Schizophrenic on a bad day

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

It's been 4 years since this video was made. I want to thank you all for the love

[@edaozturk6356]

We love you

[@Jessica-sf1cs]

Hey bud! Wish you all the best. Love you

[@Cara_V]

Wishing you all the best & to keep fighting always :)

[@Me-eb3wv]

IhaveSchizophrenia oof

[@thomasbrown6739]

IhaveSchizophrenia your awesome

[@fionamoore4845]

My heart goes out to you, you seem like a nice person and I hope shit doesn't get too bad

[@fionamoore4845]

also, don't say sorry, no need to :)

[@melissadelsol6100]

ik right

[@bitnah3179]

It's amazing to me that you're very aware of your mental state. Typically, media portrays people who have schizophrenia as severely impaired and unaware individual. I hope you find a standing where you can live comfortably while coping the with constant daily journey you have to face. I wish you the best.

[@SamiKarvinen]

I mean looking at statistics there a lot of schizophreniacs DON'T actually know that they're ill, or at least not aware to some of their symptoms, thats the reason media generally portrays them as such.

[@Prieta100]

Brittany Santiago Exactly,I feel like crap when I see people speaking on it like we crazy in Instagram specially when they start commenting on someone's mental issues,it hurts me so bad how people think is easy to deal with this..To be aware of it and still not be able to know when something is real or not plus anxiety/panic attacks,deep depression, OCD and what not (speaking from my side)😕😕😕 I wish some people could put same effort on trying to understand us the same way they put all that effort in to judging us.

[@syphruskid]

I knew somebody that had schizophrenia. He was completely aware he had it and was a very nice man, but I later on saw him at his worst, started thinking everyone was watching what he was doing and judging him, became extremely hardcore clean oriented. He once even got mad at me over something that never happened. I never held anything against him as I know it wasn't his fault, but at his worst he made me nervous because I never knew what was going through his head.

[@RiverNeverKnows]

When someone is in a deep psychosis..... They are clearly not aware of what right, Wrong, Or real is. I seen this a lot in my Ex-Fiance.

[@joshuah604]

Brittany Santiago I would have thought the exact same thing because my brother is schizo effective and he is not this lucid, BUT, 3 of his/my friends are also schizo effective and 2 of them are very lucid and can describe attacks quite well... another good example is Princeton's famous economic professor, Dr Nash, whose life with schizo effective disorder was explored in the movie "A Beautiful Mind", in it he becomes extremely lucid and becomes capable of identifying who was real in his life and who was a hallucination. He ends up never getting rid of the hallucinations but being lucid he is able to identify the hallucinations and live with them, and his quantity of life is quite good, he still teaches in Princeton, and apparently the same few hallucinations he has are always following him around... scary but also kind of cool...

[@thomascampbell350]

You don't have to apologize about this. This isn't your fault. You're helping people, making others feel less alone and educating others.

[@thomascampbell350]

I'm terrified 0_0

[@ThatAwkwardUke]

MrFALLENHER0 Oh snap. I have a feeling someone is getting shrexsual.

[@MrFALLENHER0]

Basically

[@bereruter0]

Madyson Reed yeah I agree this is why I enjoy his videos anyways because they are slow and chilled out and at the same time helps educate me about schizophrenia and helps me understand it more since I have symptoms of it I want to be sure about things

[@iknowtheboognish]

It's pathetic that the only thing people seem to care about in this comment section is his looks, not what he's actually going through.

[@mumble97]

He has luscious hair.

[@yulsbrumbeck4081]

i dont think its all people seem to care about, but even tho he is sick, he is still a person and man and he prolly longs more than anythin to have a normal life, so normalizing things and talking to him like you would to any other person it might help ...

[@cyniical8407]

brendon

[@iknowtheboognish]

:^) yes indeed

[@mickeymota9557]

+Mumble Cakes Lol he does.

[@seshtillirest2175]

Sorry man hope things get better for you.

[@CRISIZLO]

sesh

[@gloomjesussecretaccount]

SeshTill IRest seshhollowwaterboys death to them other boys

[@egdyaf9508]

SeshTill IRest it wont he needs to load up on meds

[@9119-n5v]

SESH

[@oWetThings]

sesh

[@theaccountiwatchyoutubeonl8915]

You look like the main character in a movie about how a girl finds her true love and he's like a rebel

[@alegria1813]

I guess it's a 80' movie

[@amyyoung2804]

your discomfort is palpable. I feel it's anxiety. thank you for letting us in. you're amazing

[@dashontelamarcus1814]

for real lmao

[@rollingstone8801]

Nobody cares about your feelings old bitch

[@centraltv5647]

Palpable yeah?

[@danielalmeida7126]

looks like he's straight from the 80s. Anyway wishing you all the best.

[@skunkylepew8176]

more like nineties maybe...

[@danielalmeida7126]

mate he looks like a member of the brat pack lel

[@skunkylepew8176]

+Daniel Almeida I see what ur saying

[@danielalmeida7126]

TazzyLe Zero :D early 90s could maybe work though

[@JonCurtin]

looks like the main kid in Pretty in Pink

[@theleftymonster]

You must be a very intelligent person because against your illness you are fully aware of the fact that those voices are not real. This is very important because it will help you to fight against this illness. All you need to do is just ignore those voices or things that you see or hear but you know it's not real. I know it's easier to say than done but I want you to try this with all your will power. Listening to you and how much you are aware of yourself, I'm sure you can do it. Just don't give up, keep fighting, ignore the freaking voices!! I wish you all the best.

[@peroxideman5292]

Diamond Dust It doesn't have anything to do with intelligence, It's about the severity of the illness at the moment

[@OG_stevedidWHAT]

a lot of people with schizophrenia know they are hallucinating. It's not like know will turn it off though. You guys should educate yourselves before making accusations like this is fake. I wouldn't wish schizophrenia on anyone.

[@jesshorakova1973]

as people here said, it's about how several is the Illness and also how the individual perceives it. Another thing is that's not that simple as "ignore those voices" it's imbalance of chemicals in the brain.

[@dunnyt1680]

"Ignore the freaking voices!!" Thanks doc

[@nullw8768]

The problem is this: you know it's not real but the fact that it is happening makes it a reality. Knowing that it's not real doesn't make it go away. In a way, knowing that it's not real probably makes it *more* real because you actually have to attach that value to it, actively.

[@neighbor472]

This is the first comment section I've seen people get pissed about complimenting someone's looks

[@CameronFB]

Suttree Lowery the thundering clouuuuuuuuds broke up

[@scousemali]

Suttree Lowery o

[@swaghettimemeballs4420]

They're just jealous lol.

