Maddie Zahm - Fat Funny Friend (Lyrics) “I’ve drawn out in sharpie where I’d take the scissors”

Fat Funny Friend lyrics:
[Intro + Verse 1]
I break the ice
So they don’t see my size
And I have to be nice
Or I’ll be the next punch line
[Verse 2]
I’m just the best friend in Hollywood movies
Who only exists to continue the story
The girl gets the guy, while I’m standing off-screen
So I’ll wait for my cue to be comedic relief
[Chorus]
Can’t be too loud, and can’t be too busy
If I don’t answer now, are they still gonna need me?
Can’t be too proud, and can’t think I’m pretty
Do they keep me around, so their flaws just seem silly?
[Refrain]
Life of the Fat, Funny, Friend
Life of the Fat, Funny, Friend
[Verse 3]
I say I’m okay
’cause they wouldn’t care anyway
And I could try to explain my efforts in vain
They can’t relate
Ohh
[Verse 4]
I’ve drawn out in sharpie where I’d take the scissors
If that’s what it took for me to look in the mirror
I’ve done every diet to make me look thinner
So why do I still feel so goddammnn inferior?
[Chorus]
Can’t be too loud, and can’t be too busy
If I don’t answer now, are they still gonna need me?
Can’t be too proud, and can’t think I’m pretty
Do they keep me around, so their flaws just seem silly?
[Refrain]
Life of the Fat, Funny, Friend
Life of the Fat, Funny, Friend
[Verse 5]
It’s funny when I think a guy likes me
And it’s funny when I’m the one who says it’s gonna heal [?]
It’s f^^king funny when I’m asked to go out on Halloween;
Dresses, and thigh-highs, while I hide my body
[Chorus]
Can’t be too loud, and can’t be too busy
If I don’t answer now, are they still gonna need me?
Can’t be too proud, and can’t think I’m pretty
Do they keep me around, so their flaws just seem silly?
[Refrain]
Life of the Fat, Funny, Friend
Life of the Fat, Funny, Friend
Life of the Fat, Funny, Friend
Life of the Fat, Funny, Friend
[Outro]
I’ve drawn out in sharpie where I’d take the scissors…
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[@BangersOnly]

An incredibly personal song from Maddie who mentioned she wasn’t sure if she ever wanted to release this one. I know so many people are so glad that she decided to, this song will help so many people out there🖤

[@audios5081]

fr thanks for posting this on yt cause it’s not out on her yt acc yet i’ve been listening to it over and over

[@jaidyndeluca5110]

Please pop

[@nyamahoroesperance8561]

🥺✅😍😘👨‍👩‍👦👨‍👩‍👧😇🍧🍧😇😇🥹🥹😇😇

[@ashleydehertog7042]

Just like me

[@katequinn5629]

Okay n

[@eilenolsen8657]

As someone who can relate, feeling like this isn't an insecurity, it's pure fear. Fear of never getting your first boyfriend/girlfriend, never getting asked for your snap or number, never having a true friend and fear of society's judgement. Sometimes we suck in our stomachs until it becomes our norm and we do it automatically. It's feeling like you want to die when your friend who's skinnier and "prettier" calls themselves ugly and fat. It's the feeling of never being comfortable the way you are. But i promise, no matter size, you are beautiful as long as you're you.

[@katherinekaranicolas378]

the kind of feeling that no one can rescue you from - it creeps back like poison every time.

[@YaGirlT44]

Hit the nail on the head.

[@SG-xy6hf]

U seem nice, can I get your sc?

[@eilenolsen8657]

@@SG-xy6hf mine?

[@angeljohnson1768]

THE LAST PART GOT IT😭😭I would think “so how does she really see me if she sees herself as fat or ugly”and it makes me scared

[@blahblahblahrosepira]

it hurts when the skinny pretty friend call themselves ugly and fat, everyone tells them their skinny and beautiful but no one says it to you.

[@Animefan.87]

It's actually the opposite of me actually yk bcz I have pretty features and I am kinda fat and my friend is skinny but average but ppl always tell her how I am more healthy and more prettier than her and I feel bad for her

[@maddiesmagicalwonderworld6336]

For real my like “perfect” friend is like I’m so fat and my dad says I’m fit but he probably lying like bruh i have never been plus i have always been the medium friend but I get a lot in large because I like it oversize

[@bhavnasingla9802]

I am the skinny friend but we can also have body insecurities sometimes. Being skinnier than average is hard and we are insecure about our body.

[@kellyhousch4445]

Listen.. u r absolutely beautiful. Ur the most beautiful person on this earth! And if those people don't see it.. THEY R THE UGLY ONES! u r gorgeous!

[@blahblahblahrosepira]

@kellyhousch4445 thank you sm, this actually made me cry, it made my day

[@life.w.aubsii]

“Do they keep me around so their flaws just seem silly” *I felt that*

[@Ahshsihdsjchi]

same

[@dedicatedsimpxx]

And I realized they do

[@willow1909]

Same... sadly

[@mmmm-lg2mj]

I felt that as well...

[@Elle_4_ever]

Hurts when you understand how it feels.

