Lennon Stella - Older Than I Am (Official Video)

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Lyrics:
My hearts seen things I wish it didn’t
Somewhere I lost some of my innocence
and I miss it
I miss it
Stay up all night thinking it’s twisted
My life’s been survival of the fittest
But I did it
I did it
I do all my own healing
Manage all of my feelings
I don’t ask for help no
Cuz I don’t need it
Cuz I don’t need it
Sometimes I wish I could do something stupid
Be kinda reckless while I can
Say I don’t give a damn
But I’m older than I am
I could get hurt and get some scars to prove it
Just say to hell with all my plans
Cuz I don’t give a damn
But I’m older than I am
Why am I always the one making decisions
How do I handle the pressure
I do my best to fake it
But honestly I hate it
I do all my own fighting
I’m who imma confide in
Maybe I need help no
I won’t deny it
I won’t deny it
Sometimes I wish I could do something stupid
Be kinda reckless while I can
Say I don’t give a damn
But I’m older than I am
I could get hurt and get some scars to prove it
Just say to hell with all my plans
Cuz I don’t give a damn
But I’m older than I am
Older than I, older than I, older than I
I’m older and I don’t give a damn
I’m older than I am
#LennonStella #ThreeTwoOne #OlderThanIAm

[@ceciliahart2180]

This song is kind of incredible

[@styledbysands]

Cecilia Hart kinda is an understatement

[@diggidy600]

to say the least. love this young ladies voice

[@ceciliahart2180]

@@styledbysands haha couldn't agree more

[@ceciliahart2180]

@@diggidy600 she is so insanely talented

[@dexterjettster8875]

It sucks

[@angelinaivanova4033]

This song goes straight to my heart. I want to be a child again, have fewer responsibilities, feel free. I never realised it then. Whoever is reading this, please know if you feel the same, I get you-you are not alone.

[@kellym6308]

🙌🏻 💕 Lennon hits straight to the heart

[@angelinaivanova4033]

@@kellym6308 I'm feeling kinda sad that I just discovered her recently. She deserves more popularity, people need to hear her messages.

[@jameswhitelaw7363]

literrly feel the same 🥺

[@kgdhkhf2554]

hkhhhskl 😍😍😍😍💚💚

[@kgdhkhf2554]

fjfh💜💜💜💜💗💗

[@scarletll]

“I do my own healing” - That hurt. I can relate.

[@pennylane957]

She has to heal a lot from Botox needles !!

[@Ethereal_Amaryllis]

@@pennylane957just stop.

[@nicholasneborovsky]

@@pennylane957stop it

[@georgen6017]

Never heard a song on this subject before, feeling like this. I was forced to grow up quickly with my parents fighting each other almost every day and I'd be in the middle separating them from killing each other. At school I played alone and was bullied constantly. My life isn't nearly as bad as many but I learnt pretty quickly life isn't anything like the Disney movies. It can be hard and lonely. I'm a young adult now and I have depression, anxiety and low self-esteem, most days I deal with it myself because that's what I've learnt is best to do. But right now I'm in therapy and hoping for a future much brighter than the past. Edit: My parents are now in the process of getting divorced. I don't speak to my father, I do speak to my mother however and because she doesn't have much money I will be helping her pay whatever she is required to for the divorce. I shouldn't be but I don't have a choice. Still trying to make my life better than the past though. Could you blame me for not wanting marriage or kids.

[@jessv3166]

im sorry for you, somehow its a relief that i know theres someone that have went through the same thing with me. i know how you feel, hope you are doing better.

[@jeaniebartlett7297]

I relate SO MUCH to this I went through the same except the bullying and contemplating if I should go see someone to help or not.

[@georgen6017]

@@jessv3166 I'm sorry I didn't get a notification of your reply otherwise I would have got back to you sooner. I understand the comfort in seeing you are not alone in your experiences, especially those which leave you scarred like ours have. I'm so sorry you've been through the same things :( I try to remind myself the trauma I went through as a child and teenager does not have to define my future. Therapy has definitely been helpful I recommend it for low self esteem. Take care of yourself 💙

[@georgen6017]

@@jeaniebartlett7297 Hi I'm so sorry you've been through some of the same stuff, it really sucks some days :( I would definitely recommend seeing someone if you think you are ready to talk about your experiences. I am currently having CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) which I really do recommend, it's been about reprogramming my brain to think differently about myself. Whether or not you decide to talk to anyone I wish you all the best 💙

[@aubreyodom468]

