JAYTEKZ - Losing Myself

JAYTEKZ - Losing Myself
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Official "Losing Myself" Lyrics:
Yeah I lost who I was
Alcohol and the drugs
It was killing my brain, it was deep in my blood
And it weakened my love
I hated myself, I hated my guts
I was stuck in the mud
I was stuck in the rain
My life was a flood
I was hiding a grudge
I was hiding the truth, I was hiding the pain
I was hiding the tears
As if I wasn't hurt but this shit was severe
Wishing I'd disappear
Wishing I wasn't here, wishing I would just die
And get buried alive
I was wondering why
Like why was I born
Why wasn't I warned?
Why wasn't I warned? No
Why wasn't I warned of the troubles ahead?
Of all the tears and blood I'd shed
I had no idea the devil was just around the corner
Waiting to capture me when I least expected it
Why wasn't I warned?
Why wasn't I warned?
Why wasn't I warned of the troubles ahead of me?
Why wasn't I told that love would become my worst enemy?
The older I get, the more that I'm left with painful memories
The colder I get, the more I resent and live regretfully
It doesn't make sense to me, no
It doesn't make sense to me
If there is a god why won't he respond? Is he protecting me?
If there is a god then why would he want to put an end to me?
If there is a god then all that I ask is that he rescues me
Will you rescue me uhh
And then I realized
That my god is within
My god is love
My god is energy
My god is all things in this world
My god doesn't live in the sky
But rather lives within my heart
And he's always been there
I was searching for a love through the drugs and the alcohol and I
Lost me through the simple thought if I
Numb the pain it would heal this heart of mine
But it only made the real me harder to find
Insecurities and hatred all combined
Is a misery that kept me lost in time
I don't even wanna' speak upon it now
Cause that imagery still haunts my mind
So I had to look deep within myself
Cause the problem was I nobody else
I was too damn proud to ask for help
Everyday I was walking on eggshells
I was scared to breakdown or make a crack
So I had to fake smiles and fake the laughs
But inside I was bound to break in half
I was hiding behind a tainted mask
Realized that I had to take it off
Otherwise I would never shake this off
Overtime all the hatred had evolved
Borderline my heart almost dissolved
But I came to my senses just in time
Every breath that we take is so divine
And it's up to ourselves to redefine
What our purpose will serve between the lines
So I took all my pain and agony
All the wounds from my past catastrophes
Took the blood from the blade that pierced my heart
And I painted a precious masterpiece
Cause I know that the darkest tragedies
Make way for the brightest days ahead
And I know that whatever saddens me
Only strengthens my weakness in the end
What doesn't kill you is only proof of your purpose
And it's up to you to find out what your purpose is
But I promise you that you have one
And I promise you that you will find it if you search deep enough
Have faith and just believe
Fornever
#JayteKz #LosingMyself #Jaytekzofficial

[@iamjaytekz]

This is for everyone who feels alone and feels like they will not heal. You WILL heal and everything will eventually get better, I promise you that!!! I love you all so much and every single one of you has a purpose!!!! HAVE FAITH AND MAINTAIN HOPE!!! I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!!!!!! ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ 4NEVER 🌹

[@silviagil4684]

JayteKz i love this song!! I love you for every song you composed! !!

[@hfreestyle4587]

JayteKz I love all your music it's makes me stay on my feet thank you for everything and I just posted it on my Instagram I'm lil.homiee

[@elenamartin2599]

JayteKz I have been lately feeling depressed and wanted to kill myself, but then I heard this, and you made me wanna keep fighting for something. Thank you for preventing me and I wanna say, I look up to you.

[@troseswav]

i can feel this, sooo damn much. Thank you Jay

[@sheynangians]

I honestly really needed to read this so much going on 🙏🏽

[@kelseymorelock5492]

Great song I'm Robert God made me schizophrenic. I started drugs when I was 19 when dad died .I've died three different times from it . I had lost everything I finally quit at 35 and I lost my mind seeing n hearing. The voices was so much I would cry out to God and nothing. I spent 2 yrs in a mental hospital where I found God I prayed one night not for myself but for him I said to him I cant imagine what you go through n the voices stopped. I thank him for showing me he's there for everyone even the sinners. God finally let me find my wife that lovese n I thank you god

[@demxnofficial3108]

This shit more real than most friendships 🤷🏽‍♂️ mad respect for you bro. Been here since “If I Should” 💉💵

[@demxnofficial3108]

I swear 👏🏽👏🏽

[@NilowTank]

