Life after relapse, what happened and what’s the plan moving forward?

[@Holio88]

I really admire people who show their struggles and don’t act like everything is fine in front of the camera, but behind the scenes it’s not. So much respect to you for the realness. God Bless, brother.

[@Slayer-7373]

Appreciate this man thank you, I feel like showing the true side of addiction can hopefully save lives. God bless you too my friend.

[@CraigFox-lt6lt]

If your hand offends ,cut it off - of course JC wasn't being literal, but it makes the point, to distance oneself from the associations, or triggers as much as possible... Slayer you know what those things are - and no accusations are implied - - you know i wouldn't do that. I believe in you brother!!!! Really glad you posted msn !! 🙏 💜 💭

[@Slayer-7373]

Always appreciate your comments and insight Craig. Thanks brother, for bless my friend 🙏

[@MonaYY_Rig]

Slayer. I appreciate you being straightforward with your addiction and picking yourself up again. No many how many times this takes to get sober. you’re important❤ your life matters.💚🫶🏻 You are so strong. We don’t want you to die 😢TeamSlayer 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻huge hugs 🤗

[@Kristen10-22]

This 👆🏻 Slay! Mona said it exactly ❤❤❤

[@Slayer-7373]

Mona really thank you so much, y’all are too nice to me!!!! 🖤🙏

[@Kristen10-22]

@@Slayer-7373 🫶🏻💜

[@RICHARDOCONNOR-s2j]

'NO NOT TODAY!!' Challenge yourself to go another day! Anxiety was also difficult for me. This next piece of advice isn't for everyone, but it worked for me. I kept an UNOPENED 750 in my closet my first 6months. Two actually. I knew it was there if I needed it but told myself to JUST GO 1 MORE DAY. At the end of 6months I emptied the first in my kitchen sink. At the end of my 1st year, gave the last bottle away.

[@Slayer-7373]

Your story about the bottles is so awesome brother, gives me inspiration. I’m gonna keep pushing forward and not succumb to that demon!!! One day at a time man, we got this!! 🙏💪

[@manephewlenny6401]

Shame and guilt won't help you man in any way whatsoever. You've proven to yourself you can't drink and it's best that you don't drink, now you've got to forgive yourself and do your best to get back on track and stay there. I'm 40 now and I spent my 20s relapsing and hating myself and did it work? Nope. Just made me more miserable and more likely to reach for the bottle. You're young, bright and have time and you'll work it out. The more times you slip though, the harder it gets to stay on course and we aren't always granted another shot to put things right, so do your best for yourself!

[@Slayer-7373]

Love this comment, this is the type of stuff I need to hear!!! Thank you, thank you. God bless and I will do my best to take your advice to heart 🙏🖤

[@steveharwoodAFCTV]

Slayer, Withdrawal symptoms are the worst feeling in the world. When I ended up in hospital the veins were popping out the back of my legs, I thought I was having a heart attack, The anxiety was unbearable. I honestly would not wish those symptoms on anyone. Slayer U GOT THIS MATE, I BELIEVE IN YOU, LD BELIEVES IN YOU. Steve LONDON UNITED KINGDOM

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey Steve thanks so much brother, I know exactly what you speak of. Especially this last time, when I first went to the ER the palpitations were so bad, I really thought for a few minutes that it might be it. It was terrifying to say the least. Let’s stay sober brother, i appreciate this comment man. Also shout-out to 🇬🇧, that’s awesome. :) and shout-out to LD

[@lukepowell5353]

Yes Steve fellow Britt here but in Wales, Slayer is a boss ain't he and we are all rootin for you slayer man we believe in you, you stay sober and you can achieve anything after going through that hell of withdrawal, free going through that no one can hurt you because you have experiencesd more pain than they could possibly imagine. My name is LUKE POWELL AND I AM AND ALCOHOLIC AND IM NOT SCARED TO SAY IT !!!!+

[@ExpatPetshop]

​@@lukepowell5353Powerful, Luke! There nothing AS Bad AS the withdrawal anyone or anything in this can ever Put upon us!

[@SHope-rq1hc]

As a clinical therapist, videos like yours, and people like you make me a better therapist, by you being open and honest about your struggles BUT also holding yourself accountable. you deserve all the likes, views and subscribers. thank you for sharing, truly.

[@Slayer-7373]

This is so awesome, thank you. 🖤 I’m glad I can be of help, hearing this helps me :).

[@Onelethalangel69]

I totally relate! I am a PSS Sober Coach and we are always learning to do better tomorrow than I did today because of yesterday's lesson. We are not cookie cutting rehab rotation door in out at a drop of a dime. Each individual (millions of us) on the journey of Recovery * no matter what recovering from* has a story, a book to be read and understood with their own unique perspective and struggles. Thank you for posting your comment/thoughts! Melissa

[@Slayer-7373]

@@Onelethalangel69 100% Melissa.

[@philparisi9175]

The literal and symbolic meaning of tossing not in the garbage can will help many people congratulations on your opportunity to get healthy now

[@Slayer-7373]

That’s what I was thinking as well brother, I really hope it helps. If it’s helping people it helps me. Thanks so much phil, god bless you brother. 🙏

[@chrisgmusic4God]

Amen brother. All things are possible through Christ.

