Journal of a Suicide Survivor

[@Az_1987]

Came for drums. Left with tears. Thanks, dude.

[@t-man5196]

Thanks?

[@robincosby516]

Damn. Glad you pulled through, bro. It was worth it.

[@drummerboy0620]

Thank god he did Edit: 400th like

[@samvimes1083]

Harry, I'm not a drummer, I'm barely even a musician unless you count performing for the spiders in my crappy apartment because the thought of being on stage makes me sweat like cheese left in the sun. I do however know what it means to contemplate ending pain day after day in silence. The only thing that stops me is the knowledge that it would crush some of my family, and being extremely Canadian, I am afraid of causing even mild inconveniences. I want to thank you for putting to words the other side of the equation. People who from outside rationalize these decisions to themselves in ways that make no sense, or worse yet call the act "selfish" don't really make this an easy subject to talk about. I'm deeply sorry for your loss, and thankful you made this video. I realize posting deep confessions in KZbin comments is like dipping a cut finger into a piranha tank but I'll chance it. I'll talk to someone, dude.

[@spencercunningham6056]

I know this post is a year old now, but if you're still looking for a dude to talk to, just reach out - I got you my dude.

[@Groovemyster]

@@spencercunningham6056 you're also a good dude.

[@virginityrocks6280]

Holy shit dude....dduuude

[@danrodrigues3531]

I hope that you were able to find someone to talk to dude.

[@jgarzo]

Went back and watched this in 2020... still feels the same way I felt when I first watched it as a kid in 2014... thank you harry. You have blessed us all.

[@bastianfausager1158]

same, dude

[@KyleODonnell5645]

I often tell people drumming saved my life. It gave me an outlet for some of my darkest times. Having recently lost a friend to suicide this last year, I want to say thank you for sharing your joy of drumming with the world. I think about how many other kids you've saved by helping give them an outlet. Glad you're here, dude.

[@Lisa-ee6tf]

Just thought I’d check in on how you’re doing j.garzo?

[@jgarzo]

@@Lisa-ee6tf I’m doing good. Thank you for asking! Life is bright. I’m getting married next month! I am blessed. And restored by God.

[@adamsolaiman2906]

Harry, Please help me be more like you. You really embody the idea of a role model. I wish to not only be as good a drummer as you some day, but to also be as good a person as well. Thanks for being you, Dude.

[@PaddyOutback]

I'm a Mental Health Nurse and I'm considering showing this to the young men and women who come in to the ward I work on after attempting to take their own lives. Even though I'm a "professional" who has suffered from alcoholism, depression and severe anxiety over the years, I have never been able to articulate anything to do with taking one's own life as eloquently and intelligently as you have in this video. Coincidentally, one of the worst episodes of my life, a time when years of me mentally treading water came to a head, was triggered by me losing my glasses! It was the proverbial straw that broke the Camel's back. You're one Righteous Dude, Dude. Also, do "Always" by Blink 182. Ta!

[@doublg30]

❤🙏

[@douglasthompson476]

Mr. Miree, This was so well spoken and beautiful, graduated from high school with you, just wanted to tell you how awesome i think this video is.

[@silverfoot6079]

Man, when you said "It's not your fault" at the end, my eyes teared up and a huge jolt went down my spine. These were beautifully inspired words. Thank you.

[@birminghambelle]

Like I told you on the phone today after just viewing this for the first time Harry, I could not be more proud of the incredible young man I''ve always known you to be. Your bravery and courage to publically share your own private journey is an amazing privilege to be gifted with in and of itself. But the fact that it was inspired by your cousin is one of the most powerful tributes anyone could ever give my son. Thank you so much sweetheart. Coupled with the irony that unbeknownst to you in the hospital of my initial reaction being just that of an immediate respectful acceptance of Keenon's own decision - is further proof that you and I truly are indeed kindred souls. I look so forward to hugging you again next week my sweet, precious, special darling... Love, Elizabeth

[@fiveeyes2802]

I’m sorry for your loss, Elizabeth.

