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About my videos: These videos are a resource for anyone wishing to wake up from the dream of separation. Awakening, enlightenment, and liberation are becoming far more mainstream possibilities than they once were. There are many good teachers out there, and if you resonate with the teachings of Eckhart Tolle, Rupert Spira, or Sadhguru, you might find resources here that address these deeper promptings to investigate your true nature.
Disclaimer: The information presented in these videos is not meant to diagnose or treat any psychiatric or medical illness. The inquiries presented herein are potent and can have powerful effects on the way you experience yourself and reality. If you feel you are at risk of harming yourself or others, these videos and practices may not be the best thing for you at the moment. Seek help wherever necessary which might include a hospital emergency department, a suicide helpline etc.

[@CakeZism]

Why do I want to wake up? - Nothing else has worked for me. This is the only thing that truly captivates me. The only thing that makes my heart burn with passion, the only thing that feels REAL. The only thing that makes life feel worth living.

[@sherrilawrence662]

Me too❤and I don't know why...

[@dirkkievits4669]

A few questions i never heard you talk about: is the need for sex completly driven by ego and is the feeling of falling in love after awakening the same as befor awakening?

[@rafreitas]

I want it mainly because I’m tired of how external circumstances seem to dictate how I’m going to feel. I want equanimity.

[@Marphale]

Why do I want to wake up… - it has to be better than this - I don’t want to do this anymore - life’s not actually allowing me to get on with anything else (very poor focus, low energy, etc.) - if there is still a person afterwards (which apparently there isn’t), I suppose I’d like to see things as they really are - I want to see things as they really are even if there is no person (which probably doesn’t make any sense, because there won’t be an ‘I’ and ‘things’ or whatever)

[@johnpienta4200]

@@Marphale I feel for you so much. You won't always feel like this. There is a way where you can come to be ok with what is here in your life, no matter what that circumstance is, that you can accept, right now, what has arrived in this moment. You won't always feel like this. You also really deserve goodness.

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

All good reasons :)

[@Marphale]

@@johnpienta4200 Thank you.

[@Marphale]

@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I’m glad to hear it!

[@davidr-c8s]

I too have had the same overriding desire to see things as they are, all my life, even in early childhood. I wouldn't ever settle for a conceptual reality as my final home, and at the same time I painfully saw everyone else doing exactly that. They literally make up a false reality out of concepts. I'm a failure though, of higher proportions than them because, from my earliest memories I have been given tremendous and rare spiritual experiences and insights (tremendous suffering too) and I have always ended up back being "me" living my "life". I have been shown infinity and at the same time the very origin of ........That, for which there is no name. There is Awareness, or call it Life (it doesn't matter). That awareness that we are is the Infinite, but also there is Sound (vibration), and Light, but these 3 are not separate (yet experientially they at the same time are). The Bibble got that right in Genesis." In the beginning there was God" (awareness, life), "Light", and the "Word" (sound, vibration). From this Trinity everything originates. But understand that the "beginning" wasn't some happening in some far distant past. The beggining is, and always is now. Now, I know so much but see so little. I too don't want to try anymore. I know that trying is a result of believing in a false concept of an imagined future where I am enlightened, and also falsely believing that what is happening right now is wrong and should be some other way. I'm in a hamster wheel. The things that used to have tremendous value and meaning in my life are now almost meaningless. I don't dislike them, I just don't gravitate toward them anymore. Instead I am caught in some sort of spiritual gravity that I am trying to trust enough to let go and I am not good at it. Sorry. I didn't intend for all that to come out. It is just that the way you expressed yourself resonated deeply with me. I hope the sun rises for you, within you.

[@charliebauer6603]

You guys understand this intellectually? That’s a step up from me. I just keep coming back to “I don’t know”. How do I wake up? “I don’t know.” What is awakening experientially? “I don’t know”. What is the best practice if any? “I don’t know”. Is my experience right or wrong? “I don’t know.” Where am I on the path? “I don’t know”. How long are these crazy emotions I have everyday going to last? “I don’t know” The reason for the inclination toward awakening for me is simple. Suffering.