LYRICS: Jojo Sage [Verse 1: JayteKz] Yeah, I lost who I was Alcohol and the drugs, It was killing my brain It was deep in my blood, and It weakened my love I hated myself, I hated my guts I was stuck in the mud I was stuck in the rain My life was a flood I was hiding the crutch I was hiding the truth I was hiding the pain I was hiding the tears As if I wasn't hurt but this shit was severe Wishing I'd disappear Wishing I wasn't here Wishing I would just die and get buried alive I was wondering why.. like, "Why was I born?" Why wasn't I warned? Why wasn't I warned? [Dialogue] Why wasn't I warned of the troubles ahead? Of all the tears and blood I'd shed I had no idea the devil was just around the corner Waiting to capture me when I least expected it Why wasn't I warned? Why wasn't I warned? [Verse 2: JayteKz] Why wasn't I warned of the troubles ahead of me? Why wasn't I told that love would become my worse enemy? The older I get, the more I'm left with pain from memories The colder I get, the more I resent and live regretfully It doesn't make sense to me, no It doesn't make sense to me If there is a god why won't he respond? Is he protecting me? If there is a god why then would he want to put an end to me? If there is a god then all that I ask is that he rescues me Will you rescue me? [Dialogue] Then I realized that my god is within My god is love My god is energy My god is all things in this world My god does not live in the sky, but rather lives within my heart And he's always been there [Verse 3: JayteKz] I was searching for a love through the drugs and the alcohol And I lost me through the simple thought if I numb the pain it would heal this heart of mine But It only made the real me hard to find Insecurities and hatred all combined is a misery that kept me lost in time I don't even want to speak upon it now, cause the imagery still haunts my mind So I had to look deep within myself, cause the problem is I nobody else I was too damn proud to ask for help Everyday I was walking on eggshells I was scared to breakdown and make a crack So I had to fake smiles and fake the laughs But, inside I was bound to break in half I was hiding behind the (?) and mask Realized I had to take it off, otherwise I would never shake this off Overtime all the hatred had evolved Borderline my heart almost dissolved But, I came to my senses just in time Every breath that we take is so divine And it's up to ourselves to redefine What our purpose will serve between the lines So I took all my pain and agony All the wounds from my past catastrophes To the blood from the blade that pierced my heart And our pain that pressures masterpiece Cause I know that the darkest tragedies make way for the brightest days ahead And I know that whatever saddens me, only strengthens my weakness in the end [Outro] What doesn't kill you is only proof of your purpose And it's up to you to find what your purpose is But, I promise you that you have one And I promise you that you will find it if you search deep enough Have faith and just believe

[@catrinamolina5985]

Damn

[@jonanderson4474]

(?)= tame?.. ... Maybe?

[@narnar2539]

@@jonanderson4474 honestly I think it's meant to be "Tainted mask"

[@kagisomabotha2797]

Crutch is actually grudge

[@kagisomabotha2797]

And (?)is tainted mask

[@JorgeOrtega-pe8cg]

RECENTLY MY SON WAS MURDERED BY HIS OWN FRIEND I STRUGGLE EVERYDAY I MISS MY SON I HAVE TO KEEP MOVING ON FOR THAT DAY I WILL SEE MY SON AGAIN I LET GOD TAKE CONTROL 🙏🦋💯🪦

[@user-qv9lk8ge8y]

❤

[@user-qv9lk8ge8y]

Hugs

[@venusrosemary5987]

Real. My oldest cousin was murdered over a girl by his own best friend.

[@illmatter850]

Yo man keep healing our depression your music always been a cure to our damage hearts

[@yonderlyworld1462]

Right now I wasn’t in the best mind state...I was thinking about ending it,then I saw the notification and I wanted to know what words where going to fall out of your mouth,what this song was gonna be,about how horrible you feel and how you think about ending it...or if everything will get better? Truth is,i never know with you,you’re an amazing artist and this cheered me up...thank you for another beautiful song.

[@patheticentertainmentt.v916]

How are you doing ?

[@tykeasiaarmstrong3074]

The older I get the more im left with pain from memories.😈

[@nicholasrancourt2552]

Facts I'm only 18 but my life is just a cycle of heart break

[@erickdiaz884]

@@nicholasrancourt2552 "Cycle of heartbreak" This reminded me of a lyric from "Broken" By AK. I know it's random but you should listen to it, it's a good song ):)

[@deandredaleytv2271]

frl its all facts am just 18 and ik

[@thomascotton2029]

So true

[@heavenalfarolopez8640]

I want a jaytekz and phora song

[@dejajoseph3209]

Heaven Alfaro lopez. Omg same

[@leososa659]

Tbh i want that too

[@audeliaramirez1030]

Them both will definetly make a great duo or sik world and lucidious including jaytekz and phora👍

[@salvadorlopez9236]

What about an album?

