Mad Season - River of Deceit (Live at the Moore, Seattle, 1995)

Mad Season performing "River of Deceit" live at the Moore, Seattle, 1995
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Lyrics:
My pain is self-chosen
At least, so the prophet says
I could either burn
Or cut off my pride and buy some time
A head full of lies is the weight, tied to my waist
The river of deceit pulls down, oh oh
The only direction we flow is down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
My pain is self-chosen
At least I believe it to be
I could either drown
Or pull off my skin and swim to shore
Now I can grow a beautiful shell for all to see
The river of deceit pulls down, yeah
The only direction we flow is down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
The pain is self-chosen, yeah
Our pain is self-chosen
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
#MadSeason #RiverofDeceit #Grunge

[@chipibetico]

Still listening in 2024. Classic and forever live in our hearts, Layne.

[@billcampbell3000]

You're not alone, there's 30 more.🤟

[@elaineb661]

❤❤❤

[@quattobeast]

I'm here with you - i hope you are doing ok. when i am listening to this, it's generally when im not doing so good.

[@frankharrington9440]

Yeah man FF great

[@jodiesipes910]

No kidding. .still loves this music.. ❤

[@LOWKEYDANGER]

This music heals my broken fucked up life magic

[@sarahquinten5050]

This video makes me homesick for a place that doesn't exist.

[@mackhomie6]

impressive. it's not easy to get 14 middle schoolers to agree on much of anything edit: make that 2k and counting

[@shahzabshah3316]

hmmm. where did the original comment go?

[@aleahaleaha2593]

Sarah Quinten ugh I so relate.

[@devinmeiser7936]

Omg I have been saying that for years

[@tylerkeller8869]

Portland Oregon or Seattle Washington ?

[@klm4446]

Who's here missing and honoring Layne Staley today? 😢❤

[@Richardsalazar32]

hes moved on

[@Silversmith70]

Definitely I am.

[@the_muddy_waters]

I believe Layne passed away on Mike McCreedy's Birthday.

[@slipkcat-pg9fs]

all the time!

[@FazMaTaz]

Cannot be matched.

[@auburnwithalake]

Whenever you get depressed, just remember this one thing: We are lucky enough to hear Layne Staley's voice whenever we want to.

[@mrbobmarley2222]

Very true indeed my friend

[@jg7102]

Clay Ellis well said. Underrated comment.

[@robbizza1]

Amen brotha

[@deeebaa]

Yes 🙏

[@TylerGibsonMusic]

Right on man. We will never feel alone.

[@MrEnricopallazzo]

"my pain is self chosen"...this is both beautiful and heartbreaking. Miss you Layne.

[@tiffanyhouchin6055]

Layne got that line from a favorite poet of his, Khalil Gibran, from a work called “The Prophet.” I want to post it here for everyone...I actually have the book -I got it as a gift from a neighbor, and later I heard on an interview with Layne that the inspiration for the song was from a poem in this book that I actually have! It’s kind of philosophical poetry. Check out the book if you want to! Have a beautiful day.🍄🌷🌹✨R.I.P. Layne

[@Shincism]

Had never heard this song before and it was instant tears after that intro

[@MrEnricopallazzo]

@@tiffanyhouchin6055 I didn't know that...hence the line "at least so the prophet says". Thank you for sharing that knowledge, i mean it.

[@tiffanyhouchin6055]

MrEnricopallazzo You’re very welcome 😉! I’m going to grab the book and post the work “On Pain,” from “The Prophet” in it’s entirely, today. I think people should be able to read the words that inspired Layne to write this song. I’ve always loved ❤️ Layne, he was an intelligent man and truly one of the greatest musicians in history. Look at the comments if you want to see it. I’ll notify the post-ers here after I am done. I wish you all the best! -Tiffany 🍀🍄🦀🌹

[@tiffanyhouchin6055]

MrEnricopallazzo I just posted the entirety of “On Pain,” a part of the larger philosophical poetic work “The Prophet.” By Kahlil Gibran. I started reading through the book, it speaks of other parts of the book in this song and others. I hope that you will find it as interesting as Layne did. Blessings to you! ✨🌷Tiffany

[@landmarkcreations1183]

Man I’m so lucky to have been raised in the 80’s and 90’s

[@MeLoNHeAd00]

The 90's were amazing !!!!

[@risenfromyoutubesashesagai6302]

We lived the last great decades.... But now we're old..... 😑

[@MeLoNHeAd00]

@@risenfromyoutubesashesagai6302 yup and sadly the world is going to shit ! Politicians that are worse then ever , war everywhere and kids that can't look up .

[@Barb19715]

Blessed to still have the honor of listening to layne.❤💔

[@NCWoodlandRoamer]

@@MeLoNHeAd00 right on man

[@charliecrackers985]

Mike McCready doesn’t get the recognition he deserves. His rifts with Pearl Jam, Mad Season, Temple of the dog and Even the rockfords are iconic. You can always tell when he is on guitar. Something about his sound is so passionate and memorable.

[@BernadetteWohl]

Now McCready is 57 and a wa4m generous human. Still doing what he is so great at

[@dankowalski6925]

Love him dearly

[@asdf9890]

Definitely has his own style/sound. Lots of Hendrix influence in his technique. Probably one of the best from this era along with Kim Thayil.

[@genebingle1754]

I agree. I didn’t even know it was McReady for a while

[@klm4446]

​@@asdf9890...and Jerry Cantrell.

[@richarddutchholland4780]

Do we all agree that this is still incredible in 2025....

[@JenniferColeman-yc9zy]

Will forever be one of my favorites! Missing that incredible one of a kind voice of his!

[@markdavies981]

He was an amazing talent. The late 80s and early 90s was an amazing time for the bands in Seattle. There was so much talent there at the time. It is sad that so many of them have passed on way too soon.

[@johnphillipsjr7238]

Will be incredible for eternity

[@aleoki]

Im really truly sad that you could not keep swimming to shore... RIP Layne.