[@Slayer-7373]

Amen, amen 🙏💪

[@PeterZ873]

I used to tell myself a lot of times “I am strong”, “I got this”, etc. And then, one day, I realised that, no matter how strong, I am actually powerless over alcohol. That was an immense relief to stop fighting. I simply do whatever people in my recovery program do and I stop resisting.

[@Slayer-7373]

Exactly Peter, very well put man. That surrender I think is important, now having a week+ again sober I’m trying to note all these things for the future. God bless man

[@liverdisease-qb6rk]

I believe in you brother!!!! I know that you aren't going back! Good job pouring out that poison! That's all it is! Poison! God bless ❤❤❤❤

[@Slayer-7373]

Love ya dude, also appreciate you that day we spoke man. I got this, god bless 🙏🙏

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you as always bro.

[@jeff67788]

Awesome to see you here LD love you guys

[@Slayer-7373]

@@jeff67788 love ya too Jeff, I will say too also though we must always keep our guards up. No one is safe in this disease

[@liverdisease-qb6rk]

@@jeff67788 ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@marceloptasznik4433]

Consider a relapse as a learning curve. I've had several and each time I learned something new.

[@Slayer-7373]

Absolutely 💯, if it’s not a lesson than it was just a mistake. God bless my friend!

[@ExpatPetshop]

My Last one definitively "Had a purpose". I came Out different from the other Side.

[@adambrady7742]

Also be more kind, compassionate and understanding with yourself. Self love, giving yourself what you need, very important.

[@jts841]

There is absolutely a spiritual element to addiction. The first step (imo) is becoming conscious and aware of your minds chatter and not reacting to it. It’s important to see that you are NOT your thoughts and emotions. You are the one observing them. Do everything in your power to observe and not react (get another bottle) and eventually that inner voice will quiet and transform. Each time that you turn away from that inner voice and choose a healthy path, momentum and energy grows… eventually slingshotting you into a completely new and higher version of yourself. Addiction is a powerful tool consciousness uses to transform and bring MEANING into our lives ❤️

[@Slayer-7373]

100% there’s a spiritual element. I don’t know how addicts can go through what we do and not believe that but to each their own. Like you said each time we choose US Instead of that poison ☠️ we grow stronger and stronger. Takes work though. Thank you 🖤

[@jts841]

@@Slayer-7373 you are doing incredible work!! Keep going 💪🏻💯

[@Slayer-7373]

@@jts841 💪

[@davidlafond8327]

Well props to you for owning up to your mistakes and trying to get your life back together, Slayer! Unfortunately, relapse is part of the recovery process for most addicts, myself included! I relapsed almost 2 weeks ago after nearly 2 years sober! Now I have to start all over again, but that’s OK! No amount of self pity will make your situation better! If you fall, just pick yourself up and keep going ASAP! Good luck man, we’re all rooting for you here! Take care ❤

[@Slayer-7373]

Brother the fact that you did 2 years, 2 YEARS!!! Shows you can absolutely do this again my friend. God bless you man, thank you. I’m rooting for you as well my friend. One day at a time, one hour at a time if it calls for it. Let’s just stay sober, for today. 💪🙏

[@DonnaMcClint]

Thanks to your video today, I just had my husband pour a bottle of red wine down the drain. It’s been sitting in my garage forgotten for the last year and I found it a few weeks back and thought I would give it away, but nope it gone. Thanks for sharing your experience and keep trying.

[@Slayer-7373]

Extremely proud of you, I know how hard that was trust me. God bless you 🙏

[@Qui-Jon]

Man when I quit drinking I started watching you and I was going through extreme withdrawals and what really helped me was re arranging my room and cleaning up it’s a lot easier to break a habit if you change your surroundings and that can be as simple as throwing away a Jim beam poster hanging on the wall arranging your room completely different and doing a deep clean donate clothes to goodwill and get new clothes it sounds goofy but it’s what I did that helped cement the change I’d made 3 months and some change clean today and life’s great!

[@UnseemlyGenie00]

They say cleanliness is Godliness. And organizing your room will help declutter your mind.

[@Slayer-7373]

First off bro congratulations on the 3 months 💪that is fn awesome. Also I like this idea man, I notice I do a lot of cleaning when I’m coming out of the booze, I think to distract my mind. I should move some stuff around and change it up, solid advice my friend. God bless 🙏

[@Tracy-ks1vk]

We love you too ❤ we will get there one day at a time. Just for today.

[@Slayer-7373]

🖤🖤🖤thanks so much Tracy. One day at a time

[@JCarm-LK785]

Slayer..Glad you're on on the road to recovery brother.. I'm extremely happy to hear this ..Thank The Lord Jesus Christ 🙏...stay strong 💪 brother...2 Cor 12:9

[@Slayer-7373]

Glad to be back brother, god bless you man. I wish you nothing but the best, you seem like a solid dude similar to me just fighting this demon. Thanks man, god bless. Hope you’re doing well in your sobriety bro. Also amen 🙏

[@JCarm-LK785]

@@Slayer-7373 We both solid..fa sho...take care.

