Jon_Richardson_A_Little_Bit_OCD

[@NerdsBehavingBadly]

Really glad Jon Richardson did a program like this, so people won't just see OCD as something funny or to be glorified. It's a legitimate disorder that people deal with from day to day.

[@dron3k]

Yeah Jon is great guy

[@McKavian]

Emily L Have you seen Stephen Fry's documentary on being bipolar? It's done in a similar style as this and just as informative and interesting.

[@Falkano]

the problem with that is that most times programs like this just preach to the choir because just the people who respect it already watch it and those who are ignorant towards it either dont watch it or keep on making fun of it anyway... but i guess if it just informed a single person its a success so youre right :)

[@Baszottbivaly2]

Well, here I am as a counterpoint, I'm about to watch this with genuine interest, and I only clicked on it because I thought it was going to be one of his standups.

[@ems7623]

Honestly, I really don't think OCD is at much of a risk of being glorified. As for being "funny", it is important to remind ourselves that finding humor in something is not diametrically opposed to it being understood to be a legitimate disorder. Frankly, a bit of humor about psychological conditions can help people who suffer from them, provided they also know that they can get help - and humor can really lift the stigma off mental conditions and disorders in a society.

[@mandarinz69]

Jon seems like such a genuine, kind guy. The way he talks to and treats those people with OCD is really nice. He's so understanding and respectful.

[@codysmith3853]

jon is so respectful! he's trying so hard to make sure everyone he talks to is comfortable and he is just so patient it really is nice

[@ywoulduchoosetousethis]

It is a product of disabilities for those who strive to understand themselves so as to minimize vulnerabilities and maximize strengths. Thru their trials, they realize the effort it takes to live their lives and so r a bit mindful of ppls'.

[@lwilso9152]

He understands the way their brains work to a lesser extent, and experiencing a similar feeling allows him to really empathize instead of just being sympathetic.

[@Cerridwen7777]

"It's my fault. I deserve to be unhappy for wanting it to be a certain way". That right there gives words to a kernel of personal truth and a lie that I could never put words to.

[@AllieAndPeach]

broke my heart

[@blind-in-the-left-ear4508]

That was a tough one

[@michaelobryan1968]

It's been 5 years, but the wording of that sentence is now in my journal. Thanks for that.

[@codysmith3853]

the woman lost her son and she's afraid of upsetting jon im genuinely so sad

[@mariodwir]

Cody Smith i wept

[@bambiholmes]

i had no clue it could get so bad for people to resort to that, but it makes sense that if you don't get treatment it's possible it escalates immesurably, it broke my heart to learn this

[@karolynjs44]

I worked in behavioral health for 30 years, and I’m impressed with how well this was produced. I wish more people in America could see this. Thanks, Jon, for putting yourself out there and taking us on this journey into the depths of OCD.

[@angela_in_chains9122]

I love at 5:29 when the other guy says he doesn't like saying he has OCD because people suffer from it so much worse than he does. I appreciate that... so many people have a little quirk and say "OMG I'm sooo OCD"... No, you not. You have a quirk, not a disabling disorder.

[@haleyw5677]

no but people who do actually have OCD should be able to say they have it. it might actually be because of an obsession that he doesn't like saying he has it.

[@mj2208]

I don’t love that he says that because he is clinically diagnosed with OCD and thus should be able to say it. Just because some people suffer more from it doesn’t invalidate the ways in which he suffers. I hope he finds peace

[@Plethorality]

people without autism and adhd also say that same ignorant stuff , "oh, we are all a bit adhd / autistic / ocd...". no. no you are not.! and be grateful, you ignorant .....'s!

[@Knappa22]

Look at Russell Howard's reaction to Jon saying he slept in the car sometimes. He is really concerned - such a sweetheart.

[@wolfriic2262]

Yeah you could see his heart break.

[@thehorriblebright]

Yeah, the realisation that what you thought of as a harmless ribbing actually hurt someone you care about. It's brutal.

[@georgerogers2120]

That's the really interesting thing about mental illness, I think. There are amusing things about it. The obsessions of somebody with OCD can be odd or quirky. But they can also be tragic and debilitating. The show, Monk, did a phenomenal job of portraying the humorous aspects of Monk's many phobias and obsessive compulsions, while also being warm and sympathetic. As "friends" of the main character, we can see the humor in them and be "in on the joke," but when somebody is genuinely cruel, it stops being humorous. I think Russell is in that pocket. He and Richardson still get on and Jon's compulsions are still the subject of rather a lot of ribbing by his friends and colleagues. So there is humor to be had there. Russell's concern that he really made Jon uncomfortable is a good crystallization of where that line in the sand is.

[@JarthenGreenmeadow]

There's taking the piss and there's bullying. The difference is not in intention or delivery but in reception and internalization.

[@JarthenGreenmeadow]

You can say the same thing to two different people and get massively different responses. I have a friend who is 6'5" and 360. You can call him fat all day, he doesnt care on account of being a literal giant. Another friend is 110. Even insinuating that she has gained weight or is eating more and she's a wreck. Like Horrible Bright mentioned nothing is worse than everyone joking about stuff, having a good time and then you look over to see if your friend is having a good time too and your friend isn't there; shes gone to the bathroom to cry. Drives a spear right through you.

[@3vil0vesy0u]

This was recommended to me because I've been watching a lot of 8o10c does countdown and I'm really glad I watched it because it did not only give me more perspective on what OCD actually is, but also who Jon is. This was great.

[@wolfriic2262]

I’m exactly the same.

[@Falkano]

same here

[@rosereinsch]

I loved him from the moment I saw my first 8o10c clip. This doc is was awesome

[@frankrogers6416]

I was so looking forward to seeing inside Jons bedroom

[@harrysvensson2610]

The floor is probably made of Lego.

