Katya Zamolodchikova Drugs and Addiction

Katya RuPaul's Drag Race All Stars 2 and Season 7 queen
sharing her personal battle with drugs and addiction..

[@fannimoi]

katya would probably be a great teacher even though she goes on a lot of tangents. she'd be that weird teacher that everyone likes and actually listens to in class

[@laureldeforge5962]

I had a teacher like that. The only class I tried in.

[@TaylorX151]

Drag U is shook

[@freeleonardpeltier4148]

AGREED!!100%...good call....

[@kyky33569]

she could never she hates kids too much

[@uziclippe]

Agreed lol

[@yuelingui]

I'm so extremely fascinated by this man, he is so smart and I could listen to him talk forever to be honest

[@breehenry9543]

I can’t tell who I’m more attracted to katya or brian

[@jacklangston]

@@breehenry9543 both

[@kieranbrack3393]

Same

[@mistyr.9771]

Yes! I agree! And quite easy on the eyes!

[@christywoods9180]

I know same here girl!

[@karikuo6634]

Katya says yes gawd ironically so often it's not ironic anymore

[@X-Flight]

*yes gawd*

[@vaen5117]

In the challenge you made us say yes gawd but on the runway you made us say oh god

[@foxmfilms]

katya is so complex, so intelligent, so real. also shes fucking hilarious!! i love her. hope she wins all stars, she really deserves it

[@milazinnia]

oop #teamkatya

[@reggiepollock4669]

"i'll save that story for later" tells story immediately

[@irinaderevkko]

He is such a character, im in love with his brain, could listen this random thoughts for hours

[@hrtzone]

Claudia Derevko I'm in love with his Brian

[@GinMadara]

I have. Days actually. He just draws you in.

[@freeleonardpeltier4148]

Same, 100%

[@clairebd1999]

Katya talking with no one to guide her back to the subject is such a rollercoaster I love it

[@SillyStupidLilHoe]

😂😂😂

[@musics4me]

This has been more eye opening than 3 years of High School.

[@pazzywazz]

Arif it's sad when this is true

[@rage3475]

Presch

[@fuffermother]

that throaty English accent he does makes me laugh every single time. Why are you not in movies? You should be.

[@paradiseinretrograde7687]

she is in movies! she’s in hurricane bianca 2 and some foreign movie

[@montsemendoza1463]

I think it’s more of a transatlantic accent tbh that’s why it’s more funny

[@andrewb9286]

Nothing will ever scare me more about drugs than what that guy said to Katya. THAT'S the stuff they should teach in schools.

[@dragonowner2189]

time stamp?:)

[@pollianapavloski7911]

Maybe 27:00

[@isaac592]

I think when she gets nervous she tries to make a distraction or puts on a funny voice and I think that’s adorable

[@siren7362]

every time he said "margaret" i perked up because i feel like katya is addressing me personally

[@MargieLeigh3]

same 😭🥰

[@Sexycamb0y]

SAMEEEEE

[@day2334]

Seriously, relate to you on so many levels. Anxiety, addiction, shy, and just being fucking weird. Still riding the struggle buss, but this helps. Thank you Katya.

[@DougerSR]

I hear ya. Same here.

[@alejandras5586]

420th like

[@xxkarlosxxxxxx7233]

Also hope ur ok.. please don't hurt urself

[@agonernow]

seeing this 4 years later with (up to) 700 people - including me in some parts - relating feels so weird and kinda scary … crazy we all found a video of a drag queen talking about this and feel a similar way. idk where i was going but i hope everyone here is okay or getting better

[@lunachick-61388]

I can say that the way heroin was described to u was 100% accurate! The first time you feel amazing but you will never feel that way again and you will spend all of your time and money trying to. Then you get to a point where your not trying to get high anymore your just trying to stop the withdrawals. It was one of the most horrible things I have ever done to myself!

[@shelbyjohnson9790]

Her metaphor describing the feeling of temptation and addiction as the devil walking this earth - astounding. Rooting for you girl!

