Loneliness, Depression and Isolation during a Spiritual Awakening - Kundalini Awakening Symptoms

[@garyzgary1]

The most profound for me isn't hearing something for the first time, but hearing it again and understanding this is a confirmation of what is within. Thank you for hold up a mirror.

[@Mr.Yang823]

This exactly how I'm feeling... I'm not in the same vibration with friends and Acquaintances and they are falling off left and right because I'm not validating who they think they are anymore.. I'm sure there's a light at the end of this tunnel so I'm doing everything I can to stay on course. 🙌🏼

[@VanessaOoms]

There’s definitely a light at the end of the tunnel! Hang in there 🤗

[@Mr.Yang823]

@@VanessaOoms I wouldn't have it any other way.. 🤘🏼

[@yvasquez2449]

I feel like I am alone and nobody remembers I am here...yes, like a ghost. I feel like I look at other people and other people’s lives and is like they are all in a party but I am not invited to join them. Everybody is enjoying life and having fun but me...people do not see me anymore, I know is not true but is how it feels to me.

[@VanessaOoms]

I know this feeling well. It won't last forever. 💜

[@yvasquez2449]

I hope so! I know this is how I feel, not the real situation. I have friends and all but true connection have been an issue lately and that is what I truly miss, connection

[@GeorgiaMaree04]

Hi @@yvasquez2449 how are you feeling now? I can definitely relate to this!

[@yvasquez2449]

It is a feeling that comes and go…I know i can change it if I really want to but I’m not always aware of it, if that make sense. Probably no but is like a bad habit that you find difficult to abandon.

[@GeorgiaMaree04]

@@yvasquez2449 yes I hear what you're saying. It is hard to move from this spot. I too feel like I can change it but still learning how to do that. All the best on your journey.

[@angelhaswoken444]

I keep overthinking I feel like I'm going crazy

[@VanessaOoms]

You’re not going crazy.

[@generallee7891]

@@VanessaOoms it feels like depression in my chest... not by thougths its just a feeling in my body.... is that what it is... meditation doesn't even help ...is this just something that takes time?

[@Mindlift_Coaching]

​@@generallee7891there is a great technique to help you go through this faster

[@Inkdpixie1122]

SAME 😭🤯

[@Bii-v9g]

It's amazing it's been truly amazing and still is.

[@Rahaf-tb9im]

“Please do not check out” thank you. Seriously, this whole video is really important. I will try to hang in there a little longer.

[@VanessaOoms]

Yes! Hang in there. It will get better. And you are not alone in this! 💜✨

[@peggythompson1111]

I hope you hung in there. I understand how hard that can be sometimes. ❤️

[@Bii-v9g]

Everybody tried to hold on just a little while longer ! Let's see if we can work together to pull things together !

[@carolpridgeon8200]

OMG thank you so. much. I am in my second wave and it has been rough. I am almost 80. Everything you describe I am experiencing...loss of interest in things that used to interest me books, movies, events, music.....I look at beauty, the leaves dying into beauty, my hummingbirds flwying across my window and love it..but I still feel detached and alone and empty. I don't want to tell my daughter, who lives within feet of me, because she becomes concerned and wants me to feel differently during my final years. Man, so do I. I am grateful so Grateful Vanessa for your posting this video. It has helped me a lot this morning. blessings to you and Namase'

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you so much love, Carol!! 💕 I understand what you’re going through and how weird and lonely it can feel. You will get through this. I’m here to chat if you feel so called. My email is [e-mail] 💕

[@jns1163]

It may be temporary but it will definitely happen again and again. This is the 3rd time my life has been ripped away from me. Struggling with the fact that we apparently have to endure trauma to elevate spiritually. I’m tired.

[@VanessaOoms]

I feel you. I’ve also been through multiple rounds of “pruning,” and it didn’t really get easier…I just had more awareness of what was happening and knowledge that it will eventually work to my benefit. This path is not for the faint of heart!

[@phoenixmode6909]

Same. So tired. Have had a few of these now. Now another it feels like. It's so taxing on my physical being. And I'm sad that a few of my main interests and hobbies have just fallen aside like unwanted toys. They were creative activities and healing activities, especially to my soul. Im sad that I halfass all my creative endeavors anymore. It's not like me. I've halfassed a lot of things in my life, but art has never been one of them. Isolating has had its perks, such as time to reflect, heal, and learn, time to meet my inner self; but being as I work retail and have grandkids and a life, I can't just shut myself in and hide. I don't have a lot of friends (the few I do have live 2k miles away), nor do I want more or want to meet people right now....yet I'm lonely, and wish I had someone to talk to or cry with. And being recently divorced, while I relish my quiet peaceful alone time, some days are hard being alone (he and I had def grown apart in our beliefs and goals and expectations, irreparably. He was always right, always his way or the highway. Even after 30+ years, between his arrogance and entitlement, the emotional abuse and his cheating, my soul could take no more.) I just want deep rest, way down into my soul even. I don't want to feel such strong emotions on the daily like this. I sit with them, and no longer self medicate like I used to now that I know it's for my higher good as well as the collective good; but it's still hard.

[@VanessaOoms]

Sorry to hear that you’re dealing with so much all at once. It’s crazy how exhausting it is to end a toxic relationship…you’d think it would be a relief, and it is to a point, but it’s such an emotional rollercoaster. I think you’ll feel up to your creative activities again - once your spirit has some time to recover. One day at a time. ❤️ Sending you so much love

[@clarapoch2074]

Omg you’ve described literally all that’s happening to me… Every word… Wanting to be alone yet feeling so lonely, crying without knowing why… And I’ve never been a sad person in my life… After a traumatic experience where I thought I was gonna die I’m not the same, I feel I’m in unknown territory and don’t know how to live… But I found your video and I feel less alone right now. I’m so deeply grateful for your message🙏🏼🙏🏼✨

[@VanessaOoms]

So glad that this resonated for you. It’s an intense experience! Hang in there friend. You’ll find your way through this 🙏🏼💜✨

[@sacredvedicastrology]

woah. I literally have been saying the past week "I feel like a ghost" LOL. ive been loosing so many friends

[@VanessaOoms]

I can imagine that would be difficult and weird for you. It's part of the process, and new people will find you who are more aligned with who you are becoming.

[@danstudy1495]

yeah same I have said see ya to pretty much everyone created a blank canvas and been slowly adding some dots to the canvas not as many dots as before but nicer ones. I chose them. dots that look like they're actually suppose to be there....my attempt at a metaphor lol. good little vid and reassuring thanks

[@mynamesgracee]

this video made me cry thank you for saying these things. I felt like spirit was talking to me at the end... telling me to give up my drug addictions & stop being in pain

[@VanessaOoms]

I understand the dark pit of loneliness and pain that addictions can put you in. Sober life is a truly beautiful thing. Definitely not always easy, but definitely always worth it for the beautiful depth of experience that I couldn’t have fathomed while I was numbing out. Spirit will meet you deeply in the process, and there is so much support out there! Including myself. 🙏🏼✨

[@albertcruz2605]

Hello Miss: Vanessa Ooms. I am a 60 year old Male. Never practiced any kind of yoga,but you got me in Tears right this very moment,I didn't understand what was wrong with me. I am a follower of our Lord 'Jesus", when I turned 50 he took me to see the grand Devine,Never been the same again...I am so happy to know that their are others, that are having a Spiritual Awakening as well.Thank-you very much,, you have been an insperation and gave me hope; to continue my journey, please take good care of your-self; and be safe,AL. Ontario, Canada.

