Is It Sinful to Want to Die?

Ask Pastor John
Episode: 1342
Transcript: www.desiringgo...

[@SavedSis]

I look forward to the day where I can’t cry anymore and I’m in a place where there is no evil. I just want to be at peace with Jesus.

[@EC-yd9yv]

💙🙏...I am feeling same.God bless.

[@amandaguma5851]

I want to die and be with God and experience him fully.

[@jacobmoore4797]

@@amandaguma5851, I just want to be free of this world. I 100% don't belong here. I can feel it every single day. I pray almost every day that God would take me in my sleep. Praying for you that you'll find true peace. God bless.

[@Eric19877]

What do you do when you not just want to die, but also don't want to be in Heaven anymore either?

[@pauljomento8357]

@@Eric19877 Why do you not want to be in heaven? The alternative is far worse

[@tokkiiiiiiiiiiiiii]

I want to die. Badly. Simply because I’m a walking disgrace and my life is a nightmare. I’m tired of myself and my thoughts. I’m tired of this world and it’s responsibilities. Im tired of being weak. I’m tired of evil. I’m tired of having to worry about everyone and everything. I’m tired of breathing. Despite all of this I still fear God. I fear what will happen to my soul if I kill myself. Shit, I’m even scared to kill myself because I don’t wanna feel pain. I’m trapped. I can’t live and I can’t die.

[@loveverse-xx5vu]

Same I want to die too

[@realniga3012]

Only reason I don’t want to do it cuz I aint tryna go to hell

[@MrErock7]

You have described how I’ve felt for 20 years to a TEE

[@Skitsofficialamazing]

@@MrErock7 how did you get through 20 years... I want to know this because I wanna try to get through to 20 years, I am 22, but it is freaking hard with all the anxiety.... I just started feeling this way

[@bigstronkgorl2138]

I feel this exact same way.

[@RevanJJ]

I’m in pain 24/7 physically and with many mental issues. I ask God to let me die every night. I suppose that’s wrong, but I can’t stand when I finally fall asleep, waking up. Thanks for this video.

[@novavanguard1313]

Darth revan, u a star wars fan

[@Skitsofficialamazing]

I try to sleep, but I feel a rough sleep, not a good one.

[@SomethingSomethingg]

Living this life in absolute agony is what's wrong.

[@mallen6035]

Not true. Our Lord is close to those who are crushed in spirit and those who are suffering.

[@justincannon620]

I ask the same thing. Hoping things get better for you

[@yellow.marisa]

I'm the person who asked the question. Thank you pastor John and team for this very encouraging reply. Yes, I was definitely walking more by sight than by faith. Now I am amazed to see that my faith has grown since I asked this about 5 months ago- I hadn't realized it until now that I hear this. Also, although in the same situation, it has improved in that some relationships are in a (difficult) path of healing and God has blessed me with a circle of Christian people that are becoming good friends. What I am most amazed at is to see how my faith has gotten a bit stronger in less than half a year- even though it has been (and still is) horrendously painful! I long to go Home, but taking "my" life is just not an option (and it wasn't when I asked this because I understood then I'm not my own but was afraid that longing to die would be sinful since life is a gift from God). Pastor John, your answer helps me a lot and those promises are beautiful and they comfort me. I take them serious and I am very thankful that you share them with me. Also, I didn't expect that so many people would find this question & answer helpful for them too, I thought I was the only one struggling with this 🙈 Never thought I would be saying this, but, there is hope! God bless everyone.

[@jackcoleman5955]

Thank you for your courage and vulnerability, Marissa. I am encouraged to persevere by your question and Pastor Johns reply. I, too, often just look around my life at what I see, instead of relying on Faith. Grace and Peace, Jack

[@maetan2682]

MvdL I am struggling with this since last year upto this very second.

[@eugenewhite8248]

You're so brave and honest. I pray that you will be held in God's grace.

[@robraver]

keep going! was only just saying in prayer last night at Church (with a huge congregation of 3 :) ) that if I can return to the Faith...anyone can. I wont go into details just now but it took a huge kick in the backside to stop me fooling about (huge problem with unmarried relationships) I havent messed around since. Last year saw me in the pits of a mental breakdown...I was right on the edge of taking my life. It wasnt 'if' it was 'when'. In the end I asked for help, in prayer, and I got it! The road hasnt been easy, but a few weeks back I started to go back to Church. So Church, prayer and reading the Bible and Christian Books about true accounts. I hardly ever visit the Bars now (big potential source of trouble for me) and stay out of trouble. In short? we cant compromise....because by doing so we invite all kinds of problems. God wont ever change the 'rules' and wants the best for us. I dont mourn the past, its pointless...my only desire is to pull out other backsliders from the filth. If I can help at least one, its been worth it.

[@scottwhitley5542]

@@robraver Wow, Praise God for you sister! Been there, too. God is so faithful. I learned something really cool about love from the Lord. I'm learning to love my Jesus

[@priyaroy6914]

I just want to sleep and never wake up 😞😭

[@Topg1]

Me too. I just want to dance before my savior. I’m tired of living with my sin and the sin and pain of the world .

[@chadrasmussen6127]

Same I just can't stand this world all everyone does is talk about money sucess houses cars silly fun pleasure I tired all that stuff it doesn't satisfy

[@biccolo1393]

I have prayed this prayer before. I'm sad I am in this position currently and many are as well. I prayed this prayer last night too. My heart breaks for you brothers and sisters and I understand. ♥️ You are LOVED BY THE KING. Love you all. Stay strong and remember the promises of God. ♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@oaklandsoldier8520]

Me 2

[@Skitsofficialamazing]

@@chadrasmussen6127 I wanna be with Jesus, I just feel anxious all the time, and cannot seem to shake it

[@MichaellaSapphire]

In my sorrows sometimes I prayed for God to just take my life while I sleep, if He sees fit, if He sees that I'm too broken for His work. But then the morning comes, through my swollen eyelids I can see the morning light. Again and again I was reminded that He still has a purpose for me, despite my shortcomings. I am now determined to cling to the Lord as Jacob did. The harder I fall, the more useless I felt, the more I clung to Him. It's hard. Every time, it felt like I was fighting with myself. I wanted to draw myself away, because of my feeling of filth and incompetence, but I remembered the story of Jacob and why he was named Israel. He wrestled with God and was blessed. Whoever is reading this, I hope you too will remember about that the next time you feel like distancing yourself from God after a fall.

[@autumnfauver]

I’ve been praying allot of nights for God to please just kill me I felt dirty and sinful like I ruined my life from my choices in my pain my anxiety and feelings of being overwhelmed I hurt my family’s hearts I was unkind I was like a bear growling Lashing out with a thorn in its paw I feel awful for ever being a person I don’t want to be so I prayed for God to let me go as my family would be better off without the heartache and drama. I’m getting better now from that time has helped allot I liked what you said about waking up and realizing God did give you another day so that gave you purpose.

[@daphnevanvliet7128]

You made me burst in to tears at the opening my eyelids in the morning

[@33and4]

My son just died March 1 2021 .. I feel like I do want to die ...

[@KimFebriany]

I can relate

[@Skitsofficialamazing]

I ask Him too

[@autumninabq3081]

For Marissa, I was in your shoes after I got saved. Trust God with all your heart. He restores lives. You will be amazed what He can do! He completely restored my life ten fold! Give it a little time. We all want to go home and we will when He calls us. We are here for refining. Much love & Praise God🔥💖🔥!

[@yellow.marisa]

Autumn In ABQ Thank you very much! I asked the question and have just posted a comment below the video. Thank you again for your kind words :)

[@samuelaguilar9668]

Praying for you both

[@sixteen.candles.4644]

I dont think god will do it for me.