[@johnjensen8933]

One of the most beautiful and haunting songs of all time. Layne's self confession. Man just brilliant

[@slimymclord8165]

He'd been writing lyrics about being a heroin addict since Dirt, how is this a confession

[@davidvlogz1135]

@@slimymclord8165 Check out Down , Phil sings the same just different lyrics

[@roxannemoser]

Layne had many songs of confession. This is my favorite, and Down In A Hole.

[@ttech694]

Amazing but painful

[@Jackie.Miller65]

​@@davidvlogz1135Have you seen Cornell with the orchestra? Of course you have.

[@JB1111-g4k]

IT'S 2025 AND WE STILL LOVE AND MISS U LAYNE STALEY!!! YOUR LYRICS AND VOCALS FOREVER TELL A STORY!!! AND MANY OF US THAT LISTEN, "LIVE THE SAME STORY"!!!

[@Top10Archive]

I love all music, but I always prefer to listen to studio-recorded versions.. The ONE exception is with Layne Staley.. All of his performances, including MTV Unplugged, for some reason, all sound better than his studio-recorded versions.. Something beautifully magical about his voice in the raw.. So filled with emotion that you can't capture in a studio performance.

[@Yeah.Buddy.]

You're exactly right

[@melaniek.hopkins2338]

Well said

[@rickm.3688]

If they sound better live then studio is cause they are real not a studio band.

[@martijndegraaf1201]

True

[@drummaboi5879]

when ya hear layne speak then sing its jaw dropping. his voice is still unique AF never emulated 2satisfaction.

[@NCWoodlandRoamer]

The comment section on this video has to be one of the best on KZbin. So many incredible thoughts and memories being shared here. It’s all making me so nostalgic for a time that I miss so bad.

[@proportionzz]

honestly going thru a really rough time. especially this time of year hits different. balling my eyes out as a grown man listening to laynes voice. a beautiful sadness. idk what im saying. i just appreciate this music. it helps a lot more than i can ever put into words. rip layne staley chris cornell scott weiland❤

[@mikeld2067]

me too man. im not sure what youre going through but i hope you can take comfort in the fact that youre not suffering alone

[@HookahBarBusiness]

He has that effect on everyone. Let it out, unfortunately he held his in and couldn't overcome his demons. ✌️

[@richwjolly]

Dude, i hope you're feeling better. Nothing lasts forever and things always get easier. Stay strong dude 🤘🤘🤘🤘

[@wildblueworld]

Same here, bro... but hopeful it will get better to us all very, very soon. Songs of these guys you mentioned make my day better always, especially in moments like these.

[@virginiaknighten4687]

I’m nearly 75 and only discovered those guys about 6 years ago. And I think wtf✌️🤘

[@mila.vanilla]

I dedicate this song to my younger brother, who passed away just ten days ago. He left a huge hole inside my chest when he decided to take his own life, but I understand, I have to. There was no amount of love capable enough to cure that pain he felt. Now just rest in peace, lil bro. Descansa em paz, maninho. 💔

[@marions.120]

Bless you and your brother. Sometimes there’s a loneliness with us that others don’t know how to fill.

[@Rainorshine004]

🙏 my your heart be healed. Your brother loves you. ❤

[@marions.120]

@@Rainorshine004-I played this song with my band tonight, first time and they loved it.

[@Rainorshine004]

@@marions.120 :) 😀 🎶

[@mila.vanilla]

@@Rainorshine004 thank you so much, sweetheart 🌷

[@nicolapole9491]

This song was his confession. He fact he shared this with us all is overwhelming. I miss him.

[@EtherealBeauty89]

True. He was very self-conscious and knew who he was. I wonder and think of the moment he decided to give up

[@craigjackson5903]

This song is about addiction , and the EXTREME hold it has on you once you start . Layne said that trying drugs in the first place , was the worst mistake he ever did ....

[@richardeicholtz4868]

He expressed his misery a lot through the music, especially on Dirt. Such a sad ending.

[@daveomacron4301]

Funny how tenderness is born of pain.

[@berryyagoda]

I miss him too

[@makiiKu]

I swear Layne's voice is my everyday dose of serotonine...so beautiful

[@FlowerPowerRockGirl]

Music are the better pills or Medizines.greetings fromm Germany✌️🤘🏵️🤗💃🎧🎶😘

[@cindisims5917]

So true!!!

[@sam8404]

@@FlowerPowerRockGirl combine the two for even more fun.

[@89kilemal]

*serotonin

[@SkateOrDie87]

@@89kilemalsehroughtoughnihn*

[@brenthadwiger6327]

All those kids in the Audience would be 45-60 years old now. What a memory to hold on. Glad this is online for them to look back on in such quality.

[@jamesleighdavis138]

Layne... still listening and loving your words and voice in 2024!!!! Ps- I’m updating this post every year until I die 🤘🏻🤘🏻

[@sarahendrix3132]

♡ me 2

[@aaronshensky9385]

Damn right

[@anngeecube1524]

Me too. Layne's voice is addicting.

[@bassemdalloul9306]

Sara Hendrix me too

[@rosesebastion3129]

James Davis We will listen till we Die!!!!! LAYNE was so handsome & that voice just WOW'S me!!!! So Beautiful!!!!💖💖💖

[@deborahfollowscornell9007]

Im 69, found lane about 7 years ago, i had heard of AIC, but never actually heard them, if these lyrics don't touch your soul, you may not have one.

[@julesz7056]

I fiound Layne around new years and I#m.... let's say 23! ;-; His voice, his lyrics, everything I love it so much. I've never had a celeberity crush, but I thik I do now. And it's a ghost >:< I'm sorry I'm replyiong to you instead of making my own comment, I feel nobody will read it.. maybe you will this way. I'm really loneyl. I'm sorry

[@dankowalski6925]

@@julesz7056I’m 59 but was 23 at one time. Life is hard. Especially at a young age. Give it a chance. You will grow. Layne was a gift to us from the Lord.