[@VanessaOoms]

Hey there! I'm sorry I missed your message. It ended up getting held for review for some reason. Thank you so much for this. It's great to know that these videos are helping and that there are other people out there who are going through an awakening and walking the path. I'm also a follower of Jesus, and He's taken me on a journey I never would have expected! Especially for someone who thought she was an atheist for a lot of years... Anyways, great to have you here, my friend and fellow Canadian! I'm in BC. We are truly blessed to live in this country. You take good care as well. Lots of love to you. 🙏🏽🤍✨

[@WillTerrell]

It was a complete ego death for me. My whole world crumbled and nothing made sense anymore. The kundalini awakening also coincided with kundalini yoga and sound healing Kriyas in meditation. It’s been an epic spiritual awakening and I’ve been on a crazy mission to love my community for about three years now. Definitely a purifying process. Thank you my fearless friend.

[@VanessaOoms]

Oh my gosh, kundalini awakening is no joke!! I went through the same in 2015 and every part of my life fell apart and so many people fell away. Really thought I was losing it for a while!

[@WillTerrell]

@@VanessaOoms I am in that falling away part. Been a rough run the last few years. You seem to have stabilized and alchemized your experience. Thank you for being a lighthouse.

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending big love your way! It took me a while to find my sea legs, but happy to have found some balance after all that. 🙏🏼

[@kimberflyhanchette]

this loneliness is made so much worse by COVID- I had an unexpected Kundalini Awakening Dec 2019 and haven't been able to build an in-person community of people going through this- thank goodness for books and youtube videos, like yours. In hindsight and with reading and guidance, I don't consider it spontaneous as my life was one of karma yoga, without having any of the verbiage, vocabulary or understanding of my souls journey but now recognize it in my younger self and whole life- but it is very lonely ...most don't understand what you are going through- one such example for me, is that my husband and I created a close knit family and though our children are adults, we get together often- but now I have to pretend to enjoy myself with them, many times, when the truth is that I long for solitude., but I can't say that...

[@VanessaOoms]

I feel you, Kim. You're right that not many people understand what you're going through when you awaken, and I think that's the loneliest part...feeling alone when you're with others. Though they may not fully understand, they still love you so much. I was actually thinking about creating an online community where people can come together and talk about what they're experiencing and support each other. I'm still researching a good platform, but will keep you posted!

[@sinaneue2110]

@@VanessaOoms please, i would love that

[@sonakshijain2006]

@@VanessaOoms please do that. I would also love to join

[@peggythompson1111]

Did you ever do this? This is exactly what I am looking for…❤️

[@VanessaOoms]

Hi everyone! I’m working on the platform with a friend of mine, and we should be ready to invite you all in at the end of January 🙏🏼💗

[@sarahwalton2297]

Was just feeling panic in my loneliness but your vid helped calm my nervous system 🥰 thank you so much! It’s been a few years since I’ve felt these awakening sensations that feel like I’m on the verge of panic attacks. It comes and goes but a big part of it is that I’m living in a home with such loud car hooning noise that I’m experiencing a kind of ptsd from it and I feel like I can’t find peace and quiet and a safe space to relax ❤ I feel so isolated and exactly what you said - it’s hard to be around people but then when I’m alone I feel such deep loneliness ❤ I’m in the process of fulfilling big dreams and I just want to be present for it and enjoy the process 😢

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you so much love Sarah! 💜 I'm glad that this video brought a bit of calm. Hang in there, you'll get through this and find level ground again.

[@sarahwalton2297]

@@VanessaOoms thanks soo much Vanessa your vids have really been so supportive during this time 🤗

[@IntuitiveArtistrybySasha]

This video came of course at the perfect time haha. It is very lonely and you have literally taken the words out of my mouth. I was telling a friend yesterday how I feel I am floating. I am experiencing things that are questioning my identity. All of what you said is literally exactly what I am feeling. wow. Thank you.

[@VanessaOoms]

Oh wow! Yeah it can be a pretty wild experience for sure. Things will level out though 🙏💜

[@basicbase749]

Dark night of the soul has been the most painful experience of my life, despite many other traumas. I felt completely lost, lonely, homeless, hanging by a thread in vast space. I didn't know anymore who am I, where my home is, where do i belong. Complete emptiness and pointlessness. I felt detached with things, money didn't matter much, things didn't. It took me almost a year until I came out of it, and now I am amazed at the journey I have taken and reached at such a beautiful part in life, and evolved so much, I feel like the best version of myself, and more happy and content and balanced. And so powerful and I have found my home at last, it's within me :)

[@VanessaOoms]

Thank you so much for sharing your story! I can relate to your experience. The dark night is such a painful experience, but looking back now I can see how much growth happened during that time.

[@theoo6255]

That’s amazing! Im at the completely lost and pointlessness stage, and no longer no who I am at all. Is the best thing to do just keep surrendering to this process?

[@basicbase749]

@@theoo6255 yes, surrendering is the best thing. Your ego fights back and refuses to let go but the truth is , it’s important to let go of false limiting beliefs that our ego has taught us. One day you will know who you truly are, when universe takes over your false ego, let the universe in, just surrender, let the light in, don’t be scared to let go of your old self. I felt the same way, didn’t know who i am, it’s a transitional phase, where you’re shedding old and getting ready to acquire new, much better self. Be happy that you’re getting awake, and walking towards your truth

[@basicbase749]

@@VanessaOoms you’re welcome. Yes, absolutely, it’s never easy to walk the path of awakening but it’s the best blessing

[@VanessaOoms]

@Mansi yesssss! Perfectly put. I went through the same thing and found that the path of least resistance was just to surrender. Allow Spirit to do what it needed to to my mind, body and soul... @Theoo sorry for the late response. Not sure how I missed your comment 🙏🏼

[@AK-fk6qw]

sometimes it’s hard to feel present and remember this is a good thing, bc i feel SO lost and isolated and like i don’t relate to anything I used to. thank u so much for this tho it was incredibly reassuring I had to subscribe 🤎🤎🤎

[@VanessaOoms]

Aww 🥰 glad this video resonated. I know what you mean...sometimes it feels so heavy and like time takes forever to pass. But in the grand scheme of things, this time is a blip. Sending tons of love your way. Big internet hugs for you 🙏🏼💜✨☮️🕊

[@VanessaOoms]

Thanks for subscribing and connecting! Glad to have you here.

[@FriendlyMagus]

This video simply spoke to me. My lonely period lasted 25 years but finally just ended. I’ve been on a long, long journey but feel more like the true journey has just begun since having a kundalini breakthrough. I can’t comment on everything in the video that resonated with me because it all did. Wonderful info. Much thanks. God bless

[@VanessaOoms]

God bless you on your journey. I'm so glad to hear that this video resonated with you. 🙏

[@Chris-uk.]