[@andrewhazenberg3398]

Fuckineh man ! You and L.D. are my heroes that are huge for my recovery from alcoholism. You guys are both so open and brutally honest about how fucking deadly this alcohol disease can be . I would love to chat with you sometime and let you in on my horrors of my many years of drinking . I came damn close to losing everything, but I thank God that I finally got sober 29 months ago , after many attempts at sobriety. I am 58 years old , and I have never been happier in my life than I am today . Love ya man ! Stay strong Slayer ! 🙏🙏❤️

[@Slayer-7373]

That’s awesome man 👏!!! Congratulations on your sobriety and happiness, it’s well deserved. I’m gonna keep batting and hopefully this go around I’ll conquer this demon for good. God boss and much love 🙏🙏

[@andrewhazenberg3398]

@@Slayer-7373 Thanks Slayer . What helps me stay sober is that I almost lost everyone that is important to me in my life cuz they just didn’t want anything to do with me anymore and that was such a lost and lonely feeling . I fucking hated that my alcoholism got to the point where I was lying , stealing , drinking & driving , messing up at work , forgetting a lot of important things , major health issues, but the worst of the worst pain that I felt was the complete utter despair and hatred I felt for myself. That was the fucking TSN turning point for me man !! August 3 2022 was the day that I was truly sick and tired of being sick and tired . I have not had a drop of alcohol since . I tried many times before to quit drinking , but I just didn’t want it bad enough I guess . I NEVER EVER want to even have one beer , cuz that would open the door to Hell for me & I am not sure at age 58 that have anymore recoveries left in me man !! You are an awesome dude man & I am totally rooting for you to beat these demons . YOU ARE WORTH IT !! 🙏❤

[@DATONEGAMER25]

I remember the feeling of dread and depression during my first week or two of quitting alcohol. The more time that passes it got better. You got this man.

[@Slayer-7373]

It’s good to hear that I’m not alone bro, so many can relate. We got this man 💪🙏 one day at a time.

[@DATONEGAMER25]

@@Slayer-7373 Yes you are not alone. Sometimes when I feel really down and depressed I usually feel really lonely also. But there is a whole planet of people here. It kind of puts my mind at ease knowing others feel this way too.. I'd like to reach out and hug them. Tell them it's okay. The sun rises every morning with the chirps of the songbirds. Chin up friend. We got this!

[@dwaynetitus2012]

Stay strong brother don't fold to the temptation of alcohol, I know you can do this, I have all the confidence in the world in you. I hear it in your voice and I see it in your eyes my friend your want and need to overcome this terrible disease shows up clearly. I fought like hell for years against these demons, I battled with temptations at the same time it was very hard but I had to reach deep into soul and rely in my strong belief in the good Lord to overcome the demons that plagued me. When you resist the temptations those nasty demons throw your way you win a major battle. I'm going on 5 years my friend of sobriety but I must say in my time I probably relapsed to many times to count, I lied to myself I lied to those I loved and lost my self respect very disgusted for letting myself drink again I also from suffered depression but this is common with most people and will subside in time, your not alone Slayer. If I can overcome these craving and temptations I know you can. I can tell from experience that you are someone who is craving true sobriety and happiness plus peace back in your life. I still fight to maintain my sobriety Slayer but I will never give up what I fought for a long time to anyone, anything or any reason. I love sobriety you become a totally new person sorta like being born again my friend. Be strong my friend never quit keep your faith and believe in yourself. I pray you will overcome I support you and will be there God Bless my friend be safe. DT

[@Slayer-7373]

First off thank you brother for the understanding and the words of encouragement, they mean more than you know man. Second off congratulations on 5 years of sobriety 💪💪💪💯💯💯 that’s beautiful man. When I read comments like these I don’t feel so alone and I’m not like you said. It’s a journey but it’s a journey worth taking, one day at a time man. God blwss

[@dwaynetitus2012]

@@Slayer-7373 Stay strong msn you got this thing if you every need something let me know I'm here for you or anyone else who needs a boost of friendship BTW Happy B-Day man keep the faith and never quit because quitters never win but a winner never quits remember that, God Bless Brother. stay strong!

[@AlcoholicG.O.A.T]

You are going to win brother!! First step and God is give you signs and that bottle was one of them my brother! You have a fighters spirt. Think about getting into Muay Thai. Always push forward.

[@Slayer-7373]

Love this man, thank you and god bless 🙏 also I’d love to try Muay Thai. I did karate and taekwondo for years!! Learned a lot of self defense, competed in competitions and became state champ. I should have Stuck with it, had a 3rd degree black belt. Anyways love the idea and the comment brother thank you.

[@DebbieSnapp]

There you go! So proud of you! You are human and we have all done it. Reach out to me anytime you need to. You have this buddy. Love and blessings. ❤️🙏

[@Jellytosh]

Well done for this positive video. It is so unfair in some countries obesity is classed as an illness and people get extra care but come to addiction I personally feel gets left for people to deal with it on one's own. Stay strong. Sending you love and kindness 🌻

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey jelly 🖤🖤thank you so much.

[@RonsMom40-pu1en2gj4p]

Yes, it takes determination and that is hard.

[@Slayer-7373]

VERY hard, but not impossible. God bless Ron’s mom :) 🙏🙏

[@jenniferberkel7623]

I don't know why I was recommended this video but I watched it. I don't know what your challenges are but good luck to you sir

[@Slayer-7373]

:) this is awesome, thank you. 🙏💯

[@angiesweeting6618]

super proud of you for dumping that out and I have faith you can and will do this. You are right about killing ourselves with alcohol. There is a guy that I know of that just recently had a liver transplant due to alcoholic cirrhosis and he posted a revolver shot glass - it is a shot glass with the barrel going up to the mouth when you drink the alcohol. Sounds morbid, I know, but I looked at that for a long time and just started crying because of how truthful it is. You look good, and you got this my friend!