[@CampingAndPhilosophy]

❤️

[@jubankta1627]

Wow I'm so sorry for ur loss...😪😢such a lovely tribute...u seem so sweet and loving and amazing he was lucky to have such a great mother....RIP K

[@Uuuuuuurrgggggghhhhh]

I'm very sorry for your loss Elizabeth. Know that even now, seven years after your loss, there are still people like me who are flabbergasted by the directness and honesty of this video. And think for a moment about your son. And that this will be so for many years to come. Love from Holland, Michiel

[@jacksonreeves9715]

we love you man.

[@Markleford]

Returned to this video after a few years. Still powerful, still a message that can bestow solace on others. Thanks for laying it out there, dude.

[@Putchki]

Thank you so much, my husband took his own life recently, just hearing you say ‘it’s not your fault’ has helped more than you’ll ever know.

[@MrPokehippie]

Every once and a while when the mania seems to hit extra hard I'll throw this on. Thank you for leaving this up.

[@jabjones47]

As a Suicide Survivor…I couldn't have put this better! HEART FELT, raw and true. Well Done!

[@MM-vs2et]

''...Tommorow might bring some redeeming reason to hang around one more day...'' That should be a thought everyone with depression should think about. Thank you Harry dude

[@dipalma18]

I lost someone I worked with this past weekend. Yesterday, I was watching just randomly surfing the internet, and stumbled upon your '5 tips for Drumming Like Carter', and I loved it! I've been playing drums for a long time, and I love Beaford and Fishman. You got it going on, Harry. Great chops and happiness for your craft. Anyway, I went to watch more videos of yours today - as a way to escape my thoughts and feelings of pain for a little bit - and then saw this video. As a psychotherapist, and as a person, I appreciate all of your heart felt words here, as well as for having the courage to share all that you went through - the thoughts, feelings, the emotions, the pain, and more. Thank you. I'm a fan!

[@williamjustice8070]

This meant the world to me to hear someone else, anyone else, let alone a drummer take time to talk about this. Thanks man

[@hdekkerify]

Dude. Thank you! Even 6 years on, and living a world apart: you have changed a life

[@killalltheidiots1]

My son just tried to end his life this morning. With all the emotions I’m feeling, this video immediately came to mind and I’ve watched it again and again. Thank you for your words Harry

[@jennsimpson_backup3333]

I listen to this, on average once a week. I miss you baby. I miss you every fucking second of every day. I hope I made your last 4years happy and full of love. I understand that it hurt to much to say, and even my love wasn't enough to fix the lifetime of pain. Harry. Thank you for creating a space I can say this. I don't want to say stuff like to this my family, or his, or our friends. I don't know what to say to them, and they don't know what to say to me. It helps alot to gave a space to vent. Glad your here pal 🖤

[@eliminshrintar]

Man, did not expect this on this channel. This struggle is absolutely real and it helps to hear other people speak the words that we repeat in our own heads. For most of us who have been on that ledge (literally and figuratively) and stepped away voluntarily, or was stopped by another, or survived, that ledge is still always there. Still in our minds. Still in our hearts. As of two years ago, my battalion has lost more to their own hands than to enemy action. 28 Marines from my generation alone in 9 years. It is scary and when that ledge is in your life the question shifts from will it stop to who will it be next? Then you wonder if it will be you. The courage to make a video on this with your own words humbles me. Glad you are still with us.

[@jacksonwilliams8971]

I'm regretting not finding this channel sooner. Harry, you managed to encapsulate so many disparate and terrifying feelings in a beautiful four-minute tribute to someone you've lost and recollections of your own struggle as well. I've stood and looked over ledges, wondering just what a freefall could do to end my pain. I've chugged pills, yanked belts around my neck and tried starving myself to death almost a dozen times in total. Sometimes, if I'm near a busy enough street or alone and aimless for a week or so on end, my self-preservation takes a backseat and I'm still driven by bubbling urges, acrid and ingrained in my psyche, to just do it- no one will notice, and if they do, who's really going to care. Even the loss of a friend and former bandmate who'd gone missing for a week, leaving behind a wife and young child as his former body lay in the woods, didn't deter me completely. Luckily for me and everyone around me, I was caught twice and the other attempts, I chickened out. Self-preservation did a hard reboot right before the point of no return. Stories like this are important- like you said, stigmas around mental health will either label suicidal people as either rash or incapable of thinking through consequences, and often times that's just not the case. It's a battle that never quite ends, and isn't really won until long after it begins. This message is just what I needed today and, although the likelihood is quite low, someday I'd like to meet you. You're a genuine person who doesn't beat around the bush, you're a fellow crazy drummer and you've got a story to tell. Thank you.

