Schizophrenia - Hallucinations/Delusions

[@LordB0NER]

My uncle has schizophrenia and he says he also see's demons. He says they would whisper from under his bed and he would see them sticking out of the wall. He also told me that whenever he walked past my grandparents car he would hear a voice and then see arms reach out from under the car and grab his leg. I feel so bad for people that suffer from this disease.

[@minferd9355]

Actually it's not a disease its a mental disorder but I see what you're getting at

[@elenataylor4312]

That's what happened to me when I was little except I didn't see demons I saw dragon flies but I once saw and heard a man whisper goodnight babygirl when I was little which was my nickname... Everyone in the house was asleep

[@iratika]

+Elena Taylor this isnt a ghost story dingus...

[@Johnphilips1234]

Keep your brain healthy Kevin, lots of fish oils and good nutrition and avoid hard drugs as schizophrenia can be passed on through families.

[@Johnphilips1234]

+KZbin Commentor why is it ignorant to say schizophrenia is genetic? Is it not?

[@LikeItDeep]

It's like the dream/nightmare world spills over into waking life.

[@asdfgh-sd5cd]

incredible interpretation

[@ember-brandt]

_"We've got the dreamer's disease"_

[@duaneparks5561]

When I was deep into schizophrenia, and I was homeless for two years, when cars trucks semi went by on the road Their tires running across the road would talk to me. And the devil was always on my ass,thank you this is the frist time i talk about this.thank you so mush

[@prettymommy6579]

You are NOT the devil. You are an angel for vlogging your experiences as a therapy for others and hopefully for yourself. God bless

[@marnienorris]

Keep going! Bring awareness! You have a purpose! So sorry for your pain. My mom has dealt with this since I was a baby! 40 plus years!

[@robinhill5241]

I am so glad you made this video. It helps me understand what my sister is going through and can't put into words. She is in and out of hospitals and homeless because of her illness. She is a genius and had an awesome job before the psychosis. I believe you are of an higher intelligence.

[@shalacymanderson3042]

your not bad at making videos sweetie. you need to keep making more. do them about anything you want. your very interesting.

[@qxob2123]

You're *

[@DEATHofSEASONS789]

Damn, did you ever learn capitalization

[@sjay9398]

You know whats funny is when people correct other people about their spelling... like theyre expecting to be reading a Stephen King's novel... like jokes on u it's just social media, no one fucking cares about their spelling it's about what they're saying...

[@andrewmatthews6263]

Sexy woman shalacy 👍

[@xxgen_xteaxsavetheearth1636]

@@sjay9398 EXACTLY.

[@debbinion9741]

Bless your heart. You are a strong person who has a good insight into his illness. By sharing your story you are helping others.

[@Cognitoman]

Keep making vids man. I am sorry you have this, but be strong man.

[@10colej]

Bro you said you saw the girl from the ring for years? That's creepy af. Like if you were at the mall it wouldn't be bad but at night alone holy shit how could you sleep? I feel for you man.

[@jewelschristine]

I'm not sure if I already commented this but I sent this video to my psychology professor at my university. She may use it as an example for her lecture class. Your videos are very helpful :)

[@jenniferobrien76]

Thank you so much for your videos and letting us see what goes on in your mind. My brother is a chronic schizophrenic and lives with me and my 4 kids. He is in and out of psychosis all day/night. He is always whimpering like a puppy and says 'ok' repetitively. He is on anti pshychotics and they dont help at all-he is labelled as 'treatment resisitent'. It hurts me so bad to see him suffering. He refuses to admit to anyone that he hears/sees things and has no memory of his childhood. ;-(

[@HorseLoverVids]

I really appreciate you making these videos. I was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia about a month ago, and I felt kind of alone. You're videos are great, and make me realize there are many people like me. Keep making videos, because they've helped me tons. THANK YOU! xx

[@whatgrindsmygears8700]

I'm so sorry you live with this illness. thank you for sharing your life with us. my ex boyfriend turned schizophrenic while we were together and because of all of the information everywhere, I was able to understand and forgive the abuse. I hope you never lose awareness and keep going strong. lots of love

[@jimjackle2739]

