Are Schizophrenia Simulations Accurate?

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[@akira4085]

Are you sure your not just possesed?

[@fn3ee]

What kind of question is that

[@akira4085]

@@fn3ee well I mean it's possable , right?

[@2KMMC2]

Still waiting for you to the voice you know so well

[@godsentjesustosetusallfree9859]

Is it possible for you to make your own simulation?

[@mindblock3928]

The first one could double as a "tall person" simulator.

[@cloud.watcher]

people with schizophrenia must be so patient, i can’t even imagine how frustrating and it unfair it feels

[@tregudger1411dog]

In retrospect I am very patient, but there are moments where I have little to no patience and everything really pisses me off such as people the task at hand (especially at work) and music that i listen to all day to try to stay occupied in my mind. Shout out to everyone with a mental illness who choose's to live, I understand how difficult it is. life was difficult enough with out a diagnosis

[@zaifitzgerald]

i just diagnosed schizopernic last month, glad it's not that bad. Just some voices, laugh, and sometimes shadow people standing around me.

[@stonewilson3337]

@@tregudger1411dog music helps me a lot, also working out has been a life saver and improving my mental health.

[@haaatski]

@@zaifitzgerald you ok man?

[@zaifitzgerald]

@@haaatski its better now, thanks

[@miroseyy]

i LOVE how she says “personally i” every time she mentions her symptoms and how they differ from what she’s seeing. it shows that she’s aware that others with schizophrenia have their own unique voices/symptoms.

[@heartyou7840]

I think that the hardest part of living with schizophrenia is the fact that you must survive in pure logic. You can't trust your intuition, it's just broken. Chances are you'll end up hurting yourself and others most of the time, because the gut feeling that tells you something is wrong is always active

[@dreamerwav698]

thats an interesting way of putting it! definitely helps me see it a more clear light, thank you :)

[@rachelambereverleigh9308]

Most Schizophrenics do NOT hurt others. The majority of them hides behind closed doors. Definitely most of them are completely harmless towards others

[@DavedtheWay]

wow so true. How does one cope with this shit?

[@LittleGlockLittle]

Yeah I'm not schizophrenic but have been in psych wards more than once and I've seen some of the breakdowns they can cause it was sad to see the way people treat them one of the kindest humans I've ever met was schizophrenic the only time I wasn't having a good time around her was when she had an panic episode but she was so kind otherwise

[@computerjantje]

That is a very good point. thank you for mentioning it.

[@threedollaya8860]

quarantine has taught me so much more about the human mind than school ever has.

[@cubecomber9162]

Quarantine doesn't teach you things, you teach yourself things in quarantine.

[@chadretrofilms7824]

A man has no name shut up

[@foodforever3633]

@@Lansolot America sucks

[@prism8083]

Same man

[@ninabonita1129]

FACTSSSS

[@sweettea455]

My own inner dialogue tells me this kind of stuff, telling me I'm worthless and nobody likes me, (because I have high functioning depression and generalised anxiety disorder), I couldn't imagine how hard it would be to have uncontrollable voices telling u that too :(

[@chelsea196]

Same here. It’s hard for people to understand because they take it as I’m so important that everyone it watching me, thinking negatively, judging etc. it’s not that tho. I couldn’t imagine 😢

[@bluecannibaleyes]

Yeah from my experience with anxiety, some of those videos kind of depict what it’s like to have an anxiety attack, although without the *literal* voices. Some of it was very similar to the thought process of my own inner voice during an anxiety attack, though. I feel like the physical symptoms (muscle tension, shortness of breath, sweating, difficulty swallowing, etc.) that go along with it can’t really be emulated through just a video, though. I’d imagine that people with schizophrenia would often experience similar physical symptoms as well during a psychotic episode. The people who made the videos probably felt that ‘sensationalizing’ it/exaggerating it a bit was the best way to get the viewer to experience some of the same anxiety that the schizophrenic person would be experiencing, like how people feel afraid when watching a horror movie. I think it has to do more with the medium being unable to accurately produce a physical anxiety response in most people without having them view something that is frightening to them. For someone with anxiety like me, just hearing a doorbell ring will set off an instant fight or flight response. But for a normal person, it’d probably take something a bit more out of the ordinary like an unexpected explosion in a coffee cup to have them experience a similar startle reaction. So they had to ‘sensationalize’ it in order to replicate the mental/physical state for the average viewer.

[@chazchillings3019]

I’ve had these thoughts from my own narrative. Even like steal this, punch that person. It is surprising though that these people have it on a daily basis.

[@grace5291]

Chelsea Ciais man I had an awful therapist once who told me no one cared about me when I explained my fears of everyone who saw me judging me...

[@chelsea196]

Grace that’s so terrible! I’m so sorry! They definitely should not be a therapist. I’ve never seen one I’m told that people are supposed to just deal and to “get over it” or it’s not real. Some people can be terrible. I just want someone in my life that actually understands. Sometimes I feel crazy inside. I feel all these things except I just don’t hear an actual voice in my head. But my over active imagination and over thinking. People think it’s me feeling so important that the whole world is always looking at me. It’s can’t go to the store alone because I feel people are watching, judging etc. and it’s NOT because I believe I’m so important that people are always looking at and paying attention to me. Or because someone does something I over think and assume I did something wrong

[@jackd.rifter3299]

I'm diagnosed schizophrenic and for me, it's like I can hear my friends saying bad things about me from another room and I obsess over it until I go to the other room and I realize nobody was ever there and they all went to bed hours ago.

[@deleted3650]

its only starting had similar symptoms it will get worse but im cured now since i stopped smoking weed and was drinking medicine for 3 years now i dont hear anything hope you too will get cured remember to drink your medicine even if it makes you feel like vegetable . my brain develop tolerance after year and medicine started helping if you wonder what medicine helped me i live in EU so idk will u have it its Gabapentinum and Haloperidol and cyclodol combo

[@jackd.rifter3299]

@Deleted There's no cure for schizophrenia, I've been schizophrenic since I was 8 years old and it doesn't go away even if I take medication.

[@jackd.rifter3299]

@Ded0099 Yeah, it happens more than I would like to admit. I will admit I always have a smaller feeling that everyone's lying to me and that it's like "The Truman Show" but I know these friends would tell me and they even told me today that they really appreciate me and I'm not an inconvenience at all.

[@KamalasNotLikeUs]

@@jackd.rifter3299 Well, what else would they say? It’s not like they’re going to tell you. And that’s where it kicks into high gear to me because everyone is a liar.

[@isabellaandrade2678]

I have bipolar but yes oh my god I went through this when I was going through psychosis, I would feel so many people there who weren’t even there

[@samanthamurphy9187]

My late son, Mikail, was schizophrenic and bi-polar. This world was SO HARD for him. As much as I miss my son I'm consoled by the knowledge that he doesn't have to fight those Demons anymore. He's finally at peace. God I miss him so much.

[@Cthulhuly]

Sorry for your loss Samantha my partner has it I hope I don't lose her

[@mlblvchiladybug]

Oh darl I'm so so sorry for your loss. I hope you're doing alright.

[@samanthamurphy9187]

I'm great most days. I promised my son I'd live a long, happy life filled with adventure for both of us. I will.

[@samanthamurphy9187]

@@SM-ko9nd When he was young and it was up to me he did. But he hated how it felt so as an adult he fought his demons on his own with me as his support.

[@stilluntamed6353]

Condolences

[@ashleygarcia.a]

Bro I even felt overwhelmed watching this. I can’t imagine what schizophrenic people go through dealing with these voices.

[@rose21869]

yea it’s hard..

[@rose21869]

Most time I just hide in my room.. it’s hard to believe that these things are only in your head

[@paweszczygielski7892]

I found that so annoying

[@joshuagraham3]

Sounds like doing homework while your parents fight in the back ground

[@aspen2098]

I can't even get a job due to my psychosis and schizophrenia. I have to be entirely dependant on my fiance. It's awful. I feel less than human every single second of my life and there's absolutely no way to stop it :(

[@apriljasso9731]

My dad is a paranoid schizophrenic and I love him more than life. He's 100% disabled and a Vietnam Veteran. He's also my hero and the smartest person I've ever met and the best dad in the world in spite of his illness. He's my superman.

[@BBlueGirl]

I wish all the best for you and your father 😊

[@servicarrider]

You are a lucky girl. Best of luck to you and your dad.

[@kondrashovoleg]

This comment is sweetness itself

[@serahroselyne5069]

My dad is also paranoid schizophrenic.. I was 11 when he was diagnosed.. It was a rough road and i didn't understand it so i took his behavior personal and was mad at him for a while because of it. He is also 100% disabled because of it. Ive been working in mental health for a few years now and our relationship os better than its ever. Hes one of the strongest, most brave people ive ever met.

[@TheGong00zler]

❤️❤️

[@autisticguitar666]

wow but now imagine living homeless with this.

[@TheGuywithaChannel]

That's why educational videos like these are so important; hopefully people with the power to make change see them!

[@autisticguitar666]

@MPaulina MZúñiga what do you mean?

[@autisticguitar666]

@MPaulina MZúñiga Well I think especially if you have mental health problems it can be beneficial to have someone around, don´t you agree?

[@shannonhenry7608]

😔

[@H33t3Speaks]

I remember.

[@somewhatwoolly]

I really appreciate how much less scary you make schizophrenia seem. It runs in my family and I've been afraid of developing it my whole life. I'm smack in the middle of the common window of development and have been thinking about it more often the past couple of years. It still seems like a scary condition but the shadow I've felt looming over my life seems a lot less dark having watched a number of your videos. Thank you so much. The content you create is so important and your willingness to be vulnerable is really admirable.

[@pakiMarkhor]

lol same here and im shit scared.

[@sircartier4461]

also schizophrenic Ocd is a thing it's obsessive thought of being or developing schizophrenia and can also make you feel like your experiencing symptoms.

[@k.p.3739]

Strongest people alive....i couldn't imagine how annoying it is.....

[@IamRIDAH]

Don’t try to either lmao

[@topsiekreets1595]

I'm not strong enough. I've had schizophrenia for many years but was making it . The 5 years ago to the month I aquired me a good dose of PTSD. With total amnesia regarding the PTSD. But sence then I've lost all friends ,make it to work mabey 2 days a week and live in a tent in my dad's back yard. Bc no one can handle me screaming when I sleep. Not strong enough

[@topsiekreets1595]

And the PTSD really set the schizophrenia in to where I hit reply public

[@diegoamorim7924]

Topsie Kreets my heart goes out to you❤️

[@CelestialExility]

I have schizophrenia, but my symptoms are very mild. Maybe I'm lucky?

[@foreverysa8208]

For everyone talking about her blinking; I study psychology and one of the early signs of s.e. dx is accelerated blinking. It’s neurological and like she said its due to overwhelming stimuli. She’s watching videos full of triggers.. I would say that’s quite overwhelming which is causing some of her own symptoms to flare causing the blinking. She may not even be aware that she’s doing it. Could also be a coping mechanism to deal with what she’s watching.

[@mightybean7840]

When I was working in the hospital in the float pool, there were times our mental ward would be short handed so they would send me there. And were a few schizophrenics that would not blink. I would talk with them and they would just stare at me with such intensity no blinking. It would be quite uncomfortable, unsettling. I would wonder what are they seeing? Are they purposely not blinking? Out in the street if someone looks at you like that it is time for flight or fight. Despite the thousand yard stare, I did enjoy some of conversations, interesting in fact. One patient did converse with me using Word salad, that was really interesting. But those stares were like seeing a world I couldn't see.

[@Dean444ful]

She’s actually said before that some of the medication for schizophrenia can cause compulsory blinking. She begins blinking before anything triggering appears in the video and I’ve also seen her blinking in other of her videos. I think it’s mostly her medication but could be that some of these triggers increase her blinking

[@deankissell3196]

@@mightybean7840 blink =flight stare=fight???? 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

[@matthewgodwin4626]

Some antipsychotic medications cause dry mucous membranes as well, needing higher blinking rates to keep the eyes moistened.

