Let's Talk About Disordered Eating, Body-Image, Stress + Health

[@elecops9825]

I know you ended up as a role model by accident, and I also see how many people look up to you. But it is far more important for people, especially young women, to see an honest, realistic person as a role model, not a picture-perfect image of one. So even when you're struggling, know that you're not letting a single person down, not on the Internet nor in real life.

[@momfromheart]

Yes, we are also not perfect.

[@shannonsolomon8491]

I love what you said no one is a perfect role models make mistakes and stumble because of things that happen in life

[@Jess_Smith0903]

Couldn’t have said it better myself!

[@msauve5316]

Yes! Love this!

[@donnanaranjo2091]

You don’t need to feel bad. Divorce comes with so many changes, eating is one of them. I too didn’t have an appetite or to cook for just myself. I liked when I lost weight. I felt happier being able to fit back in smaller sizes. By the way, You looked great in both sizes!

[@serajohanas2156]

As a therapist I hear so much insight in this video sometimes I believe that is half of the battle. Your vulnerability and honesty can also be part of the healing process and possibly encourage others who are faced with similar challenges to seek help. You demonstrate so much bravery. I have no doubt that you will do the work to healthily align your mind and body. As a fellow Christian and Austinite you are in my prayers. We are privileged to hear your story and so thank you for sharing.

[@alexismerry]

This. ❤❤❤

[@ChristianTherapist333]

Amen

[@ferncurtis2437]

Beautifully said…I join you in those prayers too.

[@morningdove8397]

Beautifully said. I agree ........

[@msauve5316]

♥️♥️♥️

[@candicealexander8939]

Michel, I’m 54 almost 55. I started following you not to long before your divorce. I liked the unboxing videos. But in the last year I have seen you bloom. I’m in the process of a divorce myself and I watch you and I’m inspired. Never doubt your beauty. It’s genuine and so refreshing. I know you’re struggling with eating right now, but be kind to yourself. You have been through a lot, just take care of yourself the way you do Max and your family. I don’t know how I got hooked on your videos but I truly look forward to them. It’s not just the young women you’re helping. Keep being the true you! I can’t wait to see where you go in travels and life!

[@cobalong]

Cheating is always a reflection on the other person, not the victim of it. Please remember that, and remember your worth and value. ❤

[@berthasbeauty]

The most inspiring role models are imperfect. Their imperfections makes them relatable. Thank you so much for being vulnerable and brave.

[@jordankendall999]

As someone who has been in and out of treatment for an eating disorder for 7 years, i am so proud of you. It takes soooo much courage to share, especially early on in recovery. My advice would be that recovery is not linear; it’s like a roller coaster. But just because one day you feel like recovery is the absolute worst thing ever and you don’t want to do it anymore or you find yourself using it again, please don’t tear yourself apart. It’s okay not to be okay. Each moment is a new moment. You can start over anytime. You can do this! You’re strong and worthy and courageous. I also noticed, for me, when I would cook my food that it got very rigid. I needed that control of knowing what was going into my food. So just be aware of that if it gets to that point.

[@ladypip1983]

My heart broke watching this. I'm at the complete other end of the scale literally, and my eating is disordered in the opposite way. I have nothing but compassion and love for you and your honesty. Though its manifested in us both differently it stems from similar situations and I'm so sad that you have found yourself struggling. We are here for you and I love that you suggested we friends support eachother through loving our bodys as a verb. ❤️

[@CG-fy4kr]

Discussing such a heavy topic takes a tremendous amount of bravery. I noticed your weight loss but did not even think about commenting because I’ve been through something similar. I’m happy you are seeking professional help, but know you are beautiful and obviously loved. Thank you for being such a tremendous role model for young women, but do not carry this burden. Take care of yourself!!!

[@meganvenegas7632]

You owe us nothing Michel. It's a choice for you to share your life with us and our choice to watch. I personally appreciate your authenticity and find you to be a beautiful person inside and out! The internet (people) have no business judging, negatively commenting, etc. Take care (in your way) and wishing you well always!

[@kacee_is_bored]

Michel, I too slipped into disordered eating from a stressful big life change. I know how hard it can be to kick those pesky thoughts. We are here for you ❤️

[@siobhanrobinson4906]

We are here for you too! 🧡

[@LeaveMeAloneIAmReading]

I've been in recovery from an eating disorder for 10 years and one of the hardest things was sharing the secret. I'm an addictions counselor now and one of the things that we often say in recovery, specifically in AA/NA, is "you’re as sick as your secrets". I believe that this is absolutely true and sometimes the darkest parts of ourselves beg us to not "come clean" because then, we may leave them behind as we get better. I'll be praying for you!

[@anniesorganisierteschaos5916]

I noticed, but it wasnt my Place to call it Out. Ive been through that. Lost like 18kg which are like 30lbs ? Its insane. No apetite at first and later on i would Tell myself that nobody wanted me the way i Was. I almost lost my life. You are Brave Michel. You really are.