[@stitch2499]

Amen....God bless...​@@dankowalski6925

[@NewEdgeDesigns]

I discovered Layne in 93 at age 14 and still listen to his music..

[@mr3x972]

I’m 20(still with soul), I discovered aic about 2 years ago and came to find out quick it’s best to identify yourself separately from music like this. It’s okay to listen and feel but don’t ruminate on what you’re feeling and thinking. Words are powerful and manifestation is real, you have to check yourself; you’ll end up in a river of deceit if you don’t…

[@LetoMaia]

Layne's voice is like an angel talking about his sad life..

[@FranciscoTorres-eb7hq]

90

[@Iceis_Phoenix]

😥

[@brandonhofmann5479]

Layne its a falling angel

[@bigsky3072]

Damnit Layne! I wish i could of helped u..........

[@CrackBeaver]

@@FranciscoTorres-eb7hq I don't know what you mean by that..

[@kyletriplett2389]

"My pain is self chosen" are words that changed my life. Thank you Layne RIP.

[@SEODUDE1]

it's pretty epic for those that know.

[@MarioChaney-ct3in]

Thank God Jesus Christ

[@hannahrose2147]

Khalil Gibran. Layne was reading him while writing this album.

[@hannahrose2147]

Khalil Gibran. Layne was reading him while writing this album

[@havingabeerwathcingagame]

yes but addiction has no options

[@muchachonextdoor5608]

Layne put everything he had left into these songs. Love Mad Season simply for the fact that they gave us all a few more songs for Layne to sing. Absolute treasures.

[@roxannemoser]

How can this man's voice still be so hauntingly beautiful that I still get tears and chills?

[@andyslagle3240]

Your human, it's the common strain we all have

[@roxannemoser]

@@andyslagle3240 thank you.

[@ralex3697]

Because he was so brilliantly gifted

[@trendkill3333]

I think it’s the fact that he’s singing about his addictions and was most likely on heroin during this performance like he was during MTV unplugged. It’s eerie as he sings about the addiction that he is currently fighting, he’s not singing about something he’s overcome

[@Adrian-ge6wm]

I know, 2022 here. I listen to this and it is 117/98 all over again. Arguably the band with the best longevity, apart from Nirvana? Discuss in no more than 1000 words. Thanks Roxanne, I , miss Layne too!

[@julierowe1732]

I was there. I think about this show a lot. My wonderful older brother took me. Both of them were gone way too soon.

[@ronachten2902]

Hi. Sorry about your brother. Had a question about the show. Was there a sense of how special this was going to be it or was it just another cool show to be at?

[@julierowe1732]

@@ronachten2902 Thank you. There was for me, personally. I'm not sure about the rest of the crowd. I suspect for many it was just another show. I remember a lot of people in the mosh pit moshing and generally being rowdy which annoyed me because I felt the bad deserved more undivided attention.

[@ronachten2902]

@@julierowe1732 Thank you for your recollections!

[@julierowe1732]

@@ronachten2902 You're most welcome. I hope that was a sufficient answer. I'm happy to answer any questions you have.

[@NCWoodlandRoamer]

@@julierowe1732I’m so sorry about your brother. It must have been incredible to have been there.

[@WinstonSmith24]

Christmas Eve 2024, and I’m here missing Layne.

[@blondie9185]

I'm 68 yrs old, music has been in my life since I was born , lived my young teenage yrs in the late 60's with my brother as a Marine ,in Vietnam War. Went to all rock concerts available. Honestly I think Layne has the most soulful voice I have ever heard. I listen to him often n will til I die. RIP 🙏

[@trentacosta7328]

I am 54 and feel the same as you. Layne was special, one of a kind. Peace.

[@kristinesanta6971]

This is beautiful. I'm 57 and love music of all generations.

[@cherylsmith2618]

@@kristinesanta6971 it is...I'm 58 and it's nice to talk to people who give these singers the credit they deserve...without judgment, and Unconditional LoVe ❤ 😍 💖 ❣ 💕 After all, I believe that's what's it's all about anyway...God Speed all you Layne Stanley fans...💯🤘😎⏳🤍🌠🤩🤗💋

[@wingolamo]

@@cherylsmith2618 57 here, sister. 🙂

[@wingolamo]

@@kristinesanta6971 Same! 4/8/65. You?

[@mikebrase5161]

Holy shit, I was at this show me and a buddy drove straight from Central Texas to Seattle in 31 hours just to make it on time.

[@aleahaleaha2593]

Mike Brase did you know you were at the one of the greatest shows ever? I’m so damn jealous.

[@nylfgaard]

Worth it !! I could even walked hundred of miles if I had the chance to attend this !!

[@jeromykriege]

That’s awesome but you know there are planes bro 😂😂

[@TheTrutherFiles]

@@jeromykriege back in these days road trips is how we got places

[@alprince1999]

love that. Wish I could've as well...

[@MarkDenton1983]

42 years old and I still can’t believe how great this was. I miss the 90’s

[@patrickshaughnessy2702]

One of the best vocalists ever....

[@hoch316]

I was 15 years old here. I feel blessed to be a child in the 80’s and a teenager in the 90’s. Some of the best music ever created

[@jasonsmith7440]

Grad in 91. I often say I miss that time

[@Rek18511]

This music is the soundtrack to my life

[@jasondetreich4204]

Class of 93’ 🤟🎸

[@andrewucla]

95 here. Best times

[@jye_24]

Can't Believe No one Has Given him a Birthday Message on This Post! Happy Birthday you Timeless Soul

[@maureenwoodard9588]

@@jye_24 happy birthday precious son

[@WE_OF_THE_NOV]

Man, if Layne could have seen himself the way we see him, I think he'd still be with us. One of the loudest, and quietest losses we've ever had in music 😢

[@allencollins6031]

Well said......profound, really.

