JULY | Time of The Month

[@SprinkleofChatter]

You did good kid, you did good xxxx

[@MitchellReilly]

She did indeed Louise xx

[@TheHazelHayes]

Thanks bae. Couldn't have done it without you. And MASH! x

[@TheHazelHayes]

I've genuinely had to stop reading the comments for a bit because they're making me so emotional. YOU ARE ALL VERY NICE HUMANS!! Will do some replying later on. x

[@gabriellaaaxo]

love you so much hazel xx

[@katiethompson6538]

+ChewingSand much love to you, lovely lady, from Texas. all the best on your journey as you find your new normal. beautiful work, as always.

[@jamiechris2002]

Hazel you are genuinely one of the happiest, nicest and kindest people in the entire world. We are all so proud of you, you managed to talk about this, though it may not have been directly, you were on the subject, we all respect you greatly for that, as it takes a lot of bravery. Hope you feel better soon. -Jamie. xxoo

[@imadreamer1507]

I hope you'll feel better soon!!

[@natalieajax-lewis4752]

Don't worry Hazel, it's your life. I hope you're okay, you might not be now but you will be again. You don't have to continue with PMS if you don't want to. Just know that I am a random stranger in the world and I care about you x

[@BertieGilbert1]

hey good this was nice don't worry you brave you strong you fabulous, we got this!

[@TheHazelHayes]

+Bertie Gilbert Films Such words. Many wisdom. Thanks Bertie. x

[@TheHazelHayes]

I keep coming back to this video, telling myself that this time I'll reply to the comments. But then I start reading them and get emotional all over again :) So, to everyone who's been so kind and loving and supportive here, thank you! Please know I have seen your comment and I appreciate it immensely. Also, I'm doing much better now in general. Things are slowly returning to happier times. So no need to worry, my lovelies. x

[@ellaswift4820]

Go girl x

[@maddygomes8147]

I'm so glad! Stay strong lovely x

[@nicholasgibbons]

+ChewingSand Dear Hazel, I hope you'll forgive me for being brief but I just wanted to say the emotion in the video is very moving and whatever the problem is, I hope that all the support that's needed is in place. Everyone' entitled to a private life so don't feel obliged or compelled to share anything too soon.

[@melaniemurphyofficial]

*I LOVE YOU* XXX You really do inspire me, lady

[@serena7044]

Firstly; superficial things. I love your music choices, the music always perfectly accentuates your videos without over powering them. I admire your persistence, because it's effing July and you've kept up making these gorgeous, time consuming wonderful videos, on top of all of your film making, career success and life busy-ness. As for the variety and the fact that not every shot if montagey, I personally love that, because by showing us things that aren't always perfectly lit and sot (homey casual clips) it gives us a persoal little insight into your humanity and real life. Seeing your connection with Darcy and your other friends is really heartwarming. Obviously the beautiful montages are great too, but never feel that you ave to apologise for the "messier" moments. You're only uman. On a deeper note of course we will respect your request not to pry or speculate into your life. That's not our place, and would serve no purpose. Your position as a youtuber by no means gives anyone the right to pry into your life. Just know that you are a strong wonderful woman and this pain will not last forever. I'm not spouting "time heals all wounds" because in my expirience that doesn't make it feel better in the here and now. Just know that your future will still contain huge joy. You will feel as carefree as Past-Hazel again one day, you will have a million moments of laughter and excitement up ahead. You deserve all of the time to come to terms with everything. Take all the time, no-one's going to judge you or leave but know that we support you and our positive thoughts and prayers (for those who pray) are with you. You have always bee a role model to me because you inspire me with your strength, intelligence and spiritedness. I'm sorry if it feels odd that an internet stranger is rambling at you, but I connected with a lot of what you said, and wanted you to know that you are not alone. Your family and friends are there for you, and your viewers all care so much too. Love to you always. I have so much respect for you for uploading this despite everything.

[@serena7044]

+Reena Roo And I forgot to spell check. I hope this is coherent

[@LivingSoloful]

Honestly, I'm rewatching the end talking head because its so beautiful. I'm not talking about her physical beauty but her inner strength, the breath taking honesty. I watch that ending and I feel inspired.

[@ImsonotDunn]

Hazel inspires me with every video she puts up shes amazing

[@rosyturner4213]

I don't comment on video's regularly, but I think Hazel Hayes is one of the most wonderful and inspirational KZbinrs around at the moment and i'm not ashamed to say that this video made me cry...quite a lot. Love you Hazel

[@MollyKaren]

oh hey there Rosy :D also, totally agree with you

[@Caroline1ie]

God I forgot how good Ant-Man was. Especially that part where they devour the bug.