After several years of research, here is how I cured my brother's mental illness. Decades ago he was was given the labels of paranoid schizophrenic, bi polar, manic depressive and given handfuls of pills to take, that had horrific side effects. When I asked his psychiatrists if he could ever be cured, they all said no, that schizophrenia couldn't be cured only treated. Don't believe the psychiatrists that tell you there is no cure. Don't be intimidated by their title or college degrees. I have several graduate degrees and can tell you that they are just pieces of paper that mean absolutely nothing. We now have the internet and the collective knowledge of the world at our fingertips. I finally had enough of these morons that were too stupid to cure my brother, and asked God in the name of Jesus to show me what was causing my brother's problems, and here is what he showed me. I started searching for all things known to cause psychosis and also started learning how the brain operates. Then I started running my own blood tests on my brother through online labs such as request a test, to determine the imbalances in his brain and body. Here is what was causing his problems. 1. an elevated free copper level. 2. a low B12, which was causing an elevated methylmalonic acid level and this elevated methylmalonic acid was blocking enzymes that convert ammonia to urea in the urea cycle. An elevated ammonia causes psychosis, hallucinations, paranoia, depression, insomnia, and many other things. An elevated methylmalonic acid causes a host of problems too, and eventually eats the myelin sheaths off the nerves that contain the electrical signals. Once the B12 is brought back to normal, the myelin sheaths will reform within 2 years. As for the elevated free copper, it also causes psychosis, paranoia, hallucinations, and insomnia. The free copper also enters the brain, oxidizes neurotransmitters and short circuits the brain. Free or unbound copper is toxic, and a conductor of electricity, and the brain is an electrochemical organ, so it wreaks havoc on brain signals. Copper bound to ceruloplasmin protein is non toxic and actually used by the brain and body to properly function. Where did the free copper come from? He has a defective ATP7B gene, which doesn't properly bind copper. Anyway, get these 4 tests done. 1. direct measurement of free copper (test number 279071 at lab corp). This is not a serum copper test, so make sure you get the direct measurement of free copper. I use lab corp in Oklahoma, so the test number may be different in your state or country. Normal free copper level should be 0-10 mcg/dl. Anything over that and you have a problem. 2. Methylmalonic acid test, which will show the B12 at the tissue level. 3. serum B12. 4. Ammonia blood test. If your free copper is elevated only take zinc or ammonium tetrathiomolybdate (TM)to lower it. Don't take the old copper chelating drug penacillimine, because it is too aggressive at mobilizing the copper and can flood the brain with even more copper, leaving a person in a vegetative state. If a doctor tries to use this copper chelating drug, just say no. Zinc or TM are much safer and more effective. TM can be obtained from a compounding pharmacist and you will need a doctor's prescription to get it. Zinc is slower at chelating the copper and may take 2 or 3 years, but it will get the copper level down. Zinc needs to be taken without food one hour before or 2 hours after meals. If you take zinc with food it binds it up and renders it inactive. Zinc pulls copper from the blood through intestinal cells and also blocks the absorption of copper. Also stop eating high copper foods, such as liver and shellfish. Get your free copper level down to 10 mcg/dl or lower and you will say bye bye to those voices in your head and paranoia. Also if your methylmalonic acid is high, this is due to a low B12 at the tissue level, so have your doctor give you B12 injections until the M acid drops back down. You may have an intrinsic factor protein defect in your stomach that won't allow you to absorb B12 if taken orally, so go with the shots, or take it sublingually, which means under the tongue. If the M acid is high, the ammonia will be high too, and there are drugs to lower ammonia. The ammonia and M acid will eventually go down on their own once the B12 problem is corrected. Once your B12 normalizes this will make you feel like a new person. According to my research, these 2 things, a high free copper and low B12 are causing most of the mental illness in the world. I have learned that this cure for schizophrenia has been around since the 1960's when Dr. Carl C, Pfeiffer discovered copper was causing schizophrenia and he wound up curing 20,000 schizophrenics over his lifetime. According to him, once he started curing patients and getting them off their meds, big pharma spent millions to block his cure from getting into medical schools. Big pharma doesn't want anything cured, because they make billions treating diseases. Another thing I forgot to mention, I have tested several brands and types of zinc and found the least upsetting to the stomach is "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. I'm not being paid to promote anything, but found this zinc was effective at lowering free copper and also easy on the stomach. You can buy this zinc online and find it by googling "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. Take 50 mg of zinc 3 times a day, one hour before or two hours after meals. Once your free copper is lowered and your schizophrenia cured, which may take a few years with zinc, you will need to still take at least 50 mg once a day for the rest of your life to prevent the copper from building back up and causing a relapse. You can take TM and be decoppered in 8 weeks so you might wanna get a prescription for this. Also what I did for my brother was left him on his medication while I was decoppering him and bringing his B12 up. Once I corrected what was causing his problems I started gradually weaning him off his medications and today he lives a normal life free of medication and cured of schizophrenia, bi polar and manic depressive. Anyway good luck, and please share this cure with others on the internet so we can get rid of this needless suffering. God Bless

[@carolm7037]

You got a whole lotta love here

[@ttahir4909]

my best friend has schizophrenia and it has gotten really bad lately. he's been doing a lot of out-of-the-box things. i have hope he can get better, but many people around him dont understand. his pops included. he has no support structure... anyway, big ups to you for making these videos. you are really doing a great service informing people. keep it up, man and best of luck

[@Sunrisecan]

Thanks for sharing. I'm really sorry you have to go through this, it sounds absolutely terrifying. You're so strong and I wish I could give you a big hug! Bless you and I send my prayers. P.S. I hope you're doing better!

[@2submit]

your an angel trust me,,,,i mean your a good person because of your vids you inspire people.. like me ..paranoa and anxiety sucks followed by depression for no reason....being sad feeling sad and you cant shake it off no matter what you do.. i know been there and will be there again ..but honestly your a tougher guy than i am .. you face harder stuff than what im faceing... will be following

[@sarahata22]

OMG you are so brave and wonderful. I have a 19 year old he as odd behavior and first he was diagnosed with generalized anxiety. His doctor gave him risperidone and did not work for him now he is trying to diagnose him with schizophrenia even though he never actually saw hallucinations he would just worry that he would see stuff. His psych only saw him 3 times for 20 mins and diagnosed him with schizophrenia.