I feel alone in a packed supermarket, all I see is zombies, and empty shells.

[@VanessaOoms]

It’s so rattling when you wake up and see how we’ve been programmed to go through the motions and feed the machine… I remember a moment (also in a supermarket) where I looked around and realized how empty and miserable everyone was just going through the motions, and it broke my heart. I realized that I had been living like that for a long time too, and my heart broke even more. You feel almost like an alien, wondering why you can see it and others can’t. There is a large awakening happening in the world, so soon we won’t be the only ones. But it’s happening slowly and gradually, and the awakenings seem to be scattered all over the world… I think for a reason. Anyway, friend. I hope today treats you well. Reach out if you ever need to talk. My email is Vanessa (at) VanessaOoms.com 🙏🏼💜

[@MartyRabbit]

Beautifully expressed Vanessa. I went through such a period following a disastrous spontaneous eruption. Each evening brought extreme panic as dark fell, then I would lie huddled on my bed while what seemed to be two fiery snakes crawled through my body poking into every dark space within me. It was horrible, i would end exhausted feeling I was naked and nameless in a black void wanting to be a better person but having no idea how to. Now I know to just meditate and put gentle awareness on those emotions, observe them without resisting, see what they are made of. I remember thinking day after day "what do you do when the person you were no longer exists".

[@VanessaOoms]

Oh my gosh your experience resonates with me so much. I went through the same. It was so overwhelming and rattling. Luckily we now have the tools to navigate these experiences. 🙏🏼✨

[@sharonbell3698]

This is really bizarre. I’ve been really low, feeling exactly how you have described. Just got into bed after a day of crying on the sofa, I’ve just been putting it down to depression. As I say I’ve just got into bed, come into KZbin for some relaxing music & here you are with this video before I’ve even searched anything. I really hope this is what is going on with me. As I don’t think I could cope with feeling like this forever. Take Care xx

[@VanessaOoms]

Oh Sharon, I feel you! What divine timing that you happened upon this video. This will not last forever. There is a LOT happening energetically in the collective, and for some reason this last couple of months has been particularly difficult for a lot of people I’ve been speaking with, and also myself personally. You are not alone!! I’m here if you ever want to talk. Big hugs 🤗🤍✨

[@aniaju7138]

Girl! It's so important to me. Every single word you say in this video resonates with me because I am going through all of this. Thank you for your guidance ❤

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you so much love!! 🙌🤍✨

[@MODELBODYINTL]

This is 100% happening to me right now. And during Covid it’s even more profound because you’re sort of forced into acceptance - you have no other option but to be alone and you can’t distract yourself with going out or even career - really anything that’s dopamine producing pretty feeds ego. Thanks for sharing. I’m so interested to see what’s on the other side of this.

[@VanessaOoms]

You’re right about COVID amplifying this! Sending tons of love your way 💜💜💜

[@jodygrancitelli1455]

Thank you very much need to hear this that I was going crazy it’s good to know that we’re all in this together

[@VanessaOoms]

Oh 100% my friend! You are not alone 💗💗💗

[@PulseLaDrakonski]

Gratitude, for explaining the reasons of what happening with me past years. It makes sense.

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you so much love, my friend 🙏🏼🤍✨

[@grahamfortune1528]

Many years ago I had a "experience" that left me feeling naked and lost, it seemed something collapsed in me . Things I could do with ease before, I'd forgotten how to do and had to learn again. Terrible years followed but I'm getting there. Just wish they had internet decades ago. Keep up the good work Vanessa.

[@VanessaOoms]

I had an experience with the same effect. Terrible years followed mine as well. Once I started feeling better, I felt compelled to help the others going through this process. I wanted to ease the loneliness in others because I felt so isolated for so long! Much love to you, soul brother 🙏🤍✨

[@grahamfortune1528]

@@VanessaOoms thank you for the reply. I've just read all the comments, it pains me to read them , so many lost so many feeling they are a just a ghost in this world. To all of you , your not alone we are all here for you whoever you are. May the winds of fate fill your sails and carry you to the land of your brothers and sisters and away for your land of strangers.

[@VanessaOoms]

@@grahamfortune1528 I know right? Really gets me in the feels. ♥️

[@K-A5]

I love that you dont wear make up in these videos. Im so insecure about not wearing a little bit always, so its standing out to me lately when someone is bare faced. Im working on building the courage to be bare faced all the time too. Thanks for inspiration (even though the video is about loneliness, which Im also struggling with.) Love your help and validation and how grounded you are

[@VanessaOoms]

Wow, thank you for that! I used to wear all kinds of makeup and spend tons of money on getting my hair died...then hit a point in 2012 where my perspective started changing...I didn't want to be in the city anymore. So my partner at the time and I moved to a really remote town in the forest and lived a simple life for 5 years or so. Now I'm back living in a small city, working on my plan for a permanent move to the woods. Long story short, I've been playing around with some ethical makeup brands, but still don't wear much more than some eyeliner...to me it feels free. It was super weird in the beginning not wearing makeup, though...I felt naked and vulnerable for a long time. But it was a practice in self love, and my skin and heart did a lot of healing in the process. Much love, V

[@K-A5]

@@VanessaOoms thats so interesting. When I had my awakening 2 years ago I stopped dying my hair too. Its growing out like yours. I also got the urge to be vegetarian for the first year and the second year my body let me eat meat very rarely. I felt compelled to reset myself in a lot if ways and these were some of them in addition to the mental health and family trauma inner work Im doing to heal. Living in the woods one day sounds amazing. All those trees every day? So calming. Hope youre staying cozy and healthy

[@VanessaOoms]

I am staying cozy and healthy, thanks! Meditating a lot, crocheting a blanket, making videos and working from home as usual. Hope you're staying well! It's amazing how much our tastes and priorities change when we awaken...

[@Pug1948]

Oh boy..this is exactly what I'm going through..ty so much..no interest in any things I used to and don't know what to do with my life..I'm starting to want to do things again, but I have no idea what anymore..ugh..I never felt lonely before and now it's happening..thought maybe I need counseling..my whole life is at a standstill .no work no friends, I'm noticing all of this now..after being in the manifesting for about a year plus straight daily, videos on awakening, now all this is happening..it's like I'm not sure which way to go..well thank you..at least I feel better knowing this is ok and part of awakening. Hoping for a breakthrough at some point..this has helped to know it's ok..I'm not alone ..ty so much...❤️🌻❤️

[@VanessaOoms]

Hi Jackie, you’re definitely not alone. I’m sending you so much love! 🤗🤍✨ This phase of awakening I call “the void” because it feels so strange and empty, and like you say, you’re not really sure which way to go. I’ve been in this space a few times over the last six years since my initial awakening. Know that it’s normal and that it will pass. Things will start to make sense again, and you’ll have a deeper understanding of yourself, your life and your path. At least that’s been my personal experience. 🙏🏼

[@Pug1948]