[@sbirkkk]

Some thing's are more complicated than that sorry

[@PEYPLACE]

@@sixteen.candles.4644 Yeah. Me neither. He can't, really. It'd be a miracle. And, even though I believe in miracles, I don't think I'll be seeing mine.

[@Ytmetzc]

Oh how timely this question is for me... thank you lord...

[@justinc2167]

Same.

[@Thepromisedbride]

Me too thank you my, Lord. Amen.

[@sue4173]

Same.

[@Walo3pjE]

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[@Ian-xd2in]

Same

[@keepsmiling7374]

The bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die.

[@oaklandsoldier8520]

This hit hard

[@graemegeorgeharrison2468]

How do we go on when we have nowhere safe to go in our hearts and minds?

[@inezdias9582]

yes. the bravest.

[@kalanime]

I just want to feel unconditional love for the very first time. At 50, I think I’ve waited long enough. I just want to be with one that really , truly loves me

[@charlibaltimore7641]

That would be nice wouldn't it?

[@Skitsofficialamazing]

I wanna be with Jesus

[@a_francis818]

Don't worry the lord gives the desires of our hearts if it won't happen now, it will happen in the Lord's Kingdom

[@DeniseLunna]

It hurts to hear you saying that... that you've never really felt the unconditional love. And I truly deeply understand that aching. From time to time I only see glimpses of Jesus's love, never the full weight of it though and it makes me feel empty, never satisfied, desiring Him almost desperately. Somehow I hold onto this faith that His love is somewhere waiting with its full impact even for somebody like me, whether it's in this life or (definitely) in the next one. Maybe I'm not ready yet for its full impact, maybe you're not ready as well... Maybe He knows we wouldn't sustain it and its only His grace He gives it to us in small dosages, step by step extending our heart through the various sufferings so it would be able to finally feel the whole lot of His love. I think of this beautiful testimony of man who meets Jesus in heaven and is taken aback by the unlimited capacity of Jesus's love to fill his human heart but at the same time limited capacity of his own heart to be filled (he describes it as if he was empty vessel expanding up to the point where he could bear it no more otherwise he would explode from this love's "pressure"). Here's the testimony: kzbin.info/www/bejne/jXqbqKF7msh8pNE So the limit is actually in us and I believe it's the God's will to expand our capacity for love more in this life using whatever means He pleases so we would be finally able to accept it and not be crushed by its weight. He does not want to withhold it from us for He already gave us all when He gave up His own Son for our sake (Rom 8:32).

[@morganmclaughlin4488]

I just want the pain I feel day in and day out to stop. I can’t tell people I want to die because they get scared and want to send me to the hospital. I don’t trust anyone in my life and I want to curl up and not leave my bed. I don’t want people in my life and I am tired of chasing people and feeling like a burden. I am trying so hard for God to be enough for me but I don’t know what I am doing wrong. I don’t have plans to do it and I know I won’t do it but I want to die so bad. I don’t want to be here anymore. I can’t seem to be a good disciple and have faith in God. I want to go home 🏡.

[@Tuglife912]

Sorry I didn't introduce myself, I'm Jordan by the way

[@morganmclaughlin4488]

@@Tuglife912 nice to meet you Jordan

[@Tuglife912]

@Morgan McLaughlin nice to meet you too beautiful!

[@biccolo1393]

My heart breaks for you. I feel this too. Divorce coming next week, I got rid of so much to partition out my sin and still struggle, I have high highs and low lows, no one has any words to help they just say sorry and how can I blame them? I feel so alone. I pray to never wake up sometimes. My past continues to haunt me even as I've repented. I'm battled by the enemy the closer I try to get to the King and it hurts. I just want it to stop. So... I feel you. I hope you are living well since you posted this comment. You aren't alone. I will be seeking my pastor and getting help asap because I can't trust myself alone anymore. Keep fighting y'all. The King loves you.

[@Angeloflight7]

Me too. I relate to everything u have said

[@eternallight88]

I hate this world 😞

[@soioioioioioio34]

God made it shit for u

[@bigstronkgorl2138]

I’m just so tired of being judged by everyone on earth. I’m genuinely so tired. I wish I could just go to heaven and sit by my family’s side and be okay.

[@myballsitchsomethingfierce6319]

I understand, I'm weary but I escape death so many times I know God has a purpose for me on this Earth.

[@EC-yd9yv]

💙🙏...I feel same. God bless

[@willkershaw7376]

I can’t wait for that day when I can walk by his side. Sometimes life is full of agonizing pain. To think there will be a day when sin and suffering abruptly comes to an end is incredible. I can only imagine.

[@Skitsofficialamazing]

I wanna be with Jesus, I feel so so broken

[@IvanRichards-k2f]

@@Skitsofficialamazing we all do , we all do

[@jmyname8290]

A man can only take so much. Rejection from countless people especially women can break you even when there is no progress or help. So yeah, I'd like to die and be with God.

[@realniga3012]

Spit them facts

[@silviocastell8889]

I feel ya

[@EC-yd9yv]

💙🙏🌻

[@isaacmapes]

To live is Christ, to die is gain.

[@MartinGarden]

What do you mean by gain?

[@johnrey421]

@@MartinGarden to be In the Presence of The Lord forever that is eternal life. This is what every true believer longs for.

[@Angeloflight7]

I don't feel loved or supported. I'm constantly in a lot of emotional pain that I just wanna b free from. The pain comes from ppl always using and abusing me and I can't take it anymore. I just want eternal rest that's all

[@IvanRichards-k2f]

You will one day , make sure you use your life to become closer to God . Bless you

[@katlegoeuland9036]

This is how i feel everyday I'm tired the world is heavy for me I just want to die nd go home for good 😢the pain will never end

[@IvanRichards-k2f]

@@katlegoeuland9036 pray my brother, cry to Jesus so he would save you. Life is heavy but God is with us. If God is with you who's against?

[@katlegoeuland9036]

@@IvanRichards-k2f even now I'm crying to God to take my life 😭😭cz Im so tired of life I only want to be out of this world I know I'm still young but wow what life is showing me is something else I'm telling you God doesn't hear my cry everyday I'm crying praying still the same I'm still here in painful world struggling everyday 😢😢

[@IvanRichards-k2f]

@@katlegoeuland9036 read bible more . Life wasn't easy for me as well . But God protects me and I value that . Use your life time to prepare yourself for eternity . Human life is a blink , use it properly

[@4july99]

Stunning answer to such a tough question. I don’t know anyone else who addresses these difficult questions so amazingly with compassion and biblical insight as Pastor John does. Thank you Pastor John for tackling these sorts of questions so publicly. You help people all around the world.

[@4july99]

Austin Brown Sure have, why do u ask?

[@atomicsamurai8967]

I work an over night route job. I don't get good sleep consistently. I live in an apartment complex with noisy obnoxious neighbors that have stupid dogs that keep me up every day. I dont get any time to see friends or family. Im completely alone and miserable. Im slowly losing my will to live. Im so tired i just want to die.

[@marydickey3404]

Hang on, Jesus is there with you..

[@revokdaryl1]

I don't think it's sinful at all. Life gets to a point for some people where it's completely uninteresting and mundane. Work, pay your bills, keep up appearances, and deal with the loss of family and friends as everyone ages. Doesn't really sound like much fun, does it? I would say that life is maybe 95% suffering while the remaining 5% is somewhere between ecstasy and boredom. Even Schopenhauer said "Life is a pendulum that swings between pain and boredom." I definitely don't see a flaw in that statement. It seems very accurate to me.