[@Slayer-7373]

@@angiesweeting6618 🖤🖤appreciate this Angie, thank you so much. God bless

[@frank-the-tank75]

I had this one shirt I would wear only when I would black out. Back in college. Not that I wore the shirt to drink hard in. It was just the shirt that I happened to always be in when I would black out. Every time without fail. Even my roomies said something. I ended up burning it. Was a great decision so I respect you tossing that hat! 👍

[@Slayer-7373]

Love that your burned that shirt 🔥!!! I’m glad I tossed the hat too. It felt good and it felt like it was the right thing to do. God bless man

[@Thagy1973]

Hey Slayer you GOT THIS man!!! We are all rooting for you here. Nothing but love over here brother and I know how it is to relapse! I have A LOT of experience with that! But we will come out the other side stronger and more reailient!!

[@Slayer-7373]

Thagy my brother!!! I always appreciate your comments man. Nothing but love sent back your way bro. As long as we learn from these things I suppose is what matters most. God bless bro and thank you. 💪🙏

[@jeff67788]

So happy to see you back. Please keep fighting. Love you. GLAD to see you speaking about Dirk at the end too. RIP 🪦

[@Slayer-7373]

Always happy to see you in the comments Jeff!! 🙏 thank you brother and yes RIP Dirk.

[@Slayer-7373]

God bless 🙏

[@debrah4241]

Powerful to dump out the booze. Keep active, outdoor time in nature is important. Your brain needs time to recover, give it what it needs.

[@Slayer-7373]

It was one of the only times in my life that pouring the booze out was actually pretty easy shocking enough even to me but I think and hope that’s a sign of real change? Anyways always appreciate your comments Debrah thank you, god bless

[@globalital]

Throwing the hat away might work slayer,like a clean start sort of thing,I'm struggling too,I think we all struggle with chemicals or something in one way or another,I might throw my hat away too when it's my time,which is long overdue,good luck dude,from England uk

[@Slayer-7373]

Dude throw your hat away, do it. I look it like a ritual or a symbol to restart sobriety. We will get back to where we need to be bro. God bless you and England 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

[@globalital]

​@@Slayer-7373god bless to you to bro and god bless America..both countries seemed kind of doomed at the moment though don't you think..England does for sure,keep your head up bro and keep on trying 🇺🇲

[@adrianowallin]

“This isn’t how the story ends for Slayer” Damn right man, you have a much better story to tell when the time comes. You have a lot to give. If you can’t do it for yourself, then do it for others

[@Slayer-7373]

💪💪absolutely brother, y’all have my back and I have great people in my life as well. It’s time man

[@Mittens23]

You look incredible, considering what you've been through.I feel completely disconnected after ..as down as you can get. But ! You are on the way up..step by step..proud of you xxx

[@Slayer-7373]

This is really sweet of you to say mittens thank you 🙏 🖤. One day at a time.

[@colinnz]

Proud of you for keeping going. Good to have our slayer back

[@Slayer-7373]

Good to be back brother, god bless 🙏

[@amandaflaherty7528]

SSSLLLAAAYYYEERRR!! I'm just seeing this and have to head into work, but I'll check it out later! Sending all my love ❤❤❤

[@Slayer-7373]

Just watch when you get a chance Amanda no rush or worries at all 🙏🖤, hope you’re doing awesome!

[@RichardChips]

Slayer I’ve only drank 2 days this month so far, something I thought I could never do a year ago. I was averaging 4-8 beers a day. Between this month and last I’ve only drank 8 days. You can do it bro thank you for helping me not drink. I’m on a week sober again today.

[@Slayer-7373]

That is incredible Richard 💪💪, keep up the amazing work brother. Let’s beat this thing together, one week is awesome. God bless

[@nidiaborge]

Takes a HUGE amount of strength to do that. Remember I told you when I also was cleaning my room and had been sober and found that 750ml of vodka....gone in a matter of hours. You're not one step ahead of me. I know I have some hidden in the garage or somewhere in the house but will NOT drink it this time if I ever find them. Too much damage I have done to my ownself. We're in this together for support. Keep going and don't look back, forget the past and enjoy the present cause is all we have. Sending you strength, good vibes and many blessings coming your way. Remember the little pact we have about the cravings and urges. Don't forget you have support! We love you! You've got this! 💪

[@Redsnapper123]

Don’t want those DT’s back.

[@nidiaborge]

@@Redsnapper123 I have had them, they're horrendous out of this world hallucinations and severe epileptic attack when I was about 4 hours away from day 5 from not drinking, 0 warning. Scary stuff. Did that stop me? No. But now I know the huge damage I have I'm terriefied. I've told Slayer to not touch that ever again, is so tempting. Alcohol=slow painful death or instant death without knowing from alcohol poisoning. Quitting cold Turkey CAN and will kill and you, benzos and alcohol are the worse to withdrawal from. I hope and pray you do NOT go through the hallucinations I had a year ago that could've stop my heart from sheer fear. No one understood though, they thought I had gone insane. It lasted 18 hours. I was actually awake and seeing the nightmare, a collision between sleep and wakefulness, nothing I have ever seen in regular nightmares or scary movies compares to the atrocities of whatever I saw that I can't even explain, cause they weren't just shadows, they morphed into different animals but they weren't animals, is hard to describe really. I hope you stay safe for your own safe, lobed ones that care about you and your sanity. Blessings to you all.