@@VanessaOoms thank you so much Vanessa..this is so helpful.. I'm doing a bit better yet still am not sure about my path..lol..I really don't know my purpose in career, what I'm here to do, but I have a couple desires on where I would like to live, the atmosphere, but I'm not even established in career yet, I'm older now and going through a whole life shift, awakening, and seeing how isolated I really am, so it's like I'm starting life over again, that's how it feels, I will keep going and hoping for a breakthrough, I also have trouble taking action, in a direction, and sometimes think maybe I need counseling to talk to someone, but I thank you so much..you have given me hope and knowing I'm not alone in this awakening means everything...hope you have a wonderful night..♥️💖⭐🙏☮️

[@VanessaOoms]

Sometimes it can be helpful to talk things out with someone who is objective who can help you put your thoughts together and make some plans! But what a cool place to be in...to reinvent yourself, to try new things, to explore! The world of career work is totally shifting these days. There are so many more options now, with online and remote work and so many creators and artists making income from their gifts...the world is your oyster 🤗🤍✨

[@Pug1948]

@@VanessaOoms thank you so much Vanessa..yes..I hope to see it that way soon....I know it's true, just feels scary at moment, uncertain..but I thank you and appreciate your help and encouragement..it means everything...enjoy your night..♥️♥️💖🌟

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you a huge hug, my friend! You enjoy your night too 🤗🤍✨

[@visionnat]

I got it also , it started December ... fear , darkness , vivid dreams , sensitivity , thinking I'm loosing my mind , energy going up and down my spine or fog in my mind , can't think clearly , more insights , more inspirations ...

[@VanessaOoms]

It can be overwhelming at times! You can ask in meditation for the energy to slow down and give you a reprieve 🙏💜

[@rajk62040]

Sane happening with me can't remind things can't concentrate focus feeling lost

[@ancientindia5464]

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[@lynnjohnson4236]

💕🙏 Ahhh needed to hear this... dedicated to my awakening but strangely I did not see the isolation aspect of it coming. Now that I have been in my quiet space I am becoming more and more comfortable. However, it is an interesting place to get to know. Thank you 💕🙏

[@VanessaOoms]

I’m glad to hear this video served! The void is an interesting space to get to know...so full of potential and insight. Much love to you 🙏🏼💜✨

[@kimberley-ic6mf]

This is the same as me. I feel like I’m looking at my life from the outside in and thinkng what the hell have I been doing in certain areas. It’s also making me sad at the same time 😒

[@psalmdebelen8094]

Thank you for this video Vanessa. :) I’ve been experiencing this for almost 4 years, but I didn’t know how to explain it. This video has given me some clarity and insight.

[@VanessaOoms]

I'm so glad to hear that this video was helpful. Here if you need anything 🙏💜

[@_inacu]

the way you smile and say "you're gonna be alright" at ~3:51 is like a mother comforting a distraught child, explaining that how they're feeling, and the circumstances which brought them to that point are just part of life, and growing up i'm in my late thirties, and i guess i just closed the door on all of that back when i moved out, and had to start figuring life out for myself. i stumbled into this whole other side of existence completely by accident, probing and massaging my understanding of life, and the way i've been conditioned to think and feel by factors too great in number to enumerate here. it honestly still feels really weird to even think that i'm having a spiritual awakening, but i can't deny what my consumption of media on the topic is pointing to, and look forward to following this wherever it takes me work yesterday was one of the most difficult shifts i've ever endured, at any job. for the first time ever, i found myself realizing that i wasn't truly passionate about the work i do (putting groceries on the shelf, for the most part), and i could feel a lack of real, instrinsic value from it. i felt physically ill for most of the shift, desperately wished i could talk with anyone in the building without having to spend more time explaining where i was coming from than the issues i was facing, and realized the same also applies to immediate family. largely by choice, i have no relationships outside of those circles either, therefore no-one else in "real" life to talk with. on top of all that, there's a bird stuck inside, and i feel super bad for it, but i'm confident instinct and intuition have already led it over to the produce area, so at least there's that i looked for videos on KZbin about what i was experiencing when i got home, because that seemed like the best thing to do, and here we are. even though the bleakness of yesterday has passed, and being fully aware it may return again, thank you for recording and uploading this. simply to know that i'm not alone, and that darker times are just part of the process is extremely comforting, and i intend to keep that in mind with each day that comes

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you so much love!! You are definitely not alone. Particularly right now, so many people are questioning what they’re doing in life and we’re all going through a massive consciousness shift. There are lots of great people in the comments section here, and I’m figuring out a way that we can all connect and talk about what we’re experiencing 🙏🏼✨

[@JasviJassi]

Thank you for sitting down and sharing this message, I’m sending you love and blessings!🙏🏼🌸💗

[@VanessaOoms]

Receiving! 👐💕✨ I’m glad this video was helpful.

[@zaidadamalkana5556]

its all happening to me, Thank you so much for this video , sending Love from Indonesia.

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending love back!! You will get through this period. 🙏🌎💜

[@mohdyusuf-pc1ek]

hai , saya juga merasa perasaan yang sama ,, mudah mudahan kamu baik baik sahaja ,, saya dari malaysia

[@radicalhonesty3628]

so many thoughts, feelings, fears, emotions, stresses arise for me, as I watch this video... here's just a few of the things I get flooded with: - emotional pain. - unbearable grief. - homicidal rage. - suicidal depression. - there's a person I sort of/kind of have a crush on, and the whole situation is beyond fucked and is completely toxic, and I don't know how to get out... and if I DO get out, I have nothing. - I am a failure in every aspect of my life. - I'm old now, the future is hopeless... - I recall the past and it fills me with rage. - I live in poverty. - fat/diabetic. - how the fuck am I going to change my life around? - perpetually single, without friends (my whole life). - C-PTSD/INFJ/HSP/SPD - people I love, got that horrific c-19 jab and I am terrified for them. - panic panic panic...

[@VanessaOoms]

I wish I were with you to give you a big hug. 🤍✨ I don't have all the answers, but can empathize because I too am INFJ/HSP with C-PTSD. Life can feel like a lonely and strange grind sometimes!! Especially because not everyone understands the lived experience of the HSP...but know this - it's never too late and you're never too old for things to turn around. Sometimes a breakthrough happens when we feel the most hopeless. Hang in there!

[@ancientindia5464]

I'm also IINFJ SUGMA MALE SAME HAPPENING WITH ME

[@JO-zf4ky]

Thankyou for your kind words sister. You articulated my experience so well.

