IN THE HOSPITAL! - again... and you'll never guess what I have!

Back in the hospital for a few days, due to my GI issues. the sort-of-diagnosis I got eventually, which seems to be quite accurate, is a bit hilarious...

[@nancybeveridgetaylor3256]

As a hospice nurse I am a fierce advocate for adequate pain control. Pain IS THE 5TH VITAL SIGN, LISTEN TO YOUR PATIENTS. We have gone so far the other way in pain management, patients know what their pain is, especially patients who are in end stage disease. 😓 drs and nurses working with or meeting a patient in end stage disease in the ER, etc, LISTEN TO THEM. HEAR THEM.

[@proudmarinemomma827]

Nancy Beveridge Taylor I’m a nurse as well and when I worked in the ER, I listened to my patients and fought for them. I have MS, osteoporosis, asthma and SVT. I’ve had a lot of pain along with dozens of ortho surgeries on bilateral legs, Achilles’ tendon and cervical spine ( as well as c sections and other abdominal surgeries). I’ve been blessed to have a team of docs who’ve listened to my complaints and took it serious. One example was: I was in the hospital for a severe MS flare up. I started having more pain in my lumbar area that was out of the norm from what I’d been experiencing. I KNEW something was wrong but wasn’t quite sure what it was. I asked my Neurologist to run an MRI of my full spine to see if I had new lesions. I thought perhaps that was it. I just really felt that they would find something. He did run a full MRI and they discovered I had an emergent cervical spine issue. I had 2 fully herniated disc in my neck and was leaking spinal fluid. I had to have emergency surgery. My ortho surgeon stated that if I’d have fallen or made a wrong move, I’d have been paralyzed. I have the most amazing surgeon and he’s performed life saving surgeries on me through the years. He’s also ALWAYS been right on top of my pain and helped me so much. I loved your response and that you advocate for your patients. God bless you!

[@afropunk9141]

I’m with you Nancy . This fear of addiction campaign has made it miserable for those people who actually need pain control

[@Welshpatriots]

You guys deserve medals. You are gods true angels. God bless you for the amazing work you do.

[@sunnydaygina]

Sweet Nancy, God bless you. Now that Covid has entered our lives, I have been through no pain relief or no treatment as patients used to receive. I'm not really addressing this towards you but it's not fair to those who are suffering and can't get our attention. Keep being a great RN. I'm a RN as well but can't work anymore. I also can't get answers or tx. 🙏🏼😭

[@laurawilliams5363]

Nancy: Spot on!!!

[@welshlad6427]

Her last vlog. Still positive even tho in absolute agony. Such a special, beautiful person that heaven wanted her early. ❤️

[@alliematelski1767]

This journey needs more views. Inspirational lady right there

[@ruthhacket2927]

Life can be so unfair. She was a beautiful soul. RIP ❤

[@brookelynrhodes1998]

It really sucked this was the last video she filmed before dying weeks later. She was so optimistic and brave despite her cancer being terminal. I can understand why she didn't want anyone to worry and to be hopeful. Cancer in general sucks. Considering that she got diagnosed late and after it spread to other organs, there was no chance for her to beat this awful cancer, death was her destiny. The doctors tried. She was only 34 too. I'm glad she's been pain free for four years. R.I.P.

[@sueflast9157]

I literally just found this channel today. I was pulled in by the titles of esophageal issues. The first video I watched was when she had recently learned of the diagnosis. Then I came across this one. I am so sorry to hear that she passed. She faced this disease with such grace, bravery and a super attitude. If anyone should have been able to beat cancer, it should have been her. RIP.

[@Silentafterthought]

Sue Flast she passed on my birthday her and I will have a special day may she rip

[@sueflast9157]

mrs D vapes 2 bfmv I’m so sorry. Yes, may she Rest In Peace.

[@alicecanavan550]

just found you, and now your gone .God bless you.

[@candyc4713]

Same here I just found her today.. watched the video at random. The first video I watched was her initial diagnosis the second one was her friend announcing she had passed. I was floored to hear that.