[@Slayer-7373]

You know I always love your comments nidia, thank you. Sending much love! 🙏

[@ReapingTheHarvest]

That's probably a good thing that the amount you found was a tiny amount. Yea it would cause a full relapse for me too, but just knowing I would have to go to the store and buy more if I drank that is enough to make me second think it. If it was like a full bottle I would be more inclined to say screw it I'll just drink this whole bottle and enjoy it, pass out and then move on. Idk if that even makes sense but that's how my mind works sometimes. It's easier for me to resist it if there isn't enough to get drunk I guess. But if there's enough to get drunk it's more tempting. Good job nipping that relapse in the bud quickly man! I am a poly-addict and have been off alcohol for a while now since last Sept (awful withdrawals), but I relapsed on opiates earlier this year and have been stuck in the shit cycle ever since. It scares me because that's how Dirk died and I'm a really bad alcoholic/addict just like him or you. No amount ever satisfies. I just need to taper off but withdrawals are way more difficult now at age 35 than they were 10-15 years ago. Every 4 hours I have to dose. Can't even get a full nights sleep. At least I can function on opiates unlike booze which renders me useless. I'm Christian too and a few times in the past Jesus literally took away all my withdrawal symptoms and let me quit without any pain whatsoever. Not just once but a few different times I should've had horrendous w/d. I doubt he will do that again though since I basically spit in his face to relapse again. Sorry this comment is all over the place... keep up the good work!

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey no need to apologize for this comment at all, i appreciate these types of comments. Helps me with my sobriety hearing others stories. Trust me I can relate, I’d tell you do whatever it takes, WHATEVER it takes, I’d tell myself the same thing. Dirks story and how it ended is so sad, it stuns me still. Thinking about him when I read the article. We don’t want to end up like that, or with some horrid disease from this. Let’s just try our best to keep the disease we already have in “remission” God bless and thank you 🙏

[@lukepowell5353]

1 video a week bro you can do this !! I'm honestly so happy to see your face come up on a video , keep going slayer , you're stronger than you know

[@Slayer-7373]

Happy to see y’all’s comments. Also 100% I can do it 🙏🙏

[@joko09010]

I like to equate a-ism to diabetes. You can’t cure it, but you can treat it. And we are actually lucky because we don’t have to use insulin or give up cake! HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🥳 🎂

[@Slayer-7373]

This is a great way of looking at it joko, thank you 🖤🙏

[@ricocaddo4813]

Still praying for you brother.... stay strong 💪 stay sober brother....

[@Slayer-7373]

Appreciate you brother, one day at a time man. 💪💯

[@judithnicholais1492]

" The Man who chases 2 Rabbits catches neither " ~ Confucius Set One goal at a time and give it all your heart -- give it all your soul and you will be successful. 🔴 Enjoyed the vid as I enjoy all of them. ** As Motivation fades, we will need Discipline ** UGH. The D word. But that is what successful people posses. They are JUST DISCIPLINED ---- So glad you are doing this Now Slayer than at age 50. Praying for you amigo

[@Slayer-7373]

I’m glad you’re enjoying and getting something from them, that’s awesome. Your comments are awesome too, thank you Judith!! 🙏🖤

[@Redsnapper123]

Southern comfort 100 was your favourite brand, a brave move tipping that.

[@Slayer-7373]

Drinking it straight too!!!!! 😅🤢

[@Slayer-7373]

Been my drink of choice for most of my drinking days unfortunately.

[@silvo-sings]

Hi Slayer - hope you’re feeling better. I’m an alcoholic of 36 plus years battling. Sober now but I’ve had many relapses.. I’m 63 now. One thing I learnt is that I don’t count days of sobriety as in literal counting.. 1 week.. two weeks etc. I find that it can cause subliminal pressure and often causes us to beat ourselves up on relapse. I focus on the day.. today I’m sober and a recovering alcoholic.. just as you are and many others like us who are cursed by this mental health/ addiction disease. I’m cursed by massive low self esteem, chip on my shoulder and a hatred of criticism although I’m my worst critic. Alcoholism.. like you rightly say is “ walk around insanity”.. just get through each day sober. Take it easy. Mark ( UK)🙏👍

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey mark ✊ god bless you man, thank you for the words of wisdom. When you guys speak I listen, you’ve been here and done that. We will always have each other as brothers and sisters in recovery, it’s much needed. We understand each other like the “regular” person doesn’t. Anyways thanks again man and shout out to 🇬🇧!!!!

[@Phatballzinyoface420]

Glad to see ur out. I hate that my cousin called it hangxiety. Ive been a daily weed smoker since i was 13 24 now. Im a binge drinker when i do relapse. Drinking is a problem for me too

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey thanks man 🙏 good to be out, we will get to where we want to be man. When I was 24 I was at some of my worst drinking in my life. I’d recommend for both of us to try our best to stay sober. It’s an individual path for each and every one of us bro. You will get there, you just being here means you want help. Bless bro 🙏

[@jennifermulholland9412]

You can do it you have succeeded several times. You bring me inspiration sending much love ❤

[@Slayer-7373]

Thanks Jennifer 🙏🖤, i appreciate you always being here showing love and support it’s awesome!

[@sportcenterTube]

I’m on month 11 relapsed many times the first 2 years . I’m rooting for you bro

[@Slayer-7373]

@@sportcenterTube congratulations on 11 months bro that’s awesome!!! 💪💪 and thank you! One day at a time.

