaser6085]

Hell yeah... this is what it's all about. Everyone has their own personal set of limits, their own comfort zone. For some it's skydiving, or traveling to some exotic location without speaking their language, etc. For others it's this. Getting out there and traveling to a place you've never been, fighting against your own fears and doubts. That is living. Keep living.

[@Rusty200-f5h]

That was sweet hearted.

[@raymoreci3847]

Happy to see you're doing better. You can't please everyone, so you've got to please yourself. Your parents sound toxic, you need support. No matter how rotten the world is, choose happiness.

[@seektruth707]

Awesome! Your channel just randomly popped up in my feed. Some of the best decisions I've made in my life have been deciding to travel both nationally and internationally. I feel that culture shock could be very healthy and expansive for the mind. I did a road trip in northern California several years back and it was very much worth it. It sounds like you had a really cool experience yourself.

[@walterbelcourt7504]

Good to see❤ Total change from past video. Change is good as a rest! Now self - evaluate all the things. .you want to do, on your own Most importantly check out your Life experience, things are looking up❤ Go for it💥🎉🎉

[@goldenmoleful]

Awesome, and look how happy you look!

[@robindeans564]

what an amazing soul thank you for sharing with us

[@VladSandu]

Ahh, that spark that ignites. Always follow it! :) Oh yeah and my leap of faith was just standing in front of the camera filming. Now it's a breeze!

[@WolfWhite-kj1nr]

You go girl, good on you 👍

[@murtazaarif6507]

Well done on taking that huge leap. I am glad you enjoyed it. Nice souvenirs It reminds me of the time i used to skip school and travel on London double decker buses all day here in London, United Kingdom. I still cannot wrap my mind around how big America is. It takes two hours to get to another state in America but here in Europe you would be in another country. I suffer from Social Anxiety, Depression and Aspergers Syndrome. I never fit in school or home. So i defied society and its conventions and skipped school every day to travel all day on red double decker London buses.

[@iwantyourcookiesnow]

I went to Hawaii by myself, it was an awesome trip, good for you!

[@RIP212]

So happy for you! Continue doing what's good for you and don't give a single F about others opinions. Especially not from your inner circle. You're great!

[@eduardobritto3583]

yes i do have a leap of faith too. I tried to get in one of the hardests colleges in latin america and is funny how no one believed me LOL(with excepetion to my parents but im pretty sure they had their moments of doubt aswell). Everyone talked to me as i was some kind of lunatic, but im finally graduating on that same college in a month. It was such an adventure to get out of my mom's house to another state and start this new life in the military where i knew no one here(yeah military college). Throwing yourself in a completely new life among new people is crazy but it has such a potential to make u grow in life and have remarkable experiences. Life is amazing

[@Vic323.]

I'm happy for you it's really great that got out of your comfort zone

[@bobbysayer5801]

Damn i find that kind of trust in your intuition really inspiring, gpad that it worked out for you, really has been a great thing coming across your channel and seeing how you kmproved since the video that first got recommended to me

[@victors.6255]

Who are all these people saying it's dangerous to travel to California? Lol. Take precautions like you said, but the fear mongering is just baseless. Proud of you

[@georgetapia1010]

hell yeah, Cali is where it's at! I'm glad you have grown and changed. You seem happy and I'm glad for you 😄

[@lollekompolle]

Hey you! I feel like I always have pre-decision anxiety. I just recently made my first vacation alone. Like I had many before but they were always together with someone. A group, parents, friends. But this time I went totally on my own. I had to do everything on my own. From planning to execution. And it was for an entire month in Lisbon. I've started learning portuguese some time ago but just on duolingo so not really much of a basis anyway, as I think duolingo is nice for engaging in language learning in general but it doesn't really teach you any of the necessary stuff to lead actual conversations with people. For that you have to go where to native speakers are and talk to them. So the vacation was both for me. To go on an adventure and relax from my day to day life and also learn the language, the people and their culture of Portugal. Things go quite differently in Portugal as opposed to here in Germany. So I had to learn a lot and quick to adapt. I specifically went to stay somewhere with mostly only locals and not tourists or touristic organizations in the vicinity. I wanted to experience day to day life as the locals do. Also I have been on airplanes before but it's actually been quite some time. I think the last time was in 2004 so pretty much the first time since 20 years I went by plane into another country where I haven't been before. There wasn't anyone telling me not to do it - except for myself. And I feel like it's almost impossible to win an argument with yourself. I procrastinated on taking this vacation for months. I actually had it planned for last year but always would find a reason not to. And then at some point I just told myself I'm going to apply for educational vacation and once that is done I have to take it this year. And then just one thing followed the next. I applied for the language school, got an airbnb and then planned everything else on the go. I also had a lot to do about my tech, I had to factory reset my iPhone and set it up anew and because I had never done that before and was also switching apple IDs it wasn't as straightforward a process as it normally is so I also procrastinated on that until I was in Lisbon. Could've done that way before. But hey in the end I got everything sorted out. I even rented a car there to explore the near area on my own. And I hadn't driven a car since 2016. I did a lot of other things that I had either not done in a long time or never done before during that month. I think it was one if not the best decisions of my life. My portuguese improved by a lot. During my last week I could already confidently lead some basic day to day conversations with the locals. It gave me a lot of faith into my abilities and thus raised my feeling of self-worth by a lot. And all of a sudden the entire world looks different. Our reality really comes down to our perception. And we have a lot of influence on our own perception.