[@Bermudez.0324]

Heaven Alfaro lopez fr same

[@realjqa]

I can't say nothing but Wonderfulness💜

[@thatguyrowan6685]

i cant say nothing but wonderfulness isnt a fucking word u nob

[@lolalittlefeather6193]

Found this song by chance. Any poet can never find enough words to describe their pain, hurt and thoughts. Inner peace is rare. Loneliness helps to find it - which is a messed up balance.

[@Lostsoul_111]

This is officially one of my favorites now. How did I manage to miss this one. Been listening for years.

[@dejajoseph3209]

It would be my dream if jaytekz, bmike, phora all made a song together

[@josiahkennedy914]

dj the stop motion yessss

[@playlistkweentv7421]

Yess n NF not to mention silk

[@yasmintejada2251]

dj the stop motion. Yes

[@iyanaanderson4120]

And nf cant forget my man lol😂💙💜

[@danielhurley3508]

oh and ivan b

[@rachelm.208]

2018- I was here. Your music healed me. 2021 - I’m here reminiscing about how your music healed me in my “darkest hour” back in 2018. Much love ❤️. Ill never forget your music and what it did for me in my darkest hours or brightest days.

[@eugenio3048]

Truly beautiful song....

[@kadens1903]

Eugenio Santiago nice profile pick buddy:)

[@eugenio3048]

Crazy Limper omg hii 😂🤘😁 #NFREALMUSIC

[@reginamarcum1705]

I'm fighting depression and its so damn hard man. But when I listen to your music it helps me alot. I can relate to everyone of your songs. 💕

[@eileenwise5877]

I just got out of the hospital after a month in the ICU for an attempted suicide. This song and all of your songs are as if the blood and pain in my veins is put into words through your music. Orgasmic!

[@MarioRodriguez-zm6uu]

This is the true battle between being lost and alone, but still praying on gods side. This is the message of a true angel. Just know you are not alone god made us for a reason. We fight the demons that others cant! Do not give up like i am.

[@beary7797]

Don't give up just stick around a little more the bad days will make you appreciate the good ones even more. even if the good ones are a few

[@mariaamontes2252]

So proud of how far you've came 💘 no matter the hardships and the times you hit rock bottom, you made it out and kept pushing. I love you and i thank you for being here for me through your music.

[@noralenadeleon5039]

Who's here b4 it blows up ?!

[@unknownuser2472]

Noralena Deleon I heard it the second he dropped it #4Never

[@shailamackay]

Me

[@renae-reneea8493]

Me

[@12345muskrat]

I was here when he was rapping in a back seat

[@raul2rst]

@@12345muskrat same

[@Jesusviene1909]

Every word you say in every of your songs explains it better about what I’ve been through and what I feel.✨💕

[@somerandompheasant9200]

Your music is the only thing that I can connect to about wanting to die and end it your music helps me keep pushing even when my arms are broke and ripped apart you help me keep pushing onward

[@niritbarad2893]

Your purpose is spreading the word and helping people

[@PresenceMusic]

4NEVER 🖤🌹

[@idc.jose-]

Presence Love Your Vids Man!🔥

[@albertabbott5737]

You watch jayteKz?? Love your videos BTW, keep it up man

[@albertabbott5737]

Aye mean your a strong person, keep up the music and progression, love ya man

[@bryancedano3393]

Alone

[@healthyjoe6275]

What ever happened to never say never??

[@evelynngarza4652]

Damn you never seem to fail you just keep amazing me with your music 🙏🏼💕

[@aboveconstant123]

Been listening to this beautiful piece that many can relate to as much as me. And it's 2022 and I'm still feeling this pain and your music keeps me going through all the stuff that's happened to me, and my family.