I didn’t have an easy life at all abandoned, raped, abused mentally and physically. The scars go deep and all started from the moment I was conceived. No child should ever be told they were only five minutes from being aborted. Life hasn’t been easy at all but the beauty in all the pain is we are able to have compassion and understanding for others in any circumstances and able to relate. I too suffered chronic major depression which led me to having an autoimmune disease now from all the trauma and stress of being in fight or flight mode for so long...and it’s hard to continue sometimes but the one thing I have on my side now as an adult is I can control the outcome of my life now and I am no longer a victim. The moment you stop seeing yourself as a victim and healing is the moment you can win and overcome the pain you have suffered... You just have to give yourself the permission to realize you did your best in the circumstances that you could at a young age and that it’s ok to heal and grow past it now and create the life you want. I went off the deep end in the beginning of my adult life drugs & alcohol to numb the pain until i realized it wasn’t what I needed. I also found God and I’ve never felt such at peace. Your never alone

[@honxyxbs8794]

i am 14 years old i have heart disease and a blood disease, beat cancer and it came back. i never talk to anyone about my illness or anything related. or how i am feeling about it. i cant go up a set of steps without being extremely short of breath cant run. cant do sports or after school activities. its very hard to make any friends with all the illnesses that i have. i am always in some sort of physical pain. people make fun of me for my illness daily. i could tell you how many times i have cried in my room alone with no one to talk to about it. because of this i am such a strong and mature person and i am so proud of myself for what i have overcome. This song means the world to me.

[@glorygrllll]

wow this comment just rocked my world, but for you to be so young and overcome cancer , i want you to know that you’re such a strong, brave, and gorgeous person. making friends might seem hard rn, but the right people will come to you at the right time and all of your crying will soon turn into joyous smiles. keep going and never give up sweet girl 🩵

[@Qaraqanish]

Please know that you’re the strongest that I have ever heard of!!! And please know that I would love so much to have such a friend like you!!!

[@ForeveraDayDreamerxo]

i'm afraid when i'm older im not going to have crazy stories to tell while i was in my 20s because im not like that. im not reckless and stupid. im older than i am. and it sucks sometimes. i want to be wild and make crazy memories and stories to tell.

[@ayshanaurein]

You still have time to make those memories 🙃🙃

[@coolbeans2345]

Then do it...? Lol dont be stupid stupid tho.

[@SiSi-oi2or]

Haha lemme tell u...my parents were pretty reckless in sum of the stuff they did when younger but I couldn’t tell u bc they dont tell us those stories 😂 and being 18 now ....i couldn’t care less, like im not complaining bc my parents didnt have reckless stories to tell me 😂 i like the memories we make

[@laurennielsen5208]

I’m just like that. I felt guilty for years for not having fun like that or being reckless like that. It’s okay not to be that way. Every memory you make is special. And they are even more special when they represent who you are, not who you wish you were. There is so much more life to live and make memories they way you want to

[@nynke5412]

the thing is, an amazing memory doesn't have to be a crazy story. if you were happy in that moment, it doesn't really matter how bizarre the story was, as long as you look back and smile and as you read through the other replies, there is 1. still time but also 2. the stories you so badly want to tell when you're older most likely are not the stories people want to hear. it's the little things that are hilarious, fun and simply good memories. try not to worry about having crazy stories and just focus on your own happiness because in every story, the best part about it is the happiness in the person's eyes when they tell it: so it doesn't matter how big or small the story is (or even if there's no story): it's about the happiness you radiate that matters. and i love u and if you ever need someone to talk to, i am here and maaaany others too:)

[@elliesomers]

older than i am hits me so different. i honestly feel like it was written about me. i’ve never related to a song more and the fact it’s yours makes it so much more special. i adore you lennon. thank you for this album. it was so needed.

[@mariahcoffey4916]

love you ellieeee

[@georginaprisadnikova9650]

Me too

[@lilyfisher8995]

ellie somers EXACTLY.

[@maxd.1730]

ellie somers unrelated but like a month ago I had the exact same profile pic ☺️

[@jessicapoulin2592]

I feel exactly the same thing.

[@marianaperalta5548]

I had never heard of her but it seems that this was fated. I grew up the youngest of 3 kids, but arrived 15 years after them. I came when the riches where failing, my brothers weren’t home and I was the one who calmed my parents when they fought, protected my mom, was bullied and sexually assaulted at 13, sticked through my dads life threatening tumor and now I gave up university to be with my mom who has cancer... at 19, I’m older than I am and I’m so jealous of the people who are free and reckless

[@abbeyz4920]

Mariana Peralta you are a fighter and a gift to everyone who loves you. Stay strong and keep your chin up, because this internet stranger thinks you’re wonderful ❤️

[@jaylabby105]

Wow, you are incredible! You will definitely inspire ppl with your story some day! ❤️❤️❤️ God Bless!

[@marianaperalta5548]

Thank you, I really really craved to hearing that. God bless you!

