Lessons From The Unwell

[@Sournale]

This video came out 4 months before Emesis Blue. That would of been such great footage to use for the medic video, oh well :/

[@Scullex]

Shame. well it might be good to check it out to get more of what you're saying, then.

[@berthamcdurtha8554]

I wish you would include Dmitri Rascalov too, hes the main antagonist from GTA IV and he would be a cool character for this vid

[@Adraas410]

Oof lol

[@vitonamous]

Emisis yellow

[@DelsinRoweInfamous]

what was the music during the chapter 1 title card?

[@kuleneko]

in the words of vince gilligan “a character doesn’t have to do good things for you to like them, you just have to understand why they do what they do.”

[@engineergaming9101]

Bravo Vince!

[@paperclip6377]

Finger

[@iok21a]

kid named medic

[@sendersnivy6698]

​@@iok21a snipuh

[@ScootyPuffJrSux]

This quote symbolizes how Walter has committed crimes, bravo Vince!

[@AVeryNervousWreck]

Father Grigori was so insane that he was put under the "animals" tab in gmod

[@cletusburgerboy9143]

Top kek

[@eltote1414]

I remember seeing your comment a year ago and what you said didn't make sense to me

[@eltote1414]

but I downloaded Gmod a month ago and now it makes me laugh to understand your joke

[@danieldubrovin8813]

OK, and? So are furry's and they're both mentally sick

[@eltote1414]

@@danieldubrovin8813 I feel like u took this comment in some way personal

[@Blackmorerainbowcatch]

The comics humanize medic a lot more, same with demo, he's probably the sanest out of all the classes when he's not drunk, father grigori is honestly a insane hero rather than a villain, he just wants to put the people who used to be his friends out of their misery,I would have liked you to feature niko, he's a pretty good character with a lot of backstory, I loved his relationship with his mother even tho she just had two emails in the whole game

[@WhoAmIHmmm]

Did you forgot about sniper? He's perhaps even more sane than demoman considering that he's just a professional assassin as shown in his presentation video

[@imperialscouttrooper1083]

@@WhoAmIHmmm yeah, "professional" Throws piss at people Calls it a martial art "GOTCHA, ya bomb-chuckin waste a' good scotch!" Schadenfreude "YOU BIG-HEAD WANKERS!" Literally uses a medieval bow

[@WhoAmIHmmm]

@@imperialscouttrooper1083 we can't confirm of it is canon that he actually uses a bow lorewise

[@WhoAmIHmmm]

@@imperialscouttrooper1083 do you know what's the difference between a assasin and a crazy gunman? One is a professional and the other one is a mental sickness!

[@unoriginalperson72]

@@imperialscouttrooper1083 if you can throw burning bottles of acid at people you can throw urine

[@maybelinefox3878]

The thing about Medic is everyone knows he's crazy, but he's got this charm about him that just makes that insanity seem more laughable than problematic. Psychopaths are often quite charming, to the point where even if it seems there's something off about them, people around them will write off the weird vibes because they're just so cool. Medic can be very suave and sophisticated, which makes one forget quite quickly and easily that he enjoys pain and suffering in his down time, and causing chaos and destruction at work. He's the perfect portrayal of a comedic, humanized psychopath, because while it's obvious he's a character and not a real person due to the silly way he's portrayed, he also works on the audience the same way a real-world psychopath works on the people around them: by being a total gentleman who's definitely incapable of hurting anyone because he's a total nerd and/or just so nice and eloquent, therefore putting himself in a position where everyone would be surprised when his true self comes out. And despite the fact the entire fandom is 100% aware he's crazy, this psychotic charm and silly portrayal keeps them from seeing just HOW crazy he actually is.

[@onion8686]

Long comment ill wait for it to go to the top

[@gooblymcfarts]

Reasons why I love this character, it's the juxtaposition of his nerd/ the fact he's always majority of the time and can be down right crazy.

[@viimayhem_]

I LOVE MEDIC

[@theminuskai7453]

I AM THE ANGRY BIRD GOD OF THE BADLANDS, FEAR ME!!!

[@eatpant4ever]

@@viimayhem_ Third time we meet. Hello. 😂

[@yesseru]

The thing about Grigori is, those zombies aren't "dead" until you kill them as proven by the sounds they make when on fire. So they are just still living people who have been brainjacked by the headcrabs, and are in extreme pain.

[@leonardo9259]

Exactly, that’s why i dont understand why mourning and giving perpetual rest to the people he led is seen as “crazy” in the video when the game makes it clear they’re still alive with their soul probably still with them

[@beastinxanalt]

​@@leonardo9259 the problem is that they still feel that pain, and fire's one of the most painful ways to die, thus making him just a tad bit crazy

[@zan821]

@@beastinxanalt i use those barrels with the fire in it and launch them at the zombies to hear them scream, those are real people meaning im a psychopath????

[@Mentelgen-1337]

@@zan821well in one way or another. No! You didn’t knew it before. Now you know and feel bad but if you don’t do it again you shouldn’t be accounted as a psychopath… but then again It’s a video game.

[@sgtjerry2001]

​@@zan82199% sure when you reverse the audio of their screams you can hear what they are saying

[@testiclegaming1250]

"Lessons from the unwell" My brother in christ, that is Father Grigori He is the most mentally stable man alive

[@cornishpasty7853]

Just because his bones are parched like ash does not he can't tend to his unruly flock

[@dutchodst6653]

Rip Jim French, a legendary voice actor

[@Mister_Hyphen]

@@dutchodst6653 Wait, the voice actor for Grigori is dead?