[@brittanychapman1514]

Thank you for telling ppl about depression it's a scarier thing to do alone

[@coreallen]

Thank you jayteKz you have saved my life with your music it gives me strength to go on i just startee diving again was a year and half sober and going through a hard time if itbwas not for your muisc i would of put that glock to my head already this songs helps knowing am not alone in feeling aloneAnd lost. the girl i love the most pushes me away seeing everyone happy with there kids kills me since i lost 2 of mine and my sons baby mama disappeared with my son i feel so lost and and alone and i jyst want to numb the pain just trying not to turn to drugs again but idk how long i can fight that demand

[@chrisdelgado9073]

I've gone through the same loss . Stay strong and tru to yourself in whatever you' do . You'll make it thru

[@thesingers4895]

Im glad there is someone like u doing this because almost everything u say is how i feel

[@DavidLundy-lw3el]

This song hits so lose to home, I feel like I'm breaking but I ha e to keep on keeping on for my kids. Thank you Jaytekz your songs give me so much inspiration

[@rubichavez7043]

I blast this song and "if i should " and maneeeee every words hits the heart and numbs the pain. Im sad and happy 💚. So much love for you dude. My god is in me 💚 i love that.

[@Sealand1120]

Favorite artist right now, So easily relatable & it lets me know I ain't the only one 😭🤗💕

[@anonymouskiddault2814]

This is so deep😢💔.Who can relate ik i can 😢😢💔💔 I love u Jaytekz❤ #4never

[@p0eticallycha0tic81]

....... on repeat.. I'm lost in my head once again..

[@imnumburdumb5393]

His voice is just magic I really love this song helps me get thru everyday I miss my dad so much mane he died from suicide 13 years ago 4 days before my 5th birthday I still wish if he would've seen me he wouldn't have done what he did thank you for this song

[@missllamagirl7072]

I relate to this so much. Im so glad that you put out this music, it really helps me and I know it helpsothers too

[@2faced847]

I really needed hear that your music has saved myself gave me hope an understanding in not alone in this world there are people who going through the same thing every day thanks man really thank you

[@lifeoflarose6046]

I hope one day I can be as strong as you..... your music does so much...

[@damioncozzi3290]

Your music Jaytekz has brought me out of my depression and when I fall back into it I listen to you and your music makes me prevail and makes me wanna feel alive and that I’m loved! Keep it up please

[@theeohsodiana3680]

this is exactly what I needed, I love it I don't feel as alone anymore even though I am because my family will not understand all this pain I feel,,, but I love you so much 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

[@carmenromero4304]

yr songs are so relatable. 🤕

[@michelleahmadhukle6999]

My daughter had me listen to this song and it blew me away. I have been fighting depression for years. My mother passed away almost 4 years and she was not only my mothet but my best friend. Her passing has effected me so bad. Death changes people and its hard to believe how family especially will treat you. I have no relationship with them since momma passed. Sad thing is I still don't know why. I have cried many tears and prayed to God and still waiting. I fight my own demons over my past mistakes and it eats me up at times and when you try to overcome it you have people who won't let it go and push and push til you feel like yesterdays trash. I try so hard to push through but last week i broke down and completely lost it I couldn't take the pain and misery of feeling like so alone and a failure to my family my kids and me. I felt like everyone would be better if i was gone. I feel like a stranger in this world. I truly don't belong and have prayed and prayed but God says different.

[@miguelstorysfelix437]

Wow jaytekz you killed it again with this song and you had been so much I hope get well soon me and your funs r counting on you and so I see why u call this song but I know what I should do now thank you for ur song jaytekz

[@Mari-cs5rz]

Your music is Art.

[@_brenda]

Pure gold❤️❤️

[@evaa3217]

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING WITHOUT UR MUSIC I WOULDNT BE HERE TODAY THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE U. UR MUSIC KEEPS ME ALIVE. ILYSFM❤️

[@uilinamulauulupapalii7667]

He's one of gods angels an he's probs saved a lot from depression I thank god for a person like this man love you JayTekz

[@sarahortiz8775]

Wow !?!?! This song sort of relate's to me in a way the song is very beautiful.❤❤

[@nathye5716]

I LOVE YU SM JAYTEKZ❤️!! keep doing your music🎵💛it always help me and for sure other ppl❤️.

[@johnnyrodriguez3448]

He's a genius.love his realness.i can relate to this song .love you music

[@brokenplays4310]

This hits home hard. Such a deep but meaningful song. Thank you for letting us know we aint alone. Thank you Thank you Thank you! Keep doing what you do , your killing it.

[@dmac2096]

Never stopped watching an XVideos so fast in my life.

[@pressure10k38]

Great song

[@rubenramos5654]

Took the blood,from the blade that pierced my heart. And I painted a precious masterpiece ....u beyond sick with it...how r u unknown

[@redriding_inthehood3146]

This song need to be 15 mins long😭😭😭🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@tykeasiaarmstrong3074]

Motivation for me!!! 💯👌🏾

[@trinclark1112]

I love your words they have emotion in every letter 😒😢

[@patriciaserrano2526]

I know you only have bangers, but I wasn't mentally prepared for this 😥 this one pierced through my heart. Keep growing, keep evolving, and our Lord will continue to keep you. Bless.