[@Jack_Parsons-666]

Yes! My motivation is truth, but not to know the truth intellectually. Rather, my motivation is to "BE" the truth, to BE in that flow state where the ego merges with the ocean, where the self no longer feels like the "doer" but instead feels like what is being "done"

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Awesome

[@ved7490]

Sitting in the car as we are driving asking "what is it that knows this experience?" & a truck with the number plate "ME" comes into my vision 😮

[@youarewhatyourelookingfor4496]

Ha! Love those moments. “Synchronicity is an ever present reality for those with eyes to see and ears to hear” Carl Jung (Not verbatim but close)

[@geovaniraffaelli4508]

@@youarewhatyourelookingfor4496 Once or twice in my life I'd be thinking of a super random topic and someone in another conversation would bring it up. Real wtf moments

[@alfreddifeo9642]

Sound like this me needed to hear this video. Excited to unbind this false me. Will try practicing one pointed approach. Recently heard you talk about this approach and the book that did it for you in another video. Been at this along 14 years listening to videos trying to get what can not begotten. Just want to know and be the Truth, that I am already. That, That I am before the words, That no one

[@MelFinehout]

Angelo, I have heard you say before that maybe you have to take care of some practical things before awakening (for some) and again here you mentioned it. I feel a bit torn at times. I have a LOT to straighten out in my practical day to day life. And a lot of people will benefit from this. Sometimes I think “just keep practicing and put your life together. You’ll awaken, it will happen eventually” Other times I think that’s just me attempting to bypass. Any advice on how to make this distinction? Or, is it okay to just not know?

[@snakedogman]

Am also a bit puzzled by this. It sounds like it's suggesting we need to have "our lives in order" (whatever that means) before we can awaken, but then many people report awakening in the midst of life crises and chaos. I'm sure there must be more to it.

[@gergelyszekely9778]

It started as curiousity in my childhood: what is this world? what are we doing here? what is the point? Then came some kind of understanding a couple of years ago. Then came the realization that I'm suffering. Suffering seems to be intensifying in the recent years. There seems to be no conventional way out of this, I cannot think of anything that would bring satisfaction and/or peace. Then came dozens of glimpses, some felt very profound. All those said: there are lots of things to explore on this other side. And it's safe, welcoming and beautiful. I think I'm starting to understand or rather feel what let go means. But I still feel I don't dare to do that. Although I really want to, because I don't want to suffer even more before I'm able to finally let go.

[@Durga695]

Conceptually a lot of "Awakening" has landed. Have to start somewhere, or perhaps some folks just awake 💥. Seems like dropping into the gap before having a thought and just experience whatever arises, no thought just experience, just the sensory perception of what is arising. All good things in good time....💯

[@jdubluffy1959]

Honestly it’s really simple why I want this for two reasons I do believe I genuinely am curious and I don’t want to suffer when I’m simply sitting and doing nothing. Just being with me is a form of suffering

[@Narsufin]

I want to leap into the unknown because the known feels like I'm already dead.

[@MauricioCoghi]

I think this is my case. Thank you very much for your recommendations.

[@zerkton2648]

Ugh 😑 I spaced Doom Barrel ND yesterday. Bogus.

[@jeanemily218]

The thumbnail image for this video feels so evocative. I spontaneously experienced *this*. Felt like I was being torn apart in a formless void. I fought it. Now I find myself wanting to jump in 😂. I feel stuck as this commenter and also a part of me underneath trusts it’s there.

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

I thought it was great as well.

[@te7607]

Yesss, this is the story of John the Baptist!! His beheading is metaphorical for leaving the thought realm, and going to the banquet!! It’s a transition from head living to heart living. Rolling back the stone of the “tomb” is opening the heart fully and rising to a new life.

[@georgesonm1774]

wow

[@ronmcfarlan3159]

Thanks for pointing me to your “one pointed” videos (see what I did there?). I had to laugh, at another which popped up about “winning” with one pointedness, more “manifestation” hoo ha. Talk about missing the point!😅

[@aaronshowers1613]

What playlist are the one pointed approach under? Thank you ❤️

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Approaches to awakening

[@Giatros89]

I am like this and I'm sensing the smarter the thoughts think they are the simpler the approach needs to be. My brain loves complexity and yet self inquiry has been very helpful

[@Zoeticlicense1976]

I want freedom from suffering. Everything I try to focus on as a separate someone bring more suffering. I have glimpsed my true nature, sustained my focus there even for some days, weeks even and then lost it. I want to anchor in the spacious awareness that I know it already here.