[@MyMollyBean]

Oh no !!! I just found her today , and have been trying to see how she's doing. God I was hoping for better news . Bless her , such a sweet , kind lady . 😢😢

[@BarbaraFearnley]

As many of you have commented... You have just found this lovely lady today... me too. I immediately subscribed and gave the thumbs up because I was immediately taken by her positive attitude and her beautiful smile. How very sad to know you have left this mortal coil. RIP...you brave beautiful lady

[@Matt2023]

Thanks for giving away the ending

[@ThePaulaon1]

​@Matt2023 Shut up you clown.

[@lisamccullough5150]

You didn’t deserve this. You deserved a long, healthy and prosperous life. I’m glad you’re not in pain anymore but this shouldn’t have been your story and I’m so sorry you were dealt this hand. My love to you, wherever you are now and to your family and friends.

[@curiouslyme524]

Amen 🙏.

[@myzacky96]

My God she was so brave, she's in heaven where theres no pain or heartache

[@john3-16.]

She would only be in heaven if she had accepted Jesus as her saviour and repented of sins and believe he died for her sins Never heard her mentione Jesus in videos most Christian who live for christ talk about their lord and saviour..

[@cheshiregrin7557]

RIP you were such a wonderful person

[@mcren6781]

She passed away?? Nooo

[@Mommaslew]

Just found this…I am heartbroken for her and her family. Bottom line…like she said…listen to your gut. I also wonder a bit why hospice was not included so she wouldn’t be in so much pain. Poor, poor sweetheart. ❤

[@TheKaren_makeup]

I prayed for your healing and a video later I sadly learned of your transitioning. Your friend did a very nice tribute for you. Rest in heaven peacefully 🕊💕

[@cindyhorst3555]

RIP I'll miss you. I'm sorry you had to go so soon. Guess heaven wanted your sweet smiling spirit back

[@sheilabush7066]

Sometimes you don’t realize how much pain your in till the pain is gone.

[@tomkinney7427]

I also just found this channel. I'm so sorry for her family and friends. RIP Christine. 🌺🌺🌺

[@sakurahatake2061]

I just learned that she passed away and it makes me sad . Currently going through this and this scary since I'm only 21. Best wishes to her family.

[@bamzsantana8492]

Don’t worry you got this !!!!!! You got this !!!!

[@musicforeverr1]

You got this dude. I’m rooting for you

[@stara-2404]

Your gonna get through it and I’m gonna get checked out soon I have all the systems and have had them for a while

[@merson812]

@@stara-2404 What bloody planet are you on? You don't need an Oncologist, you need a mental health expert.

[@cottosucks08]

You got this woman!

[@judymcfadden3577]

A really brave woman. I was so sorry to hear she passed.

[@guardiansanimalrescuestate7289]

Such a beautiful soul. Why is it that beautiful souls like this are called to heaven so early........and people like Manson live to be 90. Well I am positive that Manson is in the very dark, hottest section of hell. And........I know that she is in a beautiful place in heaven. Stay strong to all of you. And to my fellow chronic illness warriors......keep fighting on. Much love from Kentucky, Lesley and Service Dog Jake

[@ileanas1103]

Sad I just came across her blogs. I wish I would have found her sooner. What an amazing giving soul ♥️.

[@elainefree4873]

What a beautiful, thoughtful and enduring soul. 🙏🏻💕

[@streneamorgan4864]

I’m so glad you’re feeling better. I can’t even imagine what you’ve been going through. You’re doing a good thing here, with your vlog. Thank you.

[@SooSmokie]

I didn't know you, but you have such a beautiful soul. Thank you so much for this collection of memories you have left us. RIP

[@poojamudenur5917]

Hope you get well soon....and thanks a ton for the work you are doing dealing with all the emotional and physical pains! Hats off to you....keep smiling the way you are. You are so brave and so strong, and definitely you will get through it❤. For me being a medico student,your videos have had a lot of impact and I'll make sure in my future I keep the diagnostic algorithms smart to not as to miss such diagnosis. Hope it has helped others too. You'll be in my prayers Love you loads😘❤!