[@ungloomed]

and when you breathed in i felt the pull

[@ungloomed]

FUCKING POOR ME FUCKING POOR ME ALWAYS SUFFERING ALWAYS SUFFERING

[@j4n3h5b2]

It's extraordinary how self aware you are, I know someone with schizophrenia and he thinks everything he sees and hears is real.

[@maddyjean9283]

j4n3h5b2 he’s right. it is real

[@jon9098]

@@MorganaCherish It is real to them, thats what they mean.

[@fille20200]

@Judging Budgie Plot twist. It really is real.

[@deeznutsinyoface7632]

@@maddyjean9283 exactly

[@elven1399]

its not real

[@Skeevee]

the courage it took to film this, share it, and the difficulty of going through it, composed and intelligence is beyond impressive, what people took away from this video: he's attractive. lol

[@astriddelacruz910]

KhalSenpai haha ik right

[@salmam.a2330]

this is so upsetting i wish him the best...

[@LissaHailey13]

Ayee ashton

[@salmam.a2330]

+Alissa is me ayyyy if u know u know

[@ingt12345]

My best friend has schizophrenia and it breaks my heart to see what he goes through. He was super popular in high school and now he's in pain everyday.

[@troystuart8870]

+roy walton ive got the Same exact story.... My best friend went to his cousins house for a week and came back a totally different person. I knew it was Schizophrenia but it took him painting his face black with a sharpie and pointing a carved wooden stick at his sisters friend till he was diagnosed. I wish a bad day for him looked like this...Hes a paranoid schizophrenic and its honestly scary to hang out with him even though i still do occasionally but i talk to him on phone as much as i can. Sometime its just "word soup" and you cant understand a single thought. He used to be any out going ladies man with a heart of gold and now i look at him and just wonder where the friend i knew is. Its weird having your friend physically there but everything you knew as him is gone. Hes in jail at the moment, im hoping only till he goes to court. But he had a tiny bit of Pot on him and i guess his paranoia kicked in because he walked up to the cops and said " just arrest me already cause i know you guys know i have weed on me" handed the cops the weed and they threw him in county jail.... What a criminal justice system right...

[@laurenpaterson3475]

Troy Stuart

[@mnymatt]

the amount of people in the comment section recommending weed is shocking

[@upularFTW]

Weed has become a fix-all meme drug, people will believe anything....

[@FuPayMe420]

+boy jenus neutronoid it does work for a lot of people

[@TheRise]

Except that many cases of schizophrenia are triggered from weed use

[@arthurdent6256]

TheRise Not caused, triggered. If you have it you had it.

[@TheRise]

Ahhh yeah thanks for correcting me

[@Sarahmint]

To Everyone recommending weed, I can tell you that it makes conditions of certain mental capacities WORSE.

[@queenbee6077]

Weed????

[@queenbee6077]

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 but why

[@dwasd6951]

@@queenbee6077 it affects some of the same parts of the Brain schizophrenia making some symptoms worse and making some better

[@andrewrossetti5628]

Very true

[@juggmannwright7324]

Shit is worse some people wheb their high get paranoid an that would make it worse

[@sage6269]

I have a 7 year relationship with a schitzo guy. He reminds me of you alot. a million things always going on in his head. Sometimes at night he will wake me with his screams and grab a knife and pace around saying "someone's in here". It used to scare me, but I'm so used to it. He wont make eye contact with me when he's having hallucinations, and sometimes he will wake me up every 10 min asking if I'm crying.. I just rub his hair and blast some music. It really helps him drown out the voices. It's gotta be so loud you can feel it though. We will fall asleep to that sometimes. He does really well most of the time. It only gets bad if he forgets his Seroquil and then takes it and is waiting for it to kick in. That's a sure way to tell if we're gonna have a bad night.

[@juliamary5056]

I'm not sure why but I found this interesting and would like to know more about your relationship:)

[@gcv980]

If your boyfriend is that bad he needs hospitalization where he can get therapy.

[@thomascampbell350]

You're a saint. Ya know that?

[@ForeverRepublic]

gcv980 Great, just so some doctors can feed him drugs and treat him like an animal. How about no. From what she described, he's actually doing well. Schizophrenics are always going to hear voices or have a paranoia episode on occasion, so imprisoning someone in a mental asylum will only make it worse. In terms of stress and being forcibly separated from their friends, family and significant other, it will only make the delusions worse. So please, for all that's good, shut up. And OP, you're such an amazing person, I admire you!

[@gcv980]

ForeverRepublic You have no idea what you're saying. Sure keeping him away from drugs is only going to make the delusions worse but that's what you want isn't it?. Not everyone can deal with that kind of thing. Making delusions worse may lead the patient to make rash decisions (rash because their minds are incoherent from reality) and some end up hurting or even killing other people or themselves. I'm not saying drugs are going to cure them, I think there's a possibility of treating schizophrenics with vitamins, there is a doctor who believes that vitamin b3 etc can sometimes cure them. However, only a good doctor can offer the right treatment plan for that patient. So unless you're a psychiatrist yourself how about you do the world a favour and shut up. Because not all doctors treat patients like animals only the incompetent ones do. Btw I wasn't referring to the person who made the video I was referring to people who can't handle the voices inside their heads

[@LibertyLikes]

I've been in a lot of therapy and I can tell he is being very skillful. It takes a lot of awareness to be able to say "I'm feeling very paranoid" instead of "I'm being followed." That is very skillful. Well done!

[@jesari1701]

you really suit this hair. It's really cute :)

[@marceloc2211]

jesari1701 Yass!

[@цветок-ш7п]

OP I agree lol

[@czarinaschwartz8787]

I felt really awful when you kept apologising. You're clearly suffering, why is that your fault? I know this is old vid and I am glad you're doing much better. But you were right about demons and the devil. I say it from experience. I know smoking pot worsens it. Anyway, I nearly teared up when you said you forgot what you were saying. Literally me. Take care. I am glad you posted this. Thank you for your bravery. Most of us aren't violent during our worst day but just broken. Glad you tried to reach out despite everything.

[@czarinaschwartz8787]

I didn't ? Its still up there. See from desktop. Maybe its a phone glitch.

[@rafiqmohammed9402]

Nida, thanks for the comment (jazakallah for goodwill). And to the guy in the video you're awesome man. I appreciate your courage. Keep ya head up. There's a lot of help do not ever think you're alone.

[@staceyrangel3051]

@@mustang4636 Parents are in a cult, ya learn it, act like you like it, and you don’t get a lecture or a beating. My life.