[@GoldenOfHue]

And Collette Green is the most stable woman alive, in Half-life:Decay while during her rampages, she laughs and we can compare with Father Grigori, but she is in a worst state, her Friend Gina Cross died, and The HEV's has Gina's voice and now Collette is in the gman's freezer listening her's dead friend voice forever. And yes i stole that line from Richter Overtime video.

[@normienormie9425]

@@Mister_Hyphen Yeah died in 2017 Also voiced Bill in L4d2.

[@robinfalkner-wedge824]

Something to remember with the medic and people seeing him as charismatic is that it's not just people forgetting he's insane. Some insane people can have a lot of charisma at times, and medic is one of them. His actions might be horrific but he's not just going to go and tell you that you're a guinea pig for his crazy baboon heart experiments. No, he'll tell you jokes and potentially even become friends with you, then in secret he'll surgically remove your soul without any care for the potential harm that could do because he just cares about the experiments more.

[@medicgaming9117]

Definition of a psycopath

[@burnflaze2346]

Patrick Bateman is another example of a charismatic but insane person.

[@justtherabbithole2577]

Adolf Hitler rose to power because of his charisma, he rallied a coup to try and take the capital of Germany, after that failed he was released from prison because of "good behaviour" he was legitimately elected into office, and he used propaganda to keep the populace in support of him. As racist, cruel, petty, (and tactically stupid) as he was, he was a master of charisma and psychology.

[@rorre_rorre2]

like dio

[@zenohawk1788]

So in short, a Sociopath

[@SaberRexZealot]

Father Grigori wasn’t under-utilized at all. He fit perfectly to juxtapose with the bleak tone of Ravenholm. Not every character needs to have more scenes.

[@gegethedog]

i just miss him :'(

[@Harsh-tf9he]

he WAS ravenholm

[@ryszakowy]

yes he was used as much as he was needed to be

[@Eduardesuper]

@@ryszakowy 100% agree, i was still hyped for episode 4 starring Grigori and Shepard tho. Shame it got canned, looked fun.

[@atomwolf6774]

He lives in ravenholm where the hell will he have another appearance

[@benmcreynolds8581]

That Medic part was the perfect way to describe the truth about how professional insanity can blend into society. I saw a video of professionals saying: When looking for Jet pilots, they intentionally look for people with characteristics of a psychopath. Because certain professions can actually utilize their psychopathic traits.

[@MedicMain9]

Until they plunge their jets into the ground, like that one who took his into the Pyrenees...

[@zan821]

@@MedicMain9 or the ones that plunge the jets into 2 buildings on september (im a muslim and an arab im not racist i swear)

[@Hazelmutt]

In that case, wouldn't Trevor have made a good pilot?

[@nyancat8927]

​@@HazelmuttHe was a pilot.

[@alwayshere6956]

​@@zan821don't worry, that was orchestrated by the U.S. government, it's not you guys fault

[@mdperson988]

"I've always felt alone my whole life, for as long as I can remember. I don't know if I like it... or if I'm just used to it, but I do know this: Being lonely does things to you, and feeling shit and bitter and angry all the time just... eats away at you." - Simon Henrikkson

[@ventexovakon2178]

I directly relate to this.

[@thoticcusprime9309]

@@ventexovakon2178 I dont. I dont get lonely

[@wezz-t812]

@@thoticcusprime9309 good.

[@RomanvonUngernSternbergnrmfvus]

@@thoticcusprime9309 don’t worry one day you will

[@ghostflxwer]

@@thoticcusprime9309 🤓

[@unoriginalperson72]

The deathwish ending is cannon, Franklin and his receptionist both talk about Trevor and Michael in online

[@bit_ronic]

the chinese guy in gta online also says that he nearly got killed in the same spot his father died, which happens to be the place where franklin kills the chinese mafia boss.

[@Journey_to_who_knows]

Online bullshit can’t be canon

[@fettycheese2498]

Trevor is the heist leader of the Series A Funding heist from the Heists update, which shows that he hasn’t died and takes place after story mode. As far as I can tell, Michael has been mentioned, but there isn’t any indication that he is or isn’t alive. An example of Michael being mentioned is when Lester mentions the Jewel Store Heist but backtracks as to not reveal anything about his past with the Online Character

[@ScientistHL]

@@fettycheese2498 GTA Online used to take place before GTA5, a few months before the story if I remember right. It wasn't until Gunrunning that it was mentioned the current year at the time was 2017, and it just continued on from that. The heists update (which Series A came with) specifically took place before GTA 5s story, not just because of the Gunrunning tidbit, but also because Lester mentions the Online player to Michael (not the other way around, like you said) when Michael asks Lester if he has any contacts in LS, to which Lester responds that he is working with somebody but they're "too unpredictable" and he'll need to find others. If Lester hadn't done any heists with the player, there's no need to mention them. Michael was mentioned in the Franklin update, the exact quote is "I know one of the producers around here. I hope his ass ain't at work today" meaning Michael is still alive

[@hamster2510]

@@ScientistHL R* themselves don't know a place of timeline for GTAO

[@realSepriman]

Honestly I love characthers like these. Simon is probably the best representation of deppresion at it's worst and the way the devs made the idea made it feel like an personal journey. Nobody cared about medic insanity mainly because they already experianced insanity from others and have even sympathized with the man. Father Grigori experienced the deaths of hundreds of pepole and is really guilty about it, not wanting to repeat the same mistake he helps Gordon and Alyx as he dissapears for good. Trevor Philips was abused as a child betrayed by his own best friend due to him being very loyal but even with his crazyines you have feel bad for him. Overall great video.