[@Lea2008-k8b]

Michel, what you have faced in this past year would be incredibly overwhelming for anyone, to top it off, you financially support yourself on line, that my dear friend is A LOT. Everyone deals with stressful situations differently, some overeat (me), some forget to eat, some drink, some smoke, some jog, some lift weights, some grab a bottle of wine and a few good books and hunker down in their bed for awhile. I applaud you for speaking about your struggles, but also, if there is a topic that you don't want to discuss DON'T! There are only a few individuals you owe any explanation to for anything, God, yourself, and your parents ( because they love you). We are all adults here, if something is making us uncomfortable, we have the power to skip on through that portion of the video. No one should make YOU feel bad, or doubt yourself, don't give anyone that power. Even the most uncomplicated divorce has challenges, and it causes pain. I really thought the first 6 months after my divorce, my heart would literally break. Even though I knew deep down I had been given a gift, there was pain. Even though I knew in my heart I was free, and it was not my burden to carry any longer, it hurt. I am so excited for you to travel more, maybe purchase a home (all on your own), to build the life that God has planned for you, to see where this relationship goes with Jordy. You are loved Michel, you are beautiful, you have a calming spirit about you, it is evident you care for people, don't let anyone convince you otherwise. Someone lost a true treasure, their loss, and someone else's gain.

[@jesreviews6429]

This is so well said. I hope she gets a chance to read it, because I feel like you are 100% correct and it's heartbreaking knowing she was so uncomfortable sharing and that she felt she didn't have a choice. I feel like this video is an excellent reminder to viewers to be thoughtful when commenting and not make assumptions and your message really captures that too.

[@dollparts85]

As someone who has had an eating disorder for 30 years, I've never found anything you've posted triggering. Please ignore that person. You haven't done anything wrong. Thin people don't have to hide their body or be ashamed of existing. I would really look for an actual eating disorder specialist as most therapists are not trained to deal with eating disorders. You'll get through this. I'm proud of you. ❤️

[@SamWest96]

Just because you didn't find it triggering doesn't mean others didn't. I actually noticed recently I'd stopped watching Michel's videos and I do believe that to be because of the way she was coming across in relation to eating and her body. I wouldn't say I found it triggering, but certainly unnerving in relation to my own experience. I just stopped watching (until literally today when I've just comes across this video) rather than commented on it, but I'm glad the topic is being addressed.

[@DX-d]

@@SamWest96 🤣🤣🤣 you feel bad about yourself because she’s thin and likes being thin?!! No one owes you anything, and she can share whatever she wants, and good on her for being thin. Your issues are no one’s responsibility. Fix yourself i stead of attacking people for being thin.

[@karenhamann1666]

Your honesty is so brave and refreshing. Going through a trauma is complicated and I think when our eating habits are impacted by trauma, it can be the most sneaky, unknown thing that happens to us. The fact that you are certified in nutrition doesn’t mean that that this couldn’t easily happen to you. It’s not a case of “should have known better” at all in my opinion! The emotion of eating is very different from our logical thoughts about it. Take your time, try to release the shame over the struggle with food, and know God has got you. You are more aware now and are trying small things and that says a lot! We all love you Michel. 😘😘

[@cherry222red]

Michel, I hope that you remember that first of all you are a human being. You don’t need to put so much pressure on yourself when it comes to you being a role model. Our stories are very similar, your reasons behind not eating are the same as mine were. We are getting there. Healing trauma is a long process. Don’t be so hard on yourself if you are not okay as soon as you would like to be okay or as soon as you think you should be okay. It’s okay if you are not fully okay. You will get there!

[@stephanie1874]

Hi Michel. Something you said caught my attention. I understand some of the comments from your closet clean out were helpful and some were hurtful. My thoughts are this: I work a fairly stressful and extremely high pressure job in healthcare. Like you, I have a type A personality and have extremely high standards for the quality of my own work and the lives I care for. I'm pretty hard on myself which isn't great. Each year, close to my anniversary date with the hospital, my boss and I meet for my annual review. This includes my job performance as well as input from a few of my colleagues. This is always an anxiety provoking meeting even though I do my best every day. It's a 60 minute review of an entire year of work by someone I trust and who is trained to provide constructive feedback as well as highlight my successes. You're comments section is like an annual review every day of the year by people who only see snippets of your life. Most are kind and respectful which warms my heart. Some are less than that. If at the end of every workday, I read critiques on my work that were harmful or even constructive, I wouldn't be ok. No doubt this would affect me deeply. And my work isn't my personal life. I only share this with you in the hopes that you can, if not already, gain some perspective on the comments. You know you're a beautiful person inside and out. We know that too ❤️ Please find a way to filter out the negative if possible. You do excellent work that inspires. And that's what matters. ALWAYS take care of you first 🌻

[@amyfretz3387]

Well said. I totally agree with this insightful perspective.

[@andrereynolds5018]

My daughter has E.D. When she told me I had no idea and have blamed myself. After counseling, i realized i have had my own bouts with it. We found a clinic that only works with this. She eats healthy, but she has filled out. She is much like you. Cheerleader, Dancer, Valedictorian. She did it all… i think this is why I didn’t notice. Thank you for sharing.❤️🙏

[@gorgiabanach]

Thank you Michel for opening up and trusting us with this part of your life xx we are all here for you through thick and thin! Please know there's absolutely no shame and no need to feel bad or like you're not being a good role model. We love you for you and that includes all the crazy messy things that happen in life. Also! If making food/cooking related videos might help you and the community treat our bodies a little more kindly and healthy then I'm all for it! :)

[@kirstennichole90]

I think that recognizing that you are struggling with this is very important and that you are taking steps to make healthier decisions regarding. It's also a good reminder to everyone that even though things seem to be going really well for a person they may still be struggling with things that they are not comfortable talking about. I think sharing your struggles even in the midst of all the happy shows how great of a role model you truly are.