[@mustang4636]

@@staceyrangel3051 That much is obvious to me by now. Anyway, you're replying to a really old comment and just gave me an ugly reminder of the stupid shit i used to say when i was 15

[@mustang4636]

@@staceyrangel3051 if youre old enough to move out just know you shouldn't live with ppl like your parents go be free

[@jx4112]

At least you're relatively calm about it and not totally freaking out. You seem fairly chilled which is something

[@LifeInJP]

he's on medication

[@imamea7946]

Whose to say that medication is helpful... maybe for the short term at times but not long term...

[@jx4112]

LifeInJP yeah, it would be a nightmare if he wasn't

[@imamea7946]

You have a lot of faith in meds... Have you seen some of the side effects? There's one quote from a doc that says, everything that can be found in a pill can be found in nature... if you're able to find it in nature or with natural methods there would only be side benefits

[@jx4112]

Ima Mea The side effects can't be too bad surely otherwise doctors wouldn't prescribe them. It must be better than whatever you can experience with schizophrenia, so I think it's worth it

[@jun920918hao]

Well, you may think this is a bad video, but I think this is awesome. I am a medical student and one of my lecturers showed this vid in class and pointed us to your channel. Your videos are helping us recognise what schizophrenia really is; I mean, we can read about it, but at the end of the day, it's just words on a textbook. Thank you so much for doing this. It must be hard to post something like this on KZbin and I really think you are incredibly brave for doing so. Take care, and know that you are part of the education engine behind medical students around the world.

[@vegasmiri1810]

i hated the guided hallucination. 4 years ive had schizophrenia and live with it. with out medication. with out letting "them" keep me locked away alone in my room. it strikes when im trying to sleep. and idgf im still going to end up asleep,im still going to take a shower, im still going to work and im still going to live like the lil badass i am. fear is what you make it and i f-ing loved that you did this and im going to subscribe cause your crazy and im crazy and its ok.

[@2bitanalyst39]

Marry me

[@ccfan81]

+vegas Miri The most important thing I read in this is "and it's ok." Because you are right, it is ok isn't it.

[@vegasmiri1810]

+Cory Modzeleski. it's ok if you choose to live your life that way. Im saying "your" life cause you're the only one who has to deal with your own inner subconscious. (dont let it change the parts of you that are wonderful)I'm stubborn and keep my problems with my schizophrenia to myself.my family and few friends know of my colorful traits.I've lost people in my life from fear and I've come to learn mental sickness is really common. always finding out someone always has a brother or uncle ect.that's been diagnose. Maybe cause im a girl I get allowed to be excepted easier. idk, but life has a funny way of taking what you want and giving you what you need. i heard a quote recently that said "strength comes from the madness we survive" it really got to me. so honestly its six am heading home realizing its going in to year 5 with this sickness almost 27 and i see a lot going for me cause i won't give up. life will be good if you make it that way. soooooo, keep being okay! medication or no medication you're going to find your middle ground. Just dont give up guys

[@goldenhawk952]

Jesus he'll help you

[@ccfan81]

goldenhawk952 didnt work for me.

[@ChorisitoASMR]

the way he explains it is so calm

[@lilmoth227]

You're brave to post this. Thank you for sharing your experiences. You don't have to be sorry for anything. Much love.

[@neenweenbean]

he's very handsome.

[@carinastefan2668]

Just like Andy Biersack 😂😍

[@roacherii]

+Carina Stefan YAS

[@roacherii]

+Carina Stefan YAS

[@carinastefan2668]

***** Oh,okay.. Well.. Everyone has their own tastes..

[@JoshTube]

+Nina doeful Extremely

[@newharmony85]

So sorry for you man. I wouldn't be handling it as well as you. I wish you the best and hope you find whatever helps you cope.

[@Oceansideca1987]

You know this video is old when he said “ my iPod is messing up “.

[@therealdeal2622]

How can you be so calmed at it. I mean, if I heard a voice in my head I'd probably sit on a lonely chair and cry incessantly. You're really motivating to people with your "mental disorder", because although you say it's not a good day for you, you've have gone so far.

[@ratmaster5]

TheRealDeal because he's lived with it his whole life

[@brownieboo306]

there is medication and treatments to help manage it but sadly not to cure it

[@Saphireaway]

My uncle has schizophrenia and it has been very hard for all of us to understand his mind, what he was saying, and the sort of things he hears. I found this video insightful. Thanks for sharing, dude! I wish you the best

[@shock9177]

welcome to the internet

[@shadowofthenighthawk]

fuck you bitch

[@shock9177]

Dick Indiaz lmfao

[@austinripley3688]

Shock you're a real piece of shit lol

[@austinripley3688]

I'm sorry about your uncle Hannah

[@MelanieScarborough]

I know you published this forever ago... but you keep saying "sorry" through your video. You don't have to be sorry. This is a very raw and honest recording of your experiences. Even when you're not saying anything, you're showing us by your movements how you are feeling on a bad day. That's even more of a reason to thank you because who wants to be seen on a bad day? You seem like a sweet guy. Keep moving forward and working towards your goals.

[@CuriousFunguy]

Yes ! your silence talks a lot ! I agree with Melanie ! Your video is perfect.

[@tylerjoseph8284]

I have schizophrenia, and whenever I describe it to the people around me, they think I'm insane, and we really aren't as insane as they think we are. Sure, their are some people who aren't good, but we aren't those people. We're just different. P.s, you're kinda adorable, and I love how open you are

[@daynaherbert6364]

I watched this video in 2014 and since then I've been extremely interested in all mental illnesses especially schizophrenia. I'm so fascinated by how the brain functions and what causes these conditions. I'm in my first year of psychology and I really want to be a mental health specialist. Thank you for helping me discover my hidden interest Jacob! Hope you're doing well xxx

[@morgipi]

You guys have no clue if this is real or fake. My uncle had schizophrenia and he acted very similar to this

[@nickmiller4344]

same with my uncle. I remember one time he was saying he can here people in the vents & he had a tinfoil hat & he was siting in the corner & he acted the same way as this guy

[@kaithedreamer8710]

+Mørgan Jøseph-Dun Twenty One Pilots

[@agaist1279]

I can agree

[@antoinedemm7533]

My brother has schizophrenia and he acts and speaks exactly like the person in the video when he is off of his meds.

[@agaist1279]

+Antoine yeah dude I know what you mean. Somehow this video effects negative on my because of the thought that I also have such a sick person who's living in a fucking freakhous with oder lovely persons without a mind.

[@6Thompson9]

"Hello, hold on..." instantly liked this video

[@fragtall]

You are self awared of your sickness and even of your emotions / halucinations at the moment - I respect you for that.

[@snuffy1258]

Hey, just found your channel. Im 14 and suffer from schizophrenia, I have been having a rough time lately with my hallucinations, I keep seeing my little sister run onto a road when cars are coming, I nearly got run over once or twice in the last month from this. I haven't been to school for a week. It really does suck... Wish you the best, and you are brave af for making videos about your schizophrenia. I was scared to even put this comment...