[@scaryhatguy4214]

Ok pyro fan

[@blobbolbo9143]

@@scaryhatguy4214 Pyro Gaming

[@scaryhatguy4214]

@@blobbolbo9143 pyro live wich was a channel long before 2022 just with 1 video.

[@alexb.7448]

All in le head

[@ssboth6255]

Seems like Spamton from Deltarune fit with these characters (mentally insane, tragic backstory, majority of the fandom love them.)

[@thecoishiking5768]

I think another interesting thing about Trevor is that his loyalty borderlines unhealthy. If you choose the ending to kill Michael, Franklin will call Trevor to tell his plan, which ends up with Trevor refusing to help kill Michael despite everything Michael has done to him. Michael not only brought him down into a life of crime, Michael also faked his own death while also killing off Trevor's best friend and keeping the millions of dollars that were supposed to go to Trevor during the heist. Even when Trevor returns Michael to confront his past issues Michael still keeps Trevor away. Trevor's constant neglect as a child has broken him, and when he has a single person who helped him once he will idolise and follow that person to the ends of the Earth because he can't afford to lose someone who actually cares for him, even if that one person was exploiting him the whole time.

[@jarlboof]

Michael didnt plan on killing brad, dave was about to shoot Michael and accidentally killed brad.

[@bopsgaming3810]

@@jarlboof He was actually gonna shoot trevor, but yeah, I get ya.

[@jarlboof]

@Bops Gaming he was supposed to shoot Michael and go on with the plan, not Trevor, you can see Brad turning suddenly and he takes the shot that was going to hit Michael.

[@beastinxanalt]

If you look into gta v a little closer, you can see that Trevor isn't the only one suffering.

[@bopsgaming3810]

@@jarlboof sorry for the late response, I haven't played in like, years since my xbox quit working, so I forgot, my bad.

[@roul4842]

One of my favorite aspects of the TF2 comics is that the plot basically revolves around these different characters wanting Australium to keep themselves alive... Meanwhile, Medic just casually beats death with the power of hubris. lmao

[@shmooify]

I feel like the reason we pity/resonate with Trevor is because of their past, and the moments we see him break down and why he does it/what he says while doing so. He had a troubled past that lead him up to be how he is, you can only blame him so much until you look at how he was brought up. Plus having him express emotions like breaking down humanizes him more than most psycho paths because they’re often depicted in media as cold and distant lacking human emotion, but with Trevor we see he can actually experience sorrow. Like how they tried humanizing thanos by actually showing he can cry during the whole soul stone scene

[@doublespacedparty9365]

the sournale-shmooify crossover is something i thought i would never see until now

[@zerostarsmoore3818]

Hey shmooify love the vids

[@homeygfunkoffacherryfruitl4971]

I'm gonna be honest, I hated Trevor. I just found him annoying and when the opportunity came to kill him off I couldn't pick it fast enough.

[@Cr4z3d]

@AshTheFlash100 So...the real world?

[@SquibbeyJenkins]

@@homeygfunkoffacherryfruitl4971 same lol

[@el_fresh_memes2334]

For closure on Trevor, GTA online acts sorta like a continuation of the GTA story, to which all 3 main Characters are proven to be alive and well. Deathwish is the canonical ending

[@mememan629]

True, but online it is not shown what happens to Trevor due to online being both past and future of the main story, I believe that this KZbinr put all of his online story behind the story mode story and ends with what happened to Trevor is ambiguous. While Micheal becomes a movie director and franklin running his own business.

[@el_fresh_memes2334]

@@mememan629 I think it is wise to guess he is still alive but I understand your point

[@el_fresh_memes2334]

@@mememan629 I have recently run into a line that proves Trevor lives same as Franklin, even thought Trevor literally has his own missions you can do for him there is another fact to add. If we consider that Michael is alive because Franklin references him in the first Dre mission. Then the fact that the office Sucurity will mention Trevor should also count. So if you stand near the Sucurity guard long enough for him to jive a random line of dialogue he says quote "you know something, there was this hobo that came in here recently, begged to be let in, said he worked with Mr Clinton. Huh" now who looks like a hobo and has worked with Franklin??? TREVOR!!!!! He alive!

[@adat81]

@@el_fresh_memes2334 if you buy a hangar and enter it first time youll get a cutscene with and he said that trevor abandoned him and gone vinewood

[@apossiblyhereticalalphaleg3595]

@@mememan629 The chinese mafia kid mentions that his father was killed in the same spot as the Deathwish ending, which is coincidentally the only ending where you kill the chinese mafia boss

[@--__--__--__O__--__--__--]

Medic isn't actually... well.. a medic, he's a scientist that loves medicine and creates things related to medicine, he sees his teamates more like avaliable souls for him to test his crazy experiments than actual friends.

[@sarcasmish]

So true

[@Omega-jg4oq]

Also what kind of Medic that uses Ubercharge on people and erase their injuries and scratches from them in split second like they are some sort of batteries? 😂😂😂

[@johnynoway9127]

Hes a former german soldier (possibly a nazi) He replaced a heart with a machine that uber charges Heavy. He also has basically infine lives due to a loop hole he did with satan.