[@jaylabby105]

Mariana Peralta ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@oliviakate4652]

Mariana Peralta 💕💕💕

[@lucyjeal1]

i feel like this is one of those songs that everyone can relate to... the pain over losing your innocence and a piece of yourself but trying to pretend like you're ok so you can be strong for the people around you. the desire to be reckless while you're still young and not wanting to miss out on life...

[@laviedeniny]

I feel you :)

[@Casan1984]

yeah, doesn't matter when in life, anytime you're fighting for a better change over and over again, you can get that feeling, the strength is not to give in to being "stupid" as ppl been saying in the comments, but keep believing of a more settled situation, try to be positive and make choices that take care of yourself, "doing your own healing" as she sings, trying to enjoy those little things, as another said in the thread, if you radiate, doesn't matter what you did, and the adventures to tell are often more fun like the best word combinations in scrabble or an amzing view in your local area, a beautiful flower by the asphalt or the greatest smile from a stranger on the train. That is my experience.

[@AnotherWittyUsername.]

Having a full time job, sometimes more than 80 hours a week, day or night. Just be there when you're told to and make sure you know all your lines. She and her kid sister were the primary breadwinners. She couldn't just be a teenager and go hang out with friends, because it wasn't safe to do so unless she brought a couple grown men with her. I wouldn't be surprised if they had to deal with more than one predator, either while being dragged around on tour by their parents, or while they were working. I don't envy either one of them their childhoods.

[@pennylane957]

Omg her face is messed up eh lol what insecurity does to u

[@Qwerty-ui6do]

"I don't ask for help no. 'Cuz I don't need it." Kinda hit my soul.

[@Sarahaji3]

“My life’s been survival of the fittest” that hit hard

[@elliebelleee]

but you're doing it ❤

[@jazzmine630]

@Penny Lane!! How do you know? And that's rude!!

[@jazzmine630]

@Penny Lane!! And instead of replying to people comments with hate, and bashing Lennon Stella's music, go do something useful w your life, and stop being jealous of Lennon's success. Give your life to Chirst, he knows your heart, you won't be jealous of people OR have hate in your heart. YOU CAN HAVE PEACE AND GO TO HEAVEN FOR ETERNITY NOT HELL!!!!

[@jazzmine630]

@Penny Lane!! What are you even talking about?

[@LayneFable]

you are incredible

[@LayneFable]

Penny Lane!! Ahaha what

[@littleboy3429]

@@LayneFable 🥴

[@gtoastc.321]

You are as well!

[@rehanperera9032]

L00:21 F00:21

[@keairarobinson5054]

This song feels like my personal diary entry. You’re exquisite

[@noral8788]

this film clip looks like Sabrina carpenters Exhale

[@lalise_jensoo1358]

This song is so touching 🥺.. as expected, Kim Winter’s taste in music ❤️‍🔥❄️ Message to kim minjeong if she’s here: Please be happy and just be yourself. We’ve got your back! 💛⭐️

[@yoonlim9161]

We love you Winter😀

[@user-uy6rs1ip8k]

Amazing voice!!!!

[@ariannac.berroauribe5995]

This is a perfect song for those who had to take some responsibilities early in life instead of being real children and teenagers… just hit me hard and I can’t stop listening …😢

[@Justin-ke2hg]

I would be one of those people had my first child at the age of 15 I had to quit school get a full time job I don't know what teenage life was like this song really hits home now I'm 41 three kids later that are all grown up

[@OwainDavies98]

the whole album is a masterpiece & this song is the cherry on top

[@kaykay8593]

Penny Lane! 🥱🥱🥱🥱🥱

[@davianstewart2539]

What's the name of the album

[@BrandonAllen602]

Davian Stewart three. Two. One.

[@Itsbianca94]

“I do my own healing” Me to myself: DONT CRY DONT CRY DONT CRY D- Crap.

[@esotericbliss5887]

Girl same here. Sometimes you need to give yourself advice and remind yourself that you're amazing because no ones going ti

[@Crystaaal_pineda]

Literally me all day with this song

[@noral8788]

the film clip looks Sabrina carpenters Exhale

[@virginievandyck4841]

Penny Lane! GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL

[@anjelarosado7375]

I couldn't hold that shittt in lmao

[@annrideofficial]

This song broke me and healed me, both at the same time. THE TALENT.

[@GabrielaParedes]

i agree! I just wrote an original song, would love it if you could check it out:)

[@denisse4469]

“My hearts seen things, I wish it didn’t”,, describes so much.

[@selenateyes7889]

"I do my best to fake it , but honestly I hate it" wow, the story of my life... The whole song hits hard

[@RossWalkerSmith]

just wait til we get to see this live - our tears our going to flood the ROOM.