[@maxasaurus3008]

Keep your head up kid

[@imissedthepartwherethatsmy5286]

​@@maxasaurus3008hes not a kid anymore

[@maxasaurus3008]

@@imissedthepartwherethatsmy5286 ok, uh sorry?

[@80disgusting35]

I really hope you find some peace of mind.

[@citrusblast4372]

wow thats not disgusting :0

[@letsogichmaric5107]

he never will most schizophrenics end their life

[@iPhilYa23]

Theman Oje Mr Optimistic...

[@TB.....]

Theman Oje There's always hope. You are tactless. A sign of lacking empathy. You may not have meant to be insensitive but you was.

[@Funkynutblast444]

80% Disgusting that picture of Katya is A+😂

[@ninarenton5000]

Don't say sorry for something you can't control properly ! You are amazing and you will get better ✌✌✌

[@xxroh]

Stay strong brother

[@BabyKiwiBullet]

Schizophrenia is a soul-sucking disease. None of us can imagine the mental prison it creates for its sufferers. I am blessed to be a caregiver in an adult group home. We have a severe schizophrenic who has seizures and is now quite far gone due to both conditions. My heart breaks for every one of schizophrenia's victims.

[@34greenster]

Bill Maze schizophrenia is the worst mental disorder, and if not then it'll be manic depression but I schizophrenia is worse

[@mikeyoung7660]

I think from what I know about it that it's a really bad illness. I really feel for people who have to suffer it on a daily basis. My heart goes out to you all ❤❤❤❤

[@peterf7950]

It's like a perma trip

[@ongobongo8333]

Im so jealous

[@missblisss]

frostedlambs so is a perma trip.....

[@stinkysmelly6695]

You have no idea. The voices take your darkest fear, and just tell it to you non stop. It doesn't stop. You ask them to, you plead you take pills, but they just keep talking. You think it begins to fade and you get used to it, but it knows you because it is you. It knows who you care about, what they care about, and finally why you care about them. It tells you they'll die, you'll die, etc.

[@devontecaples1993]

that's fucked

[@ongobongo8333]

frostedlambs Well im not a pussy so ill be fine

[@yacoale8153]

god, I wish I had schizophrenia for a day its so hard to understand from the outside

[@clarasm5943]

Lowkey extremely attractive Stay strong

[@chloe-qf5fn]

ever considered that attraction is subjective?

[@juliestewart3031]

Yes he is! He is extremely composed through his episode. Wonder how he is now..hope he's ok.

[@2LitProduction]

That’s the only thing you got out of this video? Fucking perverted ass weirdo

[@MrPrush-ji4gs]

Federico García Lorca fg

[@TheBlashMusic]

Reminds me of River Phoenix

[@hajarali222]

you are very very intelligent ..and how you can control this and keep yourself calm is really fascinating... however i don't think that smoking for long time can help ..it MIGHT help you your mind but are damaging your body ... there has to be solution.

[@hajarali222]

it's **

[@pattym9182]

Cigarette addiction is common in a very strong majority of those with schizophrenia. I think like 80% or so. Somehow the way the nicotine and/or other chemicals in cigarettes interact with the condition makes it very likely for someone with schizophrenia to become hooked.

[@caizeach9239]

Hajar Ali22 weed

[@Rafa-mv4nn]

Hajar Ali22 Vaping.

[@MultiCheeseLouise]

pattym9182 I read about that too, and I used to live with a really bad schizophrenic (real scary delusions, shouting very loud at imaginary things) and he would chain smoke all day every day from waking up to going to sleep. He had a friend who too who was slightly 'saner' than him in some ways but also had schizophrenia who would smoke all day too, so I fully believe that there is some truth in the statistic.

[@xXEveCoolXx]

This is not a bad video. I'm really really gratefull you share it with us. Stay strong, I wish you the best

[@danielchapman547]

To someone trying to understand, your senses are your only way of interpreting the world. To have them corrupted like this is devastating, how can someone tell the difference between reality and the disorder? I'm so sorry, I hate hallucinating and can't imagine having it happen regularly.

[@beanbeanster7219]

I think you're incredibly brave with your honesty about how you're feeling, hearing and seeing. You're helping others who have schizophrenia and also their friends who want to be there for for them so thank you for sharing what it's like. You really are helping more people than you know and you're braver and stronger than you know too. Thank you.

[@dihan91]

Hats off to you, I am a medical student and I find it so educational. Always smile, don't bother the voice!

[@jean2479]

Yeah, I've heard that about the smoking. Sz patients almost all smoke (my son is paranoid schizophrenic and he smokes a lot) But weirdly they don't get lung cancer as much as non-schizophrenics who smoke! How strange.

[@vespervictrola]

+Jean Daquila The unfortunate thing is that a lot of schizophrenics don't live long enough to develop lung cancer and the other long-term effects from smoking :( The life expectancy for schizophrenics is about 20 years less than average.

[@rainydaze1502]

+vesper xxv wait why is the life expectancy shortened

[@jean2479]

vesper xxv I know, I've read a lot. Shortened because of, well, smoking a LOT of cigs :( and bad eating habits, I guess....it makes me so sad! I do not want my boy to die before me! I know some mothers hope their loved one goes before because of worrying what will become of them. I cry every day over my son.

[@grabakasennin2763]

+Jean Daquila I feel a lot better now. Still gonna quit.

[@vaka4541]

+Chucky SZ patients have a much higher risk of suicide, being abused or having (lethal) accidents. Plus not always being able to take care of themselves properly. All of these are a factor in a shortened life expectancy.

[@bloko808]

Im Schizophrenic and the worst problem for me is trying to get some sleep. Im so paranoid I cant sleep at night or when every one else is sleep. I cant tell you how much mellatonein I've taken

[@chardem.5743]

Bad Wolf-111 melatonin on a consistent basis can actually encourage your brain to stop producing that chemical naturally because it expects that supplement. Best of luck to you 💓

[@damiangriffin9094]

Bad Wolf-111 smoke high quality indica cannabis

[@elskepode2]

Yeah, like that's people poured out to everyone. Good luck getting your hands on some. Most drug dealers are too fucking stupid to know what that means half the time and his Doctor sure as hell won't prescribe it.

[@bloko808]

Fivefootnothin Marykate Thank u for your advice and luck . are u a schizo as well ?

[@Emmewantspeace]

Bad Wolf-111 does the melatonin give you headaches? If I take it here and there, it's fine. If I take it every day in a row for 4 days or more, I wake up with INTENSE migraines for 4 hours. I want it to stop because I adore melatonin and the way you don't feel tired or groggy in the morning :/

[@ahem111]

HOPE U GET WELL, U SEEM LIKE A GOOD SOUL.

