First Time Hearing The Devil In I by Slipknot | Suicide Survivor Reacts

[@MentalAmanda]

💖No matter where you are in your journey, you have a safe place here to share your struggles and accomplishments without judgment, but please make sure you are having that same respect and non-judgment for others too. This is how we shatter the mental health stigma.💖 Follow/say hi on IG (@mentalamanda) and if you need some direction and would like me to be your Happiness teacher, you can sign up for my Happiness Boost course here: amandawebsterhealth.com/happiness-boost/

[@khrosentoshiro2711]

:D

[@Naugrim1]

hi Amanda. i'm so sry that i'm rarely on the live streams. Rly busy with work, therapy (i have now a therapist), taking my meds and so on. Just wanted u know, that i'm still alive and hanging on.

[@Shawn-mo6dh]

My boyfriend loves this band i don't I'm listening for him, id do anything for my love. I love Metallica and he doesn't. But he listens to them he does it for me.. we both love your reactions and have both delt with our mental health. And you make us feel better about us. So thank you for being you ❤️🌈

[@91GT347]

Oh no. Lol Love this song. One of my favorite SN tracks. Waiting on the video reaction. Lol ❤

[@greyebell7526]

Found your channel a while back and forgot to click reply. Came back again today, haven't watched the video at the time of typing this, but I recall you always saying "trying to destroy the stigma of mental health" or something along those lines. In this aspect, there's a few songs that I believe you should listen to, that directly talk about dealing with mental health issues and the struggle of trying to cut away everything in your life that brought you to the point of suicide, and trying to turn away from coping with depression via drugs. I've listened to this specific artists songs and as someone who has been struggling with mental health issues outside of the addiction portion, they really hit the feels and I would like your take on them. Rivilin is the artist name if I can remember correctly. Doubt you'll read this but worth trying to reach out anyways. Imma go watch your video now

[@HarleyPaynter]

Im in the hospital right now withdrawing from alcohol because i drank heavily for 8 years ever since my daughter passed away. I finally decided to change and its been hell but im on day 3 and im getting on antidepressants and anxiety meds so i dont have to feel like i need to drink anymore. My daughter wouldnt want me to be this way, drinking myself to death. Im not your devil anymore...

[@Blackdog06019]

I lost a very dear friend to alcohol years ago. She was actively going thru AA when she passed, and I wish to this day that I could have told her that I was proud of her for trying sober up. So if no one else has told you yet.. I am proud of you for sobering up!! And you have got this!❤ ❤

[@1320crusier]

Live the life she would have wanted for you no matter how old she was. Kick that addiction, you deserve to be on this earth.

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm so proud of you and so very sorry for your loss.

[@krisdavis3888]

Congrats on detoxing and making a change,bi know from experience how truly difficult that withdrawal can be but stay strong and it will all be worth it

[@WafleEnterprises]

I am extremely glad that you made that choice, and I hope and will put you in my prayers to have the Lord strengthen you to power through the withdrawal process! One recommendation is not to necessarily stay on those anxiety and antidepressant medications, they’re not proven to help much if at all while also risking side effects for a negligible benefit. Your best cure is family and close personal friends who are willing to be by your side and let you just vent, communicate and get it all off your chest. No man (or woman) is an island, we are social and spiritual beings and need those important communal connections more than anything. I’m so, so sorry for your loss.

[@SeanM375]

Always love peoples facial expressions when watching this!

[@mbochum83]

Yes, the masks typically change for each album and are designed by each member (some are similar to previous versions). In the video, the members in white jumpsuits were wearing their previous masks and representing their past selves. They actually picked what would happen to them in the video (one member had a great fear of birds so requested he be pecked to death. The DJ chose to be eating his own fingers, the most important thing he needs to perform). "Basically, this video is about finding past devils, past things - becoming one with it and then doing away with it.' - Shawn Crahan (percussionist/video director)

[@ElMrBlack]

btw they made this song (and whole album) Paul Gray, cofounder, passed away so it's all about dealing with grief

[@SteveCoronado2]

Fun fact: this video is about the fear of dying each band member has. So what you saw was their own fear on display hence “The Devil In I”🤘🏻💥🔥🙏🏻💯

[@comradeautismo]

Not all of them, Chris and Sid are really the only ones where a fear is applied; Chris is afraid of birds and Sid ate his fingers which are important to him for performing.