[@SightForMemories]

I think he didn't want the social media contaminating his room.

[@MetamorphosisChris]

This broke me up a bit. I believe OCD probably could have been listed as my Mom's death. At the least, it was a significant contributing factor. She had some degree of it for as long as I could remember but she refused to get help and it just got worse as she and I aged. In many ways it was a lousy way to grow up. The family was so bound up in her need to have things just right. She'd get nauseous and ill from the anxiety of things weren't in her control. As a pre-teen and teen she relied on me heavily to calm her fears. I resented her a great deal. I wanted a mom who could care for me, not someone who needed me to help her manage her obsessions and compulsions. She became more and more of a shut in and that closed off my world too. It was hard to be in a child in a house, where everything had to be just right. If we were "too rowdy" she would obsess that the vibrations and had caused items on shelves or tables to move. She'd "straighten it" but the adjustment would be so small only she could tell and then she'd move it again and again and there's be all this distress. She had notes and notes about her notes and if something was on her note, that included you, her world wouldn't be right until you had fulfilled whatever was on her note. Once I moved out, it felt like freedom and I never wanted to go back. I wanted to live my own life and not be her caretaker or bound by her obsessions. And then, she did become a shut-in. She became ill and developed an infection (I didn't know at the time) and she refused to leave the house. The refusing to leave the house, was the same thing but at a much greater scale and cost to what I'd experienced as a child. By the time she went to the hospital she was too sick to recover. I wish I could have let go of my resentment before she died. I did after and have mostly forgiven myself for not being able to help her. Hearing the severity of OCD discussed in a kind and honest matter ... I don't know... I guess it validates my experience growing up in that environment. And maybe it makes her death a bit more understandable too.

[@karabuttree9745]

Sending you love and understanding and hope you find peace over time

[@mariodwir]

I went here thinking "oh this might be funny" 40 minutes later, i wept

[@mimiimene521]

Especially when she starts reading her son's letter before suicide it's so heartbreaking, like ik ocd is bad but I never tought someone would kill himself because of that.

[@codysmith3853]

rus's reaction to jon saying he slept in the car and when he said 'you shouldve said' was so sad he looked genuinely upset and guilty and based off how rus presents himself i really believe it

[@jlife9092]

I beg to differ to be honest. I found Russell‘s reaction patronising and self-serving. Any supposed remorse garnered from his expression seemed more for the sake of the camera staring right at his face rather than out of genuine reflection. The fact that Jon had really not much to say about Russell‘s reaction, who was essentially a bully to Jon and also seemed to be the chief instigator behind the rest of the flatmates deeming Jon‘s fair game, spoke volumes to that effect too. Good on you Jon for facing your bullies head on and telling them as it is!

[@SapientGalaxy]

J Life I'd say calling them bullies is going a bit far. Jon clearly tried hiding it as much as possible, so to them it probably did seem like Jon was just a "neat/control freak". Constantly being told what to do or how to do something by a flatmate can definitely be annoying, so I can see where they're coming from. I will agree that Russell's reaction was definitely hammed up and even after talking with Jon, I still don't think he really understood it. If you watch anything where the two of them are on together, it's quite clear that they are really good friends and care about each other a lot. My speculation is that Russell watched this documentary and truly realized what Jon is going through: as well as anyone not actually experiencing it can. Not to mention, not living together definitely would have helped that relationship.

[@PointsofData]

@@jlife9092 dude they arent bullies. They were friends poking fun at him, not understanding how serious his condition was (or even that he had a condition). Russ is a genuinely good guy, and from _all_ their reactions you can tell they had no idea Jon slept in the car or how much of an issue their mess was (I would also argue that a lot of what they did wasn't on purpose, just messy young adults being messy young adults and Jon's illogical thoughts twisted that into "they're doing that on purpose and hate me". Which could have been fixed by Jon speaking up snd saying how he felt, instead of quietly fixing things to his standards.) You gotta remember their interaction was edited as well. I was caught off guard by how quickly they cut after Russ, not showing Jon's response, so I'm sure there's a lot of context missing.

[@felix_christopher]

@@PointsofData Well, if they really were his friends at that time, as you pointed out, they would have figured out that he was sleeping in the car, no? That's what friends do, by default.

[@zhanibek8384]

@@felix_christopher huh? People have different lifestyles and living habits. If my roommate doesn't come home at night I might not even know it until next morning or afternoon. I sleep early and wake up early. He comes late and often sleeps in. They are stand up comedians, so I also expect them to have very hectic schedules. I am sure that tours, late night performances, video shoots and many other things would make them spend an unplanned night in hotel quite often.

[@SquidandCatAdventures]

Fascinating. I think this was very well done, and it provided me with some insight into a world I am not a part of. Even more of a fan of Jon Richardson now.

[@no_peace]

I've had OCD since I was a kid and desensitizing myself (on my own) is one of the best things I've ever done for myself. I started doing things like walking on uneven numbers of pavers or not obeying a compulsion to prevent a death in the family or whatever. I'd make level paintings uneven and step twice on one foot without evening it out. Just messing everything up. Thinking you're putting your loved ones' lives in danger is hard and scary, but not being compelled to do stuff is so much better.

[@stevem7995]

as a man living with OCD i look up to you Jon you are my favourite comedian ever.

[@xXmakuletsXx]

It's scary to think that some people who have OCD are scared for their life at every moment. It makes me thankful of how blessed I am.

[@mindfulclarity169]

That has the component of panic attacks as well.

[@RgW00D]

At least they don't feel bad for other people like you.

[@MoonLight-bt8vy]

@@RgW00D wot m8?

[@TheMrB]

God bless you Jon. You are a fantastic comedian & come across as a hell of a nice guy. I wish you nothing but the best. Keep on making us laugh.

