iJessUPDATE | TOO MANY FEELS

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This seems like a long video considering it starts out with me saying that I have nothing to say. For some reason, last year was ROUGH for me; exactly why, I can't rightly say. I do think that I'm coming out of my hermit cave to see if my shadow is visible... I think that's how the saying goes. Anyways, here's to all of you who kept yourselves together by sheer dint of will. Let's see what we can do with this year, shall we?
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[@susan_halla]

You do you, and we’ll be here. ❤

[@ijessup]

thank you, susan 🖤

[@piafitoussi]

Yes, that ! ❤

[@jeno264]

Yair! 💖💖

[@pernillemakholm645]

Yes! ❤

[@Terragiggles]

Organizing and cleaning is my favorite lol, I'd watch a time lapse of it even if there is no big reveal. I like watching stuff move fast

[@JohnKrill]

Enjoy.

[@82gamerprincess31]

The one thing I’ve learned that has really kept me going in life is that when someone is a garbage person to you there are 10 more who are incredible and kind. The a-holes and the negativity is loud but it’s never the majority.

[@CorsoWorkshop]

Those "uninteresting" stuff? I don't know about others, but I would enjoy watching that! Give us the 8 hours unedited version of ijessup organising ASMR. Rooting for you Jessie :)

[@minime7375]

I wouldn’t be bored watching you clean, organize, etc, especially if it’s in the desert house, I think everyone knows there’s going to be no big reveal for a while. Unfortunately, not a fan of Instagram. We miss Gary.😊

[@ijessup]

i'll give you more gary; i promise 🐿🖤

[@greggoodale7297]

I'm so sorry you got burgled. That's my biggest worry with my re-build (plus junkyard) project. And having gutted and begun the rebuild, your plan is good. One wall at a time. One floor at a time. One ceiling at a time. And don't feel guilty about keeping the world up to date. It's your home, your timeline, your life. We are not entitled to any of it. Just know that the crumbs are enough to inspire and change lives like mine. I remain grateful.

[@ijessup]

well, greg... that is just about the most supportive thing a girl could hear. thank you 🖤🖤🖤

[@I3urnHard]

How about a small shipping container on the property for storage through the rebuild? Easy to modify for more locking that cannot be bolt cut in seconds. Afterwards it can be used for many other fun projects 👁👄👁👍

[@virtualfather]

Be REALLY KIND to yourSELF😊😊😊😊😊

[@ritagary3645]

You can rent a semi trailer container to store your supplies. Put a heavy duty lock on it.

[@42apprentice]

A violin-playing knife maker, what’s not to love? I’m sorry those buggers took your stuff, may they choke on their peanuts. I’m glad folks have be kind to you, you deserve it. Onwards & upwards girl! x

[@hollyjobitner3285]

Choke, heck, how about even a mild anaphylactic reaction to the peanuts. At least a scratchy rash. 💙

[@leahr.2620]

I happened to think of you today and wondered how you were, sorry someone took your tools, take each bump in the road as it comes and keep going forward.

[@angieemm]

Your analytics may say otherwise, but people like me will watch all of the stuff you're doing there, as mundane as you think it is. I like the process, the transformation, the visuals of the progress, even if there's no "big project payoff" going on. So if it's not too much of an emotional strain, I know I would appreciate continued videos of all the little stuff. The little stuff matters too.

[@ijessup]

you got it, angie 🖤

[@kazoosc]

it was nice to see you channel pop up in my feed. some beautiful memories. sorry to hear about the burglary. I will watch even if you don't have a "big reveal" .. it's more about your attitude and sensibility

[@luella2u152]

It's so good to see you back. I had been wondering where you were. I miss your videos with Garry and his buddies and your progress on the poop house. Looking forward to your next adventure in renovation or just making something. Again, good to see you.

[@rzarria]

Planning and buying materials is so daunting. My mind does not work that way and I always get stuck. You say you “don’t do anything” but you are. You are sharing your good days and bad with an audience who may be experiencing some of the same struggles. If your videos make even one person feel not so alone then you are doing something great.

[@Norrinsgirl]

I missed you. Glad you are okay.