[@TheHazelHayes]

Right?

[@05ALMA20]

Im sorry for whatever it is, Hazel, and don't ever feel the need to explain anything. I love you and am sending you huge hugs. I know what you mean with the footage and editing. Four years ago this summer, I finished my sophomore year of high school and went out for a day with friends, then I came home and the next day I found out my best friend died. I was with her and we were just hanging out, doing stupid shit, and planning our summer then four hours later she was gone. Knowing that and seeing the pictures from that day really broke me for such a long time. Today I see those pictures and am happy I kept them because they're my past, a calm before the storm that was never even forecasted. It really is the weirdest thing looking at them not knowing that the next 24 hours would change everything, it was a time that was gonna show me what I was really made of and I made it out. As cheesy as it sounds sometimes things fall apart and we have to build ourselves back up and if you do it you learn how strong you are. God, now i've written a paragraph sorry

[@kalinkaaa13]

..oh my god you made tear up really hard

[@spanielbounce3135]

And that piano music leading up to what's happening gets me everytime.

[@jdonohue17]

Hazel. I think what you're doing here is redefining the autobiography in such an impressive way. Many people Vlog, but it gets so glossed over in production and you are here keeping it so real with Time of the Month and every month feels like a chapter in your life. It's fascinating, thanks for your artistry and commitment.

[@sweetsmartiexo]

always have to make myself a cup of tea and cuddle up before i watch your time of the months, bloody love them

[@TheHazelHayes]

+imogensworld Thanks Imogen. Glad you enjoyed it. x

[@SuperSamStuff]

Hearing "It is sooo hot" whilst a never-ending stream of rain hits the window is an almost perfect embodiment of the British seasons. Watching these always leaves me feeling so inspired no matter how rough my day has been. You're one of the bravest people I have the honour of watching on here, Hazel

[@user-hs9hr5hs7n]

Dying when sammy started interviewing people

[@pollyannajoyce]

I watch childhood videos of myself before something really shitty happened and I always cry. I don't even think I just cry. I feel like cuddling this small child running around and I feel like breaking through the screen and wanting to kidnap her and tell her it will all be ok Because it will. Thinking of you hazel

[@FrancescaGeorgiou]

Hazel, you are bloody glorious. I really feel for you and admire you; not only for continuing to create, but for managing to create well. You should be proud of yourself. I'm glad that the happiness within this vlog is part of your truth because it means you have some beyond wonderful friends to help you through. And Jack Howard.

[@TheHazelHayes]

+Francesca Georgiou HAHAHAHA! (thank you)

[@missoriginality99]

I admire you so much, not only as a KZbinr or a filmmaker but also as a raw human. No matter what is going on and whatever barriers/happenings are getting in your way, whether personal or professional, you work through it. That inspires me so much and makes me want to continue with my life, not give up and keep living to see where life takes me, to see what i can achieve and to see myself make my dreams come true. Even if you never see this comment, thank you so much Hazel. Much love xxx

[@TheHazelHayes]

+missoriginality99 x

[@spanielbounce3135]

I've been watching a few of these in reverse order, so I saw Aug before Jul. And how you described it is just like how I feel after seeing this: watching someone who's just so happily oblivious to what's coming around the corner... *goes to find somewhere for a quiet eye leak over lunchbreak* And when you said you thought about scrapping it, I'm so glad you kept going. You've shown us so many more amazing moments, and how far you've come after such an upheaval. If anyone I know goes through this, I'm sending them here.

[@nudgificator]

Never have I wanted to reach into a screen and hug someone more than I did in that sign off segment. I hope things get easier soon. x

[@callumm1]

It's really really good that you've continued to edit and upload this video especially with whatever has happened. Whatever it is, I really hope you're okay x

[@callumm1]

I really admire you for uploading x

[@rebekahmaryx]

thinking of you lots and lots Hazel big hugs whatever happened x

[@eloisebrooks5804]

Hazel - the episode was lovely, as always, and as always I'm incredibly grateful that you choose to share your life with us. Please do not feel pressured to share anymore than you are comfortable with, but I do hope you can recapture the happiness of July in dealing with whatever you're going through. I'm going through some family things at the moment myself, so I empathise with your struggle and wish you all the best in the coming months. All the best. xx

[@TheHazelHayes]

+Eloise Brooks Thanks Eloise. Hope things get better for you too luv. We are strong women and we can do this!! x

[@amandaburke1351]

