life, recently: submit my dissertation, going to therapy, final essays

[@leahmegan]

hello friends. sorry this video is uploaded a bit later than usual ! obviously, my mental health is in the toilet and I am just proud I even made a video at all ! hehe I know I seem really sad, but please don't worry or anything . I'm generally ok, trying my best, but kind of use this as a video diary to document how I feel etc. just a way to get my emotions out of my brain .... so yea . i'm ok !!!! it's ok!!!! wishing you a beautiful week ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 thank you for being here

[@m_mmko]

so happy to see u, leah. If you need to take a break from uploading please do not hesitate! take care of yourself, luv ✨💖

[@Ahmed-06srt]

@@m_mmko yes you can take break

[@jessrh24]

💛

[@TJ-dr7qh]

You're going to be fine Leah, time heals everything and you deserve good things to happen to you, be strong! you can do it! greetings 🧡🧡

[@dreamysol]

I’m so happy to see a new video. Please take care of yourself and give yourself some grace! Don’t be too hard on yourself 🫶🏾

[@m_mmko]

don’t ever feel bad for crying, Leah. You are a beautiful, strong woman. Having the courage to cry and be emotional is an incredible thing. I’m also in therapy. It’s incredibly difficult at times, but I tell myself “I can do hard things. These difficult times are temporary.” Give yourself patience and time to get everything done. These times will pass and things will get better soon. Good luck to you and anyone else doing finals!I also have an assignment I’m desperately trying to finish yet have no motivation to do so. But I can do it and so can you✨

[@leahmegan]

Kayla, your advice means so much to me. thank you for your kind words

[@naomicambridge3942]

The end of the video is NOT true. There is something special about this video. Which is why we are watching it and people are liking it. For me at least I deeply resonate with how you're feeling and understand feeling so alone and isolated, stressed, and constantly trying to keep pushing through each and every day. Yes, you're ok. We are both ultimately fine but that doesn't negate that it's still hard. But I'm glad that you're here and I'm grateful for this video and how its made me feel less alone and maybe more understood. You have a gift of humanising life through your content. It's beautiful and so wonderful. Thank you Leah

[@farah6oshx]

I have stress from nothing. How much I hate this feeling of social anxiety affecting on my university studies.. Ik that's like a war with yourself

[@alicesparalysis]

I felt so horrible yesterday physically and mentally because of uni. Like I was going from anxiety to apathy an vice versa and surprisingly my dorm mates were the ones that helped me to calm down. I say surprisingly because I am not a very social person and when I’m going through hard times I prefer being alone. Perhaps, this could also help you. I wish you all the best

[@leahmegan]

i’m glad you have them ! ❤️‍🩹 i live alone, and sometimes i do wish i had some flatmates to talk to . but soon i will be back home, and my parents will be there to talk to 😇💗

[@ekamikeladze8126]

I think wolfcut with bangs suit you so well

[@leahmegan]

oooh maybe i will try it !!

[@lahargupta4816]

you know feeling guilty about not being able to do the work or not being able to do enough work paralysis us to continue to work which is why you are unable to do the work. Dont put pressure on yourself. Sending you much love💜 and also thank you for your honesty.

[@tessamccormack594]

Once this chapter of your life has closed, you'll be so proud of what you've achieved!! Writing a dissertation takes so much time and dedication, it's no small feat, but you'll get there and that feeling when you finish will be incredible. Sending lots of light and positivity your way 🤍

[@wiktoriamarianna]

oh, our sweet, sweet leah :( you're trying your best and people around you are extremely proud of you, we are proud of you, and you should be as well

[@anikae.1528]

this video is special to me. I'm in a similar season of life, thank you for sharing

[@nikolmichalou8426]

kinda random but after seeing you struggle with your coffee I wanted to recommend you try making Greek frappe coffee. It's very easy to make and very tasty. Anyways, I love your videos they are very calming to watch and often very relatable ❤

[@kennethwilliams4169]

All you need is a second class first degree to get in a masters in management, Leah you are capable of this, you don’t need therapy, you said yourself the stress is causing your mental problems, just be organised have a plan, use your supervisor for feedback, we all think you are great!