[@littlelune420]

glad you're still here 💓

[@mariposa6615]

Going through it now 💀😭

[@gz5405]

@@mariposa6615 💕💕

[@kellypatrick5667]

@@shelbyjohnson9790 what’s the time stamp on that?

[@Anaaewp]

I think it's actually more effective to talk about drugs more openly like this than to just say "don't do it", it's a very good video, god I love Katya. For some reason I'd love to watch a chat with her and Joe Gilgun xD I think they have similar experiences and personalities, it'd be hilarious. Proud of her for trying her best to stay sober, you go, dear ♥

[@aycanadguzel5083]

Anaaewp I hate it when people romanticise it or try to show it as the worst thing ypu can do without actually telling anything about drugs and being realistic which in both ways leads people to be intrested in drugs

[@AD-kh3wj]

Yessssss

[@dani-dd2my]

when he was describing the conversation he had about heroin my mouth dropped open from shock. it literally sounds like the devil. so so awful.

[@will2347]

I cried

[@ANDREA-kk2gx]

it is the devil

[@gazepskotzs4]

every opiate addiction is like a demon, his description was spot on

[@giraffewaffles]

It's the worst & hardest thing in the world I've ever had to deal with.

[@ashs4074]

meagsicles me too. Thank goodness I've been clean for a year. You really don't understand how terrible and life destroying it is unless you've been there. :(

[@gardengirl21]

When i quit smoking cigarettes (i smoked for 15yrs, quit 10yrs ago), giving up the nicotine wasn't near as difficult as giving up the ritual (all those 7min breaks u give yourself all day, u smoke before things, u smoke after things) no cigarette in the morning & no cigarette before going to bed. No rewarding yourself with a smoke after doing something difficult. U just don't realize how ingrained smoking is into every moment of your day. It's a huge change! I felt like i had so much extra time to fill (my house was never so clean!-lol) But, in the end I somehow pulled it off, I haven't had even 1puff in 10yrs (cause i know i would be hooked again immediately) If u really want to quit, write a letter to yourself all the reasons u want to quit & whenever u feel weak, read that letter. My number 1 reason was that i wanted to see my daughters become mothers & i wanted to see my grandchildren someday. That was a huge reason to quit. So good luck!

[@AD-kh3wj]

Im going 2 try that...sumtjings gotta give...thank u 4 shAring

[@majajelinic8293]

THIS IS SO TRUE..and i realized it just few weeks ago..hope i will quit one day and i hope soon

[@chasingpax1111]

I keep thinking why i 'miss' smoking even after 2 yrs of quitting (smoked for 14 yrs); I don't even have withdrawal symptoms anymore. Plus I already hate the smell so much. But now seeing this comment just solved the fucking mystery.

[@flomillishit8348]

don’t try to compare nicotine addiction and drug addiction.

[@RmsDome]

i love him so much it hurts

[@the7thwreck]

I want him! In a box under my bed.

[@ChampaAinjel]

Jesus God PLEASE somebody give Katya a gig reading books on tape. PLEASE.

[@Kerrycarterpink]

ChampaAinjel

[@ruthiekerber6659]

ChampaAinjel it would be 10000 hours long because of all the tangents she'd go off on, almost never actually reading the book

[@ChampaAinjel]

Glorious.

[@tmeehan3044]

fast forward 4 years and she’s a new york times best seller! 🥺🥺🥺

[@caughtup4672]

ruthie kerber yes please

[@probablyp2972]

Listening to Katya speak languages other than english has been a wonderful experience and I would like to thank her for existing and being hot.

[@Christina-jh3qp]

Why was this the most informative talk I have heard about addiction and drugs.

[@rowan4308]

She's soo amazing and it's weird but memorizing

[@kensurrency2564]

Because he’s a genius and knows how to communicate. Double-whammy gift!