[@everyonelovesmajima]

Craig’s afraid of dogs, Mick’s fear was not being attractive to his wife any more. Corey and Jim are afraid of explosions.

[@glahtiguy]

@@everyonelovesmajima Corey's was more about succumbing to 'lead singer disease' and his big head (ego) being his undoing.

[@bigeasy_f150]

subscribed, you are one of the only reactors that realy pay attention to ALL the lyrics instead of hitting the high spots and posting a video

[@darkhalf81]

"The Devil In I" to me as an avid Slipknot Fan closely ties with "Wait in Bleed" veers menacingly into a chaotic beautiful swirl of madness yet convey very deep thoughts and meaning once you understand what it stood for.

[@ericd7881]

When you repress things they don't come out gently...beyond true! Love that you reacted to this song, and great feedback! The track title is what I picked several years ago for a license plate I have. It speaks more to me than just being a vanity plate to go with a vehicle. Keep up the awesome reactions/messages 🤘

[@eduardoafonso4537]

Hi Amanda! I’m from Brazil and I just wanted to take a moment to say how much I appreciate your work. Your content is incredibly insightful and has been really helpful to me. Thank you for sharing your knowledge and positivity with the world. Keep up the amazing work! Best regards, Eduardo.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you!

[@daveethridge7342]

I still struggle with my negative aggressive side. I cope with my voice. I have developed a voice like thunder. I've been practicing for 40 years. I'm lucky that people have learned that I'm a teddy bear 🧸 that ROARS 🐻 I have felt forced to use discipline and restraint, because I know. The only arms I carry is my left and my right. I've learned the power of my voice and words. Sometimes the cage gets a little weak. The Beast in me.

[@distracting_games]

One of the things i love about Slipknot, is when you listen to them, you realize you're not alone, and that there's someone who understands how you feel. In spite of the aggressive music, it is also oddly calming and soothing.

[@kenbuck4962]

this song was made after one member died of overdose!!!! It is a compilation of all the members personal fears.. THE DEVIL IN I??? THE POWER TO KILL YOURLELF?

[@dancing_odie]

I quit weed and drinking about a month ago. I was always high and drunk every moment I wasn't at work or with my family. I'm single with no kids so by family I mean brothers, sisters and parents. I spent most of my time outside of work alone so I was rarely sober except at work. Its strange to always be sober.

[@maldad9073]

It grows on you over time. My only vice is weed, and honestly not more than a few rips in the evening after dinner, but once a year I have a drug test so I go on a three month break to insure that I pass with no problem, and the clarity is quite noticeable and enjoyable. Stay strong, the benefits are well worth it!

[@MentalAmanda]

Proud of you!

[@craigarmstrong2117]

Rip Paul and Joey. Great song.

[@slate613]

There's a line in "Unsainted" that I'm doing my best to achieve. "I'm finally holding on to letting go." Lost my Mom July '22, still dealing with some of the fallout in different ways. Never really completely broke down over it since I'd been caring for her since 2010 and, sadly, watched it happen slowly over 12 years.

[@MentalAmanda]

My dad was terminal and died slowly while my mom was sudden. They both hit so differently. Feel free to share your memories of her so we can help keep her energy alive.

[@victorramsey5575]

Hey pretty lady! We always enjoy your videos, you're fun. And when I say we, Im referring to myself and the voices in my head. Dont worry, they're harmless, and I can shut them up with my guitar rig and sometimes cookies. Rock On, Beautiful! Sadly, this song is about when bassist Paul Grey od'd and passed away. The band believed he was clean and they felt betrayed. And, learned they are not his devil, and the guilt is not theirs to bear.

[@wadebuchan1713]

I just came across your wrong side of heaven reaction. It was great and I agree 100%. I looked through your videos and found your deadwood video. Its called strawberry hill where you decided to set your parents free. Been there many times and a great choice. I grew up south of there in hill city and custer. I'm going to go back and set my parents free also. Covid took them both about 4 months apart. 😢

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you so much for letting me know! Hope our parents ride free together!

[@davidphillips9726]

Love this channel so much. Been living in survival mode since I was 7. I'm 44 and I'm so fn exhausted every day. So emotionally drained that I don't even know who I am anymore

[@MentalAmanda]

People don't talk enough about the physical exhaustion that comes from depression!