[@BeLLAoR]

Your story is so inspiring, thank you for sharing it! It takes a lot of courage to follow your heart, especially when people around you are doubting your choices. I’m so glad you took that leap of faith and had such an amazing experience. It really shows that sometimes we just need to trust ourselves and take a chance. Wishing you all the best with your journey, and I’m excited to see what else you accomplish! 💖

[@larryjmack6041]

What's up watching your videos always make me think that how can someone so beautiful feel that way about themselves

[@franciscofernandez5034]

You’re absolutely gorgeous ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@Rick-i3j9o]

Just saw your video. Glad you are taking a leap of faith, I first saw the I'm a loser video. If I may offer one small piece of advice. Not to be a downer but plz,plz be very careful when you're out an about in the clubs or anytime drinking is involved. Guys may put something in your drink. If they offer you a drink go with them and keep an eye on your glass. I don't care how nice they seem. Be very careful and take care.

[@LukeDuncan-xi3wf]

Go on girl, absolutely awesome

[@UltraMarcus28]

7 days is a pretty long trip! Good for you too meet your friend on your trip and that they were very accommodating. For the people particularly concerned with the decision to take an exciting (in country) vacation, understand that traveling is one indulgence that can expand your perspectives. Yes it’s expensive, it can potentially have some danger, but many alternative outlets to broaden yourself and seek independence can be much less healthy. I really believe anyone without any desire to travel is really limiting themselves. Don’t get me wrong, our guts and impulses can absolutely get us into trouble (it’s definitely happened to me), but this trip seemed pretty tame. Next time consider a road trip with a friend that might also want to travel to a place you might not expect to enjoy (if your car is dependable enough to not expect a breakdown). Some places I visited in the last few years were Mammoth Cave in KY, Birmingham AL, Duluth MN were all places that blew my expectations out of the water. If you bring a friend then you can split gas and hotels and also have a second mind there in case something bad DOES happen. Not sure how KZbin brought you to my feed, but it was nice to hear your story. I wish you the best and hope your friend in California makes the trip over to PA, you might be surprised how pretty he finds it (I’ve wanted to visit for a while).

[@LuKiSCraft]

There comes a point when the child knows better than their parents. Sometimes the best thing is to just outright ignore your parents' advice. Dead serious. Like you say, follow your heart

[@StanleyLuciw-kt1hw]

Congratulations! You bet BIG, and you seem to have won BIG. Bear in mind however, the risks you take are REAL. Please be careful. Our lights shine because ultimately we burn ourselves out. Let your light last a lifetime!

[@KeymoEmbryo]

That's awesome, follow your heart and stepping out of our comfort zone is always rewarding in the end

[@stringbeaner61]

You got it! we have to make it happen!!! I myself have learned that the hard way as you have. You are a true lady, and a friend so dont let yourself get ruined. You deserve the best, so accept no less.

[@donjoe2661]

Nice to hear you went to CA and had a great time meeting your boyfriend. People in general want to hold you back chasing your dreams and judge. You just have to learn not to care what others think and do what you think is best for you. Your parents aren't doing much of a favor for your self esteem and confidence. I think you would grow a lot in many ways if you look for a place of your own and be independent.

[@DanielRFox]

Is your bedroom still your favorite place? You're making that desert sound pretty rad!

[@PulseRELOADED]

Im going to travel this country one day too. Props for doing what u wanted to do.

[@cjjones999]

I’m so happy for you! May you have many wonderful trips in the future!