[@neri1924]

There is no worst feeling in the world than feeling unwanted by someone you love and once you had their love. I been there and I applaud you for sharing this feelings that sometimes go unspoken.

[@blueseptember2174]

Oh yeah I'm in that boat too. It's been 10 months and getting better but I would hope to think it gets better still.

[@kmbrlythomas]

I understand the frustration of people commenting on your physical appearance, when deep down you struggle and don’t accept yourself. It’s like you just want to say “Thanks, but if you only knew”. I slipped into a bit of an obsession with my weight and eating habits as well. Part of it is because of past trust issues like you - my current bf is the most faithful person but one day I saw him look at a girl a second longer than I’d have wanted and it was enough to make me stop eating. I’m never an insecure person so I was shocked at myself. I was also dropped from my dream program and after that I just couldn’t eat either from the depression and struggle. You’re not alone Michel, you are very real and people can relate that’s why we love you :)

[@newdayscoming4270]

Sometimes I feel you are way to hard on yourself to be perfect. The weight loss and lack of eating comes with not only the stress of divorce and the reasons because of it, but the emotional shock the body naturally goes through. I’ve been through it twice, and both times I lost several pounds. And like you I was very small framed to begin with. It wasn’t because I wanted to not eat, it was more the fact that I didn’t have the appetite and forcing myself to eat made me nauseous. Don’t be so hard on yourself, love yourself through it.

[@bruce12347]

I agree with this comment 100%. We lost a child recently and we were in the same boat, we lost weight because of the shock, so I understood immediately what the weight loss was about. Please remember to be kind when posting 💕

[@mariabilbrey1981]

Yes, great comment. I especially liked the “love yourself through it”. I’m struggling with addiction and it was a great reminder for me too.

[@heather4180]

I could have written the exact same comment. Love yourself through it, is something I wish someone said to me back then. Thank You.

[@heather4180]

@@bruce12347 , sending an abundance of Strength and Love to You & Your Family.

[@beecee7115]

I also struggled with disordered eating in my 20’s and it was tough, so I can only imagine how hard it would be to have to go through it on KZbin. I’m fully recovered now, mentally and physically, and I know that you are going to get there too. We are all here for you! ❤️

[@binge.nutritionist]

Hey Michel! First, you're wonderful for opening up about this and being so honest and vulnerable with your viewers. Second, as a registered dietitian who works in disordered eating, protein drinks are a great help for low appetite/forgetting about meals/weight restoration. Personally, I recommend soylent because they're basically like a meal in a bottle. This isn't something to depend on as a meal replacement, but more like an SOS to help you get in enough energy in a day you're forgetting to eat or having difficulty eating. Hope that helps and proud of you for addressing these things :)

[@MissHashington]

Baby girl, big hugs. I think part of being a role model is showing that your human and you do that in the best way. I think you need to be kind to yourself. I am 6 months in my eating disorder recovery and it's hard and can suck at times but take it one day at a time xoxo thank you for sharing

[@julietlxo]

Michel! Perhaps you may also feel emotionally distant from food because of the shared connection you had over it with your ex (food blog). It may not be apparent but can very well be an underlying ache. I want to see you flourish mentally, emotionally, and physically. You are incredibly strong and inspiring. God bless Jordy ABUNDANTLY for his gentle and kind spirit, and for being super conscious and aware of YOU! One day at a time, at your own pace, you will fall back in love with food. Seek nourishment for both body AND soul! All my love your way xo

[@shannen271]

The greatest role models are the ones who are open about what they are struggling with. Everyone is human and we all struggle with something. And the people who are the least helpful are the people who are perfect. Obviously nobody is perfect, but the people who hide their problems make themselves appear perfect. And while they aren't being judged by anyone, they also aren't being helpful to anyone. I'm so glad you posted this video Michel, thank you :)

[@yasminegibbs-wilson3275]

Role models are first human beings. You’re a human being and not one single person is perfect nor handles every situation perfectly. I’m almost 30 years old and still have to remind myself that it’s important for my children to see me make mistakes and overcome those mistakes. Mistakes, imperfection, accidents…they all aid in growth and knowledge. There’s a quote I was told years ago “Being happy doesn’t mean everything is perfect. It means you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.” You are still a fantastic role models to more people than you probably are aware of, all of you. Every aspect of you. ❤️

[@angelasuezanne1736]

I’m so SICK & TIRED of people body shaming individuals, especially females that are thin or talk about being thin! No one has the right to comment on ANYONES body! Michel, you are beautiful & no matter what your body looks like or however you choose to describe it is fine💖You are pure gold, doll❣️😘💋

[@karenmakesthings4880]

Michel- please be gentle to yourself. You’ve been through a lot. Also remember role model doesn’t equal perfect. When I was in my early 20s my quest for perfection made me miss out on so much living. Now that I’m in my 40s I can honestly say living fully, even with mistakes is better than holding back to maintain “perfection”. I see you developing and growing so much and I wish you nothing but peace and joy as you continue this beautiful journey that you are on. There will be struggles but you are doing great. You know what your battles are and your working on them. Much love to you!