[@Daedacc193]

The line “Do they keep me around for their flaws that feel silly?” Really hits hards

[@sangeethakannan8838]

It does

[@heidiransom1338]

It really does 😥😭

[@wolfgal-hj3tz]

I relate to that line in my opinion

[@AwwesomlyAwwwetumn]

Yea not overwait or anything Oml 😭😭😭

[@quasarstar-w1v]

I had a stroke reading that

[@meerajosephine9678]

not a plus sized person but this song really hit as a person who once did struggle with body insecurities

[@meganwilson9058]

Same girl I said I relate to this song and I got attacked on her tt coz I’m “skinny” I may not be “fat” but I’m the funny friend who still has body dysmorphia with anxiety and depression and the chorus of this song is exactly how I feel even tho I’m not “fat” but literally every single thing else in this song is so relatable Can’t be too loud, and can’t be too busy If I don’t answer now, are they still gonna need me? Can’t be too proud, and can’t think I’m pretty Do they keep me around, so their flaws just seem silly? This part alone I relate 100%

[@meerajosephine9678]

@@meganwilson9058 this is a thing that happens even if ur body is alright is there's no ideal body shape but this is a thing that happens regardless of it I'm the frnd that keeps cracking jokes to break the ice so that the next joke wonr be me im too loud and im to annoying and infacr all parts of the song connected to me when u grow up with ppl commenting on ur size and behaviours

[@marlenevandermerwe5794]

I'm a bit bigger now, but before I had my baby my mom loved to tell me I looked horrible in clothes that I liked. She also loved to tell me I should loose weigth and that my figure wasn't made for skinny clothes. I look at photos of me then and I wish I had loved myself more, I had been skinny, really skinny. I don't know what she was trying to do to me but I would have been sickly if I was anymore skinny. Now I weigh 78kg and she is loving telling me what I look like and this is all done under the "I care aboit you" lie. So how could I be mad at her😐

[@Lunarhowlz377]

I understand this as I was raised with only plus sized people, all my friends and family were at the time and I felt like I was always the but of the joke, and it was always "oh don't eat that or you'll look like us" or "give me those chips, I need them more than you"

[@tillymorris9748]

Same here, I've had comments like "you still eating" or "you still hungry" but I don't think I'm exactly "fat" I'm middle ig. I just don't like my body at all 🤷‍♀️ I relate to the song other then the plus size parts Xx

[@sailor.09]

I struggle with being insecure of my body. This song just let me know I’m not alone!!

[@ignaciosancheznavarro684]

Yeah, you are not alone. I'm insecure of my body too

[@choromchulkani6710]

Go jim gurl💪

[@AwwesomlyAwwwetumn]

Yur pfp looks pretty if that’s you then you got nothing to worry about and if it’s not then you’re pretty anyways just remember that

[@leigha6130]

Same

[@Somebody_Is_Watching_You_6500]

You’re not alone

[@martabasile4251]

i don’t have body issues, but i’ve grown up perfectly knowing i was the ugly friend. this song is so beautiful and so relatable in an hurting but strangely good way

[@Cat_in_a_Basket718]

i feel you

[@Luci-morningstar--]

So we all the ugly friends??

[@Cat_in_a_Basket718]

@@Luci-morningstar-- excuse, who said that? this person was just trying to relate to a song. they said nothing about you. if you relate too, say that. dont be rude for no good reason

[@Luci-morningstar--]

@Cat_in_a_Basket718 i was just trying to make a light hearted joke but okay...

[@Cat_in_a_Basket718]

@@Luci-morningstar-- sorry, but in what way was that a joke?

[@teresadarji4295]

Literally the tears that I’ve been crying while this song is on repeat are years of holding it all in trying to push it out of mind😭 it’s honestly therapeutic to just be able to cry it out instead of pretending the pain is not there 🥺 I know now that there are so many people out here that feel the same way and that I’m not alone 💕 if anyone actually reads this comment just know I love you and I care for you and you’ll get through it day by day ❤️

[@Firelily517]

Came here to say something like this

[@alessandroaquaro6965]

i love you back and care about you back i read your message and we will get through it all together

[@sleepii_bas1l929]

thank you ❤

[@amykay3318]

Exactly! Thank you

[@elqivx-y3r]

I’ve been crying to this song for 4 times tonight and I hate it so much I don’t understand why I’m fat I’ve tried my hardest but I can’t

[@jwattstudios3618]

as a man with a problem with body insecurities, there isn't much of any body positivity between men. this song has really helped me considering even my closest friends only see my weight.

[@Katie-jv1dn]

'I've done every diet to make me look thinner, so why do I still feel so god damn inferior?' What an incredibly raw and powerful song- every line strikes a chord with me. This is going to be big.

[@lillytheskeleton]

This was the part where the dam broke and I just started crying at 3am...

[@stacimurphy9835]

Me too .. but I still feel this way

[@fesrfesrs6916]

big ahahah

[@st4rry_m00n]

I try to gain weight because I’m skinny and sometimes get bullied for it.