[@biohazardgirl7465]

I am so glad that seeing my perspective as a patient is helpful for you as you work on your medical career! That gives me a lot of happiness. I fully appreciate doctors are overloaded and get to a point of having little capacity for personal attention, but having said that being clinically diligent does not have much to do with that and it is so important to bear in mind the way patients feel and how important it is to listen to them as part of a treatment plan. And even more so, inform them well. my next vlog will illuminate a lot of the communication errors made which took away all my empowerment and decision making ability as a patient simply because I was left in the dark about what was *really* going on.

[@streneamorgan4864]

You’re amazing!! Thank you for doing these videos to help others. ❤️❤️

[@biohazardgirl7465]

thank you Stephanie, that means so much to me!

[@X4hunterx4]

@@biohazardgirl7465 R.I.P. :(

[@janetries3723]

I just found this channel today. It showed up in my feed ... probably because KZbin knows I had an endoscopy follow-up today. Gosh, I found her first video and hit follow and then went to catch up on how she is doing and wham ... I can't believe she only lived 4 months. Prayers for her family and friends. I'm so so sorry.

[@grietdierick4986]

And the man who announced her death on You tube (Ismael Lotz) died on 12 January 2022.

[@janetries3723]

@@grietdierick4986 Seriously?! Now I’m really depressed.

[@grietdierick4986]

yes. He had lung cancer stage 4 since february 2018. He was from the Netherlands. And Christine had Dutch roots. That’s why they knew each other.

[@janetries3723]

@@grietdierick4986 That's so sad.

[@judescinnamon]

Thinking of you and your warm smile. All the best.

[@magdalena-lisarobertson4143]

I hope you are feeling better and are home. I just found your channel and very much enjoy your style of presentation -- of the information that you share not only about your diagnosis and challenges but also the level of commitment and care required for pets -- your bunny is precious (watched the Spring video too). You have a lovely fighting spirit and a beautiful disposition. You are a very level headed young lady. May God's grace and mercy and love surround you on your journey and may He answer all of your prayers.

[@Fishingpov101]

She’s dead

[@magdalena-lisarobertson4143]

@@Fishingpov101 yes, I know. May Her memory be eternal.

[@2009betterworld]

Gorgeous flowers! Be sure and share your dress with us! I love your spirit! That was so wrong in that Doctor’s zero bed side manners. We all love you , sweet girl. Tell your Mom she did great and the flowers and she is in my daily prayers too!!

[@christianwouters6764]

I have been treated for esophagal cancer in 2018 ( male, 58 years). What I hated the most during the illness was the attention I got when I got terrible pain trying to eat. " Are you ok ?" No, of course I was not ok, throwing up everything I put in my mouth and loosing 25 kg in a months time. You do a great and courageous job with your vlog ! I see hospital rooms are the same everywhere in the civilised world. I almost recognised mine in Belgium !

[@ticklethypickle6368]

Christian Wouters Yes, sometimes it’s better for people not to say anything and just be present, rather than asking stupid questions just to fill awkward silences.

[@juliec4985]

Against The Tide Sadly, she died on May 22, 2019.

[@SGM805]

What a beautiful woman and that smile, so positive she’s amazing RIP I hope you got that dress , bless you

[@kimbojanbranyan6352]

She was and still is a blessing. RIP

[@bonitawauls6274]

Oh my goodness. I just found your channel! God bless you. Rest in peace, sweetheart. I can't believe it was so fast! I am in shock. You were braver than me. I think you inspired me to try to blog. In your honor. You helped me not to feel so alone!

[@johnryan2193]

I did not realise you had passed but you are still with us through the magical of the internet I hope you did not suffer to much .We forget we will all have to follow you up that road so you were an inspiration ,bless you

[@canadianbacon3007]

I too have the same thing and time is just ticking away, RIP Christine, God bless your soul :(

[@canadianbacon3007]

@Teela Tequila Look back on her blogs/vlogs from the past for a full run down :)

[@RichardKoning]

Are you alive still?

[@canadianbacon3007]

@@RichardKoning No

[@sunnydaygina]

I'm so glad that I found your channel. However so saddened. God bless your soul. I won't let this go any longer because of Covid. It's so painful. I can't talk as I used to or anything. No one should suffer. Aww, my heart aches for your beautiful smile and soul. I'll go forward because of your story as it's me. RIP beautiful one.

[@christienbbrooks7334]

I really hope that you get to feeling better, you’re in my thoughts and prayers.