Hazel, this was so goddamn beautiful. Because this is what life is. Life is these beautifully happy moments that sometimes end with something painfully sad. My dad passed away in march. Sometimes I go back and look at the pictures leading up to that and am amazed that even though he was so full of life, we all were so happy, something terrible was going to happen. But you pick yourself up and you carry on. That's what you owe to yourself. That's what I owe to my dad. I just want to thank you for putting in the emotion and letting it be seen in this vlog. Sometimes it's nice to know that you're not struggling by yourself. That people on the other side of the world are having happy moments followed by sad ones just like you. This truly touched me more than I can put into words. So, thank you. xx

[@TheHazelHayes]

+Amanda Burke Thank you for sharing your story Amanda. I'm so sorry to hear about your dad and my thoughts are with you and your family. I know you'll never fully recover from something like this, but I hope you're all staying strong and being there for each other and that happiness is starting to return for you now. x

[@alicethompson8082]

Hazel Hayes, your videos make me appreciate life, which isn't something I do very often in all honesty. They are so simplistic yet so beautiful and I am so grateful to you for taking the time to make them.

[@mirandatheadventurer]

I've often thought about that myself as a vlogger. What to include and not to include. Because you want to share your life in an authentic way, but you also want to keep some things private, especially the more difficult things. I think you're very brave, Hazel! Love your videos.

[@Trxshgxy]

I hope whatever it is that is bothering and upsetting you comes to peace and I hope you feel a lot happier sooner

[@willowvsworld6132]

All my love and support to you Hazel. This week I buried two of my EMS brothers. Yet at the end of the week I'm celebrating my sisters wedding. Life has its ups and downs. We notice the downs a lot more because of how much they hurt. The important thing to remember is the balance of it all. I hope that the good in your life always outweighs the bad. But I'm very glad you chose not to give up on your monthly vlogs. Sometimes at the end of a hard day your video's lift my spirits and add to the good in my life. So thanks for that.

[@liz1dancer]

It really pains me to see you like this Hazel, I'll be thinking of you and sending love your way!

[@londontolosangeles12]

Also, I know exactly how you feel about having a huge turn around in your life and finding it weird to reflect on times in which you were totally oblivious to such a massive 'bombshell'. I recently found out that my grandpa was an alcoholic and it hurt me, it hurt so badly. The grandpa I knew was the loveliest, kindest, friendliest and generally just the best guy there ever was. It's been so hard for me to compute how a guy like that could also have an alcohol addiction, especially as I had absolutely no idea about it. I'm trying to not let it change the way I feel about him but it's so, so hard. I don't think I'm ready to face it, not yet anyway. I don't even know if I'll ever be able to figure it out, it just hurts too much. So, yeah, I can totally empathise with you and I'm sending you all my love and support during such a crappy time xxx

[@adeyabebe9771]

+londontolosangeles12 Jesus, looks like you need some love and support too...would it make you feel any better if I told you that we hazelnuts stick together. We can be your own personal support group :D Hope things get better with your grandpa :)

[@jasnmaf]

+Adey Abebe just want to say that you seem like an incredibly nice person for taking five minutes out of your life to give support to a stranger. I wish the world had more people like you in it! xxx

[@londontolosangeles12]

Adey Abebe It's so nice to see someone respond in such a kind way on the internet, thank you so much. Unfortunately my grandpa passed away 4 years ago so it's not something that I can discuss with him. Hopefully one day I'll be able to open up about it and make sense of the situation. Thanks again for your kind words xxx

[@adeyabebe9771]

I'm sorry about your Grandpa, I'll pray for him, I'm sure he is in a better place. And thank you for the kind response. I'm sure you would do the same for anyone, but I'm happy that there was anyway I could help :) and thank you jasnmaf for the compliment :)

[@Taymanator0051]

I was originally just going to point how amazing of a story-teller you are in your films, no matter how routine the activity within or how shaky the camera.... But after you sharing your heart with all of us... Your simple, numerous HazelNuts. I want to point out how wise you are Hazel Hayes. The ability to recognize and realize what the past can show us. You taking those moments to share how in real, unedited life, hardships come out of no where. We can't prepare for them all, but we can try to have a light that will always guide us. When that storm of uncertainty and pain comes to tear us apart, I know I'm glad to have a single thing to fall back on. And I mean really fall. Because it's those times when we really have no strength and we must fall onto something.Anyway, I hope you know you are very brave for sharing, and made the right choice. Whatever happened, know that you are loved. Take that, and love yourself for whoever you become.With prayers, Noah.