[@davidphillips9726]

@MentalAmanda I just lost my job too. Idk wtf I'm going to do now. Sometimes I long for the sweet release of death

[@MentalAmanda]

It sounds like you're going through an incredibly tough time, and I'm really sorry to hear about the loss of your job. It's completely normal to feel overwhelmed and uncertain in a situation like this. It might be helpful to take things one step at a time, focusing on small actions you can take to navigate this challenging period. Whether it's reaching out to your network for job opportunities, updating your resume, exploring new skills or interests, or simply taking care of yourself emotionally, know that there are resources and people who care about you and want to see you through this difficult time. If you ever need someone to talk to or support, please don't hesitate to reach out on IG @mentalamanda.You're not alone.

[@Rob_Infinity3]

6:55 - I knew you were going to pause there! 😂

[@dronghar5751]

Every one of them changes his mask whenever he feels like making a new one.This video is partially about that,you can see the older version of them selfes(with the older masks) killing them selfes while the new versions are coming to life with this new song by playing it with the new masks on, for example you can see the old Corey blowing himself up at 9:25 but when you see him singing at 2:15 he has the new mask.Btw i found your channel maybe a year ago or more but i tottally forgot about that, because i don't have much time to watch youtube,but thankfully youtube suggested me this video at the right time,today it was kinda needed to listen your words

[@slate613]

I feel like James, Mick, and I believe Craig, have gotten to a point in their lives where they're basically good seeing as they have only modified their masks slightly over the last few albums. I do love how James altered his to fit his beard. lol

[@osamaqtaitat]

Why don’t you have time?

[@slate613]

@eriksand9262 Yeah. . .

[@satanonfire666]

love yur reaction love this song / video is awesome to

[@rickyharlow8596]

Hey Amanda I haven't been around much lately I got the notification for this and decided to watch let me just say generally I am willing to put people ahead of myself and taking the abuse usually pushing it down and that kinda feeding the devilish part of me making it stronger and have a lot going on I lost my best friend almost a year ago and have another dear friend holding on by a thread while dealing with a narcissistic child who goes out of their way to put me down so guess what I'm trying to say is I fear the beast is now fighting to emerge from the darkness

[@MentalAmanda]

Our shadows/demons/beasts DO emerge from time to time. You can see my recent experience in my new vlog. Sometimes we backslide before we can move forward.

[@khrosentoshiro2711]

Idk why, but Slipknot makes me feel nice and fuzzy inside 😂 It's just something about the instrumentals. But they have amazing music.

[@osamaqtaitat]

This song has great melodies, riffs and phrasings! Maybe their best in that regard, and it’s the best in general for me!

[@MrStlcards69]

I feel like the devil and this video is crazy ! Love you reactions ❤ I’m the devil and I

[@davidgaps6589]

I’ll always be there. Especially when there is a cute blonde reacting to Slipknot!!!!!

[@Dani-X01]

lot of people misunderstood the deep message behind this song with the "gore" visuals and that's happened with many of their videos as well but they don't pay attention to the lirics actually hope you could react to gojira "stranded" some day have a good week Amanda.

[@walterradtke2421]

I really love reaction videos. They make me happy. And, every since I first watched one of your reaction videos, Amanda = you have hands down been my favorite to watch. Something about your whole energy, vibe and, authenticity Sings directly to my heart. Thank you.

[@brukswings]

We still waiting to Breaking Benjamin - Torn in Two reaction👍

[@gavinphillips9628]

Brave lady.

[@garyzigler452]

I listen to Slipknot on occasion. I've always enjoyed their music. Their masks are crazy and creepy. ❤. Thank you so much for your interpretation. Love you Amanda ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@christianwingrove5229]

Yes and they Owasso have a masc on

[@trevorhogen7761]

Survival mode. Now that is a place I call home. My messed up childhood is to blame for that. I'm have a big distain for people now because of it.

[@MentalAmanda]

I can relate to this, though it's more my messed up teens and twenties.

[@PeterTaylor-n5i]

Try the song seasons in the sun by Terry Jack's no 1in us and UK in 70s

[@Proranis]

this song is so fucking good

[@christophermollan1684]

This is about the band members individual fears i.e. dogs, birds !!!!