[@ose5226]

If you're an older sibling or the first born child of your parents, this song hits different ❤️ I'm crying

[@saraogden1229]

I'm the eldest of 3 girls

[@64R1M]

i'm a eldest sister of 4 sisters

[@noral8788]

this film clip looks like Sabrina carpenters Exhale

[@surrrrferrr1000]

And from a single parent household...

[@hayahabal2042]

@@surrrrferrr1000 yes!

[@Sonnyangels]

You have one of the sweetest, most empathetic souls I have ever come across. I have been following you for years and you are like a chameleon with the changes of hair colour, clothes, makeup etc (and can pull of anything may I add) but your heart, fighting spirit and light never changes. You are continuously inspiring and uplifting to everyone around you and this song is a beautiful piece of hope for anyone out in the world that feels the same way you do. Little Lennon would look at big Lennon and say I want to grow up to be like her one day. 🧡

[@letUSbeFOREVER]

Little orange butterflies, everywhere this comment is perfect. Really.

[@thehadassahh]

This is so beautiful. I do hope little me would want to grow up to be older me.

[@noral8788]

do you know Bad was based on the fact she dated someones else's boyfriend. Check it out on Zac Sang show

[@vivsgm7538]

I really hope she gets to read your comment. Thanks for putting in those resonating words.

[@Doni-Brasco.]

I come here after winter aespa recommended this song on bubble. Nice song 💖 Remind me to childhood memories. Thank's.

[@j.632]

Thank you for the song recommendation, Kim Minjeong. Now that I'm on my early 20's, this song made me think of my childhood memories. I just took a trip down memory lane. I'm always here, Minjeong-ie. I appreciate you. 💕

[@anthonynegrete1857]

I love the fact she made a song to express her maturity. It shows such an incredible depth of herself and really shows her as an artists. All of her songs are absolutely beautiful and full of unique concepts and sounds. Lyrically as well, she's absolute star stunning.

[@LaurenJankowski]

Anthony Negrete She didn’t write this one but I agree!

[@evelinalaurent1463]

Lauren Jankowski It’s so personal I really thought she wrote it! but her voice makes it super special

[@kaykay8593]

Penny Lane! Time for your daily poop 💩😈

[@noral8788]

this film clip looks like Sabrina Carpenters Exhale

[@virginievandyck4841]

Penny Lane! Wow you’re so good in describing yourself!

[@sarabobo2863]

Lennon talking about the song to Apple music: "I’ve never felt more connected to a song, and it’s so weird because I didn’t write it. It’s one of those things where I feel like it’s so close to me that I don’t even know that I would have been able to write it. When I heard this song for the first time, I was literally sobbing uncontrollably, and I was very quick to put my vocal on it and dive in and make it feel even more like myself."

[@ForeverrCheer]

This makes a little more sense lol. When I was on Apple Music and I saw she didn't write anything on it I was like ???? Very confused because she said this song meant so much to her. Genuinely curious about her life story now, from one broken kid to another lol

[@Julia-uh7qj]

I want to meet the person who actually wrote it. We are "kindred spirits" and some might say.

[@hannahjoycheng]

just looked it up on spotify, it says it's written by emily weisband, skyler stonestreet, bejamin berger, ryan mcmahon, and ryan rabin. Kindred spirits all of us!

[@pennylane957]

I DONT GIVE A DAM MY LIPS ARE BIGGER THAN I AM

[@kaybrojohn]

“My heart has seen things that I wish it didn’t. Somewhere I lost some of my innocence and I miss it. Stay up all night thinking it’s twisted, My life has been the survival of the fittest but I did it. I did it.” Wow. I’m so glad I get to exist in the same time as this beautiful human. Her mind is so wild and extraordinary. I can’t tell you how much this song means to me.

[@stephanieallen748]

I can relate

[@ItStartsWithL]

💚🌿✨

[@hajuato8319]

I can't believe Winter listens to this song. It was once my fav and I did save it in my old mobile phone

[@Mari_O_93]

“I do my own healing” that line ached ..... wow what a wonderful song

[@smrittisridhar5439]

I can't get over how deep yet innocent this is.

[@amypark4182]

I've searched my whole life for a song that described my life, how I've felt, growing up quick with my mum's disability and losing my dad last month out of nowhere it feels like I'm about 30 at the age of 16, taking on responsibilities and seeing things nobody at my age has gone through and this song describes how I feel exactly. All my friends out doing stupid things but I've never joined in because I've always been too mature to be a kid and to be reckless because I'm just older than I am. Thank you Lennon for gifting us this beautiful gift of a song. Xx

[@KeliaChien]

Amy Park so sorry for your loss keep your head up

[@sharonbrown6327]

?

