i went viral on Twitter and lost my mind

[@lauren9487]

Drew: "I know therapists watch my videos you nasty perverts" Me, a therapist: 👁👄👁

[@caitstenz]

I enjoy listening to someone be authentically themselves, so if that makes me a therapist pervert then 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@kayla.1947]

Drew: "You need to watch it, Kayla" Me, a Kayla: 👁👄👁

[@stephaniepapaleo521]

@@kayla.1947 yes, Kayla you need to watch it

[@joyfulcookiegaming]

Thats funniest lmao

[@DocMalk]

I scrolled and read this comment as he said it. It was all really weird.

[@ashbylaws1445]

My bedroom always gets like... unhealthily messy because of depression and I get ashamed and ignore it. Whenever you post these long rambly videos, I let it play and listen to you while I clean, and usually get everything done (or close to) by the end of the video. It’s a nice way for me to focus on both you and picking things up bc I have ADHD and it’s tough to just sit through a video or just pick up my room without having to focus on something. So thank you :)

[@devenalexis]

literally doing this right now!!!

[@meggyme1998]

Doing this right now haha took a break to read the comments

[@spacecowboyeddie6803]

Wow, i wish I could listen to something and clean my room at the same time. Tidying for me takes SO MUCH energy and I get distracted so easily, and the whole process takes three times as long as it should : (

[@Canyon_Lark]

Doing this right now too! I’m very jealous u could get it all done in the span of this video lol that’s unfathomable to me

[@alie_smith]

Oh my gosh I literally do the exact same thing

[@emmalouise5595]

Talking so candidly about your mental health struggles is so soothing to me, you must make many feel less alone. Always watch your uploads I’m glad you don’t want to hide this time

[@drewmonson2]

I’m glad it’s soothing bc I get worried it’ll just be nasty like a moldy food!I edited this comment because I spelled moldy wrong dont make fun of me

[@janaylee5738]

@@drewmonson2 love you drew

[@JugheadJones825]

Yea, these are some of the best mental health videos out there. It's like plucking the thoughts from my head and hugging them. Hugs for my thoughts.

[@eb5x_789]

@@drewmonson2 I prefer the british MOULDY

[@MsTrsForensicsInvestig8r]

Same I need this

[@carlaizaguirre9984]

I’m not lying when I say that watching Drew truly feels like home. Very relaxing and safe

[@dgtlbby]

As a future therapist who reads a lot about cyberpsychology or digital psychology, I love Drew's analysis of the internet. So insightful and something not so many people really stop to think about.

[@splash2849]

his level of awareness is rlly high but i feel like it causes some of his anxiety

[@nadiakeaton5680]

omg ooh didnt know there was a term

[@RebeccaGomezToronto]

"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society." -Jiddu Krishnamurti .... Drew, you are more "normal" than you think, if you know what I mean. It's tough these days, love these videos!

[@drewmonson2]

I disagree I’m crazy as hell! Jk thanks for being kind BecGom

[@RebeccaGomezToronto]

@@drewmonson2 same here lmao! Also you just made my day I can’t believe I just got abbreved by thee Drew Monson 😍

[@kristas.358]

I love this quote! I know it from an Andrea Gibson poem. Never knew who originally said it until now!

[@terryh.9238]

damn that's a good quote

[@fatbootycj5338]

@@RebeccaGomezToronto so happy for u becgom

[@Lma832]

Honest question, have you ever considered showing a therapist or psychiatrist one of your videos like this? You describe your experiences so well

[@Heidi-xm6li]

A medical professional would create all kind of extra labels after watching these

[@robertwrightfonseca]

@@Heidi-xm6li Maybe that would help

[@Heidi-xm6li]

@@robertwrightfonseca I disagree but I respect your opinion

[@DanielleStarry]

@@Heidi-xm6li medical professionals typically don’t make up labels, that’s what the disorder fakers of tiktok do.

[@handIedeez]

@Heidi Everything he’s describing has a label already

[@atcatt]

I never comment on KZbin videos because I have this fear of seeming dumb or having some heightened sense of self importance, but I’ve been wanting to say something on one of these videos for a while so I’ll do it :) I’ve been watching almost all of your second channel videos all the way through while I do my little hobbies and stuff so that I can hear someone else talking and I don’t feel so isolated. I can’t describe how much your words have comforted me. It almost feels like you know exactly what’s going on in my mind and how to address it. I was just talking to my mom yesterday about how hard it is not to compare myself to others when I never see anyone whose in as dark as a place as I am. I feel like when I tell people I’m having a hard time they don’t understand just the weight of it, or that they would be shocked and appalled if they did. But at the same time, I feel like I understand why I never see anyone talking about this feeling because I also feel scared and ashamed and unsure of how to word it. I never talk about it because I never see anyone else talk about it and that in turn makes other people not want to talk about it. I guess what I’m trying to say is; even if you feel like a broken record, or like what you’re saying doesn’t make any sense, the fact that you’re saying anything is something to be proud of. Like I said, I’m usually too anxious to comment on other peoples videos, but hearing you express exactly what I’m feeling week after week made me feel comfortable enough to write this. Even if you don’t see this, I wanted to say thank you for being there for me (not really but kind of) when it feels like no one else could ever be. :)

[@theelusiverainbow]

Hi! I hope things get better for you. I understand.