[@Heyusjbdy]

Watching this in 2023, and this woman could be a motivational speaker

[@ashleighlehmann4749]

I'm so glad you're here, Katya. I'm so glad that you're alive and living and making me and many other people smile and laugh and cry. I'm so glad that you got though such a dark period in your life and you're here now being amazing. thank you for being so strong

[@freeleonardpeltier4148]

Preach, Girl.

[@deleteitbald2971]

That paper towel ad was probably the scariest thing I’ve ever listened to

[@Symposeum]

It's interesting how many people with serious anxiety end up trying drugs/alcohol as a kind of crutch.

[@laureldeforge5962]

That's exactly how I ended up a dope fiend.

[@carmenschwering7346]

I hope that as we all become more aware of things like anxiety and accomodate for it better as a society, people won't feel the need to resort to these kinds of things cause they understand themselves better

[@Mykeynikey22331]

it's the easiest and quickest way out of the trap that anxiety is. but a slippery slope for sure.

[@AD-kh3wj]

Facts

[@lunachick-61388]

Self medicating is one of the biggest reasons for addiction in my opinion!

[@DramaticDylan]

Katya is a genius. Insane, methodical, radical, and above all FACTUAL.

[@debopriya14]

I have crippling social anxiety, no self esteem, extreme self hatred, watching Katya made me feel sad in a way I have never felt before. He is so intelligent, so talented. I wish him so much success and happiness, that he is able to transcend his need to be dependent on drugs to overcome his struggles. I've never related to someone so much, yet have nothing in common with them. I think this video changed my life a little bit.. how we are born in such different worlds, have the same crippling issues,n then go on to deal with them in such different ways. I wish with all my heart that Katya lives a happy life, although in my heart, knowing this because I relate to him so much, some people can't be happy, no matter how hard they try.

[@AD-kh3wj]

Same ...

[@krissykriss328]

Hugs sweetheart 💗

[@cameronthomas5773]

Love how Katya communicates ideas mostly in movie quotes

[@nicholaslindley1982]

YOUR PAPER TOWEL COMMERCIAL JUST CAUSED ME TO SHIT MYSELF DAHLING

[@nicholaslindley1982]

Your facility with voice changing reminds me of Maria Bamford.

[@rePenia]

I can just watch her all night. lol love you, Katya

[@gazepskotzs4]

nooo, i love her but an hour was enough for now!

[@rePenia]

Patrick Hempe so go to sleep

[@gazepskotzs4]

i did, you re stil on a Katya binge?

[@usronejm]

his old man voice reminds me of Bowie.

[@tacobella99]

I was thinking this

[@strawberryguts_3270]

omg

[@oh4539]

OMG THIS IS SO TRUE. CAN HE GET ANY BETTER

[@morpheusdavorre1383]

i want to meet katya #bucketlist

[@Alien_cancerian]

Same

[@thedrunkenramblingsnorthea4201]

saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame

[@rage3475]

Me too

[@taylorwilliams5910]

I've only seen katya in terms of drag race, with tricks mattel. I've always thought she was funny. But this showed me a very intelligent, we spoken, and funny in a different way

[@demetrialexander3358]

Tracey*

[@2IGHT2EER]

Mason Alesander bruh who's Tracey

[@olwynglover8918]

@@2IGHT2EER "Tracy Martel" - An on-going joke in her fanbase. They call her Tracy Martel because a pageant dude introduced her as Tracy Martel cuz he was drunk. She found it funny and now it's all her friends call her 😂

[@2IGHT2EER]

Olwyn Glover aha I know, but i thought they just made a spelling error lol

[@supperpuppy8]

I'm just so in love with how he talks about his emotions. I feel a little less alone

[@trab49]

This needs so badly to be edited because there is a tonne of candid and meaningful insight in this video, especially towards the middle and end where he talks about meth, heroin (bone-chilling was the right word) and tobacco. And Katya, when he stops or at least suppresses the personality-splintering, is an extraordinary storyteller.

[@notthefather3919]

It was very cringey during those odd...characters..is what I will call it. Calling them personalities implies a psychological disorder. I'm hoping this is just tweaking

[@sr6571]

@@notthefather3919 im pretty sure hes just joking to maybe break up the tangents...