[@cords131]

not me crying with you lol !!! i'm too struggling with my dissertation which i will submit next week, and it's really taking a huge toll on my mental health ... you are not alone leah, i'm cheering for you and myself ! 🦀 things will get better in the end 🤎

[@hikaia8614]

your words in the beginning made my cry for the first time in a few years (i couldn't although i really felt like it). i do understand that grades and etc, doesn't matter THAT much, that i just need to get my degree one way or another and it will be fine, i'll figure everything out. but mentally it destroys me. i feel stupid, i feel wortheless, i feel like i'm not trying enouhgh, even though i know that i do. these are my best efforts at the moment. i could to better in theory, yes, but practically i don't. i've dropped out from my previous programm and i've started from the beginning in my 20's, so there are another 3+ years for me. it's so hard.

[@aleksandrafojud2335]

It's brave of you to let us see what you're crying about.I will also be graduating in June and I know how stressful it can be. I hope you feel better soon❤

[@nellekehendriksen5603]

Please don't ever feel bad for crying, I totally understand that you feel overwhelmed and that your emotions got to be let out sometimes. You are so strong, you're almost there! I really hope you feel better these days, and if you don't: that's okay too. It will be brighter soon, this period will also pass. We love you and we love your video's! Sending you a big big big hug

[@mouse7430]

Hoping you’ll feel better soon! Cry all you need to and hopefully you’ll have a huge celebration for yourself after your dissertation is finished. Things have a way of working things out even when it seems hopeless or impossible.

[@heyimolivia]

remember that not every bad emotion is your fault! i think people that had worked really hard to get out of bad mental states/depression think that everytime they experience a "dip" again it's because they're not properly approaching it- when a lot of times it is because of something external. sometimes life is just hard or stressful and so that makes it really hard to be happy, but don't put so much pressure on yourself-it's hard to separate yourself from something you're constantly thinking about. hope you feel better, you got this!

[@cerirankin4170]

You are truly amazing, beautiful, intelligent and so gifted. I’ve been feeling the same as you with my law degree. I am glad you made the video as I feel not alone. Thank you

[@anastassiyashl]

sorry if there are mistakes, my english isn't perfect, but i really wanted to say that this video was actually so special to me. I relate to your thoughts at the end of the vlog so much.. it made me feel like my feelings that i couldn't share with anyone were finally understood. It's like I'm talking to a close friend. thank you for being realistic and honest, it's really brave and precious, even if you don't think so. i wish you all the best, you will cope with everything!!

[@justynakolasinska7794]

i have never related to any one on such level. I am in the middle of my final exams right now and i feel like i have been so focused on work that i hardly see anyone anymore. I feel like i neglected all my friends and myself. Never felt so alone in my life. Hearing you talking about it and addressing those struggles truly gave me the support that i desperately needed. lots of love and hope you’re feeling better. we’ve got this

[@AG-bq2zd]

Your honesty and approach to bad feelings is so admirable. I think it’s so inspiring and brave to share these things, and I (and many others by the looks of it) feel so much less alone. I hope therapy is good.🧡 I was severely mentally ill in my teens, and am only now going to uni. This was never my plan when I was younger (obviously), but it feels wonderful to accept it. The feelings you share about wanting to pursue art and not knowing whether you’re going to use your degree are so relatable, and I know it’s so common for our priorities to change. Plans change, and doing what you feel is meaningful is so important! You really are incredible. It will get better, you will feel better (rationally you know this, but in the moment it feels like it won’t end). I hope it feels better soon, and that your stress subsides as uni ends. Be prepared for the “release” when it all ends. So proud of you for getting through this. Keep looking after yourself, you’re doing great!!!

[@sherylneptune]

It's okay to feel like you're not making progress. It's frustrating to not be where you want to be in research. You cannot control it, try to find a way to let yourself feel your emotions and be kind to yourself. Research needs you to be in a space where you as a whole are somewhat okay emotionally.