[@drewmonson2]

I think think was a good comment I’m glad you wrote it! I get it though. Every day I feel too nervous or irrelevant to reply to text messages and those are literally content catered specifically to me! Much ❤️

[@lightning_liz]

could not have written this better myself, totally agree with you my friend :)

[@cierraking7953]

Put what I’ve been feeling into words thank u

[@aprilleerose]

Never be afraid to speak your mind! Your thoughts and feelings are valuable!

[@jasrsimmons]

I feel like you’ve mentioned a diagnosis of OCD before but if you haven’t- those intrusive health concerns, mania-like impulses, and high levels of anxiety seem to be sympathetic with OCD. I love your stream of consciousness talking. I text the same way and it is confusing but it is cool to see how my brain thinks. I hope you can see it that way too.

[@juliannaholshue3593]

Hi Jasmine, I also have OCD and related so much to the feelings in this video. It's really cool to see someone who thinks like you and is open about it, anyways, thanks for sharing :)

[@Kittypika4]

@@juliannaholshue3593 me too!

[@bad_news_bear8102]

I wish more people would talk about “false memory ocd” and the intrusive thoughts that come along with that….Just totally sucks

[@rosechampagne2857]

It’s almost scary how perfect the timing of this upload was for me. I’m having some real spicy anxiety and on the verge of tears, and seeing a new video from Drew was like seeing an oasis in the desert. Thank you so much Drew ❤️

[@parkercarter9771]

Hey man I’m so sorry to hear you’re having a rough time right now :(( but I really hope you feel better and things start looking up for you💗

[@superhamham]

i hope you get some peace on your path,

[@drewmonson2]

thank u rose. and next time bottle some of that spicy anxiety up for me and ill put it on my beyond meatball

[@syluno]

Drew is the little cherry on top

[@curielux]

What a beautiful analogy for how seeing a new Drew video feels for you♡ I'm so glad that his content helps you, and I just wanted to say I care, and I hope you're able to find some relief from that spicy desert sand.. it can sting for sure, *holds hands up, trying to block the spicy sandstorm* That just reminded me of something- once, I did something similar for my 3 year old nephew, in the car, when the sun was blinding his eyes, and he looked up at me as I held my hands up like a weirdo bird and in pure innocence he said, "I love you, CC" lol sorry for the random story. I wish I really could hold my hands up and make that intensity any bit lesser

[@LorryHill]

Thank you so much for posting this video ❤️

[@katyaflo1806]

Who else follows both Drew and Lorry Hill LOL ... I low key would not have thought these 2 "worlds" would collide

[@ismelllikeocean]

@@katyaflo1806 honestly same.

[@kittylouvex]

lorry queen

[@katherinemitchell3142]

Wow I JUST started watching @LorryHill a few weeks ago! She's really blown my mind with just how much of beauty in the entertainment industry is manufactured, almost no one looks that good. She's honestly made me feel a lot better about my regular human face haha

[@yasscoke]

be quiet fraud

[@irenewalton]

You are one of the only youtubers who makes me laugh out loud every single time. Thank you for making these videos. I love them so much.

Irene!!!!

[@drewmonson2]

It honestly always makes me so happy when people say that so thank you for real. I love sharing my sense of humor with people who get it all over the world bc day to day life it can feel too weird lol

[@rae4460]

Omg same here!!! Literally no one can make me laugh like Drew

[@pinky1068]

@@rae4460 same me too

[@dmoney9938]

I’m one of those weird people that rarely laugh out loud.when everyone in the room is laughing at a joke I’m just smiling trying my best to fake some sort of noise that could possibly sound like a genuine laugh. But literally every video drew posts I laugh out loud more times than I can count. That’s why I’ve been watching him for literally like 10 years. He has such a specific sense of humor that I relate to so much and can’t find with any other content creator or comedian.

[@alysssas]

I know you posted this a year ago, but I can completely relate with that weird feeling of impending doom. I feel like I’m gonna die in my sleep, like I’m gonna go blind, or I’m gonna have something wrong with my brain, (which I did just get diagnosed with high blood pressure, probably bc I’m always so stressed about these non existent problems) but even going outside some days feels impossible. If it wasn’t for my job, I’d probably never leave my apartment on my own accord. Anyways, I relate and I know what you’re going through.