[@rollingwaves1290]

Dear Hazel! First of all, your TotM videos are my absolute favourite thing on youtube! I look forward to them every month and once they're up I watch them at first chance I get. It's always so endearing to watch you be so wonderful and succeed despite all odds. And experiencing the places I'll probably never get to visit through your eyes is always a joy. So thank you for that, and for keeping on with this project! You're so wonderful and whatever you're going through, I wish you to emerge from it a renewed better stronger version of you, and for the wounds to heal as fast as possible. we're here and we're rooting for you

[@Plaidcoffee]

I'm not much of a commenter usually, but I would like to say, I always look forward to your Time of the Month videos, along with all of your other videos and short films, but these the most. I always look forward to watching them because though they're a roller coaster of emotions, they inspire me. I am a few months away from being 17 and am going into my senior year of high school. I constantly find myself terrified of what is to come because I haven't got my shit figured out yet. Your Time of the Month videos give me a bit of hope and reassurance in a way, because you show me that I don't need to have it all together just yet, and that even throughout my twenties I will still be figuring things out, and that is okay. I respect that whatever has hit you so abruptly is not something you can speak about yet because you aren't comfortable doing so, I totally understand that feeling. I hope you are doing well and that things may be getting better. I must say, thank you though. Thank you for sharing these moments of your life with all of us. Thank you for showing me real examples of people just living their lives and figuring shit out along the way in a world where I was expected to know who I will be in 5 years, last year. Thank you. (this somehow became more of a thank you note than a simple comment but oh well.)

[@rrlpp7064]

These vlogs make me cry every month for various reasons. Whatever the reason youre upset just know we're all totally behind you and support you and love you. I can't wish anything but the best for you x

[@rebeccaroberts8120]

Hazel, you perservered when everything felt like it was pushing against you and that is incredible to do - and very inspiring to me. It may be almost a year since this video was relevant perhaps in your life, but the special thing about it is that the emotion behind it is felt by everyone at some point. Thank you for making me feel less alone, and I hope you are at peace with yourself all these months on. Take care xxx

[@AConfidentCoward]

I just watched your December video and started watching them all again. It's honestly incredible that you managed to not only upload this video but also that you stuck with this project. You should be so proud of yourself. You're honestly one of the most inspirational people and I admire you so much xx

[@marianne2529]

I'm not going to deny that I am insanely curious, but it's videos like this, I think, that remind viewers that the people they are watching are human and have ups and downs the same as the rest of us. The fact that you choose willingly to show us this, Hazel, shows incredible courage. You owe us nothing, Hazel, this is your channel, and it's up to you whether you share something that is obviously very personal to you. We will love and support you, wherever you choose to share this or not. Thank You Hazel, you are an amazing person, and I love you and your videos.

[@ellejay10]

Oh, Hazel. You do so fantastically well with these videos. I'm just in awe every month. As for the end, you made me cry. What you said resonated so much with me. I really hope that everyone's words are giving you comfort, but I also know from experience that life-altering changes often just need time. I commiserate with you and that feeling of seeing a happy self, oblivious to what's going to happen. I had a life changing event happen in 2012 and I forever look at things now as my life before and after that event. Time does heal, but I'd be lying if I said I don't often mourn the life I had before it happened. I wish you happiness and that time is your friend.

[@spottedelephant6332]

My nan seen this video when I was watching it and she said that she would say a prayer for you every night along with the other people she says a prayer for. No matter what your going through you know you have a amazing group of friends round you, if not you will always have someone who supports you in every way weather that be a fan, a friend or family. Your a lovely person and deserve all good things that come to you but we have to deal with the bad to appreciate the good.

[@BrandzBerg]

I am obsessed with this woman. So beautiful inside and out. Im sorry, stay strong matey x

[@MissTwilightHater]

15.35 was the most chilled, relaxing scene I've ever seen. Then I realised the cat was dancing. Loool. I can't imagine how much work these TOMs take. I'm glad you're proud of yourself for that, because we all are.

[@ricardaseven6083]

I'm in the middle of a TotM-Marathon to see your whole year in one go and I just wanna thank you and congratulate you for sticking around even through this though time - it's wonderful to see that it was worth it and that you found happiness again

[@CryptidLarklin]

Hazel I hope you're ok and copping, just know that we all love you and are here for you . We all respect your privacy and hope you feel better soon.

[@georgiawilson1242]

Hazel , i don't even know how to put it into words to tell you how much you are loved , you inspire me and so many others and i hope that whatever you are going through you can be strong because it was honestly heart wrenching to see you upset x

[@xansayshi]

i've never met you, and probably never will.. but my god, your videos always leave me feeling happy because i'm like "awh hazel is doing so well" and now this and i'm like HAZEL NEEDS TO BE OKAY. you're such an inspiration to me as an aspiring film-maker and i genuinely hope you're okay hazel.