[@rhondajackson3102]

I say the same about my son that passed away of an overdose. If only he knew what everyone saw in him and how everyone felt about him. He was loved by so so many and was the kindest, caring, most humble, lovable, intelligent, and empathetic man I ever knew. 23 forever

[@rainingwhenidie]

@@rhondajackson3102 I'm sorry for your loss, I hope your journey in recovering has gone well

[@brandonproctor3639]

For real though! Well said

[@theDiReW0lf]

I was really high with my buddy and we were saying shit like that. Then he said “yeah but who did HE have to listen to?”

[@detroitrockscity]

Layne and Chris are getting me through the Covid19 isolation🤟

[@Alexdelarge1975]

And alcohol :-p

[@evanabbott2737]

Yeah, man👍

[@lenaaustin6692]

Ain't that the truth.👍

[@dcahill121]

Love, yes, love!

[@kailynwolfe4647]

LITERALLY

[@dKcZero]

That time, the feeling, gone, left feeling displaced. New music just does not fill the void of this period of music. I feel like music peaked. Im not that old i dont feel like "you youngsters dont know what good music is" but at the same time there is just not much modern musicians making music that stir the emotion or feelings.

[@ronnyfalks1977]

Will never be another Layne. Totally irreplaceable. Love ya buddy. Hope you’re resting peacefully

[@PaulNurse1]

00:15 , I bet she is still beautiful nearly 30 years later ❤

[@odditylocker]

Next level creepy

[@garydyke5758]

This guy is died for his dream and everyday we’re blessed with this

[@catlady1084]

wish you were still here Layne

[@zudemaster]

This is like hearing a ghost from the past. I had no clue that Mad Season existed until two weeks ago, now I hear Laynes voice once again in material that is 100% new to me.

[@ThatGirlisTHAT]

Me too!

[@rockmetalplaylists5595]

Wow. Discovering this for the first time wld be amazing

[@xxxwhoknowsxxx]

zudemaster welcome aboard!

[@garymorgan8706]

Enjoy u lucky bugger lol .. I wish I could discover talent of his magnitude again

[@jolkraeremeark6949]

Nutshell.

[@SuperAngelic5]

I remember when this song first hit the radio. I immediately it was very special. It is a regular part of my life now.

[@carmaela2689]

There will never be another singer like him. Such a unique and talented voice. I miss the 90's so much.

[@mudstaind26]

I’ll never stop coming back to this live version. What a treat it must have been to witness it in person.

[@appalachianhomegirl]

It’s hard to admit I’m obsessed with someone who isn’t alive anymore. We love you Layne.♥️

[@cmdoseck3022]

@@realm23x73 he's one of many....

[@rosesebastian1472]

I'm obsessed with LAYNE myself....damn I just Love & Miss him so much...such a Gorgeous Man!!!!!💝💝💝💝

[@realm23x73]

@@cmdoseck3022 with many yet to come..

[@cmdoseck3022]

@@realm23x73 ......unfortunately........

[@ALMyoutube]

Tell me! All the artists I'm obsessed about are dead 😭

[@BetterCallShannon]

He was so beautiful. I just wish he would have valued himself like the millions of fans he had.

[@chadschobert1440]

Indeed he was, and if only it had been that simple . . .

[@MadAcoustic1]

Layne’s beautiful voice, sense of humor, kindness, melodies, …He was such a unique and special human being.

[@lindashay8605]

Layne was a tortured soul and so talented. Left us far too soon, but I'd like to think his message is still helping some people in some way! We will always love you Layne! ❤

[@chefpatsy]

"My pain is self-chosen At least I believe it to be I could either drown Or pull off my skin and swim to shore Now I can grow a beautiful shell for all to see" ...what powerful, profound and moving lyrics! Layne was a genius, part of that all too talented and departed class!

[@user-fn6vm5tb8p]

I’d love to hear how people interpret these lyrics. Pull off my skin and swim to shore is a double entendre to me. He’d adopted the identity of the drug user, it took over him like invasion of the body snatchers and he ‘wore it’. But also if he kicked drugs he’d go through the agony of withdrawals paralleled with the pain of the healing process in recovery. It would hurt like peeling off one’s skin. You have to pull off your old skin, so to speak, in the recovery process. Recovery is just as much about behaviour as it is about emotional healing. The idea of deterioration and weakness of the skin related to long term drug addiction contrasted to a beautiful strong shell, like his formerly healthy physique and angelic looks. But also the new shell being his new identity without the label of the public looking at him at just a junkie. Genius lyrics even just looking at those 2 lines. Lyrical analysis is something I love to do.

[@leonardoneves7450]

@@user-fn6vm5tb8p I was going to ask around what people make of that expression but I feel your interpretation is dead on. Thanks for sharing

[@bradnorthcote1301]

Yeah, that's a great interpretation! It fits a line from Kahlil Gibran's "The Prophet", which Layne no doubt read as its the direct inspiration for this song: ""It is not a garment I cast off this day, but a skin that I tear with my own hands."

[@djbtapales]

@@bradnorthcote1301 I read that Layne was deep into Gibran when they formed Mad Season. In fact, most of the songs in their lone album had Gibran's influence in one form or another.

[@apurugganan]

@@djbtapales Thank you for sharing that

[@katarzynagrzanka8828]

Layne Staley -best male rock vocal ever. Even closed in a dying body his voice was pure, strong and so special. Such a gift from God, such a loss and a waste.

[@kkjj4508]

Yes he's the only front man that sounds good 👍👍 always . He holds notes better than most and too be on (H )WHEN PERFORMING AND SOUND SO GOOD PROVES: HE WAS BORN WITH HIS PHENOMENAL SOUND (S) #1

[@thomasferrarojr.9772]

Cornell still takes it. But love Layne.

[@effigy06]

Definitely a photo finish between Layne and Cornell

[@chadrowe8452]

​@@effigy06that's why I like temple of the dog

[@wildwillie5408]

almost an impossible choice IMO. usually swayed by which one i happen be listening to at the time@@effigy06

[@boomer1991]

Timeless music. I am grateful to have lived in a time when music was fantastic. 70s through the 90's.

[@brentobrien6642]

Alot of memories circle this time period.such a better time

[@mytruthslays1303]

From the greatest music generation of all time. The 90s will always be a musical monster of a decade. I'm so glad I got to live thru it as a teen.