[@PhillipWilliams-tq5om]

You will learn a lot of people that will be in your life will have crabs in a bucket mentality. I hope your life keeps improving

[@stephengardiner5410]

I love being a solo traveller - no need to stick to any to anyone else's schedule and see the things that you want to see. You should do more solo trips closer to home first e.g. Washington and film some bits for your channel (you can always dub in your vocal track later, no need to speak in public). The important thing is doing things you want to do at your pace, don't let anyone say otherwise! New to your channel - looking forward to seeing more content and watching your channel grow 😃

[@edwardslizewski3296]

I’m 73 years old now. When I was in my early 20s, I broke free. On weekends, I would get in my car and drove to Pennsylvania to be with my girlfriend. My girlfriend lived here in New Jersey until her mother made her move to Pennsylvania. I went there every weekend to see her. But she married the other guy. But at least she was nice enough to invite me to the wedding so that I could take her wedding pictures. I didn’t go, of course. My life was shattered. But I got on the airplane and went to Africa. I went to Egypt. I went to Sub Saharan Africa. I saw France. I saw Italy. I saw Greece. I went to South America alone. If I didn’t do those things, I would still be tied to my mother‘s apron strings getting spanked at the age of 73. . Enjoy your travels.

[@OfficialXdaC]

That's what it's all about... thank you for believing in yourself!

[@allandavids8413]

I'm glad to hear and witness a considerable visible transformation since you last spoke! Just remember you have the power to set the boundaries that shouldn't be crossed concerning you! Third parties can easily detect as another person's vulnerability and loss of focus that can lead to a possible abuse of the situation? I would suggest that you speak to your parents about your relationship with your new- found boyfriend! Parents can sometimes be a nagging bunch but most times can speak wisdom into your life,if you will allow them! They rightfully take their responsibility as parents and as protector of you,serious! Be open and work with your parents so that they can advise and guide you in the situation? In hindsight I think they will appreciate it that you have put your trust in them. Whatever you do , don't let the depression recur and don't wilfully invite it to control your life again! Your boyfriend I assume knows everything about you but do you know everything about him?

[@raunoremmel7430]

When you are an adult and parents are telling you what you can do and cannot - thats just toxic. Of course, to a degree ... people can put boundaries, but that really feels likes "life intruding" ... never listen such stuff - Ignore and do what makes you happy. Also, if we never fight our fears we can never grow stronger. I know you have pretty hard time struggling with socials and stuff and thats okay. But not growing is really not. Allow yourself to grow and dont listen to "stupid boundaries" that are really unhealthy - and seem a bit cultic. You are an adult. Much love fellow human!

[@robertvargas2360]

I’m happy for you seeing you smile

[@BrettDulaney-hf8yd]

Awesome i used to live in pa, Waynesburg PA,i wish i never left i live in west Virginia now,your beautiful and have q great future,i know how ya feel my parents are like that to

[@dominic120483]

Glad you enjoyed your trip .. hope you can go travel again soon

[@John-Jay-Allen]

You need to come to SE Rural Desert; I live in an Oasis surrounded by Desert, I’ll pay for the travel! You won’t be disappointed.

[@brianbee]

Solo travel is awesome. At the end of the day, the place you are travelling to is likely not anymore dangerous than where you live. There is a youtube channel I follow, Alina Mcleod , that I follow. She has been travelling the world solo for quite awhile now. I'm happy for you that you took this leap of faith.

[@dawidkotlinski]

Sorry that your parents are like this, but it makes me realize how lucky I am with how supportive my parents are, wven though I am in a similiar situation with my life you (used to be?) in, so at least there's that for me. I can't imagine how much more humiliating my life would be if I had mocking parents.

[@DanielRFox]

My first big trip, and first time on a plane, was also to California. It felt so surreal flying from the Midwest to the West coast in about four or five hours. It takes that long to drive across Pennsylvania, so traveling to the other side of the country in the same amount of time was wild. Since then I've also flown to the Netherlands, which was just as surreal.

[@nateabruzzese7433]

Im jealous and proud hopefully ill get where youre at in life. I feel tired of my situation but im more comfortable with it. I honestly dont like going out my comfort zone. So i do what im comfortable with. Depressed or not. Id rather be comfortable and safe then... freaking out getting anxious and stressed you know.