[@mightybean7840]

@@deankissell3196 🙋‍♂️ Um, blink = flight stare, that then = fight????? 🤷‍♂️🧘‍♂️🧘‍♂️☝✍✍. Okay, so your saying a blink is a flight stare, which still ends up in a fight? Bruh, this does not compute, so I must be missing something in translation. However, thanks for your comment.

[@briahnnacurtis9510]

ive dated two people with this disorder (one of them being my current boyfriend who i plan on marrying) and i just like to comfort him and let him know that im here for him and reassure him a lot. one thing that broke my heart is that he told me sometimes he will hear my voice and he will jump up and get all excited because he thinks im at his house and say "babe? baby?" and then he realizes its just the voices. im moving in with him in less than two weeks and im just ready to actually be there and help him.

[@Handle25433]

You’re a literal queen

[@martianmerit4285]

You are awesome.

[@Handle25433]

@@martianmerit4285 no u❤️❤️❤️

[@aspenhelsten6927]

You’re amazing

[@sprinklesofbts]

Wishing all the best for your relationship!

[@Medicalguy]

People with this condition are the most badass people in my opinion. To live essentially a waking nightmare that is out of your control and being able to shrug it off is real inspiring to me as a medical provider.

[@DealtwithImpunity]

The majority of them do not walk it off, that's why the suicide rate is so high and life expectation so short for them

[@MargaritaMagdalena]

I've lived with a schizophrenic for 12 years, 8 of those I was under 18. This is not my experience at all. The schizo in my life was toe-curlingly arrogant, cynical, rude, obscene, immature, and incredibly selfish and entitled. The real bad..sses are the loved ones of these people who have to put up with them, especially the helpless underage children.

[@someoneunknown7655]

@@MargaritaMagdalenalooking at your comments on this video it’s pretty clear that you’re projecting your trauma onto people with schizophrenia as a whole. It’s extremely hurtful for people with schizophrenia and for people with loved ones with schizophrenia. I’m sure there’s are better ways for you to express your trauma that doesn’t involve being needlessly rude in youtube comments

[@MargaritaMagdalena]

@@someoneunknown7655 "your projecting"

[@MargaritaMagdalena]

@@someoneunknown7655 🤣🤣🤣

[@mythicalgirl2005]

I think it's really cool how while she could have totally been "No, this isn't how this happens at all", she usually just goes with, "I can't speak for other people, but that's not how I've experienced it personally."

[@ileryon4019]

Well thats how it should be

[@morganalabeille5004]

Yeah experiences can vary pretty wildly between different people with the same conditions.

[@mythicalgirl2005]

@@morganalabeille5004 Yeah I mean I have autism but in no way is my experience going to be exactly the same as another autistic person’s.

[@psychadelicpotato8580]

@@ileryon4019 yeah but sadly thats not how people are

[@lai8544]

Yes, she is really nice

[@normxlfxm]

My voice once screamed "he's walking away because you stink" before and it was way funnier irl than they made it seem in the video because mine came out of nowhere, it did scare me but it was too random to make me spiral

[@CutestMaximus]

You don't have to answer (Sorry if this is rude), but does your voice sound like a person you have met before, or is it just random? Also, do you have multiple voices?

[@-sebastianmichaelis-1441]

@@CutestMaximus The voices I hear normally sound like someone is standing next to me. It is the voice of my father, but it can be different for other people.

[@vonniesmind2084]

The voices I hear, some are woman and calming actually, and they speak to you. I call them that bad friend that don't know she too old for the club. One of them in particular the one that sounds like a combination of a man and woman is rude. Keeps on interrupting convos making jokes while I'm in a serious situation or talking while I'm trying to pay attention just saying nonsense. So yeah I'm the type that keeps laughing and talking to myself. They literally sound like they right behind you. The worst is when they sound like people in my actual life because that's when I react. The voices favorite thing to do is pointing out "options" on how to handle situations and they sound completely ridiculous.

[@CutestMaximus]

@@-sebastianmichaelis-1441 Thanks for letting me know! I was generally curious.

[@ChexNyx]

Kata Nina It can be, actually. Depends

[@doriennaraine3004]

Schizophrenia sounds scary. I couldnt imagine. Stay strong all.

[@isabeljens9610]

Dorienna Raine I’m so sad for my mom and scared not knowing or being able to help her in any way.

[@billyboner8519]

It can be. But it can be strangely pleasant too. Like a ketamine trip.. Avoiding people helps.. haha

[@themanwiththecrystaleyes464]

I hear and see a man who helps me out in my daily life. It can be scary and depressing but in my case life is completely manageable. Not everyone who’s diagnosed with schizophrenia is a mental ward patient.

[@LoremLorem]

@@themanwiththecrystaleyes464 That's cool dude 😁👍

[@seven7upndown241]

@j You spay spiritual but u dont undestand what it is ans who is in charge of it. And when u said it u know that there are demons and angels that are spirits and how i know that they exsist is the same way u know u have your own spirit. And if u dont put the light ones in ur brain darkness will fill it by itself that is how it works.

[@starbannanayt9780]

As a teen who was diagnosed with bipolar schizo-affective disorder 2 years ago, I can really relate with the negative voices, they get really rough and hard to deal with. My hallucinations and delusions are so severe,that keeping in touch with reality and distinguishing between fake and real is like solving a rubik's cube. I moved out of my parents house and have been holding a full time job for 3 years.

[@BlackWidowRocks]

That's great you've been able to be independent! Must be tough to manage but good for you.

[@tashakayrivera8930]

​@BlackWidowRocks good for you. I am proud of you!

[@vivalanina]

She seems to fiddle with her engagement ring whenever she's looking for comfort and I find that very touching. :)

[@plokijum]

Relationship goals 😭

[@your_dad_on_vacation]

I always fiddle with my ring (like twisting, spinning, and sliding up and down my finger) it's very comforting and calming

[@RageBearer]

Having a physical item like a ring or other object can be a method of grounding in reality

[@Jackmerius_Tacktheritrix5733]

Best of luck to the simp that would put up with this for a lifetime and pass it on to his future kids.

[@Ameliamaemay1990]

@@Jackmerius_Tacktheritrix5733 put up with what? What is the “this” you are referring to? Please explain in detail how what you said is worth typing. 👍🏻

[@justavideodiary]

I think it was very brave to sit through things that can be so difficult to watch for you. Amazing work and so needed.

[@ovok10]

True

[@taintedgrl]

Hallucinating yo momma stfu 😻

[@kyree816]

She said they’re difficult to watch for other people not her

[@jaime8505]

Agreed

[@justavideodiary]

@@m3mory_leak344 excuse me?

[@lukenaoumovitch4477]

It’s crazy how little you know about a person just from looking at a person. Be kind to everybody! You never know the challenges they go through!

[@smellmyfingers6902]

Yes, thank you, ur right

[@Zach.1809]

What about your “friend” who has betrayed you so many times that you don’t even remember the first time do I really have to be nice to him

[@LilMissTravelPants]

@@Zach.1809 Being kind doesn't mean you have to keep harmful people in your life. Be polite but don't be afraid to put distance up if someone is taking advantage.

[@BEERBOMB113]

Amen. Thank you for your positive energy

[@SamuelBlack84]

Nobody is kind to me

[@Glomly]

I had schizophrenic episodes a few times and all voices I've heard were never exactly clear. Usually it was my brain interpretating different noises, assigning them real meaning. I could hear people "talking" through walls (it happened in a hotel) and i thought i could understand what the conversation was about (and surprisingly they were all about me, and all disturbing). For example i thought my neighbor was planning to call cops on me and just generally hated me. There were more symptoms of "hallucinations" but looking back i see that all of them were generally me assigning extra meaning to things that do not actually contain enough information to extract real meaning from. What helped me is when i realized that I definitely CAN hear the difference between someone ACTUALLY saying something to my face and those "voices", so i learned to not hear them at all anymore.

[@Lane7489]

I've been getting something like that to it's almost like your tricking your self it's not like they sound real or anything I can definitely tell the difference between a real voice and these muffle background noise that you trick your self to thinking its voices I think it's just normal paranoia as I been afraid of caching schizophrenia I'm also autistic so I get these kinda weird paranoid fears alot I definitely don't go threw this crazy stuff I seen in this vid I feel bad for people that have to go threw this

[@syntheticfuture1718]

[@hazeevisions]

I was trying to figure out how to word this for my own comment, but you said it perfectly. Thank you.

[@richardspinelli1433]

Im a full blown schizophrenic and bipolar have in the worst way suffered my whole life. Sent to prison. On the streets for years. And one day i called the cops on myself and they took me to a rehab and they said they didn't have a bed so i did it again they took me back to the same rehab they said we can't help you. So i crossed the bridge into Harlem and called the cops again and they took me to the hospital and they admitted me to the psychiatric center and they changed my life. I then went on to a mica program did two years. And now have my housing apartment and on my medication and we'll connected sober 3 years. Hope someone reads this

[@madichallen6312]

Props man hope you’re doing good 🤙

[@richardspinelli1433]

@@madichallen6312 Thank you so much im so grateful that this message was read.I never thought I would be in this position in life im in a really good place and have my life together. Mental illness doesn't go away you could only maintain. God bless.

[@dgates6165]

Good for you, man!!! Happy to hear that you're doing well now! Also, I applaud your courage for sharing that about your life!! Take care!

[@richardspinelli1433]

@@dgates6165 thank you god bless

[@mariafox9226]

I’m proud of your successes and realizing that you needed help.

[@blubrdi1792]

I like that you specify “for me”/“me personally” cause there is always a chance that people are experiencing those things, and you aren’t disregarding other people’s experiences. This video was extremely helpful and educational! Thank you for this!

[@skateranddancer]

I appreciated this aspect as well.

[@merncat3384]

💞

[@B_i_R_D__M_a_N]

nice name ;)

[@donottouch9110]

I found that the most annoying part of the video she kept saying lies someone cares or watches this because it's accurate for her when in really is 100% accurate cause they didn't go to her to make this video did they they went to a realward with people who have been there for years

[@blasianking4827]

@@donottouch9110 Eh, I partially see what you're saying, but ultimately she isn't claiming to be an expert or knowledgeable on the general nature of the disorder. However, by virtue of her lived experiences, and what I assume is self-research, she can testify to what she experiences and point out general inaccuracies if they are present.

[@Strawberry_shortcake732]

With these simulations, I never find them to be accurate compared to my own experiences. They seem more like horror movies than my disorder.

[@jessebanda9775]

You are lucky I sufder for schizoaffective disorder too and I get scared all the time also a excoworker of mine she used to have schizoaffectve disorder too and she told me she used to see awful things

[@gingerisevil02]

They make me terrified like I'm not good with horror stuff

[@thisis_303]

I aggre with you

[@codywilliams6194]

sad to say but mines like that all the time, I can barely leave the house and my life has become a horror movie

[@mariemin1539]

The videos aren't going to 100 percent accurate with what YOU are dealing with, but maybe some can relate, i have schizophrenia and if i say so myself i think that there where to many whisper in the background, i never experienced that many whispers and voices all in one time. I sometimes "see" shadows when i'm walking home from college and the voices are all like "they following" "they will kidnap you" "you should hurry home" "faster" "don't be stupid who'll want to kidnap you" and all thing like that, also, when i'm home sometimes i have delusions and see children, animals, and people in general that i don't know and i'll try to continue like i saw nothing cause i know they're not real, is really hard cause i sometimes don't know if the people i'm passing by in daily basis are real or not

[@commenceun]

It's basically the inner-critic, but with actual sounds. That's what I learned from this video. It's not only triggering for schizophrenic people, but with people who suffer from anxiety issues as well. Great video and keep up the good work❤

[@tprime2702]

Schizophrenia was explained to me as, "You are stressed out, and Navi from Ocarina of Time is narrorating what your doing back to you; and she's a cynic."

[@Tyler_Gill_Music]

LOL

[@avapartytime]

BRO SAME WTH

[@thiscantbrie1456]

hey! listen! no one likes you!