[@paulaporter778]

Just glad to have lived through it

[@WhiteWolf--]

Absolutely. Born in 1979, it was mind blowing all the music that was being released when I was 15, 16, etc. Unreal.

[@HarryManback0]

I don't know if we'll ever see real musical talent and intelligent lyricism in mainstream music again. With the absolute worthless garbage that's being promoted for younger generations now it's doubtful.

[@brandi8999]

I agree, born in 1977 and so proud to have lived my teenage yrs in the 90's when music was so powerful and kick ass!

[@brandikio3005]

Me too. Wish we could just go back for a few days

[@MrDonimal]

my pain is self chosen

[@maureent6800]

YESSSSS DECICATED TO DUSTIN MY HEART FELT ❤️ WITH U I FELT YOU WHEN U ERE CHECKINGG OUT

[@tiffanyhouchin6055]

According to Layne, The song, “River of Deceit,” was inspired by the following passage from the book, “The Prophet,” called “On Pain,” by Kahlil Gibran, and was originally published in 1923. Gibran was seen as a visionary and a genius who wrote several manuscripts, and the following is what inspired Layne to write this song. The rest of the book is excellent as well. Here it is, “On Pain”, from “The Prophet”: “A woman spoke, saying, “Tell us of Pain. And he said: Your Pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know Pain. And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy; And you would accept the seasons of your heart, even as you have always accepted the seasons that pass over your fields. And you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief. Much of your pain is self-chosen. It is the bitter poison by which the physician within you heals your sick self. Therefore, trust the physician, and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility; For his hand, though heavy and hard, is guided by the tender hand of the Unseen, And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips, has been fashioned of the clay which the Potter himself has moistened with His own sacred tears. -“On Pain, by Kahlil Gibran, from “The Prophet”. This book has several other sub-sections on different issues, topics and situations, and it’s considered a masterpiece. It reads like a poetry book, and it’s sections are connected to one another and separated by topic in the table of contents. Gibran was a poet, philosopher and artist. Gibran, though born in Lebanon, lived in the United States for the last twenty years of his life. (1883-1931). He was also a “mystical artist,” and his drawings and paintings illustrate his books 📖, and are on exhibit at museums in the great capitals of the world, and “compared by Auguste Rodin to the work of William Blake”....”The Prophet” and his other books of poetry, illustrated with his mystical drawings, are known and loved by innumerable Americans, who find in them an expression of the deepest impulses of man’s heart and mind.” (From the back cover of “The Prophet,” 1972 reprint, New York, Published by Alfred A. Knopf, Inc. -original copyright 1923 by Kahlil Gibran, Renewal Copyright 1951 by Administrators C.T.A. of Kahlil Gibran Estate, and Mary Gibran, 89th printing, 1972). His writings are incredibly spiritual and deal with the trials of humanity. The rest of the book also shows that it clearly influenced Layne’s musical writing, and incorporates other lines from the song “River of Deceit,” and is not quite a hundred pages long of poetry and philosophical inspiration. I think it was a book that definitely influenced Layne’s thinking, and he discussed it and the role it played in the song “River of Deceit” in an interview. I Hope you enjoyed it! R.I.P. Layne, 🌹✨🌈🕊🦋, we will never forget you, and we love you and your contributions to the music 🎶 you helped create, music that has helped so many of us through our lives. You live on in our hearts ♥️ always!

[@Beastking1107]

Thank you so much for this.

[@tiffanyhouchin6055]

Đorđe Žutić It’s my pleasure! I am glad that you appreciate it, Layne certainly was a deeper individual than many know. The world is a better place for his presence in it, though it would have been wonderful if he had stayed much longer. I really miss him.🕯🕊🎶🌹❤️🎤🎸✌️. Hope that you will have a beautiful day today and every day! R.I.P. Layne 🕯🌹😢😇

[@bellabell5655]

Tiffany.... I knew nothing of this. Wow... if U only knew what it means / ment to ME to have gotten this info from U. It's is beautiful I Am So grateful U let me in on it.... 😚 bella

[@tiffanyhouchin6055]

You are very welcome! ✌️😉 💜 I was coincidentally given this book right before I heard Layne posthumously talking was about its influence on him! Surprise! My neighbor gave it to me a few along with a few other books 📚 he recommended I read. The Prophet was so very important and powerful for Layne and many others the world over!. Check it out, if you can, it’s amazing and timeless! Thanks 🙏 Layne for all you did for us during your time on Earth 🌎. R.I.P., We will never forget you! 🌻✨🍄 ☄️☀️🍀

[@glipp1]

This seems to flow from the Buddhist philosophy. It is lyrical and descriptive of ways to manage/view the inevitable pain everyone will feel in life (more or less). Love Layne. He seemed to lay out, and sing, his soul irregardless of anyone’s judgement.

[@bertbretherton]

Well, I'm 77 now and back here again. So good. What a singer, what a band.

[@datoome_]

You rock bro! I can’t imagine my gramps listening to this ahaha

[@bertbretherton]

@@datoome_ I'm 80 now and my children keep my up-to-date! However, this band is one from my own selection. Music has saved me several times. Thanks for your words. Best wishes. Big Thief is one of my latest, by the way!

[@datoome_]

@@bertbretherton you’re a legend mate! Hope I’m like you once I grow up!

[@FACEL1FT]

@@bertbretherton hey man, I know I'm just some random dude on the internet but hey, "random dudes" from the 90s basically saved my life so here goes. I discovered Alice In Chains/ Mad Season only a few years ago, but their music has really changed my life for the better. I love that you're not as closed minded as my grandparents and many others' are. Heck, my grandma wouldn't last with Queen, much less Mad Season but you rock man! I hope your kids and grandkids have or develop your same music taste. Never stop listening, you know how much it's helped you. Like the other guy in this thread said; hope I'm like you once I grow up!