[@robertjkuklajr3175]

Jon is a rare breed of man. Smart, funny, ambitious and very humble. Thank you Jon for being!

[@reggieholoman1096]

I've loved Jon as comic, yet seeing this show: I have a new respect for him & his compassion.

[@andrewinwood5543]

not much of a commenter - but this is genuinely excellent broadcasting. intelligent, warm and thoughtful.

[@Plethorality]

that was a good commen, though. thank you

[@lukethomas658]

This was really interesting. It tugged my heartstrings to see him walk away so rigidly after the toilet seat exercise and when mother talked about her son.

[@joshclark6188]

holy crap i got anxious watching jon touch the toilet...and then his hair!?! ahh

[@SightForMemories]

Expossure therapy is the quickest way of knowing, that your body will survive, the will of Life is the most strong will there is, and the body might get ill. But through Living, your body shall cope with whatever illness is beset before you.

[@jasonpatterson8091]

I had a professor in a clinic psychology course talk about doing this with his patients. His ultimate cleanliness exposure level was to be able to go into a train station toilet from hell, get water from the bowl on your hands, and splash it on your face and neck like aftershave.

[@SirRebrl]

THANK YOU. I got anxious as well, particularly as he went on without washing up. Actually paused the video to break from it and let myself calm down. I used to have an obsessive compulsion when I was a kid - I'd touch everything twice, once to pick the germs up, once to put them down. Doorknobs, flush levers, whatever. That went away when I learned that's not how germs work. Now I'm just left with "That's fucking gross. I get that I wouldn't get sick or die from it. But it's gross. So no. No doing. God, why would you do that and not wash up? WHY WOULD YOU DO IT AND LICK YOUR HANDS?! IT'S SO GROSS."

[@robertdegroot8302]

SirRebrl, I used to have these compulsions as well as a kid (like never touching things near toilets, blinking my eyes hard every two seconds, carefully watching where I place my feet...). Then I saw someone else behave like that and the silliness of it just struck me and I moved away from it. Now I could genuinely crawl through the sewers with little hesitation! People who don´t have OCD wouldn´t find it normal to touch the toilet bowl and lick their hands either. and just like you, they don´t see any reason to do it. However, if doing it can convince an OCD sufferer that there´s no risk behind it, then there is a good reason! The fact that you say you would NEVER do it because you would feel gross afterwards, does indicate you´re still dealing with some level of OCD.

[@SirRebrl]

@@robertdegroot8302 It apparently does something good for people who experience debilitating OCD, so sure. I experience no substantial detriment to my ability to go about my life, so whatever I may have I'm cool with it, and it's questionable whether it could be regarded as clinically significant enough to call it "OCD".

[@Lady-Lilith]

I had no idea Jon had done this documentary. I have OCD and regularly get mocked by my family for it. I absolutely love that he has addressed the possible offense of the jokes, though I enjoy offensive humor, and I love the compassion he showed those with OCD.

[@michaelgirodat1062]

This was tough to watch at times, and that woman who lost her son genuinely had me tearing up, but I'm glad I finally watched it.

[@Cyba_IT_NZ]

That bit with the lady and her son was really sad. :(

[@DLSacks]

I love this little world of British panel shows and comedians I've stumbled upon, and this was a very nice watch after getting to know Jon Richardson on 8 out of 10 cats. As an American I feel like all these panel show comedians exist in a tiny bubble, and I wonder if they're aware of the American stand-up scene. What I'm getting at is that Jon Richardson should totally check out Maria Bamford's work. "Would it be better if we called them goblins?"

[@fauxparr]

I've always wondered if people over the pond know much about our comedians. Glad to know they're appreciated

[@Lux7355]

@@fauxparr The airwaves over here are just too depressing to turn on anymore, binge watching British panel shows has been one of the few things keeping me sane.

[@JarthenGreenmeadow]

Oh ye they are their own genre of comedy over here. People ask "Do you like British comedy" you English just see it as "comedy" I'm sure but its very different than American Comedy. Compare and Contrast Joe Rogan and Jimmy Carr. You guys also allow some weirder shit in your comedy, Noel Fielding comes to mind. I really dont think Americans have an equivalent or could handle one.

[@JarthenGreenmeadow]

Not to say Americans can stand irrational irreverent comedy but....Noel Fielding....I dont know how to describe him other than weird. Hes the human equivalent to "Thats funny" "funny 'haha?'" "No funny strange"

[@DeflatedPumpkin]

The compassion and empathy of this sweet man, is just so beautiful.

[@Dax893]

Thank You Jon Richardson. After 16 years, you have helped me realize that my cutlery tray is bottom up. I'll fix it tomorrow. No, I should fix it right now.

[@richin2123]

I'd like to thank Jon for doing this brave, moving doc. I don't have OCD, but I am glad that I understand it more now. I just hope I can laugh at Jon's material without feeling guilty now!

[@troywillis4939]

After seeing you on the panel shows and clips from your comedy stand-ups, this just blew me away. The intelligence you displayed in your reporting and the compassion you showed. Especially after talking to the young man who was just starting to lose himself to OCD and the mother who had it from her father then passed it on to her son who lost his life to it. You did a wonderful job with this program. I hope you know, because of what you did, more people will realize there is hope and help for them. Whether you believe in one or not, God bless you sir.

[@bobbybeaver5029]

You can honestly tell that Jon is a very humble and caring person.Plus as a comedian all he wants to do is make people laugh.You are the man Jon.

[@markshorrocks5056]

Brilliant documentary. Humbling and inspiring at the same time. Many thanks Jon, and all of the people involved. More people should see this film.

[@Plethorality]

only showing up in my feed, now, 2022!