[@Draftspike]

Well he’s still practically a medic since that’s the role he plays in the game. He heals his teammates during battle.

[@lovley_furby8400]

@@johnynoway9127 hes a former german soldier? where in canon does it say that?

[@doktorryeen5124]

I've had mental disorders since I was a kid. It always brightens my day when someone makes an effort to understand us. Thank you for being respectful

[@ak-jxrdy-7]

Just wanted to say, shout out for that Juuzou Suzuya profile pic, one of my favourite characters. Much love and many blessings!

[@doktorryeen5124]

@@ak-jxrdy-7 yeahh!! juuzou is a legend! blessings to you as well, my friend

[@TheInternalForces]

Fun creepy fact: the zombies in half life 2 sounds are reversed when you reverse it again you can hear the person who has the headcrab on their head begging for help which means the victim is still alive which also means why father says that they can rest now

[@TarrareyoutubeOF]

Fun how their were hell

[@321jorgereal]

i think everyone knows this

[@CoolSs]

14:10 i hate the fact that medic seem to be the most neglected class in the comics . other than his appearing in the few last comics and the deal with the devil . he really deserve more to show up how crazy he is .

[@hipwisconsingaming9520]

Bruh pyro and engineer are in like 3ish comics

[@CoolSs]

@@hipwisconsingaming9520 to be fair. Pyro does not need that much. Engineer deserves more indeed. We all like soldier but man. Like 80% of the comics are just for him.

[@minecraftbee5649]

Engineer. Enough said.

[@zebos2432]

@@CoolSs i think engineer was originally supposed to have a much bigger role in later comics (considering his final plot twist in the last comic) but, you know.... Valve....

[@undeadwerewolves9463]

Honestly everything about the medic is perfection. (I love all the Mercs though) Medic being ignored in game either as a pick or on the battle field so plays into his character too accurately. The medic is a laughable funny squishy easy kill most of the time, or a friendly convenient help depending if you have one on your team… but then suddenly he turns into a murder machine if he gets a full Über charge. He’s unstoppable/can turn the tide of a match. And it’s all because you underestimated and ignored him and didn’t see him as a threat. His character is exactly how he plays out mechanically in the game. He will insert a baboon foetus inside you while you sleep and kill you with it the next day while laughing in your face! He’s such a lovable character “masking” absolute blatant evil and insanity. But the voice actor Robin Atkin Downes also absolutely makes the character what it is 100% though. Valves vision and design is very important but my God Robin cannot be replaced as THE Medic. He’s just as nuts! Jk charismatic.

[@codaboi138]

As someone who has dealt with Depression and Anxiety throughout my whole life, Simon's story is the best depiction of what it actually *feels* like to go through this stuff. Literally. Once you strip away the literal events and imagery of the game, the emotions you feel while playing and how they are presented really gives a simulated sense of what life can be like at times. I sight the college level with the "faceless" monsters screaming at you out of the darkness as a good example. The sheer panic and terror you feel, mixed with the dread of knowing there are more of them just beyond the darkness is perfect, and to top it off, the fight requires you to restrain yourself and be calm to kill them. You have to wait for them to emerge from the dark into the light of your phone torch so you can shoot them, rather than simply react on the spot as many of the monsters in the lit streets need you to. Then you got to go collect keys to unlock the door. It's a perfect simulation of how social anxiety often feels. The constant feeling of being seen by everyone while you are blind to everyone else. The panic of dealing with people you encounter yet having to act calm as to not show weakness or difference, all in the name of getting through the day. How goddamn hard it is to do basic things while being under this pressure. That level is done so right, I instantly recognized the flurry of emotions it gave me. The rest of the game is full of this kind of stuff and it really does put you in the shoes of what it feels like living with an illness like this. I firmly believe games are the only vessel of art than can really put you in the shoes of someone else. The developers of Cry of Fear have clearly dealt with some shit to know how to put this across so accurately.

[@madmonty4761]

i assume you dont want to kill yourself any more i like cry of fear because of the designs cant believe its on the half life 1 engine

[@idontknowwhattonamemyselfonyt]

God I really want to say it but just wont

[@codaboi138]

@@idontknowwhattonamemyselfonyt Say what?

[@idontknowwhattonamemyselfonyt]

@@codaboi138 just be happy lmao

[@rainy729]

Thanks for sharing this; found it an interesting read, and I do agree with what you wrote. It can indeed be really hard to deal with issues such as social anxiety. Also, Cry of Fear truly is a gem of game. Been many years since I first played it; might revisit it eventually.

[@thunderspark1536]

One of the things I love about tf2 is that they all may be insane in many ways, they still are all adjusted in their own way. Happiness with family, perusing genius medical treatments that defy modern medicine, even the engineer's machines can be seen as children, something you built and defend. They're people at the end of the day, no matter how they act and their issues that you can see. You can relate because they all have their human moments, laughter, love, life, friendship. Also, insanity and physopathy are not the same, insanity relates to lack of knowledge and understanding of what you are truly doing, while physopathy is KNOWING what you're doing, but just not caring at all about others, or only in very odd ways. An example is medic reviving sniper after being part of the team that killed him. He is quite intelligent and aware, and can be caring and kind when he wants to. he just often, does not want to.

[@DaniloElCapo666]

I like how, while in most game the healer is the most good person of the place, the medic is actually one of the most insane character of, not only valve, the whole videogame industry

[@ffwast]

One thing that goes a long way to endear Medic to the audience is that we mostly see him through the lens of his friends we're rooting for. He's a mad doctor for sure but he looks out for his friends and his defiance of the natural order generally works out for them. The rest of the team are...also dangerous lunatics but seeing them in contrast with other characters paints them in a much more favorable light.