[@JessiFaith]

Thank you for talking about the hard things that no one else will. I struggle with Pure-O OCD, and 2021 was the worst mental health year of my life. Hearing someone else say that they get freaked out when the sky is a little off, or that they also seek reassurance asking someone to speak to make sure they can hear - you can't imagine the little bit of peace it brings me. Last year I was truly terrified that I was losing my mind, or losing my grip on reality. I would walk outside and be afraid that the world around me would suddenly disappear and I'd be lost in some black void. I've done a lot of research into it, and the way OCD effects me, and because of that I'm doing a lOt better, but theres still always that fear that I'm just one slip away from being in that place again. Your videos make me feel seen, and more importantly they make me feel human. I just hope that you too have someone or something out there that does the same for you.

[@Gabsc44]

My husband has diagnose OCD that’s much like yours. The reassurance seeking is suck a key feature that comes from not being able to trust your own thoughts. It’s hard, you are doing great.

[@sydaustin1432]

Listening to you talk so intimately really makes me feel less alone. A lot of the time I feel like I'm trapped in my own head, and like you said it can be really scary sometimes. I've never been able to verbalize these feelings, so hearing you speak so clearly about what you are feeling made me get emotional. In a good way! (I think). Kind of like a catharsis of the feelings I didn't know I was holding in. The fact that you are using your platform to share your experiences and make other people feel understood is so special

[@pinky1068]

yeas i almost cried too

[@norawardrip4167]

This video hit hard. I’ve had a couple of worst moments like that with my OCD. My first big episode in adult life was over things exactly like you described: I was so certain that I had something and was about to die, but I was so scared to go get checked out because they’d confirm that I was definitely dying. This was two whole years before being diagnosed with OCD. Hypochondria is one of the scariest things I’ve ever experienced, thinking I was going to die soon impacted every experience I had while in that time frame. I’m always scared of something triggering me to make me feel like I did in my worst moments. What theme is going to completely wreck me next and when? I’m kinda rambling but I just wanted to say that I get it. Thank you for giving me someone I relate to. I hope we both continue to improve

[@lucysteckkkkk]

At my lowest point mentally I’ve ever been, and all I have to say is these videos are so nice to have. Feels like I’m sitting down with a friend, talking about ourselves. Thank you Drew

[@theelusiverainbow]

I wish that I could help you, Lucy. I hope things get a lot better for you soon.

[@heathmlr]

I feel the same way

[@iiGORO333]

fr tho

[@NutchieProductions]

I hope you feel better soon

[@Andyyoureastar]

You will eventually swing back. That always helped me give myself patience + kindness

[@claudiaj2138]

Was nodding my head the entire video. Ocd makes a person feel so insane and no one understands. It’s a different kind of anxiety, it’s delusions, it’s disorganized thinking, it’s isolation. Love you drew❤️

[@MakaylaAguirre]

drew, coming from someone who’s also bipolar and lives in la it’s so relieving to hear someone else explain my own feelings to me, to know that i’m not alone. your videos make me feel so comforted. please don’t stop making them.

[@Rikigbaby]

I’ve been having a lot of anxiety about everything lately. I listened to this video while I sat in the shower in the fetal position. Thanks for being so vulnerable and opening up about your mental heal struggles…I think it makes us all feel more normal and less alone

[@myki8a]

ur parents water bill 📈

[@Rikigbaby]

@@myki8a not when I live on my own

[@myki8a]

@@Rikigbaby good

[@bad_news_bear8102]

I know this is an old comment but I hope you are doing better today …😊

[@FlambeGibbon]

Hey, same as the person said above. It's been a bit, but I hope you're doing better.

[@emilyelectric7]

i’ve been watching you since i was 12, and i am 27 now. i have always had a hard time relating to the people in my life in regards to my mental illness, because i’ve been mentally ill for so much of my life. since i was quite literally, a child. i have anxiety, depression, and OCD and the last two years have obviously made things a lot harder. health anxiety is more of a shared experience than we can sometimes realize. thank you for sharing how you’re feeling with us. i know it’s hard to realize and remember sometimes, but we are listening.

[@drewmonson2]

Have you ACTUALLY. That’s so wild to me! I guess I wasn’t alone! Thanks

[@Fuckmylifebitch]

@@drewmonson2 yes we listen to u Drew!

[@emilyelectric7]

@@drewmonson2 yes drew!!!!!

[@taylorjones4409]

Every video gives that feeling that you get after you’ve just had a really fulfilling conversation with someone that you will think about for days.

[@bea8985]

You're the first person to actually put into words EXACTLY how i feel, about my thoughts and losing it while being self aware, which makes it worse because is something you cant control etc. It literally brought tears to my eyes. THANK YOU for sharing this video, from the bottom of my heart. I feel less alone.