[@oceanmist6114]

Rest up hun, I hope you feel better soon. My prayers & thoughts are with you. Take care, Jules (New Zealand) 💕

[@paulmcnamara4774]

So sad she is gone why couldn't they done more for her she was so young and she died so quickly Christine you were and still was a lovely young lady not just beautiful outside but inside as well rip in sweet girl.

[@lorij6796]

Paul McNamara My husband passed from this. Not really a curable cancer.

[@nohana2003]

@@lorij6796 My dad also died from this. In 6 weeks time he was gone.

[@girleyreds11-11]

Because they act like cancer is an old age disease. Insurance companies dont cover tests until THE AGE THEY DECIDE. 8 mean mammograms in your 40s when many have gotten breast cancer in their 20s and 30s. Unreal

[@kristimartinez7528]

@@girleyreds11-11 exactly. Women in their twenties and thirties get breast cancer. Ultrasounds and mammograms need to start much earlier for women.

[@suecav421]

So sorry you aren't feeling well. Hope you get out of there soon and get that dress - you deserve it! You have an amazing attitude. Feel better. Susan

[@melaniejonker8828]

She had the brightest smile ... Beautiful personality. So sorry for the loss, family and friends! Mom you promised a video of Biohazard Girl's last days .... Please?

[@lizstephen6609]

Rest in peace beautiful lady . I’ve just been diagnosed with this condition and just found the first video which lead me to this page . Xxxx

[@trmp9923]

Are you still alive

[@carmencarmenatti]

Get well soon.Praying for you🙏

[@donatellawoodward6301]

I'm sorry you are in the hospital. I really hope you can feeling better asap and going home where you can relax more. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Stay strong as always! 😊🏵️ I suffered incredible pain in my life cause 2 diseases, no cancer, but both chronic and terrible I consider the pain, so I really want your pain goes away cause it's very draining. I watched all your videos and I will continue to. My sister in law had a bad rectal cancer and she recovered even if was not on the early stages. You will too. ❤️ Anyway, you have such a lovely voice, so relaxing. 😊 P.S: You are right, people that continuously tell you a condition is serious, it's so annoying. It's like having a parent who continuously tell you your limits instead of helping you blooming. You can't repeat this all time to children or they really believe they have just limits. Life is made of many chances too. So GO AWAY TOXIC PEOPLE!

[@Mufong.]

I feel really bad for complaining about my body when people have to go through this God bless 🙏

[@2013Queen]

Sometimes the Doctors are assessing patient understanding of the disease progression and what treatment are available or limited options. Perhaps improving therapeutic bedside manner would help overcome the awkwardness they may have relaying an unfavorable prognosis. This is such a brutally honest and raw video, you are definitely helping me to become a better healthcare professional.

[@gigi9062]

Such a strong woman. beautiful and strong. Thinking of you.🙏😞

[@Allegra11]

Wishing and praying for healing for you 🌺

[@zoehannah6278]

I just found your channel and just realised you are no longer here... That's so unfair... :( Those last words were like a prediction...heartbreaking..

[@cejourne123]

Zoe Hannah same here. I just stumbled upon her diagnosis ( because going through similar symptoms) video today only to find out she’s no longer with us. She’s in a better place where she’s no longer in pain, no longer wondering... she will be remembered for selfless sharing her journey that may help another in the same circumstance to receive the help earlier RIP Chris and God bless

[@liliumjade]

Same here....what a precious life that was lost. She seemed sweet and humble but a fighter at the same time. RIP

[@redsloane879]

Me too! Just found her channel today! 😥

[@sheilabush7066]

Of course I started crying when I heard she was gone. Bless you and I’m glad your not in pain now.

[@7931lila]

Me too, today. Very sad.

[@AmandaB.6529]

R.I.P hun 💟 you will be sofley missed xxxx

[@noniway8013]

You are an angel. Sometimes I really hate these coldblooded doctors. Thank u for yr courage and fortitude. Now u are free.

[@cindyhorst3555]

Stay strong, keeping you in my prayers.

[@AllForJag]

Rest In Peace my friend. You are such an amazing young woman. God rest your soul.