[@VanessaOoms]

You are so welcome 🙏🏼

[@samirassadfilho5582]

This message helped me a lot to accept and deal with this sensation in a more positive way. Thank you

[@VanessaOoms]

I'm so glad to hear that! Much love to you 🙏

[@officialphreyz96]

I'll tell you why this is comforting to me: Vanessa, you just helped me make sense outta this 'fire' ("purifying fire") I'm going through rn. I love you for that 💜🙏🏽... Sending tons of love back to you

[@VanessaOoms]

Glad to hear this video was helpful! Sending you a big internet hug! 🤗✨

[@ladycole2027]

Thank you for sharing . I just realized I was having a spiritual awakening. Nothing excites me anymore I feel depressed thinking about my past and future. Death and the unknown. I really needed to hear this I’m starting to feel better now that I have a better understand

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending tons of love your way! Glad to hear you’re feeling a bit better with some understanding. All we ever have is this present moment. What you’re feeling is temporary and will pass. Be gentle with yourself 💜

[@laiacer308]

How are you

[@asmasiddiquee3331]

Spiritual awakening made me a boring person and so depressed like for no reason I have lost so many things I don’t enjoy life anymore I can feel everything my anxiety is always on point and I got nothing nothing Snc 2017 till now I’m totally boring person I’m sad for what reason idk I lost my old happy self and I miss my old self I’m not enjoying my life at all even there’s so many things to be happy and grateful But I want my happy self back I don’t wanna be so depressed, unhappy, sad , lonely ,isolated from the world and anxious all the time. I’m sure so many people out who have been though this and got nothing I have been asking so many people about this and they are not happy at all lost everything job money and so many This is not the Time to get Lonely isolated from the whole world This is real world where you have to earn money for survival need to meet people and do work

[@VanessaOoms]

Hello lovely, I’m sorry you’re feeling low. Please know that this will not last forever. You’re being invited into yourself, and into your soul, to explore within and see what you truly need and want. Judging your experience will only make it persist. I doubt you’re a boring person! 🤗 Sometimes an awakening can cause a “grey phase” where everything seems dull and meaningless. It’s ok to feel this way, and it doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with you. And trust me, your manifestation powers will return! I went through a phase similar to what you’re describing for a couple of years where I just felt blah and nothing was manifesting for me. Little sis I know there was a part of my soul that wanted to talk to me that I had stuffed away for soooo long. Once I went inside and discovered this and gave this part of me a voice, everything changed. Sending you so much love, sister. 🙏🏼💜✨

[@asmasiddiquee3331]

@@VanessaOoms Thanks love needed to hear this ❤

[@ogtalkchannel]

Did it get better?

[@Carolina480]

Im glad I found this great explanation because I’m having a spiritual awakening and this how I feel but it’s gonna be worth it I truly believe it’s going to happen big changes to my life thank yuo

[@VanessaOoms]

Hi Carolina, thank you for your message and for sharing you experience. It will absolutely be worth it! Hang in there. Wishing you a beautiful day! 💜✨

[@inaaramanji5672]

i couldn’t understand this foreign depression and detachment, especially after healing my inner child and finding peace in the practice of mediation. this video helped me SO much, and helped me feel understood. thank you♥️ subscribing to continue my journey with you :)

[@VanessaOoms]

So glad to have you in the community, beautiful soul! 🙏🏼💜✨ and so happy to hear that this video resonated and helped you. Pleased to be journeying with you 🤗

[@awakejose1861]

This part sucks I hate it been looking for videos to find out what I'm going through and you hit me right on the spot thank you so much for sharing❤️💯

[@VanessaOoms]

Glad to hear this video resonated. Awakening can def make you feel like you’re on some weird island all alone, but trust and believe that better days are coming and you will find a tribe with the same vibe as you. 🙏🏼💜✨

[@carolpridgeon9387]

OH My God Girl....yes my god....this is so hard....lonely.....scary......isolating....I am experiencing a second wave of kundalini, I have been told that is what it is because, of course, there is no diagnosis, which has lasted 3 1/2 years so far. My first wave lasted 5.....I am so over the difficult body symptoms and purging trauma....thanks for this video. You are so beautiful and sincere and it was helpful. Namaste'

[@VanessaOoms]

I feel you, my friend! This journey can be so intense… I’m glad that this video resonated and that it was helpful. I hope today gifts you a pocket of peace. Sending you a huge internet hug! Sorry for the late response. I’m just seeing a bunch of messages that I missed 🙏🏼🤍✨

[@tonykambouris6015]

I’ve been holding on for many years now. I feel like I’m getting worse and worse. I don’t see light at the end of the tunnel. I feel more depressed now than I did before I started on the spiritual path. I feel so alone and so sad. Don’t know how much longer I can hang on. I don’t feel loved by life/God/universe. What ever I’m a part of. I’ve given so much of myself and now I’m left with this deep depression. I feel so disconnected from life and myself. I’ve tried everything to get me out of this but nothing has helped. All I do now is cry and mourn the life I once had. 💔😔

[@VanessaOoms]

My heart aches for you, Tony. I’m sorry that you’re going through a dark time. When you say that you’ve given so much of yourself, is that to other people? 🤍

[@tonykambouris6015]

@@VanessaOoms yeah for others. I’ve needed too though. I wanted too. But I just can’t believe that by wanting more love and joy in my heart and soul that this would be the path I’d have to take. This is torture, honestly!

[@bittersweetindustryexecutive]

@tony kambouris Dear Tony. I've been going (and still are) through a spiritual awakening process myself. So from my own personal experience there are a few things in your comment(s) that stand out for me. Please correct me if I'm wrong. The one thing that seems to stand out the most is that you feel utterly betrayed by the universe (or God or whatever you wanna call it) and life in general. To me that sounds like you feel as though you were lurked into a spiritual life journey with the promise of you receiving a pot of spiritual gold (some kind of reward) at the end of the tunnel. And now you're faced with the harsh reality of feeling even worse than at the start of your quest. You feel as though the universe (or life in general) has pulled out a big knife and stabbed you right in the back, when you expected some love, peace and happiness instead. I feel you. It happens a lot when people start awakening. Key is here to not EXPECT anything, but try to be grateful whenever something beautiful and loving comes your way. I know it's not at all easy, but taking this angle will better prepare you for what an awakening process really entales. In my personal opinion it's not a feast of free spiritual meals waiting for you when the whole process grinds to a halt. To me it's a ongoing process that has a profound impact on your personality and energy system. It shakes you up and by doing so it will, in the long run, make you a more loving and compassionate human being(usually a precursor for more inner peace and happiness as well). This doesn't only take time and blood, sweat and tears to finally get there, it also requires a kind of 'casual' approach towards being loved. The best way to explain this is to imagine you want something really bad. You want it so bad, that you don't at all have the patience to wait for it to finally happen. So, with your eyes on the prize, you're gonna get it yourself. And lets just say, you've put in a lot of effort and waisted a lot of energy to do so as well. Now, if you look at life this way, the logical consequence would be that you would inevitably feel miserable, frustrated, restless, sad and down up until the moment you succeed. Another consequence would be that you can't really separate or detach yourself from whatever it is that your craving. So you would most likely become 100% dependent on those things, which in the end will feel more like an addiction than a 'pot of gold'. You already mentioned in your comment "I tried every possible thing to become a loving and happy person" and "I gave my all on this journey". This to me is a tell-tale sign that the things you DO and GIVE are not really the problem. Imo the main challenge for you is to just BE and try and change your PERSPECTIVE on life(of course you don't have to do anything, it's just my suggestion). Imo you're not doing anything WRONG by searching for all kinds of stuff and in the process galvanising all of your life's energy stocks towards the 'prize'. The only thing being that you end up feeling exhausted, depressed and completely drowned out by not being fulfilled and having 'lost' yourself (or imo 'what you think is yourself')in the process. My best bet for you now is to try and find something that really makes YOU tick, however hard that may be in the situation that you're in now. Even if you manage to succeed in this for just 5 or 10 minutes every day and gradually build it up to wherever it takes you, you're putting in some serious life work. By doing so you will automaticly gain momentum and make the energy shift that is necessary to become a more loving and compassionate and less relying on your 'wants' and 'needs' type of person. I've succeeded in doing so to a certain extend, and I believe you can do this to. Key here is to check in on the life you had before this awakening thing happened, as you mentioned this as well. What was so special or fun or nice about it? And was it really always like that? Go try and figure that out! At least that is something that you actually CAN do now. Try and write it down, what aspects of my 'previous' life were worthwhile and which weren't? You can even try to create a mood board for that. Doesn't have to be anything fancy, just you saying eg."This I liked and that I didn't because it made me feel like 'so and so' . And whenever I feel like 'so and so' I feel like that part of me shines through or that part of me gets pushed to the side, which to me is a good thing 'cause I don't really like that part because of what happened to me back in ... when person X or Y... Hope you're getting the drift of this now. Also try to be as open as possible for new things to come: new experiences, feelings, atmospheres, colours, ideas, etc. In this way you'd pick aspects of your 'previous' life and recreate them in a new and fresh way, while also throwing in things that are totally new to you (things you couldn't imagine existed in you). Lastly I wanna say: If you feel like the depression part is spiralling out of control, it's always a safe route to go and talk to someone professionally, especially cognitive behavioural therapy, which teaches you HOW your behaviour influences your daily life and your feelings, thoughts and emotions, and how to 'reprogram' yourself in a different, more sustainable way. Again, just an advice. Hope this helps you somewhat and/or sets you off on a different track. Remember that even the smallest of changes now can have a serious impact on your future. All the best to you. :)