[@Drogonnis]

Interesting and emotional. I just found this video while searching for Jon's standup videos but I'm glad I watched it. Thanks for the upload.

[@JesperAndersen]

Jon, I just want to give you a hug man. You are a star commedian and a beautiful human being.

[@haleyw5677]

I used to have OCD and I am so glad I was able to get the amazing treatment that I got. I remember standing at the sink sobbing because I was missing lunch nearly every day because it would take me too long to wash my hand. I did the exposure therapy they talked about and it was absolutely horrible, but it worked. I still live with some compulsions and I am constantly managing the bit of OCD that is always threatening to come back. My mother also has compulsions but they never got to the point of ocd, and my great aunt on the other side has issues as well that I believe would rise to the level of OCD but she has never gotten a diagnosis. I am going off to college next year and I am nervous about how I will fair, but I know I have the skills to keep it from coming back if I am willing to work. I just hope that everyone out there knows that all though it is a tough battle, it can be won, and even if it doesn't fully go away with work you can get better.

[@skylinerunner1695]

Hi Haley. I don't have OCD and yet even I would have a lot of difficulty with exposure therapy, as it is so counter-intuitive to basic cleanliness. Therefore my respect and admiration for you and others waging this battle is absolute. I wish you a productive and triumphant time at college.

[@Theresa-zg9uo]

Excellent. Jon is such a respectful person.

[@markmaguet960]

I was quite a bit like this when I was younger, around the age of 11, 12, 13 ...I remember lots of symmetry problems, order, balance etc..all the behavior in this documentary is familiar to me in my memory, I did most of it, but it was never destructive, and i could always break myself of it, eventually it went away, but my nerves remember it.

[@johnmcbride5251]

Thank you for this Jon. Sensitively presented.

[@Shelley464]

This is worthwhile TV. Thank you!

[@EightTobiins]

They don't cause him distress, yet he slept in his car because he couldn't deal with the mess? I know he said it was worse years ago, but it's ups and downs. I don't know, I wonder if he let the doctor know that part.

[@DavidAndrewsPEC]

Probably didn't, but it's clinically significant as a behavioural response to the situation.

[@porkbellyism]

also coz he felt his friends hated him and thought he was crazy

[@jaidenoliver7165]

It seems a bit weird to me in a way, because someone could have serious compulsions quite regularly, but be in a situation where they are able to manage it, like not having to go out or living with a parent who goes with it. So it's a serious problem in their life but doesn't cause the 'necessary level of distress'. I know it's quite similar with a number of other disorders, one of the main deciding factors is just how it bothers you. And some people could say "In a way enacting the compulsions calms me a little bit, so not as much distress". Anyway, this is something that's bothered me for quite a long time since my journey trying to gain an understanding of what I have.

[@fullercorp]

This makes me want to cry. I hope that therapists are really exploring all the treatment options; i don't know what meds really are working- and of course there are all the side effects. I hope these people find freedom and peace.

[@Magnoliam_]

Some of those compulsions seem almost like a stutter in an action other than talking.

[@zoesmybaby]

I never thought about that. Stuttering for me is also brought about with stress. Wow, you are insightful.

[@katietoole8345]

This was so beautiful and gentle. Zero exploitation or sensationalism.

[@paullombard00]

I feel really sad for the people who have severe OCD. It's clearly an anxiety disorder, and it must be crippling. :(

[@jimhowell3497]

I love you, Jon! Thank you for being so vulnerable and bringing light to a 'not-so-funny' condition.

[@r.a.monigold9789]

Jon Richardson - Brave Soul - an inspiration to us all. Thanks for sharing...

[@lyndonberwick197]

Great bloke - funny, genuine and charming. The world needs more nice guys like Jon.

[@codysmith3853]

my dad has OCD so ive always been really sensitive about jokes about it so it's really nice to see stuff like that really analyze the disorder and show people that it isnt funny, it can be genuinely upsetting, john truly is doing the lord's work

[@havingalook2]

Thank you, that was one of the most beneficial things on the telly. Jon you faced a demon in doing this for the help of others. You are a star. Many thanks indeed for all the self-exposure you had to face in making this to benefit others. Oh and your Mum is very cool. You are lucky to have her. Cheers

[@evwannabe593]

This is an incredibly well done program. I discovered Jon through 8 out of 10 cats on you tube. I'm in the US. This work has given me a whole new outlook on Jon and OCD itself. Thank you for sharing.

[@loricrane5315]

One of the most interesting videos I've seen in awhile. I knew I had an issue with control in my 20s. After an incident where I was court ordered to see someone for anger and several meetings I started to try to change little things. 40 years later I still have little quirks but stopping these habits is never ending but achievable. Good luck.

[@L33tSkE3t]

I have a friend with fairly severe OCD and he gets tremendous relief from counseling, an antidepressant and Ativan for panic attacks brought on by overwhelming compulsions and his only regret is that he didn't get help earlier. I feel honored that he feels comfortable confiding in me and he recently told me that I was the one who convinced him to seek the help of a professional because I suffer from sever panic disorder and depression and am very open about it and my mental health in general as I've dealt with it for most of my life.

[@harivenkatkirangarimella1000]

It’s good to know that you are out there for people like your friend :) Just came across this video randomly and your comment and something made me want to acknowledge your post :) Hope you and your friend are doing well

[@skylinerunner1695]

Kudos to you for caring for your friend even while waging your own battles.

[@darrell3030]

It was amazing to see Jon in that way. So understanding and respectful and supportive. Truly like him as a good and genuine man who has problems and difficulties like all of us.

[@lorimatthiesen91]

Mr Richardson, this was a respectful and impactful interesting work you’ve put together. Thank you.