[@EC-yd9yv]

🌺🙏✨

[@paulcordova1531]

I'm tired of working and never getting a break. I'm tired of the suffering my elders. Is there no mercy in this world take me now

[@jamesonm.7925]

I did search for this. This is me in my life right now; it's been my state of being for some time now. I won't give up...I won't give in. Please God, even if I am alone the rest of my life, help me to endure consistency in giving to You,

[@jhuniezhong1673]

I'm tired of dealing with life everyday, I just wanted to be rested and be over with all of this drama and pain in life.. I'm so tired of everything

[@tbublz]

I've wanted to die alot lately even thought about jumping out of my car while it's moving. Due to increasing health issues after fighting get better, loosing multiple family members too young, divorce loosing a child in custody battle he grew up without me 4 states away courts did nothing to help me while I payed thousands for her child I adopted when he was 9. Went to school graduated top of college class only to become disabled 2 years later. My life sucks. I've had probably 35-40 surgerys. Kept my faith through it all.

[@sistershae3955]

Terry cobb His steadfast love never ceases and His mercy is new every morning. I’ve felt the same. Keep your faith and may The Lord give comfort , there are more blessings ahead. ❤️ Love for you, brother. Keep going.

[@evadavid255]

I thank God for sustaining you. Terry, God's peace that cannot be understood by men will guard your heart and mind. Father in Jesus name I pray for Terry, I pray that you will give Him your peace. That his heart will harbor no bitterness. That your overflowing peace Lord Jesus, that you say you left for us as a gift will overflow in his heart. In Jesus name. Amen. You are blessed my brother.

[@tbublz]

@@sistershae3955 Thank you both I have my eye on the ultimate prize of bowing at Gods feet one day then living with Him forever. Amen

[@risk2193]

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 5:3 ESV bible.com/bible/59/mat.5.3.ESV

[@risk2193]

Stay strong Terry

[@lyili3428]

it's the comments of this video that has calmed me down for the night. thank you all. Been feeling utterly alone and suffocated like i have no body to talk about this with.

[@JasongCLJ]

I'd talk with ya.

[@EC-yd9yv]

You are Not alone...i def understand, going through same. More important the Lord is with you 🙏✨ i hope this finds you doing better 🌺

[@sux2bu2day]

This is so perfect right now. Something I’ve been asking for church brothers help with prayer over last week. I am often tempted by this sin, but God gives me the strength to overcome the temptation to give into the act of... what I cannot undo once it is followed through with. I attempted it when I was 20 years old. Now I am turning 35 this month. I pray I never attempt it again and thank God for his grace in that he is faithful and he he will not let me be tempted beyond what I can bear. Praise God! If you are reading this and are struggling with the temptation to give up, reach out for love and support. Pray. Stay connected to God.

[@kennieapilli6803]

sux2bu2day praying for you fervently brother! Jeremiah 29:11-13 and Joshua 1:9 are in my prayers for you. May His living word strengthen you now and always. Praising God for His mercy, grace and love over your life to get you through your past and the last 15 years. Wishing you an ever lasting abundance of His sovereignty over your life both in this life and our eternal one!

[@omodupe7412]

I want to sleep and never wake up. I am 54yrs old, No husband, No kid, Then I lost my job 6yrs ago, I have prayed, but God refused to answer my prayers. I just wanna die. Cos my life has NO meaning . My prayer now is for me to sleep and NOT wake up. I am so very tired. I am totally broken and weak. No matter how much we pray, God will do what He wants to do

[@AEIOU_Y]

Me too....I'll stay if you do. I just need a friend 😢

[@jflight7013]

I have no family, friends or fellowship. I'm in a really tough place, and my future really looks bleak. If I did not believe in God and Christ, I would not be around, but I honestly feel like I'm hanging on by a thread. My God help me.

[@RamasesB]

Same

[@jflight7013]

@@RamasesB, sorry to hear :'

[@emmanuelimumolen8660]

Receive Jesus Christ into your life. Having Christ is the only hope we have.

[@ChrisVang93]

Hey man, you should consider joining a life group or a bible study group and be around other fellow believers. It's good to be around people who you can talk with and be around people who will pray for you, ya know? I personally do not enjoy being around people, especially being around people whom I don't really know, but I'll tell you, I usually always feel better after going to the life group that I am in. It's probably the fellowship, but I think a big part of it is the fact that we pray over each other when we're together

[@choiboi96]

Wow, so many people have this desire. As do I. I hope the Lord gives everyone strength to get through tough times. Our reward is great if we can make it through it all.

[@Captain-rg8mv]

I would give anything if God would take my life. My wife left me for someone else back in September. Nightmares, panic attacks, no sleep. I hate this life and the more I cry out for relief the worse I feel. Please Lord, take my life.

[@santosphilip1947]

for rich people death is unacceptable because they can't use their wealth but for poor and people who suffer death is their longing because it can be a way to escape their pain

[@Ziggs88]

Your wealth has nothing to do with it. God will use a poor person as much as a rich and its sin in either case to take your own life.

[@revokdaryl1]

@@Ziggs88 Wealth has EVERYTHING to do with it! Not to be rude, but life is more kind to people with more money, not less money. Money in this world is the solution to 99 out of 100 problems. The 100th problem is solved only by death.

[@Slidehhy]

​@@revokdaryl1I thought this too untill I got a health problem money isn't everything

[@revokdaryl1]

@@Slidehhy I'm sorry to hear that. But you know what I'm saying. The world is kinder to the rich. With the exception of health issues, if a wealthy person throws enough money at a problem, it usually goes away.

[@lawrenzo_12]

​@revokdaryl1 that's what he said 99 out of 100 problems...money cannot do everything but it makes life easier.

[@terrellstowers4039]

Yea I can relate to having enough of this life....tired of hurting.....tired of money problems...... tired of being alone.....it seems that the Bad people who don't care get ALLL the Blessings from God

[@darealscootaghee1224]

Yeah that makes you question alot about God

[@Carishio]

Psalm 88 helped a lot

[@wanda520]

Great advice for all of us as we face an uncertain future.

[@gingerty9628]

The past 2 or 3 years since I've got closer in my walk with Jesus I feel myself pulling away from this world. He and Heaven is on my mind throughtout the day, every day. I have cried and practically begged for God to take me home so many times. I know He must have a reason I'm still here but i don't know what it is. I don't have any real friends, i don't have children, and all of my siblings are distant. I think they all are christians but are busy with their own lives so we're all not as close anymore. I have a good husband who is also a christian. So i have hope we'll all be together in Heaven one day. I've had so many health things happen to me in the past few years, its been non stop it seems and its really makes me sad and discouraged.. I'm 50 and I'm so tired of this world. I wanna go home to Jesus, not just to escape the troubles of this world but to be with Him, talking to Him, being in His presence forever, singing praises to Him. Theres nothing in this world that makes me wanna stay. I hope that doesn't sound selfish to my family and husband. I love them dearly but i just wanna go home and hope I'll see them there to.

[@greatstoneplanet]

Sometimes we get to see the world for what it is with eyes of our flesh. Thank God he has giving us the grace to walk by faith and not by sight!

[@jeffouellette9946]

I hope your not think eyes of the flesh like sins are of the flesh and sight.

[@loveandsqualor6034]

greatstoneplanet What do you mean?

[@greatstoneplanet]

@@loveandsqualor6034 You can look around at the world and depending on your perspective, you may find it to be terrible, depressing, irredeemable place. If we follow some of the teachings that the world provides, we might find our lives to be futile and homeless. However, the revelation that we have from God through Scripture is that the world is ruled by him; that our lives each have purpose in God's design; that no one is beyond his reach; and that he promises an eternal, incorruptible, imperishable, glorious inheritance for those who believe. You can't see that inheritance with your physical sight anymore than you can see God himself on his throne, but through faith, you can experience the certainty of knowing that if God promises anything, he will do it.