[@beekwa]

I would watch a live feed of you sorting a pile of rubble. Organization is the key to my heart!

[@bethsmith9124]

How wonderful to see you back on KZbin. Yes, there are 'shitty' people, but I am glad you also were blessed with the great and wonderful people out there. As a girl who loves and uses her Gorilla cart... I feel you! May 2023 be a much better year for you and I look forward to seeing how things develop.

[@ShangHaiku]

Being robbed is a horrible violation, worse because you have no idea what face to place that anger on. Nobody feels fully safe anymore. Finding your comfort again with that space takes time. My heart goes out to you.

[@hangryzombit535]

I also had an interesting year in 2023. Feel free to keep reading if you're interested in hearing my story: A man forced entry into my home through the front door(damanding I call him a cab and insisting he was being chased by some bad people) where me and my son were alone and it was the scariest thing that has ever happened to me; after calling him a taxi and attempting to block him from going any further into my home a silver car stopped in front of the house (not a taxi), I asked him if these were the bad people trying to get him and he got spooked, pushed past me and ran through my house and out the back door. My two dogs chased him out barking and he jumped the fence. I locked everything up after he left including the windows while at the same time I called the police, then I ran out the front to inform the taxi driver who turned up that his fair had left. Literally 1 minute after I'd called the police and done this the cops turned up with a sniffer dog, they had been hot on this guys tail. I told the police I'd called him a cab but that he took off over the fence. They checked the place and gave me a number to call if the man came back. Later I found out the police managed to catch him trying to leave the area in a taxi about 40 minutes after he'd forced his way into my house. He had 5 warrents and they found a knife on him after the arrest! After the event I felt invaded and helpless, I always lock everything up even in hot weather, I'm often afraid to answer the front door, only doing so when I'm expecting a parcel. These sorts of events can shake a person to the core, we should feel safe in our own homes, not scared and paranoid. I'm really sorry you were burgled ijessup, I understand completly how this sort of thing can have an affect on someone, I'm glad there are still kind people willing to help a woman when she's down. Stay strong! I look forward to the next video, you are so inspiring!

[@brucebutcher7838]

Don't care how long it's been, just glad to see you!!!!!

[@tnkrrbort214]

Don't be too hard on yourself regarding posting here, you are living your best life. Sorry about the hard times and sh*tty people. You're a treasure.

[@hexabob57]

2023 is definitely the year to get things back on track. I always look forward to your videos. You've been missed!

[@michaelmeans9187]

Rent a truck: Go to the contractor desk at your big box store, Home Depot, Lowes, etc. Sign up as a contractor, and sign up for the in store credit card. I get 10% off all purchases at Lowes and delivery is only $20. It adds up. Way cheaper than renting a truck. In my state, I signed up as a sole proprietor. I don't know what the laws are in your state, but it is probably something similar. Super simple; it only took about 15 minutes, and it saves me thousands of dollars per year.

[@h.b.4058]

1. ❤️ you. 2. I think you might underestimate how much we love to watch you "just organize". 3. Sounds like you need a @MarkRober collab, to set up a Home Alone style set of boobie traps for bad guys trying to take your stuff. How dare they mess with your poop house dreams!

[@kevinnye5132]

Sorry to hear of the burglary and must have been understandably upsetting for you. You gotta train your squirrel squad into full blown Ninja warriors to protect the homestead when your not there 😁, really want to see you go forward this year and build your safe place dream ❤️.

[@susanmayo4524]

So sorry to hear about the burglary. All the best for moving forward and sending hugs 🫂 if you need them.😊

[@virtualfather]

You will likely never know all the people you are helping in your most honest display of humanity. 😊

[@MattTester]

I don't use Instagram so missed everything, sorry to hear about the burglary. Need to train up guard Garys to gang up bite the ankles of anyone who tries it again. Would be great to see you at Makers Central again some day, can't believe that was almost 5 years ago.

[@sarahvandekendelaere8761]

I'm so sorry this happened to you, sweet you... It is such a weird feeling when people come in and take your stuff. A couple of months ago, someone broke into our garage and stole... All of our meat. For heaven's sake, I had just restocked. It is frustrating, but let's just hope that these people filled.a real need they had? Anyway... Big hugs.