[@natlabebe]

When I was a kid I had extreme paranoia, I wish I knew how I got rid of it. Because I could share like you do. I feel like you help a lot of people, and I wish my step mother would watch your videos. Keep posting! Your awesome.

[@aminalarbi387]

So so so thankful for you and so glad you're aware! and sharing this. much love. stay strong. they're nothing.

[@Z3al4G0d]

I used to work with people that had mental disabilities. My job was titled a Life Coach. I had a client that had paranoid schizophrenia. She lived by her self and we had to administer medication to her everyday bc we had to keep it locked up. We would help her with different things around the house, cook if she wanted, hang out talk, play games and go places. I really enjoyed it. So if you're afraid to live by yourself I'm sure that there is organizations that will be glad to work with you and be there for you. Even after hours if need be. Thank you for sharing with all of us. That is very brave of you!

[@mp-uy9sv]

what do these demons (Hallucinations/Delusions) look like?

[@senemozakin]

Yeh,i also wonder what they look like

[@shayekisitu]

I think that you are a amazing and very interesting person. I think your schizophrenia heightens your sensitivity towards life and and the emotions that we as human beings are born with and that is really beautiful and could be termed as a blessing in disguise. It is really wonderful that you post these videos and talk about your experiences because this will help others who have the same thing. It is a form of therapy. God Bless you. And yes, A Beautiful Mind you have.

[@jakeballou5147]

Shaye Kisitu aka Jannah225 your a cool lady (:

[@biancaleon2222]

Omg Man you are awesome! Such an insperation! People in my family passed away and had Schzophrenia.. I also have a mental disorder, I am 15, I am writing a speech on mental illness and your video sparked some great ideas! You seem like a super cool dude! This video made me laugh and smile, Stay Healthy! Your Rad! By the way you should make a video about a public episode... I have them sometimes and I'm not too sure how to control it... Thanks a lot :)

[@RKTologist]

Hey! I'm trying to get into practicing psychiatry, stumbled upon your channel. you remind me a lot of myself, you're very aware of your mind and surroundings and whats happening. it's very interesting how self aware you are as some people have already said. well.... you're awesome. have a good day!!

[@MonicaNietzsche88]

it sounds like you manage to cope with your illness remarkably well. I hope you start feeling better soon :)

[@germanmartinez1994]

Youre really amazing for how well you handle everything man. Inspiring lots of people

[@arlenearp]

Be sure to mention on one of your videos how to find you on Facebook. Thank you very much for all that you do. It's a big help to me and lots of other people. You matter! I just wish I knew how to be there for you.

[@aliceminis4all]

Get a big hug from me, God bless you and thank you for your videos, help me to understand my son. I really hope you feel better and thank you very much again.

[@Jewphish]

I'd appreciate hearing about your experiences with healthcare and doctors/psychiatrists. keep the videos coming x

[@Perimeter1337]

I like this guy. Learns to tell what is real and what is not. No need for meds.

[@missh7844]

This is so fascinating, but at the same time so tragic cos this guy is obviously very distressed and pretty much unable to live a normal life! Makes me wonder what sort of person he would be today if he hadn't had such a traumatic time when he was younger with all the bullying.

[@hannacassel2397]

thank you so much for making this video, jacob. I see a lot of myself in you. you're really brave! again, thank you :)

[@olympiawa7891]

GREAT VIDEO. I liked what you said about how if you dont take your medicine schizophrenia can be like cancer.. It just gets worse and worse. Thanks for the video and enjoy your music!! Blast it loud ;) :D

[@sommerfeld774]

You've done a fantastic job on your videos! You've made a lot of excellent points and I've found your videos to be very informative. I admire the courage you have shown in sharing your experiences and I encourage you to keep up the great work!! You rock!

[@paulbrown5912]

Hi. I don't have this illness however I have massive experience as a staff nursem I think ur brave for sharing this video. If you take appropiate medication I assure you things will get better good luck all the best mate.

[@garryjohnston650]

I see you as being so brave, and have a big heart to help other people. From this day on, remember how much you can help others. You can tell them the truth, and it will help them. The bad ones cannot lie to you anymore. Believe that God will help you...it will happen...you have a great heart to hold on to him. YOU ARE AMAZING !

[@wileybird2004]

Topics to talk about: What do you want to do as you get in control of your illness? You talk about wanting to help people (which you certainly do with these videos). How else could you help people? Medications - How does it make you feel? What is it that you won't like? Is it helpful?

[@cocainebuffet]

it shows how childhood bullying can take a toll on a human. Even if you had a genetic component, these "demons" are the kids at school, and your feeling of helplessness comes from how your felt during elementary school. Now you cannot even make your own food because you feel like somebody who has been through what you have should not have to make their own food,

[@jenniferobrien76]

My brother also laughs uncontrollably which i much prefer to the constant pacing and agitated stomping around. I recently put a stop to his weed smoking bc it makes his symptoms so much worse. Ive even caught him choking himself with his own bare hands (thats when i hospitalized him this last time). He looks like he is reliving a horrible trauma during his psychosis but snaps right pout of it as soon as i call out his name. I just wish he would tell me what he is seeing/hearing so i can help

[@kudu2196]

@Ihaveschizophrenia I saw white figures in dreams as a chilled. Chalk outlined shaped but a solid glowing white.