[@andyr.5769]

That's a wonderful step that you took. I saw your previous video of you claiming to be a "Loser" which I disagreed that your not a loser. No one is a loser. You have proven that you're not and Congratulations for your bravery by stepping out of the shadows of perpetual self imprisonment. I could sense the exhilaration of your decision. It was the probably scary to get out of your usual comfort zone at first. That's all that I'll say for now. I don't wish to hog-up the comments section and it's very late. I'll check on your other KZbin vids postings later. Congratulations again.

[@mcentepede]

She has a mental disorder. She told on herself in other video. She was grossed out kissing a dude. She is kinda cute tho, looks like an ex girlfriend of mine.

[@BrandonJames-u2g]

I am so glad that you had such a great vacation way to go!

[@Druid896]

This is excellent progress, and proves to yourself and everyone else that you can do it! and you are awesome!

[@williamfwilcox3868]

May God be with you all the way and God bless you and your boyfriend stay healthy and strong 🙏❤️

[@johnevans6325]

Forgive me. I am at present going through a series of crises with accompanying panic attacks; these for the first time ever. Your manner and voice seem to have calming influences. You may be aware of too much time spent on your channel but I trust you may understand. Good luck with California.

[@clipkut4979]

My best decision was to solo travel around SE Asia, Japan, Australia for 1-2 years when I was in my mid twenties. Loads of great memories, and a lot of personal growth and perspective. My second best decision was to become self-employed working remotely. Hard at first, but so much easier on the mind and the body compared to a traditional job.

So happy to hear this! THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT YOU NEEDED TO DO!! FUCK YOUR PARENTS! You should be living for yourself, not your parents. You should be doing what's best for you, screw everybody else. Your trip sounds FANTASTIC!! Sounds like you got a lot of the major "California" things out of the way! Especially Disneyland, that is a MUST. It's so great to hear you have a boyfriend! I put a comment on your "virgin" video that an online relationship is totally fine, you just need to be able to meet them in person. Which you DID!! Great job! Screw your parents! Listen to your heart, which told you "it's ok to meet this guy. you're gonna be fine", and you were! He bought you a fucking promise ring AND GAVE IT TO YOU ON TOP OF A FERRIS WHEEL!!! I wish I got to do something like that with my wife... He sounds like a really great guy, so don't worry about anything. Don't think it's silly to disconnect from friends or family. I've had to disconnect from several close friends, and I haven't talked to my brother in 6 years. My brother is responsible for most of my abuse, and I have absolutely NO interest in repairing the relationship. My wife has hounded me to make amends, and I just tell her "MAKE AMENDS?!?! Why the fuck should I be making amends? He's the one who abused ME"... I kept my wife secret from my family for 3 years. I had the same problem where my family would tear down anything good in my life, and I didn't want them to ruin this relationship. So they didn't get to meet her until I knew no matter what they said, she loved me enough to not leave me. I know it probably doesn't mean much coming from a random KZbin comment... But I'm SOOOO PROUD OF YOU!! This was a big first step! Now get out there and take another!

[@KotleKettle]

I'm really glad you managed to travel and do what you wanted to do. And I'm glad everything went relatively smoothly and safely. It's also a good thing you could tell your sister about it, at least, so if anything happened to you, at least she would've known. It could've been worse and you had to go there all alone without anyone knowing it. Still, it'd still worth it. You can't always hide from the outside world. In Russia, we have a proverb: "fearing wolves means not going into the forest". And another one: "the one who doesn't risk doesn't drink champagne"😅

[@edificationparty902]

Stay bold and keep following your heart. Good for you.

[@YHWHELOHIYM]

Glad you doing better.

[@bchant19]

I think you definitely did the right thing hopefully everything works out well for you going forward. My mini leap of faith was going to do an enduro riding day on my own. It was a group event put on by Honda and it was excellent.I met lots of really nice people and really enjoyed my time. It was only one day but it was amazing fun. I definitely have more confidence since doing that even till this day many years later.

[@billpimentel-vm6cu]

It’s ok to be from a religious family, it’s ok to have anxiety although it sucks, I’ve had it too, and it’s definitely ok to explore new places and experience new adventures. Just use common sense and be as safe as you can be without dwelling on that alone. Enjoy your life girl, your a beautiful young woman and most important HAVE FUN OFTEN.

[@stormcld]

Yes left my hometown for a job and a new town my leap of faith

[@RichardWilson-qh8eu]

You are writing a beautiful love story that reminds us of our own❤

[@iexist7408]

@@RichardWilson-qh8eu please share it, if you can! I’d love to know