[@strategicavocado]

Yeah, you're absolutely right when you say alcohol has a spiritual connection! Even Saint Paul said, 'For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.' (Ephesians 6:12) He’s clearly pointing out that the struggle is spiritual. We all, including you of course, need to tap into our inner strength and spiritual power to overcome the demon of alcohol. Jesus also said, 'This kind can come out only by prayer and fasting.' (Mark 9:29) So it's a battle that requires both discipline and divine guidance. Wishing you all the best, man, as always-you’ll get through this. Much love! We are all in this together.

[@Slayer-7373]

Well said my friend, I’m with you 100%. God bless and amen. 🙏

[@JackiePena-h4z]

Slayer we all believe in you !!! You got this .. good job pouring out that poison… ❤❤❤

[@Slayer-7373]

Appreciate you Jackie, thank you as always 🙏🖤

[@lukebrown7340]

Good to see you back to normal stay up homie you know what to do, always got your back!

[@Slayer-7373]

Much love brother, you know I got yours as well man. God bless

[@ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex]

Always love God it's good 🙏🏼I promise 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻,I still watch Dirk Delirium because I have a really close friend who has the same thing going on🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@SpiritualFlesh-x6x]

Hey! Glad to see you back! I admire your determination.

[@Slayer-7373]

💪glad to be back brother. Also KEEP making videos man!

[@i-love-an-alcoholic]

Glad to see you back. One day at a time!

[@Slayer-7373]

Glad to be back ILAA, always good to see you as well. 🙏🙏🙏

[@krislic84]

You and LD are life savers.

[@Slayer-7373]

This is really incredible of you to say. This is exactly why I’m doing KZbin. Comments like these are what fuel me to stay sober myself and to continue to upload. :) y’all really help us more than you know as well. Thank you 🙏

[@lukepowell5353]

As an Alcoholic, You Will Violate Your Standards Quicker than You Can Lower Them.” - Robin Williams

[@Slayer-7373]

1000%

[@janetstadius1684]

Welcome back, missed you Janet 🇬🇧

[@Slayer-7373]

Good to be back, much love. 🇬🇧

[@lukepowell5353]

Dirk Delirium is watching down brother can feel it . Let's beat this and not let him down , rip Delirium Dirk, you are and will always be my higher power 🙏

[@Slayer-7373]

🙏🙏

[@temprary580]

Just like active use is a pattern we get stuck in, so is the start/stop cycle.

[@Slayer-7373]

100% and these patterns can be monthly and for some yearly!!! Super dangerous and we need to be weary of this.

[@temprary580]

@Slayer-7373 none of us are immune too it. Took forever for me to get past a year. Important part is never giving up

[@temprary580]

@Slayer-7373 it's important to know, that while any clean time is good, it's just as painful for your loved ones to see you stop/start as it is for you to be in active use

[@kathrynminnick8986]

You are looking really well! I know that mentally you are feeling low, but try to remember our minds reflect our physical state (of course, our minds can affect our physical state, too). Try to have faith that small improvements in “lifestyle” will begin to heal your mood-better diet, sunshine, moving around, interacting with positive (sober) people, finding activities, trying to get good sleep. We must take care of our physical selves to give us the psychological momentum to make major life changes, like getting/staying sober. You are a great, self-reflective and God-driven person. I wish you strength in reaching and maintaining the forever sobriety that you deserve. I am confident you’ll put your alcoholism into total remission, given your insights, faith and will! 😊😊❤

[@Slayer-7373]

🖤🖤🖤thank you Kathryn always!!!! :)

[@Micru866]

Hey slayer nice to see you on here. Every day you’ll start feeling better and better. I completely understand what you mean feeling lost, depression is a whole other level it’s not sadness that’s for sure. But with tools and time you’ll be able to recognize those feelings and allow it to pass. We all have a past like you said and demons, some are scarier than others, but we have to release it. It will hold you back from all we can accomplish. I’m wishing you peaceful thoughts. Be kind to yourself. It will click for you and this will not define who you are. Much love always my friend.

[@olives2426]

love this❤

[@Slayer-7373]

You always have a way with words micru, 🖤always thank you, i appreciate the friendship we’ve built. You’ve lifted me out of many dark times!!!

[@Micru866]

@@Slayer-7373 as you have, it’s definitely even. 😊 you’re very special.

[@lukepowell5353]

Proud of you mate seriously , your a treasure and people need you and you matter more than you know 🙏 we can do this.

[@Slayer-7373]

Luke your comments always uplift me brother, thank you!!! 🙏🙏

[@debbieporter6581]

Just watched your video and I know it will help so many with alcohol addiction. They believe in you and will listen to u, which is a wonderful thing. Take care.and God is watching over you always. 🙏🙏

[@Slayer-7373]

Always appreciate your comments and wisdom Debbie and prayers thank you. Hope you’re having an amazing day!! I’ll email you when I get a chance. God bless

[@joe_ma8973]

Push through brother, love the videos much love ❤

[@Slayer-7373]

🖤thanks so much Joe. God bless brother

[@donc.123]

_Good to see you, my man. I absolutely agree; probably not a good idea for you to drink. Just for today....or the next five minutes._

[@Slayer-7373]

You’re 100% correct don, as per usual lol.

[@Mmoose712]

You're an inspiration because you don't give up. You get up and keep trying!