[@theresacunningham208]

Whatever it is... (the worst part of me is dieing to know,keeping it real!) but my better self wants you to see what all your fans see, a beautiful ,funny, warm ,intelligent & creative woman who is showing her strength and truth and can get through tough times with grace. I wish you waves and waves of love and positively .

[@AmandaMarie59]

This was lovely, I'm sorry it couldn't feel that way for you to watch it all back, but I hope whatever it is that happened won't keep you down for too long. It's your honesty that makes this series so lovely, but of course take care of yourself first before appeasing us.

[@TheMegGeorge]

I proud of you for this video, was funny and I loved it. I know it was hard to edit. But regardless of what it is, you have the support of your fans like me. Also, from your friends and family. You are an inspiration to us all being able to pick yourself back up. We don't need to know what happened all we want is for you to be happy

[@TheHazelHayes]

+Project Castaway You are a nice human. Well done. x

[@SaoirseWaddingHayes]

You are so strong Hazel, that much is obvious. And that strength will get you through whatever's happening. You inspire me, make me want to be stronger and more honest. And we all love you. I hope September will be better.

[@hayhobbitful]

Whatever it is that you're going through - whether you choose to publicly explain or to keep it private - you will make it through. It's easy to see that you are a strong, capable, and brilliant woman and the bravery it must have taken to keep going and to upload this is a true testament to your character. In the chance that this helps at all, over the past two years I have struggled with a lot of personal and family issues. Up until recently, I would always put on a fake smile and present myself to the world as this "perfectly put together" person because it was easier for me to pretend than it was to feel vulnerable. But at the end of the day, the only way to properly heal is to allow yourself to acknowledge your thoughts and feelings. The fact that you're opening up about your feelings is so brave and so healing, even if it's just in this one video (because you don't owe it to anyone to speak about things you don't feel right about sharing, whether that be online or offline). You are clearly such a kind and wonderful woman, and know that you have a whole whack of people behind you that support you and wish you only the happiest of journeys. Sending only positive vibes across the Atlantic xxxxx

[@dorism5779]

As someone who's having a not great year and who is so inspired and made to feel better by these TOTM videos, I genuinely hope that whatever is happening in you life gets better and you fight through it with that strength that I admire so much in you. I truly wish you all the best and, as much as it's worth from a stranger, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel :) Thanks for another amazing video!! x

[@miiaem]

You are truly something remarkable Hazel. Your work speaks for itself really, every time it manages to inspire or touch and often it does both while being beautiful and honest. But I have so much respect for you as a human as well. You are one of the smartest, strongest, most genuine, kind and honest people out there and I'm eternally grateful for having stumbled upon your channel and that you've chosen to share some of your life with us. It takes so much bravery to open your life up the way you have and I, as I'm pretty sure all of us do, appreciate and love you so much for that. Being in the not-so-happy place I am in my own life, as I have been for a while, you and your videos have brought me so much joy and happiness while inspiring me (very thankful for all of that, makes getting through some days a lot easier). I empathise with your struggle and I'm so sorry you have to go through this, whatever it is, but I also know that you are something quite remarkable and definitely strong enough to get through this, taking all the time you might need. My heart is with you, I hope everything works out and you feel better soon.

[@katrinatheawesome]

Hazel, you're genuinely one of my favourite KZbinrs, and whatever it is that is happening in your life, I just want you to know you're loved and cherished and supported by SO many

[@RishapWiliam]

Your strength and honesty are inspirational. Thank you for sharing your journey.

[@babuton]

Hazel, you are such a vibrant lady and I am so sorry to see you feeling sad. I know that you will have the strength to pull through this time

[@Moehuney]

I hope that whatever struggles you're facing become easier to handle, Its really fantastic that you were able to upload this with all of the weight on your chest. I wish you the best xx

[@TheHazelHayes]

+Toria Walton Thanks so much. I really appreciate all the support from you guys. x

[@JessClaireCreates]

When bad things happen I always find myself getting the most upset when I think about how happy I had been before. It's hard to look back. You are so brave. Take care of yourself and know that we are all supporting you xxx

[@mnmrmust]

Speaking from experience I can tell you that life's journey can be complicated and sometimes very hard. Take the time you need and be with the people that can keep you strong and lift you up. We all take turns carrying each other and those experiences define who you are. Sending good mojo your way.