[@alicea441]

I have a suggestion for video, I think keeping a journal of your days... How you cope, what delusions you had on that day , had you taken medication that day or if you skipped and the difference you feel , just jot everything you do and how you cope and struggle with this desease daily

[@Charlie2531games]

Schizophrenia appears to be a side effect of delateralization of the brain. As I understand it, lateralization in the brain allows each hemisphere of the brain to do a different task independent of the other hemisphere. Delateralized brains allow both hemispheres to work together on a single task much more easily, which can make higher-level thinking easier. Recent examinations of Einstein's brain shows that he had a very delateralized brain, which would partially explain his intelligence. I think that supports your statement about schizophrenics being more intelligent.

[@dropj3]

Hi. Interesting comment. Do you have a case study on that or a source that you want to share with me? If you have a reliable source, can you PM me the link? thanks allot

[@DanUKIPS]

I played a game recently called Hellblade senua's sacrifice that goes into psychosis issues. It kind of lead me to your videos because I'm also writing a screenplay called eternal torment which is about a serial killer's son who has mental illness. It wasn't authentic enough. Reading up on it and listening to your experiences are making it much more real. I hope you don't mind me taking some of the things you've spoken about to make a very realistic movie to raise awareness of the type of things people like you go through. If you would like to talk sometime and maybe help with the authenticity of the mental illness portrayed in the script I'd be grateful and perhaps it would be therapeutic to you in some way?

[@alekinreal]

You are helping so much people!! Im from Brazil and thanks, really thanks for this..

[@archangelmattatron9138]

you're not alone dude I have schitzofrenia too I was locked in hdu for 8 months when I was 18 I'm on monthly injections I watch beautiful mind too mad movie I currently have no symptoms and getting discharged from mental health clinic but will remain taking meds

[@katrina2121ful]

"Our minds are more developed than normal peoples'" "..normal people" "you know.. the normals" LOL. sorry that i kinda giggled off that.

[@kimmycola8832]

me too

[@linnkvelland662]

New subscriber. I love ur videos, they are very informative and interesting. I'd like to see more videos on the lines of "A Schizophrenic on a bad day". I'd also like to hear more about what the voices are actually saying and what you see :)

[@candicehughes4233]

Lord Jesus please help this guy I pray for his salvation, I pray you please heal him , help him get better in your name Amen

[@sumdumgai19]

I just started seeing the girl form the ring recently. she came out of my computer while I was asleep, jumped on top of me and scrached at my face and chest. one of the scariest things ever, couldn't scream or run away at all. it was like I was frozen. she also came out of my toliet, I couldn't go #2 for a week.

[@lyoung348]

Hi, I have schizophrenia, I think you are doing an amazing job on your videos considering what you are dealing with. My son is 19 years old and was just diagnosed with schizophrenia. It has turned our world upside down. He meets with his psychiatrist on Tuesday to get on medications. He is only seeing visions right now, but I know it will probably get worst if he doesn't get on meds. I would love to be able to inbox you, so you can help me with him. He is very scared and angry that he has been afflicted with this condition. Please, please let me know.. I think you are adorable and obliviously a very smart young man. I hope you give other medications a try. You deserve so much more, I will keep you in my prayers. Thank you for up loading this video!

[@getraptureready777]

Oh my gosh, I'm sorry for everything you and your son are dealing with! I too dealt with psychosis/hearing voices & was prescribed Risperdal, an antipsychotic. It made the voices go away (eventually..I had to take pretty high dosages) but the SIDE EFFECTS were awful!!! I wondered how horrible that must be for the children who take it & aren't aware that there's other meds out there that can help them cope with those side effects! My dr prescribed me Propranolol (a beta blocker) for anxiety & Amitriptolene for sleep. Seriously, it's a hard choice between which was worse, the voices or the side effects but life was SO much better with the meds to make you chill! I hope this helps & whatever meds are being used are working!!

[@getraptureready777]

& oops! Just saw he's 19...I thought he was 9! Still, hope all is well for you both! There ARE solutions! Don't give up!

[@LeahPhoon]

You're so brave to be talking about your condition. :)

[@ciocanitoareacioc]

It is true patients with schizo are very intelligent .... I appreciate your videos. Stay safe !

[@johnwhite6751]

Wat if skitsofranic is a special ability to see and hear ghost? And see things thhe normal eye cant?

[@aprilturner6375]

My god, a beautiful mind is such a fantastic film! After watching it I checked that all my friends could be seen by other people, just in case

[@GreenSolarGarden]

I have not seen all of your videos but some ideas would be to tell us what kind of things you do to keep yourself busy and I would really like to hear about medications. It is difficult to get the right meds for some. Thank you for sharing. It helps.

[@docrobjob]

Hey I just wanted to say I think you're brave for telling people the truth about what we face. I think the word you were looking for was stigmatize. People know schizophrenia is a problem, but they don't want to admit schizophrenics themselves are not the problem. People have to learn to love us, just like we have to learn to cope, and it seems like we're doing our part, but society is pushing it under the rug. No one is aware how to help so they avoid us. Keep on educating. Much luv.

[@zimonslot]

Is there a way/method/thing you can do that makes the hallucinations disappear? Have you ever confronted voices/hallucinations that would make them disappear? like... touching?