[@sksbc3895]

For anyone suffering from schizoaffective disorder/schizophrenia/depression/anxiety etc., I suggest searching online and reading everything you can find on 'bread madness' or 'bread insanity'. Removing wheat from my diet turned my mental health issues (depression and anxiety) around 100%. The negative effects of wheat on mental health have been known for decades, but the wheat industry is a billion-dollar industry so this information is kept low-key. You can read individual cases online from medical journals proving that the removal of wheat for some people, cures mental illness. This may not work for everyone, but it's worth a try. I can only imagine how frightening these symptoms of schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder are. Also, watch "What's With Wheat?" for a more in-depth look at the subject.

[@mentok3027]

@@sksbc3895 Just fucking wonderful! I recently found out I'm diabetic so Doctors have been telling me to avoid bread/carbs, and now you're telling me avoiding bread will make the voices go away too??? The voices are telling me to eat a sammich now because I'm self loathing. DAMMNIT!

[@davidrutitsky9518]

My mom has schizophrenia and at times she hears me say the most disgusting things towards her. It's nice to get a look into how she feels so I can help her.

[@finisher3x]

Been dealing with that for over 40 years with my mom. It will wear on you too, especially when she becomes fearful or not trusting you. It also forces you to become the best psychologist you can be, in order to convince her that you didn't and would never say those bad things about her.

[@idaliareyes4456]

@@finisher3x I am going through the same thing with my mom idk what to do 💔💔💔💔💔. Meds for years and I have never had a mom just a mother I miss that

[@idaliareyes4456]

@@zenoameli I’m missing the little parts of her that I do remember ... of someone there maybe it was me being naive and I truly want to believe that she actually really loved me ... she’s in the same town and last time I seen her was when my July 13 2020 grandma died ( her mom ) and she told me my dad is not my dad he’s dead and the other guy is dead and so are my two brothers I was the oldest!!! I feel lost

[@idaliareyes4456]

@@zenoameli good morning and Thank you for taking time and caring for a complete stranger and u said I promise she loves you!!! That hit hard ....

[@sksbc3895]

Big dog Big Bear.... For anyone suffering from schizoaffective disorder/schizophrenia/depression/anxiety etc., I suggest searching online and reading everything you can find on 'bread madness' or 'bread insanity'. Removing wheat from my diet turned my mental health issues (depression and anxiety) around 100%. The negative effects of wheat on mental health have been known for decades, but the wheat industry is a billion-dollar industry so this information is kept low-key. You can read individual cases online from medical journals proving that the removal of wheat for some people, cures mental illness. This may not work for everyone, but it's worth a try. I can only imagine how frightening these symptoms of schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder are. Also, watch "What's With Wheat?" for a more in-depth look at the subject.

[@alice20001]

It's incredibly insightful to hear firsthand accounts of people affected by a disorder. Case studies and books do a really good job at talking about medication, what understanding we have, and what avances are being made. But talking to the people directly, if they feel comfortable about it, is another level.

[@divinekoneko]

My dad was schizophrenic and had really bad symptoms. I loved him, and he loved me. We were super close, and I had to learn that he was a person too. As a kid, I had to see him do some things he definitely regretted, because he was a great guy underneath it all, and a super talented artist/tattoo artist. R.I.P Dad.

[@teal3af49]

I’m so sorry for your loss. Maybe he’ll be giving someone a tattoo in the stars :)

[@divinekoneko]

@@teal3af49 Thank you. I'm sure he's out there in the big blue, giving some sick tattoos to his favorite musicians or something.

[@CForCendetta]

@@teal3af49 hahahaha in the stars 😂 look out we go to the stars when we die hahaha

[@jessicajohnson2904]

❤❤❤ for you

[@divinekoneko]

@@jessicajohnson2904 Thank you. 💟

[@dilara2278]

when i was in a psych ward, i met a boy with schizophrenia he had just turned 18 and his symptoms apparently were so bad he could hardly talk, walk or even just do anything he always looked so weak and like he was in so much pain, he often had seizures too. he was really sweet though and i loved when he talked to me or asked me to color in his coloring books. but the really devastating part is that he had been ''normal'' up until he turned 16 and then he just suddenly started showing major symptoms. when we were eating he often fondled around with his hands and started screaming and telling them to go away. when i stable enough to go home it felt like he was actually getting better i really hope he's okay.

[@hippiehairstylist]

You think if you call that place u guys were at, you could check on him? Like, do you think they'd share any info with u at all? At least about how he's doing. I'm curious too

[@MamaWhit87]

So sweet

[@tylerlevesque1867]

Just out of nowhere at 16? Vaccine

[@venuswright6814]

@@tylerlevesque1867 lmao huh

[@Leo-vy9bk]

Oh no I’m 16 too and I literally started hearing voices in my head like right now in my kitchen and got really paranoid so I ran to my room turned on my lamp and started freaking out, so I started looking at schizophrenic symptoms and also brought me to this video. Idk man I’m shaking and really paranoid like I’m getting startled by minor things...

[@Rp-pc1rl]

My son would refer to the voices as "they" These voices became more cruel as time went on. The voices would tell him to get violent. He became very paranoid and would pace all night when everyone was asleep. He didn't like playing his favorite games anymore because the voices were so demeaning. I felt so heartbroken over my 20 year old son. He was such a sweet, loving young man. My beautiful, I miss you.

[@sharonbell1094]

I'm so sorry. 😞❤️

[@Rp-pc1rl]

@@sharonbell1094 thank you

[@haaatski]

Is he ok now?

[@BriaredEyes]

@@haaatski pretty sure she implied he's no longer with us 😢

[@kgddugvjj]

I'm so sorry for your loss❤️ schizophrenia is a fucking ass, and that's an understatement.

[@Mochii_x1]

My best friend was the one who recommended this channel for me, and I’m so glad she did. She has Schizophrenia, and I’m so happy there is someone like you who makes videos like these to spread awareness. She has always been very friendly and social, however the effects of Schizophrenia make it harder for her to make friends as some people see her as “crazy” or “weird”. Luckily, that’s not a lot of people and many of our schoolmates love her and do their absolute best to understand her. I’m so proud of her for making it through all of this, even if it came with many struggles. She’s on medication, but she goes off it sometimes, not a lot though as lots of the symptoms have been put under decent control. As someone who also struggles with mental illness (BPD, Depression, PTSD, ADHD, and Histrionic Personality Disorder), it’s great to see so many more people talk about this stuff! In my country not many people feel comfortable expressing this, so this makes me very happy. Sending lots of love! ❤️ あなたにたくさんの愛を送ります!

[@Thomas_fn]

imagine someone who has high self esteem constantly hearing “your sexy “get em beast” shit like that

[@liljim2221]

You mean Kanye?

[@thesashasaturn]

@@liljim2221 DEAD🤣🤣🤣

[@ogechiokeke3929]

The sabbath is on a Saturday not on a Sunday this is the mark of the beast. If the world forces this on you don’t budge. The head symbolizes your choice and your hand represents your work. Keep the sabbath day Holy.

[@zimora4422]

LMAO

[@ogechiokeke3929]

@@zimora4422 Don’t do that it’s a sin. God hates it when you sin. Stop with the swearing and slander Jesus Christ hates it. Ask for forgiveness and repent of all your sins

[@AnaHaze777]

I think we all need to take a moment to realize how incredibly strong people with Schizophrenia must be. I have borderline personality disorder and with that alone my self worth and just my own inner dialogue is so negative and sad. If I had ANOTHER person in my head telling me all the horrible things I already kinda think about myself I don’t know if I could survive. I’ve been so suicidal on my own. I empathize with you deeply and am so sorry you or anyone ever has to deal with this. *edit: thank you all so much for all the kind comments. I didn’t know anyone even saw this til now. You all are strong and loved and I appreciate you ♥️

[@Layra151301]

@@videokitten bro, seriously?

[@videokitten]

I’m so glad your not suicidal anymore, you are a beautiful person!

[@Inzpectre]

Thank you for the heartwarming comment, i really needed it in a day like this where I'm paranoid no matter what. Ok so, i know it sounds crazy, it is crazy, but yesterday i was waiting for my bus to arrive and some guy trow some trash in a trash can and i don't like to share it but i thought it was a BOMB. It even got to the point where i started imagining it suddenly exploding, so my whole body started bracing for the explosion. But obviously nothing happened, i thought that I'm stupid, and thats the worst part. The voices started to tell me over and over "you're crazy, you're stupid, weak". Then after 10 minutes of those voices i got on the bus, and guess what... MORE VOICES!! I'm extremely paranoid when I'm in public and i always think everyone is against me no matter what, so i thought people on the bus where talking about me, saying terrible things about me, calling me ugly, alone sad and stupid. Those were all hallucinations, but i can't put up with it anymore... I have no idea what to do. These things happen everyday. In class today i suddenly started crying a little bit because the voices keep telling me terrible things, again i think that everyone is against me, so it makes it even worse. I keep thinking people talk negativly about me behind my back, even my closest friends. I know i can trust them, i just dont know if i can trust myself anymore. If you really took the time to read all of this, thank you! I really appreachiate it! I really do.

[@harrymorris6074]

hey annie, hope you're doing ok. i'm diagnosed with adhd, aspergers, bpd and bdd. its tough. fortunately i dont experience any forms of psychosis at all. i do however wish myself dead most days with the volume of disorders i have. i am useless at pretty much everything. i have no social interaction skills, a one minute attention span and a pure hatred for myself and my appearance. things will always get better though with medication and therapy :)

[@harrymorris6074]

@@tiredpumpkin3394 hi, thank you! yes this is encouraged by my psychiatrist as a way of developing self-peace. i believe mindfulness is very effective medicine for anybody enduring sustained mental health battles. you don't always need a diagnosis. i practise daily, it's become routine for me now. deffo has improved my ability for acceptance.

[@internetboyfriend7165]

I once heard a muse singing La Vie en Rose for a few minutes and it was one of the most wonderful hallucinations I've ever had, they're not always bad

[@MellowJelly]

That's interesting, I've never heard of someone having a positive hallucination. Each person with schizophrenia I've spoken to have said they only get negative ones

[@MsFuzzipoo]

That's very cool! I have heard of people having enjoyable hallucinations. Actually I just remembered that I've seen it in person! I used to work in group homes for people with severe and persistent mental illness. One of our clients went though a period of time when he hallucinated a group of puppies following him around. They eventually "left" and he said he missed them but was sure they were happy where they ended up. I wish these experiences were more common! My hallucinations are 100% terrible/annoying... Anyway, I'm honestly really happy that there are people, like yourself, who have found moments of incredible joy in their illness.

[@pineboxboy]

@@MellowJelly Apparently depending on where you live can sometimes effect what you hear hallucination wise. People in Africa with Schizophrenia reported hearing dead relatives giving advice and angelic humming while people in the States usually report negative hallucinations. Idk i always found that interesting.

[@ryeee_9562]

They really said Stan I*zone (lmao just a joke I hope your doing well)

[@joiedorgan1014]

Autistic hallucinations can be positive and typically are a good way to decipher between schizophrenia or autism

[@stankybee]

I personally have stuggled with contamination OCD most of my life and I wondered why schizophrenia often was compared to OCD. Seeing the "don't drink that, it's poison" kind of made me realise why...

[@mademioselle7729]

I think it has more to do with the intrusiveness of both disorders. The intrusive voices/thoughts

[@A_ndrea]

My best friend had schizophrenia & she died by suicide summer 2019. The part where he said “go ahead eat it. It’ll make you fatter than you already are” made me feel so insanely sad that she had to live with this, and could not control it. Devastates me beyond comprehension. I remember her obsessing about her weight and in real time it’s easy to say “you look great etc.” like it matters. It never mattered. This is what she lived with. My sweet friend, Lindsay. I miss her so much. ❤

[@brookewilson1950]

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's such a difficult illness 🥺❤️

[@JulieVDK01396]

Sending love youre way, such a good friend you are AND i promise that youre best riend is reading this comment..

[@aleksanderwaskowski1862]

It is sounds like bipolar with psychotic mania not paranoid schizophrenia ...