[@astoldbynickgerr]

💙💙💙💙

[@heavenlyhashbrown1]

Drew my love, there is no such thing as "normal". Let your freak flag fly. I understand the inner conflict, though. You're doing a great job checking in on yourself and speaking with friends and professionals on a regular basis. Continue to treat yourself with patience, kindness and love

[@drewmonson2]

Thank you a lot and also your username made me laugh after the sincerity and sweetness of that lol

[@cowboyjohnsontown]

Agreed!

[@singorexpire8892]

Damn! “Feel like letting my freak flag fly, and I feel like I owe it to someone.” That’s my wake up song every morning. There ya go, making me smile and all.

[@chloegrant5200]

wish I could tell drew every day that he is fine and everything is fine, the world will just keep turning no matter what happens. I relate so much to the fact that most of the time i just need someone to say everything is ok. he's so funny and has the best most genuine aura. thank you for sharing your feelings and thoughts with us drew

[@lorintuck]

Thank you so much for "verbalizing" it, coming from one of the ones who can't. I have similar mental health "challenges," but the anxiety also causes Selective Mutism. I never comment on anything, and lately I delete my social media every other week as a further form of isolation. So I will probably delete this comment, if I even get the nerve up to post it. But right now I am in absolute tears. I sometimes feel like you're speaking some of my exact thought processes, some that I have always thought I was truly alone with. When you spend a whole lifetime thinking no one will ever truly "get it," it is so relieving to find someone who finally comes close. Thank you for these videos, from the bottom of my heart. You inspire me to keep trying. Much love. 💛

[@dustydew]

I was in this position today. Thank you and drew both for helping me feel less alone in this world. Much love and be safe out there ❤

[@dustydew]

I also hope you're doing well these days

[@estellaco7116]

Drew, ive watched you for years. I’m laughed at happy jokes, mourned the time you took offline, and now relate and love the modern day you and the videos you post. You are a human above any label like you tuber, influencer, comedian- all of it. And we, (your fans) most relate to you most in that form and love you for providing it. You remind us it’s okay to feel the things we do, and we in return will support you for it and thank you for it. Thank you.

[@wendykama1155]

I love this. Best talk in a while. Don't ever stop sharing this kind of stuff. It really soothes my ill brain. I'm not alone. If you happen to see this, thank you. Love you x

[@clobbybeeb0]

Drew, you make me feel so seen and less alien. Thank you so much for talking so openly about your thoughts and anxieties and everything, I love listening to your stream of consciousness.

[@JordyHaynes13]

drew, it’s like you’re in my fcking brain. i feel the SAME way. I was misdiagnosed with bipolar 2 years ago but now am starting to feel better since i’ve been on adhd meds and zoloft…i finally started feeling better and thought i was “feelin great” and started weening off my depression meds and i had a mental breakdown last week lol… super shitty. silly ol me thinking i could be happy without zoloft haha. you really help me get through these feelings though. anxiety and depression leave me feeling like i cant go to work or if i go i think everyone hates me and find it hard to make eye contact with literally anyone. but yeah i go through the hypochondriac stuff BIG time and then will avoid doctors appointment after making them because im so scared im gonna die lol

[@Olive234]

I don't ever comment out of fear of 'being seen' but I felt compelled to say thank you for talking so open and honesty. All of this is so much of what I've been feeling lately and have a hard time verbalizing. I especially relate to wanting to actually go wild since my internal world feels so wild. You aren't alone and thank you for helping me also feel less alone

[@clusterhvg]

i completely understand the whole “being aware that ur losing it” and feeling strange thing!! i experience it often and it’s exhausting .. i really appreciate how honest and open u are about ur mental health, it makes a lot of people feel less alone 💕

[@dannerzlyfe]

Drew-- I am only halfway through and relate to this on a scary level. Scary, because although I think a lot of people can relate to depression, anxiety, mania, etc, the topics and fixations are pretty much the same...I have always struggled with anxiety and depression, often times fueled by hypochondria (which is maybe more of a fear of transience than being sick if I really think about it), but what's crazier, is I used to watch your videos wayyyyyyyyyyyyy back when we were both kids and you would make songs and skits at your house and we actually used to talk every once in a while. I have an old video on my page of me singing a song you made up on your channel. I didn't expect that 10 years later, I would be watching your content about "losing your mind" and relate so hard. Although I hate the internet for feeding into my hypochondria, I am glad it is the vessel that allowed me to find you. I don't really know what my point in saying all of this is. I don't want to say "it get's better", because if I said that, I'd have to believe it for myself too. I also don't want to say "you aren't alone" because whenever I hear that from other people it really doesn't ease my problems, I'm just like "ok but my issues are different and scarier and worse and will never get better". etc. etc. I guess I am mostly here to say hi again 10 years later and that I am #loyal and watched you 14 years ago and will keep watching you for as long as you make content and will probably relate to it all and I know you fear that people won't care about your content, but I will my dude and I am the only one that matters. Jk that was my one narcissistic thing I am allowing myself to say even though its a joke and not even serious.