[@loveandsqualor6034]

@greatstoneplanet I appreciate your response. I am dealing with a gang of reprobate Narcissists/Jezebel Spirits/Flying Monkeys and I pray to the Lord all the time about this, but he has not taken them to task. I have also been dealing with a huge amount of Spiritual Warfare for a long time. I see blessings in all bad things and my experiences have brought me closer to God. But I just wish he would take the demons in human form down so I can concentrate and focus on doing more constructive things for the Lord. This is all Satan's distractions and it is exhausting, tedious and makes me angry.

[@greatstoneplanet]

@@loveandsqualor6034 I had lunch with my pastor a couple of weeks ago and we discussed some of the challenges I'm going through. One of the things he pointed out was that as we try to live faithful lives, humbly seeking to reflect the image of God to the world around us, God never promises that it will be easy or that anyone around us will converted. What we consider success may not be what God calls success. For example, Jeremiah did exactly what God wanted in Israel, but he was a complete failure by human standards. But we are parts of God's plan. We are precious to him because we are in Christ. He has prepared the good works for us that we will do at the appointed time. Now we just need to be faithful, we new live the way the New Testament writers have spelled out by the hand of the Holy Spirit.

[@EmergencyLine-i8y]

Forgive me father God for taking my life

[@official_billionaires_club]

I am currently experiencing the same thing in my life. I have no desire to continue living because of how terrible life has become for me. I reckon death would be better than my current experience of life. But according to what I've seen,i don't think God would answer my prayer to die.

[@Tuglife912]

@Bright Israel I feel the same brother! God Bless you! Checking out of this world would be better than staying in it because it only gets worse by the day!

[@daphnevanvliet7128]

I wanne go 🏡 too

[@EC-yd9yv]

Same... 🙏✨

[@Ariel-qg4xk]

Christ is so amazing. Lately I've been having almost the same exact thoughts as Marissa more and more every day. This video popped up on my KZbin feed and at first I was shocked to see the same exact question I've been asking God every day these days. This was truly timely and God is so good in that while I'm in this messed up state He still loves me and would always reach out to me ❤️

[@Ariel-qg4xk]

@Austin Brown Hi, yes I have

[@vinavin8919]

Life is hard sometimes..I'm going through lots too.

[@chrisw3834]

My health is not great, body is weak, lower back issues/sciatic pain that keeps me stuck at home. I have never been married, no children and I really see no hope for my life and my situation. Depression and anxiety most if my life. And yes, I am completely sick and tired of this life. I'm 40 and I feel I have no worth, no purpose and no future. I have no church, no pastor as I'm stuck here at home. I've been taking antidepressants for the past 3 months for the first time of my life and they are not helping. Other than actually having joy in my life, the thing that really gets to my heart affects my soul is not knowing whether or not all of the people that I love are going to receive Jesus and make it to heaven. This burdens my heart on top of everything else.

[@kennieapilli6803]

Christopher Wood praying for you fervently brother! Seek Him above all else and you'll find Him and you'll experience an understanding of worth and purpose greater than you've ever known. Submit to a desire of complete and utter dependency on Him. It will sustain you for a lifetime right into eternal life. Spend as much time as possible in His living word and He will come alive to you.

[@heliaalves9062]

Hi Christopher! I could have written your comment myself. I'm sick most of the time, I have been unable to work for long periods of time, bedridden and in so much pain. I'm 36 and my family doesn't like me, they see me as a loser because I don't have a penny due to being ill and unable to work. Doctors mock me all the time, and even say it's all psychological. I was on the antidepressant sertraline for 2 years, didn't help at all and I gained 40kg. I have tried nearly every medication under the sun, and it always worsened my condition. A doctor destroyed my appearance so I don't even think it is possible for me to ever get married or have children. I have no friends, and the ones who pretended to be my friends just wanted to tear me down. I know exactly how you feel. I believe God has a bigger reason for all this pain, and I know after I'm dead I'll know. As much as I feel this is unfair, I don't lean in my own understanding. I'll just let God do His thing, because He is perfect, which I'm not. I just want to encourage you to trust Him. Maybe you'll just have to be stuck at home in pain while others are out there living a normal life, with a normal job and a family of their own. God is allowing all this, He could stop it if He wanted to, if He doesn't then there's a reason. Never stop trusting Him, and keep asking for your health. That's the only thing I ask God, not to be in pain and sick all the time, so I can work and have my own place and just be there in peace. I have said a prayer for you, pray every single day too, "ask and you shall receive".

[@FaithHopeLove6888]

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted. "Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth. "Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied. "Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy. "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God. "Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. "Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you. Matthew 5:3‭-‬12 ESV bible.com/bible/59/mat.5.3-12.ESV

[@jennifermallard465]

sounds like me I also am disabled I also graduated at the top of my class only to never find a job in that field and now i'm disabled due to mental illness I also have no children are husband I can't drive so i'm stuck at home all the time I still live with my mother she does support me and is also a Christian which is good I have nieces and nephews that love me that's a comfort if not for my mom i'm not sure where I would live i'd probably be homeless she's 84 all I can say is don't give up no matter how hopeless life looks Jesus has it in his hands

[@jackcoleman5955]

Hello Chris. I lifted you up in prayer, asking that God would provide you a real Church community that you could be an active participant in. And that He would provide you meaningful service to your community. I also often feel exactly the same feelings as you (anxiety, purposelessness, despair). I hope you find a small group of church friends - I had a brief vision of a wise group leader hosting the group at your home. God, don’t leave my brother alone, help him find connection! In Jesus, Jack.

[@EnVee215]

This is such a great timing. I hate this world so much I yearn to be with God but God always finds a way to answer my prayers. This is no coincidence. I have been contemplating on taking my life but I find it to be selfish and dishonoring to God. This life is not for me but is paid with a price to glorify God in our bodies. God bless!!

[@choiboi96]

I feel the same way about this world. But we have Jesus to get us through it. God bless you.

[@nathangibson2114]

I'm on the edge tonight. I'm 40 and I keep destroying myself. I would be starting over homeless, no money, no family, no friends. The church only cares about fitting their mold. Not accepting you as a unique personality. I have nothing to life for other than my own selfishness and I don't care for it. I have Noone in my life that cares for me as I struggle with self isolation. People don't want to reach out to me.

[@Marcus-uz1mr]

Hey Nathan, I don't know the exact details of what you're going through, but I've been there as well man. I know it's not easy going through this walk alone, especially when members of the body fail to show love. But Christ is enough. Jesus is our Father, our friend, and all we need. Loneliness, and not having a brother that truly cares for you is one of the greatest struggles one can have on this walk. I'm praying that God will bring in your life someone that can lift you up, someone grow in faith with, and someone that you can do life together with. But in the meantime, remember the God we serve is faithful. In the pits of loneliness, brokenness, despair, regret, and darkness, he is still sovereign. His love for you has never faltered nor failed, and it never will. Trust in Him. He will uphold you, and give you the grace you need for each day's burdens. Praying for you Nathan.

[@daphnevanvliet7128]

Same here i am lonely... And i fail at being stronger

[@junsolomon]

Indeed truth Pastor John.. Thank you for this very encouraging and hopeful truth. For this is not our best life now.. Our best life is beyond of this life.

[@jamied.9284]

Amen!

[@kenlee83]

The only reason I want to die is to want to leave this full of dirty sinful world and be with the Lord and Heavenly Father God

[@kenlee83]

@Austin Brown yes I been baptized by water and Holy Spirit

[@BloodandSoil990]

I'm 35 and I honestly feel like my life's worth nothing. I literally feel like I have nothing to live for. I don't get along with my family, I'm single, I make bad choices unfortunately even though I've begged God to forgive me so many times and have repented but life's just so hard. I really wish God would take my soul so that I wouldn't have to live in this nasty world anymore. No one would miss me. I am nothing to no one. I'm just better off dead it feels like.