[@casualties9478]

@@aleksanderwaskowski1862no matter what it was it was reality for her

[@aleksanderwaskowski1862]

@@casualties9478 one of maniacal psychosis is "kill family and make suecide" by clomipramine anafranil in bipolar. If You reply i share mine full experience with details. Bipolar name is serotonin schizophrenia ?

[@chamjam_enthusiast]

storytime from a person with schizophrenia: for background im an unmedicated 16 year old and i still live with my parents. during the end of last schoolyear, my psychosis was really terrible. for some reason during class i just got the overwhelming feeling that some group was stalking me and trying to kill me. i was so scared that i was crying and i had backed myself into a corner away from windows and doors so that i could keep an eye on everyone in the room. i decided to get my phone out and text my mom that some group was after me and trying to kill me. she told me that none of that was happening and that i should try to calm down and that she would come and get me if i couldnt calm myself down. which, looking back at it, was good advice and i know she was just trying to help. but at the time i took it as she was part of the group that was hunting me and when i got home she and my father would kill me. so i got even more terrified and begged her not to pick me up. i spent the whole schoolday crying and seeing dark figures out of the corner of my eyes. i constantly heard voices telling me that everyone knew what i was going through and that they werent helping me bc they hated me and wanted me dead to begin with. when the day was over and i went home, i quickly grabbed a knife from the kitchen and ran upstairs to barricade myself in my room. my mother got in and tried to ask me what was wrong while i screamed and cried and told her not to hurt me and to get out. she didnt listen and moved towards me. i lunged at her with my knife but i didnt cut her. i tried to, but she moved out of the way before i could. she finally left after that, running back downstairs away from me. the knife was later taken away from me while i slept it took me weeks to come out of that delusion and i wouldnt eat anything besides prepackaged snack foods that id eat in the middle of the night bc i thought she poisoned all of my food. i wouldnt talk to my parents and id do everything in my power to stay away from them. writing this now and thinking about it is extremely upsetting to me and im even tearing up a bit, but i need you all to understand how terrifying psychosis can be and how hard it can be to manage these symptoms when youre unmedicated.

[@alienmonkey6304]

I have a question, did you ever think during those intense times, that somebody may have done witchcraft against you ?

[@justmicky6254]

This is insane i have v2k and I can't say I have schizophrenia

[@valentinafuffa535]

Hello, thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry you had to go through this but in a way I am glad you can now look back at it and you somehow are able to recover, it makes me very hopeful. An online friend of mine is currently having some very similar symptomps and is now hospitalized. It's sad because I feel so powerless. The worst part of it all is I have no idea what to say whenever she has her attacks, I'm afraid she would consider myself and her other friends to also be in some huge absurd conspiracy, like what happened with you and your mom when she tried to give you some advices. I know it is a very tough question that probably has no answer but what do you think would have been the best words for your mom to choose when she was trying to comfort you? What would have been the best way to make you feel better? Thank you so much if you will answer this

[@madisonzibelli2030]

very happy you feel better, sending lots of love and compassion

[@the_snailll]

oh babe, i'm so sorry you have to go through that. thank you for sharing your story.

[@jigsawchan5364]

Body language and paraverbal signs clearly demonstrate how uncomfortable those videos make her feel... Hell, it makes ME feel triggered, even though I've never had such experiences... It was very noble of this girl to watch and comment on the videos for people to learn more.

[@GuitarAX7Tutor]

@@gumcat15 watch the self soothing in her hands throughout the video, and the uncomfortable moving around in the seat. Rubbing her neck and touching things that mean a lot to her like the necklace and ring.

[@le0ismyp00kie]

Your profile picture reminds of Pink Diamond from Steven universe

[@ThomasJr]

I think you misunderstood what she meant by trigger, dummy. Trigger here means that seeing those things will cause them to experience their own hallucinations. It's not triggered as in mad. but I believe perhaps you know that, I hope.

[@richardmccabe2392]

@@ThomasJr No, 'trigger' here is used in the sense that it may cause you to feel extreme distress i.e. if the content is related to past trauma and triggers upsetting feelings, that's generally what trigger warnings are for.

[@xrosyxposyx]

I was actually watching her most of the time and noticed this instantly. I don't know much about reading body language but I could see that she was uncomfortable. It's interesting seeing how she physically was reacting to the video and then hearing her comments. You can kind of see the thoughts she shared with us link back with her body language during the clips.

[@Tierneycristian]

I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 20 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting schizophrenia. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

[@CathieGomez-mp8sk]

YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

[@Iiisslogan-co6np]

From my experience it really works excellently! It doesnt even need to be a full hit. With potent shrooms 2-3 small ones will still make a clear difference. It will be a few hour cosy rumbling moment around rest time, but afterwards its just calm and you feel amazing and gain your freedom. Psilocybin is different dudes, its the only "treatment" I would recommend to someone who genuinely wants to get better. There is no addiction, withdrawal, or negative side effects. It's just pure healing., far more effective than any anti-depressant. You can thank me later,

[@FrankMorrison-vu2kc]

I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.

[@DebanckKim-rd6to]

Does he ship?

[@JacksonSmith-wc8oo]

Yes he ships discreetly got mine shipped here in Spain 🇪🇸

[@WoWGirl6]

In some cases schizophrenia sounds like a magnified version of everyone else's insecurities. Like if your fears, paranoia, and insecurities went wild.

[@karenday9109]

That’s what I thought!

[@monkiram]

The difference is that unlike those of us without schizophrenia, they literally "hear" these voices. The primary auditory cortex of their brain lights up on an MRI when they are "hearing voices". This means that their brain processes these like it does other real sounds. For those of us with intrusive thoughts without schizophrenia, we imagine these words but our brain doesn't erroneously believe it physically heard them. Does that make sense? But yes I agree, it's interesting how many of us without hallucinations have thoughts exactly like this

[@WoWGirl6]

@@monkiram yeah it makes a lot of sense. That’s interesting. And yeah I definitely feel many of the things they often “hear.” But that’s my only way of understanding their condition.

[@kameronbetzer8379]

@@monkiram so whereas people with schizophrenia experience this when awake. I sometimes have auditory hallucinations while falling asleep. Most of the time it sounds exactly like a family member abruptly shouting my name out of nowhere. It's usually a big shock like i just fell for a jumpscare.

[@monkiram]

@@kameronbetzer8379 Yes this is actually a very common phenomenon. It's different from dreaming which happens during REM sleep. Hallucinations happen as you're falling asleep and as you're waking up

[@sonnydarnell9545]

worst psychosis fit i ever had was while out camping with some friends and i actually believed they were all plotting to kill me and i had like a full mental collapse for a few hours, thank god i have good friends cause they helped me through that fit without anyone getting hurt

[@user-bg6qg4rh1b]

Woahh that’s crazy

[@LadyCladdagh]

That happened to me once at a Halloween party when I was 19. I had smoked some weed prior, and I began to believe that all the men at the party were planning on raping me and I had a full melt down. My girlfriends were there thankfully and helped me. Very scary.

[@asterirxse7146]

One time I thought I telepathically killed my cat on accident. Terrifying.

[@bencarter1483]

@@LadyCladdagh you were probably experiencing a panic attack. I had a similar experience on weed. Marijuana always made me super anxious. I'm glad I've moved on from it

[@pixwool]

Zachary Darnell I cant imagine how terrible that would’ve felt. I have paranoia that flares up and makes me think everything is out to get me sometimes, but I can’t tell how terrible you felt then.

[@drgaurikumar9494]

U make my anxiety look like nothing. I am really sorry. U r very brave . U deserve love deeper than ocean itself.

[@patrickmeneses1972]

And U deserve love too Gauri! ☺️

[@aurakatie99]

i find it hard to distinguish between this and my anxiety

[@chloescorner6681]

Your anxiety is valid

[@sofiaprado5994]

@@aurakatie99 i think schizophrenia is more hallucinatory compared to anxiety among other things, but ppl have different anxiety levels, i have anxiety too!

[@aurakatie99]

Sofia Prado yeah u probably literally think u can hear voices tbf. Sorry you have anxiety hope ur coping ok

[@zenz0ha472]

I appreciate this video so much! I'm not schizophrenic, but I knew someone who was, and he called me one night having terrifying visual hallucinations of shadow people surrounding him... It scared me to hear such fear in his voice, and trying to keep him talking and grounded in reality was painful... I cannot imagine what this must be like, so someone who's willing to explain their experience is helpful and also fascinating. I love being able to understand these types of illnesses better so that I can help those I care about to the best of my ability.

[@vercingetorix9005]

I went through a period of time where I was convinced that I was developing schizophrenia because of undiagnosed anxiety. Depersonalization, derealazation the works. The idea of experiencing psychosis and being at war with my own mind is honestly the most terrifying thing I can possible imagine. Bro my heart goes out to people who have to live with this illness.

[@poucelina4313]

same

[@Phoenix1062]

Yes me too. I was starting to think I had it because my mom did. But she also caused it kind of by taking so much medication. So I don't think I would have it because she did. But growing up watching her have it gets me to thinking sometimes that it's more then anxiety. I was so depressed.because of it at o e time.

[@heatherlefaye2600]

Same

[@Ammoniumbicarbonat]

I had this too at the start of this year; it was absolutely emotionally exhausting

[@EPICSOUNDTRAX]

@@Phoenix1062 I think schizophrenia is not direct to children it will jump one generation.In other words you will be completely healthy but your children will probably have it or have tendencies.

[@TheN00bmonster]

I've never watched this channel before but it showed up on my recommended. As a health care provider this is very helpful.

[@horrificreader4084]

Same

[@katakana1]

Same

[@bunnygutz7884]

Mental health care provider with the name the noobmonster I love it

[@loyaltheoristgirl1018]

It popped up in my recommends too lol

[@JudyCoxify]

wagner1va ..dang

[@memandylov]

I dont have schizophrenia, but when I was in a mental hospital, there was a period where I shared a room with a much older schizophrenic woman. Before I was introduced to my roommate, I had people warning me that she's crazy and not to listen to anything she says because it'll all be lies, and I really HATED the way they talked about her and treated her. I spent a lot of the time we were alone in our room talking with her, giving her an outlet to vent her frustrations with me, even letting her borrow paper and a marker for her to write down timelines and notes and such, and while admittedly her delusions seemed outlandish and frankly impossible, her fear and emotions were 100% genuine, and while an outsider might have seen her as crazy, I grew to really like her. I spent a lot of time comforting and reassuring her, and it was really sad to see how even the staff dismissed her and treated her so poorly. I think it's really important that people understand mental health and disorders like schizophrenia better so they get treated with more care and compassion instead of dehumanizing them and labeling them as crazy. Schizophrenics, as well as people with other mental disorders, are not crazy. They're people. They're struggling and many of them are suffering, and they deserve compassion as much as anyone else. Being in a mental hospital honestly didn't do ANYTHING for my mental health, but it was certainly an enlightening experience. I got to spend time with a lot of interesting people and see how their disorders were affecting them and I learned a lot in the process, but the most important thing I learned was not to judge people. The people society likes to deem "crazy" are a lot more normal than they're made out to be, and I personally respect them for being able to put up with so much for so long. I don't think I could handle it. Please let me know if anything I said comes across the wrong way. Like I said, I don't have schizophrenia, so if anything I said comes across as offensive in any way, let me know. Spreading love and hugs to any that need or want it 💖

[@kingsizeblues616]

Nope, very well said

[@kingsizeblues616]

😂

[@spedslojp3353]

thank you for writing this

[@OttrPopAnimations]

woah

[@c.LOSER.to.G0.d]

@【𝙏𝙃𝙀　𝘾𝙊𝘾𝙆】 lol - a little humor doesn't hurt here and there :D

[@nassima.a]

I’m not schizophrenic but I’m borderline. So I do suffer from psychosis too, I don’t hear voices but I hear sounds that aren’t here, I see shadows and the size of things change, even myself. But mostly, psychosis for me is losing touch with reality in term of dissociating, seeing the world as a blurry mess of emotions and insanity 😀 and nothing feels real anymore.