[@blackbearhiker1420]

You say you don't "Do Anything" but you share and are genuine and everyone is looking for some of that now a days! Loved the update, it tied in the Instagrams well!

[@WhoWhatWhereWhenWhy7]

It’s so good to hear from you! Would love to hear more about any projects you’re working on, especially at the Poop House. But no pressure! Do it in your own time. You don’t owe any of us anything. I think many of us are just drawn to your creativity, humor, and honesty. Isn’t that awesome?

[@candicewaller403]

"I keep thinking myself out of actually starting" gurl, do I ever resonate with this thought right here! For me, it's the perfect storm of perfectionism, procrastination and generalized anxiety disorder. Terrified to start cause "what if it's not EXACTLY the way I want." So I push it off indefinitely. Whenever that happens and I get sick of myself, I make utterly exhaustive lists. And then I assign tasks on my lists to specific days or weekends. Every once in a awhile, I even get some of them done. 😉

[@cjames282]

So glad your back. Love watching the progress INCLUDING the cleaning and organizing. 18:57

[@gaffyh1745]

Only the other day i was wondering why you hadn't updated us on the poop house! I had no idea about the break in. That really sucks but glad it's all turned around.

[@sussybaka5322]

I'm glad you're back! Take things at your own pace! I look forward to enjoying the journey

[@michellemcdonald7521]

Hi, great to see you back on deck. Take the time you need. Looking forward to your progress as it happens. Take care,

[@largefamilyruralliving7434]

Sometimes it's helpful to have someone help you start and then you will be on your way. I have a real hard time starting and doing new things too.

[@patriciawilliamsn9605]

That breaking was awful and I’m sorry it happened but I’m so glad you are back. Love how all the critters come to you!

[@mikeduda3173]

Just glad you're back! I've always kept the faith. Never unsubscribed, never bashed, just waited... Patiently. Ok.. back to work.

[@Nono-hk3is]

I totally relate to the resistance to doing new things. We have to focus on the fact that these things are doable, and that we aren't alone in this world.

[@wonder841]

I’d watch you sand or clean or anything… love your authenticity and realness!!!

[@jessicamack88]

When my house was burgled, they stole part of my rock collection. There's no accounting for what the low lives who do this will go for. Just be prepared so even if they come back they won't get anything. Tools are easy to pawn so make yours easy to identify. Take care of yourself. Things can be replaced, but you cannot.

[@jeanine6492]

We will be here when you are ready. All the best always.

[@CelesteSeeker]

My husband and I got robbed early last year too. We have a similar situation as you, the place wasn't liveable and needed work and we had tools and supplies stored there. We lost it all and couldn't afford to replace it so we were just out of luck. We didn't have insurance and the police knew who it was but couldn't prove it because he sold the stuff, so we weren't able to get any of it back. Its incredibly disheartening. I hope you were able to install a security system, thats one of our goals for this year.

[@jamesclark6142]

Got burgled! That's terrible... Sorry that happened for you.

[@TokyoMakes]

I'm happy to see you! I know that so many people are just totally depleted after 3 years of COVID. As someone bipolar myself, I was always running on empty pre-pandemic, so it's really meant a massive slide into not really coping at all. I think a lot of ND folks are really finding things so rough going these days. Neurodivergency in a world that constantly expects you to be neurotypical is rough and exhausting, the condition is exhausting, managing others' expectations and well meaning advice is exhausting, coping with the loss of social support structures because everyone is wrung out by the pandemic is exhausting and the uncertainty is also exhausting. Be kind to yourself! Try not to beat yourself up for not being able to do everything all at once. Thank you for sharing your life with us xx

[@SchysCraftCo.]

Very one needs a little break once in a while. Can’t wait to see what the future holds for you. Keep up the great craftsmanship and hard work. Keep Making. God bless.

[@wileycoyotesr8623]

I hope you are able to install a cloud based security camera. If the camera is stolen you may have video of the culprit. Perhaps the squirrels will act as security guards and bite would-be thieves. After all, the squirrels are well paid/fed.