[@karenwyand7884]

You are loved by so many of us. Keep being your true authentic self and all will work out as it should. xoxo

[@abrielle13]

Always remember, you aren't responsible for other peoples triggers. Also, nobody should be assuming anything about anybody else's body. What you're going through is normal, don't be so hard on yourself. You'll get through!

[@alteredcatscyprus]

People manipulate others with their triggers, and it’s gross.

[@daniellejosephine]

Thank you for sharing and opening up. How absolutely important to share that someone who "knows better" can still be trapped by these things. No one, including you, needs to feel guilt about this. Your realness is what a role model is about!

[@cemartin3333]

Michel I’m an over 60 woman and I found your channel way back when you were doing the subscription boxes and enjoyed it for awhile…but felt something was not (for lack of a better word) authentic when the videos with your husband were shared, now I’m not saying this to be mean but I just couldn’t watch anymore. And then I saw one of you opening up about moving back to Texas and the honesty was very heartfelt even though you weren’t sharing the whole reason yet, well that honesty pulled me back in! I love the content you share and the honesty you are now living in your life (but you don’t owe us everything) what you do share I can tell comes from your heart 💜 and I love you for it sweet girl. I’m probably old enough to be your grandmother but I feel a kinship with you that transcends age. You just keep doing you no matter what.

[@alisalaska1786]

Anxiety about food, whether eating too much or too little, is so freaking hard to overcome. For me, when that anxiety exists it’s impossible to make changes and can make it even worse for me. I hope you’re able to gain that control back again. We’re here for you!

[@julie944]

May we always be worthy of your trust ❤️ I went through something similar after a break up. It is TOUGH but I am so proud of you. Sending you love!

[@Cpik321]

Michel - what you have been thru this last year would knock most people to their knees. You are incredibly insightful and wise beyond your years. Your degree is irrelevant and should not bring on shame and guilt. Heck I manage millions of corporate $$ and still have been known to overdraft my account. We are all doing the best we can. I couldn’t be more proud of you. The world needs more role models like yourself. ❤️

[@BTTransformationTV]

Very few KZbinrs are as honest as you. Give your self time and space. feel what you need to fully. Don’t rush your healing.

[@k.a.1760]

Please, do not feel alone! Never feel alone, there are soooooo many people in the world with complicated food relationships... Do not feel guilt. You did nothing wrong. Our bodies react in so many unpredictable ways from stress, no one should be judged or feel bad about it. You are taking healthy steps in the right direction, that's commendable, something you should be proud of, and inspiring! Be proud of who you are, how far you've come, and where you are going! That's the best role model anyone can be!

[@ariahzwolinski-coyle2011]

You’re definitely not alone in this ❤️ I have a masters degree in nutrition and felt the same way trying to navigate new food allergies that popped up. I lost significant weight without even realizing it because of my fear of eating something I’d react to. It’s hard having that knowledge, trying to be the expert for yourself and navigating new medical issues and their recommendations. Take your time, you’re doing a great job navigating this!

[@janiedrew9837]

You are a beautiful person and role model! If people have to be rude and say things they need to remember to look in the mirror! You have been through a lot and you are handling things very well!! My momma taught me if you don't have something nice to say then say nothing at all!! You have family and friends to help you. I feel we are here to support you and enjoy your videos! You keep doing YOU!! Much love to you from Indiana!!

[@reemkhattar]

I never felt you felt “good” abt your smaller body now, in fact I appreciated how you talked about it or navigated food on the channel, especially as someone who always struggled with that. You don’t need to be “perfect”, being you is what’s inspiring to us ♥️

[@memec5503]

I won't pretend to know what you are going through, but I appreciate your courage in sharing these thoughts. You are a beautiful human being, inside and out. Just know you are not alone. I am so grateful to have a friend like you. Love ya!

[@SamiG247]

I don’t think being a role model means you have to be a perfect person. You can have struggles and you can make mistakes but the fact that you are a kind person and have a good heart are what make you a role model people can look up to. Sending you all the love💕

[@stephaniewinkler1743]

Being a role model means showing that just because you have struggles, doesn’t mean that you are not an example of a good human. Being a role model means showing that we can struggle and also accomplish our goals and move forward while fighting battles. Imperfection is beautiful :) I struggle with destructive thoughts and have gone to therapy for it and the moment you start to be able to identify those negative/destructive thoughts while they are happening will be such an empowering day! You are strong and you can do hard things!!