[@macaroon147]

For me I feel like my social awkwardness and fear which comes up in social settings and my inability to be myself infront of others is quite relevant. I'm not sure if thats what you're referring to when you refer to what I want to get out of this? I suppose I want freedom from that? Just to live life with out the weight of myself. Does this mean I am not actually interested in truth? As my reason for wanting this is in a sense an upgraded self?

[@selfhealers-eo2dk]

Is one pointed approach like mu better than self inquiry for enlightenment for those who intellectualize too much?

[@iamithink]

Something I’ve been working with is the phrase “no self consciousness” as a reminder that there’s nothing to reference this to.

[@iamithink]

Learning about no self only made my suffering worse. Working with “no self consciousness” directs attention back to what is in this without the need to refer back to the apparent self consciousness. Also in Frank Yang’s recent video about karma and reincarnation he made it clear that all that really needs done is to observe, release, and relax. This simple instruction has been very helpful

[@Tom-gp6oy]

Thank you, this was the perfect video for me

[@alfreddifeo9642]

me too

[@darbydelane4588]

Thank you for responding to this question!

[@나우나우-c4q]

What do you think about U.G?

[@Mats_1]

Can you elaborate a bit more about this "unknown" thing, is it a state ? Maybe with some examples, if you have any. Thanks a lot ❤

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

I made a follow up video to answer this ?

[@Mats_1]

@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I found the video. Thanks❤

[@makaniistorm8664]

I feel like if we start conceptualising it, it won’t help you much

[@tyronewilliams7556]

Yeah I think I have a similar flavor of doubt maybe. I can feel/see that separate "self" swimming around in something. (Me maybe? Idk) It is constantly "reaching" towards "objects." And it has a general sense of disquiet and contraction. I can't place where but it seems like everywhere. It's so damn painful and Idk why, what, or how. But I keep finding "myself" there constantly, no matter how much I want to let go. Gonna go check out the one-pointed playlist now 👍

[@purplooney1332]

Can one pointed approach be useful several years after initial awakening? It’s kind of the situation where you can’t compare the “experiences” back to back because it was a long time ago, and you feel concerned not to get on some rails that are not suitable for you and keep running laps when it’s not your race anymore, so to speak. P. S. Also, I’m kind of being drawn to sensations when I’m being one pointed, should I be full as this one sound as all there is (that’s a semi-failed attempt to put this kind of “universe exhausts itself into one sound” type of phrase) or should I make some distance, as it sometimes seems, to “do” “mu”? In other words, can I be one pointed with sensations with no remorse?

[@inesbudihaci5819]

Can put it like this:unconditional curiosity and love for truth which consumes you,that's lucky really,arises unsolicited. Not that lucky,and i ve witnesed it to a dear one pushing it for some improvements in life conditions and the shadows which creeps in can be excruciating,when not ready,wouldnt ever ever recommend to anyone. Mature,unconditional,to be felt that you love it more then life itself.

[@motorhead48067]

Can you make a video on the difference between a view and a belief and how you might investigate them differently? I’m not sure what exactly you mean when you talk about views.

[@Catherine-qy8xj]

Omg ta! ❤

[@Big_Tough_Guy]

Question... I hear God absolutely everywhere, even in random conversations between strangers. Does this make me delusional, or does this make those strangers basically not real, or conduits for stronger consciousnesses? I want to wake up because I have tasted how unreal this is...

[@jericosha2842]

Can you describe the experience of hearing God?

[@Big_Tough_Guy]

@@jericosha2842 I think I'm just talking about synchronicities. A second perspective where things have personal meaning. I might be being psychologically tortured in some mind control program. I can also see people in my minds eye. Angels, watchers... etc. This is getting ridiculous... They told me I was schizo 12 years ago. It's so laughably real... Which makes me question how many of you are...

[@jericosha2842]

@@Big_Tough_Guy Thanks for sharing--I appreciate it. You probably feel very alone at times, if not all the time. Non-duality and deep thinkers open to reason should not reject you. I cannot discount your experiences: after all experience is the only real truth we can perceive. I hope you can find some balance and peace in the chaos. Have you tried doing meditation to seek Truth/God/Brahman?

[@Big_Tough_Guy]

@@jericosha2842 I may not know exactly what is going on, but I can utterly guarantee there's something valid about this. The people around me are on strings it seems like. Either agents of the matrix or conduits of more powerful consciousnesses. I haven't started meditating yet... Thanks for the suggestion, and thanks for not calling me crazy. This is hilarious...