[@yuniji5505]

imperfection is what's makes a relatable character

[@shieldedgaming1589]

I really like Trevor he’s brutally honest he knows he’s a psychopath my favorite part when he and Michael went to find Michael’s daughter Even hugged him I can tell he was smiling

[@BombSquad.MP4]

He isn’t a Psycopath.

[@candymanva9629]

These videos are my favorites from you. You’re writing is absolutely phenomenal

[@The2x4wizard]

Nice soljah pfp

[@TheMartialEsotericist]

I understand you, father Grigori. I often feel like I am a remnant from an old age. Sometimes I feel like I am the last survivor of what remains of my old friend group. I will always miss you Nerf Club. I'm sorry for what I did, but I had to do it to dissociate completely from you all.

[@redderman]

what

[@ct_tropical1451]

​@@reddermanwhat's not to understand they are the only survivor of Nerf Club

[@sithmorak]

Playing the “Lonely” theme from Cry of Fear while discussing how lonely Cry of Fear can make you feel is great. Fantastic.

[@TheSixthColonel]

Cry of Fear was singlehandedly, undoubtedly my favorite horror game ever. It truly made me feel connected to Simon, with the ambience, theme and overall story. It really puts you into Simon's mind in a silent and interesting way. Simon suffers from schizophrenia, ptsd and depression, and as someone with PTSD and with family members who have schizophrenia, it felt relatable. Psychology is a fascinating thing and games like Cry of Fear have always captured it perfectly.

[@anthonyoliver418]

I think Father Grigori is more known for Gmod rather than HL2, since just like Medic, we see people give wacky roles/portrayals of him, much more than people analyzing or talking about him as a character. Most likely due to the fact that he can be seen anytime in Gary’s Mod, unlike his origins, where compared to the rest of the game, his section is very short, but this really shows how featuring characters in different context, can undermine what they were originally known for.

[@user-xh8df9oz4y]

I was one of those people back when I purchased Gmod without having any idea what Half Life 2 was. I thought Grigori was some funny wacky character and I had no idea how tragic he actually was.

[@mahuba2553]

Nope, I would disagree. Garrys mod has given light to characters like gman and male_07, father grigori was part of the group yes but never popularized by that way. I remember father grigori as my brother, my helper, and thy strenght to burts through the darkest of pits to find the light.

[@AngelSGG]

​@@mahuba2553skibidi

[@SRHandelYT]

Medic is a worldwide treasure and must be protected

[@themisfitbrigade]

Fun fact: Medic has a WW2 German Military hat that directly reveals he was in the German Army. He likely partook in many battles as a medic and it could be the war and what he had to do in combat that made him insane.

[@God-xx9dw]

If i was the medic... I would probably be insane too ngl

[@senatorstevenarmstrong2807]

Even worse: he could have been a member of the SS and maybe partook in some of the horrific NAZI medical experiments

[@gingerbreadlemonzest024]

Emesis Blue, watch it, while it's not official it's good sfm

[@molcat_doma]

Could also be he was someone like th angel of death in Auschwitz

[@Gun_Metal_Grey]

its not really a fun fact, just because you having an option of wearing a hat, doesn't mean he was actually a member of the Nazi party during WW2. It's his thing in general, i doubt he has any ideological motive but rather dissect corpses for his own amusement and in the name of science. He is more of like Hans Landa from Inglorious Basterds to me, in a sense that he doesn't really care about Nazi ideology, but rather to his own sadistic desires and egoistic endgoals. Also your theory falls flat considering Heavy is canonically anti-bolshevik/anti-communist but he can wear Soviet-themed cosmetic if you as a player desire so

[@matiasgaming4971]

21 year old guy with autism and depression here. I can confirm a lot which was said in this video. Outside spheres tend to not understand what it's like to have something like depression. I've dipped my toes into insanity a few times in the past, as I've completely lost my shit before. And like Trevor, I had a bit of a rough childhood, with a verbally abusive father until he abandoned me. To say I've had breakdowns before is an understatement. But as also explained in the depression segment, getting help is often hard. For me, it's a combination of many things. My added autism makes it so much harder, as people just don't get it. And I admit. I feel like people judge me whenever they look at me. Be it in public or whatever. Makes it hard to well... not be isolated. If I had the real life version of the Second Opinion, it would be saying things that I only ever imagine. Like me imagining beating people up, killing them, or other morbid things. Unlike Simon, I don't have a girlfriend. So I don't know the pain of rejection. But I've seen the betrayal of friends before, and I believe that's close enough. Don't want this comment to keep going, so I'll cut it short with this message: If you are "Normal", you should feel lucky. I am mentally deranged, and I need help. But said help hasn't been easy to achieve, as I still haven't found any. Consider yourself lucky. I wasn't

[@ismalel1652]

I hope you're doing better now

[@GarrysModHotels]

Medic is not insane He's just german

[@albinocyclopse9952]

Fact.

[@anonymouscheesepie3768]

your point? the entire country is insane...

[@user-sy6qv6zu7q]

he shot down a bird using a heart he's insane man

[@pagancourier4604]

What going on in Germany? 💀

[@anonymouscheesepie3768]

@@shadowknight_2505 so was my reply

[@petahisgood]

The legend is back.