[@MrZer000]

MADAfakkka WHY ARE WE SHOUTING?

[@jamesstone5357]

+MrZer000 LOUD NOISES!!

[@slimshead8100]

Unfortunately there’s no “getting well” from Schizophrenia. Not in the sense of curing it, anyway. Best one can hope for us to handle the hallucinations and things like that. Some meds can lessen the effects, but there’s no cure.

[@MrCmon113]

This is surely a horrible disorder to have, but it is also fascinating. I think schizophrenia can teach us a lot about the brain.

[@pjf2675]

Thank you for letting us join your world. You are beautiful... and I hope you have many better days.

[@joepassarelli7172]

Your strength, character and understanding of your decease is to be commended. No judgement or suggestions from me, Bro. You are doing a wonderful thing with your recordings for yourself and others. Someday you'll see how much you have helped other people and make it a career. May God bless you and your family.

[@CuriousFunguy]

I agree, thanks joe for properly expressing a piece of my thoughts so nicely.

[@GloomyYumi]

Watching this video gives me goosebumps cuz I remember feeling kinda the way you do before getting the right medication (I'm not schizophrenic btw) and being EXTREMELY paranoid and not being able to control my thoughts. Even thinking about it makes me want to cry. It's such a horrible feeling. Stay strong

[@franciscoalvarez5215]

Just keep it up, brother. The cure will be found, just be patience.

[@vincentuno2894]

Francisco Álvarez no cure is available as of yet :) even my adhd fucks me up sometimes and is messing with my insomnia so hope we do find cures

[@franciscoalvarez5215]

Everything is possible, brother. It's a matter of time. Peace.

[@Fyralism]

Hillion Lorien Same here, I need help.

[@marklitnewski1371]

***** You think it cures it? I'd be willing to entertain the idea of alleviating the symptoms, but I would want some evidence. Curing it though? Highly unlikely. Making a statement like that requires a tonne of evidence. Edit: This is coming from a regular pot smoker, btw.

[@franciscoalvarez5215]

Everything is possible.

[@kinsfx2805]

This video takes balls to post. It's hard to talk about our hardships when it's in our heads. Stay strong homie. I wish you the best

[@nekonformni]

NO WEED, but there is possible way with CBD (cannabidiol), cannabinoid separated from whole hemp extract with no psychoactive effects, but neuroprotective - studies show it can help calm down symptomes of depresion, sychizophrenic etc.

[@Typicalwhitegrill]

You remind me of a friend I made in the hospital, and watching this makes me miss him. I hope both you and my dear Alex are doing well ❤️Taking everything day by day is hard but we got this

[@SmoHuffmister]

I really can't imagine what you are going through, but I can definetly try, and holly shit I don't think id be able to maintain composure. Very impressed on how you handle this. Hope you dont get many days as this.

[@phillycheesesteak6177]

I have a slight touch of schizophrenia, and then I have a mild form of OCD, as well as major depressive disorder, and Severe General Anxiety. It is a bad mix altogether.

[@phillycheesesteak6177]

***** its terrible but then I really don't know in actuality if it is because I've never been in "normal" peoples shoes. what if there is something of the like that normal people feel too?????

[@coffeyeoin5]

are you self diagnosed?

[@phillycheesesteak6177]

depression and anxiety became evident all around the age of 9. which was around when I had a complete lifestyle change, traumatic incident happen, and thangs. the rest was known at around age 5 when I had tests. the thing is though everyone atleast has some degree of a mental disorder.

[@phillycheesesteak6177]

***** thnx man I just wish bad things didn't have to happen to so many people.

[@247sapphire]

its good that he is able to recognize and vocalize his problems. I wish him the best.

[@FeastofFeasts1]

Sorry about your diagnosis. You are doing well handling it. God bless you. I love you bro

[@meganparfitt3712]

really want to hug you right now man. You're doing so well to handle with it, I wouldn't be able to. Keep strong

[@SoldierofMusic666]

BAD TIMES WILL COME AND THEY WILL PASS

[@lukemortagal1764]

he is soo good looking 10/10

[@lukemortagal1764]

Shock o really??

[@isaacmoodie20]

Luke Mortagal yeah you personally are clearly the only scientific explanation for earthquakes and hurricanes 😂😂

[@cynicalbeauty1980]

Shock does it make you feel better about yourself making others feel awful??? Fuck off loser and get a life so you don't have to make others feel bad about theirs...

[@lukemortagal1764]

LyssandRick get em lyss is that your real face?

[@cynicalbeauty1980]

Luke Mortagal yes darling it most certainly is

[@SailorRob]

No need to be sorry, brother. This was a great video upload and gives everyone a glimpse into your life. I think you're a very strong person for sharing your experiences. Thank you.

[@Roxanne22F]

I'm here, because i'm doing research on schizophrenia- for school. He seems very sincere to me. Hope one day we can find a cure to ease this debilitating disorder.

[@jimjackle2739]

Roxanne - What's sad is, there is a cure and big pharma spends millions of dollars silencing the cure and keeping it out of the universities where psychiatrists are trained. Big Pharma has controlled the curriculum for decades and the doctors are not trained to cure anything, but only treat it with drugs that big pharma makes billions from. If I write a book saying that I have the cure for schizophrenia, under our laws I can be thrown in prison. Kevin Trudeau was sentenced to ten years for making fraudulent claims in his book titled "the weight loss cure they don't want you to know about". I realize that you are not schizophrenic, but I'll click and paste a page explaining how I cured my brother. Take Care

[@Slidehhy]

​@@jimjackle2739I need a cure before I'm dead

[@MandyRoy425]

Thank you SO much for having the courage to share this.

[@Synicizm]

Thanks for uploading this, even though you didn't think it was good. It's real, and that's always better than well-produced or edited, or at least I think so. This is the first video I've seen of yours, and it's raw, and I think it's perfect for your goal with this. I can't imagine trying to concentrate with a bunch of weird stuff happening, and voices around me. You demonstrated schizophrenia as it was, and this is the first time I've seen something like this about it. I have a degree in psychology (and anxiety and OCD and a bit of situational depression - whee!), and textbooks really don't mean much without actual people behind them, you know? Subscribed, and going to find more of you know, hoping you're having less bad days!

[@trashmaster1457]

My heart goes out to you man. Fuck whoever is denying this or thinking you're "faking" it or whatever. Your reactions are very real and very valid and I'm sure it's so so so hard on bad days like this but for you to be able to at least try and keep your calm throughout this video and explain to the viewers what's going on is brave. Much respect. I hope you're doing well, you seem like an absolutely awesome guy.