[@aditiiii.shinde]

I’ve never related so much to a song before. Every. Single. Line. Hit me like a truck and I cried a river after ages. Thankyou Maddie, it must not have been easy to put this out here❤

[@Sophthedirectioner]

Same

[@JeanmarieRod]

I wish more people realize how much this song is a reality for so many people

[@celti.core.reverie]

@Robbie Parker so true 😭

[@violetpencil9614]

It might as will be my national anthem for my life

[@horserider_eventer]

​@@violetpencil9614fr

[@stacimurphy9835]

This is literally me right now...

[@Somebody_Is_Watching_You_6500]

@@violetpencil9614FRRRRRRRRRRR

[@Ace-gn8rt]

My Bestfriend just sent me this, we both struggle with loving our figures. We aren't really plus sized people but we both have stomachs. And it hurts knowing how your bestfriend feels especially when you know that even with the long novel paragraphs explaining how beautiful she is. She'll never believe me. No matter how many times I tell her how beautiful she is she'll never believe me. I hope she knows one day just how beautiful she is. She the prettiest girl in the world to me. And I hope one day she'll see that too ♡♡

[@macroni7479]

"Beauty isn't only judged by the outside"- somebody btw you two are lucky to have each other... someday she might believe you 😊

[@KimchiQuokka]

Im pretty sure you need to have stomachs to enjoy food? 🤔. (I still love what you expressed, it was written beautifully.)

[@Justcallmerosa]

@@KimchiQuokkaby stomachs they mean by a belly flap

[@KimchiQuokka]

Yes I understand. I’m Korean and the beauty standards are very difficult to achieve, so I understand what she means. I was just trying to make light of it. I mean food is delicious @@Justcallmerosa

[@ArionnaGarth]

I am like that to and my best friend tells me I’m so gorgeous

[@lesliepadgette48]

My daughter sent me a link to this song. I am 58 years old and sitting here sobbing. Painful memories for sure. Bless her for this song.

[@jasminbagum5393]

😔😊

[@shining_moon440]

Your daughter trusts you alot.... It shows how good of a parent you are 😊

[@ameliadrake-x8n]

@@shining_moon440 frr my mom doesnt know im struggling bcs i dont think i can trust her with it

[@shining_moon440]

@@ameliadrake-x8n I hope you will be better soon....

[@Rivini-un2nk]

Your skin is not paper, Don't cut it Your size is not a book, Don't judge it Your face is not a mask,Don't hide it Your neck is not a coat Don't hang it Your heart is not a door, Don't close it Your life is not a movie please don't end it ❤

[@olivertheking8686]

Ty that means so much to me

[@Saminajohn10]

tht hit hard fr.

[@corine-bo7lz]

lol helpp

[@tristanbastien7915]

A bit late for me for the first one😅

[@legopop249]

That's not true

[@tracebandit4847]

Honestly this song shook me to my core. This is so powerful and relatable. I can’t thank her enough for creating this.

[@tarantulagirl_]

I love Maddie, her songs are relatable and she’s bringing light to issues that we are all struggling with

[@LilGurl12198]

When she said “if I don’t answer now are they still gonna miss me” I felt that!

[@ImaKovers77]

Exactly

[@Duckies_warriors]

@@Ahshsihdsjchiim sorry !! i can be ur friend !! we can chat on here:)

[@ms_fairy_hunter]

Im the plus size friend and so glad i dont have a toxic friendship. My bestie is way skinnier but is always nice. I am so happy :)

[@xzkage]

i’ve felt like this for the past few years so hearing this song makes me both sad and happy. i’m so glad she released it ♥️ i feel like i have to be skinny so i’d fit in, cuz if i’m not everyone will leave me :( the lyrics to this song have so much relation it’s unreal. in love with this song

[@jamiejones9439]

I feel the same

[@kate4582]

Hey:) We'll get through this

[@SG-xy6hf]

Skinny isn’t cute. It’s just a very common misconception.

[@MellowTime674]

Awwwww don't worry we will go through this together I hope everything gets better for you soon may God bless your heart 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰😭😭😭😁😁😁😃😃😃.

[@Joice_M]

It's incredible to see the amount of ppl relating to this song, it makes my heart ache.

[@eveletter]

Are u sure u aren’t having a heart attack?

[@Joice_M]

@@eveletter I hope not TvT

[@yaretzialmanza1109]

I’ve been overweight my whole life. I came out of the womb weighing double than my siblings did when they came out. I was always bigger than my friends. I was bullied so much. I was called fat everyday by my brother. My dad would tell me to not eat. For as long as I can remember, I’ve hated myself because of my body. I hate looking at myself in the mirror because I’m so unhappy with myself. Back in August 2021 I decided I no longer wanted to feel like this. I started a new routine and since then I’ve lost 30 pounds. I don’t feel it. I think no matter how much weight I loose, I’ll always hate myself. No matter how much weight I loose, I’ll always feel like this. This song will always mean so much to me. I’ve never been able to talk to anyone who understands and I’ve never been able to put my feelings into words, but this sound says it all. To anyone reading this, remember you’re not alone. You’re beautiful and perfect in every way!