[@panope4251]

You are one of my biggest internet role models (and I'm 34)! Sometimes I doubt my own abilities, whether I'm too soft or too hard, should I accept help or should I grit my teeth more. From my experience the best and most important thing is to just step back a little bit and look at it from a different perspective - or getting in touch with other people, some of whom can give you faith in humanity again. Believe in yourself like we believe in you :) greetings from Germany

[@Gforceracing20]

I'm very sorry to hear someone stole from such a kind soul. Here's to a positive 2023

[@raquelsepulveda1089]

You are fantastic. You are loved by your community. More of us than you realize need to hear that we are not alone in our worlds. More people than you realized shared similar experiences during that year… you helped put a voice to what it’s like to struggle through life’s ups and downs and for that We thank you.

[@Kua1996]

Just start! Learn, struggle, learn, feed the squirrels, learn!

[@dorotheaisserstedt9238]

Ich freue mich, Dich und deine Eichhörnchen wiederzusehen. Auf Instagram hatte ich keine Freude, weil die Texte oft nicht übersetzt werden konnten, sorry. Es tut mir leid, dass böse Menschen bei Dir eingebrochen sind, das hast Du nicht verdient. Um so mehr freut mich die Hilfsbereitschaft der Community. Vielleicht kannst Du darüber so denken eines Tages: es lehrt einen, dass man nicht immer alles allein schaffen kann, sondern manchmal auf die Hilfe anderer Menschen angewiesen ist, egal, ob man will oder nicht. Jedenfalls wünsche ich Dir alles Gute, nicht nur auf Deiner Baustelle und viel Freude mit den Eichhörnchen.

[@ijessup]

i think you have the right idea about it. thank you, dorothea 🖤

[@Beruthiel45]

I've been thinking of you a lot recently so I'm very glad to see you, and I'm so sorry someone violated your little piece of the earth. I'm kind of glad though that you weren't there at the time. I haven't known about your troubles before today as I've never signed up for Instagram. I pretty much had to back away from Facebook last year and I even got behind on KZbin too. My husband was very ill a year ago and since then our life has changed a lot so my time isn't my own. I must say I strongly object to you saying that in your videos of your poophouse, that you don't do anything. You work! 👍👍👍 In the olden days when I was young back in England building sites would be fenced around but they actually used to cut circular holes at the right height for people to look and see what the chaps were doing in there. It's very soothing watching other people work. I almost think it's a vicarious feeling of achievement that we get from watching work be done. I am terribly behind in my house. But I'll watch you working at yours with great pleasure. Take care and bless, I'm very glad that you are sort of okay and I'm sending some belated love and hugs that I couldn't send before now. 💖😘🤗 Don't be a stranger on KZbin - even a little quick 'hello I'm alright' would be most welcome. If you can manage it. 💗

[@corriec1216]

Ahhhhh!!! Emotional rollercoaster!!! Stoked you posted! Beautiful heartwarming Italian saga!!! Grrrrr! they stole Gary's nut can?!?!? Mama Bear hackles raised!!!! Awww, fantastic peeps giving help!!! So, glad you are safe and happy----warm and fuzzy contentedness!!! 🤗🤗🤗❤️

[@susanmarten278]

Yay! She is back! Missed you and Gary. I am sorry about the break in, don't let it stop you please. You rock!

[@lonmcclellan2414]

I love how humble you are. Never change dear..we got you...

[@ryanclayton845]

Sorry to hear about the theft, Jess. 😕 Thanks for sharing though. Glad to see you back. I resonate with the friction when starting new things, especially those you haven’t done before. Looking forward to seeing how you get along this year. I believe in you.

[@janmcclure6974]

Big hug to you! Sounds like 2022 was quite a year for you … both good and bad. When you’re ready, we’ll be here. You are both appreciated and admired by so many! Your creativity, your outlook on life and your smile have been missed! You do you and take all the time you need. ❤

[@sheilaadels1384]

I just wanted to comment that I could watch your cleaning and organizing videos all day, they are soothing and don't underestimate how many people live to just zone out to soothing content! Also we all have times of wanting to just dissociate with tech or whatnot to soothe us, don't feel too bad about that! Especially since you had a bumpy last couple months! Just follow what sparks joy in you and lights you up and your path will be exactly as intended ❤️❤️much love and hugs

[@babbetto1]

I was crying with you. It sucks so much to have people steal from you. So so much. I’ve missed you and I’ve missed Gary. I could watch you and Gary just be for hours if that says anything. I’m thrilled you had a huge community come together for you, just know, everyone needs help in some form or another. Chin up, we here for you and with you.