[@bobmoshe]

I came to Jon and the whole BBC, QI comedy/nerd world through No Such Thing As a Fish, early pandemic. So many wonderful folks involved - even Jimmy Carr? - but this piece is really extraordinary - heartbreaking and so brave of Jon to do this. Kudos!

[@eerobinson]

This made me cry a lot. Poor Jon has had a very painful life and I didn't realise just how bad it was. Shame such bad things happen so such lovely blokes.

[@lalduhawmachongthu2835]

Thank you so much for doing this, Jon. As a man in his late 40s, I know I have a problem, but don't have the courage (for lack of a better word) to face it and get help. I've been like this for as long as I can remember. My wife and kid sometimes look at me with a bewildered look that just breaks my heart and I just don't know how to explain it. You've helped me so much. Again, thank you. You're a LEGEND!

[@graciep.6984]

Perhaps sharing this with them, if you haven’t done so already, would help them to understand what life is like for you, and why what you do feels so important to you. Your family sound like they may get a lot out of something like this. You describe them as bewildered, perhaps lacking a comprehension of the realities of OCD. They may find this to be a way to connect to what’s actually happening. Hopefully that could lead to more connection with you.

[@lalduhawmachongthu2835]

@@graciep.6984 you're absolutely right! Communication is key. I did share this video with my wife 2 nights after my comment and we had a long chat. Not saying everything is peachy now, but now I get a sort of "Is this your OCD showing up? It's alright, love" kind of look. I can honestly say that it was such a relief to share this with her. She's working on processing the information and I've seriously started to think about seeking professional help. Cheers!

[@georgielancaster1356]

I was very moved by your comment. Can you not tell your wife the problem you have that seems to upset or has frustrated her most, and together, face the challenge? I can't make a suggestion, because I don't know your sticking points. Can you not give yourself a challenge to do something, to stop your wife from crying? It might not be crying at your challenge, but it might be from sadness at not understanding. Maybe it is putting your hands in dishwashing water? Face it once, twice, three or 4 times a day. Maybe put your hands in the water to hold her hand? Can you not spend a lot of time learning about the extraordinary airborne things that HELP us? You know that children raised with kittens/cats - and litter trays, with puppies and dogs who shed hairs, roll in cow poo, if they find it, or lick their bottoms, are LESS LIKELY to get asthma? Did you know that some research has found that people who get tapeworms often have much less problems with really bad ecxma? It is said that the tapeworm somehow puts out a generalised soothing in the body, to have a happy life. It really is fascinating. Not all things floating about are bad - don't forget Fleming's penicillin, that came in through an open window... Hope you have progressed. I see your comment is a year old, now.

[@lalduhawmachongthu2835]

@@georgielancaster1356 Hi! Yes, things are better. I had a long conversation with my family AND even sought professional help; something I thought I would have never done. Also, I joined a support group a few months ago. There are good days and bad days. Fortunately, today is a good day. Thanks for reaching out.

[@psychobollox]

Obsessive Compulsive Order ... actually - that is a very interesting notion. For those who end up getting an OCD diagnosis, there does seem to be a rational basis at first for the way they do things and we can see that from the people Jon met in this programme. But then something happens - some sort of stressor - and the sense of order that Jon has in this OCO notion just goes out of the window. And then the shit really hits the fan, it seems. Excellent documentary. Thank you for posting it!

[@jemreeves1188]

i dont have OCD or any disorder but johns a boss and this was a great watch . thanks for the upload

[@jl5749]

I've had OCD my entire life and was diagnosed at 13 when it got so bad I felt like I couldn't function. This is one of maybe three times I've ever felt like someone understands the way I see the world.

[@skylinerunner1695]

I hope you know that many of us do understand.

[@jl5749]

@@skylinerunner1695 thank you, this means a lot❤❤❤

[@skylinerunner1695]

@@jl5749 It''s good to hear back from you. Thank you for reaching out. I hope you're feeling good as we move into spring.

[@ychaps]

This made me cry...its hard to understand how we can put ourselves through this type of behavior which isolates people in the worst case scenario. I love the fact that Jon is so concerned for others and himself...he seems like such a good person.

[@satnitcboy]

Jon, thank you for this worthwhile exploration. Thanks to your attention - and your celebrity - I think you've opened a door to a world we seldom see (outside of the jokes made about it.) I hope that all the people who need some help will be able to get it, and most of all that they will be shown love and tolerance that makes life livable.

[@slytown]

For those of you watching who have OCD, you can grow out of it. I did. I washed my hands 4 or 5 times before I went to bed, was a hypochondriac, counted how many times I stepped, and had several other compulsions. Luckily, I wasn't debilitated and the impulses eventually went away. Every once and awhile I think about stepping twice in each concrete square on the sidewalk but I don't do it. It'll get better guys and gals.

[@booboofairy8014]

26:16 "They are my choice, and it makes me nervous that that might change" I felt that one.

[@Iris4Vision]

I also got the thoughts about walking, cushions, table/food positioning and keeping margarine or ice-cream even in the box, but my room is a total chaos, yet it is a chaos where I want things to stay exactly where I've thrown them. Very interesting and informative video, and it was quite a pleasure to see this other side of Jon. Thank you for posting

[@jaredvanderloo9046]

“I would have rather not been born, than have my son die like that.” That shit brought me to tears

[@jimdupuy1729]

So interesting! I learned quite a lot.

[@michaelpage7691]

I’m most impressed with your candidness. It is so hard to “come out” with a problem like yours. I hope your self awareness has changed with respect to your OCD. 😁👍🏻🇦🇺

[@nicozandhuis1865]

The thing with OCD is that like the other anxiety disorders is that symptoms aren't always the same and quite often merge together with other anxiety disorder symptoms to create an abomination of an anxiety disorder specific to that person.