[@lukacastyellan3882]

you’re beautiful and perfect in every way too

[@elicitsilence]

*sends hugs*

[@cecily8437]

i was the same. from the age 6 ive been through multiple different ed episodes, diet and exercises. i hated how i looked even at my lowest weight, underweight, when i would faint wvery time i got off the bed 70 pounds down my highest weight. My parents didn’t say anything about my health they rather told me I could loose a bit more weight. i thought i was fat. never even wore short sleeves and shorts. Wearing jackets in the summer even at my lowest weight. I gained it all back and repeated that cycle every 2 years. After 4 cycles of that I’m still overweight now and still struggle with body image issues but I love myself more than when I was anorexic. I regret hiding and pushing myself so much. I was a child and a teen. I was beautiful no matter what weight I was in and you are too. Appreciate yourself and your body to cherish the moment of your life. Show it off all you can if you want to and be proud of it. Your body and mindset changes over time but you can’t go back time.

[@veronicayep3265]

You are so beautiful and im so proud of u ❤️

[@tasha1955]

I know how you feel. I've done the same, I had been obese since I was 5 until I was 15, and I've been underweight. It never makes you like yourself anymore, you just get addicted to controlling food. The pain of their judgemental stares will never dull. So please, don't harm your body in this way. It's terrifying to go through. I was my happiest when I was eating well in recovery- yes I felt guilt. But throw the scales away and just eat when your body tells you. Getting into a relationship was the only way out of my disorder, I owe him so much. I probably owe him my life. I was dying, starving to death, my bpm was very low, my hair was falling out, and I was technically infertile because my period hadn't been in 3 years. So please, reconsider and start to love yourself. I know this will never mean much coming from a stranger, I know you probably won't listen until you get that wake-up call one day. But you need to rethink all of this- because after a while it consumes you and you don't really care if you die or not. If you ever wanna just talk about it, I'll gladly give you one of my socials.

[@HomeGame-xc5fy]

2:18 shows all her emotions. ❤

[@salina5715]

Exactly how I’ve felt for these past years. I just want to be skinny so that I can be valid.

[@connorglancy299]

We are valid! We are ?

[@salina5715]

@@connorglancy299 I don’t feel it :,)

[@salina5715]

@Nareya Lebeaux yeah! I mean, I still remember being younger and watching tv on a kids channel and commercials about weight loss and being fit and in shape and strong would always pop up. It made me think that it was the only thing that would declare me beautiful. It’s still all I see these days. Everything now has to deal with weight and being fit. If you’re not fit, you don’t fit in. That’s basically all it is now, and it sucks. The poor young girls that are already starving themselves because they don’t look like what our screens show. :(

[@salina5715]

@Nareya Lebeaux seriously! They do! They need to start showing more people that have different bodies. Large hips, wide ribs. Average weight, overweight, obese. We need to normalize all bodies, and show them off more! It’s the only way that’ll help get rid of the idea that the only way to be healthy is to be skinny. We can be overweight and healthy too. Some people have it in their genes, or they have thyroid problems, slow metabolism, etc. We have to normalize it and show off “abnormal” bodies more.

[@stargirl3459]

I literally force feed my self to be fatter 🥲

[@justagirl0912]

I feel this all the time. This isn’t just a song it’s an emotion.

[@mads1033]

I may not have ever been "big" but ive struggled with my body imagine since i was a little kid. I used to think no one ever felt this way and this song and the people who relate to it (no matter their size, you can relate to this song even if you are skinny) made me realize that i wasnt alone. I wish i could personally thank maddie for making me realize im not alone in this big lonely world.

[@meganwilson9058]

Literally if your fat or skinny it doesn’t matter anybody can relate even if you can only relate to one line that’s still enough like I relate to the whole song even tho I’m not “fat” I’m still the funny one and still have body dysmorphia and I especially relate to the chorus Can’t be too loud, and can’t be too busy If I don’t answer now, are they still gonna need me? Can’t be too proud, and can’t think I’m pretty Do they keep me around, so their flaws just seem silly?

[@chloeaustin989]

This song I just heard but it really is relatable I've been bullied for my weight all my life

[@gem2023]

This

[@lotustys8565]

I can relate. Having to see all those people who are drop dead gorgeous make me feel insecure. It gotten so severe that I can’t even look at people in the eyes anymore, and it really hurts. Looking at the mirror every 10 minutes, this had meddled with my social life and how I think about myself. I always thought everyone changed and blame them for it, but in reality it was me who changed. Having to isolate myself because I thought it would be awkward to stand next to someone who I thought looked “ normal “ because I consider myself to not look normal, seeing everyone but me that looked normal. Im still experiencing it as a very young teenager, but I’m trying to get better. And your right, your not alone. No one is.

[@phoebsinebo872]

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[@briannabrooks8964]

After listening to this song i realized my ex bestfriends only used me to hide their flaws with my ugliness

[@swathysatheesh31]

I cried hearing this. I have always been trying so hard to fit into the places like this. I often think if i don't crack jokes or start initiating talking no one would talk to me or be friends with me. I realised something even though i tried hard no one is there for me. I feel alone broken for many reasons. Hope whoever reads this and finds this relatable be happy in your life. You will be ❤️. From a fellow fat funny girl 🥺

[@SimplyLovely353]

Holy freaking crap my jaw was dropped this whole entire song

[@sabrinarich5384]

Found her on TikTok , I've patiently WAITED for this to be released , and for anyone who qualifies as " skinny " or " not fat " we also have permission to use this .. as it's for body dismorphia awareness and not just for overweight people ( although that's what's in the song ) she gave us permission .. I love her . & We all deserve better .