[@jestrickland1]

I know this video was posted 5 years ago but it remains relevant and thought provoking. As someone who has lost family members to suicide, I felt your pain and appreciated your honesty and openness. I wish you all good things Sir and from what I’ve seen since recently learning about you, you’ve turned out to be a good man with a special zest for life and especially for drumming! So keep on living your best life in honor of those people you’ve lost. Peace My Friend.

[@michael_ryan]

Wow harry....just wow. An a person who has self harmed in the past, even attempted suicide as well. This is one of the best, most therapeutic things I’ve ever seen. Thanks so much my brother. I’m glad...we all are glad your still here.

[@benradtke7321]

Wow, powerful. Tremendous courage. I can relate to everything you said. In my 36 years, I've contemplated, planned, or figured it was only a matter of time before i killed myself for most of my life. I've had close friends that have killed themselves, and some that have been murdered. A few things I can ad about my own experience: killing yourself is not a weakness, or a cowards way out. It takes tremendous willpower, tremendous courage, and strength. You have to literally go against the very fiber of your being to end your life. If anything has kept me alive all these years, it has been fear... not of going to hell, not of some terrible consequences. For me it was the fear or maybe some deep unconscious knowing that I'd just have to come back and start right where i left off. sometimes the only thing that kept me alive was considering all the misery my suicide would cause other people. sometimes the urge to die has nothing to do with any outward circumstances and no amount of change seemed like it would make any difference whatsoever. Suicidal people are often some of the most beautiful, deep, empathetic people you will ever meet. If we survive, and somehow turn ourselves around, we are capable of living incredible, beautiful lives.

[@rjboyer7243]

...and I'm even more appreciative at how insightful...not funny...this one was. Thank you - even more so. Sometimes you expose your own strengths without intending to...and touch many people in a very positive way by doing so.

[@STEPHEN1463]

I know this is an old video and I don't know if you'll ever see this comment, but I just want to say thank you for the authenticity. I have been living with depression since I was in seventh grade, and as a rising college sophomore in a stressful life of a double music major with three minors it has only gotten worse. I lost two friends from school this summer to suicide but I have kept going. That being said, I have attempted on multiple occasions to take my own life but have been unsuccessful. I have projected my emotional pain to the drum set and have for the last eight years, and finally my work has been appreciated, as I have my first EP coming out in 9 days, and you better believe I'm counting down. I love your videos and your personality. Keep on drumming and entertaining. Sincerely yours, Stephen Moran - A Survivor.

[@milojohnson3057]

rock on man. never stop.

[@averybondeson2642]

STEPHEN1463 I'm very similar, not as bad as you. I'm a sophomore in high school. I attempted 4 times my freshman year. I can take it out playing saxophone. Keep on trying to fight it. I don't know you, but know you mean something to many many people. And you'd be letting them down if they quit

[@averybondeson2642]

*if you'd quit My bad

[@drh490]

Dude, I am a hobby drummer but son of a drummer and grandson of a drummer. I have lost close friends to suicide and I miss them dearly. I can relate to you on these aspects of life. I enjoy your drumming videos so much. You influence me to play more drums and to enjoy it while I can. Life is hard, but drums are fun! Thanks dude!

[@BirdNoise77]

You've touched a lot of lives man. Thank you for saying the things that some of us can't.

[@jonsqueezeboxkorman2207]

Being a drummer from Boston, now living in Knoxville, I love following your channel. This video hits hard as my best friend committed suicide a few years ago and this helped me get a better understanding. Thanks Dude!