[@youtubecreators1222]

I LOVE this video. Thank you so much for letting me know that I am not alone and that really comforts me and makes me feel a bit connected with the world.

[@toli-rl7wx]

It's totally okay to cry sometimes leah that's what makes your videos reflect your life journey just like a normal human being. We all nead to take care of ourselves ❤❤love you so much

[@FreakUsOut]

We love all your videos, no matter the content or context. Don’t worry about that! Sending you all the good vibes ❤

[@ametrinemoon]

Don't worry about crying, I see it as a release for your body and listen to it. Too many people ignore their body and then come into trouble holding things in. You're getting there and I was in a Lidl's yesterday. Their small pizzas are ace heated up

[@nesa111]

your videos are so dear to my heart, as someone who feels the same way about her degree & being unsure why I‘m feeling certain ways, hearing you say that it will be okay really helps me to feel better about an unknown future, thank you for this video & your realness 🧡

[@Julia.kathleen]

It's okay to feel your emotions and just sit in them. You don't have to always think that it will get better because you're allowed to just be sad for a bit.

[@mars3415]

i felt so related while watching this video and yeah...it is really sad actually to have this terrible stress over school works at this young age. at this point of my view, i just feel like this is not about accomplishing something but just getting over it. i hope i can change that. i wish you the best leah, i understand you. thanks for your effort. you definitely deserve the best, love u.

[@abigailelenas]

i relate so much to what you're feeling, maybe we can't see it yet but i hope (or i think) that things will turn out okay in the end. sending you love

[@leahmegan]

things are always okay !!!! we got this 🤎

[@squidward9]

Hey Leah, I’m so sorry you haven’t been feeling so good recently. I’m rooting for you and hoping that life is kinder to you soon. You’re so amazing and you deserve the best. Nothing in life lasts, not even these difficult times. But a mosquito bite is still annoyingly itchy for a good while, even if it does go away. Idk if you’ve seen thecottagefairy’s videos, but she has such a beautiful channel, just full peaceful vibes. Watching her videos helps me to feel a little more grounded and at peace with myself, whenever I lose control over my wellbeing. Maybe her videos could help you too. And what you said about therapy is so real!! I also tend to tuck my bad thoughts or memories away and in therapy, you have to bring that stuff up. That’s actually why I’ve been avoiding therapy 😅✌️ I also need to thank you for being so real and sharing your honest emotions. It’s SO rare to find honesty and humanity on the internet, and you’ve created a very safe place here and I commend you for that. So thanks for sharing your emotions and your art with us, it never goes unappreciated. And I’m also sorry you’ve been feeling lonely. You seem like someone I’d want to hang out with! If I lived in the UK we’d be hitting up those cafes and pubs 😌 and congrats on graduating soon! You’ll have so much time now to relax and take a well-deserved break. Sending you so much love all the way from florida 🫶🫶🫰🏼🫰🏼💖

[@carocerda11]

I really feel like i need to give you a big hug, sending lots of love

[@poppycalliope]

Proud of you for posting Leah even though days have been tough. I'm sure a lot of people feel less alone with your videos and please don't feel pressured to always have super creative videos. Some periods are less creative than others and I believe we can all agree that we watch your videos for your beautiful personality. You're doing amazing really, I'm really proud of you! Things will definitely be better soon ❤ thank you for another video 💌

[@rye_vlogs21]

It's okay for you to cry, I also started to feel lonely and it seemed like I had no one, I have social phobia and sometimes college gets very stressful and I feel scary and I want to drop everything and cry, but over time I learned that this can be bad but it is helping me to be stronger and that not always everything in life will be just wonders, cry if you need to is don't be ashamed to talk, it's don't stop everything, a phrase I like from singer Sia: "I love you and keep going", it me It helped me not to give up and be stronger, her songs also help me a lot. 🇧🇷❤️

[@mariecurie1785]

i am sorry to hear that you felt kind of wasted your time, money and energy to the major that you re not even thinking to work in the future. this is your path and i am sure you learnt a lot from this experience. now i am studying a major that i love soo much which is literature. because of some lectures or professors, sometimes i dont even want to see a book. sometimes i think if i hadnt chosen this major, it wouldnt have killed my pleasure of reading. so i try to say to myself this is just one path in your life, feel the frustration when needed but focus on the good parts. love you, hope we will fin the best for ourselves

[@dize3672]

Keep going Leah. This too shall pass.