[@flipittootruths]

Thank you. I cry every day. My oversensitivity makes it impossible to be in any situation. I see the outcome, I see mistakes,this makes me critical and want to pre warn others. which does not go down well. My spiritual ego had got bigger, not smaller, and it thinks it knows best,directing my enegy out. I don't know what to do with the influx of thought energy. I am trying to direct it yet living alone in a bedsit with no job and money to go to gym, get out, see people is sending me mad. I tried prosperiety affirmations and feeling 'as if' but I know I am lying to myself as every time I do a shop I count pennies, every time a family calls I cant afford a coffee. I have loaned so much. I am out of substance. I feel trapped and the kundalini is the only sanity. I now hide away in this world and the peace of meditation. Kundalini has become a crutch. I am stuck.

[@VanessaOoms]

Hello love, I understand how you’re feeling and have been in a similar situation. It took me a while to get used to the influx of energy, and there were so many times where my mind was so loud I couldn’t hear anything else. Meditation definitely brings peace, as does focusing the mind on spiritually uplifting texts and being out in nature. Even watching nature videos can be a good substitute. You will get through this! 🤍✨ Do you have a grounding practice? The kundalini energy can be intense ⚡️

[@rosetaylor3717]

This is crazy. It’s exactly how I feel. I’m over it.

[@VanessaOoms]

Hi Rose, I’m sending you a huge hug through the interwebs. I know how hard it is to go through this, but it does get better. ❤️‍🩹 This phase of loneliness and isolation seems to clear a path for what is more aligned for us. One day at a time 🙏🏼✨

[@rlynch1980]

Thank you. This brought me great comfort. 🙏🏼

[@VanessaOoms]

So glad to hear that. Much love 🙏🏼💜✨

[@CMVGutierrez]

thank u ! its hard when it's happening

[@VanessaOoms]

It totally is. But hang in there and you’ll get through it 💜✨

[@hermit.masteroflight5970]

The biggest challenge was desperately wanting to change my profession being after mid 40s...in Europe, where your CV seems to determine where you are in relation to what you have done before.

[@VanessaOoms]

I hear you! I know a lot of people who are going through the same challenge so they can pursue something that lights them up. 🙏🏼

[@nellylando9850]

thank you so much I just got to your video for the fast time and am going through loneliness and hearing is not forever am in courage.

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you so much love, Nelly! You will get through this. It won’t last forever. Sometimes we get “separated” to make room for things/people/places that are better aligned. Not good or bad, necessarily, just on a similar frequency. 🙏🏼🤍✨

[@jcamp2177]

I just wish that someone had the sense to earn me that I was going through awakening. Yesterday I was considering leaving my journey, not following my endless path, I was so deeply deeply depressed and just stayed in all day. Miserable , angry, defiant, confused, lonely. I was going to break up with my dm and who I now know is going through the same thing. It's awful. I'm so angry. I thought I'd lost my mind. Anyone else feel the same?? Xxxxx

[@fennellturtle]

How long does this last? For 7 years ive been loosing everything i thought i was , the last 2 ive been connecting with GOD, but i feel so exhausted and hopeless at times with the depression/lonliness, and now im having to let go of old friends who i see are not good for my spirit. it feels never ending

[@VanessaOoms]

I can’t say how long this will last, as everyone’s journey is different. My suggestion would be to keep talking to God along your journey. In my experience, it seems to be an ever-unfolding process that gets better as you go along. Remember how far you’ve come 🙏🏼💜

[@fennellturtle]

@@VanessaOoms hi Vanessa, thank yiu for your answer and video, the bliss of finding God out of so much pain is a relief ,and im trying to trust 😊❣ bit its gets tiring lol P.s the rate im seeing 1111 is makes me laugh to myself out loud, im no longer surprised when it happens 🤣🙏❣

[@yvasquez2449]

Hey...I am not an expert, going through the same here but I have heard something recently from another KZbinr, Christina Lopes. Answering the same question you ask “how long this is going to last?”, the answer was, for as long as you resist the changes. The longer you resist and hold on to your old identity, to your old life, the longer it going to take. It last as long as it takes you just to surrender to the experience. It did resonate with me.

[@SpongeBob-pt7qi]

What's the difference of a spiritual awakening and a kulalini awakening? It's the worst feeling I've felt. It's like I'm happy then all of a sudden sad and feeling drained. Can someone help me. I wanna talk to someone about this stuff but I have no one anymore.

[@youknowme2252]

The only think I desire is nature and being outside with my son. Everything fell apart, my ego, my relationships, friends, carrier, marriage.

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you big internet hugs.

[@carolpridgeon8200]

Sweetie, I wish i could just reach out and give you a big hug.....biggggg hugggg....I am just going to keep watching this video because when I go further to watch other videos that are on someone's channel, they don't fit. This one fits and so I am hanging onto it. Yes Yes Yes, I feel like I am losing my mind....everything you said fits like a glove. Thanks so much you Dear Girl. Namaste'

[@VanessaOoms]

Big love to you!! 💕✨ “Sometimes following your heart means losing your mind”

[@katharineanonymous6992]

Thank you omg I stopped resonating with people and shame spiraled when they would comment on my fb posts disagreeing with my perspective and then I will wanna relapse on drugs or d1e bc the rejection hurts so bad

[@VanessaOoms]

Aww Katherine! Sending you a big internet hug. Relapsing or leaving the planet is never the answer. Remember that there are people out there who will vibe with you and that just because people disagree with you it doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with you 💜

[@thekreatr]

Thank you so much for this video, this is just the answer I was looking for today, love you ❤️, what you've said makes perfect sense and gives me strength 🙏🏽

[@VanessaOoms]

So glad to hear that! Sending you so much love 🙏🏼🤍✨

[@ThechicagoRedshow]

So who else is here from the 2020 experience going into 2021? Glad to see I’m not the only one.