[@Slayer-7373]

:) awe, thank you. Y’all inspire me.

[@jeanrookes2387]

One day at a time. You sound determined and that’s a good thing ❤🤗xx

[@Slayer-7373]

Yes!! 💪🙏

[@forgottensage-o5o]

Yay, Slayer! The Nike hat being thrown out reminds me of when someone joins the priesthood and they don the frock, or a lawyer becomes a judge, a fiancé a bride, a cadet an officer . . . they all go through a change of clothing. It's a satisfying ritual, isn't it?

[@Slayer-7373]

That’s what I was thinking to be honest, it’s ritualistic man the throwing away of the hat is going to be a symbol of sorts for me. Thanks my friend, god bless 🙏

[@Kristen10-22]

Slay the depression you’re talking about for me was “grief”.. Ambiguous Grief You’ll know when you’re done drinking it’s an inner knowing. You have the power within to choose if it will be you writing the end or the devil himself. I’ll be here for you ❤

[@Slayer-7373]

Win over the depression, conquer it. Thanks Kristen as always 🙏 god bless

[@Kristen10-22]

@@Slayer-7373love ya

[@ElaineSharon358]

Stay strong dude. It I sad not easy ❤

[@Slayer-7373]

🖤💪

[@LydiaVacs]

Proud of you. One hour at a time 💙

[@Slayer-7373]

Thanks Lydia 🖤

[@itscomplicatedwatches]

You can get through it, man. Not having a great day, myself but alcohol isn’t going to fix where I’m at.

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey brother I’m sorry to hear that man, I know how you feel. You seem like a genuine good dude, keep your head up. We will see brighter days soon my friend. God bless

[@oliviajohnston7216]

You're gonna get stronger every day!! Also, my birthday is in a couple days, too! This Saturday🎉 happy early bday, Slayer😊

[@Slayer-7373]

Happy early bday to you as well!!! :), 💪💪one day at a time. Thanks Olivia for all the support it’s awesome.

[@oliviajohnston7216]

@@Slayer-7373 💓💓💓☺️

[@LeiahDavis-s1p]

my birthday is also in a few days … a sole reminder to me that I’ve made another trip around the sun NOT only sober from substances but in my mind 🤍something I get to look forward to and celebrate. Take it one day at a time

[@Slayer-7373]

Ayeee only the coolest people are born around this time ;), lol jk but absolutely that should be a reminder to both of us on why to stay sober!!!! Life is precious. Thanks for the comment and happy early bday :)!

[@LeiahDavis-s1p]

@@Slayer-7373 happy early birthday to you too! :)

[@jeromesmith1662]

Blessings Lil bro!!!

[@Slayer-7373]

Blessings back to you my friend!! 🙏

[@olives2426]

slayer❤❤ much love and God bless❤

[@Slayer-7373]

God bless 🙏🖤

[@TheCodeviolator]

It is demons. That's why they call liquor "spirits"

[@Slayer-7373]

100%!!!!!! You’re spot on.

[@MrJohnocee]

Adh mor.u will rise again ☘️🌅

[@Slayer-7373]

🙏🙏 god bless.

[@jacobayala2165]

Bring us to lids! ❤️ stay strong slayer!

[@Slayer-7373]

I will bro 😎, much love man and thank you. 💪one day at a time.

[@sumshine928]

Hell yea. We gotta stay strong! And smart. The beanie looks good btw

[@Slayer-7373]

💪💪yes!!!!!, Also thank you :)

[@Kristen10-22]

After I would relapse back in my 20’s I’d drive to my meetings or just drive and scream along with Chester of LP. Hybrid Theory … I swear he sang my life. Still have a ton of rage inside not knowing how to let it out.

[@Slayer-7373]

I went through a linkin park phase ahah, use to love hybrid theory.

[@Kristen10-22]

@@Slayer-7373 it’s my ♥️ good times

[@mending_chord6787]

I'm pouring this shit out right now. I fucked up and should have never picked it up again. Fuck alcohol. Ty Slayer for the content and updates. Best wishes.

[@Slayer-7373]

Good on you brother, you are absolutely making the right decision. That’s not easy, I know how damn hard that is. Call out to god If need be, scream and yell at the bottle if need be, just get rid of it. We are on this sobriety path together, f ups happen, as you can see I know about them, but it’s what we do after that counts. You got this bro, keep me updated and thank you for this honesty. 🙏💪💯

[@rogermasters2657]

I relapsed in exactly the same way. I found alcohol in my flat and it took two days of planning for me to be able to drink it without my flatmate finding out. It's sick behaviour for sure, but that's how an alcoholic thinks a lot of the time. I'm with you all the way though. I myself have a pre detox meeting set for Wednesday and I'm looking forward to finally being able to talk face to face with other people like me. Just know that we all have your back. You can do this.

[@Slayer-7373]

It’s the worst man, when I found that booze under my seat that day I was genuinely mad. I was yelling in the car because I knew I was screwed. We are in this together bro, I’m with you as well man and have your back. You got this, we got this. 💯

[@gloriayoung392]

U R A pillar of hope Jesus Christ will support U thanks for sharing truth about alcohol abuse Its very popular unfortunately ❤

[@Slayer-7373]

🙏god bless you, Jesus is always there. Our one true friend haha. Thanks Gloria

[@Gr8Blue]

Goooood jooooob!!!!! No regrets❤️‍🔥🙏

[@Slayer-7373]

🖤🖤thanks Sarah.