[@bertbretherton]

@@FACEL1FT Thanks for the words1 Yes, my son. (the Fall) and daughter (the DOORS), and now my grand-daughter (Jeff Buckley) keep doing the 'try this' thing with me. I'm coming up to 81 and still listening to fresh stuff (last one was Alabama Shakes). Stay happy and healthy.

[@MonsterNaps]

AIC puts me in awe of Layne's power but Mad Season makes me think about how much great music we missed out on. His voice was so beautiful and versatile. I'm on such a kick right now and its hard to stop.

[@cindytunstall2314]

Same here for me too

[@melissa4691]

I am on the same kick. I find it all so sad.

[@MisfitMods]

Same bro

[@notsosmileyface]

You mean you guys are going through the rattle in other words it is referred too as clucking...or plainly withdrawals ? Unfortunately for me I'm Still doing both, white & dark...I've had a clean stint not long ago for about 2 weeks I held on and then I stated to use again, which was a mistake obviously. It was meant to be only a little and now it's been a 3 week binge. So that's how I've been fighting this possessive evil thing. I've been taking now basically for 2 years with little breaks in between but for the most part it's been 2 years of addiction. I don't really smoke the white as much mainly the dark & I don't pin up I do it occasionally as I know the dangers and it's very addicting already and doing that just makes it even more harder to stop. But like I was saying I mainly smoke with the occasional dig. Anyway before the 2 year stint I was clean for 6 Months and I've been kicking myself that I started using again. But i guess i have the resources to stop as I'm only 26 nearly 27. So for about in total I've been doing smack since I was 24 so do the maths. And I'm not ready fully to quit even though I did have a 6 Months or maybe a little bit longer stint of being clean but then I fell in again. Purely from the fact that I was always craving it a lot. Then I took it as I missed it so much. And yeah now we are here. But I'm gonna try to stop as I have some subutex saved and my money is drying up and since I need to wait for my next paycheck I figured I won't have the possibility to do it since I won't have the money for it. So I'm taking advantage of the situation...

[@rafaer02]

@@melissa4691 how u doing nowadays lady? hope you're well

[@dexked]

“Head full of lies is a weight tide to my waist” he wrote such meaningful lyrics for junkies. He just cut right through the bullshit and says it point blank and it’s beautiful. This song he’s basically spelling it out for us. I’m a drug addict and I’m losing my fight. Will I survive? If fucking sucks he died. I don’t like to say lost the fight. Because you don’t just lose. So much pain

[@maisiechatfield3497]

This is the softest version of Layne we ever saw. The way he sings "Down, oh down" literally makes tears drip from my eyes. Such a beautiful talent, we lost. We miss you so much, Layne ❤

[@ivymae4410]

Heartbreaking 💔 yes this world lost this dear sweet genius too soon

[@dkroyley]

Probably the greatest live performance I've had the pleasure of witnessing... April 29 1995 two days after I turned 21

[@andino444]

You Lucky man..really👍

[@dkroyley]

@@andino444 the opening act blew me away. A 12 piece mariachi band .

[@SludgeMan90]

@@dkroyley Wow, Im so envious. Must have been something magical to witness. you were witnessing music history with that show. Where you close to the front?

[@dkroyley]

@@SludgeMan90 definitely top 3 on the list of best shows I've attended. I was like 5 or 6 row center of stage. Also, the pre band was a 12 piece Mariachi band which was awesome.

[@dkroyley]

@@SludgeMan90 so just to set the record straight, my friends and I were sitting just left of center and 6 rows back. Had to fact check with one of my brothers. Friends for 30+ years and still have never grown up! Seen many great shows like this together. Just chatted for 3 hrs with ease about this show and life in general on Monday.

[@Wolfdragon92584]

We live in tough times, but we also lived in or around the 1990s AD. The renaissance of music, film, art, and culture. We also had the technology to preserve many of those memories. If you remember the 90s, count your blessings. If you don't, watch as much media from that time as you can, and imagine a more carefree world.

[@TheChitownpete]

Layne wasn't able to help himself, but he has helped many of us who struggle with Depression. While his Life was short, he was very successfull.

[@weldead3]

All the greats are gone but their music lives on. It’s those who have the greatest impact on society. It’s music when it effects one’s life in such an enormous way

[@ParticularlyGrunge]

2024 and it still hits like it always did❤

[@kcguy4025]

Best front man ever. No one is close to his voice. You can tell he is really into this performance. Such a shame he is gone. God I wish we all could have saved him

[@davehenry7262]

God, I love this. But it makes me cry every time. Yes, a grown man can cry. RIP LAYNE

[@DanniCohen-d7y]

Same here,when Layne sings I feel every word & this song brings me to tears,such an honest,brilliant, beautiful man❤

[@Laydeejay800]

❤

[@AquaBerry1000]

They're so lucky to see this live, the audince I mean. This was the year I was born. What I'd do to be in their place. All I can do is smoke some pot and imagine I was there.

[@rebeccao6883]

Such an incredible loss. I often wonder if Layne knows the impact he had on so many people. Does he know how much people loved him? Does he know how incredibly unique he was? Does he know we’re still talking about and missing him? I like to think so. I know he was such a tortured soul, but such a beautiful one. RIP

[@heatherwvgirl]

Rebecca O I often wonder the same thing. 🖤

[@debrasalinas2831]

A gift from heaven with that voice

[@bellabell5655]

Becca.... he know.... Cas there Is a Heaven & Laynes there -- Watching Us, Hearing Us... HE knows & 1 day we will get 2 meet him ourselfs....

[@user-li2ho4cc7j]

it's ok...he's ok.... my pain is self chosen....like everyday I see fucked up things around me and I can't save the world but i think for tortured souls they feel it more than us

[@user-li2ho4cc7j]

i think he's saying he could ignore the itrocities of the world and his life but he can't

[@marywigglesworth7759]

Sara, homesick for a place that doesn't exist is lyrical in itself..,, I ache as well. Thank you ❤lane greyy

[@sharpdad33]

As a boy I was mesmerized by Layne and this song by Mad Season. As a man, nothing changes. Sadly we didn’t get to see him grow older. A change I’m sure we all would have welcomed. I hope he found peace somewhere between all of this. Thanks for the memories.