[@jericosha2842]

@@Big_Tough_Guy Seems like you have some intuitive sense of non-duality (such as Ancient Hinduism of Advaita Vedanta or the philosophy of Analytical Idealism), which is the understanding that consciousness is fundamental (not matter) and the universe is an image or idea of the Universal Mind. I have heard Swami's of Hinduism use similar language to you by calling it "hilarious."

[@ChrisRWise]

Thank you

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Welcome!

[@youarewhatyourelookingfor4496]

Man, this is me. Intellectualize everything, Identified with mind, constantly. What do I want? Freedom from suffering. “I’m already free” mind says. “I’m awareness” it says. Doesn’t feel free. To know what it’s like to actually feel loved by those who say they love me, and maybe “god” if there is that whatever that is. Freedom from fear, separateness, loneliness, isolation. (I did see once a few years ago there is only 1 of us actually here,it was hysterical until the mind grabbed it a few days later. Maybe it was delusional) An end to the thousands of hours I’ve spent listening to videos, seeking, reading, seeking. Just an end in general. You’re right Angelo, whatever this is, it “so damn painful” and absolutely unfulfilling. I was over it 45 years ago at 9 years old. It’s only gotten bigger. 🤮 Meh, sigh, ugh and so on.

[@nat998]

Dear You are what you’re looking for, you’re so relatable and all you want is what everyone wants… peace of mind, a joyful life experience… contentment. Freedom from mental torment and its waves of agitation. Calm. Just an end in general. I know what you mean. It’s funny as I read you, I keep getting Leonard Cohen’s “Waiting for the Miracle” playing in my head. I was waiting… waiting for the miracle to come… Stay steady, keep going, don’t give up… day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. Light at the end 💛🙏🏻🤗

[@zerkton2648]

I’m in this guys boat 🛶. It feels to me like, I can’t let go because of the simple fact that something wants to keep playing the games. Separation, Gains and blames. And all the myriad of infinite games we can play here. Regardless of the pain they cause. Also there is my crippling fear of what to Doe before you die and what that means exactly. I’m sure I CANT KNOW exactly but my ideas are terrifying.

[@johnpienta4200]

Oh I like that. You're sure you can't know. That's good. For me it was really about trying really hard, having a bunch of peak experiences that I clung to as reminders not to give up, but then recognizing... Oh shit. It's already this, and it's always been like this. It's just awake on its own - the tipping point came with an enormous bout of death anxiety while meditating. My heart rate had doubled, and I was certain I was going to die and there was almost like a little dialogue... "Oh no, I'm going to have a cardiac arrhythmia and die, (oh wait but if that's actually happening exactly right now then there's nothing I can do to stop it, oh, ok)" "Well I guess that's it then" So yes, I think my story fulfilled the cliche of trying until you broke the tryer, giving up and letting go. But in a larger context the thing that moved me most precipitously towards that was actually learning how to relax, and cold showers. You've got it. It's right between controlling everything and nihilism. When the struggle is really bad and you don't know if you can keep going, remember you won't always feel like this.

[@zerkton2648]

@@johnpienta4200 💕💝💕 I’m definitely getting more comfy with the realization I can’t possibly know. It’s like trying to imagine what a new sense would be like if humans were gifted one. Impossible until you experience the ew sense. Thank you 🙏💕💕💕💎

[@zerkton2648]

@@johnpienta4200 that terror came for me once in meditation I stayed with it for about 30 seconds than stood up and walked around contemplating the ER… again 😑 that was over a year ago and it hasn’t visited since. Kicking myself now but I wasn’t ready and self kickage isn’t helpful 🤣 thank you for sharing your experience. Your so awesome 👏

[@johnpienta4200]

@@zerkton2648 well then. What makes you sure you're not there already? Some kind of doubt or thought or plan or vision or something? As Angelo says. Look into that, and trust your instincts.

[@johnpienta4200]

@@zerkton2648 also, I don't know how to word this well but this video is totally on point, however there's like a flip side version of the "one pointed approach" where you come to recognize this through a kind of alert relaxation. Maybe an analogy would be good here: if you're trying to see a basketball in a really dim room you can focus very very hard on the point and kinda Lazer beam attention until all you got is the basketball. But alternatively you can kinda remain alert and aware but relax into the darkness completely until you're so diffuse that the basketball becomes obvious by contrast. It's weirdly the opposite technique but the same result but also the same technique from the flip side?