[@RoflTheBananas]

I feel so bad you have to deal with this. You look attractive though, hope that helps

[@iamthefirsttosecond]

lol

[@aura7117]

SUCKRPUNCHED he posted that last year....

[@yeonjunssidekick9908]

thumbandindex it's actually really nice of you c: you can't help with a comment like thit, but who doesnt like to read/hear compliments.

[@StepByStepStudio]

I do that literally all the time as well literally be mid-sentence and completely forget what I was talking about. Although my illness is panic disorder (not anxiety) I would much rather this as it's physically safe although it still looks and sounds horrible. All the best to you buddy I hope you feel better soon

[@DewaldLouwChannel]

The Documentary Dude Isn't panic disorder rooted in anxiety? ;)

[@StepByStepStudio]

Not really you'd be surprised. To put it most simply, Anxiety or 'Generalised Anxiety Disorder' is where you're triggered by being simply anxious, even if it's over something that's nothing to panic about, leading to onset symptoms of a panic attack or a full blown panic attack. Where as Panic Disorder is the same but without any trigger. You can literally be doing anything and feeling fine and the next minute you feel a couple of skipped heartbeats, faint and wake up in hospital like I have a few times, it's nasty.

[@CLL21]

The Documentary Dude No. People with anxiety disorders are triggered by things that cause anxiety.

[@DewaldLouwChannel]

The Documentary Dude And are the symptoms of Panic Disorder not anxiety symptoms? :)

[@DewaldLouwChannel]

Chelsea Lea Or they are triggered by their perception of those things (cognitive processes).

[@kdeering96]

I have illusions because of my anxiety. I only have them at night down a dark road. It's really scary. And because of my illusions I have horrible panic attacks. Reasons why I don't drive at night. It sucks.

[@tomhass8015]

Illusions? I think you mean hallucinations.

[@kdeering96]

Dogling no. My psychologist said people who have hallucinations has had a head injury. Tbh I don't go to him any more because I feel like he didn't know what he was talking about. So he's probably wrong. I probably have some sort of schizophrenia. But I won't know till I get a different doctor.

[@kdeering96]

Lanky Daze I don't understand why that's funny? That's what my psychologist said.

[@tomhass8015]

Kimberly Marie Illusion just seems to mean a man made 'projection' while a hallucination happens in the brain.

[@kdeering96]

Lanky Daze I'm just wording them how my psychologist said. Like I said tho. I stopped going to him because I felt like he didn't want to really help and didn't care. So I stopped going to him. Trust me I know illusions is a magic trick lol. Like I said for all I know i might be schizophrenic. But I won't know till I go to a proper Doctor who really cares.

[@MissAttitude-m9d]

Thanks for sharing this video, it makes me feel like my episodes are normal

[@Wulfbloode]

Wow, thank you for sharing this.

[@AnnieOmaha]

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[@Sloiniak]

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[@babbsbunny1884]

I have paranoid schizophrenia and what scares me most is that the voices told me I died too. So I remember saying to the voice, "If I'm dead, where was I buried?" The voice said, "You're Spiritually dead." It freaked me out and have been through so much since I was diagnosed in 2001 but becoming a Christian has really helped me a lot. I wish you all the best and hope life gets better for you.

[@kiran2257]

Push through, you can!😇 ...ps does anyone else see the resemblance in him and Andy biersack?😮

[@thisisfela]

Kiran Fatima Biersack.. I've read that name now several times and I really have to say it's one of the most unattractive names in the whole existence! /especially when your german.

[@kiran2257]

😱Your German? Cool! 😂😂😂 lmao, what makes it unattractive though...I'm confused.lol😅

[@C4ssieRose]

Kiran Fatima that's who he looks like,, yes! >_

[@thisisfela]

Kiran Fatima because it literally means beer-bag and it just sounds so unattractive. ^^

[@kiran2257]

😱 really? lol 😂. mhmm but still respect for Andy...(x

[@saimne1312]

As a Paranoid Schizophrenic I really feel sorry for you. However I also want to thank you for your videos. I have been trying to deal with this issue for over 30 years. I have always felt that I was a freak. I have not met any other people with this problem or at least not that I knew of. I have gotten used to the hallucinations but the depression and anxiety attacks are killers. Yes I am a smoker. My trouble got worse in the '80s when an unscrupulous doctor used me to test experimental medication for a drug company. I didn't find out until another doctor told me that some of my meds were not FDA approved and had not, in fact, passed the testing phase. Since that time I have had trust issues with doctors and medications. The only advice I can give you is DON'T self medicate, that includes weed, and make sure you have some very supportive people keeping an eye on you. Some of the voices are helpful, learn to recognize them and ignore the bad ones. When your mind is racing you could try what I do. Sit in a comfortable place, put on sound dampening headphones, play loud rain or white noise, then picture yourself going into your mind, imagine your thoughts as a train or as traffic on a hiway, and slowly try to make changes to the scene. Slow it down, change the colors or just move it into a more organised pattern. I hope this helps.

[@leshikokubika486]

Try the meditation technique. This could really help from depression and hallucinations. Close your eyes and try to see all the muscle tensions in your body that deprive you of a comfortable state. Pay special attention to the muscles of the face and head. And then, not paying attention to these muscle tensions, you should try to achieve a comfortable state. You can get comfortable condition with a lot of muscle tension. People often do not notice this strong muscle tension and unconsciously support it. This tension may be so strong that your efforts will not be enough to remove it. But your efforts should be directed not to maintain tensions but to remove them. To do this, you only need to focus on the state of internal comfort. If you notice that the internal tension as it pulls attention to yourself, try to focus attention on this place, and then as if to get out from under this concentration of attention. This can be called the technique of scattered attention. Then this thing can happen - you concentrate on some place, you can relax the muscles, but the tension has changed the configuration and went to another place. You track tensions again and you leave from it again and it goes to another place again. So you can meditate as much as you want. If you succeed, then there is a certain pleasure in it. It is better to do it at night, but you can do it at any time. You can anywhere at least for a moment to close your eyes and instantly disconnect. In depression, do not orient on the emotional color of the feeling, but only on its strength. Well, that is the reason for depression can be anything and feelings can be different. But the feelings should be ignored as if they were not. Sorry for my English.