[@peggybuetow1026]

Watching this again…….motivates me to come out of retirement and be a home care nurse. 👍🏼🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@lynmaxwell1256]

God please take care of this beautiful girl..you are amazing. I’ll think about you always....always 💞🌸🌺🌷🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@blondinizer4057]

My father was diagnosed with stage IV pancreatic cancer. He had fluid buildup in his abdomen but the doctors said it was ascites. He was drained several times - no infection or cancer in the fluid. The pressure from the fluid made it difficult to eat or breathe. Once the fluid was drained he felt much better. This is just his story with a different cancer. You fight this cancer with everything you got. Be your own advocate. Ask a lot of questions until you get a clear answer. I hope the absolute best for you.

[@SpencersMSStory]

Hang in! Your videos are great ... so much live and vitality! be well

[@kathyakamimi4989]

No one will answer my question. Christine speaks of her wish that she had gone to hospital sooner. WHY didn’t someone take her sooner? I miss her and I cannot understand what happened to her at the end. Love you in Heaven, Christine.

[@kiwimitts2]

I think she eluded to it. She said they can treat her, drain the fluid, but it will come back. She was aware that her condition was terminal. I suspect she was afraid if she went to hospital she’d never get out. She just wanted to feel normal again. 😢

[@loridunn5873]

Cancer sucks! I know from experience. Rip my sista. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m glad your not in pain anymore. 💖

[@DONALD1951]

Too sad.. such an intelligent, nice , brave young woman.

[@bonitajukes2784]

You're a beautiful brave lady. X

[@janicebrocke8528]

GOD WILL WRAP HIS ARMS AROUND YOU AND COMFORT YOU!!

[@feliciawood2889]

I just found your channel and binge watched all your videos... I just wanted to let you know that I'm praying for you! 💋❤

[@nahidbodiz7053]

Unfortunately, she passed away

[@feliciawood2889]

Oh no thts no good

[@AmandaB.6529]

I really hope you got to get that lovely dress that you was so excited and looking forward to getting before you passed away :'( xxx

[@shaniquejoe5108]

Summer is here and with a vengeance. I just started watching your videos to learn you're no longer with us. I'm happy to know you're no longer in pain I really hope that you bought that dress and your smile brightens my day idk how you did it but you stayed positive

[@bonitawauls6274]

Bless your heart. Hang in there! Everyone says that but I mean it. I'M m a nurse and I do the try this or that at home to avoid ER. I hope your pain is being controlled. Get better soon.

[@caroltrudgill5564]

Bless you beautiful lady xxxx

[@lorij6796]

So sorry you lost your battle. Rest in Peace ♥️

[@McKenzie_Bee]

[@antprice8826]

RIP lovely soul 💕🇬🇧

[@Cartia6269]

Hey I've been following you for a couple months now and you are such an amazing girl! I hope you feel better soon and can update us.

[@MonaMona-cn5zw]

Michael Robert she passed away now:/

[@Cartia6269]

@@MonaMona-cn5zw I know I'm extremely sad regarding her passing. She was such a positive person and I really feel I got to know her through these videos.. very sad..

[@ninasparadise-e4p]

I just run across this u were so beautiful gone to soon praying for you and your family!🙏🏽💙

[@juliesmoochy3996]

Too beautiful for this world RIP my lovely angel 😇 😢 ❤

[@jordanmcbride9592]

What a wonderful person you were so brave and positive till the end so glad your not in pain anymore rip you beautiful person

[@juliemullen365]

God bless this beautiful women Rest in eternal peace ❤

[@lovelylatoya3811]

Rest in peace. 🙏😇❤

[@kristenn07]

My dad has just been diagnosed with the the same cancer as you. It's been a super scary and stressful week for him and my family. I just binge watched all of your videos and they're really giving me hope that his treatments will help him out.

[@hjuryfhukhjugdstjj8329]

How is your dad?

[@kristenn07]

@@hjuryfhukhjugdstjj8329 He passed away June 8, 2019

[@hjuryfhukhjugdstjj8329]

@@kristenn07 I'm so so sorry....

[@hollyhocks7360]

Thank goodness you are getting more pain relief. I hope you are doing well, it would be lovely to hear from you if you feel well enough to vlog.