[@leahmegan]

🤎

[@flaviaaparecida3701]

I can't even describe how much i identified myself with this video. I've already been through this because of uni and i really understand how you're feeling. Hope u get better soon and thanks for sharing it with us, now i can see i shouldn't have blamed myself for what i was feeling ❤

[@milis2002]

Oh Leah I understand you so deeply! My stress causes my mental health to decline so bad that sometimes I really don’t know what to do about it and it feels horrible to not be able to control your body and emotions. Please don’t disregard the effort and feelings you put in everything you create because I assure you this video you called nothing special has help so many of us feel seen and not alone! I know you will do your best to take of care so I’m not worried ❤ I admire u so much and thank your for making me feel less alone

[@dreamysol]

Sending you so much love. I’ve definitely been struggling these past few weeks and I’ve been feeling stressed, I’m a bit better now since I’m done with my first year of uni. I hope you know that it is okay to be sad and that it’s okay to cry, sometimes we need to express ourselves that way and it’s totally fine. I’m also currently in therapy and I find it quite healing, it’s wonderful to talk to someone who isn’t related to you or who knows you on a personal level about what ever you might have an issue with, for me it makes it much easier to open up. Anyway I wish you the best and hope you take care of yourself ❤️

[@harseeratkaur7714]

your vlogs keep me company when I work on uni assignments; it feels like sitting next to a friend while catching up and completing work. Hearing your thoughts is always lovely. thank you for putting so much time and effort and love into these. Wishing you the very best and the peace you deserve. I know it's hard now, but it won't always feel like this! I've been a subscriber since back when you were a very small account. I'm really happy to follow along on your journey and I'm proud to see you grow, not just as a creator on this platform but as a person. I am not much of a commenter and I'm very selective about what I consume-- I just wanted to let you know that I really appreciate your vlogs and your vibe. You're doing wonderfully, and your genuine nature really reflects and shines through in your videos.

[@leahmegan]

🥹 ah. thank you so much for your lovely comment, it is much appreciated

[@xmaja97x]

have you tried knitting/crochet? I started both during covid and it has really helped me with my mental health since, especially during my most stressful uni days. doing some type of craft allows you to just focus on that one thing without having to think about other stuff. AND you can get really cute clothes from it as well

[@leahmegan]

i am a very … mediocre knitter ! my gran is amazing and tries to help me learn, but i am somehow always losing / adding stitches… and the most complex thing i’ve tried was some socks with a texturey-pattern (forgot the name lol …. when its like in / out) . i also tried to use a crochet kit once and it made me absolutely lost my mind. the hook was so small and i literally couldn’t even do the starting part LMAO but maybe if i did something with big yarn + big hook then it would work 🥹 lol . hopefully i can manage something soon 🙇🏼‍♀️

[@yehudinaomiruizportillo3369]

Gracias por hacer estos videos, eres una gran inspiración Leah

[@leahmegan]

🥺🤎🤎🤎🤎

[@ameliashipley6951]

i always look forward to your videos

[@leahmegan]

(: thank you so much!

[@cecilefrederique]

Once again inspired by your strength, take all the time you need 💖

[@lemonsandwhiteroses]

thank you for sharing this! you are totally not alone in how you feel! I hope that everything will turn out okay and that you can enjoy your time in the summer for a well deserved break! Sending love and thoughts!!!

[@АннаГайченко]

everything will be fine, sunshine you are wonderful I'm from Russia, I watch all your videos with subtitles. I also recently graduated from university. you can handle it

[@Sallybutterfly0]

idk how to help you but i watch all ur ads to sport you. love you always

[@helgyn995]

I wish you all the best. Ask your therapist, boyfriend, god, university leader, friends to support you and be with you during this period. Ask for help as earnestly as a hungry man asks for bread. I'm with you with all my heart, please don't give up!