[@traviejnr]

I relate to this so much. I also have horrible dreams that actually occur during the day that I can’t shake from my headspace or my external vision, unless I get up from where I am sitting or standing and shake it off, and even then, sometimes it doesn’t work 😢 it’s almost like I don’t have voices, but I have people projecting images of things that terrify me the most directly into the front of my brain, and I can’t stop it. I hope this is the extent of everything for us, and we don’t descent further! ❤❤

[@visionvixxen]

Is that szhicophrenia or depersonalization?

[@nassima.a]

@@visionvixxen depersonalization with psychosis, I don’t have schizophrenia but i have a borderline personality disorder

[@ljcherry22]

My sibling is experiencing schizophrenia and hearing those voices saying I hate you made me cry and I just had to text him I love him. Never want him to think he's not loved. It's been heartbreaking to see him suffer.

[@synkronized]

you're a good sister:)

[@totenkopf30]

@@synkronized maybe SHE is the one whispering him all that shit and tells him that hes all fucked up in the head

[@zahrakez2673]

@@totenkopf30 I hope you get the proper help you need😔 please take care of yourself

[@totenkopf30]

@@zahrakez2673 hahahaha, Im sooo drunk!!!

[@Seireiranlololololo]

@@totenkopf30 ???

[@Sweetlittlehugs]

Someone I loved with Schizophrenia took his own life. He was a big teddy bear. Sweetest man ever, you would never be afraid of him or think anything was wrong.

[@yuriyhoff7037]

aw I’m so sorry ❤️

[@jayiii1766]

Quarantine is the result of this, RIP

[@tbooker5547]

So so sorry 😢😩

[@kybreyes54]

My grandson took his life just past may 26 2020. After having couple severe episodes and being treated for 10 yrs

[@okidoki3201]

The meds kill people

[@orestes1984]

There are so many similarities to social anxiety in the second video, except it's your own internal dialogue talking to you about what people think about you.

[@hightalk]

Yeah. This sounds like my own internal dialogue all too frequently. I also get intrusive thoughts that I would never act on. I was diagnosed with autism and ocd.

[@omgabee8532]

I was thinking this same thing. I have all of these similar thoughts, they are just coming from me, not a voice I hear.

[@kallamina]

I was thinking the same, lots of similarities to social anxiety. I never hear it like voices, I know it's my own voice and my own inner dialog (or sometimes just literal anxious feelings directed at something, if that makes sense) but all of what was said in the videos are said in my head as well - and sometimes I react to it in real life so to say. For an example, I was talking to my friend while having loads of anxiety. She didn't notice anything weird with me, even though I felt like I was just talking shit and told myself things like "what the f*ck did you just say!?" "Why did you say that!?" "You should have said it like this/differently." etc. I also had thoughts that said that my friend would dislike me or think I'm weird because of what I said and basically tell me what she was thinking about me and what she would tell our other friends about me. When my friend left and I was alone in the room, my anxiety and the heavy feeling in my chest was so bad and my thoughts so irritated and angry that I felt the urge to hurt myself. I ended up hitting myself in the forehead with an empty glass that I was holding. But I don't have any kind of schizophrenic disorder, for my part, it's all anxiety.

[@litchtheshinigami8936]

well for me it's usually not clear words but rather just a hazy thought.. now usually my thoughts are just singular words that i myself do make sense of now i'm multilingual so it could also be a conglomeration of different languages.. it makes sense to me but someone else would be confused.. basically in my case it's always something regarding social situations.. so one time i was sitting with this group and they were talking about people and actors/actresses they liked and they would be showing them around.. however me being both socially inept and asexual makes a situation like that especially if they start asking my opinion a situation i don't know how to deal with.. (now i do have ADHD as i was diagnosed with ADHD as a child i was also diagnosed as having PDD-NOS wich is a forme of autism and i know i mask heavily to a point where it's rare for me to show my emotions and if i do it's a facade of happyness) so i usually just go eh yeah he's okay i guess.. if they want me to elaborate i'll just shrug because if i told them what i really think they would probably ask even more questions usually it's the typical blonde haired basic looking model with alot of muscle tone that they show and frankly i don't care about that if i like someone i like them for their personality not for what they look like.. i don't care if they are chubby or have a perfectly chiseled pair of abs.. or what their faces are like.. as long as they have good hygene and their personality is the kind i could fall for only then would i be able to elaborate.. because well if you just show me a picture of a random person i don't know i won't know what they are like either so i'll be unable to make a judgement about it

[@lorenfulghum2393]

Even the sense of the environment being hostile, the lights too bright, being jumpy... all that can be part of social anxiety as well.

[@Santibag]

ADHD and Autism can be problematic in today's society, but schizophrenia is just scary. I'm glad there are some things you guys can do to manage it. I hope for a definite treatment to be invented too.

[@Leopardvixen369]

I’m also AuDHD. It really stinks in today’s environment, especially because I have sensitive hearing and other sensory issues. Certain fabrics are a no go. Fabric can actually make me angry just looking at it. I also have problems making friends. I have no best friend. I have one friend I don’t see often. I’m not the best at reciprocating in a friendship. I’m often lonely. I spend most of my time by myself wrapped up in one of my hyperfocuses. My brain is often super overstimulated. All this is nothing compared to schizophrenia. This video is no joke. I feel so sorry for people who have schizophrenia. 😢

[@johannacochran9599]

@@Leopardvixen369yes. Totally identify and agree.

[@12toro]

Autism is really bad for me. I can't enjoy anything and learning is hard unless it is something I know. I constantly have paranoia that everyone I know hates me. I feel like I can't communicate without feeling pain in my chest. I have suicidal thoughts constantly. I do things based on fantasies I have of famous people I look up to hypothetically finding me or seeing me even though I know it will never happen. But my obsessions influence my behavior and i feel fear. I am overly sensitive etc. Thankfully I have a bit of a hold and I am "higher" on the spectrum. People "lower" can't even communicate on average with the majority of the outside world due to overstimulization.

[@12toro]

I don't know if I want a full treatment but at the same time I wish I didn't have any negative symptoms

[@riverdrawz-bvn]

i have autism and adhd and uh most probably schizophrenia

[@madelinefendley2703]

As someone who has severe social anxiety, PLEASE stop saying this is “almost the same.” It’s not. Anxiety may make you unstable and indecisive but we aren’t constantly bombarded by voices. The only voice I hear as someone with diagnosed severe anxiety is my own inner voice, I don’t physically hear other voices in my head. Yes we fight with ourselves and we doubt and question ourselves multiple times before doing something, but there isn’t a physical voice screaming at us and making it harder to focus and process. Anxiety isn’t a hallucination it’s just your internal voice

[@indiamorgan6715]

me too. i have been diagnosed with anxiety and my dad has been diagnosed with schizophrenia.

[@krisjackson5500]

I agree. The inner voice is still you; the part of you full of doubt, second guessing and dwelling on things whilst you're battling with rationality and trying your best to overcome this. I imagine voices with schizophrenia feel like how real sound is perceived, by which physical vibrations hit your ear drums and your brain processes and interprets them. If you were to sit and count to 10 with your "inner voice", this is how it is with anxiety, completely controlled by you, but also controlled by an inconceivable amount of ideas that make you doubt everything or view things with a clouded perspective. At least that's my interpretation of my anxiety, though it's of course very hard to paint a vivid enough picture with words alone. I always tell my friends "Imagine you have the nerves of a job interview coming up in the next hour. The internal battle of what you should and shouldn't say. The physiological sweating, pulsating temples and short of breathe as you start to become overwhelmed and second guess yourself. You might even talk yourself out of it and justify this with a reason, though it's just the nerves. Now imagine all these feelings, but you don't have an interview. You still feel this way, sometimes for no reason, some times because you have to go into a shop, or sometimes they manifest in retrospect, as you dwell on something that has already happened."

[@justmejld8592]

She's saying how it is with her. Pay attention to what she is saying

[@krisjackson5500]

@@justmejld8592 I think this comment is in reply to some people who are comparing their internal dialogue that they experience with anxiety to the voices heard with schizophrenia. There's quite a few people doing it in the comments.

[@amandasnider2644]

And my internal voice can be an Ahole

[@user-ux7yg2ch6i]

This video is really helpful. Thank you. My mother has schizophrenia. She's elderly now, and has had to live with so much stigma from both family and the wider community throughout her life. It's wonderful to feel like the world is changing. I'm 40 now and often when I tell someone that my mother has schizophrenia they make the assumption that my mother was horrifically violent and abusive, which was absolutely not the case. It's tiresome. I'm so glad that you are spreading some enlightenment.

[@loganwolv3393]

I wonder where they got this idea? schizophrenia is about overthinking weird stuff,hearing voices telling you to do bad things and making you scared.Not being narccicistic wich is just purely horrible.

[@debbieodle7282]

My boyfriend has schizophrenia and paranoia and also episodes of psychosis. I'm trying to learn everything I can about it.

[@yosaraholivo8477]

@@loganwolv3393 because from the outside someone going trough an episode might seem scary or be in fact dangerous, and that's the typical media portrayal of it. I had a patient whose sister had schizophrenia and one time she locked her up in the house and pulled out a gun bc she believed they were being attacked by intruders. Even tho nothing happened it was still a pretty scary scenario.

[@imdawolfman2698]

@@loganwolv3393 It's not always bad and scary, either. Even in the USA. I had a girlfriend who clearly behaved schizophrenicly. She believed messages were passed to her through various means. Like a her newspaper horoscope, which many people believe in, but this was to an extreme I'd never seen. But more obviously and typically, something said on the radio; in an advertisement, song or statement from the announcer and that something signaled to her that this was relevant and put there just for her. Not only that, but it worked like magic for her. There is now way of knowing if the times she said 'it' told her not to go out saved her from catastrophe, but I've seen her buy winning lottery scratchers every time 'it' told her to, and find $$ when 'it' told her to take a different path. I just think she was a witch! lol And that was her cover.

[@taylorhope4651]

@@imdawolfman2698 the first time I took acid I felt like the music I was listening to was describing my current moment so accuratley it was like it was directed at me. It was never scary or overwhelming but I deffinetley noticed it, I wonder if thats similar to what its like.

[@YelsewNesnej]

I wanna say I love that the girl making this video is putting herself through the vids to describe herself and her perspective. We appreciate you and thank you for the vid.

[@JazzyBeanCan]

I personally love what your doing and I look forward to watching more. I've been dealing with Schziophrenia, and Borderline for a good while now. Only recently have I started to reach a place where I can recognize what is just paranoid delusion and real. It makes me feel so heard to know other people are going through the same thing. I've been struggling with a lot of social anxiety as of late. And the symptoms I experience have been difficult to manage lately. This crap can be a struggle, and it helps to know im not alone. sorry for making this long. Thank you for helping us feel more human I guess 💜💜💜💜💜

[@shannong3194]

schizophrenia is like my anxiety on xgames mode

[@bobabubbletea7141]

Oh my gosh same!!! Wow. Never realized that.

[@bobabubbletea7141]

@Moonlight io oh mah gawd

[@amaikarai5007]

I was about to comment the same sort of thing, lol.

[@ambarquintero771]

I was thinking the same thing, it’s my anxiety but it’s me basically overthinking multiple what if scenarios, instead of other voices. The phone, answering the door, I do it but anxiety comes through.

[@purity6664]

its really not, stop demising how serious this illness is. being scared to ask the waiter for sauce is NOT the same as experiencing psychosis

[@sweaters_and_harmony9525]

As a mental health therapist, I can honestly say that your channel has helped me learn more about the Schizophrenic Disorder Spectrum than any textbook ever has, Lauren. Thank you for your hard work and honest thoughts. Continue to do what you're doing. Take good care!!

[@CynicalNuggit]

@CIA: David Marlowe's PsyOp is Your Mental Issue this might sound crack pot.. but it is spot on.. Frequency can heal...the pyramids had resonance chambers they were used to heal the organs with sound.