[@notmaya1157]

June 26th 2020 brother. Mother kundalini swooped in and turned everything upside down.im still up and down like a yoyo.

[@ThechicagoRedshow]

@@notmaya1157 I feel you on that one chief.

[@notmaya1157]

@@ThechicagoRedshow when did your awakening happen ? And how is it going brother?

[@ThechicagoRedshow]

@@notmaya1157 funny enough, it was around the same time as yours, where I began to just see things completely different, I began to question everything and then realized how irrelevant certain things are, which are constructs of our everyday life. I dunno, I can go on all day. Lol

[@notmaya1157]

@@ThechicagoRedshow same brother. I was blown out for 13 days it was quite an abrupt awakening. Total ego death. Saved my life. Having a tuff time of it just now though.i wish you all the best my brother.💙 🙏

[@noNdeSCRIpt732]

I don't practice Kundalini, but this all lines up with other modalities to which i'm familiar. Consistency in report is encouraging.

[@VanessaOoms]

Glad to hear that this resonates for you. 🙏🏽

[@mayurraja8479]

Its exactly where I am right this second. So hard - nothing makes sense anymore. I cannot relate to anything - people, hobbies etc. Thank you for making this video.

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you a big hug through the internet! You will find your balance again, and it will be better than before 🙏🏼💕✨

[@mayurraja8479]

@@VanessaOoms OMG! Your replied! Thank you so much for taking the time to reply! And thank you for the hug. Means a lot during this time. God bless you in every way possible!

[@VanessaOoms]

God bless you 🙏🏼🕊

[@nikolaykaragyaurov1272]

very interesing video. I feel this way! Since a teenager and I always ask myself why I am that way! With that explanation I realize that it is a path/road that everyone has to go through!

[@VanessaOoms]

I truly think it is a path that everyone must go through. I’m glad this video resonated for you! Much love 🙏🏼✨

[@alef3224]

For me my identity hasn’t just fallen away over night. It’s been happening gradually for 9 years and I’ve been completely alone now for almost 2 years. Coda and ACA online meetings for me have been essential.

[@VanessaOoms]

Agreed! I experienced a massive shift, and then after that my identity has been gradually evolving and changing…lots falling away and healing, and new things coming online. I think our whole lives are an exercise in becoming. Finding community like you have is essential.

[@alef3224]

@@VanessaOoms yeah, that’s what my KA guide also says and her K now is fully integrated but she says she’s still evolving. For me the craziest was the full blown vibrations with some mild psychotic features that happened only last Xmas. Since then things are bearable again but man,…. Layer after layer after layer. K is relentlessly divine, isn’t it?

[@VanessaOoms]

@@alef3224 relentlessly divine…the most perfect description!!

[@Kevin-mz1ni]

Thank you. That covers my experience.❤ Namaste.

[@VanessaOoms]

@@Kevin-mz1ni Namaste my friend 🙏🏼💜

[@alexsanimeart5706]

This weird feeling of lonliness hit me recently. Never had a girlfriend, a first kiss, and I'm also a virgin at 18. It sounds lonely, but I'd say it's being alone and not lonely. But I'm in a place where I want the experience and I don't because of the goals I work on. Don't know if this is an awakening

[@VanessaOoms]

You can have the experience AND pursue your goals. You don't have to pick one over the other. 🤗 An awakening is when you start to question everything you once knew. Perhaps that is what's happening for you now?

[@gasammubash7017]

Thanks a lot I don’t know how to express Millions of love from my sleepless nights

[@gasammubash7017]

Literally I was crying all the night , I couldn’t realise why I am, I never cried like this In the middle of crowd I felt loneliness and I afraid of depression and confused

[@VanessaOoms]

I feel your heart! You are not alone. There are so many people going through the same thing right now… 🤍✨🤍

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you a huge hug! 🤗🤗🤗

[@dorinatravis]

I do feel like I'm losing my mind and even thinking of checking in somewhere or therapy anything to feel better

[@VanessaOoms]

I’m sorry you’re dealing with a lot of heaviness and difficult emotions right now. Whichever kind of support you feel drawn to, definitely allow it in. You don’t have to go through this alone. Remember that this is temporary and you will be ok. Sending you tons of love 💗 💗💗

[@dorinatravis]

@@VanessaOoms thank you so much 💜

[@VanessaOoms]

Anytime! 💕

[@ericalanier5042]

OMG I FEEL EVERYTHING IN THIS VIDEO 😭 I reallly thought I was going insane or something. Thank you so much

[@VanessaOoms]

I can relate!! That's why I started this channel, because when I was going through this I seriously thought that if I told anyone what was happening I'd end up in the psych ward LOL Luckily it passes!

[@lynxie700]

Very helpful video and it came in perfect timing. Love and gratitude to you my dear!

[@VanessaOoms]

Glad this video served you, my friend. Much love 🙏💜

[@spcwild]

unfortunately my spiritual awakening is starting on the piggyback of cptsd and an adjustment disorder which has left me so traumatized i can't even begin to deal with the isolation of my awakening

[@VanessaOoms]

Oh my goodness, that’s a lot to deal with all at once! Do you have someone to help you through this?

[@spcwild]

@@VanessaOoms not really, but that's how i got cptsd in the first place so it's nothing new for me. just going to truck on alone like i'm used to.

[@asmasiddiquee3331]

And I want to share some more experience I used to manifest so fast before this spiritual awakening when I was totally not aware of this But now I have lost my all interest in everything (work , sex, friendship, social life, happiness and etc..) I used to manifest everything so fast and used to enjoy and appreciate each and every moment of my life but after this awakening I’m sad person and I want want this anymore I’m done .🙏🏻 I want to enjoy my beautiful life big blessings and small blessings and everything Done with this sadness ,depressed ,loneliness, isolation and this boring personality This is not giving me any peace This is giving me pain So I’m out of this 🙏🏻

[@peggythompson1111]

I hope you are ok. I have had similar struggles with the depression and sadness.

[@soundvillage001]

Currently right in the middle of this. Deeply depressed after it all fell away and no idea how to function in the world. Does IT go away on its own? Because I can’t seem to do anything to fix it. 🙏

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending love to you 🙏💜 In my experience, it went away eventually as I learned to release into the process of things being stripped away. It took me a while to realize that the things and people who were leaving my life were not meant to stay anyway, and were not aligned with my highest good. It was still very difficult though, and we still grieve the loss of who we once were. So allow all the feelings, and try not to let your mind tell you you should be feeling a different way. Sometimes that alone helps ease the process. I still get waves of lonliness...feeling like I'm on an island...but they pass quickly these days.