[@nikotine-stain]

Drew, it means so much to hear you talk so openly about your struggles, and about your headspace. Every ounce of my being is avoiding doing exactly that - being honest and admitting things to anyone. I even hide it from myself, and it's affecting my physical health, its affecting everything. Listening to you say these things makes me feel a little bit closer to letting myself feel these things.

[@bellammmm08]

I can completely relate to being scared of being out in the world. I tried to push myself out into the world again recently, I ended up crying in the bathroom and throwing up from anxiety, - on my first and only visit to my workplace office. Not only was I an anxious mess the whole time, I also felt incredibly stupid and guilty for “wasting” a good opportunity to get to know my colleagues. They arranged a meal and I had to say I couldn’t go, because every-time I ate I felt nauseous. Thank you for talking about this, it helps to not feel alone

[@TeaTimePodcastwHaY]

you’re my fav person on earth i listen to these videos every night

[@marisacarpenter6731]

Hearing you talk about such personal feelings that are so similar to how so many of us feel is so comforting. We have our own little nook in this corner of the internet and it's really cool. Love you forever thank you for making this channel and continuing to be unfiltered 💘

[@sophiemanville7979]

18:51 “you gotta flirt with yourself if you want to self love” love that, so true drew

[@melissahughes8684]

Drew! I literally never comment on youtube videos but I relate to your health struggles so much. You mentioned you're afraid you have an undiagnosed illness and you're a ticking time bomb and that is literally exactly how I have been feeling almost my whole life. I've tried to talk to friends about this and they really don't seem to understand. It honestly makes me feel so much better to know that someone out there is feeling similiarly.

[@themagicfairy99]

Thank you for talking about your mental health struggles it’s so comforting to have you explain what I feel so often the unsettling feeling of not feeling okay or normal but not knowing what’s wrong or how to fix it and not even wanting to

[@BananaMuffins992]

the level that I relate to Drew at this point is so scary. Drew literally says all my inner thoughts that I feel are so individual and specific to my life but some how he manages to think exactly what I'm thinking. I also have the same experience with being half diagnosed with bipolar disorder lol I take medication for it but it's just like a just in case situation which is crazy considering I have something changing my literal brain.

[@onedirectionbaby7]

i can’t describe how cathartic watching this video is for me right now. before clicking onto this i was crying over how messed up i feel (especially with the watching yourself lose it thing) and over how just generally alone i feel. both in mental health struggles and in life. you voiced so many things that made me feel less alone in all of this. i hope both of us find peace✨ ps. i’ve been watching you for YEARS and i especially love these videos.

[@leeshOxox]

Hearing you describe how you feel is literally like you’re describing me. I suffer with bad depression and anxiety. I constantly live in fear that I’m gonna have a massive stroke or something. Living like this is tiring.

[@halffirewolf]

I am violently hungover and work in an hour and u are curing me

[@nezuxi]

you're the only person who makes me feel less alone on the internet (in general really) for what it's worth drew, thank you for always sharing your thoughts and experiences, there are people who /get/ them believe me and they matter more than you think

[@juliannaholshue3593]

Drew, this video hit me really hard, so much so I had to pause, make food, and come back because I felt myself getting anxious because I have felt the same way so many times. I feel so proud of you for being so honest to yourself, it's a really hard thing to do. I also have instincts to detach from society and "go wild," and it's scary, and hearing you explain your feelings makes me feel less alone, so seriously, thank you! You are my favorite creator and I'm excited to see the jpegs of your merch!

[@madisonlandrum8757]

Drew I’m so glad you realized that hiding doesn’t help, and you talking about your issues like this helps me and I’m sure other people too. I’m really happy and proud of you.

[@siouiouioui]

I completely get you. Sometimes I'd almost get so frustrated by people who talk about their anxiety but they have functioning lives regardless. It's not something that's healthy and I don't agree that I should feel that way. I think it comes from people only being understanding to a point. Like they get not wanting to be around people sometimes but they don't get the anxiety that keeps you up all night, that makes you lose your job because u can't sleep or leave ur house. I realise that I'm not frustrated w the people w functioning anxiety im frustrated w my anxiety being so debilitating and the people who say I'm lazy for not having a job. I've been stuck in this deep anxiety ridden state for two years now. You're right people don't talk about it but it's not just bc they can't it's also bc people don't want to hear it. I don't find anyone relatable bc they're past the worst parts when they talk about it.That's why this video means so much to me, you're someone I can finally relate to.

[@MoreKy]

I am so happy and proud that you didn’t run and hide. I appreciate you talking openly and I relate to so much of what you’re going through an how you’re feeling. Thank you so much for making these videos. They help me and A LOT of others.