[@londonhasfallen7786]

Not comparing, I just think it is cool to see the amount of people in such binds that only I felt I was in. I am not happy that so many have had such sorrow at a young age, but it feels nice to not be alone. My parents are amazing parents, but my mom is on heavy medication to cope with her nightmares of her mother’s murder that happened in 2019 by her stepdad, a man that I did not enjoy the company of, but holds so many memories in my childhood that is hard to destroy. I have been a co-parent to my special needs nephew since I was 15, I gave up school to travel to Pittsburgh during his liver-kidney transplant last March. My sister has dealt with many losses and mental health issues, and I have had to protect her in times she went manic and even set my hair on fire. I just turned 22 last month. It is not a traditional struggle, it is hard to explain to many because on the outside, our family appears fine, but there is always a thin wall between someone crying and on the verge of leaving. I hate being on the sidelines of my own life, but this song so accurately reflects that feeling that I don’t see too many young people portray.

[@amypark4182]

@@londonhasfallen7786 Your an amazingly strong and incredible woman! I’m so sorry for everything that had hurt you throughout your life but it shows how incredibly strong and resilient you are! I hope peace will come and someday you’ll get to step back into control of your life! ❤️

[@amberly3562]

💗💗💗💗

[@NynyDaravy]

“what’s your name?” “hmm nennon” gets me every time

[@amygreene1991]

Same 😍

[@lafimmashaynes3903]

Me

[@oliviawieber1317]

0:52

[@PenaltyKillah]

Ah, who could forget the songwriting duo of Nennon/Manarney from The Nenoles?

[@emil_yo]

Awww this song 🥺 thank you our princess Winter for recommending to us

[@annaunicorn7623]

I really feel this song. I feel like I'm constantly grieving my younger self and the way things used to make me feel. I feel like everyone is moving on while I'm stuck in the past wishing I could be my younger self back before my life fell apart, and I lost literally everyone in my family except my mom due to tragic events in my life. It's like I woke up one day and everyone but me had moved on. Due to losing all of my family, I had to really step up and become an adult at age 12/13. I am so jealous of kids my age whose biggest worry is homework and I grieve the fact that I used to feel the same way. I'm trying to move on as its been 4 years since everything happened but I feel like I'm stuck in a loop. I want to be able to enjoy my youth and do normal teenage things like go to parties and date but I hold myself back for a past I no longer have and will never have again. It's nice to see other people feel the same way because I feel so alone in this.

[@SecretPlacePsalm91]

AnnaUnicorn oh sweet AnnaUnicorn... my heart goes out to you and your not alone.... your not. I too had a rough childhood... I still have moments of heartache, but it gets better... promise! I will pray for your beautiful soul and heart. 💙🦋💙

[@sharonbrown6327]

:-(

[@sharonbrown6327]

@@SecretPlacePsalm91 :-(

[@maryruiz817]

you are not alone

[@destinyfoster6234]

@@SecretPlacePsalm91 Hello how are you doing?

[@naomitalks555]

i didn’t write this song. but it sure as hell feels like i did.

[@lmao6919]

Same mate. (:

[@pennylane957]

She didn’t write shit u know that eh

[@merfairy524]

@Penny Lane!! Will u fuck off for once in your damn pitiful life?! In case you didn’t know, Lennon contributed in writing every song on the album except this one, but she felt extremely connected to this song. These are her words: “I've never felt more connected to a song, and it's so weird because I didn't write it. It's one of those things where I feel like it's so close to me that I don't even know that I would have been able to write it. When I heard this song for the first time, I was literally sobbing uncontrollably, and I was very quick to put my vocal on it and dive in and make it feel even more like myself.” I’d like to see u fucking write a good song all by yourself. U comment on every single video bc u clearly have no purpose in ur life but to hate on Lennon. That’s truly disgraceful and sad. Ur clearly extremely jealous of her. Nobody would go through the trouble of commenting hate on every single video of someone unless they are jealous, which u clearly. Please find something else better to do with the unbelievable amount of time u seem to have on ur hands.

[@pennylane957]

@@merfairy524 lol awwww did she get to write the word “ the” in a sentence that someone else wrote lol fuckin joke she is

[@irisoniris]

@@pennylane957 are you not done yet ?

[@peppideutsch7730]

Oh lennon sweet Lennon you have outdone yourself. This song especially is just so raw and genuine. You’re such and amazing talented beautiful souls Lennon. You amaze me always

[@AndreaNastri]

Peppi Deutsch AGREEEEEED!!

[@LaurenJankowski]

She didn’t write it but I agree!