[@marcusmphotography]

@CIA,DOE,NSA,DOD, n Research Institutes test on You thats some hard to believe tinfoil hat shit lmao

[@carloscabrera5311]

@CIA,DOE,NSA,DOD, & Research Institutes test on You what are you attempting to suggest ? Did you take your meds ?

[@thomaswager9468]

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[@bobbywalsh5538]

Moral Orel ? How do you get diagnosed how bad until it’s …. When ,? They take it … fr ? Eh

[@melaniechapman1636]

I continue to be impressed by her insight and self-awareness. This kind of “knowing yourself” only comes from having suffered and stumbled through some major challenges. ❤️

[@PaulAdamssongs]

I worked in MH nearly 40 years. You are offering a great service and am sure you are going to be helpful to many!! Very impressive! Thanks.

[@nesia47]

My dad never got diagnosed with schizophrenia but everywhere I search and try to find answers or whenever we talk to friends or family members they all say it was schizophrenia. He used to hallucinate and hear voices it got so bad. I wish I could of helped sooner. Unfortunately the voices got to him. I miss him everyday Rest In Peace Dad.

[@Seireiranlololololo]

What do you mean by "the voice got to him"?

[@CaptainEpicFace]

@@Seireiranlololololo killed himself

[@Seireiranlololololo]

@@CaptainEpicFace a

[@Meeshee57]

🥺🙏🏾

[@lyfeasmemecsit6203]

I’m sorry and know that some illnesses are stronger than Love But I’m sure your daddy Loved and cared for you. He just couldn’t get the help for himself. I hope you gain peace and know THAT ITS MOT YOUR FAULT IN ANY WAY ❤️‼️

[@florevanderbaan7969]

I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder about a year ago. I’m 21, and around 19/20 yo I started hearing voices and having this constant feeling of impending doom, thinking I’m being followed, and/or seeing shadow people and distorted apparitions of my dead mom. I already had C-PTSD and severe depression and dissociative symptoms... so I felt like it couldn’t get worse now with this new affliction. Channels like this have helped me so much, just feeling like I’m not alone. There was and is soooo much shame around my diagnosis, I didn’t want people to think I’m psycho. I felt like my diagnosis was a death sentence, that I would be doomed to have just a lower quality of life. Thank you for showing that you can still have a fulfilling, successful life dealing with psychosis.

[@sksbc3895]

Flore van der Baan ... For anyone suffering from schizoaffective disorder/schizophrenia/depression/anxiety etc., I suggest searching online and reading everything you can find on 'bread madness' or 'bread insanity'. Removing wheat from my diet turned my mental health issues (depression and anxiety) around 100%. The negative effects of wheat on mental health have been known for decades, but the wheat industry is a billion-dollar industry so this information is kept low-key. You can read individual cases online from medical journals proving that the removal of wheat for some people, cures mental illness. This may not work for everyone, but it's worth a try. I can only imagine how frightening these symptoms of schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder are. Also, watch "What's With Wheat?" for a more in-depth look at the subject.

[@unknownoblivion2417]

@@Kawfeeislife that could be the case as the doctors said, if the symptoms you’ve described happens every now and then, like maybe 3-6 times a year? Idk. But what you described is what I exactly feel sometimes, and usually I try to ground myself and recite ayat al Kursi and listen to “surahat al baqarah” on Yt or calming surahs. And it always works. Also idk if it’s the same for you but usually/more than half the time the symptoms/incidents happen at night for me (also I kinda live a nocturnal life style and can seem to fix it at the moment) so like at 3 am or sometimes at 11pm I just get paranoid and feel like I’m being teacher for that a shadow is moving

[@rachelmckeeman248]

@@sksbc3895 That's super weird because doesn't LSD come from a fungus on wheat? i'm taking LSD can trigger schizophrenia in some people?? I haven't researched your note at all but now I'm curious

[@FannyLerouxTime]

I don't suffer with it, but I know what you mean. When you mention schizophrenia people think of mental asylums, horror movies and it's a fear of the unknown too, because for the most part, people like myself aren't going to know what to do or what ways we can help you. I hope any treatment you're getting is making life better for you though and thank you for sharing your story.

[@clowngaming1899]

I’m sorry and I know this is a big ask but what does impending doom feel like if you describe it as best as possible

[@microsoftpowerpoint3039]

him: *wakes up* also him: why do I hear boss music?

[@Murder_Of_Cr0ws]

Lol!

[@jiyaprasoon942]

L O L !

[@-kiwi-]

*_L O L !_*

[@Murder_Of_Cr0ws]

You guys are funny 😂 haha

[@J4M.ST4RS]

BAHAHA

[@adrianzapata4723]

I really appreciate how detailed and thorough you are about each video and its accuracies and inaccuracies. Very insightful. Like when you mentioned in the second how the hallucinations can sometimes interact with real people.

[@ChrisThul487]

When mine first started, they sounded like my neighbors talking about me and mocking me just within earshot. I didn’t know the voices weren’t real for a couple months and I covered the windows with posters. Horrifying experience.

[@oscarwilde9581]

oof I experienced that a few times when I was sleep-deprived and kind of withdrawing from adderall in college. I haven't since but I was super worried for a while that I might be schizophrenic. Any time I think I see something move out of the corner of my eye I'm still a little worried.

[@madelinetownsend1004]

I'm sorry you had to go through that. I hope you're doing much better now.

[@lillyheredia9]

My aunt used to put blankets over the fireplace because of the voices

[@Alejandro-eo7lh]

@@oscarwilde9581 That thing of something black moving in the corner of the eye happens me a lot when I'm sleepy and looking at the computer.

[@a.reallymcrealperson256]

My dad used to constantly accuse me and my brother of playing tricks on him, the neighbors always spying and talking about him, often times he would randomly come up to me and pop me right in the mouth and say "you don't talk like that." I was really young at the time, I didn't even know any bad words yet. It's really hard living someone who has schizophrenia. He was also really violent and super dangerous off his meds. And he hated the meds, he ended up in the institution so many times that finally he was court ordered to take his meds once a month by way of injection. If he doesn't show up for the shot they will come looking for him

[@courtneystroud503]

My parents run a group home for older men that are wards of the government. All suffer a mental illness of some sort and many have schizophrenia. The one guy Terry that lives with my parents believes that he's a millionaire with money stashed away in a bank. When I asked him why he lived with us even though he was a millionaire, all he said was "I don't know, I guess I just like it here better". ❤ He's a gem.

[@HarryNicNicholas]

thank goodness someone is having "positive" delusions, it's so common for negative and harmful beliefs.

[@user-tr2dh4xx6u]

i met someone in a psych ward who believed they had all these properties and businesses, new one every day and she would also "get" business calls. she asked me for my coffee and im not one to refuse so i gave her it, that was a mistake because she was only allowed decaf coffee and i got in trouble for sharing. i feel bad because it messed her up :(

[@bodhimind108]

That's totally my mom.

[@faithx9260]

🥺

[@vadymvv]

@@HarryNicNicholas delusions may be positive but with no treatment such a human will degrade fast into a vegetable state.

[@peternagy2575]

The lady in the video is so collected and well-spoken. Content is illuminating, very useful, thank you!

[@ariannesmum]

my dr would tell her because she is she does not have schitzophrenia. Iv had that before . To smart to have it apparnetly .

[@jackd105]

@@ariannesmum you are right

[@charissarobieson4560]

My mom has schizophrenia. I don't know how she lives with it. It sounds terrifying the things that they see and hear. My mom often times whispers to herself and even curses under her breath at the voices to leave her alone. And the things she's told me that she's seen I hope I never have to see. She also definitely gets paranoid a lot. It took my family a long time to get her on medication and she still in denial about having schizophrenia she thinks the medication that she's taking right now is for high blood pressure or something. I'm just glad she finally got on good medication so I can actually hold a conversation with her now. Back when her psychosis was at its peak when I was a teenager anytime she was having a really bad episode my dad would try to take her to the hospital but before he could even grabbed his keys she had driven off and disappeared and she would do that over and over. So it was really difficult for us to get her any help at the time. We tried taking her keys away because we were afraid she was going to harm herself but then the police made us give the keys back because she had her rights which is understandable but we were just concerned for her safety.

[@toxicoutlaw9424]

The worst part for me is that every voice manifest as a close friend or family member calling to me.

[@azsli2]

YES!! Especially when they arnt home.

[@Lallint]

mom: Honey, come help me bring in groceries, im home! Me: Okay! *20 seconds later* Me: Motherf-

[@toxicoutlaw9424]

@@Lallint the absolute betrayal. Even your voices are tellin you to get off your ass.

[@karleykb8881]

Wait so I’m 14 and I’ve had a very traumatic past and sometimes I think I hear my mom call me or maybe ask a small question and I say to did you call me and she says no should I look into it or maybe just cause from anxiety?

[@karleykb8881]

Also like other people like my brother or a friend

[@Glasmond]

The distorted, very tall perspective from the first video is actually not the guy being super tall with this tube vision, but called Dysmetropsia/AIWS (Alice in Wonderland Syndrome). It’s a sort of hallucination or distortion, triggered by different things (with me usually when I’m very dehydrated or something really fear inducing happened), that can trigger other symptoms like a psychosis. It’s the most accurate representation that I’ve ever seen. It’s scary and makes you go very slow and careful or lie down.

[@Yatukih_001]

And when did Alice in Wonderland syndrome became known? After the Disney film Alice in Wonderland was produced, based on the same story. People we have to let go of this Hollyweird stuff because its ruining peoples´minds!

[@rotzlo]

@@Yatukih_001 Bruh.......just dont write a comment, if you're just gonna spew bullshit.

[@athqna8625]

@@Yatukih_001 are you actually dumb adhadhdhjgf

[@luciasoosova2182]

@@Yatukih_001 Jesus, no! It was originally named Todd's syndrome aften John Todd, british psychiatrist described it in 1955 AND he noticed that many of his patients compared their sensations to the Alica in the Wonderland, when Alice became big and that extremely small after she drank the Liquid and ate the cake. The book is from 1865 and the movie you are blaming was released in 2010. Btw, Lewis Carol was just inspired by his own sensations.

[@doflya129]

It looks like he’s just tall to me and the camera angle makes it look like this but it might be also AIWS

[@nandinishah1709]

I'm five minutes into the video and I'm already overwhelmed. I can't even imagine how hard it is for scizophrenic people.

[@sarcasm8007]

Same I keep having to pause and like take a breathe.

[@tyler3201]

It's different for some. Some it's alright and can be dealt with without medication. Other's it's a different story.

[@PalmistsHouse]

it was hard for me before i was medicated, but being medicated and going through therapy really helped! sorry for the late reply, i just wanted to give you some peace of mind.

[@da359]

Imagine this for children as well! It must be so hard for everyone.

[@sonatine3266]

Thanks for bringing the topic closer to people like me, who doesn't suffer from this illness. I was simply interested because I've met a schizophrenic dude several times on my way home walking through my street (he was talking to himself... sometimes loud, somes not so loud and one neighbor told me about it) - and beside of that I'm someone wo gets strong medicine (pills and a infusion every 6 weeks) because of a auto immune disease and they have bad side effects, like heavy nightmares and very active dreaming in general. Sometimes it's so bad that I don't want to go to bed, because I know I will get nightmares. So yeah, obviously not comprable (illnesses should never be compared anyways), but this video helped a lot to understand.

[@psychsoma]

That first one was... kinda terrifying, with the "they know, they'll know, they're gonna know." I had a short possible psychotic episode a few years ago (has not recurred since and I was never diagnosed with anything because of it) where I had very intense delusions that photographs and children I passed by were watching me, because "they know." I didn't know what they knew, but they knew, and it was bad that they knew. Lasted about four days and were the scariest four days of my life.

[@emilyclorissa]

Holy shit, that is terrifying. I'm glad it was a one time thing for you and you don't have to live with it daily like some of these unfortunate people

[@user-mv5tm8eu5z]

@@emilyclorissa glad it ended, if y don't mind me asking - how did u notice it starting, how did it feel at its peak and how did it end/de-escalate?