[@drewmonson2]

Hi everybody watching my video or just reading my comments and listening to it like a podcast I just wanted to say that around 19:03 I really get into it like I’m slightly nervous slightly excited slightly kinda forget what I even said but remember it was honest so anyway just saying that. I still feel really grateful to be able to make this videos just talking and have you watch them even if it's just for 2 minutes and then you go "hey what else is there" because I don't even think that's personal anymore I would probably do it with a video of like a video of CNN announcing what time aliens are gonna kill me. does that makes sense? do you like oatmeal? would aliens even be anything close to a human or just some type of thing we can't even understand, like some type of dust or even a thought? these are all important questions! I kind of want to see Spiderman (the new one) but I know it's dangerous but it's been out for a while now. I heard Andrew Garfield is in it and he's in one of my favorite movies of all time. if u can guess what it is Ill send it to u on blu ray. jk I don't think I will do that. I don't even think I will liek the Spiderman movie. Spiderman review is dropping never.

[@catcradler]

I do like oatmeal! Never tried savory oatmeal tho. What's your favorite oatmeal recipe?

[@a.d.3278]

I can't eat oatmeal, it's one of the only foods my tongue is like "ew, no"

[@howdoyouwhisk]

im sorry i dont like oatmeal, hope thats okay

[@hehe-wm4bc]

ya wby

[@mackenzie1845]

i dont like oatmeal also are u talking ab The Social Network

[@caitlinmilligan9587]

I’m so thankful you’re feeling more comfortable talking to the camera when you’re going through some low points im so proud of you buddy

[@applesneeze18]

I am so grateful for your toe and #2 channel. Can’t tell you how many times in this I said “oh ma gash yesssss” out loud lol. Thank you for being who you are. You make me and so many people laugh and also it’s very nice to hear thought processes, behaviors, and experiences that make us feel not so alone. :) I think you have a special purpose here.

[@EmmaAus]

I'm really glad you shared that last 30mins Drew... As one of the few whose not on social media (except youtube) primarily because of a fear of being 'seen' etc, I completely get it... "Not feeling fit for the world" & putting yourself into extreme isolation as a result, hit really close to home... As far as your feelings that came up after the dr said what they did... You poor thing, I get that too... You don't want to feel like a burden (but obviously can't really help that your brain works differently)... so it sort of feels like choosing between that horrible feeling of being a burden... or instead just isolate yourself to avoid that feeling... Not sure if this will get read, but I just wanted to say thank you for sharing this last half.... It really hit close to home ❤

[@MrWafflez031]

Drew is really good at describing how he feels and I find myself relating in that I feel the same way but i’ve never been able to verbalize it in depth the way he does

[@plasticflamingo1435]

okay but the text from the landlord lady?? so passive aggressive LOL on a side note, Ive found that playing video games helps get me out of my own head, because I start focusing on the imaginary world and its imaginary problems. Also I would pay actual money to watch you torture sims or play among us or something 💀

[@fearache]

DRINKING A MARGARITA... SPENDING AN HOUR WITH GOOD OL DREW... PURE BLISS

[@ErinCaliforniaa]

Drew this was so relatable and pulled on my heart strings. This stuff is very hard to talk about. Your content is brave and raw... people who get it get it.

[@emmelyrodriguez3126]

Drew, you are more relatable then you think. You being so honest literally helps me understand or at least feel like I’m not alone 🥺

[@alyssalee6926]

last night i was having one of those nights.. the kind where i contemplate my whole life, think no one is ever gonna love me, etc. then i remembered your tweet and decided “it’s past 9p, i’m not gonna think about this anymore” and went to bed. honestly, solid advice!

[@LeePoteat]

I understand the feeling of unsettle-ness, like you don’t want to be where you are and you want to feel this thing somewhere else and really go loose. I can’t even say more than this. Just know we are besties. We had lunch last week it was great. Did you try that new pasta brand I was talking about?

[@pinky1068]

same

[@jenicawhite405]

Rewatching your videos because future you/ you, from newer video, said stuff about looking up people you think are cool and doing deep dives. This video is so true about being stuck in your own head. It's still very relevant words, my dude! 🐢. Also, in your own words, "Don't give up, feeling better is right around the corner."

[@bekah2098]

Drew thank you for making this video. I just quit my job because of my anxiety and sometimes it feels like i'm going crazy and nobody gets it. I love your vids no matter what they're about.

[@abbey6683]

I understand this so much

[@Vick77777]

I loved your singing at the end of the video. Your Patreon members like you and your content. The singing will be another delight. You are more than enough, Drew. Not a doctor or anything. Just calling it like how I see it. Lots of love and hugs.