[@EC-yd9yv]

🙏✨

[@davidbussey8942]

Your life matters and you make a difference life is hard and complex and i think a lot of people feel their life isnt important, but you do make a difference and theres something they would loose and miss if you werent here. Me and my friend having this saying " just survive the day" because theres more than enough worrie and trouble in the day alone and weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning. I pray you feel better and life gets easier on you.

[@oaklandsoldier8520]

Me 2. Im 38.

[@freddavidson286]

Every day this world is going down just like the Bible says it will come lord Jesus amen

[@sigfan4521]

I lost everyone to death. I took my first steps in a funeral home, literally!! I hate life!! I don't want blessings, I don't want life!! All I want is the release of death!! I pray for a heart attack, cancer, and anuerism, anything that will kill me!!

[@katlegoeuland9036]

I hate life everyday too I don't evn know why I'm still breathing I beg God to tk my life away I tell people I want to leave ths world I live by fear of the world I just want to die or to be killed ths world is painful I just hate life

[@sigfan4521]

@@katlegoeuland9036 Sucks doesn't it? I'm not suicidal but can't stand this life.

[@katlegoeuland9036]

@@sigfan4521 myself I'm suicidal I did lot of suicide nd I want to continue ehh I Cnt be in ths world life is shit serious I'm tired of this

[@mitchellkelly8032]

@@katlegoeuland9036 life is overrated, it’s shit, you always have to fight for happiness and when attained the next minute another sad thing happens

[@ChrisLeeProducer]

Cremate me with no funeral. You can’t see me dead, if you can’t even see me alive. People do drugs because they want to die; The earth isn’t worth saving, Lord bring me home. Don’t count on me, one day, I’ll give in. When my therapist can’t even take me seriously, how can I then? By the time I get to where I want to be, I already lost interest cuz’ of the ADHD. Lord, bring me home. I’m tired and exhausted, My brain hurts from being sad, People here on earth is bad. Lord, please bring me home. Gently please, when I’m in bed, not awake, I’m too scared to die but, I want to, I cannot lie.

[@ritaf2366]

How I came here this very moment is a miracle. Marissa's concerns is me at this very moment. And it is kinda comforting to know that what I am going through is not unique to me. Thank you!

[@metiaharris6838]

I just don't want to be here. Didn't ask for it and there is no point. Sad thing is I don't have the will to do it. Shame, ain't it?

[@angekriekenbeek7084]

I have suffered all my life and I still struggling even more

[@norjanahdula1516]

I feel you.

[@nickyborg2170]

TWO SHAY LET YOUR KINGDOM COME

[@kiyeoow]

Me too

[@baljeettjinder2262]

Dear Lord heal all the people who are suicidal and forgive them and help them to repent and accept Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Savior in Jesus Name Amen ✝️🙏❤️

[@suzannerothschild1084]

My sister is going to Switzerland to be euthanized sept 1. She refuses to accept Christ. She is 86 yrs old. 😢🙏

[@Ellier215]

There is hope and love for all who are suffering. This too shall pass. Blessings.

[@Wolflynx07]

42 years and it hasn’t.

[@zowiewowie4458]

yeah when I fuckin die

[@oaklandsoldier8520]

​@@zowiewowie4458real talk

[@rachel4yeshua]

Thank you for your encouraging words Pastor. Thank you for posting this question. I totally understand how she feels and where she is coming from. If I could free myself and fly away to be with the Lord forever now I would, but I can’t, and He has me/us here for a reason and such a time as this. The Lord Jesus Christ saved my life back in 2013 and I am forever grateful. I’ve been on an uphill journey ever since and yes sinning against the Lord and being physically separated from Him hurts, painfully at times. But thank God for repentance and for His word and promises which provide guidance, comfort, truth and hope. Giving us more and more faith helping us toward the prize and teaching us how to live and giving us something or rather some-One to look forward to, Him! Hallelujah!! And like that old song goes, because He lives I face tomorrow, and today, and every day because it’s no longer I who live but He Who lives in me and He Who is in me is greater than he who is in the world and I can do ALL things through Christ Who strengthens me. The joy of the Lord is my strength and God is the strength of my heart. Thank You Lord Jesus for being my strength, my joy, and my shelter when I’m weak, tired and worn. Thank You for loving and protecting and guiding me and all of us Your children. We love You and long to be with You forevermore!! Amen. Praise the Lord!!! 🙌🙏✝️❤️🕎🔥🕊 After these things the word of the Lord came unto Abram in a vision, saying, Fear not, Abram I am thy shield, and thy exceeding great reward. ‭‭Genesis‬ ‭15:1‬ ‭ One thing I have desired of the LORD, That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the LORD All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the LORD, And to inquire in His temple. ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭27:4‬ ‭

[@beckyobeck]

Great question and great answer. Thank you for your courage to ask. And thank you Pastor John for your awesome answer.

[@SSGHAKAI]

been feeling like this for years now,Father Yah forgive me...

[@Walo3pjE]

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[@garycarter4297]

You're fine. A1, gods waiting on you to lead, not follow ....Lets good now!!!

[@heatherninneman558]

Wow... It's like Marissa was speaking my own pain... Can't find redemption from the mistake I made in my past... A future eternally single, with no family, no friends just loneliness and endless struggle. I realized years ago that I'm not afraid to die. A better place is with God than living on this horrible Earth. If I'm to walk alone for the rest of eternity, then I'd rather not be here anymore.

[@EC-yd9yv]

💙🙏🌺

[@DailyMaddie]

AMEN! May we rejoice for our Lord and Savior to come soon!!!!

[@oaklandsoldier5920]

Being here on earth is painfully difficult. I want out of here. I hate being a single and lonely male.

[@nurendawodu4577]

I wish I was lonely and never had a family.

[@mishy18]

I though I was the only 1 who feels the way 😢. May the Lord God fill that void of feeling lonely & bring you your special someone whom will love u and care for u & vice versa

[@jackcoleman5955]

Thank you, Pastor John. Also thank you to Tony for making us aware of how common depression is, and of the support available. Much gratitude, Jack

[@jackcoleman5955]

@Austin Brown Yes, I have!

[@realyzm]

Anyone struggling with depression and self isolation?

[@vane3330]

Yess

[@katy6470]

Life is pain. I just want to go now.

[@Pravin_coheir]

He’s going to wipe away every tear 🥹

[@timwortman3878]

I always see people comment how Piper's videos are perfectly relevant for their current life situation. Well, that is completely true for me right now; I just never thought it would be this video, this subject. I was doing so well in my walk for a while -- losing sleep and getting up early to do devotions and almost ALWAYS walking away filled with life; I went months without committing the slightest sin that had been destroying me only weeks before; seeking God was a wonder, a pleasure; I hated anything that distracted me and could be moved to tears by the simplest phrase or song verse. But the last grain of that castle on the beach is slipping through my fingers. Before, I didn't even have to TRY to seek and love the Lord -- it was impossible not to. It was EASY. Now, when I don't try, I fall down quick. I fall down hard. I have to try so hard that I sweat in my spirit to do the most meager thing and to gobble the most meager portion of the Spirit. I haven't returned to the sin I once lived in but I recognize certain landmarks of the path that leads to it. I'm scared and ashamed and guilty but I don't think any of those things are enough to cause change. I dont think my sorrow is Godly and therefore not leading to repentance. I feel like God is holding a 6 foot height requirement before the gates of his love and no matter what I do, no matter what I think or eat or how much I exercise, I'm always going to be 5 feet 11 inches tall. It's not enough.