[@notthefather3919]

@@sr6571 aka psychosis? It was very manic.

[@sr6571]

@@notthefather3919 she has ADHD if that's relevant, I don't know 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

[@violetsparkles5453]

Keep in mind these stories are anecdotal and can be hard to talk about

[@PorcupineGirl]

EVERYTHING touched on here is absolutely "thoughtful, honest, intelligent, necessary AND kind." So worthwhile in every way. Thank you, Brian.

[@heathersvanity8648]

I love this man. For reference, I'm a recovered heroin addict. I also used stimulants. I used from 17 to 21. Now 43. It can be done. If anyone is reading this whilst still in addiction, just know it can end. PS - I only watched Requiem for a Dream ONCE. I could never again.

[@twigthewonderk1d]

watching this before i was in an active addiction vs now in active recovery are 2 different experiences lemme tell y'all i may be crying

[@bradleynoneofyourbizz5341]

I think he is so good looking!

[@leannawalczak5812]

I LOVE you Katya, you have become one of my favorite people to exist and I admire you beyond words.

[@patatesvir]

Leanna Walczak +1

[@madali3]

when he said "melissa are you a party girl?" i fucking lost it. My name is melisa. I am indeed a party girl.

[@brotha.b]

coming back to this 6 years later

[@Mdvanii]

Gosh, you are so brilliant,...I'm mesmerized. So many cultural references, very precise and thoughtful knowledge and wow, such spiritual and metaphysical knowledge. I'm really impressed. Thank you.

[@bremarierose4434]

i could listen to katya talk for hours

[@Carly-pk3xk]

Katya is like a Quentin Tarantino movie. A lot of long drawn out scenes that have no importance to the overall story, but we all love and need it ❤️

[@Ohnoitsruthio]

More like David Lynch, imo.

[@TheJamiebaby15]

Honestly I can’t imagine what this took to be so open about it makes me really love katya more it takes strength to be this vulnerable

[@Wolfstar26]

katya really had me dying laughing and listening with total fascination for an hour. she's incredible

[@rocketgreat]

I could listen to him ramble for hours

[@Dollfacedval]

Kayta is that person who when u try to kill ur self but u don't beause you realize one day you could someday somehow become this person

[@mnbvvmnbvv9548]

I know it was 2 years ago but yes

[@tinkthetank_]

I know it was 4 years ago but also yes

[@Naviigirll]

I know it was 6 years ago, but also yes!

[@saint_kitty]

thank you for uploading this! so nice to hear him speak about his experiences entirely unfiltered. my jaw dropped when he spoke about an ecstasy comedown he had from ecstasy when he had a depressive suicidal episode, because the EXACT same thing happened to me recently from ecstasy, and i didn't entirely understand that it was the ecstasy controlling my brain. thank you.

[@laurenblackley1326]

I am so fascinated by Katya. I also think that I relate to Katya so much. I’m so strange and have anxiety and depression and OCD and I relate.

[@danielle8608]

Same here friend

[@luciagreenwell5860]

same here! the combo of ocd and depression is so frustrating

[@mohamedabdi39]

I love Katya this was inspiring people need to know about people's expiernces because it can save people

[@suginami123]

Love it. Like the honesty. Directness. The fun. Quick wits. Hilarious voices. Katya is a natural. Honesty about drugs is needed.

[@LadyTofu]

Addiction is awful. Listening to him talk about the addiction to cigarettes reminds me of addiction to self-harm. It gives you nothing. I was addicted to self-harm because of severe, untreated major depressive disorder. It was a way to get endorphins. Now I'm medicated and it's under control but the addiction is still there. It sucks. :(

[@flomillishit8348]

nicotine and drug addiction or nothing a like. i wish people would ducking stop.

[@flomillishit8348]

fucking*

[@lauraseisay5521]

I've adored Katya for years, Brian is such a beautiful soul but this video makes me feel so sad, you don't need drugs to help you with life. Life needs to help you with drugs. Reach put where ever you can. You are so bright, intellectual and sparkly, I just want to hug you.