[@alexnavarro3049]

Why haven't I heard of him until now , I was missing out, Man, God bless you always Jaytekz 👍👍😢

[@dexterrainbowsix]

Love you jaytekz!

[@jocygonzalez7233]

Thank you

[@Tony_montana-joy]

Bless you my brother... If we're all kids of God, then you're my brother from afar.. your music has surely been blessed by God !

[@audreycantu4246]

love ur music... 🍻

[@yeahcunt3230]

Goes hard Brother this song is SPEAKING THE TRUTH☹️💕

[@armandochadwick9881]

Relate😭😍

[@flamingskull80]

Thanks alot your music has changed my life around and it really shows that there is more to life than ending it all

[@jennam5331]

This hit me so deep while I was at the gym, that I had to stop to collect myself. It’s not just his lyrics that get to me. It’s his face in the videos too. You can see that pain. You can hear it in his words. And you feel it deep in you. And I relate to all of it. Your work is powerful and beautiful. Keep it comin

[@dannyarias641]

Yess😭❤️

[@tmac888t5]

Damn man Song is Deep keep it going bro your an inspiration can wait to see you make it you DESERVE it

[@jaymartinez6715]

Definitely relatable, everyday struggles.

[@rico6212]

that flow switch 🔥🔥🔥

[@tmac888t5]

Your transition from singing to rapping is fire

[@teresahernandez812]

King👑 I love this you never fail us

[@rachelm.208]

This has helped me through a tough time in my life ♥️... thankful for good music and artist that speak from there heart. Much love your way and thank you- through your song, I found peace.

[@valariehennion2815]

Ur songs hit so deep yo sometimes I feel like ur the only one listening and the only one who understands how we feel

[@brownboii999xx]

You never disappoint your music will always be my favorite

[@ughitsdiana]

Already know by the beat that I love this song💕 congrats 💞👏🏻

[@elijahlewis7177]

You’re a true OG

[@maerose5053]

You spoke the truth of what's inside of many of us and even with the tears, we can smile and know that we are never really alone

[@ghostboy-ck1mn]

Love your song

[@anonymoussecrect0_051]

🔥🔥🔥✊️

[@shailamackay]

I love this song you’re my fave rapper you speak from the heart and past makes you a true rapper your music saved me from some dark times

[@brycelee02]

This one of the personal songs i listen to, literally my emotions in a song.

[@whoismayraaxd7659]

I’m at a party and had to go outside just for this 😭😭😭😭

[@adrianpablo8159]

Mayra Jurado Respect

[@chinito20fam]

Factz that’s what’s up 💯💯💯 big fan 💪🏽

[@miguelmejia3372]

I know that struggle

[@joshualara3475]

Lies

[@whoismayraaxd7659]

Joshua Lara bet.

[@kaylajayproductions3172]

I was waiting so long for this. I love it baby 💗💗💗

[@tekniktrip-2933]

is it me? or is this just the perfect jam, I love the messege it brings, I love how connected I felt, I love the change of rhythm, the realness and raw emotion.

[@630bomber]

I'm going thru my lows have suicidal thoughts but Jaytekz songs keeps me going

[@adrianaperez8632]

Omggg this is the best I ever heard 🙌🏼❤️❤️❤️ I love you and I’m proud of you 🌹🌹❤️

[@williamdean2321]

deep af..he just needs singed already

[@dejavujx]

This song really touched me. Going through depression is the hardest thing in life but things really do get better, everyone has a purpose and God will put you through situations to make you realize how strong you are. He will help you heal. Let yourself heal. Don't think negative everyday tell yourself positive things and there will be a outcome stop believing things people tell you and prove them wrong because you are beautiful and can do anything if you put effort into it. Anything is possible.

[@FilmSkater]

You're retelling my life. I appreciate that

[@southsidesadboyy]

My heart... tears fill my eyes.. truely worth sharing with others. ❤️💯

[@dannyarias641]

Been waiting for this !!!!😭💞‼️

[@jessicadamian3980]

Yasssss i was wating for ittttt

[@meganledbetter2537]

Your music helps me

[@joy40007]

Deep 💙💔

[@michaelalvarado2389]

Banger!😞❤️

[@jackieceja4997]

Omg love u jay

[@painrapsmusic361]

This hits deep 🖤💥

[@aliciamorasse51]

can relate to this so much!