[@unseriousaah]

use the term plus size, not overweight 👍

[@madiwojcik5070]

It’s not for overweight people it’s for people who are insecure about their weight. it’s not for a certain size range. don’t use overweight it’s very rude.

[@sabrinarich5384]

There is a difference in plus size and overweight .. just so y'all know . I have family who is overweight and they are all fine with the terms . Welcome to the real world , at least I didn't refer to them as fat people .. I was being kind , not rude .

[@unseriousaah]

@@sabrinarich5384 that’s not a valid reason. just because some people are okay with the term overweight doesn’t mean that all people are. plus size is a more polite way to say overweight and fat all together. if someone walked up to you and said “you’re overweight” you’d think you’re not a normal weight. you’re OVERweight. that’s why the whole term is so rude. either call it plus size or don’t comment on it at all.

[@sabrinarich5384]

Well I did , and I will if I please to . People these days are literally offended by any and everything .

[@chuckhatfield9415]

Guys struggle with this as well. I'm that guy, that sibling. I'm not the one on speed dial, I'm the last resort. Always.

[@YourNightmare983]

"I have to be nice or I'll be the next punchline" really stood out to me because at my school you can't stand up for yourself or anything and if you try to, you get make fun of.

[@ashah803]

Wow, I have been struggling with eating disorders and body issues and they have been getting worse recently. I just found this song and it is so relatable. I just want to be happy in my body, I try so hard to seem okay but its hard to believe your beautiful when your plus size and that all pepole see you as.

[@rasberrypudding6913]

Absolutely in love with this song. I’ve always been the friend they keep around to make themselves feel better. I’d hear them talking and laughing behind my back. They’d compare themselves to me, their nose, their size, everything. I once brought a few “friends” with me dress shopping. I loved how a dress looked on me and I said it made me look pretty. The mood was ruined when they pointed out the flaws and laughed with each other about it.

[@Alaaalyan562]

I hate the fact that i relate

[@ashtonrice7352]

IM SO GLAD SHE RELEASED! SHE IS INCREDIBLE ANS HELPING SO MANY! ❤️

[@They_luv_th]

All my friends say that they are ugly but whenever I look at them all I see is beauty and that is the exact opposite of what I see in myself.

[@debzmuzza]

Even when I've been honest with my " normal " sized friends about feeling this way. They have said I'm imagining it. I have never felt more heard, seen or valued. Incredibly powerful song ♡

[@clovernook9082]

I legit can NOT listen to this song without crying every damn time...I feel this in my soul.

[@emsreaper5374]

Didn’t realize the emotional impact of this song until I actually listened to it in full for the first time. Struggled for so much of my life with my body. My mom has always told me to suck in my stomach to help with my posture. She’s even gotten me spanx to help with my tummy. I know she has good intentions but thinking about it now, I have been hiding my body my entire life…only in the past few years did I start wearing tank tops because I felt too fat to wear them. Just a lot of feelings and things that have happened to me over the years are now being linked back to my body size…

[@azimentayethomas-harding6929]

I think what makes this song hit so hard for me is this something I feel from my family and my wife. Always telling me to not be “sensitive”. But in reality I’m tired.

[@Cherryheartoffical]

I never understand why singers don’t want to release personal songs like this. It could help others because no one really is ever alone. But as a singer, now I understand why singers don’t release songs. But I’m glad Maddie released this song.

[@alexhutchinson3374]

Ive always struggled with my "self confidence" im not fat, but im not skinny either. Im always told "you should eat more" and at the same time im being told that i could "stand to loose some weight" and asked "are you sure you should eat that" which never helps and hurts me more than before. Her verse of "Ive drawn out in sharpie where id take the scissors" is so relatable because i wish i could look like the models on tv and i wish i could be skinny, i lost 60lb in less than a month wanting that look, then i get told that i look sick and need to eat, so thats what i did, and i put some weight back on but not in an unhealthy way, it took me 3 years but im finally back at a healthy weight and was feeling ok with myself until my grandmother bought me a pair of pants that didnt fit and she blamed it on the fact that i was eating too much... it hurts, especially coming from family, but thankfully i have friends who are always there for me

[@delilahsantacruz2543]

I didn’t know I needed this song in my life until you came along and wrote a song filled with everything I’ve ever felt growing up since I was in 1st grade! Thank you!

[@lifeisgood7967]

I've been overweight for my entire life and everything in this song is how I feel. I've constantly been told to lose weight and be better even though I've tried my absolute hardest. I feel so insecure about myself. This song makes me happy to know that someone else realizes the pain people who are overweight go though everyday.