[@emofbi4935]

your content (no matter what it is) always makes me feel like i'm less alone in the way i feel. you just explain things that i feel no one in my close circles gets. thank you drew

[@devonbogdan8527]

I relate to this so much, which is wonderful and awful at the same time. Thank you.

[@amarislikes4866]

I see myself being aware of downfalls but can’t stop myself sometimes. It’s cathartic to hear others deal with similar ideas

[@ellarenee5711]

I feel trapped in a confusing cycle of craving death but I also have this dreaded fear of death and Im always so scared that I’m going to die or that the world is going to end and that I haven’t made the most of my life. I feel selfish and stupid for wanting to die but sometimes I feel like my brain is so irrational and crazy that I don’t deserve to live and that in the long run it would be easier for everyone. But then I get pissed at myself for thinking so selfishly. I don’t know what to do. But then I write shit like this and I read it and realize how stupid I sound.

[@LISAFEARSON]

the way that some of the stuff you talked about in this video (anxiety/depression stuff) is literally word for word what I was texting a friend in middle of the night recently. It is very comforting, it helps to see someone explain the same things that you are feeling and have also tried to explain. thank you so much for this

[@eneswk]

I’ve been pretty lost and depressed lately and watching your videos to me feels like the people that eats watching mukbangs. You make me feel less alone and understood even if we don’t share the same struggles. Thank u, Drew. 🖤

[@maryjanejoebob]

Never really comment on videos but just wanted to say thank you for being so vulnerable with your audience. I’m going through something similar now and you’re ability to speak on how you’re feeling with you’re own drew twist makes me feel a lot less alone. Thank you always :)

[@hyuckheaven]

i was watching this and it made me wanna bawl my eyes out when you started talking about wanting to isolate yourself & not feeling normal & the hypochondriac type of thinking, etc bc it's something that i 100% do that i never really wanted to accept and you really helped me open my eyes to it so thank you

[@ashrose552]

Drew! I can't begin to explain the amount of comfort you give me. Every video feels like I'm catching up with an old friend. Every emotion you're feeling and all your responses to anxiety are overwhelmingly relatable. Your wit and ability to connect with so many people on such a deep level is such a gift. Literally have nothing but love in my heart towards you

[@castastic39]

how did i miss this for a whole year? this is the most relatable thing ive ever watched on the internet, and i needed it.

[@ariannafair6524]

wow. i related to this video so much, i have bipolar and been going through an awful time lately and you articulated how i feel so well. thank you

[@jstarASMR3103]

Drew, I am so thankful I found your channel!!! I have never related to someone more. My whole life I have had weird and complex mental aspects that I’ve been called crazy for. I love them dearly, but my family always said I “overthink” and “over analyze.” I am a totallll hypochondriac, but more specifically, I am very observant about minor feelings I get in my body. To put it simple, I always think the worst😂 I am not officially diagnosed with anything and am functioning in society. But realizing that this is simply the way my brain is has given me so much comfort. Another thing that we have in common is social media is absolute nightmare for me. I do the whole “post and ghost” thing where I post on the platforms regularly, but I don’t consume much. It’s too toxic, and after only being on social media for a few minutes I genuinely feel my brain rewiring. I was hesitant to get tiktok when it first came out, and then eventually got it only for a few months before I deleted it. That app is literally the bane of my existence. Lastly, I’m a gay man😝 just wanted to write a long comment that hopefully you’ll see! And yes I watched till the end because I know you are always worried people tune out. Keep the videos coming, I love the unedited rambling style. Something that helps me with overthinking is always listening to something. Whether it be podcasts, interviews, or your videos! It keeps me from going literally crazy. I appreciate you❤️

[@ashleysorganics3122]

Your description of symptoms around 25 mins is something I also experience… thank you for helping me not feel so alone.

[@KynrieFairy]

I keep toilet paper in my room too for how often I blow my nose cause a tissue is bigger than necessary for me personally but a square of toilet paper is perfect sized

[@skeevantas]

I can extremely relate to the health anxiety and hypochondriac type feelings, and being afraid to ignore any little symptom but not wanting to like overblow a normal symptom either . it's scary ! and it's hard to get anyone to take you seriously or know when to even take yourself seriously >_> the pandemic doesn't help at all either. it's rough, but ur not alone

[@matteagoode3101]

drew u bring my depression to a halt every time u post

[@drewmonson2]

oh shit I better keep posting

[@drewmonson2]

thank u though ms goodey

@@drewmonson2 same here

[@backroomsangel]

@@drewmonson2 please don’t stop the music like how Rihanna did back in 2016 drew

[@matteagoode3101]

@@drewmonson2 ur welcome

[@Timburtonbarbie]

your content makes me feel so happy and I feel so seen and heard, your experiences help me validate my own fears & mental health care frustrations , you do SO much for all of your subscribers

[@pieawaitsme]

Drew is so funny and open and I just really appreciate his candidness

[@ABCDEFGHIJK504]

I hear you , Drew ❤️ I stuck with you and I relate in so many ways. You aren’t alone and listening to you helps me a lot when I’m in my own “episodes of crazy”

[@barkingspideer]

Really needed this ♡ Thank-you Drew. A safe place for many people.