[@leshikokubika486]

You can't divide voices into good and bad. The first thing you need to know is that voices can't be trusted! They lie always! They may tell the truth, but if you believe them once, they will deceive you in another. Therefore, it is always necessary to check information from other, more real sources. You don't have to identify with the voices. Voices always lie and you can't believe them. But you can to believe your normal thoughts! In this place you can have fun laughing and ask - and how to distinguish them - normal thoughts from abnormal? How can a schizophrenic do that? That's the joke! The brain can do that. Neuroleptics greatly reduce the sensitivity of the brain, but not the end. So even under strong neuroleptics, you can distinguish your normal ordinary thoughts from those you perceive as voices. If the voices are bad, you can scold them. Voices tend to primitive dialogue, multiple scrolling of the same thoughts. And you need to be able to get away from it. In any case, you can set the subject of the dialog. You can discuss with them movies, political events, remember your favorite songs. Anything to keep you interested! If the dialogue gets boring and you want to relax, switch focus of attention on the tense muscles of the face and head and try relax them, focusing on the state of internal comfort.

[@leshikokubika486]

Sometimes it's just great to be resonantly included in a beautiful song and bring, mentally naturally, the singer's voice to the level of the ideal, being included in the atmosphere of the song and practically falling out of reality. Here is how to live a small bright scene, as an artist in the theater. I love this song kzbin.info/www/bejne/m2GVepefrMSsd6M

[@thegirlwhocouldfly]

youre super attractive sorry

[@martanoguerol2562]

true tho

[@jessicasuzanne___]

+Clara Pondswald Yes he is. I know how he feels. I hear voices in my head, they tell me that I'm worthless, that I should hurt myself or hurt other people. But I don't hallucinate

[@rawrx]

Eh, hearing voices is also hallucinating xD?

[@jessicasuzanne___]

Alexander Biller True. But it's scary, because the voices tell me to hurt myself, to stay in bed all day, to hurt people but i don't want to hurt people, i dont want to hurt myself

[@jessicasuzanne___]

RunPoo1 ..... Wtf

[@lucasclahar1971]

I honestly think meditation could help...

[@Patrick-cy2zh]

Lucas Clahar I think his mind would annoy him too much to even focus on mediation

[@noemogjiiohc6134]

Pat rick the mind can trick itself "they put it in the back all the love in the back and they called you're subconscious"

[@imamea7946]

You would just need to bring yourself back again and again, just like pretty much anyone meditating, especially in the beginning... keep returning to the point of focus... if someone meditates for 30 minutes and brings themselves back to their breath or a mantra etc 200 times it's still helpful... it would get easier... some times harder than others but I believe meditation and other spiritual life is highly helpful for anyone provided they are interested in it... anmolmehta dot com has some good info under free online yoga classes... beginners yoga, beginning meditation and de stress could have some good info and techniques for someone interested, you can always expand and refine... the cells are constantly shedding and regenerating and there are many alternative ways to manage and treat schizophrenia etc, whether you use meds or not you can still do alternative things... there are many things a person can do, they can find them if they look a little... the cells are constantly shedding and regenerating...

[@coffemonster6734]

meditation in itself isn't spiritual. its proven to reduce stress which in turn makes you healthier. the whole nonesense shit which you believe is spiritual not meditation

[@YskarAlbumLuna]

Everything is spiritual, as everything is logic and as everything is just what it is!

[@mutantwhalesux]

You're such a sweet guy and you're handling yourself so well. I wish I could be there with you so you could have a real person to talk to. I'm sorry its so hard for you like this sometimes. Thank you for putting up this video though, you taught me some really important things.

[@shanemays4346]

I just found this. What amazing strength you have. I am sorry for the way you feel in this. Don't ever be sorry for who you are or what you go through. You are amazingly strong. Thank you so much for allowing all of us to see the raw side of this disorder. I hope you keep your strength and are doing better.

[@rickc16]

he's got guts posting this!

[@des10ed2b]

you keep saying this is a bad video, but i think it is a perfect video in relation to how it actually IS. the paranoia, the hallucinations, the racing thoughts, the disorganized thoughts, it is all clearly represented. not a bad video. a great video!

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

I'm still making videos every single week to do with schizophrenia and other mental illness's. Here's one of my most reason ones! kzbin.info/www/bejne/Z5zclIBtiNmAnqs

[@imamea7946]

You might like Orthomolecular Medicine and other natural therapies such as looking into food allergies, detoxification... cleanses like The Master Cleanser by Stanley Burroughs, Liver Gallbladder Flushes like Andreas Moritz taught... parasite cleanses, pure gum spirits of turpentine is good... also a method with black walnut hull(harvested green), wormwood(I capsule my own, it's easy and fun(for me) :p. , cloves you grind yourself regularly and put into capsules... this particular cleanse is a few weeks, it's pretty simple... you might get healing reactions though... but in the end and during at times be stronger... you might like anmolmehta dot com... look at free online classes... stress reduction, beginning meditation, beginning yoga... there is power in such exercises... read the article "what a Shaman sees in a mental hospital"... as far as orthomolecular medicine you might really benefit from flush or flush free niacin 3x a day 1,000 mgs, vitamin c 3x a day 1,000mgs or so... possibly fish oil... GABA (I take two 750mg capsules for a dose), chelated manganese might be good for you, zinc I'm pretty sure. Obviously I'm not a dr but I also don't work for the pharmaceutical industry so please consult a qualified medical person before doing anything I suggest. Keep up the good work of being your awesome self. I'm planning on learning how to do Reiki soon... I've been getting healing like that for a few years. If you like spiritual stuff that can be good. Best wishes on your life. I like my all animal moccasins, they are grounding... just like walking barefoot on the dirt or grass. Drink pure water if you can... the tap water etc, food and air etc can be so toxic, a lot of it is on purpose. Try to detoxify if you feel there's something good there. I'm not just some dipshit who doesn't know anything about schizophrenia, love you, have a nice day. Your breath is your friend... prayers and mantras if you're into it. See ya

[@stephanieneely9335]

IhaveSchizophrenia Stephanie Lynn Neely

[@stephanieneely9335]

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[@ryanyarnevich9831]

How are you? I noticed you mentioned disorganized schizophrenia. Isnt that the variant with the bleakest prognosis?

[@OnePiece-os3pe]

I feel sorry for you and i respect the fact that you have a uploaded a video on your condition.There is a cure for your condition and i try it myself when i am depressed and that is to listen to the recitation of the quran i guarantee you that you will A LOT better.

[@kellybreeyear9017]

These vulnerabilities are what help the mental health community. I am applauding your choice to share this, in your narrative while experiencing the difficult symptoms you have to manage and you're staying so controlled in this moment, you can tell you're practiced and skilled knowing your illness. It's scary to doubt our own mind. The struggle is real, but we find perseverance and are given a resilience many have no idea how to obtain in the way we do. Many thanks, you're inspiring.