[@LadyTamika]

I really enjoyed hearing from you. somehow you always were in my thoughts with your project. All the very best

[@FarahAlharthi6]

I swear two days ago you came to my mind I was like I’m missing that lady

[@cameron8238]

The people you meet in Italy seem so awesome. Sad that you were burglarized. I know the feeling. Very unnerving. Glad to see you back on. Stay strong. Looks like you are.

[@cartwheelsinthezendo]

Love watching your channel. Sorry the past year has been so tough for you. Looking forward to watching you learn as you go when updating your place.

[@TheMyssLK]

I literally thought about you the other day and wondered how you’ve been. I’m so sorry to hear about your place. I hope everything gets restored. I’m rocking with you on this journey until you call it quits! Thank you for being an inspiration.

[@angeloangelojoseph1494]

Luved the Italy trip, people can sense your Good Vibe. Sux you and Gary were burgled! There's Meanies out there. Hope you make progress on the homestead this year. Don't get discouraged.

[@sgsax]

The trip to Italy looked lovely and healing. Such a wonderful chance to meet amazing people. When your house was burgled, it was heartbreaking, but the response from everybody was beautiful. You recently had a video update on what the property looks like now, and I was blown away. Knowing what you started with, and seeing what it looks like now in nothing short of amazing. Can't wait to see you rebuild it into your own desert oasis. Take care, and be well. Thanks for sharing.

[@jessem.2807]

Welcome back! Looking forward to more of your videos!

[@sherryu]

thanks, Jess. Always love hearing from you. 💜

[@joyce52]

Holy Cow!!!!!!!!!!!! You are back. I have been wondering where you have been. I just hoped you were OK. So happy that you were getting to do things that you wanted to do and travel a bit. I am so sorry that someone took all the tools that you need to work on your little home. I would make sure you had all you need if I could. I really hate that I can't, but I am still your friend and will watch you. I do not go on Instagram at all. I don't know how. Old age stinks for the most part. 💙

[@KrisanthiaMum]

What a wonderfully disastrous year you’ve had 😮 You are an amazing young lady and only good things should happen in your life. So good to see you here on the Tube!!! It makes me angry and sad all at the same time that some low life would take your joy. Stay safe and I’ll be here whenever you come back. Peace and Love

[@randyriggs4575]

Thank you for the update, it is wonderful to hear form you. I understand getting your stuff stolen sucks and yet you reported some amazing adventures in this post - good for you!! Don't live your life for your YT channel - live your live for YOU! I do hope the violin is still part of your life. Blessings.

[@patricklaughrey8727]

We've missed you we were worried if the squirrels were ok

[@karenkeefe2160]

So happy to see you again! I’m sorry that you’ve been go through some stuff. Stay strong and know that even though you don’t see us we are here thinking of you and wishing you well!

[@melissabaugh691]

I was thinking just 2 days ago that I missed seeing your videos. And look what popped up! So glad to see this :)

[@lorenehughes]

I'm so happy for this update, I'm glad you're doing well and that you are doing you!

[@bkupkee]

Simply AWESOME to see you back!!!

[@gennygrim9140]

Yay, so glad to see you back! And wow, what a shitty thing that someone burgled your house. No wonder you needed time off.