[@misstuesy]

Can you talk about what you liked or didn't like in school. Why you think you can't make meals or what happens when you try. Thanks 😊 subscribed

[@janettaylor6178]

most people with schizophrenia are unaware that they are mentally ill. you seem to have a great understanding of schizophrenia, knowing that your delusions and hallucinations are not real. how did you reach this point? was it the medication? if so what medication are you on?

[@thePassionatePK]

I have panic disorder. This causes me to have severely delusional episodes where ill just be screaming uncontrollably and it feels like my entire world is crashing around me and no one even cades at all... Alongside that I also often experience tactile hallucinations. They are always at night. I feel like bugs are crawling under my skin or sometimes Im in bed and it feels like someone has sat down on the covers beside me. Its really scary.

[@diktatur90]

i love you man! just watched a bunch of your videos back to back. keep it up :)

[@jax6575]

game videos! that would be cool. I have a question about delusions and hallucinations I allways see eyes staring at me like human eyes and they are mad or scary looking in cracked doors, mirrors. why? what should I do?

[@chooselife5863]

Subscribed. Thanks for sharing your life with us.

[@Katherinegrey85]

I also have suffered from anxiety. I was doing well. But I had a few setbacks a few munths ago I have never felt anxiety like it. I felt like the walls were caving in people were looking at me. by the time I got home I was worn out. It was like a workout. and plus our kithen was being done the noise was a nightmare. I know it's not the same I'm sorry you have to go through this.😊 it wil get better.

[@sarahata22]

may be you can help me what do I do when he is really depressed and starts getting panic attacks. His brother once made a joke about him having a fat belly. He was upset the whole day for no reason I finally told him that he has to find a way to calm himself down because I cannot think for him. I do not know how to help him tell me what to do how to make him feel better or find a way to teach him to calm himself down

[@TheLight-mr2ur]

You can't help nobody unless you help yourself. Before you can bring anyone else out, you must bring yourself out. You must be strong with in yourself and stable if not. Whoever you are helping energies will seek back into you. You have to break free of the shackles before you can help others break free, or else it would just be the blind leading the blind. I have achieved the balance part without ever taken one single pill or making one doctor's appointment and no one who knows me in person knows what I go through on the inside because I never told anyone. I have one shackle off now I'm working on getting the other one off. The first one took a little over 10 years to get off. And I realized during one of my suicide attempts that I didn't want to die and I didn't want to talk to anyone so I had to find the mental strength within all the craziness that was going on to resolve it or I was going to die. It took years but I accomplished mental balance. Now I'm just stabilizing it. I'm almost there now I can take negativity from other people without letting it get to me I can just smile through it. And me looking at your videos you are on the same trailer that I was on that ultimately got me here. Even with your religious views I don't believe in religion either. I just believe in one source of Creator of all things. I can't even read the Bible anymore. When I believed in Jesus I always felt that the Bible was trying to imprison me because I had a higher mindset outside of the craziest in the Bible always telling you what you can and can't do without going to hell and that brought depression and anxiety to me and everytime I pick up a Bible and try to read it I think of that. But you will make it through this just hold on it got crazy for me before I made it through you strong enough I can tell. But I had to quit my job and go partially into isolation ( not fully ) but that was the best decision I ever made in my life. You got to understand that the voices are not going anywhere until you mentally deal with them. It best to hop Straight Into the Fire than to avoid it and let it draw you in like a magnet. It almost draw me in but before it did that I took a leap of faith and hopped in it. And within 4 months it changed me for the better. Going through the dark moments will be tough I was ready to give up, but I said hell no and I kept going. During that time you must listen to your inner Guidance the positive voice is the guidance. It takes a dramatic life change to get out. I came into the fire a totally different person than I am now. The positive voice is the stronger force behind the scene that knows best for you. And if you don't listen to it you won't make it out. Everything that it tells you to do is necessary for your mental health. And all your regrets and hurtful moments of the past you must deal with that too. And that person that you ultimately become is going to change the world. That positive soul that you wear before you came into the body will be living through you, and you're soul reasoning for coming to this earth was for a purpose. That positive voice is your soul leading you to the light. But it's by free will though your soul can't force you to do nothing that you constantly resist. And as far as the dark voices, you must learn to let them flow freely through your head without giving them emotional attention. Once you get to the point where they don't affect you at all they will slowly disappear. The beginning of this self treatment is hard, but as you comply to your higher self ( the positive voice ) it gets easier. Note: once you hop into that fire it's no way out ( but through it ) but at the end of it is beautiful though, I cried at the end. The only thing I could keep on saying is ( I made it ) hopping in that fire was the best decision I ever made because when I hopped and I was close to it anyway. I'm not totally at the end yet, but my worst days are behind me ( I know that for sure ). I'm 24 years old, and you are on the same trail that I was on keep going!!! And listen to your higher self, that's really important. Some of the things it tell you to give up you will not want to, but at the end of the road you will be happy that you did. I'm happy that I did and I'm a better person now. ( Be Ready ) when you hop into that fire I can't stress that enough. Be ready to listen to your higher self that's how you going to get through. Your higher self knows what's best for you better than anyone outside of you. If you are not ready to hop into the fire, don't do it. You have to be mentally ready for what's coming. Listen to positive music and watch positive things. I can even give you some of the songs that got me through it. They good R&B songs. Something that will calm down your mind. And meditate every day. Like I was saying you are on the same path that I was on that led me to this point. That's why I have faith in you that you will make it through, you are a strong person. Once you get through the fire your worst days will be behind you. You don't have schizophrenia remember that. It's too many negative things come with that label. I'm glad I never told anybody what I was going through because they would have tried to label me and put me on medicine. Which they make over 100 billion dollars off the people who take the medicine each year. They don't care about y'all, they care about y'all money. Them pills ain't doing nothing for y'all, but destroying y'all bodies and hiding the true gift of what we have. The only reason it get bad because we are not educated about it from the beginning and our Minds run crazy. And take the toxic people out of your life. They don't serve you no good. Don't take anyone else advice over your own inter advice unless it aligns with it and give you an higher-level idea of what you already know. Everybody's advice is not going to serve you good. The reason this message is so long is because I can't just tell you to hop into the fire and not tell you a way out. I didn't have nobody to tell me away out, I had to find it and trust my guidance. So I started to peep game, everytime I listened to my guidance I felt good afterwards. But when my guidance told me to do something and I did the opposite I felt worse. I was testing the waters. And me doing so gave me more faith in my inner guidance. Sometimes by you testing it and seeing the outcome gives you more faith in following it. You don't want to test it to much though, and don't test it on big situations either do it on small ones. It's just a faith booster. The stronger your faith is the better guidance you get. And the more willingly you will be to accept it. Build your foundation upon yourself. And nobody will never be able to break you. I consider myself as a rose that grew out of concrete. All Odds was against that Rose growing seeing as it was planet under concrete. But it burst through the concrete and bloomed. You are that Rose. Listen to Tupac "Baby Don't Cry", R-Kelly "I-believe-i-can-fly", Mariah Carey "anytime you need a friend" Johnny Gill "silent prayer" and Prince "Purple Rain". It's a good song and it'll help you. I shed tears hoping that you get through this, you can be a God to those whose lost in it and lead the way out from them ( p.s I don't call the source of all creation "god" and IT will be with you through your journey. Pray to IT, IT loves you and hurts when you hurts, and feels Joy when you feel Joy. IT lives within you ) Keep your head up and strong. I believe in you. I wouldn't have wrote all this if I didn't. You has what it takes to beat this, too. Our community needs you also. Don't give up on them. I ain't going to give up on them.