[@molly8602]

Hazel, whatever happened, we as your viewers are really proud of you for picking yourself up and carrying on. That's a super brave thing to do. You don't owe us an explanation as to what happened at all if you're not comfortable with it, but I honestly hope with all my heart that things will get better and brighten up for you! You inspire so many of us with everything you do, especially with you being a woman who is part of the film making industry. I have so so much respect for you. You really do deserve all the happiness in the world so I hope that it will come your way soon. Xx

[@thedragon6480]

You made me cry. The only thing I can say is I love your videos and I admire your persistence. Don't worry about being messy or about not uploading as much videos as before. Just take your time and when you're ready we'll be here, waiting for you. I send you a lot of love and a huge hug from Argentina.

[@kirstieKABOOM]

I came home to watch this after having a very bad start to today. I came home in tears and feeling like a complete failure in life. This was the first video I clicked on. I laughed at all your good times you had this last month. I also had a not so good July. Life has knocked me around a fair bit this year and before this morning I felt like it had taken all of my August, to get it back. Now... I think I'll give myself a little bit more time... I feel for you Hazel, it takes a lot of strength to put your honest self out on the internet for people to see. But now is a time for healing. I look forward to next month, for the both of us!

[@CaitlinPlant]

Dear Hazel, I would like to start by saying thank you. You could have easily chosen to not make this video this month around and we would have all understand and that would have been the end of it. Instead, in spite of how difficult it was for you, you presented us with one of your most enjoyable Time of The Months yet, at least in my opinion. I'm going through some really rough things in my own life right now and these videos are some of my favourites, so watching this has taken me away from some of my worries and stress. Clearly, I don't know what you're going through, and I 100% respect your decision to keep it to yourself, it's none of our business unless you want it to be, but I genuinely hope that you are receiving all the love and support you need to get through whatever hardship you are facing. You are such a kind and amazing person and you deserve only good things in life, I'm sorry this isn't the case right now. I hope things start looking up soon, You rock.

[@annyargh]

I don't usually comment on videos, simply cause I just don't like to. But watching you tear up at the end of this actually brought me to tears. Although I don't know what happened, please keep in mind Hazel that eventually everything will work out and you'll be okay again. Sending all of my love and hugs across the Atlantic towards you.

[@bethellice4384]

I love these videos, to the happy moments, to the family time, to the time with friends, to the hard moments, to the slightly tipsy wisdom you give. This is what life is about, life isn't easy but these videos show the best and the worst parts of life and that's what makes them special, you make them special Hazel xxxx

[@hannahbright6276]

This video has got me in tears. I know exactly how you feel. I recently found a collection of pictures of me happy in my younger years and that made me really upset because I remember how I felt a lot of the time after that. Before anything happened so I understand you completely and I hope you're okai now 💝

[@allystyles9979]

I love this youtube community a lot. this smaller one between the film makers and creator masterminds such as; hazel, jack, dan, dodie etc. It just seems better to me than it is amongst those who have several millions of followers; the comments here are so much more sincere and real, and people are in general so much kinder and more respectful and everything is a lot less superficial than it sometimes is with the bigger audience youtubers. The support I see here is so genuine and caring and people put time into constructing kind messages. I like it a lot. I feel like these people really deserve the lovely audience they have, and I'm very glad it is so.

[@MRWREN51]

I just recently found your channel and I am already obsessed. Don't feel like you have to step out of your comfort zone in order to explain anything to us. Stay positive love and things will get better. We're here for you

[@mrf11998]

The feels are real...💕

[@abbiemorrin9009]

The smirk on your face when u say "lady garden"

[@sunsetwinds]

what ever it was Hazel, I'm truly sorry you're having to go through it. I this k we've all bee there, be it the sudden and unexpected loss of a loved one, or the end of a relationship or any terrible sudden thing we didn't see coming. I won't say time heals all wounds because some wounds don't heal but time and friends and tears and hugs can lessen the pain so give yourself lots of time, surround yourself with real friends, cry every tear that needs to be shed and accept every hug even when you don't particularly want one... accept this virtual hug from me to you. it was a beautiful vlog and I appreciate it all the more for knowing how much extra energy you spent to get it out there.

[@SadieMayB]

Whatever happens, know that there are so many people out there who admire and respect you, and want you to be as happy as you can be x

[@dumbledorespaceship]

Hazel, I am so often left in awe by how amazing and inspiring you are. Every video you make inspires me to be more creative and passionate in all areas of my life. I admire how talented, kind and brave you are, and I want to thank you for sharing your life with us every month.This video, like all of your videos, was beautiful and touching and I hope that you take all the time, and steps that you need for your own wellbeing at this tough time. I know that I, and everybody else will always be supportive of you. Sending all of my love and support to you.