[@kennieapilli6803]

Tim Wortman Brother, praying fervently for you. We share a similar experience and what I learned and would encourage you to meditate on is a realization of COMPLETE dependency on Him. Jeremiah 29:11-13 disciples us perfectly. Prior to your difficult days, He knows what falls before you, He knows His plans for you. We can take on anything that comes our way if we first seek Him with all our heart and soul. I believe the ease you initially experienced was His revelation of the amazing spiritual empowerment from the Holy Spirit when we come under such conviction that we care for absolutely nothing else other than His presence in our lives. No need for food, water, shelter and any other desires of our flesh and we could care less about the world. We just want Him and more of Him. Unfortunately while on this earth we retain our sinful nature as a result of the fall from grace. Upon receiving our salvation Christ promises us three things: a cross to die on, a fight for the faith and eternal life upon leaving this life. I speak for myself when I say that I nail my sins to that cross and faithfully fight daily as I eagerly await His return or my death unto eternal life. I long for His eternal presence and praise God that victory has already been won for us, we don't have to fear anything!! But while we still walk this earth we can honor Him and fight for the souls of our fellow brothers and sister that are still entrapped by their sins. The challenges associated with my walk aren't burdensome but pleasurable because I seek Him harder and faster than my sins can keep up with(and trust me it isn't easy trying to stay ahead of them) in an attempt to honor Him as best as I can. Our Father sent Him to disciple us and take on the wrath of our sins because even in our best attempt we sometimes fail. We aren't strong or smart enough on our own. We never have been and even after our salvation we won't be but the conviction we experience when we fall keeps us close to Him and away from the enemy's eternal grasp on our soul. The difficulty you experience now is a result of your intimacy with Him, be grateful for that. The ease you seek to experience will be there on some days and others will be difficult. No matter what you feel, He must remain at the forefront of your focus and desire. Within a fraction of a second something can go from feeling very heavy to feeling very light. That is supernatural work of the Holy Spirit that can only happen when He we seek Him first in order to refrain from the distractions and grasp of our own sins. When it feels easy seek Him and when it feels hard RUN to Him as fast as you possibly can. We can be so satisfied in Him that we can hardly wait for eternity but should He ask us to abide on this earth for centuries more we can gladly do so because we glory in successes and tribulations to honor Him. Attack your difficult days with Joshua 1:9 brother, look your sins square in the eye and acknowledge that you can't defeat them on your own but praise God that it's by the power of the Holy Spirit that the battle has already been won and by simply claiming that you can nail your sins to the cross. Much love to you brother, keep on keeping on!!!

[@timwortman3878]

@@kennieapilli6803 Thank you, and thank God for people like you who always show up to offer encouragement when I cry out. This was a treat to wake up to this morning. I do have some more questions about your response. > "I speak for myself when I say that I nail my sins to that cross and faithfully fight daily as I eagerly await His return or my death unto eternal life." - What does it mean to nail your sins to the cross? You wake up and say 'Thanks for dying for me God' and there's not a problem from then on? You sin daily yet acknowledge the penalty has been dealt with? > "The difficulty you experience now is a result of your intimacy with Him, be grateful for that." - I cannot even fathom the truth of this, it seems so unbelievable to me. I feel like something God accidentally stepped on and hatefully scrapes off his sandal. "Intimate" is not a word I'd use to describe my relationship with God. Yes, I desire him to the point of needing him desperately, and I hate my sin, but today I feel like I am disintegrating at the same rate that I'm being formed. It's a spiritual decay down to the molecular. > "Attack your difficult days with Joshua 1:9 brother, look your sins square in the eye and acknowledge that you can't defeat them on your own but praise God that it's by the power of the Holy Spirit that the battle has already been won and by simply claiming that you can nail your sins to the cross" - To me this sounds the same as "When the Incredible Hulk uppercuts you in the gut and then slams your face into the concrete, you just have to get up and keep running that marathon!" My sin is astoundingly powerful and painful. It's debilitating to me hour by hour. I'm so tired from fighting. It only presses into me harder. I can fight for months and then after a major slip up I can feel like I haven't won a single battle. I have no comprehension on how to simultaneously rest in the victory of the cross yet fight my sin to the death.

[@risk2193]

Same thing happened to me this year, I felt like I was on fire, praising God each day, reading his Word, watching sermons, but then I fell back into sin and I've never been able to get back, I've had to crawl each day, gruelling and painful and depressingly, and although I've come back to the faith and Jesus has freed me from pornography, drugs, smoking and alcohol I still feel like the days are tough, even if I take one misstep or divert my eyes for a second, I feel like the whole world is on my shoulders again, like depression takes me over and I just feel utter terror and hopelessness. I just want to live with Jesus, in Spirit and in Truth. It used to be so easy walking with God. Thankfully it gets easier and easier every day my friend. I just have to confront the voices, the evil, and myself whenever I come before God each day. Give thanks to the Lord for all the good he has done for me

[@kennethray9771]

Just don't want to be here anymore

[@kennethray9771]

Death seems to be looking real good right now

[@TM-zb5ug]

I want to die as well. I have been married 32 years and my marriage is over. I did not commit fornication, but I made some bad choices. My wife says that she is broken and does not want to see me again and that we are to remain apart. I wish I could go to sleep and not wake up as well. There isn't much for me to live for now. I caused this break up and quite frankly I do not deserve to live. I had a loaded gun pointed to my throat 9 years ago and I could not get myself to pull the trigger. I know I do not have the courage to take my own life, but maybe God will take me when I sleep. I hope and pray that He has forgiven me for what I did to my wife. I have tried everything to get her back, but I have failed. Wretched, sinful man that I am! Lord God, please forgive me and take me soon - PLEASE!

[@EC-yd9yv]

🙏✨

[@kathleenwharton2139]

+Kat..1 Kings 19:3.. "Elijah sat down under a broom bush and prayed that he might die. I have had enough he told the Lord. Take away my life.". There it is.

[@ileanap7439]

I have wanted to dye since I can remember. I have tried to be a good person, respected my parents and until a couple of years ago put others above me. Now, my dear parents have died, my children live in a foreign country, my near family has abandoned me. I have no friends. I feel I have nothing to life for. I pray for death everyday and look forward my last breath🙏🙏🙏

[@bryanbridges2987]

I have wanted to die before. I even prayed for it a couple of times, but God was good enough to not listen. Idk that it is sinful, but it is not healthy. And it is not God's will that we should desire death. God is Life. He wants us to "have life, and have it more abundantly". Yes, heaven is coming. But I believe He wants us to enjoy life here as much as we can. Just stick with God. He is faithful, and He is enough. God bless you whoever you are.

[@bryanbridges2987]

@Austin Brown Yes, I have....

[@pruddyt8645]

I'M EXHAUSTED. I just can't take it anymore.

[@stevesenson8611]

Me too

[@tylersoto7465]

Your not alone 😓

[@jusng988]

Me 2

[@generalshe]

I wish to stop existing on a daily basis

[@baconlon888]

It's satan, endure to the end. I agree it's hard, unbearable and seemingly an unstoppable heaviness pushing us to stop it all. I pray you're all OK, I know the feelings you describe

[@miakayuki1068]

I want to die young. Growing old I will feel worst. I want to forget everything in this earth and live with God in heaven

[@JasongCLJ]

Amen . I do too (:⌛✝️

[@soioioioioioio34]

There is no god

[@marymercer5045]

I just lost my son in a horrible accident, he was literally crushed. In 2009, I lost my other son to muscular dystrophy. Both my children are now in heaven. I know they believed in God and his son Jesus. The pain is unbearable for me. I feel I have no purpose. I am old and tired. I need peace. Perhaps I was destined for hell. My life ha

[@emmanuelimumolen8660]

No no, hell is no, no. It is terrible. Receive JESUS Christ and be saved.

[@roseannemaye9263]

She's right. I agree with her. It's not wrong to be of constant sorrows, it sucks, but nothing can change this for some people. You can still live by faith & be accurately miserable on a daily basis.