[@kourtneymariecamm]

I look up to you so much, not for the things that you do to go out of your way and "be a good role model" but for your ability to be open and honest like you are in this video. None of us are perfect, especially girls like you and I who are in our 20s in this crazy world we live in right now. But being able to be vulnerable and honest is such a gift and you handle that gift with such grace. As someone who has recovered from an eating disorder, thank you for opening up about this. Not only for the people who watch your videos but for yourself as well. Always in your corner Michel

[@rachaelcapper1297]

Thank you for being so brave and honest Michel, I've been struggling too I also studied nutrition at university so I totally understand that added guilt from " I know better, I should do better". The shift for me happened after I had my kids and I swing from one extreme to the other, either binging or restricting, it's a wretched cycle and so hard to get out of. Sending encouraging energy your way, be kind and take care of yourself xx

[@katrinaruss8512]

This is so incredibly important. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability- you didn’t have to, but through choosing to, you will undoubtedly help so many women who look up to you. Struggle makes you human, not a failure. So proud of you!

[@ladymarsela]

Thank you for opening up. We love you soooo much. Agreeing to be kinder to our female body.

[@lozziehumphreys]

Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I have suffered from disordered eating for a while (also triggered by a very hard time in my life) and to hear someone else talk about it wasn't triggering like I thought it would be, it made me feel less alone. I'm so sorry you are going through this. You are so incredibly strong and I'm sending so much love xx

[@ValthatBish]

I'm 36 I weigh 230 pounds and I have had four children by c section and I always tell myself it's baby weight ... My youngest is 8 bahaha so it's just fat. Your videos show me good food good snacks and thrive market has become so important to me to literally try and eat the healthy foods you eat. I could tell something has been going on this past year with your weight but you had a lot going on and you're coming out the back end of this part of your life be nice to yourself. Being a role model is ABOUT BEING HUMAN you're openness and caring shows through the screen. I was married ten years and now have been married for six years (gosh am I too old for this channel lol) so I understand the feelings you're going through!! I just want you to know that you make such a large impact in my daily life DAILY LIFE!! Your ambition for life and love has brought so much joy into my life. I never really reach out to KZbinrs because like... You're my best friend in my head (as Wendy Williams would say) you keep my life from being lonely. I try to do things just for me small day trips that I would enjoy trying new foods and seeing sites. I try to think to myself how would she (you) handle this situation and try to do it that way. You are a great role model but no one ever sees themselves as others do! You're kind Sweet Talented And full of love for this world I know you are going to do amazingly awesome things with your life and I'm so happy that you have allowed us to watch and be part of this friend group. I know I rambled and probably went all over the place but you have made such an impact just on my life so I'm sure there are others. BE STRONG BE HAPPY AND ALWAYS ALWAYS BE YOU!

[@janeh1101]

You are such a sweet hearted person. I will tell you that as a 50 something year old woman who has struggled with disordered eating from around 6th grade it is so much harder than most people realize. I still struggle. Stress, sadness and many other emotions can cause me to slip again. For me it's a lifelong issue and as much as I don't like it, being hard on myself is the last thing I need. So try not to be hard on yourself. Even though you have a degree in nutrition you are also a human who has gone through a really tough time. Life will continue to throw difficult things our way, we just get through them the best we can. Also I wanted to tell you how much I love your series "Sip and Thrift". As a life long thrift store hater I was inspired by you to look at thrift stores in a different way. I went to a thrift store and had the best time and found so many items. Oh and no sip and thrift would be complete without the sip, so I stopped and got a lavender latte.(first time trying one) I had a blast. Try to remember you bring a lot of joy to others:)

[@KelsiBlaser]

Michel, I have also been struggling with a big uptick in my disordered eating since my divorce (happened just before yours) and I do appreciate you talking about this. From the outside perspective your experience has come off as a lot more positive than I'm sure it all has been, and while I've been THRILLED for you it has occasionally made me feel a bit bad about how slowly I'm recovering in comparison. (To absolutely no fault of your own, and please don't take that on your heart because it's completely on me) I just took this as a reminder that I very much needed that social media isn't the full story and I need to give myself more air to breathe. Sending you so much love and positive energy! I hope things get easier and easier for you every day and that you realize how much you are worth no matter what you look like or what your situation is 💛

[@KelsiBlaser]

Also, try to remember that most people look up to people who aren't perfect as role models. We naturally look for people we can see ourselves in. So by sharing and being "imperfect", you are actually becoming an even better role model! Although, you also never HAVE to be a role model. Just because you have an audience doesn't mean you are any less human and normal. You're allowed to just share your life (or not) without any additional pressure!

[@elecops9825]

Bless you for sharing this! There is no shame in this, please don't feel ashamed of yourself for falling into disordered eating. It can be so hard just to keep yourself healthy. I get overwhelmed when it comes to food. It's frustrating to be constantly responsible for health, mind, body, soul all at the same time. I sometimes slip into bad habits of missing meals because I don't want to trigger stomach pain. But every day is a new day to start fresh. Don't blame yourself for how you treated your body yesterday, there's always tomorrow 🤍🤍

[@hsoderberg6505]

Any idea of why you're having stomach pain after eating?

[@csparksfly3]

I hate that you ever had feelings that you weren't beautiful or undesirable. You are so genuinely beautiful, inside and out. I'm so sorry someone's stupid actions make you self doubt. You are so talented, pretty, and humble. Thank you for opening up and helping others know that sometimes we all go through rough patches.