[@owenleary6050]

This video, although old, connected with me after the hours of mindless watching to quiet my mind. You are such a role model and after being subscribed for a while I am just now coming across this. Thank you for these words. You are such a good dude, dude.

[@rodney3076]

Harry, as a clinical therapist, and a survivor of PTSD and a mood disorder which has the highest suicide rate of all mental illnesses, and as a fellow drummer, I applaud you for having the gumption to be so raw and honest about some of the downsides of life. After watching this video, I actually felt uplifted because I am also a fan of your drumming videos. Keep on keeping on my friend.

[@nathanstephens4600]

I needed this. I really really needed this. Thank you. Dude

[@jsanti1000]

I was there once, looking at my front door considering checking out due to the helplessness of addiction while imagining God on the other side of the door. Crying out for His help inside. After contemplating a while, i simply decided to die to myself and decided to live for others. When we turn our gaze from our own dissapointments, shortcomings, and percieved slights to helping others, our reality shifts. There is no greater fulfillment and enjoyment then helping others. And Harry, you help me and many others if only by bringing a smile to their face, you have made the world a little better place. Be well my friend.

[@honeybadgersforever]

I couldn't have stumbled upon this video at a better time in my life. Thanks Harry, hope you're staying busy. I know we'd all love to hear from you!

[@birminghambelle]

So many people have told me how grateful they are to see your powerful video, Harry and how much they have shared it & how counselors & church leaders are showing it to their youth groups, etc. Your message is being heard! And Keenon's legacy is living on... Thank you again my seemingly surrogate son & amazing cousin. We both talked about what we both believe is the real issue of suicide, so to that end I feel it necessary to convey the following message that I know you passionately agree with as well: DEPRESSION CAN BE FATAL: Unfortunately one of the primary symptoms of depression is the inability to think rationally, which can sadly lead to unthinkably inappropriate, tragic decisions. Because depression is a disease. DISEASE. An invasive, insidious, misunderstood, shamefully stigmatized, ignorantly ignored ILLNESS! A disease which can & often does, render people's minds CRIPPLED enough to the points that their bodies may act like they've literally became LAME. An illness with enough vicious power to so thoroughly infect a person's brain, that it can eventually lead to them taking their own lives out of sheer desperation & KILL THEM - just as helplessly & rampantly as any undetected cancer. CANCER. Depression Fact & Help Info: depression-faq.org National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Phone: [phone]

[@MegaKTime]

Harry, the struggle is real every day. I'm glad you're still here and that you've invited us into your life. I've recently discovered your channel (yeah, I pretty much live under a rock) and am enjoying the inspiration that it gives me. I look forward to you living your dream and continuing to share your gift with us. Rock on Dude!

[@sublimingmule6356]

My cousin left this world a year ago from when I saw this. I don't know what to say. This was good. I'm glad you put this up.

[@johnneail5349]

Dude, I literally lost a friend/brother in arms a few days ago to suicide. I’ve spent the past four days blaming myself that I missed the signs; that I wasn’t able to help my friend, my fellow Marine. It’s been eating away at me. As Marines, we pride ourselves in looking out for one another, at never letting our brothers/sisters down. These past few days have been hell for me. I had to identify my friend’s body to the police; and sure as shit, it was him. All I really have to say, is although I’ve spent countless hours talking to family, mutual friends, and mental health professionals, your words from that journal hit hard in the most beneficial way possible. What a chance in life, where I’m mindlessly browsing KZbin, stuck in a hole of how to videos, I come across words of encouragement from a person who attempted suicide. Thank you Harry.

[@toolkills]

Dude . I just commented on one of your drum videos . Your skill and your overall attitude has totally hooked me . Your sense of humor, your wittiness , and your humility (despite your tasty pro level drum skills ) absolutely allude to this depth of character that i find is sadly lacking these days . Now that I've watched this video there's no doubt . You are the fuckin man bro .

[@imfobk]

i cried a lot watching this. and it feels good to know someone else can express this out loud.