[@mickeymickey6156]

I am only just now seeing this-I know Katya had issues with drug addiction but I’ve never heard the full in depth story and the emotions behind why she got stuck on using. She’s so kooky sometimes I forget how genuine she is🩵

[@Keirab870]

im so happy that Katya is part of the 20% of ppl who have done drugs and can be open about it Katya has helped me with my addictions and i belief she could help you too

[@MellowJelly]

I love when he goes into the methadone clinic lady voice because my parents were methodone addicts as I was growing up LOL it's just hilarious to me now because Brian's impression is SO ACCURATE. And also the smokey British voice he does cracks me up. I sat through all of this and it was really worth it. He made many great points with a lot of good anecdotes

[@dani-dd2my]

thank you for uploading this

[@BoyBornToRun]

😀

[@princesskristan]

I want Katya to be my best friend

[@tywilkerson2090]

I love Brian (Katya) as a person. I can relate SO MUCH with his story. I’m a year clean!!

[@manoela3324]

congrats!!

[@MondoCruz]

God I fucking love you, Katya.

[@jonnystrange3617]

Such an insightful, witty and wise person. No holds barred and truly salt of the earth. Would give my right hand to sit down and have a chat with Brian/Katya, never listened to one person who is so self aware and so candid. Count myself as a mostly straight fella but God damn, how can you not be in love with this.

[@elliezzz7812]

Its comforting knowing someone else who'd struggled with addiction seeing the road to recovery isn't a straight line and its okay to struggle

[@alexanderleatherman]

33:23 can i hear that again? if only society as a whole could understand this and factor this into society so people with addiction would have people who might be able to stop them before they hurt themselves because most people have not an iota of knowledge about why people use, and this is a huge part of it and of course Katya says it. Queen Katya, she really is a new category: a mind queen.

[@Jwilliamc89]

That description of the first feeling of heroin (or opiates) is extremely accurate.

[@bunnixpp]

i have never watched an hour long video without skipping anything, and at the same time being wildly interested in every word that comes out of someones mouth, i love and respect katya so much🤍

[@kategmil]

"retiring to the vomitorium" hahaha. Katya could be a wonderful voice actor!

[@Ozubura]

I don't know if it's a scary thing or a good thing, but the more I see Katya, the more I can relate to her... it feels like me in 10 years...

[@elllisgrey]

he makes my heart so full, i love and care for him so so much and i'm so proud of him for making it so far.

[@misscoconutgirl]

❤❤❤❤❤ same

[@michaelbaram42]

Watched this until the end and it was incredibly informative, insightful and touching. Katya’s storytelling is so compelling it’s insane, it was fucking bone-chilling when she talked about heroin. I’m so inspired by this, it’s so important to share our stories about mental illness and addiction. Thank you for uploading this 🌹

[@charisselinnellmorton851]

Brilliant,sensitive,honest ,witty and one of the most genuine souls I have seen .

[@ptolemaee]

i literally fell asleep to the sound of katyas voice wow

[@mopbucket3000]

This was the most educational 55 min of my life.

[@MatimoreAgain]

OMG! I started my sober living journey on 2008 as well!!!

[@altheatoldme4420]

Hell yes, good for you!!! Keep on that path beautiful! I know the struggle to stay clean all too well, and it takes a truly strong individual to get back from the darkness. Way to go!

[@Thinknappythoughts]

Girl, you are EVERYTHING to me! I am so happy for you and your success and career and happy to hear you working through your demons the best way you see fit. You are real, lovely, intelligent, entertaining, talented, and beautiful inside and out. I cannot get enough of you Bella. Love everything about you! Keep shining my love, the world needs your sparkle!

[@annabowers769]

Thinknappythoughts .The You Guru love this!!! My thoughts exactly. Go Katya!!!