[@EfateVision]

Lost everybody and gave everything up after kundalini, complete isolation , trying to give up my last addictions , i cant go back.. i trust the process. But its brutal😮❤

[@VanessaOoms]

Good on your for sticking to the path! It’s so brutal but so worth it 🙏🏼💜

[@EfateVision]

Last ones are tobacco, mobile phone and Coffee...its hard but with semen retention its possible, youre much more stabil in a depression. No shame, guilt etc

[@JO-zf4ky]

​@@EfateVisionRetention is a game changer and helps purge others habits and strengthen will

[@hareermoayad2318]

I thought I was controlling everything in my life.. knowing the deep secrets and spiritually stunning star, bad ass.. Till everything darkened.. I feel so scared, lonely and kind a I don’t know anyone in my family or even friends like before.. I just want to go home.. My body, emotions and thoughts are so strange for me.. I don’t want to live with them, they are scary.. everything here is scary.. all the tests all the pain all the feelings.. How people can’t see what I’m seeing? How they can’t see the dangerous contract that we have made??!!

[@VanessaOoms]

Hey my friend, I hear your frustration. This often happens with an awakening - we’re flying high and then descend into the dark wilderness for a time. It’s part of the cleansing process, and while it can feel so isolating and scary, it doesn’t last forever. I know it can feel so strange to be around people who don’t see what you see, but rest assured there are many people in this world and in this community who are on a similar path.

[@peaceshanty]

❣️ thanks for posting this ❣️

[@VanessaOoms]

Much love 🙏🤍✨

[@ageofdarius8571]

Sometimes I wish I never got into spirituality I’ve lost my girlfriend I have been going through so much I feel so strange like nobody will ever understand me

[@basicbase749]

If you don't feel spiritual inside, and you feel forced into it, you should wait for the time and let spirituality come to you when it's time and you don;t have to feel so regretful. because trust me, if you are really naturally flowing towards spirituality, leaving behind attachments or relationships won't feel like a loss. And don't worry, there are many people who will understand you, you just need to connect with the ones with same vibration :) love n light!!!

[@priyanshubatra8470]

Is there any way i can reach out to you more personally.Really need someone to talk to regarding this issue

[@VanessaOoms]

You can email me at vanessa (at) VanessaOoms.com

[@Ronaldo20174]

Wow.. thanks for making this it was straight from the heart 💖. it was very helpful..

[@VanessaOoms]

So glad to hear this helped. Much love to you 🙏🏼🤍✨

[@1sigmamale8818]

I was lonely until i went out last night and was reminded why i hate people ...

[@quijtwins2468]

I am crying like a baby going through this

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you so much love!! It's not easy, but when you come out the other side you will see that the process was worth it! 🤍

[@sohaaboulsaoud833]

Beautiful video ❤❤thank you

[@VanessaOoms]

@@sohaaboulsaoud833 glad this resonated for you 🙏🏼💜✨

[@bamicoach]

Merci Vanessa. Thank you so much for this video. It feels good to hear and understand what I am going through. Thank you 🙏🏽

[@VanessaOoms]

Much love to you, my friend 🙏🏼💜

[@pravinsonkusare74]

wow, i can relate. Thanks , this was needed .

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you a huge hug! You are not alone 🤗🤍✨

[@Bii-v9g]

You definitely are connecting with me.

[@VanessaOoms]

Glad to hear 🙏🏼

[@harshitamishra4314]

Thankyou so much for this vedio, after hearing u I was crying as I'm also having nightmares about my past these days and I know that I want something nd this time will shall pass, YOU SAID IT WILL BE OK, I WISH TO BE OKAY 😔😶😊

[@VanessaOoms]

You will be ok! Hang in there. 🙏🏼💜✨

[@harshitamishra4314]

@@VanessaOoms Thankyou 💜💥😍

[@elsacastanon4437]

This happened to me with dreaming of people before they came in my life too and it feels like everyone left me when I became my true self and maybe it is vice versa but yes this is a time of healing and expansion for sure thank u

[@VanessaOoms]

I can relate. Everything in our lives is constantly ebbing and flowing. Thanks for sharing. 🙏💜

[@JohnVargo]

Thank you, Vanessa.

[@VanessaOoms]

Much love John 🙏🏼🤍✨

[@mariannefrohlich424]

Thank you so much...big thumbs up!🙂Sat Nam.

[@VanessaOoms]

Much love 🙏🏼🤍✨ Sat nam

[@mariannefrohlich424]

@@VanessaOoms 💟🙏

[@sonakshijain2006]

I want to feel connected with my family in my home. I feel like not connected and with myself too. What do I do I don't know. Everyone is there with me I know but what I am doing for them I really don't know . Please help and support and reply

[@rorysstudies8243]

Thank you. Love from Brazil 💛

[@VanessaOoms]

Much love to you 🙏🏼🤍✨

[@sergio5977]

Thanks a lot for this video I didnt want to live for a second I hate that nobody understand me looks like everyone is fake around me even my parents Thanks again 🙏🏽

[@VanessaOoms]

Glad this video helped. Hang in there! Your tribe will find you. 🙏🏼💕✨

[@kishanitaliya1408]

Thank you soo much. I'm literally all tears...

[@VanessaOoms]

Aww! Glad this resonated with you 🙏💜

[@steviedee3140]

Thank you so much. Perfect message for me

[@VanessaOoms]

So glad this resonated. Sending you a huge internet hug! 🤗🤍✨

[@makaylaeverly9380]

You helped me have a better understanding. Thank you

[@VanessaOoms]

So glad this video was helpful! 🙏🏼💜✨

[@alexbarianos5472]

"The desert" GOD'S PROVING ground!

[@VanessaOoms]

💯 yes!

[@augustreigns9716]

this new audio is amazing.

[@augustreigns9716]

it sounds like it is both inside, and out

[@VanessaOoms]

@@augustreigns9716 Neat! I haven't gotten any new equipment or anything...I wonder what was different when I recorded this one...

[@mvrs333]

Yea i told myself that i feel like a ghost yesterday

[@VanessaOoms]

It’s such a weird sensation, hey? Sending you tons of love. 🙏🏼💜

[@daughter_of_zion9575]

Currently going through this. I had no idea about all of this

[@VanessaOoms]

Sending you big love! 💕💕💕

[@valerierubin4225]

This was so helpful 🥺❤️

[@VanessaOoms]

I’m so glad to hear that. Much love to you 🙏🏼💕✨🕊

[@intensedays4965]

I think for me I have been trying to hang on to the little of what was me, which is why I feel just so alone like I don't talk to any of my friends, I have been single for a while but now all I want is to find true love from a female. I dont know I'm so confused, and feel very vunerable I never felt like that, I live in not a good neighborhood and never had a problem, cause ppl test you here but I know how to fight and I would stare someone down if they looked at me thinking if I'm worth trying to sneak and knock out to rob me I always knew ppls intention I feel their energy, now I have my hand clutched to mace don't want to look at anyone what the fuck is going on, I need to get it together seriously, and I'm rambling haha but no one's prolly gonna read this anyway so I'm sort of talking to myself. Tighten up! Gotta be mentally strong!