[@tijanaa9310]

She passed away :(

[@simplesmeerkat1665]

I took a look at your tummy and I knew what that was. I have worked out what’s happening in your next video. Much loves hun xxx

[@simplesmeerkat1665]

@cynthia g Did you tell your GP that you are having swallowing difficulties? Is this with solids and liquids as well? If these are new symptoms please let your GP know.

[@kiwimitts2]

I wonder if she was ever able to leave that hospital? Her words resonated with me…I just want to go back to normal. Every day some of us live “normal” and we just take it for granted. Here Christine was in pain yet hopeful, with a smile on her face. She was right about one thing, the next time we see her she’ll be feeling 1000x better. She is pain free now!!

[@franceswilson2894]

Hi. Hope you are doing ok . Missing your updates on here. Hope things are moving along a little more positively for you . I'm right at the start of my journey with same diagnosis as yourself. . I'm just waiting word of results from PET scan . Initial CT scan showed no node or Mets...so despite diagnosis it's what I call the best bad news !. Keep well . Keep your chin up . Positive thoughts and hopefully hear from you soon 💪💓

[@biohazardgirl7465]

ooooh no mets is the BEST news! So happy for you! yes will update soon,been on death's doorstep (literally) for a couple of weeks and it is my first day back even checking my computer for about 10 minutes. had no nutrition for nearly 3 weeks so need to get some strength and will have updates soon after that, because again stuff happened I think others should really be aware of. :/

[@biohazardgirl7465]

and i mean be aware so hopefully it does not happen to them!

[@franceswilson2894]

@@biohazardgirl7465 thankyou. The results of the PET scan came back clear . Next step a staging laparoscopy tomorrow. To assess for surgery, though they have said likely to be 3 months chemo first. 💖💪

[@franceswilson2894]

Hi . Hope you are doing ok. Just to let you know we are all thinking of you and sending positive thoughts. Keep hanging on in there petal .!!

[@seashellsinaz]

Hello.... I just found this post. I'm so sad. I was looking for inspiration and her first video describes what I'm dealing with now... im scared and I feel alone. But I'm trying to optimistic and hopeful. I believe my body can heal itself.... atleast I'm trying to convince myself.... my upper gi has been put out till the end of September now and I'm scared its going to be to late..... is there anyone else out there going through this. ??

[@lovejbcats3244]

Sending love from the UK xxx💗

[@bg-id1uo]

RIP such a sweet angel .

[@MegglesEST1983]

I cant believe this was the last thing I watched.. RIP 😇

[@aprilrain2011]

Praying for you!!

[@kimberleypex]

My God 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 I just read she passed away . Rest In Peace brave woman. ❤️❤️❤️

[@lizrozon6308]

Sending you good vibes and healing!!! Look into holistic treatments as well maybe some natural remedies like aloe and tumeric. You got this!!! ❤❤❤

[@brendaruane9582]

I was told I had pancreatic cancer .I asked for the chaplain to come and pray over me . I had a a whipple. . My biopsy came back negative. I believe in miracles I will pray for you . You are a brave girl . Thank you for you sharing your story . ♥️😄

[@marquisgowdy2027]

Brenda Ruane how your health now?

[@lorij6796]

Brenda Ruane Great news!

[@balackjack42]

It sucks you're in the hospital again, but you do seem to be doing ok now. I see some of the things I may potentially have to face. I hope you get everything rectified real soon. I hear you when you say they always let you know how serious things are, I get it all the time. It's almost as though they may see us as being just a little too happy or something? I don't know, but I do get tired of it. I'm quite aware of the seriousness of my condition, but yet I do like to think more positive about it. So I have just had an IVAD installation done, and should be starting my chemotherapy on May 8. Really not looking forward to it. Thanks for the update, and I'll be watching for more. Best of luck to you Christine, see you later.

[@donatellawoodward6301]

Sending you positive vibes mate!