[@andrewdods2236]

sharpdad33 The candle that burns twice as bright with creativity, burns for half as long ... :-/

[@sharpdad33]

andrew dods well said

[@ginpok6640]

Layne only lives on thru this! Sad but true....

[@KillermanV3]

This is probably the most comforting and appreciative set of comments I've seen about Layne

[@ekquinn7059]

@@andrewdods2236 oh my god, that is beautiful. 👍💔

[@pedals1091]

Finally , Mad season is fucking awesome.

[@mukundbista4898]

Layne Staley, you lost the battle but you have helped so many to fight the same battle and win!

[@mikehaws680]

RIP Layne!! Best voice ever !! Lost my younger brother to addiction ❤️❤️❤️

[@arenaofideaspodcast8666]

This is one of a few songs my favorite all time. Just close your eyes jam this song and feel the pain torment and those powerful lyrics capture your soul. Gone too soon never forgotten rip layne!!!

[@jetsbcuzyolo90]

Whats wild is there hasn't been one single human being born that has similar vocal chords as Layne's. Thats how unique his voice was, i hope God and Laynes blesses the Earth with that one day

[@dddsabong]

his voice is what pain would sound like. he could sing anything, and i'd still get choked up.

[@Craig-bz3dm]

Yes , you are Absolutely Correct . That is a Beautiful Analogy !!! God Bless You

[@DJLA9778]

Just dug this cd out of of a box. No idea why I feel special for owning it

[@MAYNARDDRAGOLUKABAČVAR]

A truly beautiful man with amazing Awesome poet

[@susanreilly5015]

Layne Staley… when I listen to his voice, it’s puts me in a place I want to be..my 💔 will never heal now that he’s gone……

[@patrickfoster4586]

This song hits me so deep it almost hurts.

[@michaelpal5807]

So sad. Can only imagine how much Layne suffered. What a Beautiful truth sad song

[@aleahaleaha2593]

Me too. It really hurts.

[@Sunshine-do3yv]

First three notes..... unmistakable LAYNE.......man, you are missed🫂🎶🎶🎼🎼🎼🎵🎵❤️‍🩹🌠🌠🌠👇👇🧚🧚🧞

[@joelcruz1514]

There's no telling how far this band could have gone.... R.I.P. Layne Staley 🖤 John Baker Saunders 🖤

[@PepeTheJonkler]

Mark Lannegan 🖤 (Though he was the singer for Screaming Trees, he contributed lyrics to 'Above' and 'Long Gone Days', and he replaced Layne for a short time during the late '90's. He also sang 'Brother' by Alice in Chains during the virtual tribute to Layne Staley with the MoPOP Founders Awards in 2020. Mark passed on February 22nd, 2022, 5 days before my birthday that year... so that was a bummer to say the very least. Had me in my feels that whole week thinkin' about everyone) The only surviving members of Mad Season are Barrett Martin and Mike McCready

[@joelcruz1514]

@@PepeTheJonkler Well said! ✌️❤️

[@StephenHarant]

Someday young folks will come back and realize, these gems....some day

[@ardian7699]

I’m now 22 but started listening to them since I am 17 so yes sir you are right

[@dalayneejo]

19 years old and just getting into layne staley and the greater grunge scene!

[@Gonzo6o]

God I could listen to this on repeat for the rest of my life.

[@Iceis_Phoenix]

I do

[@marcietanz3154]

Myself as well, its brilliant

[@officialcauseandeffectdogt8905]

I know. It’s so deep

[@kristenlynne6118]

Same 🖤

[@patrickcollins3398]

Same💔

[@brennenvansistine8805]

The people at this show were experiencing a legendary moment in time ..such a beautiful painful song...I get emotional every time I see this video....rip men

[@aleahaleaha2593]

It amazes me that 25 years later this is still at the top of relevance. Probably my favorite album ever.

[@codeman9145]

It’s amazing how many people don’t know Mad season. They’re in a juke box at a local bar I play pool at. I’ll throw some mad season and everyone always ask me who it is.

[@Brianz1981]

I shared Layne and AIC with my daughters. Left such a mark on their souls, that my grandson is named Layne.

[@aaronmccutcheon]

I named my oldest son after him in 2003. He was the best!

[@Alexdelarge1975]

I don't think I will have children of my own but if I do.... If it is a girl I want to name her Demri and if it is a boy... Layne!

[@propjoe1060]

I'm sure that Layne would be touched if he knew his work had impacted people so profoundly. Hope he's in a peaceful place now.

[@baileemiller9862]

Thats awesome! I love it!!! my dad loves alice in chains, and loves layne even more! Alice in chains is apart of me! My dad has been in a band since he was in high school, singer and base player. When i had my son, i was going to name him either Layne, Lennon, or Luca. Layne from Layne Staley, Lennon from john Lennon, and Luca from Kevin gates album luca brasi. i picked Luca, me and dad agreed on it.

[@matthewmacwhirter5804]

Brian Zeller love it brother! All the best

[@saransh630]

See you all from time to time.. with this song, I miss the nights that I never lived, I miss the friends I never had and the eternal summer party that never went to.

[@Circlegaurd2814]

God I love this song! Layne is just a beast musically, no one can compare. There are many singers with great voices but Layne has this innate ability to reach into your soul and make you understand every word! I’ve never heard another singer that could do that. We miss you so much Layne!!

[@angryangel249]

Stephanie Glenn 😭😭😭the same here 🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻

[@richthomas7080]

Well said

[@steveparadise3710]

Yeah...well said my dear.