[@kaykay8593]

Penny Lane! So you must be a fake troll 🥱🥱

[@virginievandyck4841]

Penny Lane! There you go again... so good at describing yourself! It’s unbelievable

[@haddynough8402]

My heart's seen things I wish it didn't Somewhere I lost some of my innocence And I miss it I miss it Stay up all night thinking it's twisted My life's been survival of the fittest But I did it I did it I do all my own healing Manage all of my feelings I don't ask for help, no 'Cause I don't need it 'Cause I don't need it Sometimes I wish I could do something stupid Be kinda reckless while I can Say I don't give a damn But I'm older than I am I could get hurt and get some scars to prove it Just say to hell with all my plans 'Cause I don't give a damn But I'm older than I am Why am I always the one making decisions? How do I handle the pressure? I do my best to fake it But honestly I hate it I do all my own fighting I'm who I'ma confide in Maybe I need help, no I won't deny it I won't deny it Sometimes I wish I could do something stupid Be kinda reckless while I can Say I don't give a damn But I'm older than I am I could get hurt and get some scars to prove it Just say to hell with all my plans 'Cause I don't give a damn But I'm older than I am Older than I, older than I, older than I I'm older and I don't give a damn I'm older than I am

[@mirimalloy2758]

BLESS YOU ! 🙏❤

[@lucianaalves985]

booooom mano kakaka

[@moondoor6248]

Im here cz winter aespa. Now,i really love this song and get strong cz this song!!

[@xosuho9701]

i'm here bcs winter of aespa. such a great song,💜

[@claaireh]

the way you incorporated the home movies really made my heart melt. thank you for creating this beautiful masterpiece.

[@MelissaNgai]

Lennon really knows how to tug at literally everyone's heartstrings

[@kristhomas8295]

The entire album has relatable tracks, this one might just be the most relatable. The emotion she put into this track is what made it my favorite, gave me chills. She is incredibly talented.

[@cassidypaige6078]

Just ran into this song and wow… I couldn’t relate more. Emotionally abused by my father and he then died when I was 11. My mom wasn’t used to having us full time which was an adjustment for her. My stepdad then died at his birthday party 8 months later on a snowmobile 5 minutes after I had gotten off . My mom became suicidal and became a alcoholic. We had a horrible relationship. I was suicidal and I’m now at 24, I’m trying to deal with everything I ignored as a child. You’re a blessing for giving the world something to not feel so alone. You are amazing

[@executiveexhalecoaching]

This one hit hard.

[@jackieburke1673]

This song is so beautiful and the lyrics are simply magical!

[@GabrielaParedes]

i agree! I just wrote an original song, would love it if you could check it out:)

[@JanieMcAvoy]

Finally a song that hits what I’ve felt my whole life. You are incredible.

[@nangdaiaka9539]

"I do all my own healings Manage all of my own feelings " is so relatable.💓

[@shiwhit]

this made me cry just now. today I was thinking about how sometimes it's impossible to truly appreciate a moment until you are removed from it and have the opportunity to look back. in doing so we gain the insight and gratefulness that we wish we could bask in to reach contentment at that point in our lives at the expense of never being able to go back to that point in time to achieve that happiness we finally realized we had. a paradox really.

[@sarahbrown1710]

When I was 9 my parents gave up on being parents to me and and my two younger siblings who were six and three at the time. I’m fourteen now and exhausted. I raised myself while raising my siblings. I never know if what I’m doing is right or wrong, parenting is SO hard and idk what I’m doing anymore. I’ve watched my friends grow and do stupid things, meanwhile I’m teaching my siblings to read. I love this song

[@sofiajearally9710]

Sending a lot of love and strength your way ❤

[@sarahbrown1710]

@@sofiajearally9710 , thanks! I'm gonna need it I think lol

[@katrinamendoza4467]

I know it is really difficult to be in this situation, but I am proud of you for being so strong💛 I hope you get repaid in great measure for your massive sacrifices

[@tizianawiedner4245]

No way.. praying for you. Gods Love is all you need

[@JuliaAlexa]

This song makes me feel nostalgic for things I've never felt

[@adriana941]

Seeing lennon grow into a precious woman is so cute. I’m so proud of her !

[@philien1251]

This song speaks for me, I hate how responsible I am sometimes. Growing up in a poor family and seeing my mom working hard for our family makes me grow older than I am (mentally and emotionally) that keeps me responsible but whenever mom tells me of her youth I cannot help but envy her, she is way cooler than I am when she was my age. But now that my parents are growing older, I have to work hard just so I can provide for my family, to make my parents dream come true, to give my younger brother a decent lifestyle.

[@presleydelacruz7837]

never ever heard a song that has described my whole life , and it kinda hurts

[@destinyfoster6234]

Hello How are you doing?

[@raynefrost9084]

I’ve never listened to this artist before. A few weeks ago this song popped up in one of my Spotify playlists. I can’t even express how much this song currently means to me. Cried actual tears the first time I heard it. I have genuinely never related to a song more, and I just wanted to thank this artist and her beautiful voice for bringing it into this world, and my life.