[@connorslibrarycorner4996]

So many lines hit me in this and speak to me. "I have to be nice, or I'll be the next punchline" "can't be too busy if I don't answer now are they still gonna need me" "it's funny when I'm the one who says let's go to Eat" These hit me because I have felt all of these and the feeling of longing to be wanted without the thought that one wrong move and you're disposable because you look "disgusting"... This song speaks to so many people clearly from the comments and it's beautiful and sad to know that we're not alone in these feelings

[@Ahshsihdsjchi]

I relate of such a painful level! Sometimes my friends text me in the middle of the night and even when I'm about to go to sleep I text them. Sometimes I complain that I was trying to sleep, and they ask why I Don't put my phone on silent. Truth is, I do this intentionally- Because If they text me in the middle of the night, fine! I'll answer them! I'll joke for them! I'll entertain them when they're bored! Because I live in another country, and even if I don't say it, I miss them. I care for them so much. But I'm the jokester in the group, the one that never takes things seriously- even if I do, I'm helping others then. And along with that, I'm insecure about my weight. If I don't answer now, are they still going to miss me? Life of the fat, funny, friend.

[@Savannah-qb4bb]

I relate to you both so much. It's about my acne though. It has affected my life to the point where I would refuse to go places, talk to people, or leave the house, simply because I was so insecure. It's painful both physically and mentally. Plus, you'd think people wouldn't mention it, right? They do. I don't know why, but they do. And they also mention when I try to hide it by slightly turning my head. I feel trapped and all I want is someone who can relate to what I go through with acne. That's all.

[@SalmaHakimi-i4b]

Was feeling confident for few days and one sentence was enough for me to relapse and come back here lollll

[@piscean9768]

yeaaah. my mom just called me ‘wide’ 😂😂 it shattered me 😂😂

[@Valdez_SonOfHephestus]

Not plus sized, I've actually had the exact opposite problem with being too skinny. I used to be extremely underweight and am still trying to gain weight today. But I struggle with trying to gain weight(by eating more food) because I'm picky, born underweight, high metabolism, and I've always had a terrible eating schedule and sometimes I just don't eat at all which isn't healthy for anyone. But the line, "if I don't answer now are they still gonna need me?" Hit me hard man, I felt that

[@mha_fan-ee8gd]

I'm so thankful that she created this. I have really never found a song that matched exactly how i feel inside. I have tried every diet and finally i found something that is helping me lose weight. After years of trying I've finally lost my first 6 lbs and this song just puts the struggles into words i couldn't say before as whenever i did i was put down. Thank you once again

[@lastneost4nding]

i’m quite literally the opposite of this song. i’m extremely underweight (recovering from anorexia nervosa) but during the worst of it, i always looked at how my stomach pushed out a lot but all of my limbs were super thin. it took about 2 years to realize that everyone has a bit of a gut especially when you have a wide build but a couple of months ago i wanted to just cut of 2-3 inches of my stomach. to all of the plus sized people out there, you are loved i swear! don’t feel bad about yourself because you aren’t alone. just by looking at the comments i can see there are plenty of people who are going through the same thing you are and i swear things will get better soon! keep your heads up:)

[@Axt.Artist]

Having dealt with anorexia in my early teenage years, this hurts. It's beautiful.

[@chanterelledesign8310]

I was in my late teens/early 20s. 🥺

[@Axt.Artist]

@@chanterelledesign8310 Sometimes it still bothers me- like sometimes I'm weary of food and how much I eat again even now in my 20s. But I usually listen to music to express the emotions and I feel better after.

[@Mia._.chen04]

‘If I don’t answer now will they still need me? ‘ ‘do they keep me around so their flaws just seem silly.?’ I felt that. I felt that hard.

[@SnowSkiArtistRunner]

Me too, you aren't alone! You are amazing!

[@jeannewallace7590]

This was my life. This song makes me cry at 61 years old.

[@BellaMounts]

This song has helped me through so incredibly much. This song feels like it was made from my life. To know there are other people out there that feel the same way, is everything. We are all beautiful, thick, fat, skinny, healthy, or sick. Whatever you look like you are beautiful and you are enough. I mean it. So stick around a little longer beautiful, it will pay off.

[@SnowSkiArtistRunner]

I really needed this comment, thank you.

[@warewolf2697]

I might not be a girl, but as somebody who struggled with my being overweight, then bulimia, then anorexia, I feel this song. It took me so long to break free from the self hate and while I’m not always proud of myself, it’s part of who I was and who I am. So this song speaks to me, and even now when I’ve lost weight, got some muscle, and have friends, I still feel the same way sometimes

[@mochilovemocha]

I’m just crying at this point this touched my heart😭😭😭

[@no-408]

"I've drawn out in sharpie where I'd take the scissors. if that's what it took for me to look in the mirror." as someone struggling from anorexia.. I felt that. I'm not plus sized but I understand.

[@dancingcat5488]

[@panfeather908]

I wish you peace with your body ❤️

[@blueturtle3623]

Its amazing how there are some lines in this you need to live to be able to understand. Like the Halloween one, if you have body image issues you still relate to this song but this line is truly there for the fat funny friend.

[@tiredwill]

this song is so relatable, it practically explains my entire life. I've struggled my entire life with my size and weight. I've been bullied so much for it that I can't go outside most of the time. my friends laugh at me when I buy crisps or sweets when we go out not knowing I barely eat 1 meal a day. maddie is unbelievably amazing for releasing this song; everything I was too afraid to say ❤️

[@lukacastyellan3882]

bro you can’t eat one meal a day thats not healthy , like take care of yourself, if you wanna lose weight do it in a healthy way.