[@bellabell5655]

Stephanie, I feel the SAME way. That's the 1st thing WE all knew We heard this music - this guys singing - We stop - We listen... his voice drew Us all in. All towards him. We hoped for more We searched for it & We wanted more. Who is this guy? Who is his band? We were young & we listen Closely. Those of Us that really liked Started Well We Fell Hard. We listened 2 him talk & others talk about him.. He was special. We fell HEAD over Heals for this guy. He made Us laugh over the years, he laughed with Us. He had that rare personality of a celebrity that Seems to Stay Himself. I saw many videos of him telling stories - of himself (he Cud laught at himself) He was Funny & he sounded like Noooooo other (as U Said miss Glenn) His voice was Unique THAT'S what 1st Drew So many to him then... WOW! So We got 2 know him & learned of his life = the good & the bad WE ALL WISHED WE CUD OF SAVED HIM... from himself - sadly it didn't happen. The Sadness of THIS Song with the beauty of his Voice... the Story it tells that he "wishes he CUD Escape the "lies that weighted him down" & "Cut" those "Ties" that bind - "Shed the Scales" then turn to US ALL & "Show the "beau' 'ti' ful' New Skin he has grown. That's What He Wanted.... but that River... that River of deceit he Cud NOT Escape. He Blames NO one else. He tells us plainly - loud & clear... he blames himself for IT All... He can't Stop... So "His pain was Self Chosen" and we all cried, We LOVED Him & thank the heavens... We Can Still HEAR the beautiful Words & Sounds he gave Us. WE WERE the LUCKY ONES miss Glen, to have Enjoyed him these 30 years. 😍

[@Circlegaurd2814]

Bella Bell I couldn’t have said it better myself! ❤️

[@cecilyjsmusicvideos7619]

Mad Season is just so amazing. I feel like Layne had already established himself as the strongest rock vocalist of the moment, and yet here he is so clean and tender and raw. It is an incredible contrast. And music wise when monster fuzz was the "it" guitar sound, these guys delivered the goods so well with clean guitars and really almost tribal drum sounds. And of course the message is felt by a lot of us who came of age in the 80s and 90s. We know good people lost to drugs and alcohol.

[@AiR-gs4st]

Wow!.. Amazing how the echoes of Layne's beautiful voice and personality, still can be heard louder than most sounds of the present.

[@andrewdods2236]

A R yep .. chills :-/

[@amberw5908]

There's nothing around now that compares to the music from this era

[@frankeerhyme7416]

Agreed! His voice makes you feel even when you don't want to. And defo agreed to music of this era,most of it's complete crap ✌️

[@AiR-gs4st]

@@frankeerhyme7416 The truth!!! The most beautiful pain i know

[@JamothonKeepitreal]

And he's not even giving he's all . This dude can get way up there with his voice

[@real-American-man]

RIP. I hope he finally has found the peace and rest he fought for so long.

[@kinggordon8762]

In my opinion, this is the best live performance by a rock vocalist ever. I tear up watching it every time. The world was a better place when Layne Staley was singing in it. The pure talent he possessed still blows my mind 30 years later. Also I thank God I made it out of my opiate battle 16 years ago 🙏 But watching Layne sing like an angel while clearly losing his battle still breaks my heart all these years later. RIP to the 🐐

[@viggolc6378]

Love hate love at moore as well

[@apurugganan]

KG I'm glad you're still with us, mate, keep on keepin on. Be strong, and tell others when you can, that there is hope and life

[@CambriaPelletier6090]

I'm happy you beat your demons & you're still here with us today. My brother didn't make it out of his battle with drugs. Tbh, I don't think he wanted to beat his demons no matter how hard we fought his battles for him. Listening to Layne's beautifully haunting voice always takes me down this inevitable tormenting road of "what if" & "why?". What if they were still with us & why couldn't we save them? It's for sure hell on earth for my never-ending depression, but I'll always need Layne's voice in my life.

[@deatensmason]

Blessings for your sobriety today. I'm 10 years clean in the spring. Came of age at the beginning of the oxycontin epidemic. Began shooting dope in 1994 at age 14. I didn't get clean until I was 34. I survived long enough to get better, watching all my friends and family perish. I was 12 the first time I heard Layne's voice, grew up to Cobain, Cornell, Vedder, Weiland, and Layne Staley. Funny how Eddie is the only one left. Durvived the oxycontin years, only to endure the heroin years, methamphetamine years, and fentanyl epidemic that has taken so many. Now I work as a mental health counselor after getting a masters degree in social work and working with other addicts these last 5 years. Layne always reminds me of how far I've came, he invokes such strong memories of my childhood, the sadness I felt after years of abuse and wanting to take my own life. This song represents a generation, it will carry on forever in the hearts of those that are still here, and as a voice for those that that are not. RIP Layne

[@unicornL]

It's hard to watch, but the band members of Mad Season say he got sober during this time. But he's so skinny....at least he wasn't bad off like he got. I mostly just feel badly for Layne

[@sleepiboio]

Layne's voice has always haunted me, there's just something ethereal and otherworldy about it

[@plamenspasov4943]

What a talent, what a voice, he went way too early. One of a kind

[@SnuffleupagusVvvV]

He always sounded better live just an amazing human. We are lucky to experience his voice and creativity. We loved you Layne RIP

[@sureshot52r48]

i was 20 yrs old when this happened and i loved this album..... here i am 25+ yrs later and still feeling this mans pain. He was a true talent.

[@janellhernandez9529]

That voice is recognizable from anywhere ...RIP to one of the best gone too soon.

[@-C.T.-]

I was there. Layne...so fragile physically and covered in what looked to me as dead man's robes...but the voice. THAT VOICE.

[@lenaaustin6692]

I agree . It's like he bared his soul. The voice is haunting

[@sasha219]

You are so lucky to have seen him live. Not only live but in the depths of his spiritual and physical struggle you witnessed Layne at his most honest and raw. Wow...what a gift!

[@CAPE3000able]

Such a haunting, deep song that resonates the 90s sound. Anyone that has dealt with addiction can relate to this song.

[@linehandibew6205]

BlackberryWinter1012 yup 5 years clean and these songs bring me right back. I totally identify with his pain. Wish he found the gift of recovery.

[@dannylarry9408]

Or a family member. Wish my dad could get off heroin.