[@ve6975]

U HAVE TO DO NIRVANA!!! you know youre right (more of a mental health song i would say. lyrics are closely related to kurt cobains "unaliving" or where di you sleep last night (the greatest moment in music history that will bring tears to anyone)

[@mezmerized4lifejay654]

I love your Mariah videos 😊❤ Can you react to Mariah’s “Through The Rain” music video. It’s incredible like Hero & her parents story 🙏🏼

[@hakankinnunen3270]

Ett annat tips är kolla in historien om slipknot på yt!!!!!! Otroligt intressant.

[@Kittyguirl]

Can you do a video of reacting to wish I could cry by citizen soilder?

[@dogden79]

You definitely should react to Jinjer Pisces live

[@SomeDudeWhoDoesStuff]

I think the song is either how the band members want to die or what way they fear they will die in

[@CoreyWickramasekera]

This is a PRETTY INTENSE VIDEO, especially for you

[@terrybusch5088]

THe madness is really what it is about. THe fine line between depression and submission to knowing that you really have no worth at all.

[@tinplatedave]

I love this song and I always have. They're saying that they understand themselves and are showing it to the world. The same that they've always have and I think you are very focused on your own state of mind which is trying to help people, and that's great. I think the reason you are so offended by this video is that it completely contradicts your expectations and beliefs. But that doesn't mean it's a bad thing, just another thing to think about. In other words they are sending a message here that you need to be empathetic of the things they are saying instead of being judgmental and thinking they are fucked up. I. e. Just be nice to people as long as they have a message that's worth hearing and try to get something good out of it.

[@roygarrett1663]

This is one of me and my sons favorite songs. He was murdered shortly after this song was released. Shot it the back of the head by his father in law. Over a fucking Cell Phone.

[@MentalAmanda]

That’s an unimaginable loss, and I can’t even begin to express how deeply tragic that is. It must be incredibly hard to connect with that song now, given what happened. If you ever want to share more about him or how you’re feeling, I’m here to listen.

[@JeremyMiller-sn6nh]

This song resonates some of the grief Corey Taylor was battling from Paul Gray's death a band member and very close friend. Rest in Peace Paul Gray

[@osamaqtaitat]

Is it about facing some of our fears!? Idk really what’s it about exactly, maybe many interpretations! But i like it!

[@Bacondive]

Gotta react to Killswitch Engage "I Am Broken Too"

[@ThrillhoWiggum]

Please do Forgotten Souls by Mother Mother

[@GeorgeSmart-b4e]

I'll give you a positive song. Faith No More. The Real Thing.

[@leroylewis8262]

This particular video is about their fears

[@RxDoc2010]

The masks change with each album. I love the bass drum in this.

[@christophermollan1684]

MEnTAL AMANDA!!!!!!!!!

[@kaceylinne344]

the parts of them dying and everything in their old masks is them showing what their fear is. spit it out live 2009 download festival, vermillion parts 1 and 2, before i forget, sulfur, psychosocial, dead memories, aov, custer, the negative one, unsainted, nero forte, the dying song (time to sing), yen for a more singing less screaming the checkout corey's solo albums and another band called stone sour also solo - black eyes blue, cmft must be stopped, from can to cant stone sour - bother, 30/30-150, come what(ever) may, made of scars, through glass, digital (did you tell), say you'll haunt me, gone sovereign/absolute zero, tired, do me a favor, song #3, fabuless

[@anthonywilliams8849]

🌻

[@GaryCeaseGhostWolf]

Recently separated from my sokn to be ex wife (April Fool's Day ironically), as im watching/listening, cant help to loose myself in thoughts and what nots.. an ex before her somehow felt my pain and reached out to me and has held me together. Certain tunes will do this too!! Send fhe Pain Below by Chevelle , pleass. .. Please ...

[@MentalAmanda]

I got divorced in 2021. Shared several vlogs about it. So glad you have someone there to help you through!

[@GaryCeaseGhostWolf]

@@MentalAmanda I ll scroll back and look for them. I was/am fortunate. But just know, many of us are here for you too! You ve helped so many, brought awareness, given people hope and a light... You are loved! On my Native American page, our motto is "Together, We Stand Strong!" . This saying fits in every aspect of life, every scenario, every outcome. So very sorry to hear of what you've been through, we are here for you too! 💪🏽🦋🪶

[@dustingames8964]

Have you ever heard or reacted to My Demons by Starset? Great song. It's almost a hidden gem like many Starset songs. If you haven't yet, maybe consider checking it out?