[@mjm8949]

I was about 3 mins into the video when I realized that I can't watch this, but I do have a question for you...are you a Christian or associated with any other religion? I'm asking because you seem to believe in demons and the devil. People literally think I'm a psycho because I believe demons are real even though they’re talked about in the Bible, but I guess I get it because not everyone believes the Bible or are religious.

[@Testosterooster]

Have you ever gotten angry or mad and yelled at the hallucinations ? It must be horrible to experience this wow.

[@chantelmowat9364]

Ur so strong!! I would not be able to deal if I were seeing the ring chick all the time. She is one scary girl! also I love ur taste in music and all ur videos :) Have you had any positive delusions?

[@senemozakin]

Thanks for sharing buddy!

[@littledreamer1998]

Maybe a video about: Hearing voices? How your parents deal with this? Of your furture perspective. Stay strong!

[@ellchristian]

Can you give me a description on like another video or a response on the similarity and differences from Hallucination drugs and being a schizophrenic in general?

[@Hiekr11]

I applaud your courage.

[@tralalakill]

I hope things get better for you.

[@emdodc8384]

also, I was bullied a lot younger.. and at 9 I wanted to die 'cause of that and they made me change school I never had more than 2 friends. Now, I have zero. Well, I met someone on craiglist doesn't know if it counts. Like I have really bad social anxiety most days I dont want to go out. I have manic attitudes and I had hearing hallucinations.. I hear my father's laugh sometimes so I ask him and he didnt... visual also (seeing someone thats not there in a car) etc what do you think?

[@burnpoet]

I love reading the comments. It's assurance I'm not alone. Praise!

[@default9033]

I feel you man I have visions of something peaking around doors and edges of rooms it looks like a creature with yellow eyes exploding from its I sockets and has razor sharp teeth always grinning and scratching at the area of peaking

[@LemonChieff]

As long as you take your meds and you know it's delusions it's ok, nobody can hurt you.

[@angelneal8188]

I'm schitzoaffective I use to hear and see things all the time around 2012 and I got diagnosed in 2013 but I still see things and I don't take medicine I use to have mental breakdowns and went to the mental hospital three times now I have a psychiatrist

[@emr5985]

What do you see and would you say that changing your philosophical perspective has an effect on what you see?

[@pamdewall4588]

Just keep doing what ur doing.ive been loyal to u for a while.i would miss u .i enjoy ur viove.kinda like music helps u.ur voice. Helps me.

[@ziganda26]

What meds are u taking now. You should do a vlog on all the meds you were on.

[@gizzost]

I also have schizophrenia. And also have delusions when I am not on my meds , but I sometime stop treatment because people tell me I don't need meds. And when I am not on meds I also have the delusion of the witch from the conjuring movie and that was before that movie came out of a woman crawling on the ground and I mean fast and of a ghost like figure that one only at night. But the same fear of being killed like if some one is always after me for some reason. The worst is when my thoughts are so strange I then keep to my self and soon have to be hospitalized soon after. The meds do make me have slow reactions and other side effects.