[@MattDeloff_Online]

That was very brave of you to post. I actually just lost a friend almost 2 weeks ago to suicide and was left wondering why she would do that, especially when she seemed to have the perfect life, married, great husband, 3 beautiful daughters. Something you said in this video stuck with me and may be the answer I was looking for. So thank you Harry, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

[@purplepianoist88]

I sincerely thank you for this video. I appreciate the effort it probably took to make it and I appreciate your message. As a survivor of a friend who passed away because of suicide I needed to hear this.

[@ninjasonmylawn25]

I too have been down that road. I am thankful that you're still here. I discovered you via our mutual love of Carter Beauford. I knew you were an amazing drummer but now I know you're just an amazing human. Keep being you sir. I often watch your video of breaking down some of Carter's unique styles and it always makes my day better. Harry, thank you for doing battle when it's easier to surrender.

[@NerismaStudios]

This video was immediately what I thought of after hearing the news of Chester Bennington's suicide... I'm so glad that you survived and have come out stronger, Harry, and I really hope that this video has helped, and will help, many to make the decision to keep going, with or without help.

[@mattdawson8596]

I lost my friend a year ago after he had a breakup, and whilst I felt that my friend group had done everything they could to help him (and therefore not at fault) I have still been struggling to make sense of it, especially as to what his thought process must have been. Whilst I will never know, this video has helped me so much. I spent an hour watching it over and even typed out your words to help me make sense of everything To reiterate a comment below: "Came for drums. Left with tears". And I'll add "Left with meaning" to that statement. Thank you dude

[@victorsaliba9153]

The language you use is beautiful. It’s so understandable and touching. Glad you were fortunate enough to survive, dude

[@mikefournier8982]

Please leave this video up forever, you are truly a blessing to this world. Much love my dude !

[@mykemauigroovey125]

brutha'...wow. i found your channel last week because im a terrible drummer, but i love it. i binge watched many of your videos, and laughed, admired, and enjoyed them all. today i found this. my beloved baby sister took her life 10 years ago. the pain is as strong today as the day it happened.i saw her days before she did it,..i felt i had failed, and missed any sighns of her plans..your words are comforting, profound, sensible,..reason in an ureasonable situation,..thank you,..i believe you have helped many people like myself, try to make sense of a most something we cant by ourselves......you are the mostest awesomest dude,...rock on brutha'. thank you.

[@bmillerdrums]

Its like you're too smart for your own good man. Even the way you speak its like your head is moving at internet speed and going through all these permutations so quickly its like you are in system overload mode. Obviously dont know you personally and Im glad you are still alive and with us because if not I wouldn't have been so inspired by your art and drumming genius beautifully illustrated in these videos. Keep that head up Harry

[@mikealexander2005]

Powerful, thought provoking, honest. This gave me a new perspective on the loss of a friend more than 10 years ago. Very welcome, and very much appreciated. Thank you.

[@BillNicholsTV]

Just thank you for living, no doubt this video alone has helped many

[@patrickwilson2159]

Watching this video in 2024, it is still so powerful. The honesty you approach the subject with makes me feel like I am not alone. Thanks man. I hope you are doing well.

[@auldstock]

I'm struggling to hold back the tears here dude, thank you so much for sharing.

[@billbigler1366]

I found your great channel a few months ago and love it and your humorous but so informed and talented style. I am 67 years old and a hobbyist drummer. You have many more years to touch people's lives. God bless.

[@willkwasigroh2948]

I realize you posted this several years ago, but I'm just now seeing it. Thank you for being who you are. That was a powerful message and meant a lot to me. You're an inspiration and a damn great drummer. Keep on keeping on, my dude.

[@rickb1408]

Glad, glad you pulled through and glad you are too. I applaud you for this great brave post. It's troubling that as a society anyone would have to feel the need to be brave to make such a post. You will certainly help everyone who listens. Stay strong! Your life is worth living.

[@fiveeyes2802]

Thank you for this, for your strength and your honesty. I am sorry for the loss of your cousin, K.

[@timothyeads1657]

Harry, This was such a beautiful video. Those words hit very deep and we're so eloquently put together. Thank you for all you do and the joy you bring to the human race!

[@paulmetz1174]

I've only seen a few of your videos so far and I've related to almost everything you've said, but this was what I needed to hear the most. The inner voice is often the most cruel and destructive. Thanks for your insight dude, and sorry about your cuz.