[@stella6051]

I haven't heard this all the way through yet and going by the thumbnail it sounds quite serious with the subject matter but I can't help but find him so funny his sense of humour is quality and being British myself I'm loving the accent he keeps doing. Such a unique person and I love it x

[@johomoswitness]

I loved and still do love requiem for a dream, it’s a haunting, harrowingly beautiful movie... Unfortunately it didn’t stop me from going down the opioid rabbit hole for a good decade. It wasn’t jerking though, my drug of choice was copious amounts of codeine and or whatever legal opioids I could get my hands on. Thankfully I’ve managed to pull myself out of that hole. Katya/Brian has been an inspiration in keeping me on the path to continued sobriety (except some weed every now and then).

[@shoosh9538]

IMAGINE having a personality this good lmao

[@patgal2359]

Jaden dior fierce DID wipe her tears thru her empty frames.

[@melissab5324]

Brian just told me everything I needed to hear about addiction right now. Bless his pure soul, and Katya's foamy ECA.

[@TheGravitonVon]

I really love your honesty, you give us all a great reason to be free of societies conceptions of who we should be.

[@carmenschwering7346]

This really hit me. We all just want to feel good, and some people have to do some pretty bad things to get there.

[@addangel]

took me a while to discover Katya, but I already love her so much

[@masmainiandevil3208]

I've struggled my whole life with addiction, at 13 I was a self harming alcoholic closeted bisexual so the struggle was real😂 and I'm 16 now and I still drink but I'm not an alcoholic I only drink when I'm at parties and I don't self harm and I'm out of that fucking closet and I love myself. I am however struggling with smoking, I have an electric cigarette so that's helping but listening to her talk about it and having someone understand the struggle, is so comforting and I love her so much

[@valleyboi12]

Its so fucking weird that I can understand you. I feel so comfortable watching you I could only imagine what a conversation would be like. You're a dope person! How are you so fucking SMART?!?!

[@rsplmr]

I really love Brian, he is such an inspiring soul. I’m so glad he is still sober 💕

[@rachaeljones4731]

I love Brian/Katya. I see a lot of my (hidden) self in him, but he seems to embrace and exude his uniqueness easily. I’m more restrained (ie insecure). I’ve also struggled from addiction and it’s a never ending struggle. She’s an incredible artist, entertainer, and person. I just adore her

[@robertochaveziii6292]

I love u you are the life the love the light. You are someone I've looked up to as a person. You are gold. I'm not a drag queen but you are fierce in my eyes. You are top 3 of all time. Bianca you know what you second..

[@AJane-rc9ex]

Be well. Brave soul.

[@geostyma]

I'm watching this 5 years later

[@Toby3610]

Just starting my recovery. Thank you for this. I was and still am shy and yeah I have a long way to go but thank you for this.

[@carlieholmes7308]

I’m working on getting sober right now. Verrrryyy hard.

[@pureicefire]

Good luck

[@venusinfurs76]

Goodluck babe 💓💖💕

[@iamsteelee24]

Damn right about Requiem for a Dream... Thanks for posting this, btw.

[@bamf27]

This is the best KZbin video I've ever fucking seen. I was either hardcore emotionally relating or laughing my ass off.

[@Heathen3than]

I am now impressed with the level of focus he has on his youtube show with Trixie after seeing this video XD

[@alternateVSNS]

here I am with my morning coffee and cigarette, half awake and Katya drops "religion is for people who are afraid of Hell, spirituality is for people who have been there" man ... yeah

[@got2bjosh]

26:55-28:06 & 28:17-28:33 What is heroin like? 53:44-54:30 THINK

[@Gee-xb7rt]

addictive drugs own you, even if its processed sugar or cow's milk.

[@gazepskotzs4]

lol, GIVE ME MY COWSMILK!

[@myfriendisaac]

The cigarette / Dr. Lecter comparison was hilariously ACCURATE. Katya's mind is everything 😂

[@Kayla9261Musicxz]

I wish I had a teacher or a mentor that was like this like the talk it's so casual and funny yet serious and eye opening. I love how he talks to his fans like were all friends and that's a community I love being in