[@VBSarah]

Just heard this song for the first time. And wow did it hit me hard. I’m so insecure about my body and have been really feeling down lately. This song made me realize that I’m not alone.

[@chryswarren8391]

The fact that this song made me cry with how much I understand it

[@Hadera41]

"im just the best friend", that hit me. I'm in a group of five friends the other four have a best friend in the group so I'm the odd one out. I only get talked to when I initiate conversation so I normally just end up sitting quietly when I'm with them, but I don't wanna leave them because I'm scared of loosing them.

[@justjudy39]

I've never felt a song so deep in my soul. Thank you so much for voicing my feelings so perfectly. ❤

[@TrueCr1meFanat1c]

This song always hits me hard. I’m skinny, I’m at the point where im almost, just on the cusp of being unhealthy (as in I don’t wear certain clothes bc if I do you see my ribs). Not bc I’m not fed. But bc my sister about a year or so ago thought it would be funny to comment on the fact I ate a lot during a time when I was massively growing so I needed to eat. I stopped having breakfast, eating enough lunch and barely touched my dinner. She stopped and then I (it took a good 6 months after she stopped) started to eat more, I’m just starting to eat all three meals. It takes a lot for me to be comfortable doing that. And then today she asked why I eat so much. I’m still just barely eating enough to keep me from passing out and just enough to give me good energy and make me not loose any more weight. And she just screwed me over. She literally called me fat. The one person who I can talk to this about who actually makes me feel better isn’t responding to my text. Idk if they’re sleeping or busy or what but (usually they say goodnight so that’s why I’m confused) that’s why I’m telling random strangers this bc I need to cry and tell someone. Even if they don’t reply to this or like the comment. I just need to say it.. type it so I can feel at least a tiny bit better.

[@kellymcintyre7512]

I'm so sorry this happened, family should bring you up not drag you down 😢, I'll keep you in my prayers, I hope you eat as much as you want, eat a whole truck load of tacos if you want you deserve it❤❤❤

[@rachaelvlogs4068]

It's sad after listening to this song, because I had that one friend group, who basically kept me around for the jokes, and to basically feel like they were doing something right for asking me to be around, guys who were in the group basically ignored me. My ex main friend, just used me for my kindness.. so yeah I cried hearing these lyrics, because it was exactly how I felt being in that group.

[@lukacastyellan3882]

i hope things get better for you, and i hope you find better friends who actually deserve you

[@nagarajtiruttani7386]

Hope you know people will always support you

[@tfashfr]

Dealing with body insecurities but having friends who reassure ur enough genuinely is a blessing

[@mal_thespygirl]

Fun Fact: At 2:20 it’s actually from another version she did of this song, I believe it’s the acoustic version if y’all wanna try to find it

[@AmyHeppeard-sq8uz]

Can’t be to loud can’t be to busy hits hard.

[@samantha3426]

there should be more likes on this song. FR she described everything i feel every day... whether its at work, with friends, or out on public around strangers. I've struggled loving myself. its sad world where you hate your own body....and everyone hates it too or they fetishize it.

[@T0x1cDr4G0nS]

"Drawn out in sharpie where id put the scissors" hit too deep in 2 ways, self harm and surgery

[@chaoticconjuring]

Very powerful and very beautiful! I can absolutely relate and my heart breaks for anyone else that can as well. You are beautiful, you are loved, you are enough, and most importantly you are irreplaceable 💜💜💜💜

[@A11y_way749]

“Dresses, and thigh highs, while I hide my body” GOD DANG THAT HIT CLOSE TO HOME

[@archieman68]

This song just hits different when you overweight, queer and non-binary. What I would do to not be just the "lesbian" friend to not be called an "it" when I ask people to not call me she/her. What I would do to be a skinny flat chested person. I'm tall, fat, and hairy and I'm so tired of performing femininity. I don't want to shave my legs, my arms, my stomach. I don't like "girly" and "traditional" makeup. I just want to be respected as me.

[@AnnGarcia-ce4vq]

Same, I wish I could be a mermaid, but I'm a manatee ☹️

[@hamilton6142]

Same 💗

[@Onyx_xoxox]

@@AnnGarcia-ce4vq I just searched up what a manatee is and it’s actually so cute omg

[@ControlAltDella]

@@AnnGarcia-ce4vqat least you’re in the water and splashing around with the other mermaids. I’m the big, fat elephant that’s sitting on land wishing I was a manatee ❤

[@aundreamichellevelasco]

"Do they keep me around so their flaws just seem silly?" You as the funny friend on that one circle of friend.

[@ty7802]

This song hits hard. I can’t go one day without thinking people are looking at me.This song makes me feel like i’m not alone.