[@iamstateofbeing7330]

I don't have schizophrenia or I was diagnosed yet. Anyways I have a lot of hallucinations where I thought the devil was talking to me and I have had delusions to where I believed someone is following me everyday. so far that has died down but the hallucinations haven't. sometimes I don't think they are hallucinations I think they are real. I need help really badly because I have other problems too that make this problem I have worse. someone help or give me advise...

[@jimjackle2739]

After several years of research, here is how I cured my brother's mental illness. Decades ago he was was given the labels of paranoid schizophrenic, bi polar, manic depressive and given handfuls of pills to take, that had horrific side effects. When I asked his psychiatrists if he could ever be cured, they all said no, that schizophrenia couldn't be cured only treated. Don't believe the psychiatrists that tell you there is no cure. Don't be intimidated by their title or college degrees. I have several graduate degrees and can tell you that they are just pieces of paper that mean absolutely nothing. We now have the internet and the collective knowledge of the world at our fingertips. I finally had enough of these morons that were too stupid to cure my brother, and asked God in the name of Jesus to show me what was causing my brother's problems, and here is what he showed me. I started searching for all things known to cause psychosis and also started learning how the brain operates. Then I started running my own blood tests on my brother through online labs such as request a test, to determine the imbalances in his brain and body. Here is what was causing his problems. 1. an elevated free copper level. 2. a low B12, which was causing an elevated methylmalonic acid level and this elevated methylmalonic acid was blocking enzymes that convert ammonia to urea in the urea cycle. An elevated ammonia causes psychosis, hallucinations, paranoia, depression, insomnia, and many other things. An elevated methylmalonic acid causes a host of problems too, and eventually eats the myelin sheaths off the nerves that contain the electrical signals. Once the B12 is brought back to normal, the myelin sheaths will reform within 2 years. As for the elevated free copper, it also causes psychosis, paranoia, hallucinations, and insomnia. The free copper also enters the brain, oxidizes neurotransmitters and short circuits the brain. Free or unbound copper is toxic, and a conductor of electricity, and the brain is an electrochemical organ, so it wreaks havoc on brain signals. Copper bound to ceruloplasmin protein is non toxic and actually used by the brain and body to properly function. Where did the free copper come from? He has a defective ATP7B gene, which doesn't properly bind copper. Anyway, get these 4 tests done. 1. direct measurement of free copper (test number 279071 at lab corp). This is not a serum copper test, so make sure you get the direct measurement of free copper. I use lab corp in Oklahoma, so the test number may be different in your state or country. Normal free copper level should be 0-10 mcg/dl. Anything over that and you have a problem. 2. Methylmalonic acid test, which will show the B12 at the tissue level. 3. serum B12. 4. Ammonia blood test. If your free copper is elevated only take zinc or ammonium tetrathiomolybdate (TM)to lower it. Don't take the old copper chelating drug penacillimine, because it is too aggressive at mobilizing the copper and can flood the brain with even more copper, leaving a person in a vegetative state. If a doctor tries to use this copper chelating drug, just say no. Zinc or TM are much safer and more effective. TM can be obtained from a compounding pharmacist and you will need a doctor's prescription to get it. Zinc is slower at chelating the copper and may take 2 or 3 years, but it will get the copper level down. Zinc needs to be taken without food one hour before or 2 hours after meals. If you take zinc with food it binds it up and renders it inactive. Zinc pulls copper from the blood through intestinal cells and also blocks the absorption of copper. Also stop eating high copper foods, such as liver and shellfish. Get your free copper level down to 10 mcg/dl or lower and you will say bye bye to those voices in your head and paranoia. Also if your methylmalonic acid is high, this is due to a low B12 at the tissue level, so have your doctor give you B12 injections until the M acid drops back down. You may have an intrinsic factor protein defect in your stomach that won't allow you to absorb B12 if taken orally, so go with the shots, or take it sublingually, which means under the tongue. If the M acid is high, the ammonia will be high too, and there are drugs to lower ammonia. The ammonia and M acid will eventually go down on their own once the B12 problem is corrected. Once your B12 normalizes this will make you feel like a new person. According to my research, these 2 things, a high free copper and low B12 are causing most of the mental illness in the world. I have learned that this cure for schizophrenia has been around since the 1960's when Dr. Carl C, Pfeiffer discovered copper was causing schizophrenia and he wound up curing 20,000 schizophrenics over his lifetime. When Pfeiffer was doing his research, it was long before the genome was mapped and the ATP7B gene identified, which led to the discovery of free unbound copper, but in some of his old writings he mentioned that he theorized the copper might be unbound to ceruloplasmin copper causing the problems, which is a testament to this man's intelligence. According to him, once he started curing patients and getting them off their meds, big pharma spent millions to block his cure from getting into medical schools. Big pharma doesn't want anything cured, because they make billions treating diseases. Another thing I forgot to mention, I have tested several brands and types of zinc and found the least upsetting to the stomach is "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. I'm not being paid to promote anything, but found this zinc was effective at lowering free copper and also easy on the stomach. You can buy this zinc online and find it by googling "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. Take 50 mg of zinc 3 times a day, one hour before or two hours after meals. Once your free copper is lowered and your schizophrenia cured, which may take a few years with zinc, you will need to still take at least 50 mg once a day for the rest of your life to prevent the copper from building back up and causing a relapse. You can take TM and be decoppered in 8 weeks so you might wanna get a prescription for this. Also what I did for my brother was left him on his medication while I was decoppering him and bringing his B12 up. Once I corrected what was causing his problems I started gradually weaning him off his medications and today he lives a normal life free of medication and cured of schizophrenia, bi polar and manic depressive. Anyway good luck, and please share this cure with others on the internet so we can get rid of this needless suffering. God Bless

[@maggiejam5501]

I want to say something but I don't know what :( I can not even comprehend what you are going through man. I'm so sorry.