[@skylinerunner1695]

Perfectly put

[@andrewmihalik7575]

Excellent. I watched , and at certain junctures...., re-watched parts of this excellent video. Very educational to so many people! Thanks, Mr. Jon Richardson! Would love to meet you one day! Lot's of love from the USA!

[@deejayk5939]

So brave of Jon to do this, I have different problems but understand how debilitating this is. Thank you for this.

[@jonsabala2237]

Eye opening. Thoughtful and caring story. Well done Jon.

[@amadeus1541]

The guy that killed himself was extremely sad

[@a697ag]

Benito Mussolini His mother saying she would rather not have been born ... heartbreaking

[@destinyofmanufacturing-dea4239]

Thank you for sharing this, it really helped me to understand, the situation.

[@HolandaChiquita]

This was very interesting and good to watch. I'm so happy that I can only call myself a perfectionist, but being able to let all things side off as well. That i just can turn that part of my brain off for a bit when it's necessary. I'm really glad Jon made such a good and clear program about this!

[@kiralonely]

I was 14 when I got diagnosed with OCD. I don't have it nearly as severely as the 16 y.o. John that he visited, (I'll call the kid John, to differentiate them.) but to be fair, I also present my OCD very differently, I don't do the repetitive behaviors as much as I do the checking and minor rituals, like the one that got me diagnosed, where I'd have to barricade my door with a plastic scythe I had every night, or I couldn't sleep. I just didn't feel safe. I remember being a kid, probably 8 or 9, and having a compulsion where the doom was that a ca would burst through the wall and either kill me, or my family/friends, whenever I left or entered a room, and whenever they left or entered a room. And my way of combating it was making sure I said "I love you" to make sure my last words to them were those specifically. I'd end up saying "I love you" constantly, so whenever either I or they entered a room, if they left, even for a second, if they returned, even for a second, and sometimes in the middle of conversations if it had just been good hour or so since I last said it. I, well, I didn't tell anyone about that compulsion until years after it had kinda disappeared for me, I was at least 17 before I ever talked about it. I'm a lot less stressed over all, and my compulsions are a lot more minor now, but I also adjusted the world around me to work with them. You see, my compulsions, like the doom/anxiety causer, it presents as monsters for me, like ones I have names for and can imagine and such. They have like vague personalities, and I just...feel when they're there. So I have to have platform furniture, or else the underside of furniture will make me super anxious to even get out of bed. I have blackout curtains because I need to make sure, like, there's this little window of time where there's an amount of light in my room from the outside that will cast too many shadows, and I have to make sure most of my lights are out or I can't sleep. I also double-check the lock on my bedroom door, if I'm home alone, I do a house check, and double check the front and or any doors leading outside. Plus make sure windows are closed and blinds are down, facing in the way where it's hard to look in. If I go to the bathroom, I have to double check I've flushed, unless I can still hear it flushing by the time I leave the restroom, which isn't too often, and even if I exit the room, I have to go back and double check. Also if I leave my house, I have to stand there and do a tally of what I need, and this can take some time, especially as I also have ADHD, and it's hard to get my brain focused on it. I have specific pockets in my cargo pants that have 6 pockets, I have specific pockets for everything, and I have to make sure I put them in the right pockets, with the exception of exclusively when I get my HRT shots, because my leg can be sore and the specific way I pack my pockets means that my portable charger will bump it a bit more than feels okay. For me, I never feel comfortable assuming I know something. Like, I can't know the ol' "is the oven on still?" concept because I just know I remembered it wrong, so I'll go back and check, and it turns out I was right. Still can't trust myself though. I used to copy from textbooks in school. (I'm 18 now, and don't do that as much anymore, lmao.) When I did, I'd have to check for what I'd written down, and then close the book, with my hand still wedged between to save the page, but then I wasn't positive of the number I'd tried to remember, so I'd check again. Rinse and repeat for about 30 minutes straight before I gave up and put the paper inside of the textbook to do it there where I can see I'm right instead. I reread everything I write, including this, as I'm writing it, and then once more before I send or post it, and then one last time to triple-check for spelling errors. I remember I used to run down hallways cause one of my monsters would chase me when it was night/dark in them, and close the door and close my eyes as I press my back against them, almost having a panic attack, usually trembling, and in the moments when I'd close the door, I was always so sure that a hand would come out and stop it. Or through th cat door I have installed. So then I'd back away from the door and watch it for a minute to be sure, before reluctantly settling into bed and going back to what I needed to do. I have to take showers with music playing or I have panic attacks. I also have to have a white noise machine, especially if I sleep somewhere new, and I can't sleep with standing fans on, (most ceiling fans are too loud too, but the one I have is okay, ig. It doesn't cause the problem I'm about to describe.) all because I'd hear voices in the white noise. Specifically fans. I can't explain why. Most white noise makes me do that, except one specific setting, it doesn't hurt my head either, it's musical enough to not sound like voices, but not so musical it gives me a headache. So it works well. I keep it on the lowest volume, so it's not too loud, but just loud enough to get my attention more than the house settling or the tv in my family members' rooms when they sleep. That's just some of what I can think of tbh, honestly a lot of them have gotten better, one of my monsters is literally my own shadow and I haven't dealt with him in about a year? Or most of the others. Which is good, since I was so haunted by them as a kid, that I'd be hysterical and was literally afraid of the process of going to bed when I was 8, I hated it. Every night, just about, was a horror marathon. It was awful. I also get intrusive thoughts, but that's a whole other can of worms. I haven't finished the documentary, but I wanted to share this, since i see other folks with OCD sharing. I really hate how much people trivialize it. I'm not gonna be rude to them about it, but I do make it clear that their joking does kinda perpetuate this whole "OCD is just being kinda bossy" bullshit that we have to deal with a lot. Hoping everyone suffering with OCD the best and a prosperous journey through dealing with it and becoming stronger than it. (Not curing it or some b.s., to be clear, but being stronger than that which haunts and torments us.) It's tough, but you're not alone, and it's not a battle you ever should have to fight without any support. There's folks there for you, myself included. ^^;;

[@sblack48]

This guy’s got some balls putting his most personal struggles out there. Respect

[@michaelmueller8772]

This is a really wonderful documentary. I find Jon Richardson to be a genuinely inspiring man.

