Losing my brother to suicide: Scott Leigh

[@someguy1037]

I lost my older brother to suicide in 2011 when I was 27 and he was 29. We were very close growing up and hung out all the time and shared the same friends, interests etc. The first week for me after it happened was a complete blur. The huge feeling of loss hit me very hard and very fast, it was crippling. It took me months to really start feeling anything like myself. I was never angry with him for doing it as I have seen some people say they feel afterward. I felt a complete and seemingly unconquerable feeling of sorrow and sadness. I didn't know that being that sad could cause physical pain. I wished I could've done something for him or helped him get through his pain somehow. My family (Mother, Father and younger brother) and friends helped. Being able to grieve with my parents and younger brother really helped knowing I wouldn't have to go through it alone. The feeling of loss definitely hits me randomly and with varying degrees of severity. Today for example sucks man, even 12 years and 3 months later. One of the worst and sad feelings I've had in about 2 years, that's what brought me to this video! I love and miss you so much Adam, it really sucks that you'll never meet my wife or child and be a part of their lives. Grieving what could have been isn't as tough as when we lost you but it is still hard and it hurts very much. Thank you so much for making this video and sharing this story.

[@lynnsklavraie]

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[@brianadamsDC]

I lost my little brother to suicide 4 years ago. It was hard to listen to this podcast because my feelings mirror what Scott is going through. It's crazy how the grief sneaks up on me when I least expect it. When it hits me it can still be debilitating. In a lot of ways, it's harder for me now than it was for months after he died. I sometimes still forget that he's really gone. I've tried to turn this horrible experience into a less horrible one by speaking about mental health and suicide here in the USA. Even so, I miss my brother so incredibly much. I don't think that will ever go away.

[@joebellman7969]

Thank you for sharing that with me! Grief for sure has a funny way of arriving unannounced when we least expect it. Loss never goes away, it is an ever-present beast that shows no mercy. I hope you are looking after yourself on those tough days. Big love from the UK

[@joesanthouse4344]

Amazing podcast boys ❤️

[@georginalewis810]

this is so heartfelt. amazing both of you

[@jakemoss4546]

Stunning Podcast

[@Sineadshineslight]

Really great honest conversation. I’m really sorry you know this pain. I lost my daughter to suicide in 2020. These conversations are so important, thankyou 💔❤️💔

[@TREACLsales]

Really insightful and helpful to hear this ♥️

[@joebellman7969]

Glad it was helpful!

[@TREACLsales]

@@joebellman7969 You guys are both excellent

[@MrJoshy50]

Really good talk bro you guys bounce off eachother

[@lepraik]

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[@RazorShalom]

Is it bad if I’ve shutdown? I lost my job I lost everything because I’m mentally I’ll now. I’m angry at the world. And I feel like such a wimp

[@fattidiliberta]

❤ I feel you. I totally understand the need to shutdown.. I found that then it helped open small windows to access my emotions, my body and some of my friends and family...

[@adamfreedman4129]

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