[@JoeyDDuran]

Sorry if this comes across as rude, but I just want to say that your comment is very reassuring. I had a psychotic episode just about a year ago and have also not had any recurring symptoms. I’ve been in a program ever since to sort of keep me from ever experiencing it again, but I haven’t had a single symptom since. I’m only on one medication (Seroquel) but it’s a very low dosage (not high enough to prevent another episode, according to my psychiatrist), so I want to say it’s safe to assume it wouldn’t happen again. The fact that it’s been 4 years for you just makes me feel somewhat safe and reassured that it really could have just been an isolated incident (it was triggered by severe lack of sleep).

[@psychsoma]

@@user-mv5tm8eu5z I think you mean me, not Emily. She was just saying it's good I haven't dealt with it again. At its absolute peak, I was completely convinced that I was being watched. That was my reality at the peak of the episode. I was fearful and paranoid. Logically, I knew that it was just a delusion, but the truth wasn't enough to keep me from believing in the delusion. I remember texting my therapist at the time telling her I knew I was having delusions but I believed them anyway. Knowingly believing something false and being unable to do anything to stop myself from believing it was terrifying. The best way I can describe the de-escalation and escape from the episode is like a fever breaking. It hit its peak, and then it just sort of...stopped. I was still anxiety-ridden for a few weeks afterward, mostly just afraid the delusion would come back, but the total belief that I was being watched just completely stopped in its tracks and vanished.

[@psychsoma]

@@JoeyDDuran it doesn't come off as rude at all! I'm really happy you haven't had another episode. And I'm glad my story makes you feel a little more at ease. I don't quite know what caused mine, but I'm glad to hear you know what caused yours. I'm sure that definitely helps with preventative measures.

[@Watcher-of-Forms]

I've actually seen a schizophrenic person react to this video and she said the explosion in the coffee cup was very consistent with her own hallucinations.

[@MellowJelly]

Yeah! It's so important to note that each individual with schizophrenia can be widely different and the hallucinations can vary greatly

[@billyboner8519]

Yip. I see galaxies colliding in my coffee, in flowers, snakes , fish swimming in the carpet, and zombies drifting in my mind when my eyes are closed.. Docs first thought I had been on the Acid.. but no..

[@anarrivingwingedhussar9692]

Seeing what people dealing with things like schizophrenia, BPD and dementia go through has made me realize just how much I’ve taken for granted in life. I can’t imagine what this would be like … my heart goes out to anyone dealing with this.

[@thomashuggins8581]

Bpd does indeed really fucking suck

[@DanielTheGreatestOfAll]

seriously bro , i pray the lord god blesses the people that are dealing with these disorders with his peace and heal them with his mighty powers, amen .

[@petermayer7895]

@@thomashuggins8581 how did you get in contact with bpd?

[@thomashuggins8581]

@@petermayer7895 I have it

[@petermayer7895]

@@thomashuggins8581 i feel sorry about that, if you want to speak about it, i would listen, i know a lot concerning bpd

[@Melody-kc1tg]

This is the first video I watched from this channel and I really like how respectfully you comment on the videos.

[@kass7930]

My boyfriend is schizophrenic and this seemed pretty accurate according to what he told me he experiences, he has fairly bad symptoms and I'm glad I got more of an insight into what he's sometimes going through. He's an amazing person, I love him with all my heart, and I want to help him in any way I can.

[@yamimarik]

Ah the ould ‘I love said person and I’ll fix him/her relationship’ good good times

[@clariceeilken5467]

@@yamimarik she didn't say she's trying to fix him, she just wants to be there for him and help him in any way she can because she loves him..

[@hesaaah3805]

@@clariceeilken5467 help/fix same difference... i get what the writter ment, and its true, sometimes there’s ppl who ‘think’ they can help a person get better or deal with certain issues “better”, but realistically speaking, no you cannot. Its hard enough for profesionals to help these ppl. What makes you think and ordinary person can help? You just put yourself in a situation that will cause you more issues into your own life as well.

[@clariceeilken5467]

@@hesaaah3805 help can simply mean things like, “I will drive you to the hospital when you need it,” it doesn’t have to mean I will help your mental condition, it can be just simply being there for someone. The comment I replied to does say things that can be applicable and true in certain circumstances, but I don’t think it was an appropriate reaction to the original comment that is just describing what it is to care for someone.

[@laurabrown4291]

@@yamimarik that isn't the vibe I got from her but if so, you're right. So many young people get into relationships with toxic(intentionally or unintentionally) people and think they'll be the ones to "fix them". Their love is the one that'll be strong enough to overcome these obstacles. And for whoever feels that way upon getting in a relationship with someone with a debilitating mental illness, you WILL NOT fix them. You are not the shining light in their life that will alleviate all their pain. You arent the chosen one and you won't heal them. But you can support them. Theres no real way to prepare for it if you've never known someone with schizophrenia, but know that it is a lifelong fight. Sometimes you're gonna be the one who holds them while they rock back and forth or cry themselves to sleep, and sometimes you're gonna be the one who's being screamed at and accused of bizarre and absurd behavior at their expense, and sometimes you're gonna be the one who has to give the same pep talk every single morning to get them back to the doctor for ther dozenth time because their meds aren't working and that's further reassuring them that their hallucinations are real. It's torturous, it's painful, it's sad, it's hard, but for me it's worth it, because those little moments of joy and peace are worth a lifetime. That being said, don't sacrifice your life for something you arent ready for because that isn't fair to anybody. You arent a bad guy for taking your own safety and future into consideration. Just pay them the same respect and honesty you'd expect. We've been together over 5 years and are both about to be in our 30s. After his first violent episode I didnt feel guilty for taking some time to think about if this was a commitment I was REALLY ready to sacrifice for. I decided it was and it's been worth it for me but theres still a lot of bad days. It's all subjective. Do what's best for YOU. Too often younger folks get stuck in situations they cant handle and cant escape because they didnt trust their gut.

[@LeLu-555]

I get all kinds of different "voices". P.S. The "tone" of the "voices" can make things being said hard to give a certain emotion/understanding of what's being said. Just the same as if you're talking "for real" to any regular 'ol person about almost pretty much the same. Even like getting a Text and there being so many ways to take said text especially not being able to hear the "tone" in that persons voice that sent the text in the first place. It can just be so hard to know if it's Good or Bad or Sarcastic, Whether in a Good or Bad way... Or even a Joke... Still, in a Good or Bad way... I Just Can't Stand Text.... Clear to hear and can be heard from All Around The Room or even just in front of or even behind me. Sometimes right next to me. How Close They Get, They Keep That Their Decision As Well... Whispers by just 1 person to many people coming from what feels like all over sometimes... Both of the above at the same time. Sometimes some "one" or some "ones" screaming and yelling. And it can be MEAN things or even them trying to warn me of something. So I guess some that "enjoy my pain" and some trying to "keep me safe". Hearing people I know (Alive or Dead (Especially Dead)) basically saying Anything from Wonderfully Good to something Seriously awful. I'm sure I have more examples but I'm actually now at this moment being told that I'm telling to much and that I better stop but at the same time from someone else telling me not to stop and telling me to keep talking about it... "Visions" Yes..... Sometimes more often than not. I see people I don't know from Sooooo many different time eras. Some are sweet as honey and others are not so sweet... Some are not scary at all and some are terrifying... I see people that have died (from all kinds of era as well). Knowing Some Personally and some never before and a lot of times I'm asked for some kind of help or something especially from those I don't know... That doesn't mean that the people I Do Know don't or haven't ever asked for Help, It just doesn't happen from them near as often as from those I never knew in this lifecycle go round... Damn Shadow a people!!! I see animals that are sweet as can be and some that are very scary. I see "creatures" "demons" "angels".... (And Any of these can be seen Plain as day and sometimes Transparent/See Through.) I also have other "Personalities" as well that have come to stay with me throughout the years. As of right now I have 8 (that's including myself)... There were just 5 of us for quite some time. Those 5 I can tell about them plain as day seeing as though they've been with me the longest... And these (3) newer ones I don't know a whole lot about yet. Learning though... I kinda feel like I know enough for now, basically. At least I Hope. They are quite new. One is so new I can feel him, I just haven't heard or seen him (in my head or out) yet. These 7-8 Are REAL that I share a body with basically... some still call it Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD) and some Now call it Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)... There is also the: Borderline Personality Disorder. Major Depressive Disorder. Anxiety Disorder. Panic Attacks. Prolonged PTSD that can change severity from time to time. Bouts of Agoraphobia. Nightmares Night Terrors and Severe Sleep Paralysis... And pretty much so on.... I'm sorry if I bored you but if you actually made it all the way through to the end would you please give me a like? Or reply... Hell, maybe both if you're feeling it... BLESSED BE 🌛🌝🌜

[@moonbunnygw8342]

I don't know what to say, but I still wanted to reply to you,I am glad you shared your expierience here, hope it helps someone or finds it useful,and I hope you are doing well

[@hiswife6296]

I hope u are well i feel like i just watched a movie.

[@alexilaiho8534]

Does your other personality takes over you? Like for example personality 1 is you and personality 2 is jen. Jen is a musician and you dont know things about music. Does Jen take over and suddenly you are a musician that plays piano? Is that how it works? And are you aware of the switch?

[@leogeck7350]

Thank you for sharing. I really hope you are doing well and have people that are there for you in times of need. It all sounds really terrifying and I hope you can make peace with all your personas. Personal experiences are never boring and it's important to share and shed light on a mental disorder that is still not really understood and still quite stigmatized. My own story is rooted in depression, and it always helps me to comment and chat with other people who are also affected or just want to understand it better. I wish you the strength to get through the more scary episodes and thank you again for giving an insight (if only a glimpse) into your life.

[@yrmomm]

i see shadows, they breathe down my neck. They violently whisper me awake..alot. i cant tell whats more comfortable for me auditory or visual, how do you cope ? Do you see a psychiatrist for alll of this? i am barely starting sessions w a mental health counselor/therapist, im barely accepting my issues as i have surrounded myself w a disassociated group of individuals in my entire life and never believed i could benefit from help. Finally decided i cant cower anymore !

[@noahjenkinson5093]

You're so strong for even trying to explain this to a general audience. Seeing you cope with the triggers really showed me how much work you put in. Thank you for being strong to even explain.

[@paulbreen8533]

It's really good of you to put yourself out there to help other sufferers. I really appreciate people who do that.

[@annieyu72]

The second video seemed t be very hard to watch for her with all the triggering voices of self-harm... I hope that she is not pushing herself in order to create this video and is prioritizing her mental health.

[@TheNotoriousFonzy]

As someone who's been through a fair share of psychotic episodes I just wanna say you're very brave to sit through publicly like this and speak out on what having an episode is like. I don't think I would wish psychosis on my worst enemy. You're awesome though, keep up the good work!!!!

[@totenkopf30]

I wish I had that. I tripped a shitload of times with acid and shrooms and Ive never had a bad trip. All you nuts have trips for free but are too weak to handle them. What a waste... 😠

@@totenkopf30 You want to spend your life in a f'd up world of delusions?

[@siddhantoberoi9841]

@@totenkopf30 bro watch your words...you dont want to regret bro

[@eddiem2211]

@@totenkopf30 cool story bro

[@HentMas]

My mom used to think that the news guy was saying stuff "to" her in "code", when she had a bad episode she would begin to think they were filming her trough the light bulbs... one time the commentator in a morning program said something about weight loss and she turned to me and told me "he just told me I am fat! see?" I still remember every episode she's ever had clearly and accurately, she's being having symptoms ever since she became a teenager and I was unaware of it till I turned 18 (dad haves the bad habit of hiding stuff from us) it was a jarring experience hearing her talk about aliens and ghosts and all her other delusions as a kid (she scared the crap out of me), until dad finally came out with it and everything fell into place and I was able to take a more active role on helping with her issues. It's interesting to see you make the comment of them talking in "hidden messages" because that's exactly how my mom used to experience her delusions.