[@colaboytje]

I have very little compulsions. I believe everyone has some. It's a way to have the idea of being in control of anxieties. I love how Jon handled this. No stupid pushing questions. Actually intetested.

[@elemsee]

This really opened my eyes to what OCD really is about, beyond the pop culture jokes. Jon treats the people he meets with such respect, which I reckon they don't often get. All while also worrying about what he's learning could mean for him. Very well done. Stumbled on it because of watching 8oo10c videos, glad I clicked.

[@sarelito9202]

In Second Brain Psychology, OCD is always considered a sign of psycho-emotional conflict or trauma which starts in childhood and which can surface later due to triggering situations. It can be cured by reprocessing the experiences that caused it.

[@alephbunchofnumbers]

A really good and respectful documentary. Love u Jon

[@ZipplyZane]

I have OCD, and I really appreciate this. I thought this was just going to be a standup special, but it's nice. Yes, it focuses on cleanliness OCD primarily, but that makes sense, as that's the kind people think Jon has. But he doesn't. That said, I don't think I can watch the whole thing, as this sort of stuff can get a bit trigger-y (the real, psychological concept) and I more need to laugh right now. Don't let the perfect be the enemy of the good. I really hope this helps some people understand better what OCD is so they won't mix it up with preferring order. You come to my house, you'll see a huge mess. Cleaning causes me distress.

[@skylinerunner1695]

I found your comments enlightening and made me want learn more about the many other manifestations of OCD.

[@sea-ferring]

Such an important subject - very well covered. I hope more will come in the future.

[@adamant4107]

This was fascinating to watch. I've got some of the same things. I COMPLETELY understood the sidewalk stuff and germs and ... others. I never noticed that it got worse as my anxiety grew. That's something I'm going to keep an eye on. I notice that some of my compulsions have grown over time but my skill level for dealing with stress has too..... maybe there's something to that.

[@linmonash1244]

That 'encouragement' to get Jon to touch the toilet and then himself was Soooo unprofessional. I was horrified and angered. She had NOT done a clinical assessment to have any sense of the substance or degree of his OCD, nor the impact, and it wasn't done within a supported sequenced therapeutic process. Which she then said she would "of course!" only do within a supported process! (with a patient.) She had some real black and white thinking going on about who might be a patient and who was not, and seemed oblivious to her own actions, (in effectively challenging Jon to 'prove' he WASN'T a patient! ) Clearly her judgement / perspective was also skewed by working with the most severely unwell, but that's no justification for this behaviour. It seemed she was more interested in 'showing off' her program. This was really inappropriate, and I hope whomever was oversighting her clinical work was noting and responding to this. ## I understand this was at least 10 years ago, but even 20 years ago, those working in the acute care mental health sector understood that there were many different forms of OCD and Exposure Therapy was not appropriate for everyone, was a blunt instrument, and should not be applied universally. .[## Ie: For the lay person to possibly seize upon this and try to do some 'home grown' type of exposure 'therapy' with a sufferer -without any professional oversight - could be very damaging. ## ] We are still learning about OCD. For a long time it was seen as sitting squarely within the Anxiety spectrum and clinicians would often look for some trigger or trauma in childhood that may have some explanatory power. However, this was not always the case. Certainly anxiety is a large part of the picture and should always be addressed, however, there is some evidence that some forms of compulsion have more in common with 'tics' and some of the 'command cognitions' have been found to be managed, reduced, or even resolved by some types of anti-psychotic medications - for some people. There is still a lot that we don't know, but we are learning all the time and it is important to seek help when your symptoms are disabling { Getting in the way of your life and relationships, work capacity etc.) When the other John said his psychiatrists advice had been; 'when the activity is taking up more than 1 hour of your day, then it is considered a 'disorder', you could see Jon do a double take. He was clearly thinking, 'Hang on! if I add in, not just the 'doing,' but the thinking and planning about the 'doing', that's way more than an hour!" I'm sure many other people sat back watching this and said something similar to themselves. Jon was already doing an enormously brave and generous thing, exploring and exposing his own concerns and questions about his own symptoms, without having to be challenged in such an abrupt and completely unnecessary way. I shudder to think how long this impacted him, how, and for how long afterwards. Exploring this topic was not just for his own knowledge and benefit, but for everyone else too, and doing so in such a gentle, respectful and compassionate manner Jon provided a powerful role model to us all.

[@PerpetualBass]

I really appreciate this kind of content! Too many people say things like "omg I'm Sooo OCD about that!"

[@SqueakyWeasel247]

OCO what a beautiful take-away! Thank you!

[@dianedevery3711]

Thank you John. A great insight to my own and others' 'peccadilloes'. By the way, about your fryup breakfast: I would need to clean all the cutlery before eating.

[@paulkenny5233]

Thank you Jon, I had no idea ocd could be this serious. Best of luck!

[@timmothycopeland4866]

I'd have never watched this had it not come up in auto-play. I found it informative and heartbreaking.

[@allynyweenie]

You should watch 'OCD: The War Inside' on KZbin. It's a really good documentary on OCD and you'll like it if you liked this one. This is more of the Hollywood version but the 'OCD: The War Inside' is more of a real life documentary.