[@raynefrost9084]

Sh-should I check out her channel more? Is this... is this a comment that I should’ve researched before posting?

[@raynefrost9084]

Oh... oh no. Care to explain for me?

[@rsuda2499]

@@raynefrost9084 just ignore them, they're trolling. she's an artist, and an amazing one at that.

[@raynefrost9084]

r suda thanks. I’m an idiot. This is why I don’t go outside.

[@yourguitarsage]

Amazing!!!!

[@sarahbenedict137]

I honestly feel like this is the song I’ve been waiting my entire life for. Granted I’m only 18, but I grew up with a single mom and I had to grow up a helluva lot faster than the other kids around me. This song just hits man. Thank you. Just thank you for this amazing song.

[@KeliaChien]

Sarah Benedict I relate so hard my dad was a single parent and it’s so different how we see the world

[@korosekills]

I cried riding my bike at night listening to this song. Thinking how all the experiences in life slowly erode your innocence, be it good or bad.

[@marccolwell4015]

@lennonstella My husband died late 2020, he was only 28. Sometimes I will take long drives and I will listen to your music. I kind of dive into memories that I shared with him, but I'm more vulnerable than I put out into the world. Each one of your songs has a lyric or more that ties into my life and it hurts but I'm glad I can feel something. Something to remind me that at one point what I had was real.

[@Lily_Beam31]

Why you have to make me cry like that 😭😭😭 this song is everything !!!

[@claudiagrace2578]

That did something to me, my heart is in pieces but i feel free. When someone expresses your exact emotions like that😭❤️

[@windsorshi642]

[Verse 1] My heart's seen things I wish it didn't Somewhere, I lost some of my innocence And I miss it I miss it Stay up all night thinking it's twisted My life's been survival of the fittest But I did it I did it [Pre-Chorus] I do all my own healing Manage all in my feelings I don't ask for help, no 'Cause I don't need it, 'cause I don't need it [Chorus] Sometimes, I wish I could do something stupid Be kinda reckless while I can Say I don't give a damn But I'm older than I am I could get hurt and get some scars to prove it Just say to hell with all my plans 'Cause I don't give a damn But I'm older than I am [Verse 2] Why am I always the one making decisions? How do I handle the pressure? I do my best to fake it (Mmm) But honestly, I hate it (Mmm) [Pre-Chorus] Oh, I do all my own fighting I'm who I'ma confide in Maybe I need help, no I won't deny it, I won't deny it [Chorus] Sometimes, I wish I could do something stupid Be kinda reckless while I can Say I don't give a damn But I'm older than I am I could get hurt and get some scars to prove it Just say to hell with all my plans 'Cause I don't give a damn But I'm older than I am [Outro] Older than I, older than I, older than I I'm older and I don't give a damn I'm older than I am

[@hannahhutchinson5317]

Thank you!

[@jstrom.ph5]

The song speaks so strongly to most of us who, at a young age, had to make adult decisions. We put so much pressure on ourselves and fear failure so much it's so easy to cultivate self-hate. However, I`ve come to realize that I'm actually glad that I am who I am because I'm graduating next year with no debt/student loans, I'm working for a company I see myself working with for many years, and I'm on the road to self-discovery. I see myself as someone who Is strong enough to face the challenges in life and walk away from things I know I don`t deserve. I`ve accepted that there will always be a part of me that would reminiscence the past, but It's no longer something I hate myself for or regret greatly because those decisions brought me to where I am now.

[@kristinmattia3533]

Nothing will explain how I feel like this song

[@HannahDodsworth]

She's from my home town, never thought someone so talented would come outta the Shwa. Makes me proud.

[@lauriejo5810]

She has such a beautiful voice.

[@kelliemain3466]

Wow that hit me real deep. Ever since the start of high school, to other people/peers I have always been thought I was older than I was, because I was a good girl, followed the rules and didn't do anything risky. Now that I am older, and I do want to be more free spirited and take risks, people that I love and care about, they question or surprised when I do. Love this song Lennon!!! And I love that I discovered you a few years back. Fellow Canadain strong Female. 🇨🇦

[@grantertel607]

Kellie Main phantom

[@yvaine_peace]

Never been touched like this before ❤️

[@taynicole5984]

I’m in love with this song and Lennon. 😭 this song brings the emotional turmoil some days, and the peace other days. I hope she knows she’s touched everyone in a way that can’t be explained

[@ngoctruong7874]

Absolutely in love with the whole album

[@MusicDevour]

This song is so innocent and pure yet so mature, incredible.

[@Live4god44]

Yes i had a baby at 17 i feel like 50 in a 26 year body cuz i gave those years up for the best thing in my life my children they are the best thing to happen to me

[@LB-ih7hn]

Talented queen.