[@vindictive9862]

Thank you for talking to us, Drew. You're doing so well. Even if you decide to take a break, we'll forever wait for you. Thank you for being my friend, I don't have too many. Love you ❤

[@hbkid3040]

I don’t know if that’s mania or just short term impulsivity that comes in waves. I relate to so many of your stories and thoughts. It’s amazing how the smallest things can be so terrifying to some of us. I went through a time where I hid my face under a hoodie every time I had to go out of the house. I would put my head down and cover everything but my eyes.

[@benchitty]

The way you talk about that fear of losing your mind is so relatable to me. I had my first panic attack last Spring, paired with psychedelic use on and off, always having had a very similar personality to yours, the manic / adhd thing, I've had very similar fears about my own sanity, etc. I've definitely touched it. What you come to about when one really loses it, it not even being able to be expressed, it's literally the people you see wandering the streets, unable to speak coherently, etc. I've struggled with (the thought of) as well. Taking it day by day, meditation, staying as healthy as possible all seem to help. Life has only been getting better since the Spring, because it was a giant wake up call for me. You really only have to make it through every day, and realizing you're always in the present is helpful. It's not always easy. I know you know that. Thanks for sharing, Drew.

[@MakennaMorrow-b9f]

i have the absolute worst health anxiety and everything after 24:00 perfectly put into words what I am currently feeling

[@dollie3113]

You made me feel like its okay to be the mess that I am. Thanks for sharing your experiences.

[@user-np8yf8fj2w]

This sounds so backhanded lmao

[@dollie3113]

@@user-np8yf8fj2w I'm sorry, didn't mean it like that English isn't my first language so may be I'm not familiar with the nuances .... please let me know what is the backhanded meaning here 😅

[@Madison-xc8qv]

What ur doctor said to u was so mean!!! I totally relate to u in how u feel about having to rush to talk to doctors. Thank u for posting. Appreciate u so much ❤️

[@Madison-xc8qv]

Also I remember u told a story about how goofy wanted u to cut off ur ponytail but I can’t find it help

[@savannahsparks8191]

I think you’re being really hard on yourself and you’re spiraling deeper into your thoughts. It’s common. Though it might not feel like it, you have a lot of support from your audience and your friends. Everyone wants you to keep talking. Stay true to yourself and don’t give up.

[@clawdeen626]

20:33 hit me with a brick, it feels good to know someone else is dealing with a similar struggle It’s so comforting to listen to you ramble ✨

[@SleepyHead584]

Who else is viscerally sexually jealous of whoever Dump Truck Jones is when he sings "Dump Truck Jones" at 49:13?

[@melissab1197]

Im going through a deeper depressive period than normal, getting better kinda i hope, and this really really helped me feel less alone. 💚 thanks drew

[@sarahlynn8554]

I'M LAUGHING OUT LOUD BC I HAVE PTSD AND A SUBARU FORESTER ily

[@drewmonson2]

I love how this comment wouldn’t make any sense under any other video on earth

[@annielouise5956]

I have never needed this video more than I do right now. I’m actually in tears on how much I relate to you in terms of mental health (especially health anxiety). Thank you for sharing. It really does make not only me, but I’m sure everyone else who struggle with mental health, feel better, even if it’s in the slightest. Thank you.

[@jacklynk5930]

Drew: everything is ok ❤️ I appreciate you and the realness you bring to the internet. You bring a lot of happiness to the world. I wish this 28 year old mom of 2 could be your buddy

[@kaylaramirez8354]

It’s crazy how much you can relate to someone who is just on a screen on your phone. I love you so much Drew!! don’t stop trying to be your best self, whatever that may look like💕

[@charlotteemily3865]

I was having a rough day and crying earlier. I watched this and just laughed and laughed. Because you are so effortlessly funny and so real. I feel seen when I watch your videos. I live you so much, and always will. Wishing you nothing but love and happiness, Drew ❤️

[@louisegood6432]

kinda beautiful how u lit up when u picked up the guitar aw it's crazy hearing someone explain what i never could about what i go through with bipolar. and the feeling of watching yourself just shoot everything out. it's funny that you can put into words how difficult it is to put things into to words. thank you

[@kennelet86753ohNine]

The way you talk to us like it is just one of us there talking to you is my absolute favorite thing ever. I always talk back and answer you because well I just can't help it 🤣 I enjoy your personality so much Drew, you have such a unique soul ❤️ Edit: I needed that night time message from Drew, thanks ❤️