[@c.e.brenkman9384]

Is it an illness or could it be a gift bro

[@bishstopit2117]

So.. When my brother has ''a bad day'' should I like spend time with him even tho he'd say ''go away'' ? :/ Please, help me :(

[@wanderingmystic5587]

Have you ever had any positive experiences with "schizophrenia"? Have you ever seen/heard angels instead of demons? I also have "schizophrenia" and have had many positive experiences with angels, gods, and Native-American spirits. They sing to me sometimes, very beautiful music. I don't see this as a "mental-illness"; I see it as a divine gift to communicate with the divine.

[@romacanada]

is it possible to hallucinate something positive like "Britney Spears" :D ? i'm just curious...

[@necronyx7176]

Look up schizophrenia US vs India. In a lot of countries where English isn't the first language, it is not uncommon for hallucinations to be somewhat pleasant.

[@gonzoc1923]

hey man i got heavy into drugs young and ever since then i would see shit and here shit and i felt someone trying to kill me one night when i was sitting in my chair i felt hands around my throat and the best way to get it to go away is to swing at the air it helps me think im fighting them but i cant stop voices just seeing shit so i feel u man

[@ASMR-XI-ZUI]

My craziest ongoing delusion is that a man is in love with me. He is communicating telepathically. Through media,music,radio. This is erotomania (obsessive love). It happen twice. The first at a new job with this attractive guy. I was sectioned and lost my job. The next man has been with a celebrity. Its very exhausting because I feel forced to like them. I wanted it to stop. I just wanted to be left alone. I have Schizoeffective and OCD too. I have little motivation for life.

[@Leries0]

just hearing you ramble on randon things is entertaining enough... draw a heart on your mirror as a reminder to make a video. and then draw one thing on the mirror of something interesting that happened in a day. and then start your video from that one thing. and let the rambling ensue :)

[@missmadnesswavelength8163]

can you make a video about what you think happens in the afterlife ? do you believe in Buddhism or reincarnation ? a famous scientist said energy cannot be destroyed only transfered or transformed

[@craigwarren]

There are a lot of ignorant comments on this post. Just ignore them, take your meds and get better soon. Your videos are really great, keep them coming.

[@r4h4al]

A Beautiful mind is an amazing film watched it again the other day.

[@bobschannel3098]

I know this is a bit personal and i'm sorry if i am upsetting you with this but what did the girl look like? was she ghostly or just a normal girl plus how old?

[@xevsetter1201]

The game you talked about I saw on wake-up ch4 tv here in Ny. If you google search "brain game" there is a repote about it from the BBC. I still dont know how to get it thou. Well anyways good luck in your travels thru M.I. -With luve Xev from Ny.

[@SrdjanSrky]

I also thought of myself being god, but never had any hallucinations, I actually think that all of us are gods, not just me, I think that everyone is god in a sense that we are a gods of our reality... Example, if I think that I am demon then I am demon, if I think that I am god I am god... like, we are just imaginations of ourselves... We call ourselves humans, but that is just a name for this experience and our body, actually we are just infinite consciousness that is permanently "trapped" in body with 5 senses that decode reality, but when we take some drugs like lsd, mescaline or something "hallucinogenic" we actually have a different perception of this "life", or experience we call reality. Just to let you know, no you are not Schizophrenic(mainstream media calls it that way, don't let them full you and make you believe you are ill or something) You just have more expanded perception... Also, have you used mind expending substances that mainstream call illegal drugs?

[@SrdjanSrky]

Learn to control those thoughts and hallucinations in a way that will pleasure you, and remember they are just thoughts made our of words, and words are small mouth noises.

[@Oneirophrenic123]

Srdjan Mijailovic What you are suggesting can be dangerous and I hope that you are more cautious with these suggestions. Suggesting drugs to people that already have delusions is a really bad idea. It is a nice concept with interesting ideas that you proposed but you should think about why none if these things are measurable and why there is an extremely small amount of people that experience these things. You should be able to shift your viewpoint and think about other perspectives too. For example, that maybe there is nothing more and if you fuck up your brain, you also fuck up your perception and how you interpret things. You hear what he is saying, delusional and paranoid, definitely DON'T suggest him drugs, especially not hallucinogens! People are actually suffering, and what you suggest is likely to make it worse, this is even backed up by multiple studies, so please, you are free to believe whatever you want, be it spirits or gods or whatever but please don't suggest people drugs who are already suffering!

[@evahanson6804]

i really hope you get better because you look like a really good person and need to get a real good life. :)