[@Rebecca-asdf]

this song is the anthem for firstborn/ oldest children & those who had to look after their siblings

[@foreveryogi1026]

I am the youngest on my fam but I feel like i am the one who's carrying all the liabilities. :((

[@User38897]

I've never felt a deeper connection to a song. Every line hit at a personal place in me. Truly incredible artistry

[@GabrielaParedes]

i agree! I just wrote an original song, would love it if you could check it out:)

[@LB-ih7hn]

So underrated. This is an incredible song and Lennon’s vocal are just beautiful.

[@eviecope8063]

this whole album is a masterpiece

[@stephaniecrooks771]

This song hit all the heartstrings 😢❤

[@idkwtd5565]

Thank you winter for recommending this song ♡ checking out other lennon songs :)

[@christianbrylle8389]

She's one of the greatest artists we totally adore, and big thanks to Emily Weisband, one of the many great songwriters ever, for writing this beautiful track. ❤️👌

[@thyveggo]

aespa’s WINTER brings me here…. Minjeong ah, we MYs alway love you, hope u know that ⭐️ 💙

[@katekincaid]

I seriously cried. This is exactly how I've felt most of my life.

[@jkka1477]

Kate Williams Same

[@westmezzanine4321]

All of these months after I first found this song, it still hurts, just because I relate way too much. And I worry I won’t ever not. But this time it feels a little more like a warm hug at least than just dread. It’s comforting to listen to this and read the comment section to know I’m not alone in feeling this way. Thank you Lennon. I never have and likely never will find another song that relates so closely to exactly how I feel about my life. And God if “I do all my own healing, manage all of my feelings, I don’t ask for help” hasn’t been resonating with me recently

[@ameerasyafiqah2733]

MJ from ASTRO recommended this song. Everything in this song is beautiful

[@shashacohe1153]

Yes, but the letter

[@spiritkid9435]

omg when i love mj with my whole heart but haven't been keeping up with astro as much ;(

[@035velzi9]

Alright💜Mj

[@vendaintan5998]

Thank you MJ (Astro). I know this beautiful song bcoz of you. I need this song right now

[@rayna463]

I feel this way. I’m always thinking about the future and being prepared and working hard now so things will be fun and easier later. But I always wonder.. what if later never comes? We aren’t guaranteed tomorrow. I guess life is about finding the balance between living in the moment but also setting yourself up for future success. Idk. Sometimes I wish I was someone else, someone who didn’t care. Because it seems like even the people who are reckless now make it out okay in the end. Idk.

[@destinyfoster6234]

Hello How are you doing?

[@halimt.d4976]

I can feel this lyric, so soothing and make me wanna cry. This is the great song. I love it. Thank you YoonA who recommed this song

[@greene8595]

This song is the definition of who I think I am.

[@ImanuelImanuel-r1r]

❤❤❤❤❤ i still don't know why this didn't blow up

[@abbywolf9701]

I’m actually sobbing. This is hands down the best song I’ve ever heard, no exaggeration

[@HaleiwaGirl808]

This song makes me bawl every time cause I feel it in my soul ❤️

[@mnosh.7ren270]

From our princess Winter

[@enriquecastela]

thanks lana for recommend me this pretty song ❤️

[@jamaicagochangco5492]

This sobg is so relatable especially the " I do my own healing" because i have no one to talk about what i felt all this time

[@lizdan4970]

This is so deep and beautiful. Downloaded your album a few hours ago. You're one of the few artists I don't regret finding. You're just amazing. Love you Lennon.

[@paulapeter2637]

How can you download an album because I keep trying but it's not downloading

[@GabrielaParedes]

i agree! I just wrote an original song, would love it if you could check it out:)

[@jenshinas]

Wow why did this make me cry I relate to this song so much, I love her so much! She really knows how to write a song. This words are everything.

[@westmezzanine4321]

This song crushes my heart. I feel similar in so many ways to the message of this song. I feel like I should be doing more with my life. This is supposed to be the last good time of my life before I come a full grown adult with responsibilities living alone. But what am I doing? Nothing. I sometimes wish I could do something stupid and just be reckless and you know what, it’ll be worth it because I’d feel like I was doing something important to me and making something of myself. It doesn’t matter what the consequences are. But I don’t, because I know I shouldn’t. But I also don’t like to talk about it or ask any of my family to try to help me. So I just get stuck in this middle ground. I feel like I shouldn’t need help. Because I’m older than I am.

[@dessyrahmaheriya9483]

Her word is my forever hidden word in my entire life

[@who4885]

i don't understand how i have never heard of this queen before today

[@binbinbox02]

This song is so touching from lysn