[@edwinacaparelli9911]

I've never had schizophrenia, but what you guys describe is exactly what I felt after not sleeping after days of methamphetamine abuse. I was hearing voices I was thinking people were coming for me, I was seeing things. I didn't hear direct voices but I had thoughts in my head that were very uncomfortable. I have a lot of respect for people that are able to find healthy ways to cope with their illness. What you're doing on this channel is amazing, I think it's lovely and I have a lot of friends that are schizophrenic. It's really nice to see the positivity on these platforms regarding schizophrenia. ❤

[@hellobye900]

My brother has it bad. He thinks my mums poisoning him. It hurts because he is loved and he doesn't see it. He gets nasty voices too he shouts and swears at them... but sometimes he laughs out loud... he trys to hold it together. It hurts so bad. Hes said some really worrying things

[@emocrybaby]

I hope your brother feels better that must suck to deal with

[@Nostalgia_Addict]

I hope you, your brother and your family are safe and well in these trying times. I hope your brother gets better

[@mx-gs3zc]

Get a priest and do a exorcism

[@debbiewilson6584]

@@mx-gs3zc totally archaic thinking. We're not living in the dark ages and the mentally ill are not possessed by demons. This is dangerous thinking.

[@hugobrown5101]

It’s scary how much I can relate to this

[@Srindal4657]

As a schizophrenic I once saw a cat dog. It was a dog, but it was like a really big cat walking like a dog. There was a distortion to its reality so I could just about tell it might not be real. I asked the owner "that's a strange dog", he said "haha, yeah" and low and behold, it became a dog. I don't often get hallucinations, but that was a weird one

[@lordcalamity1166]

That sounds very befuddling

[@lordcalamity1166]

One time I looked through my door into the hallway and swear I saw a fruit cake with legs walk across from me. I don’t think I’m schizophrenic tho. That was just an off day 😅 could have been my actual dog but it was way late at night so idk

[@Srindal4657]

@@lordcalamity1166 apparently you can hallucinate on spices. Maybe you consumed something you shouldn't of

[@lordcalamity1166]

@@Srindal4657 werid that u brought that up considering I’ve OD on nutmeg before like an idiot. That was true horror. But nah the night of the fruit cake dog I don’t think I ate much.

[@strnglhld]

I once saw the cartoon CatDog

[@kimmyymmik]

My mom has schizophrenia but she’s never really been “normal” it started when I was a kid so I don’t remember much but I’ve never been able to have a normal conversation with my mom. Truly heartbroken by the fact that my mom is 48 and she’s not all there when she sees my kids, I wish hers was more mild :(

[@maureenirma2828]

I'm in the same situation but I didn't have the strength to go see her again and want it entirely (my relation with her just stopped when I was 18) it's complicated I know it's not her fault what she whould do when I was a child and still do probably but yeah it's hard... I don't have kids yet though...

[@MsJazsmin]

What were the signs that you knew she had schizophrenia or what types of things/behaviors was she exhibiting?

[@kimmyymmik]

MsJazsmin she would always talk to her self and laugh to herself and out of no where she would get mad at me and my sisters or sometimes even slap us out of the blue. One moment she seemed happy then not. She would also lie a lot about my dads family. Really rough stuff :(

[@Em_Elizabeth]

I know someone whose mother has schizophrenia comorbid with bipolar disorder. I've never met her though.

[@joeychan1695]

Ok

[@willowhero]

Elena, I am so sorry for all the things you have to go through. Stay strong gurl 😌

[@crookedclosure]

Anxiety is more like you think you're dying but you're not. Like even if you know it's an anxiety attack, you still have that "what if it's not though" going through your head.

[@truecrimeraw4545]

Yeah I recently started getting panic attacks for the first time.... im 36, its horrible.

[@crookedclosure]

@@truecrimeraw4545 Xanax and hot shower = temporary semi-escape from anxiety. Don't abuse it tho.

[@gonsonandenschinder]

Yea, all my panic attacks came either from drug overdoses or intense symptoms that I thought could have been dangerous. But the symptoms of the panic attack make it SO MUCH WORSE, even if you know you are in a attack. Like why tf is my body creating even more symptoms that feel dangerous?? Absolutely doesnt help handling the already threatening experience. At some point I didn't even know if a was symptom from the drug and what came from the panic attack.

[@KitsuneFyora]

I've noticed when I'm about to have an anxiety attack, it feels like I'm going to have a heart attack. Once I realize this, I take deep breaths to calm down. "What if it's not though" seriously makes the situation worse.

[@cablekar]

@@KitsuneFyora Yeah deep breathes actually do help when I am about to have anxiety attack, I breathe and think to myself "theres nothing actually dangerous going on" and sometimes I can think to myself something random will happen, like a plane crash, home invasion, shooting in public, etc.

[@stevejquest]

In the past they used to see this as "demonic possession", and after watching this, I can easily understand why.

[@aseeds7785]

Can't throw out demonic theory just yet. If you don't want to go spiritual because lack of faith, then try mathematical- 4th dimension beings.

[@StefanReich]

@@aseeds7785 I too believe in the existence of other spirits. Nothing medieval about it, I think it's something you can experience if you are open

[@DJR5280]

@@aseeds7785 I seen a ghost once. It was so weird yet I was startled. I don’t have Schizophrenia

[@Krolted]

I believe Spirits are real and I’ve seen them couple of times as well - weren’t very fun experiences for sure. But people with schizophrenia have to understand that these ‘things’ they hear, feel, see and sometimes also smell are not real!! Nothing to do with religious creatures or imaginary figures. It’s a very frightening condition, even the strongest person on earth would have moments of confusion and uncertainty of what is reality and what is not. Believe me when I say that these people have my full respect and I just wish them the absolute best in life and career.

[@MyEpiphany430]

It probably is demonic.

[@titaniumvulpes]

For me, I've always had two voices, a man and a woman, and neither of them were ever really directly _mean_ to me. They rarely ever actually spoke _to_ me at all. Mostly they just talked amongst each other _about_ me, and it wasn't always very clear. Not so much like they were whispering, but more like, I've always said it was like hearing a radio on in another room. I could tell they were talking, and sometimes make out words or sentences, but it was always a bit muffled unless things got particularly heated and they started shouting. And it was pretty much constant. So for me it was hardly ever like "Don't drink that it's poison, don't talk to them they want to hurt you," it was usually these two voices arguing "in the next room" over whether it was poison or if the person was going to hurt me. The only time either of them would ever really speak _to_ me (and it was always the man) was during manic episodes where he'd feed into my delusions of grandeur (count me in the "thought I was The Messiah" box). Now that I'm on medication I honestly kind of miss them? I always figured I would. They were just such a regular part of my life and now sometimes things just feel Too Quiet. As for the exploding coffee bit, I can't say I've ever experienced _that,_ but me and a friend have both experienced hallucinations or paranoia about bugs in our drinks (they can't be around moths anymore because of their experience, and I can't drink out of a can or anything opaque, I have to use a clear and ideally sealable container). I also for some reason _have_ to black out my information on all my pill bottles before I throw them out. I don't know why other than a vague "they" will find me and ?????? if I don't do it. Do I know this is silly? Absolutely! Do I still do it every single time? Also absolutely! This rule also for some reason doesn't apply to mail or anything else, _just_ pill bottles. Also I just wanted to point out, in the second video one of the voices kept directing the POV person towards the wine, and as a recovering alcoholic that got to that point specifically trying to self-medicate throughout high school (because people don't take childhood-onset schizophrenia seriously - my symptoms started around age 12 starting with the "shadow people" and little creatures that would skitter along the walls, and then I wasn't diagnosed for _10 years_ ), that just felt too Important for me to leave unmentioned.

[@brians4656]

Thank you for sharing

[@BravosReviews]

I appreciate how vulnerable you’re willing to be in order to help educate the world. You’re helping people. And your help matters. Thank you!

[@pootoobaby738]

My cousin hears multiple negative voices all at once, like a cafeteria where everyone is talking full volume, saying horrible things to him or hearing random pointless conversations. I feel for him because his case is so severe. Love to the schizophrenics out there

[@Sheintuts]

Tell him he can trust u

[@LaciRae]

i hear the collective conscious (cafeteria) also. it’s never negative tho. sometimes i hear clear conversations or “speeches” but they’re never about me personally. they’re either pointless or insanely interesting. it’s been this way my entire life. i hope it doesn’t turn negative some day.

[@LostME.24]

You explain this so carefully and sounds like what I have heard from others with schizophrenia

[@NoOneNoWhere72]

My daughter hears a running commentary of everything she is doing. She will be driving a car and hear, “she is turning left .. she turned left.. stopped at the stop sign, etc etc”. I asked her what happens if you turn the radio on and sorta loud, will it cover up the voices? And she said no, instead the voices start singing their commentary instead. She has been at our house and will be in the next room…. She will come running into the room I am in and start yelling at me for talking about her. It is really sad cause once she came crying and said, “mom why do you think I am such a horrible person; if you really need to talk about me can you at least wait until I leave the house. What you say hurts so bad”. We will be like, “baby, we weren’t talking about you or anyone at all. We were talking about what week we want to go camping and how the weather might be like”. Sometimes it is so hard to convince her that we were in no way at all talking about her. And it sucks for me to think that she sometimes believes the things she “hears” us say.

[@NoOneNoWhere72]

She had security cameras set up at her business and she would make me watch the videos over with her because every time she watched a particular clip she would see a different animal or different “creature/human like” walking thru the room. And she wanted me to tell her **which one** was the real thing. There was absolutly nothing there. One time she was so convinced that she was seeing things in these security videos that she showed me like 5 or 6 different clips in a row, and each one had nothing. I almost started to think I was the one that was “off” because I didn’t see anything and she was so damn convincing that there was something there. I asked, “can’t you just not even look at the security cameras?” She just couldn’t. Something was always telling her that she had to check the cameras and if she didn’t something bad was going to happen to her.

[@Faye-gl5lw]

I started to date someone that is schizophrenic and this video and comments make it more clear what it was and how I can work with him and make him feel comfortable. Thank you, everyone.

[@AdrenalineJackie]

Thank YOU for not just walking away.

[@Maria96921]

My bf has schizophrenia and we have been dating for 5 years now. I hope it works out for you two as well!

[@NichelleFitch]

I have OCD and it seems pretty similar. The intrusive thoughts, how you can’t really decipher between reality and the thoughts.

[@ActuallyDavid]

it's similar to OCD, except minus all of the audiovisual hallucinations. Intrusive thoughts are rough, but at least we're able to distinguish them as thoughts-- and not voices that may sound the same as a real one.

[@case3474]

Yeah, I've had almost the same intrusive thoughts, like with throwing things at people, stealing, or self-harm, but they seem much less intense than in the schizophrenia simulation. With OCD I also have experienced sudden like, overwhelming input from my surroundings - like the lights being too bright. Episodes of intense anxiety also bring about paranoia, like about people following me or breaking into my house. I never experience it as truly "real", though my compulsions force me to act on it as though it were real by like, checking locks and stuff. It is still really distressing. The only things I really didn't relate to on some level was the delusions and the intense psychosis. Like, believing someone you know is going to harm you, or thinking you are something you are not. I've never experienced truly reality-bending symptoms in my anxiety disorder. I wonder if there's any scholarly papers on the similarities between OCD/intense anxiety disorders and schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorders.

[@spidersheep992]

Yeah, I also have an obsession with food being poisoned, which is similar to what was happening in the first one. I’m just thankful that I don’t hear it being said to me, even if sometimes it’s hard to tell if the thought is mine or if it’s intrusive.

[@deltadawn.walker]

Spidersheep99 same here, I can’t trust my step mom of almost a year, her being around me starts up all my anxiety and worries, mostly because she’s never herself and is fake about a lot and I don’t know what’s real with and around her. I don’t want to blame her but those emotions she gives me we’re the start of my now continuous anxiety and depersonalization, and never trust the food she makes thinking she wants to kill me and my family

[@marihell4296]

I have both and I can say they are very different from each other lol

[@threeofeight197]

With the second one it feels like what would happen if you gave a literal voice to some of my inner feelings as a generally anxious person. It must be nearly debilitating. It’s hard enough having the general feeling of being overstimulated/anxious. Thanks for sharing your insight.