[@MorganJoblin]

I am so sorry that you were pushed into telling us this. The people demanding perfection from you or placing expectation on you are not the ones who have your best interest at heart. You’re doing amazing. I have dealt with disordered eating for years and have had a very difficult life, but just remember a difficult time or a difficult mind DOES NOT change your worth to yourself or others. You are worthy just because you exist and are here! Love you and sending prayers your way! 🤍

[@Alessandra-ec2hr]

I just wanted to say how much I appreciate you sharing these harder topics on KZbin. You're not alone. I was your age when I went through a significant breakup and basically stopped eating. It wasn't until I looked in the mirror one day and could see my ribs that I realized how much weight I lost. I was just that sad. It took me longer than I wanted, but I did recover. God healed my heart. Seeing you experience this and choosing to share it online motivates me to be more gracious. You didn't bring up bad memories for me, but reminded me of how God comforted me in that time and was faithful to bring me out. For that I'm thankful. And...I really look forward to seeing how God redeems this situation.

[@darlenerich3229]

Michel, I struggled with morbid obesity for years. As a RN, I know and knew the toll it was taking on my body. Entered an Eating Disorders group and learned a lot. Finally left an abusive husband when I learned to love myself more. I understand the rejection and pain that causes. 💔 Now I am much older but 100 pounds lighter. I had major depression but now only need something to shut my brain off at night. Give yourself time to heal emotionally and physically. God loves us no matter what. Do not allow your joy to be stolen from the liar. Cut yourself some slack. Praying for you as you continue in your journey. Hugs!

[@robinpento5830]

Give Yourself Grace! You Are Fabulous! You Are Loved! ♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@mandy833]

I think there is a missing piece of the puzzle that may not have been discussed here. While Michel is happy and adjusting to her new life in Texas, she may still be struggling with depression. We all know that looks can be deceiving. I am pointing this out because as someone that has suffered with depression, it can be incredibly hard to do simple things like brushing your teeth ,or taking out the recycle, or making a meal. I'm not surprised that going through a divorce impacted her health. I imagine that there is a lot of pressure on Michel to seem like she is on the other side and/or that everything is great now that she is dating someone new, because people love a happy ending. In reality, finding peace and happiness is a lifelong endeavor and everyone is on their own journey and goes through life at their own pace. I don't think it makes Michel a bad role model, I think it makes her human.

[@kathrynquinnstreeter4238]

YES. Depression looks so different than what we see in the movies or tv shows or anything really in th media. Someone can seem like they are living their best life while every step they take is physically painful and they are living in their own personal hell.

[@jadecford]

'still struggling with depression?' has she mentioned she suffers from/with depression? do you know which video please?

[@mandy833]

@@jadecford I think you may have misunderstood my comment. She has never explicitly said that she was depressed after getting a divorce, and I don't think that she needs to share that publicly, but that type of life event (i.e. divorce) is a huge stressor. Her life radically changed. My point was that even a mild case of depression can make it hard to do simple things like making a meal. Eating disorders can often come about when a person feels like other aspects of their life are out of control.

[@jadecford]

@@mandy833 right. okay thanks x

[@atc35012]

I struggled with anorexia for 15 years. Disordered eating is so dangerous. Please take care of yourself. Give yourself a big hug. That was the first thing I did in recovery. I gave myself a big hug whenever it was that I realized what I had been doing to myself for all those years.

[@jodieono1784]

I think you’re a fantastic role model and shouldn’t be expected to be perfect and handling everything perfectly. It is absolutely ok to have struggles through different phases of life. You’re handling everything with such grace and THAT’s an inspiration.

[@katecarpe1665]

Everybody’s got their crap. When you are on KZbin that can sometimes be placed in the spotlight unfortunately. But no matter how good of a person you are, there are still things you will be handling/ working through. You got this dude

[@franziskaklebe6738]

Watching this video makes me feel so much respect for you. I cannot imagine how much strength is needed to open up about this personal topic. I believe that most people struggle with food at some point in live. Thus, thank you for sharing your experience. This will help so many people, which are in the same situation: You are not alone! Michel, thank you. I wish you all the best. You are stronger than your inner thoughts.

[@maryremke5215]

Glad to hear you are trying to look after yourself Michel...I totally relate to what you said. Take care...sending you love sweet lady ❤ 💕 😘

[@RESTINPEACEMAGGIE]

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for putting your trust and faith in this community and for sharing with us. You are an unstoppable woman, Michel. As someone who’s struggled with my body image my whole life, I understand how difficult pushing yourself to take care of your body can be and I’m really proud of you for sharing something so vulnerable. You inspire this group because you’re real, honest, vulnerable, and strong, and we watch your videos because of that. Not because we expect every moment to be perfect. To me this video is a great example of the kind of role model you are to me, personally. We absolutely love you and are here by your side as you heal mentally, emotionally, AND physically💜💜💜

[@alexirossi]

Thank you for being so honest about this. You are such a light in this world.

[@IndianaNana1]

I also lost a ton of weight when I got divorced. In the beginning, even the thought of food would make me sick to my stomach. and if I tried to eat something, I threw it up. NOT normal. BUT as I healed from the pain of divorce, I got well. It took time. You are an inspiration and your ability to share this with the world is heart-felt. I love you too. HE will get you through it. Blessings.