[@kenziemorace2837]

I can’t listen to this song without immediately balling And I mean hysterically bawling I have felt this way for years even when I was skinny hated my body and self . And now that I’m on the bigger side it’s even worse , I still feel the same way struggle to like myself and my body spot on how I constantly fell about my self

[@Cameryn-vm1wp]

i’ve never been plus size( no hate please) but i’ve always been insecure about how skinny i was. i ate so much but i never gained anything from it. i’m 12 and only weigh 85ish pounds. i still eat a lot and i’m still skinny. but i am a very active person but even when i was little i’ve always been skinny. there is absolutely nothing wrong with how your body is shaped or built, you are beautiful. that’s what i tell myself. i wish others would start saying the same thing. but me not being a plus size, this song hit so hard. it’s also normal that i’m not a plus size for my age but this song did hit hard and i’ve always felt insecure about my body especially because i have a flat rear end and flat chest so i do get made fun of.

[@carolynroberts3163]

"I've drawn out in sharpie where I'll take the scissors" that hit hard. I really felt that

[@katherine-ok3jn]

the fact that ive done it so many times

[@unicornfartboi5292]

I can’t believe how emotional a single song or line can make a person.people always shamed me for being to skinny or flat it’s not the same as this but the hurting still stings and this song is that and I just love this song for that💕

[@isuriudani-e2q]

"It's funny when I think a guy likes me" tear started to flaw down so badly after that line.YES!!! IT'S FUNNY TO THINK LIKE THAT🙂👍

[@madsmadsmads200]

My name is Maddie. I feel the exact same way as she did while writing this song. This is a masterpiece and this has the most emotion that I've ever heard.

[@basstfestivalvlogs7684]

I love this song so much always feel this way at work not about weight but still

[@jemhiki]

This song sums everything about me. I loved people but I couldn't love myself. I loved people's parts but I hated mine. I went and lose some weight and then gained it all over again. It was a never-ending cycle. I have been crying listening to this, it hurts that it's so accurate, it felt like the Maddie knew who I am.

[@Olivia-Mae-o3j]

The song explain my life and friendships it really hit hard

[@ChillOnly]

Wow this song is such a real emotional song, such a powerful song!

[@Asbraceletsandco]

This song hits hard as someone who is struggling with self harm

[@lanaparadise27]

The pain in her voice when she says "they cant relate to how I've" ❤

[@meilanhagt4989]

This song makes me cry so much, it’s so relatable. Thank you so much Maddie 💜💜

[@karsynjohnson343]

I've been waiting for this song for a minute! It's amazing ! It really let's you know you aren't alone in how you feel.

[@lilyannwilliams515]

This feels so relatable as I am usually the funny, lively and happy friend but I do have insecurities that I don't talk about. ❤😢

[@reaper07live]

12 year old me really needed this song and 32 year old me says thank you so much for this

[@marcrendelldelmundo475]

To whoever created this song thank you so much!

[@krissybrown2588]

I finally feel like someone eloquently explained what I've been feeling my whole. damn. life.

[@meeadraws5439]

This reminds me of when i was younger i would watch highschool movies and notice that the only person in the main cast that looked anything like me was the fat best friend who was the comedic relief and just feeling like that was how it would be like, people poking fun at my weight, that i'd be just comedic relief for everyone else. I was 11 and struggled seeing myself as anything past my weight and just hoping that wasn't the thing people noticed first. And whenever anyone complimented me for my looks it felt wrong that anyone saw me as desirable, because as a kid those movies made me think people wouldn't do that. Movies like that really broke down how id seen myself. It took a long time for me to break that mindset but I can confidently say i think i look nice now without caring what other people may think. It can and will get better.

[@geyan_girl]

Its amazing to hear songs that best describe how you feel. I relate to this so much, so much that it felt both happy and sad. Happy that someone knows what it felt and sad how people can make you feel inferior. If I could give these people a hug and let them know their not alone and that they are perfect and beautiful, I would do it. No one is allowed to belittle us just because we don't fit their standards. Were not born to impress them, nor to please them.

[@lisa-kr2fo]

Uuhmm it's been a year since this song was out and I still hear it and as if it's dedicated to the world we are in today and always but it hurts alot 😭😭😭😔

[@damalizguerrero1543]

I’ve felt like this since I was little and when I heard the snipped of this song I cried my heart out Bc I never found a song that said exactly want I was feeling until now. I never knew people felt out of place just like me. I’m 19 now and still feeling the same was which sucks but I’m glad she released this song ❤️ she is so talented!!!

[@DerriyahJenkins-f6p]

This song was so relatable 2 years ago. I’ve grown to be confident. I hope the creator and everyone reading this comment makes peace with their body.

[@hannahfaith4962]

“Drawn out in sharpie where I’d take the scissors, if that’s what it took for me to look in the mirror, I’ve done every diet to make me look thinner, so why do I still feel so goddamn Inferior” that part man. I have always been the “funny friend” in my groups, the one that always stood on the sides and watched my friends get all the guys I wished I could have, the bodies I cried for. Everything about them I loved but it irked me because I wished so badly for me to be like them. They were effortlessly skinny, didn’t need makeup to be pretty and god their personalities made me want to scream because I knew I could never be like them. This song hits so close to home, god damn.

[@char5657]

I’m going through the exact same thing, they’re all so skinny my mind has changed my curves into looking fat. I’m the only one in my friend group who hasn’t had a love interest, let alone a crush. I’m glad to know there’s others out there that understand, you’re not alone

[@char5657]

(Also if that’s you on your pfp, your hair is wicked pretty!