[@Полина-ъ8г]

I thought there would be no video this week. so glad to get the notification now! I hope you're okay💌please take care of yourself

[@leahmegan]

(: I tried my best

[@shaegouher4922]

Everything just feels a bit cliche right now but it's gonna be okay ♡ like I love reading but these days with how much work I have to do,it genuinely feels like a task but it's gonna be okay keep swimming ♡

[@ola-zl7io]

I appreciate your videos! I believe in you:D you are really strong person, so stay strong. I know you can do it:D it will pass

[@leahmegan]

I appreciate you

[@kylieyokoyama4124]

you're doing amazing Leah :) thank you for making a video xo

[@skyloftie]

currently struggling with my uni too , hope it gets better soon :)

[@leahmegan]

:') I wish you the best, we can do it

[@aren9103]

Leah,i wish you could see your self from my eyes. You are lovely and i hope we will feel better. And i hope if i ever visit your country,i'll grab a coffee with you. I would love to be friends with a precious person like you ❤stay safe

[@janedou2190]

Hi, Leah. I've watched your videos for a long time but this is the first time that I tried to comment. You know it's a little bit hard to use KZbin in China but I can't let myself miss your vedios. Maybe I'm at the same age as you are, and I think we are so alike in many respects. I think I can feel what u feel although we are not at the same country, we are all trying our best to make ourselves to live a better and more comfortable life and combat stress and pain and other things in this world. Thank you so much to make me feel better when I'm tired, and I think I might try to make vlog afterwards with u motivated me. I really wish u can happy and I believe that 20s is the age that feel adrift, but maybe 5 or 10 years later we can embrass all the things in the world at ease. Hope u can reply!

[@farnazfa2075]

Sending you so much love 🫀

[@leahmegan]

thank you so much ⭐️ same to you 🤎

[@rovlino]

so glade to watch ur current vedeo have alovely weekend

[@leahmegan]

🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@ASCENDED9]

👽👽👽, The world is full of life. 👽, most people never look up at night but do so, and you'll see you are not alone...

[@charliekellaway5247]

Hi Leah what is the name of the company you got your white teddy coat from

[@winterwolfaj8430]

apologies if this is intrusive but did you and your boyfriend break up :( I hope you feel happier soon, we all have a lot of love for you

[@leahmegan]

we did not break up ! I am just very busy these days

[@Mina_25]

Hi Leah ✨ I watched your video crying with you.🌸 It hurts to see you like this every time, but I know you'll get it together. Everything will pass. Everything will be in order. You said you were alone. We are always by your side as those who follow you here. I know it will be better. Even when you are experiencing this stress, you do everything you can.💫 You are fulfilling your responsibilities. Congratulations on your college graduation. ⭐🤍May good things come your way in your life. Let everything be as you wish. I don't know if it would be right for me to consult you in this situation, but I want to ask a question about a subject. I will take the entrance exam for another department this year. I'm in the 2nd year of university. I want to switch to nursing or biology. I remember you studied biological sciences and I wanted to consult you on this subject.🙁 Take great care of yourself.✨ We are always here.🤍 And I will always support you.💕🌸

[@pisceesgirl]

❤

[@leahmegan]

🤎

[@Ahmed-06srt]

Hi I think this is very freash because is late😊😊

[@Ahmed-06srt]

Why is there no subtitles on the video?

[@leahmegan]

I'll try and add them soon !!

[@wgina39]

❤❤❤

[@leahmegan]

[@huadanzhang]

Leah, you're doing great! You're so strong, even when you're feeling sad you still get everything done!That's amazing! Thank you for uploading another beautiful yet realistic video, I love it so much. Hope you feel better soon!

[@itsjustarngeer]

I just want to give u a big hug 🫂

[@siriusblackkinnie]

never clicked on a notification so quickly 🫂 as usual, sending lots of love, leah ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[@leahmegan]

[@montsecueva9483]

hi leah, just know that everything passes and it’s not forever. You can do this!!!!🤍

[@littliofficial]

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