[@robertoluis4386]

Smoking weed is like playing with fire or Russian roulette for a schizophrenic or anyone with similar symptoms. Trust me I've ended up in hospital many times because of weed induced psychosis. I didn't stop using because of my fucking ego. It would not let me believe I was allergic because I wanted to be like everyone else and always trying to get higher and higher. Now I'm on 7 different types of medication and I just feel weird all the time. I'm unable to cry or laugh. Its like I'm desensitised. I got a phobia of sleeping now from it which is seriously fucked up. Find it very hard to fall asleep and stay asleep for more than 3/4 hours. During the day my head hurts and don't feel like doing anything because im so tired. I'm 4 months clean after 23 years of using and still suffering. On a bad night I get panic attacks, terror, blurred/double vision, small hallucinations like big black flies wizzing around, colours seem brighter or glowing, paranoid thoughts/delusions, feeling possessed, psychedelic visions, not being able to pee when I want to etc. It's horrifying to say the least. I'm always uneasy when bed time comes. I just wanted to talk about my own experience. I'm not trying to say the same shit will happen to you. It's your mind/sanity. I ignored my gut feeling every time I smoked weed because my pride took over and refused to admit that I am one of the people who have a high risk of weed induced psychosis. When I smoke I get severe paranoia which gives me anxiety then psychosis then panic attacks and of course insomnia. All those symptoms put together is literally a living nightmare/torture. It didn't help that I was always trying to get the strongest shit on the streets. Weed called amnesia and cheese. I'm from London by the way. I ignored myself, family, friends and psychiatrists advice because I was obsessed with weed. Maybe there is a strain for everyone just like there is many antidepressants for different people or maybe there just isn't. But because it's not legal where I am you don't know exactly what your getting. If I use again it could be the first joint or a matter of time before I get a bullet in the head and I'm back in the hospital again or maybe even worse dead. When your in psychosis it makes you very unpredictable. I find the older you get the worse the symptoms get. So for me I stay the fuck away and I turn my back on weed because these symptoms I'm getting are like a living hell. Fucking weed culture and advertising is way worse than alcohol is I reckon. Yeah you know the marijuana clothing, marijuana paraphernalia on the high streets, movies, internet and music especially rap(which I like). Its like the message is we must believe weed is a cool thing to do just like it was cool to smoke cigarettes back in my fathers youth. I know you can't overdose from weed but I'd rather be dead then be in psychosis until my last day. Fuck all that shit. Smoke in the privacy of your own home if it doesn't negatively affect you but don't go round telling the world that weed is the cure for all your problems. It's a lie. Potheads can be so ignorant and stubborn sometimes which pisses me off. Go to NA meetings etc to stay clean if your having trouble. I used to love marijuana and it's in the back of my mind still and probably forever but I must ignore it just like a schizophrenic ignores his or hers hallucinations and voices. I smell people smoking it on the streets or in parks a lot and when I'm walking on the street I see empty baggies. In the past I have found it laying around. I can't see weed in front of me because my old tendency was to smoke it all up like a fiend. I would like to think I will never touch it again. So far so good though I'm 140 days clean today. I have a sobriety app on my phone. Hopefully being sober will be my greatest high. It's hard but so is life. Good luck, be strong and do the right thing for YOU! Weed isn't for everyone and EVERYONE counts. Peace to all the potheads/junkies and sufferers. ✌🏻

[@zzzz-rv7hs]

Roberto Luis I smoked a lot of weed n it send me to osychwars twice. Not worth it

[@monkeyboy991000]

zz zz lmfao yeah weed isnt for everyone but it sure a fuck is for me 😂🤓

[@monkeyboy991000]

Roberto Luis maybe you should fuck with cbd it just relaxes you and wont get you high

[@evilwaffleiron_9190]

Roberto Luis hey man suffered the same thing as a kid it was because of nightmares that lasted for 2 weeks straight instead of smoking but either way I know how it feels to dread sleeping

[@monkeyman12328]

Roberto Luis j Weird bc my roomate a skitzo be he straight pot head like us

[@monicapresley2383]

dude you should paint what you see, who knows you could be an artist

[@poisonforsocrates]

I love you man, thanks for keeping it 100

[@x_AutoMatic_x]

no it's not a bad video, you are showing us what it's like to have a mental illness, I work with people who have it but it's hard for them to vocalize when their having an episode other than yelling, your actually helping people understand what others are going through during an episode. I praise you for being so open about it, it can be tough to live with an you are such a strong person. thank you for sharing

[@j.peterse8106]

honest videos like this one are rare these days

[@maxluthander9970]

you are handleing it really well my friend, respect to you

[@GIguy]

You're amazing! Mental illness is just that, an illness, but no one talks about it. It takes a lot of courage to post this video, so for all of us who suffer from a mental illness, THANK YOU! I've suffered for decades (I'm 47) from severe, chronic anxiety attacks and a very deep depression. It took me years to finally seek help after I reached a point where I couldn't leave my house, because I had had a major panic attack on the subway the day before. I was just riding home, when my heart went nuts, I started sweating like crazy, and started screaming for help because I felt nothing but sheer terror, for no reason. It took years to get it under control with medication and therapy, so I know exactly how it feels. Don't be sorry for anything, it's not your fault, and yes, I'm a smoker too! I'm also a victim of colon cancer, Crohn's disease, and many others, which partially led to my mental health issues. As for demons or spirits...don't laugh people, they are real too, and do attack those who are more vulnerable....I even have proof, as I was attacked by one as a teenager screwing around with a ouija board, long story. Anyways, stay strong my friend, you truly inspire me, and many others, you've shown the world what it's like living with your disease. NEVER be afraid to talk about it, and don't you dare apologize, again, it's not your fault, it's totally beyond your control. All the best my friend, kudos to you!! 👍😊👍

[@IDontKnow-pf6en]

as someone also suffering from this, watching you was like watching a version of myself

[@caitlin9486]

stop apologizing for the things you can't help!! You may be seeing things and you may hear voices but you're human just like everyone else. You may feel like you are different and weird but to some people (e.g. me!!) you aren't. You may have schizophenia but you are doing good with your life. You are educating and helping others so for that well done :)

[@KidsWithGuns1992]

Hallucinations I could tolerate if they weren't morbid, if I just saw random stuff that looked real it would be frustrating but not extremely distressing. But that hand coming from the lamp shade, fuck that. Sorry to hear dude, takes strength to handle that and keep living with it. But I know it's hard to keep a train of thought, but it would be interesting if you had a video just constantly describing what you heard and saw. Very interesting.

[@r.s.5239]

I have paranoid schizophrenia. I understand you. I hope your day gets better.

[@rachelacevedo9338]

When you said "I don't remember what I was saying" I just thought "Fuck, me neither" and I'm not schizophrenic. 😂😂😂😂