[@Thesuicidejournal]

This is an Awesome Video, You have captured the Darkness of those feeling that so many of us who are posting have felt before. I wish I could Write like that, So poetic.

[@jayrod311976]

agreed!!

[@zohansbag]

I feel your pain, and not just empathically. My brother killed himself 4 years ago and I basically told him to do it. It's a long story, but I wouldnt wish that experience on my worst enemy. Stay strong, stay in the love and keep spreadin it, my brother! RIP Joeseph Wetzel 9/22/87-4/11/16 On a side note, I think you're a brilliant dude and I thoroughly enjoy your videos. They're both entertaining and educational. So crazy awesome some of the interviews you've had. The dude Beauford and his tech are among my favorites. Keep up the great work! Much love!

[@mrdeuce7]

Thank you for your video on suicide. I lost my son to suicide in 2015. He was in the USAF and had PTSD really bad. He did two tours one on Afghanistan and the other in Iraq. He saw things no young man should ever see. He & I sure both drummers as well. Thank you for making all of us aware of suicide.

[@jgonsalk]

So happy you're still around. This is such an important message to hear, for everyone.

[@gnainu]

Deeply thank you for posting the video. I was only 7 when my best friend and I prepared things to attempt so. Now I am a mother of three, really have to be aware that children can feel desperate too.

[@mathieulacour6406]

We're all happy you're here making videos for us. We're all happy u pulled through.

[@gangelini]

Hello Harry...I wrote on one of your drum instruction pages that I never use the word awesome but that your drumming ability was just that. Now that I watched this video I realize that you as a person are also awesome. We don't know each other at all but my first wife committed suicide years ago and I really wish that she hadn't. I know now that I couldn't have stopped her and it wasn't my fault. But it took me a long time to know that. I'm glad you didn't succeed. You have too much to share with everyone.

[@vetleallum6661]

George Angelini I'm sorry for your loss.

[@gangelini]

A heartfelt thank you for your kindness.@@vetleallum6661

[@johnspicer1371]

I'm glad you found enough happiness to hang around.I always find joy in your post. I know that's self serving but just maybe it's reflective and you get joy back :) Love life...

[@classixdrummer]

Dude, speechless. Thank you for sharing. Love your spirit man.

[@MarcoScapelitte]

Harry, much love brother. I've always appreciated your playful and gentle nature. We need more people like you in this world. I'm glad you made it through.

[@ExoScreenager]

I have a massive amount of respect and admiration for you as a musician and a person.

[@darangel33]

All I can say is Wow!! As a person who has been in this very dark space and time very recently, I couldnt have said it any better.. Bravo

[@tantoelauwjeweet]

It’s been the third time I’ve seen this video and man do I respect the fact that you made this video and put it online for other to view and find. Sorry about the loss dude. I hope you are doing good. You are a good dude.

[@TeenieTinyTina]

Only seeing this now. I attempted twice, both times I failed. And now, I look back and I'm ultimately happy it didn't work out. Seeing how emotional you got made me feel that same emotion you did. I just discovered you recently but you're already one of my favorite people. Keep being you, whether it's a video a week or a video a year; you're awesome.

[@drumjedi5301]

I'm new to your vids (like, literally today), and new to your drumming. I find your drumming to be interesting and inspiring, and your sense of humor refreshing. I've been drumming since I was 3...and am also a suicide survivor. Were it not for the love of a very dear friend, I would not be here today. Thank you for an honest and very real commentary on what that was like for you... Keep up the good work, man. I know I'll be watching.

[@b5maddog]

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank God you are still here. I went through the darkest moments after the passing of both my parents. Attempted suicide on three different occasions. Thought I was alone during this all. Each time I I tried to take my life, my three children's names could be heard as if someone was next to me. Their names were enough to take me out of the moment. It wasn't until a year later, realized it was God who was with me. It was His voice I was hearing. Only He knew what would take me away from that moment. The enemy tried to take my life but it was God who continued to keep it. Love and God bless you always

[@kickadrummer]

Harry, I know this video is a few years old, but this crushes me. I've been a survivor for 21 months now, and this is exactly how I felt 4 months after, when one of my best friends didn't have the same outcome as my attempt. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@vicmoretti963]

I watch your drum videos. Then I see this and remember that "Everyone is fighting a monster we cannot see." I hope you have your monster under control. That was one heartfelt video.