[@adriennedull332]

Jess, I have followed you, human, sharing your life experiences with us. You are a daughter, sister, friend, niece. or granddaughter, probably to a bunch of us that follow along with you. Perhaps hard for you to hear but, we love you. You're honest and real and approachable, even when you think you aren't. Keep doing what you do. We will keep coming with you. 🙏❤

[@Jenlightenment]

You are almost literally another, younger me… I feel your struggle so much. The thing I have learned… It’s your path, in your time, with your priorities based on your experiences and the growth areas that you choose to focus on. Having the awareness and reflection you show here with such authenticity is all that truly matters. Thank you for sharing this with us all. Baby steps is absolutely fine when you need it to be… big leaps happen whenever they do, if they do, and just like everything, including the good, this too shall pass. Life ebbs and flows, finding our own balance with where we are each at in the river of life. Much Love and Big Hugs!! ✨🤗💜✨

[@karenmarshall7056]

Glad to see you back again I’ve missed your vids

[@nedasay6978]

It's good to see you around these parts... Happy new year to you. Best of luck for the rebuild. i'll be watching it and on insta

[@cindyjones1270]

You've been missed. I'm really sorry for the break in. People are evil sometimes. I'm happy that you're back and always look forward to seeing you.

[@GardenerPhyl]

Aw I’m so sorry that you’ve experienced such heartache. Be kind and patient with yourself. Everything happens in good time. Do what feeds your soul. 🤗🐿🐿🐿🐿

[@some-random-video]

Love your sense of humour. Every your video makes me smile. Thank you. 💕

[@lauraschneider2413]

Glad you are alright, you just go on being you and I am here for it when ever that is

[@Tim-57]

Hey MissJess🙂 Wonderful to see you again. Seems you have had quite the 9+ months. Keep taking care of yourself and I look forward to more of your projects.

[@MsSherrydarling]

You are not alone! That trip to Italy must have fed your soul so much! We'll be here whenever you're ready. Last year has been a challenge for many. It's done and time to look ahead 🤗❤️🇨🇦

[@MrDonkrypton]

Hey, Hi! So nice to see you also here again! Missed you! Thumbs up and thanks for the update - I wish you a luckier and even better year than 2022!

[@jamesazahn6842]

It's good to see you're back! Quit the past year for you, but the most important thing is that you're safe and healthy. I look forward to your future vedios, they're inspiring and fun. "Thanks" for sharing your life and your eventures with us all, it's very much appreciated! Until next time be safe and adventurous.

[@Jessica-us3gh]

So happy to see you on KZbin again!

[@joyce52]

So happy to see that face again. I did not realize all this was going on for you. I feel bad about all your "down" problems. Our world has become full of people like that. I did miss you because I had no one to make crazy comments about all that you were working on. Glad to see you smiling again and I am not on Instagram, so here is the only place I will be. Good luck and you are still on my subscriber list.

[@robshamel3210]

Have an awesome year! Thx for the updates.

[@TheSteveAS]

Hey Jes! Thanks for the lovely update. Your trip to Italy with your sister sounds incredible! What memories you made! I too struggle with getting started on larger projects. One trick that works for me is to set “artificial” deadlines for myself. For example, I invited friends to stay in our (currently) unfinished guest bedroom 6 weeks from now. So now I have 5 weeks to procrastinate, and one week to finish patching, painting and trimming out the guest bedroom! 😉 Sounds like maybe your first build project should be a lockable shed for all your tools. ☹️ With booby traps.

[@paulpritchett1065]

I am so sorry to hear about these lowest people taking from you. However, it is awesome that you had the experience with the knife maker. Please know that I am a big fan of yours and you are way stronger than you think. So few people will put themselves out there the way you have or even take on such a huge task as the house recovery. Please keep up the incredible work and share what you are willing too. God bless and be safe.

[@MaryGatdula]

You made me cry! I hope that when you get moved in there you will consider getting a really big dog! It scares me to think of you out there by yourself, considering the burglary. I've missed your videos, and hope I see you again soon, but I will stick around in any case.

[@johnsisk5914]

Hey! Glad to hear that you've found your way to this new spot. I'm one of the ones that hope to see you before another year is over. I respect all that you do and the way in which you do it. "talking myself into not doing it..." That sounds like me a lot. I can identify with that. Great strides to keep going when the sh!@ty people force their way into your life. Sounds like you have a community of very unsh*%ty people to lean on every once in awhile. We all need that support now and again. I don't do Insta so I look forward to seeing ou here...when you show yourself and your progress and your brilliant projects. Respect and emotional support from Atlanta, GA. Peace to you.