[@The_Hartofect_]

Korn here to stay and Thoughtless.

[@MentalAmanda]

I did Thoughtless and it got blocked! I posted it on Patreon!

[@SpencerHelle3128]

Please react to All Fucked Up!!

[@postorganic31]

If you can it would be awesome to react to mental cruelty-forgotten kings the music video

[@number3570]

Great video what each off them are doing is what they are truly scared off Craig was scared off dogs so he he’s attacked by one Chris hates crows so they put crows on him and so on ❤

[@SpencerHelle3128]

Slipknot is a band I could honestly never get into. And there from my hometown state of Iowa. I might get booted out of the state for saying that haha

[@gdkennedy1]

Please react to Whitechapel “Without Us without You”

[@TahuOsborn]

Listen to Beth Hart for your mental health, Beth Hart leave the light on,your one of thousands to go thru and one of thousands that are yet to go through this illness

[@EvanKirincich]

Call Your Friends - Rod Wave, plz give it a listen even if it’s off cam

[@adamgriffiths8254]

Don't know if you've reacted to snuff by slipknot a very personal song for Corey Taylor and is a beautiful song lyrically

[@MentalAmanda]

Yup! kzbin.info/www/bejne/qHfNeIybhJmNfaM

[@hakankinnunen3270]

Snälla reagera på unsainted, nero forte, killpop, Waow.

[@MentalAmanda]

I have done Killpop kzbin.info/www/bejne/nmnWYXiwfaaDsNUsi=oAYmhAJM6MGndRM8

[@I_Komang_Ari_Putra]

your interpretation is on point.

[@Bawbag0110]

More slipknot and Rammstein

[@Bawbag0110]

Just to send you down the rammstein rabbit hole these are my suggestions...remember with English lyrics on all Mutter: Live in Paris Mein Herz Brennt: Official video and piano Official video version Du Hast: Live in Paris Zeit: Official video Zick zack: Official video Ohne Dich: Official video Deutchland: Official video Mein Teil: live concert Adieu: Official Video Angst: Official video Benzin: Live from maddison Square Rammlied: Live from maddison Square Rammstein the song...One of the early Live performances And if you think you are up to it... Buch Dich Live from Paris...But I must warn you that's not for everybody

[@christopherglock7239]

Living with a Narcissist is so emotionally suppressive and emasculating being demonized. The guilt the blame or shaming. Not to be hypersensitive but over and over-years and years, you start thinking maybe I am all that. Know who you are in Jesus, I'm not your Devil Anymore.

[@christopherglock7239]

My narcissistic ex I'm her devil she wants back but I know who I am in Christ.

[@hakankinnunen3270]

Bok tips. Blunda och tänk på något annat. Av Anna liden!!!!!!!!! Ljud bok finns tyvärr enbart på svenska.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thanks for the suggestion.

[@leroylewis8262]

Their masks change every album

[@Zenex4504]

the masks change between albums

[@Dairy917]

Negative or detrimental Mental health is a problem that only people with too much time on their hands have.

[@MentalAmanda]

Welp, there it is, the dumbest thing I've read on the internet today. I've known hustle bustle CEOs and not-a-moment-to-themselves single moms with crippling depression. It doesn't discriminate.

[@Dairy917]

@@MentalAmanda The dumbest thing you’ve ever read really! I take it you haven’t read much then. If CEOs suffer from it. Maybe being a CEO isn’t the right career choice for them. Single mums, all I can say is why are they single? Could it be their poor decision making, or poor judge of character when choosing a partner? Being a single mum or CEO are all life choices. Choose wisely and choose what’s right for you and when you do. Don’t complain about it. It’s not a good look. Do something about it.

[@MentalAmanda]

How presumptuous that you think they're not doing anything about it. Or that single moms couldn't have possibly been left by a man that found someone else or even raped. Yes, we make choices, but we don't always have all the information when we made that choice to know the outcome. It's also ignoring the biological aspects of depression, but hey, just repress it all so everyone else is more comfortable, right?

[@a3gill]

Don't love the title. Glad you're doing well, but feels really exploitative. Maybe I'm wrong, but that's how it hits me. All the best.

[@MentalAmanda]

The purpose is so people know my perspective and the reason for the channel, which is to encourage open and honest conversation about mental health 💖

[@benjaminstephen97]

Everytime You Leave by I Prevail. Pls watch🥹