[@StarBryce-i3h]

Been watching Ur videos for a bit..and I'm totally the same..Ur great for what you are doing...u help a lot xx

[@Slayer-7373]

@@StarBryce-i3h awe thank you :)

[@StarBryce-i3h]

Thanku honestly Ur videos really help people. Ur so honest and really appreciate that. I'm exactly the same. It's an ongoing struggle..but we have to be there for eachother. Atleast we aren't on our own with it..x

[@Slayer-7373]

@@StarBryce-i3h absolutely, we are in this together. 🙏 one day at a time my friend.

[@StarBryce-i3h]

Thanks so much xx

[@Slayer-7373]

@@StarBryce-i3h of course my friend!

[@stevesharp1823]

hey mate, long time no hear from me, went off the bevvy for 3 mths, went back on it for 3 mths and it was shit being a drinker again, been off it now for 10 weeks and this time im even more determine not to drink again and f### sake go back and get that cap, your beanies a shocker 😂😂😂 hang in there mate.

[@Slayer-7373]

Bro welcome back, we got this. You got this!!! F%^] alcohol man. The beanie i know right 🤣🤣, much love man. Thank you

[@susanmargaretwills6432]

Here in Italy the colour green (ur Beanie) symbolises "Hope" .. buy another green hat Ciao🙋🏻‍♀️

[@Slayer-7373]

This is awesome 😎, I’ll definitely buy another green hat. Shout out to Italy 🇮🇹 as well that’s so cool.

[@Kristen10-22]

Slayer listen in a bit. Wanted to let you know I’m here.. just outside rn ❤

[@joshchapman3515]

My friend I wish I could give you a huge hug!

[@Slayer-7373]

🙏🙏I would josh haha, god bless man.

[@GrifFungin]

Attempting to help others before learning to help yourself can be a huge burden that leads to fulfillment of the relapse cycle.

[@Slayer-7373]

I can see this, if the videos get too overwhelming or I feel they are bad for my sobriety I will definitely stop. I’m just sharing my journey right now but I definitely see your point. God bless

[@pittodrie19831]

Aww man! Back on the horse dude.

[@Slayer-7373]

🐴 that’s what we gotta do. Haha god bless man.

[@aronrosas4191]

You need hobbies to occupy your mind. I'm a recovering addict myself and doing activities I enjoyed before the chemicals is key in remaining sober. Alcohol is different, you don't have to justify it. Because society seems it acceptable, hang in there.

[@Slayer-7373]

Absolutely man you’re 100% right and this is something I have been neglecting. On my list there is a bunch of stuff to do to keep me busy, some new stuff as well. I’d like to maybe make a whole video showing you guys a week of what I’m doing to try and stay sober and healthy. Y’all have been a massive help and I really mean that, thanks bro. Bless

[@aronrosas4191]

@@Slayer-7373 try music. Learn the guitar or drums, anything to keep yourself busy and keep your mind from wandering. Gratitude is the short answer to remain sober. I ended up homeless for a few years and that started my recovery journey, don't end up on the street because that's eventually where addiction leads to

[@MrJohnocee]

Have a good birthday brother 🙂

[@Slayer-7373]

@@MrJohnocee 🙏thank you my friend!!

[@annahayes9009]

You can do this . Because you want to best reason to try be strong

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you Anna 🙏🖤

[@Redsnapper123]

Good video

[@Slayer-7373]

🙏💪thanks brother, always makes me smile seeing you here man.

[@ladyscarfaceangel4616]

I once found an entire bottle full of methadone & xanex cleaning my closet out while I was clean. I had a slight panic attack & gave it immediately to my husband to throw away! It was an old emergency stash I had hidden & completely forgot about. I totally get it. If I relapse now my tolerance is so low that it'll be suicide for sure.

[@Slayer-7373]

You absolutely did the right thing!!!!!! Definitely not an easy thing to do. I’m glad someone can relate, it’s a bittersweet feeling when you come across your doc…… God bless 🙏🙏

[@MelanieTravelersDaughter]

Idk why I chuckled when you slammed the hat in the garbage 🤣

[@Slayer-7373]

When I watched it back it made me laugh too 🤣😁

[@oldonetwoable]

Wish I could give you a big Mum hug. Glad you tossed it out. Have you tried medication like Naltrexone of antabuse? Yes, it is progressive, but only if you drink. You have a real talent for speaking and videos, I can see you helping many people, use your gift.

[@Slayer-7373]

🖤thank you and I just have gotten naltrexone, it will be a good tool to use. 🙏god bless

[@amandaflaherty7528]

🥹🥹 I'm so glad you took us on your trip to the dumpster with that bottle of soco. F that poison!! Literally got me teared up. And I won't even pretend that it's just allergies. Hahah uggghhh I winced when I saw it because that's all it would take to do me in, too. But in that bottle, I also saw all the sadness and emptiness that I was once pretending that I wasn't feeling. I'm celebrating in your remission, my friend. I'm so happy that you're here and giving it your all! You've got this!! 🎉🎊🎉🎊 ❤😊❤

[@Slayer-7373]

🖤🖤 it was the onions I swear!!!!! Thank you always Amanda. I appreciate you my friend. 🙏

[@amandaflaherty7528]

@@Slayer-7373 I appreciate you too. Have a wonderful day, my friend 😊❤️😁