[@gamby16a]

I'm so glad you're still with us. You bring joy to many through your thoughts, words and music. We value that.

[@Ey_up]

I have been watching your clips only for a couple of days now. I'm thinking about drumming as a retirement hobby...then this. However, your own bravery and the beauty of your words (selfishly) brought some joy to me because it helps lay to rest some of the feelings that you describe so eloquently. Thank you. Dude!

[@imbzq]

You just came on my radar and absolutely love your videos. Very glad that you're still around, my new friend. Strength and happy drumming to you!

[@HarkriderDrums]

Thank you for sharing your story, Harry. I’m so glad you got through this. As a fellow survivor, I understand how hard it is to be open with people about it. Stay strong, my brother!

[@sycbeck652]

Thank you Harry, Alot of people will say similar things but seriously... THANK YOU. (especially from my mother)

[@heywood62]

I'm glad you are still with us, and had the courage to share this. I understand, and am sorry for your loss.

[@MedicalNemesis]

This is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

[@Royce_Leii]

Thanks for staying Harry, your videos thought me so much and more than that you brighten my day every time I press play.

[@eddieh1985]

I’ve had a couple of cousins that chose that path was best for them. I miss them everyday, and feel bad that i couldn’t help them. But, i understand people lives behind closed doors is different from what we see. I’m glad you shared this with the world.

[@dhewton1966]

I'm glad you still walk the earth. You are a blessing to be shared. Keep up the good work.

[@bigiainw]

Just Wow. thanks for sharing your story in such an accessible way. They should be showing this in schools.

[@JJHemming-t4w]

Rediscovering this channel 10 years later was the best thing to happen to me

[@mhsandifer]

Dang dude. I hate you got so low, but am glad you're still here. You make people happy and have a great mind. Best regards

[@sambirch4065]

Im lost for words. This world needs more people like you. Respect.

[@joeewing9364]

Just saw a new side of you.. that was beautiful man, and I'm glad you're here in all of our lives. I hope your cousin found the peace he was searching for, and I hope you keep achieving happiness

[@nedtheyak]

First off, thanks for this Harry. I don't know what else to say, but thank you for your courage. To those coming here with similar thoughts: there IS more. Just because you haven't found it, just because you can't see it right now does NOT mean your life can't turn on its head in a moment. Just because it's just turned for the worse doesn't mean you'll be here forever. Every time you lose something dear, you find something way better, even if you don't see it or it isn't immediate. There is MORE. You don't need to know it all. You don't need to do it all. Just stay, open your heart to people like Harry who know what you're feeling and CARE for you. There is still Hope. You are loved unconditionally.

[@JamesOKeefe-US]

So powerful.. Thank you for the courage to share.

[@brandiboneal]

Harry, thanks for sharing. You are one of the best people we know.

[@nikoroman5025]

You’re one of the best Harry. I discovered carter through you. I found a passion for music through you, and I’m so glad you pulled through man. without seeing your passion for your profession and breakdown of musical legends, I wouldn’t be nearly as happy as I am today. I’m starting to find my peace, and I’m glad you have too. From one musician to another. Thank you dude.

[@christopherpeters3922]

You are pure inspiration and sir. I play guitar....but I've learned so many things here and will always watch.

[@ilonawhite6121]

Thank you for this . This alleviates the guilt i feel over my sister's suicide somewhat

[@thierryman]

I've never been suicidal, but the recent suicides of two prominent vocalists (Chris Cornell and Chester Bennington) made me think of this and how this video can be used to help people that have had suicidal tendencies and may have those thoughts come back right now, especially if they used the music of said vocalists to get through their hardest times.

[@TheExtremist123]

Chris and Chester have been childhood heroes of mine, I was a massive fan of Audioslave and am still a huge Linkin Park fan.