[@dkendrick59]

It's been awhile since you've posted, I'm hoping you are well, my prayers are sent your way 🙏❤💕 you are not forgotten

[@sierraelizabeth3817]

dkendrick59 I just found her channel and I’ve been thinking about her as well. ❤️

[@Niveenn]

I am sorry to say that Christine passed away :( I’m certain she was appreciating everyone’s support and love

[@carolynhall1302]

Only just came across the videos, so sorry to hear that this lovely lady passed away recently x sending lots of love to her family and friends xx

[@dkendrick59]

@@Niveenn thank you for letting us know about Christine 🙏🙏🙏

[@markvandeven]

search for 'christine hone home' - you will find one more video....

[@bg-id1uo]

RIP So very young and brave

[@jemgem9593]

Bless you xxxxx

[@adsbyraghav]

All the positivity from India. 🥰🥰

[@SaffronGold]

God bless her family and friends. Memory eternal +

[@carmenbuske3601]

Thank you very much, as a mother I can not tell you how broken I'm, my life is gone to, Christine was a wonderful human been, the most caring person I have met, she was a beautyful inside out with a big honest heart, her birthday will be on Feb 10, it will be extremely hard for me to walk alone again to her grave.

[@SaffronGold]

Carmen Buske hi Carmen, I cannot imagine the hurt you feel having lost your beloved daughter. I’ve lost three relatives to cancer but they were uncles and aunts. It was hard but again not the same. May the Good Lord bless you with strength and comfort during the hard times, and joy and smiles in the easier moments. May she reside where the saints repose. Memory eternal + So sorry Carmen.

[@carmenbuske3601]

@@SaffronGold Thank you very very much for your message, I wish I could believe there is more after dead, just can not believe, why would that good God or Goodman above let my daughter suffered so so very much in her short life, she could not drink a sip of water of 6 months or eat one single spoon of food, how can that good Man let this happen??? I just can not believe there is something more, unfortunately.

[@SaffronGold]

Carmen Buske I get what you are saying. This is a journey only you can take and I say that respectfully. I have no doubt your daughter moved mountains in this world through touching lives, every experience touched someone somehow. She touched my life through her story and I never met her. I believe we are tools. We are fallen by nature. I’m not a theologian but I believe God does not intervene always, sometimes though because I have seen it. As a son of a 9th generation Orthodox Christian priest from Jerusalem, I didn’t find Him until I was in my 20s. I went to seminary and would have been a 10th generation from the holy land but I was born in America and very hard to give up earthly cares for such a task. Just know people like myself are praying for you. I hope you obtain comfort. Forgive me if I was out of line. My heart breaks for you but know you are in my prayers.

[@sunnydaygina]

Your experience will change others. 🙏🏼

[@annettemartinez7081]

RIP-paradise Angel 🙏🙏

[@2009betterworld]

Beautiful girl! Wish I Look that great without makeup and your teeth are so pretty. You are in my prayers! Love you.

[@bradh6185]

She was so lovely.

[@BeckahYork]

I am so sorry to see that you are no longer here. This saddens me. I pray for your family's comfort. Love and hugs

[@carmenbuske3601]

Thank you very much, i can not tell you how bad I'm doing, just totally broken, and never will smille, never can I live, Christine was my world, was all I had, no familie left, nobody to support me, nobody to walk with me to her grave, tomorrow she would be 36 years old and I walk again alone to her grave, she have deserved so much better. thank you

[@Hide_and_silk]

My dear b- i- l died of this two years ago yesterday. It's a horrible, horrible death. RIP to this lovely lady.

[@Zyxwvutsrqponmlkjih]

If feels like the doctors weren't telling her just how bad things were. Her liver was obviously failing, she has ascites and jaundice.

[@robjohnson8861]

See her other videos. She did not want to know the reality of her situation.

[@trmp9923]

I don't really see the jaundice

[@sarita3337]

After cancer is metastasized, why must every contact from a doctor be more and more depressing till all joy is crushed? American medicine is like that - it makes sure to crush the patient, till depressing the patient completely is finally accomplished. Depressing the patient, I believe, rushes the patient toward death.

[@Phoenix_Atlas]

@@sarita3337 that's bullshit. It's important to know exactly how bad the shape you're in is. I had cancer, almost died, and my doctor's tried withholding information from me "for my own wellbeing". You have no idea how bad that pissed me off.

[@Phoenix_Atlas]

She's not jaundiced and dying from acute liver failure is a lot worse than this and the jaundice will usually be very pronounced.