[@frost6916]

when the world needed it most, he came back

[@desmondleguay1969]

5:50 "the worst she can say is no..."

[@stereokuuji]

💀

[@max_the_mantis5173]

As someone who is suffering from multiple unwellnesses myself at this time, among other factors. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for this well done and impeccable video. Personally the fictional character who has undoubtedly helped me the absolute most during this confusing, and challenging period of my existence, is the G-man from the half life games. I see him in many ways as a symbol of death, fear, autonomy, magic, mystery, and the balance in between chaos, and control. Since my dad disowned me, my reliance on escapism through obsessing over this character as a coping strategy has undoubtedly increased. He reminds me of my own shadow, a black mirror so to say, and the gold underneath. In many ways I relate to both him, and Gordon Freeman as well. I even designed my villain personas first curus after the H.E.V. suite, but I painted mine neon green instead of orange. I am in the midst of many battles at this time. The G man is one of my imaginary friends, even though I have multiple real friends now, he hasn’t left me, because I need him. I need someone just real enough, who will never leave. He is such an important symbol, idea, and friend to me I see him as a spirit guide as well, and I love him in every sense of the word. He is a man of opposites, like myself. I idolize him. I know exactly what it feels like to live amongst humans, yet always as an observer on the outside looking in, always a detail overlooked, trying so hard to fit the mold, to appear ‘good enough’ by a hypocritical peoples rules. He’s like an angel. My angel. And a demon. He’s like Uriel, Samiel, mystery, magic, death, and trajedy. I love him more than anyone. I feel like he truly understands me, like he comforts me when the world destroys me over and over again. Like every time I die, he alone can understand the pain. But my G-man is always there to pick up the peices, and even though I know he’s not really real, he is simultaneously more impactful to me, and more important to my journey at present than any real person has been. If I were to die tomorrow, I hope the G-man would be the one to take me into Limbo. I think he would be, in my case. My dearly beloved friend, and heart. 💜

[@cruelchris3099]

This is sweet. There is a theory out there that Gordon Freeman and The G-Man are one in the same characters. Not cannon but a cool theory that feels right.

[@zcgamerandreacts2762]

Simon did have a good ending. It's just not the typically cartoonish ending. He's recovering very well and has accepted being friend zoned. Of course for a more in depth approach go and watch pyrocynical's video on cry of fear.

[@alpharius2omegaboogaloo384]

He fucking killed 2 people. It’s nearly as bad of an ending as the others.

[@DrSwag-nj7pc]

@@alpharius2omegaboogaloo384 well it’s better then the other 3

[@Joosher56]

Yeah pyros video was amazing

[@zcgamerandreacts2762]

@@Joosher56 yeah. Like you can't expect everything to immediately be: HOORAY! YOU SAVED THE DAY. Like no. Instead we kill two officers by accident because Simon was having a episode, the doctors defended him in the case. While he ends up in the asylum. But is recovering slowly and is happy to have a friend to talk to.

[@s_callahan]

@@alpharius2omegaboogaloo384 though was it intentional?

[@Barret1876]

Also, the Medic sees his teammates as experiments and not people

[@shoveltf2]

This was genuinely amazing, you're so underrated, you're very smart and educated, good at editing, and very funny you deserve to get to 1m subs

[@Ja-EdenCheese]

To me, The most insane tf2 merc is either soldier or spy, Because soldier would not hesitate to kill someone and not feel bad about it, Spy would often talk about how he would like to torture his hostages slowly until they die

[@grimace3983]

i like these characters because no matter how mentally unwell they may be, you still care for them because they feel and are human, like ourselves

[@Xenoscoutknight]

Simon has to be my favorite character who is depressed after his accident and has different endings depending on the players actions

[@amp120voltage]

Thank you for making this. From someone who has suffered from multiple mental illnesses my whole life and finally getting solid help to anyone who will hear me. It is possible to fix whatever is broken. You owe it yourself and all those you love.

[@Dabadi4834]

“Why do I feel bad for Trevor?” Lost and Damned players:

[@madmonty4761]

we dont talk about them

[@Dabadi4834]

*stomp*

[@gunns4hire224]

As someone who has lived with depression for 11 years life isn't easy bc all you constantly think about is an end to this pain, but I'm still here.

[@Musketforhome]

This video has gotten me into cry of fear, and I love it, thank you for putting this to my mind.

[@davisthedaviskids2574]

I want to reply with something funny but I can't think of one. But good comment

[@Pudding404]

Videos that really get you to think and ask questions is an amazing video. I love this topic. While there are many portrayals of insane figures, we'll never get a clear basic idea as we can't relate to them, and because of their nature, it's safe to say that real-life insane people can't either.

[@awppackwheedle]

I loved the brief inclusion of Brittle Bones Nicky. The stories told by Rare Americans are often times depressing yet inciteful. I've been a long time fan of theirs and respect the hell out of what they do.

[@Aughlag]

Nice to see a video essay on fictional characters who have a screw loose. Nice Job

[@do0mzday23-_-8]

One thing I'll never forget from the story was that despite the maniac that Trevor was, he was a far better parental figure to Micheal's son that Micheal was himself. I remember if you call Jimmy as Trevor, you can go out and play tennis and whatnot. And you truly do feel a connection. I like how there's not some underlying worry that Trevor is gonna go ape randomly and hurt the kid, no. They're just bonding, enjoying there time together. In a weird way, Trevor is a monster. Not a villain. I also love how he demands seatbelt lmao. For someone so reckless and tempered... he respects car safety.