[@raeahthewriter8082]

As someone also in recovery from an ED I want to send you so much love. Be kind to yourself. Also, you don’t owe us any info about this process. Give yourself full permission to never talk about this again if you don’t want to. You’re allowed to work through things before sharing them with the internet.

[@jillwestra9864]

Keep taking care of yourself & give yourself grace. You are human. Don’t forget to eat your breakfast! Hugs to you.

[@amandaellis9656]

“Let’s treat our bodies well together!” Yes! Thank you so much for sharing! This took an incredible amount of courage and has given me the push to take care of myself and be intentional about my own eating. I have fallen into unhealthy patterns the past two years and now is the time to change & heal! Praying for you! You’re an amazing person Michel! 💛

[@mariannerose9290]

Michel, you and I have similar struggles, but they are so different as well. I too have an autoimmune disease, but I had to have my thyroid removed. I was then in a bad relationship during covid lockdown, and I gained so much weight. Now I am a single mother, with special needs kids, and I am trying to learn how to take care of myself. This is just the beginning of a very long story! Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your truth. Even your struggles inspire me (I know that sounds weird), because I get to watch you learn and grow. Your openness and honesty allows us to grow with you. I truly LOVE you

[@marianelamerille8027]

Such an honest and wonderful talk. Love you sweet gorgeous young woman. I am a 68 grandmother who is very impressed with your healing process and your determination to be as transparent as possible. Will keep you in my prayers. Love your videos.

[@antheasvlog]

I'm so sorry that you have to deal with this extra pressure from social media on top of everything. Now I feel bad that I didn't even notice a change... I always admired you for beeing so strong open and honest as a young divorced christian. A role model for soooo many of us. I hope you feel better soon - glad you got this off your chest now :) hugs from Austria

[@Isabella-yh8ls]

You are beautiful and courageous. Please be gentle with yourself. Amidst the pain and hurt, you have walked this past year with grace and dignity.💕🤗

[@EscapingBabylon]

I also was quite physically fit and eating healthy before my wife ran off with another man during Covid. Couldn't eat, lost about a fifth of my body weight, and was swimming in my clothes. Everyone was super concerned, encouraging me to just stuff food down. Had just launched a business 3 months before Covid. Super stress! I'm eating better now and have recovered some to around my weight in high school. Your story is freakishly similar. Thanks for sharing. All the best in your journey Michel.

[@cynthia_hernandez]

Im a silent viewer…. I had to comment. You are so incredibly brave for making this video. I admire you for so many reasons, none of then for your size. You are so kind, gentle, honest, intentional, goofy, and intelligent- I admire you for all these traits. Im sorry you are going through this. I pray for your healing process ❤️🙏🏻

[@bilkisuabubakar983]

You really inspire me alot, people can't project who you are without knowing who you are

[@amybennett1530]

You are amazing, and remember that although the negative comments are hurtful that is on them, because they don't understand what you have gone through. You seem very kind and caring with a wonderful family and good friends to support you. Keep up the good work and stay positive. You are doing great! I pray only good things for you. 💜

[@denisegrosch2744]

I adore how transparent you are. It is essential to shine a light on the areas of our life we need help with. You are SO amazing and I only hope you help others with this issue. You are beautiful just the way you are and where you are! Keep moving in the direction of healing. You go, girl!!!

[@kainanimerrill1364]

As someone who has many similar food limitations thanks to health issues I would love to see a series of videos exploring cooking/meal prepping wheat free egg free on the go options! Thanks for being vulnerable ❤️

[@jens7459]

Praying for you…and just know you are not alone. So many people suffer from this….so thank you for sharing. Allow yourself some grace…lol…you have been through a lot! 💜

[@kangarookirsten583]

Thank you for being so open on such a huge platform. Made me emotional. I have the opposite issue with food I use it when I'm sad happy upset etc it's become an addiction. Thanks for sharing.

[@sashabenton4413]

Thank you for your honesty. Don’t let anyone make you feel like you are promoting a certain body image, I’ve watched so many of f your videos and not once have I gotten that from you, all I’ve seen is you promoting eating a balanced diet and honesty you are very modest with your body, not flaunting it. Take care of yourself, you deserve it.

[@maybeido03]

I have eating disorder. I started purging since I was 7th grade. Because my mom calls me fat and ugly and useless all the time. It really fueled into my bulimia. That's what trauma does to a person. It started then and I didn't plan to deal with it until I was 30, now I'm 35. I have been in recovery for 5 years. I don't purge but I binge here and there still. I over exercise to counter balance the binging. I know the mental illness is still there, and it's manifesting from purging into over-training. I went to graduate school for rehabilitation counseling degree, but that didn't exempt me from having bulimia. It is ok that you were educated in the nutrition field yet you have some eating disorder. There's nothing to be embarrassed about. We are all human and we have a lot going on in our lives. No one is bullet proof. With that said, Michael, this is your channel, if you're uncomfortable to talk about certain matters, don't. Don't let subscribers pressuring you into thinking you are obligated to share what's going on in your personal life. KZbin is not for everyone, I hate to see your being uncomfortable. If you need some time off to take care of yourself, please do!