[@floras1386]

don't ever feel the need to share anything you don't want to !! and take however much time from film making and uploading etc as you need to !! we all care about you and looking after yourself is far more important than any videos / social media!! 💕💜💟

[@Lishabright]

Hugs to you Hazel. So many hugs

[@momof4hs]

Sometimes our lives have to be completely shaken up, changed, & rearranged to relocate us to the place we're meant to be. Hope you find comfort and peace x

[@nkepner]

Watching this video brought up so many memories. I have had a big not so positive bombshell of a moment in my life and I have pictures and videos leading up to that day. I havent been able to look at them or watch the footage back for fear of all the feelings and emotions that came after they were taken coming back up. Its been five years and I still struggle knowing this thing happened and its hard to think about. It takes so much energy on the day to day to keep it together emotionally. So major love and hugs to you Hazel for being able to sit down and edit this footage when youre still dealing with your life stuff. Thank you for sharing your life with all of us. Its really glad to know youre not the only one dealing with the tough stuff that life can throw at you.

[@carolineharvey2534]

Can I just say how damn lovely Hazel's audience is. so far I havent seen any negative comments or people asking to know about what happened and it just makes me so happy how nice everyone is :')

[@RukayaCesar]

Ah wow Hazel, not only was this another beautiful TOTM video but it's left me in tears. Whatever you're going through right now don't feel like you owe it to anyone to share - when life takes a turn like this you have to take everything at your own pace. I think you'll be really glad you've carried on with this series. As weird as that sounds, when I went through a huge upheaval last year that sounds similar to how you feel right now looking back on any of the blogs I wrote etc now make me feel really proud of how far I've come since then, and that despite what happened almost breaking me I've managed to still be here now. My advice would be to try and remember that whatever you're feeling now won't last forever - it could feel impossible but whatever has happened, you *will* be able to recover from it. Lastly, lots of love xxxx

[@imiburrell5694]

I just wanted to say, well done for making this time of the month, whatever's happened seems to have hit you really hard and you are so great for having picked yourself up and carrying on. I wanted to tell you, even though it's probably not something you want to hear, that you really inspire me. I've started my own KZbin channel and I know I'd never have done it without seeing and being inspired by people like you. Keep going through whatever's happening. You can live through it x

[@meaganalisa5776]

You are honestly an amazing woman, I look up to you so much, not in a career sense but just I hope I can be as strong and independent and driven as you are. I wish you all the strength to get through this time in your life, I know you will. Stay strong Hazel, you have so much support here for you!

[@amberdiorable]

I respect you so much Hazel! Your strength is honestly so inspirational. Sending all the love!

[@idkimbeth]

This is such an old video now, but I would like to say, I have so much love for you Hazel. You are such a wonderful person with a beautiful soul, and you have struggled a lot but you're so strong. Thank you for sharing yourself with us all, and being wonderful.

[@tonydepony2488]

I don't usually react to online content, but your musings on how life can surprise us really struck a chord with me. They remind me of something that happened to a loved one. I, too, have been thinking about the past a lot lately and how we all were blissfully unaware of what was about to happen. But I can tell you from my own experience that things will get better and you will find courage and comfort with those around you. You have our love and support.

[@KatieFirthTheDiaryofaGinger]

Praying for you Hazel. Even though we don't know, I hope that one day you feel ready to share as it may help you deal with it and/or help others. I don't know obviously as I don't know what happened but what I do know is you have 140'000 people including myself and you're friends and family who love you and are here to support you no matter what anyway we can. Whether it be a small comment on you're videos or photos or bigger things if we can we will- at least I know I will. Stay strong lovely xxxx

[@kita109]

Hazel, I honestly find so much inspiration in you as a person and a creator. You are so strong, kind, creative, and smart. I'm glad that you went through with making this TOTM. Like you said, there are so many moments in life where something bad happens and your life just completely changes. I look back on how different and joyful and carefree my life was and I wish I had more documentation of those times. And you have that. You'll have those beautiful moments recorded forever. Whatever you're going through, my heart is with you and I wish you all the best.

[@loujanae31]

You are such a strong human being. I truly empathize with you during this part of your life where things were unexpected and unhappy. Sometimes it's so hard to believe in myself, but when I watch your videos I see how much I believe in you and it makes me feel stronger. We can do this, Hazel. I believe in you.