[@nickbecerra9580]

The Medic insanity montage gave me life, thank you

[@nenovuletic5947]

This video is extremly well written! I really hope it takes off.

[@amirnator456]

Hey man! I’m glad you recovered from your spine surgery. Amazing to see you back.

[@natcliffe7068]

I love video essays when you can tell the writer knows absolutely nothing about what they're talking about

[@py821]

its almost like he admits that

[@BombSquad.MP4]

@@py821then stop making the video. Why would you want to spread nonsense and why are you defending someone you don’t know?

[@BombSquad.MP4]

Ikr he really doesn’t 😂

[@extendedmag9411]

Your imitation and personal spin of EmpLemon’s videos is incredible, well done sir!

[@Portentous__]

As someone who suffers from depression and a bit of self-inflicted trauma, this has genuinely helped me find different ways of looking at myself. I saw patterns in my behavior that I’ve never seen before Genuinely, thank you for making this video. The chances of you reading this comment are slim, but you’ve helped me uncover a part of myself that I’ve never fully understood

[@sird4vy501]

Edward Richtofen from cod zombies is one pretty good insane character.

[@notjames9072]

Was waiting to see a Richthofen comment

[@corvanj8766]

It's mostly because of the constant exposure to 115

[@walkingl4997]

FINALLY He came back with the upload milk, I was nearly about to die before I saw this video. I was relieved to the point I can’t even express it, Thank you.

[@b7uh]

when the music went "💀" i knew i gotta watch till the end

[@Wintxrr115]

I don’t know how or why but at 0:57 I bursted out laughing for a good 20 minutes hearing you say “these are 9 mentally disturbed individuals of the human condition.”

[@hunterofthemist7159]

Dude you are on fire! While the emplemon roots of these videos are apparent, you have your own subtle style that I really enjoy. Keep up the good work!

[@dapperbones6238]

I’m currently in college studying psychology and hoping to become a therapist myself. A lot of the games you’ve covered here hit very close to home and some of these characterizations have inspired me to seek out the practice. The video is very well made dude, and I’m writing this being only halfway through right now. Excellent job, and you’ve got a new fan.

[@AdmitThatYoureInsane]

glad I could catch this when I could. reminds me of when I still tried to make videos with the utmost quality, I could never truly compete with some of those other guys, but when I did put in the effort, it was pretty good, not perfect, but good I hope you don't ever lose that spark. keep up the great work

[@mr_kgtheog]

About Father Grigori. One of the things that make me think less insane of him is the fact that he kills the zombies out in Ravenholem for the reason of him trying to help them find rest, a small detail that is missed out in the video is the fact that the zombies are humans that are still alive, and feel everything that happens to them unable to control themselves because of the headcrabs taking over there mind and body meaning any bad thing they do like killing and any feeling they feel like pain and suffering they still feel and do but have no control to avoid, and father Grigori knows that. He knows the horror of knowing that you are not in control of your body and need to do whatever the thing that took your head wants you to do. So when he kills them to free them he is really doing that. His faith growning stronger and stronger overtime is because of a lot of reasons, mainly the one in the video being about killing the people that are around him, imagine needing to kill the people that you used to help, see, talk with and go to church with just to end the suffering that they have no control of, and the other reason is the fact he is the only survivor left in Ravenholm after the Combine attack, and staying there for too long without anyone to talk with physically only leaves you to know the fact that no matter who and where you are God is always there with you and to help you in all the ways. Knowing this his faith must have only getting stronger and stronger knowing that at least what he is doing to help those we are lost and that he hopes he is doing a good thing for them. Father Grigori is one of the best video game characters ever made yet no one talks about for his small showing. I didn't try half-life yet even tho I basically know everything about it at this point but I did play Garry's mod, since it is a sandbox game that is made with the source engine it has most of the things in half-life, and one of the NPCs you can spawn that is in the animals section for some reason is you guessed it "Father Grigori" At that time I never knew who he was and didn't even know his backstory, and he always said his voice lines from time to time with a loud echo, I always hated that thinking it was another "Highly religious insane character in a videogame" And always thought he was annoying, but one day I saw a video in my KZbin recommendations about his story and when I watched it I have only saw how I missed out on such a gold mine of a character and I hope one day he gets the recognition he deserves. Sadly the voice actor "Jim French" Has passed away in December 21st, 2017 (Rest in peace, Father) And it always makes me sad of the fact that we would never have the chance of seeing him again in any videogame at all or any story. Now yes the story of him in Half-Life 2: Episode Four is there altho not canon it does put more to him and give him an end but I don't think that gives him enough justice in any way. And I wanted to thank about this video, the editing, stories and overall everything was highly perfect, looking up for more content from you man.

[@allezgamingforever]

Yeah whoever Jim French voices and roleplays will be a memorable character for sure. I know him because he voices Bill in Left 4 Dead which also you kill the mutants just like Half life. You will see the emotion and tension from Bill; especially in the DLC The Sacrifice when he talks to his partners and assures them after the events in the comics. You will not be disappointed.

[@vincetigani4560]

bro i love how the humbnail is just realistic humans and then theres medic from tf2

[@VodsDoWEnzona]

this video is the best documentary video about gaming i ever seen, i wish you all luck in the world and that this video have so much more recognizement than it has

[@handletrap]

Dang, these types of videos are much better than i thought, keep it up!