[@FaithfulandTrue777]

Please come quickly King Jesus

[@marynelespanilla5560]

I'm 24 and my life seems not going everywhere. I have my Faith. I'm just tired of life that's why I hope to depart here from Earth. I ask God most of my days that I want to die.

[@EC-yd9yv]

💙🙏🌺

[@williammcleroy558]

If it is a sin to want to die then I sin habitually... I hate this life and didn't ask for it. But I still love God and appreciate that He has a VERY good reason for having created me. So I live. I pray.

[@Truthster772]

The more we know, the more we mourn. That’s also in scripture.

[@tylersoto7465]

He who increaes in wisdom increases in pain, and he who increaes in knowledge increases in sorrow 😓

[@joelorei2146]

You have no idea how much it hurt to be excluded. Some of us are just here to make everybody else's lives good. Hell can not be any worse than life

[@TheAlienPunker]

No. Just ask Moses. David, Elijah, etc.

[@brycamp3237]

I feel like my time is coming to an end soon. I just don’t want to be here on this Earth anymore.

[@MsME876]

Hello Bry, I pray that the Lord brings healing and comfort into your heart. He is close to the broken-hearted and comforts those who are crushed in spirit. I pray you feel His presence and are strengthened to continue living. God hasn’t given up on you 🙏

[@brycamp3237]

@@MsME876 thank you so much for your prayer. That was very sweet of you. It made my day. I just wish someone can give me a hug and pray with me in person. I wish someone can go with me to church. I feel so lonely at church. I’m losing hope and strength. I really do appreciate your prayer. So sweet

[@Mikt25]

@@brycamp3237 it's ok to feel this way. You sound like you might feel alone . If I could reach through the monitor and give you a hug I would. 🙂 Know you are never alone though. "Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted." - Psalm 25:16 Prayer: Father please pour your spirit out on Bry and let her know she is never alone. Please comfort her in this time. Give her strength and confidence to venture out and meet a great friend today. In Jesus name. Amen Try to check out some reviews of churches in your area and find one which people seem to like. Go there alone if you have to and try talking with someone who you feel the Holy Sprit is drawing you to. Shake their hand and say, "Hi I'm new here." Also, I met some really great people in a men's group in my church. Ask a pastor there about how to sign up for things like that. I'm a super duper introvert so none of this was easy for me.

[@cjermainesmith5229]

nobody loves me, nobody wants to be around..i want to die, i am tired of trying..i dont want to look forward to prepaid disappointment rejection, unsuccess and the diring frustration, i wish i had a heart attack and just go away, god doesnt care about me..no matter what i do, or how i apologize..there is no more meaning

[@luismoro5720]

I am alone. The world has grown so dark that I can't trust anyone, especially those who are close to me. I have given of myself for all of my life, I have tried living honestly, taken blame for things when I was not at fault, put my life, and health on the line for others and have received very little in return. I can t trust those I try to help because what I provide is never enough. That is why I pray each day that I will never wake up again or that someone would kill me or injure me. I am done with life but I am not suicidal. I just want to be gone from this world.

[@myrtleesther8855]

Jesus did all this and more for you, so give Him your life.

[@PhoenixRiseinFlame]

A couple months ago I begged God with all my heart to kill me. I suffer such burdens from my past and have no one in this world. My parents have screwed me up to the point I can’t find a spouse. I had undiagnosed sleep apnea for 20 years that absolutely destroyed my life through stress, anxiety, and social issues. I have a crushing weight from my student loans from law school. The future prospects of my life hang on me passing the bar and I don’t know what I’ll do if I fail. People who should have been my friends and family betrayed me and I have no one to turn to. I have to bear the weight of being ugly and losing my hair in my early 20s. I’m having an existential crisis and until yesterday had zero leads. This couldn’t have come at a more opportune time.

[@iymblog]

I just want to be with Jesus. I can't do this anymore

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest" kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@jamiebraswell5520]

I struggle with failure in life. I have struggled with suicide, having come very close two months ago. God delivered me from it, just as He delivered me from athiesism a few years ago. I have Major Depression, and it is really hard to overcome, even with help. See, I am gay but I understand that God doesn't want this for me, but what is my purpose in life? I am 49 with no career, and I will never have a family. I feel like I can't do anything, and I feel lost as to what I am supposed to do. I have prayed for guidance in life, but I am left clueless which leads to a feeling of hopelessness. I try having faith and believing in God's plan, but it is incredibly difficult. I so need for my path to be revealed, where I can be put to use by God, but perhaps I really am useless and a waste of space.

[@godsgrace1137]

Jamie Braswell dear Jamie....my son has the same struggle as you...as do many. Being gay is your struggle, but we all have our struggles....they are just different...but very hard. Trust God...this life is just temporary...heaven is eternal and it is eternal JOY! This life is short...get through it by helping others...give your life a purpose beyond yourself and you will see how you have helped others. I’m adding your intentions to my prayers. You be strong and start to live the life God gave you the best you can. Don’t be so hard on yourself. God loves you more than you could ever imagine! You’ll see Him someday...keep the faith and make a decision to start living life the best you can...be strong...trust God!

[@anniemaealways675]

God brings new people, situations, and mercies and trials into our lives each day. You will be amazed at what God can and will do with your life. Look at David, his life felt it was in ruin, but God redeemed. Never stop having faith that God is who He says. He makes all things new, that includes you. "my soul, why are you dismayed? Hope in God." You may think you will never have a family, but rest assured, the Lord can give you children of the Spirit, brothers and sisters in Christ, and success in the Kingdom. Hope in God, His grace is truly sufficient.

[@vivalav5199]

Jamie, you are not useless or wasted space. The Bible says, God knew you when you were in the secret place. He knows every hair on your head. If he takes such good care of the birds of the air, He will certainly take care if His children and you are His. Please examine every thought and take it captive. Ask if it comes from The Lord who loves you dearly and died for you, or is it from Satan the father of lies! God loves you so much Jamie. Seek help with your Pastor, a trusted friend, and read your bible daily. God will speak to you through The Holy Spirit. Hugs Jamie! ♥️

[@jamiebraswell5520]

@@godsgrace1137 , thank you, Annie, and Jane for your kind and encouraging words. I had to spend two weeks at the mental health hospital after my close call. I never thought I would see myself in such a situation. I'd like to say it helped, but the reality is that I still feel the same, just not on the brink. God worked out a pretty good job for me last year. It was a blessing and with the way everything fell into place perfectly, I have no doubt it was God. Yet I ended up getting fired 9 months later. It really made me feel like I have the special talent of ruining God's blessing. I believe in God, but lately I have felt distant from Him. I am not proud to say that. I do love God, but I am struggling to rise above all of these problems. Depression is awful. I have suffered from it for over twenty years. Being an athiest was not enlightening or freeing like I used to think. It is a lie and the greatest deception the devil ever concocted. I am tired. I pray to be shown the path that has eluded me for so long. Again, thank you all for responding so kindly and full of love and care.

[@jeffouellette9946]

Even Christians have to be delivered of demons. I still believe people have demons around them affecting them. Through addiction people have demons. I'm not saying people are like possessed. Can you imagine what you don't see.?

[@tobeforgottenisworsethande8995]

I'm 32 and I dread the rest of my life and it only seems like it's going downhill and I'm a Christian I'm fully believing God though I get frustrated at times but it just seems like no matter how hard I try I can't get over my addiction and I can't get a leg up in life and get any sort of opportunities to actually live a successful life without being a burden on everyone. I've been single for 5 years so I'm probably never going to get married and I don't have any friends so I don't really have anybody to talk to about this stuff and when I try to talk to Christians they just say oh have faith God has planned but that's kind of a weak answer.