[@jlilyxo]

so incredibly proud of you for uploading this and being so honest with your audience. i think that you've done exceedingly well with TOTM and persevering through whatever is thrown at you and i think that it is very important that people (esp younger people) see that the life of a youtuber isn't all sunshine and cupcakes and TOTM portrays this very well. well done for being so brilliant

[@maddycaldwell2754]

I get so excited for these time of the months! They are my favourite time of video, thank you Hazel xx

[@Bri-ox2zd]

I don't have any profound advice for you, Hazel. But I wanted you to know that you have my support. We don't know what is going on in your personal life, nor should you EVER feel pressured to tell us, it is completely your choice. I know that some people feel that they have to live up to certain expectations when they are trying to get through a hard time, emotionally. But you can work through this at your own pace, and I know that you are a brave, clever, wonderful woman and you CAN get through this!

[@elaine_1451]

Hi Hazel I'm very proud of you for sharing this video with us although you seem to be so upset. I can totally relate to you when you talked about seeing your happy self and knowing what ''she'' will go threw. In January my family and I went throw a traumatic time with illnesses and it's still not over. When I think about how I was just a few days before that I feel so sad because I was on a high and had the best time, wanted to make this year the best one ever which obviously did not work. I hope that you have amazing friends and family around that help you go throw this hard time! And don't ever feel as if you have to upload a video!

[@pintsizedprincesschesca1289]

Oh my lovely. Just remember you can't get a rainbow without the rain. And you will find happier times and you will get through this stronger. Don't ever let yourself forget how amazing, beautiful and talented you are. Your stronger than what you think hazel. ❤️

[@kateasaurus]

We all love you Hazel! All 141k, and every single one! We are all here to support you, we are here to do our best to help. You have inspired so many people, including myself. You are such a strong woman and I hope things get better for you very soon, I love you Hazel xx

[@meglaing3898]

I think it is often very difficult to comment on videos. It is hard to know what to say, to know if what you have say is, in fact, worth saying. However on this video I cannot help myself. Even if it is not profound, funny or adding to anything in a deep and meaningful way, I just wanted to say thank you. Life is frightening, it makes you cry and laugh and sometimes both at the same time. It is hard to find something which documents life as it is; sometimes slow, sometimes stressful, sometimes goddamn embarrassing, and other times a piece of poo. I simply want to thank you for documenting life. It is rarely done in a way which doesn't come across as arrogant or self absorbed. So thank you so much for reminding me that life is life that we all have to deal with it and it isn't as perfect as it can sometimes seem. Thank you, because no matter what you have to keep you chin up and keep doing what you're doing, especially when you are fucking brilliant at it. Anyways, gist of all this bullshit, is thank for being a gloriously normal person, who isn't scared of that fact xxxx

[@rockchik54]

From one stranger to another - wishing you all the goodness your way.

[@ionamccallum3035]

Sending you endless amounts of love, look after yourself and do what you need to do x

[@celimendez7620]

I'm pretty sure Present Hazel is a much stronger person than Past Hazel ever was, even if you don't feel like that. 2013 was one of the hardest years of my life, and although I felt weepy and exhausted and just wantred to crawl back into a hole, I know now that it took a lot of strength to carry on the way I did. Time does not cure all wounds, but they do make them hurt a bit less. I wish you all the best, Hazel.

[@farhanahp]

I don't usually comment on videos, or watch vlogs, but you're style and whole view on life is amazing. You've been through a lot of shit, yet you always make that hardship a lesson and better yourself. You remind me that everybody makes mistakes and goes through shit, and it's ok to admit it. I, and many many other people love you Hazel.

[@scoobydoo8080]

Hazel please just know we all love you so much and never want to see you unhappy. You're integrity and honesty is so admirable. Hang on in there Hazel, you're so much stronger than you think xxx

[@livpeelen8229]

Hey Hazel! So, this is a first, but I had to break my silence and comment. You are one of the people who inspires me the most here on KZbin, for hundreds and hundreds of reasons. As an aspiring writer and 16 year old girl who has anxiety about lots of things, I'm often really paralyzed at how daunting the world is and struggle to write because I'm so preoccupied that people won't like what I write (which is completely stupid but I digress). Having someone like you here, a brilliant, kind, capable, talented human who writes, produces, and acts in her own work is incredibly inspiring. Your TOTMs are videos I look forward to every month because I feel like I'm talking to an old friend. Please please please always remember how lovely you are, and take care of yourself. Lots of love and well wishes your way :)

[@Bobbieleigh96]

It breaks my little heart to see you so sad Hazel . You're honestly one of the most genuine people on this site and I just want you to be happy all the time which I know is an utterly unattainable goal but I can't help but wish it for you. Obviously I don't know what happened but whatever happened I hope you're okay and I hope that you have people surrounding you who love you dearly. You're an inspiration, Hazel. And I love you xx