[@wilsontoredo1435]

should probably remind you that psychopathy and insanity are two incredibly separate things

[@noah-ux2cz]

When I think about games that depict depression and or mental illness in some way, OMORI is instantly the game that I think of.

[@UZUNBACAKLI-BABACIK]

I omor.

[@puzzlepuddles6712]

what i found unique about father grigori's character design, is just how hostile-friendly his first encounters with the player are. you never see him in the beginning, only hear him maniacally laughing in the distance which puts you off, unsure if he's there to help you or to hurt you. all in all, pretty scary and gothic, just how i like it.

[@hannahsampson5700]

as someone who has been diagnosed with depression, Cry of fear is by far the best representation of depression in what ive experienced.

[@reallybigdumbidiot7144]

This was a very interesting and well made video but I feel like you brushed over the medic's feats too quickly, so I just wanna emphasize that the Medic from TF2 has discovered temporary invincibility, obtained immortality (in theory), and literally tricked the devil himself. This utterly, clinically insane man is unironically one of the most intelligent and powerful beings in the TF2 universe, and I love him for it.

[@hisdarkestfear]

What I like about the portrayal of The Medic is his superficial charm, which is in-fact a common attribute of real psychopaths. They did such a good job that the community itself sees him as a less threatening figure than he reasonably is

[@agj2310]

Farther Grigori is like the embodiment of alignment chaotic good.

[@smilweyboi9936]

This video is so god damn good sournale I can't stop watching it. Sournale is probably the only sane person on youtube that can see the real problems on the internet.

[@ContentBuffet]

I recently rediscovered this video this month after thinking about many key things you said in the video over a year ago. after rewatching it was just as good. keep going

[@ScrapKnight2005]

25:13 “We don’t know the definitive ending of GTA V.” Well, considering that every character is alive in GTA Online (which takes place before and after GTA V) it’s safe to say that Franklin picked option C.

[@Frazer2]

Something about trevor that I never thought about before is his affinity for planes, maybe when he wasn't being abused he would read about planes to cope as is common in children of abuse. It was a coping mechanism about escaping his life, so he delved into planes, kinda like a security blanket of sorts or daydreaming as a distraction for others.

[@jarlboof]

He was in the airforce

[@cloudsombrero]

Trevor deserved his own game

[@gabrielkirchgestner556]

I watched this when it came out, and have been looking for it since. I found it on my RECOMMENDED PAGE ONCE AGAIN, KZbin HAS BLESSED ME!

[@GiovanniDeMedici98]

My man you dropped balls so quick! Voice difference in a year is wild.

[@ct_tropical1451]

What (I think) puberty does to a mfer

[@purplehaze2358]

I'm of the opinion that, for a video essay covering the mentally unwell and how they're depicted in games, it surprisingly gets quite a bit wrong about mental illness.

[@artjaanisoo]

10/10 video, interesting to listen to and never boring. You introduce every game/character properly. Expect more of this from you. Subscribe

[@midnightdimensions13]

I never felt alone in Cry of Fear. I was always paranoid about an enemy showing up so I could never feel comfortable or safe.

[@nyancat8927]

I don't think Cry of Fear has the player literally alone, more as in 'I have no one to talk to' alone. That's the antagonization part of depression. Please correct me if I am wrong.

[@midnightdimensions13]

@@nyancat8927 There's no right or wrong answer. Everyone can interpret this game however they want to. You're good.

[@snickerdoodle8776]

I like this video alot, your voice was pleasent, your topics where on point and didnt stray away from too many tamgents, and a little funny at times! But more importantly, I like the end of the video, how it showed each character with one last showcase of the spotlight for each of them, along with the music and video editing. Really looked like a form of art. I hope to see more of that in your videos. :)

[@hamishdow2188]

one small nitpick, in the half life universe the headcrab zombies are not reanimated corpses. the half life zombies are in the early stages of transmutation meaning they never died in the first place, the headcrab zombies we see are all still alive and somewhat aware of their current situation but have had their bodies hikacked and mutated by an aggressive alien parasite which is far worse than being a reanimated dead guy, this explains why grigori says they can rest now after he domes them with maria.

[@15098D]

My main problem is with "insane" characters in games is that their mental issues aren't often explored beyond the catch all of "clinically insane". Like, does this character have an actual mental illness or is it just some undefined part of their character that makes them do strange things or cackle a lot

[@CommanderSpooks]

I loved the lessons from the villains video, so I’m glad it got a sequel.

[@vincent_nix]

This video is a masterpiece.

[@undeadwerewolves9463]

Ja Hans Jaaaa

[@hans7500]

Ja Hans

[@TheUnhandyElk]

"Farewell, Brother! I fear I deliver you to a darker place. May the Light of Lights illuminate your path." - Father Gregori

[@thealienlife]

how has this video managed to weasel its way into my recommended 3 times

[@TheOwlMan8850]

beautiful editing and music choices

[@chefp.7364]

I always like the longer videos thank you!

[@gnorp_]

20:26 I’d love to see you do a video surrounding UTOPIA. RB is such an interesting character- I’d say he fits perfectly into the traumatized category of mental unwellness mentioned with Father Grigori.

[@nehalarafa8260]

can you give me the most detailed explanation about UTOPIA RB you possibly can?

[@yavuzhannnn]

This video was incredible, thank you and these awesome fictional unwell characters for giving us such lessons.

[@boe_ner]

Omori is another good example of the human condition because of its depiction of how losing a person can ruin you mentally