[@robinsnest7627]

My son Eric had me watch this. How sad. I use to say we all are a little OCD, maybe I should be saying I have some quirks. That’s my pen, and grab it, and sort the pens and pencils. Very good. I’m glad he recommended your video.

[@cassash9412]

There is such a thing as OCPD (obsessive compulsive personality disorder) in which you have intrusive rules, fixations, and an inability to delegate among some others. It just isn't quite as severe as OCD.

[@livelifeincolour]

That's what Jon's Wikipedia article says he has

[@skylinerunner1695]

Yes, a real rigidity that heightens when life becomes stressful.

[@rachelw1076]

I found the bathroom exercise both interesting and perplexing. I feel like a even a neuro-typical person wouldn't be comfortable doing that, simply due to being taught basic hygeine practices from a young age. Interesting to learn that people diagnosed with OCD benefit from being pushed WAY over the line of their comfort level as a method of treatment.

[@ulalaFrugilega]

Brilliant! What a treat, thank you ever so for uploading!

[@climbear8728]

A little bit of hope, There was a time for no reason, I think it started in the kitchen, with fear of salmonella, that grew into a fear of object attraction of herpes. I hated sitting in public places... touching things humans touched. I didn't mind dirt, to be honest, as long as it was where it should be. I could sleep outside on the ground in the mud, as long as I went through the process of being tidy before entering my safe zone. My house became lost to me, except for my bedroom, I kept it clean but it wasn't as perfect as my bedroom. No one went into my room, no one. I had to shower before I went into my room. I kept a wet soapy towel in a bowl outside my door to wipe my feet before entering, and in there I was safe. Safe to go barefoot and be half naked and roll around on the floor, just safe. My sister ran into my room, we were both adults and she was visiting, I asked her not to go inside cause it would upset me, and she did anyway... I screamed at her like a child till I was blue in the face. Then I had to take disinfectant wipes and sprays and clean every object from the bottom of dresser drawers to the walls and even sponged the ceiling with a damp rag, I did everything to avoid that process ever again, If I came home late from work Id sleep on the living room floor because i knew I didn't have the energy to become clean enough to go into my sanctuary. I carried disinfectant spray in my backpack in the case I had to use the restroom in public. If someone spat upon me while talking, like a tiny bit on my chick or even the top of my hand, it itched and almost burned until I treated it. I did random tic's with my eyes just flexing my eyelids a certain number of times to feel the feelings... But I was happy. I then started to become unhappy, friends were offended when I wouldn't open my home to them but accept invites to theirs. I tried to explain it but it was like screaming at the deaf. So I lost touch with a lot of them. I had a nice little set of systems for everything... I'm not talking about keeping things straight, but just keeping things in general. How to wash, how to dry, how to travel, how to speak... I would repeat sentences until I felt the proper amount of people had heard me. Then my brother moved in, he had to sleep in the living space because the rooms had a purpose. My dad and I lived together and now a third. He had friends over, and it was understood no one went into the hallway what lead to my room and bathroom, no footprints no shoes in that area, and then something just clicked. Compassion really, I had to open up more space for my brother to have a home. So I gave my sanctuary to my father, and my private bathroom. I still had to bathe before getting into bed, but I eventually wrote that off as normal behavior. Then I moved, just to chase adventure and wonder. I spent a few weeks living in a tent then moved into a dirty little efficiency by an ocean. Sand invaded my existence. I had one episode where someone tracked mud into the tent, but I wrote it off as an acceptable response as well. Like I will never understand how I was able to have sex with someone at their home, and not even walk into my bedroom unless I washed my feet. Like I could fuck someone by choice but not shake a hand stretched out to me. I wonder how I spent nights sitting under a blanket in my living room sleeping on the floor because I didn't want to contaminate the sofa with the outside world. It was completely irrational but the emotions were real and I could nothing to convince myself it would be okay if I just stepped inside my room with a sneaker on, or I could shake someones hand and not die. Even more so, I cant explain how it all stopped. I took no therapy or medication, I drank a little more after the move but nothing to write home about, no significant increase to how much I drank before. It just stopped. I never felt defeated though, like I never felt like it got so far away from me I should just give up, and I never felt completed like... mission accomplished welcome to sane mortality. It just stopped. It could have been the move, it could have been the new environment, or it could have been the compassion to share my space with someone. I don't know. But I still catch myself wanting to find a sink to wash my hands if something sets of an unsanitary alarm, like a cough or a smell, but I just carry around a small bottle of sanitize to ease my nerves. I always want to take a shower after bowel movements as well, and before bed. Nothing wrong with that, I even willingly choose to brake that mold sometimes. I have slept in bed after being out, not showering, and I wasn't hell bent on washing the sheets the next day. I have it managed to an unnoticeable level. I have never been diagnosed, but try living that fable out and I don't think you would bother with it either... and for any count its gone. No urges, no rage, no annoyed or defeated sensations from something as simple as a misplaced refrigerator magnet. I still like a clean house but I think its to the average standard, and I dunno. I wish I could say oh its its easy, just drink this and scratch that and you are cured. I just don't know though. Hey it went away for me, I hope it does for all others as well. Life is to short to have your whole day ruined by a cup being dirty from having sat it on the unclean table, and making the counter top dirty cause you sat the cup on it after it being on the unclean coffee table. Good luck.

[@allisonsmith5251]

"I would repeat sentences until the proper amount of people had heard me." That hit home yo

[@Rheologist]

Watching her do that stuff at the 30 minute mark made me FREAK OUT from uncomfort

[@heyysimone]

I realised my obsessive behaviour towards switches and eletrical items being checked 4 times (always 4), was because if they werent checked, i thought there would be a fire.

[@adriennemurray7695]

So glad he has survived this to be a really funny comedian who is still respectful to those who have a far greater problem than he has