[@HopeinYahweh]

Hebrews 13: 12-15 So Jesus also suffered outside the gate in order to sanctify the people through his own blood. Therefore, let us go to him outside the camp and bear the reproach he endured. For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city that is to come. Through him, then let us continually offer up a sacrifice of praise to God, that is, the fruit of lips that acknowledge his name. Dear friend, as Christians, we take up our cross and follow Christ. We suffer for Christ. We are not to love the world, but to have joy and thanksgiving for what Christ suffered on our behalf. The gate (to life) is narrow (and very few find it or enter through it) and the pathway is strait, meaning it is full of affliction. God keeps those He has purchased through the blood of Christ close at all costs. He cannot lie and he will not abandon you if you are His. Look to the apostle Paul as an example of someone that had he not been righteously afflicted, his pride would have kept him far from needing God. To need God is a spiritual gift that many go without in their "successful" happy lives that end in hell.

[@kaz9203]

I know that feeling mellissa, but please hang In there. God knows your heart and mind and he will guide you through his word.

[@brandigutierrez8636]

This is what im experiencing and my life has become unbearable and by his grace and mercy , he has not allowed my efforts of taking my life intentionally and unintentionally and I cry for him to save me from my ownself because each day I somehow mess things up .

[@Jantonov1]

Me too. I get how you feel. I'm sorry for your own suffering.

[@brandigutierrez8636]

@@Jantonov1 thank you for response and to know we're not alone in this struggle.

[@EC-yd9yv]

I understand going thru same.. blessings 🙏✨

[@brandigutierrez8636]

@@EC-yd9yv don't give up , keep crying out and seeking him in his word and have faith he's going to come through because those Jericho walls are coming down in my life and things have changed extremely in my life and most importantly in me!! Love ya E C , I'm praying for you and your not alone!!

[@kencasunuran1153]

For all my teenage years i've been asking this question amd now that i'm an adult and i know now. Thank you God.

[@kencasunuran1153]

@Austin Brown Yes

[@becky2235]

So we've all gotta suffer? But God loves us? That sums up this video

[@jesuschristislord-gloryofg9450]

The wicked is driven away in his wickedness: but the righteous hath hope in his death.

[@timmartin6091]

Some years ago, I almost took my own life. I was abused when I was a kid, broken, depressed, anorexic, bulimic, self-harming. suicidal. My biological father choked me and chased me with the lawnmower as if her was gonna run me over, I went in & out of psychiatric units like it was a game of Chess. Suicide watch. I was on enough Antidepressants to kill a horse since i was 12. I hated myself. I wanted out. I wanted the pain to stop. The abuse to end I wanted power. I got into witchcraft. I thought it would give me the identity i wanted, to be set apart from people who hurt me. It only made me sicker. Sicker. Thats what it did to me. The doctors said i’d never get well. That i would suffer severe Chronic Manic depression, and never be well, that id be stuck on antidepressants all of my life. I would plot suicide on a daily basis, binging and purging my food as often as opening and closing a door. The pain was too real. People choked me. Assaulted me. Told me i was ugly, told me to apologize to him for every year i was alive. i felt worthless. Nothing ever got better. Then my mother died. The (1) & only soul who ever loved /emotionally supported me was removed from the earth. I was stuck living with people who broke me, ruined my identity, thus causing me to hate God. I thought God hated me, that he was just like the ones who tortured me, a family of abusers, who cover up all their actions with the mask of religion. I didnt know that God is on my side. I didnt know that Jesus would Love and Defend me, and fight for me and that He later would heal me, rescue me from Family. The ones who caused me pain. The ones who choked me for wearing a pagan necklace. I moved out after family threatened to throw all my belongings on the front yard, and have me permanently institutionalized in an insane asylum, when they were the ones who caused my mental illness via abuse. They blamed me for the abuse they did to me. To take my life in a psychiatric unit aka insane asylum when they were the ones who made me suicidal. Next morning i moved in with my dead mom’s parents. I stayed on the antidepressants, prescribed. But they only made me sicker. I got deeper and deeper into witchcraft, thinking it was a solution. But it made me even more suicidal. Self hatred was inescapable. All my cards have fallen down. I have nothing left. But out. I wanted out. I decided i was going to kill myself. I was going to take all my pills. But then Jesus stepped in. I didnt die. I surrendered my life to Jesus to make me well and heal me. The deity i blamed for me being abused wanted to heal me. He Was fighting for me and Loved me all along. He wanted to love me. He wanted to give me a new heart. His Heart. Jesus miraculously healed me - i am off all the drugs and dont need them and i dont have any mental illnesses. I am totally healed , full of joy. I’m now a born again Christian. I want ALL y’all to know that JESUS IS ON YOUR SIDE HE’s FIGHTING FOR you. Don’t believe me? Just WATCH WHAT HE WILL DO FOR YOU NEXT

[@evanrambikur1708]

God bless you sister as you seek his face and trust him.

[@Storm_280]

Please someone help me. I honestly feel like God hates me. I feel like he never wants me to have a girlfriend, be happy. I feel like his plan for me is mediocre and if I want anything more that’s when he gets mad at me. I AM SUFFERING AND IT HURTS I JUST WANT HELP IM DESPERATE ENOUGH TO ASK KZbin FOR HELP BECAUSE I HAVE NO ONE ELSE NO FRIENDS NO ONE. I LIVE IN EXISTENTIAL DREAD. COLLEGE HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT GRIEF AND LONELINESS I WALK AROUND SEEING EVERYONE HAPPY WITH THEIR COUPLES WHILE IM SINGLE IM TIRED OF BEING SOLO BUT I DONT FEEL I HAVE A CHOICE. I just don’t care about being alive anymore. I just want my life to end.

[@a_francis818]

That's crazy bro. I'm kind of in the same situation as you. I'm very lonely as well, the biggest desire of my heart is to have a female companion, but I know it will never happen in this life for certain reasons and wish I could die and just go home (i'm 22). But I know the rapture is soon it gives some hope. I know one day in the in his Kingdom I will be able to serve the Lord with the woman of my dreams

[@dennislear7098]

I just want out of this hell hole.

[@boxfox2945]

Yes'

[@Blue47-c1n]

I want to die right now... I wish I sleep and never wokeup

[@tylerbrooks7187]

I want to die too my own sin only winds up making me extremely depressed I've tried to take my life a few times in the past year and other times I do cutting or punching poles

[@lionofjudahlambofgod9132]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/pKKkeJd7a9GSgNU

[@thefridakahlo]

I so deeply want to die. I pray for my life to be taken nearly everyday. I cry to the Lord and sometimes get bitter that I'm still alive. I dread waking up daily. I have zero joy in living. I'm suffering from anxiety and depression and some sort of agoraphobia. I hate this world. I cry about it's condition regularly and get disappointed that it is only get worse. I have no hope. And I feel like I'm being tortured every day. I can't do the deed myself. I could never. It's out of the question. So here I go. Living daily because I have to but definitely not because I want to.

[@kerrin6633]

Praying for you :)

[@shanthit3691]

I'm standing for my broken marriage from past 6 yrs but my husband who married me in 2015 June left me in 24 days after our marriage. It's been 6 yrs I'm waiting for him and will wait till my last days. As per the word of God he is my covenant husband and will be till my last days in this world.

[@EC-yd9yv]

🙏✨

[@lukewagner8871]

Philippians 1:23-24 KJVS [23] For I am in a strait betwixt two, having a desire to depart, and to be with Christ; which is far better: [24] Nevertheless to abide in the flesh is more needful for you.

[@lukewagner8871]

Austin Brown I have been baptized, full immersion, and received the baptism of the Holy Ghost months later. I have a website that you may find interesting. www.justifiedfreely.com

[@bigt4331]

I hate my life, wish I was.gone.

[@soioioioioioio34]

Me too!