[@kara4461]

I am so moved by this video. I too have recently (last three weeks) confronted some of my disordered eating habits. The idea of treating my body well and trying to be healthy has been a huge focal point for me. Bodies are so personal and I went through a lot of my life receiving messaging that my body was not “enough” but hid how I felt from others. Moments of judgment can shut me down so easily and I love how you took this opportunity to speak for yourself and share how this is difficult for you. I connect with the thought of “I should know better.” I am a therapist and often feel embarrassed for failing to take my own advice. I have had people tell me that I have no right to help others since I have my own mental health struggles (anxiety) and it has, at times, been a huge source of guilt that I am not “fixed.” But my own journey has helped me develop skills and insight that are priceless! I appreciate your content not because you have a perfect life or always do the right things, but because you share your journey and show how important growth is. I am glad that your support system and therapy have been helpful. Life can be full of obstacles as well as joys. I have reconnected with my sense of gratitude and joy over the time I have watched you because you are sharing your joy and spirit. I hope that sharing this video has been helpful for you, it certainly was appreciated by me.

[@lea-annesaich5303]

Sweet girl I absolutely love you ❤️ I am 54 and find you so inspirational for being so honest and real. Thank you for sharing with us, it has helped me in my life. I have been divorced 10 years and finally I understand about eating disorders. Opposite to you I eat my feelings, but you have shed light on this disorder. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

[@coldfeet2553]

You’re such a strong person. You don’t owe anyone an explanation of your life. You’ve been thru an incredible trauma and unrealistic to think there’s a quick time line to get over it. Wishing you all the best

[@shelleylee7549]

Love you, Michel! Please know you don't need to try to be anyone's role model - you do not need that pressure and it's not your responsibility. Just live your life and be happy and healthy. ❤ Thank you for always being so open and honest. I'm sure this video will help many not feel so alone.

[@mae.c7]

Love you sweet girl. ❤️ Thank you for entrusting with us such a sensitive area in your life.

[@birdie6916]

Michel, you are very brave to share something so deeply personal on the Internet. A dear friend of mine struggled with disordered eating many years ago after her divorce, she went through a really dark time, but now she is in a much better, healthier place---mentally, physically, and spiritually. She, too, had a background/degree in nutrition and was really hard on herself because of it. We're all human. We do the best we can. You're doing great. You have the support of many many people. 💖

[@vanessamackay2322]

I was size 10 to 12 when I got married at 23. I am now a size 18 at 50. We have been married for 27 years in October. In the last few years I have had a masectomy and recently I have lost my hair to chemo for breast cancer (previously targeted treatment with no hair loss). My husband does not love me solely for my outside appearance. He loves me for the life we have built together, and for the hurdles we have overcome. You will find your way.

[@thesquishstitch]

Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable Michel. Just know that a perfect role model, is an imperfect one. Being vulnerable, authentic, and real about the natural and common but stupidly taboo things alot of people go through takes a lot of guts.

[@Militarymomma]

Please don’t be too hard on yourself. Nobody can be expected to be perfect. It’s wry common to use food as a control point when life feels out of control. Be proud of yourself for taking the initiative to make yourself healthier. You are an amazing young woman. We are our own worst critics by leaps and bounds. Remembering to be kind to ourselves is often harder than being kind to others. Allow yourself whatever you need to be happy with who you’re becoming no matter if it’s emotionally or physically. You deserve to love all of you as God loves us. Praying for God to hold your hand and your heart through all of the journeys that you embark on in all aspects of who you are.

[@sherryowen3shotfilm301]

I’m so sorry you are going through this, along with everything else you’ve had to endure the past several months. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your struggles; it will certainly be an encouragement to so many who hear your voice. From one person of faith to another, you will be included in my prayers as you work through this struggle. ❤️

[@jackiesue3891]

What an amazing woman you are! You are so articulate, so intelligent, and so so aware of those who are watching you and how you are perceived by them. Thank you for keeping it real, even when you aren't sure you're ready to do so. My prayers are with you...one day at a time, you will conquer this. Sending you hugs!

[@erinharris7663]

I watch your videos not because you are a perfect person or perfect role model but because you are authentic and always striving to be the best and healthiest person you can be at the time. That is the best kind of role model in my opinion. I have been struggling with my body as well but for the opposite reason that I have gained weight because of health issues and medications I have to take. I was once a fitness instructor and now can no longer exercise. Having life changes that affect your body is very difficult. I am here with you for your journey and mine to do the best we can and to love ourselves along the way.

[@samiejohnson7735]

I have to thank you for being honest and open, life is hard and it’s nice to hear your struggles. My 15 year old daughter is just starting with gluten free and lactose intolerance and for you to share your knowledge with that helps me as a parent. Keep the faith and continue to be YOU!!

[@courtneyjw9828]

Oh Michel - you seriously never cease to amaze me with how you handle hard situations! You could have taken those comments and just buried them away, as it’s obviously something that is painful and sensitive to talk about….however, you put others first and are basically saying “I’m going to talk about this because I don’t want others to walk through this and feel alone”….that is so amazingly strong of you! You have nothing to feel guilty about either; going through the trauma you have dealt with, is a crazy ride and can be really hard not only on your heart but also on your body! I send you love and continues strength! ❤️❤️ Hold your head high my friend! ❤️❤️