how I'm really doing after divorce... so far (a grwm heart-to-heart)

Thanks for letting me chat, be open + share how I am feeling. I am so thankful for y'all.
---WHERE TO FOLLOW ME---
INSTAGRAM: / michel.c.janse
MY FOOD INSTAGRAM: / lafoodfiles
TWITTER: / michel_c_janse
POSHMARK: poshmark.com/c...
PINTEREST: / michel_janse
BLOG:
MAX THE DOGGO: / max.the.goodest.boy
----LET’S HANG---
+ Check out my site for NEW BLOG POSTS OFTEN!:
+ WANNA JOIN THE FB FRIEND GROUP? / micheljanse
+ SHOP ALL MY FAVORITE THINGS:
+ HAVE YOU LISTENED TO THE PODCAST?
podcasts.apple...
~SHOP~
-FAV AFFILIATE LINKS & PROMO CODES-
-Most of my jewelry is from Mejuri and I have an affiliate link for 10% off: mejurifinecrew...
-ManiMe (My stick on nails!) 20% off with code 'michellovesmanis' AT THIS LINK: manime.pxf.io/...
-Max's Dog Food (Code MAX for 15% off) glnk.io/145j/m...
-Roolee (My Fav Online Boutique) Check for frequent sales: www.roolee.com?tap_a=6753-c39683&tap_s=743582-196543
-VellaBox (the best candle subscription!) 'MICHEL5' for $5 off www.vellabox.c...
----Equipment------
MAIN CAMERA: amzn.to/2tWr5Nt
VLOG CAMERA: go.magik.ly/ml...
Handheld Tripod: amzn.to/2XsNXQx
MIC: amzn.to/37xTYOO
LIGHTING: amzn.to/2VsNiyp
Hard Drive: amzn.to/2yNyx08
----Michel's Favs----
I update this frequently with my favorites!
www.micheljans...
----FAQ:----
~How tall am I? 5'7
~Where am I from? Boerne, TX
~Where do I live? I spent 2016-2021 in Pasadena CA but have now moved to Austin, TX
~What did I study? Nutrition and Dietetics from ASU!
~How old am I? 24 (born in '97)
~Are you Christian? YES!
~What's your full name? Well it WAS Christiane Michel Janse but now it is Christiane Janse Smith so Michel is just a nickname now!
~How do you pronounce that? Like... Christy-Anne Mick-Elle Jan-See
~Do you have pets? YES! A rescue pupper named Max :-)
~Favorite Store? Everlane + Madewell
~Favorite Drink? Oat Milk Matcha or Lemonade Kombucha
~Favorite Friends? YOU
FTC: This video is NOT Sponsored. Some links may be affiliate links meaning I make commissions on sales with no extra expense to you. (thanks for supporting me by using my links!) All opinions are my own.

[@chelseahill6552]

Michel - this is your job! We want you to be paid! Please never apologize for that. Honestly - especially in your moving vlogs! - seeing the ads have made me happy. I love the idea that we’re getting to help you make yourself safe, independent and cozy during this painful time. ❤️ We love you!

[@shelbyritchey]

Yes!!! 100% agree with you!!

[@angelbadkins1]

Totally agree!

[@jennyjenjenp]

👏👏👏

[@aliciahollis5933]

Ditto. So grateful for you, Michel! ❤️

[@kdallosnc]

So well said Chelsea!

[@amandahamilton5145]

Not feeling wanted in a serious relationship was debilitating to me. It’s a big deal.

[@malloryafc]

When you said that one day you wanted to feel wanted and appreciated it brought tears to my eyes because I remember saying those exact words before I met my now husband. You are so sweet, genuine and pure in your heart and you deserve only the best things and I pray you find someone (when you’re ready) that understands what a special gift you are to this world. In the meantime, you are wanted and appreciated by all of us you watch you 🙂

[@jackiedavis4358]

So much easier to be angry then sad, that right there is truth.....My first husband was an alcoholic and had several affairs, he recently passed away. I remarried at age 50 and could not be happier. I struggled for years with the anger because the sadness was too hard. You go girl, you have a great life ahead of you. BTW I am now 66 and love your channel!

[@suz0000]

I thought my 31 year marriage would last forever. It’s been over 7 years and I’m sadly still so affected by it. I can relate to so much that you spoke about. Thank God you’re so young, I believe you will be fine. Thanks for sharing your experience.

[@karenmurdoch1042]

And thank you for sharing yours, I've just come out of a 30 year marriage! Bless you x

[@danielleg2616]

Can you explain what you mean by still affected? I'm still thinking about my divorce and how horrible my husband was. It's been 6 months of going through divorce with no contact

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Suz, how are you doing?

[@suz0000]

@@danielleg2616 It’s hard to explain, but it changed everything. I guess I’m grieving the loss of my family unit still. It really hurts to not have that. But some good did come out of it. Just finding it hard to move on.

[@blueseptember2174]

@@suz0000 could you share some of the good? Because all I'm feeling is the negative and depressed. There has to be something hopeful right?

[@lepetit84]

I'm not going through a divorce, but I've been going through a really dark time in my life, and hearing you say "God, thank you for trusting me with this situation" and framing your struggle through the lens of hoping there's a purpose and good to be found in the situation was really helpful to hear

[@Linda-mv8oz]

The good news is that you are young and that you are a”10” in personality, kindness and beauty. This is a difficult journey but once you are through it you will know what you want and what to look for in a relationship. The fact that you are trying not to be too angry is amazing but don’t be too hard on yourself if some days you just want to scream at him. I actually love your videos with sponsors.

[@BeeVee714]

I'm 34 and my divorce was finalized the day before yesterday. And let me tell you something, you my dear are incredibly matured! You are only 24 but you kinda have this handled, you're working at it and you're not sweeping it under the rug, which is what I did when I was your age. My divorce has been in the making for more than 6 years, I just never had the courage to actually walk out the door. I was scared at what my life would be like at such a young age. Believe me, you got this, and God's got you! Love and light to you :-)

[@HeyItsMe1224]

@@marymaverick7071 shut up.

[@kathleenhetherington8829]

Michel, just remember that the fact that you have loved someone with your whole heart, even if it wasn’t returned in the way that you needed, is a wonderful thing. To love freely is so brave and you are brave! Some people don’t know how to truly love and that’s sad for them. Focus on loving yourself, family & friends and the rest will follow. You are a wonderful young woman😊❤️

[@Moleda1986]

“Emotions are weird.” Girl, I feel that in my soul.

[@kaiw522]

Michel, just wanted to let you know that I'd still watch if EVERY SINGLE VIDEO is sponsored. I cannot understand why people hate on that or get annoyed by it so much. Some mega influences, like Bailey Sarian, have sponsors on every video. I recognize this is your job and would never discourage or be annoyed that you're making money...at your job. Sending love! Xx Kai

[@marybarton9792]

You are a young woman with an old soul. You are the most sweetest, kind and loving person whom I've gotten the pleasure of knowing watching your videos. As part of your community, we all love and appreciate you every day. Sending hugs your way

[@Sierra2121]

I went through a similar season in my mid 20s. I spent 10 years with a person. It came crashing down. I had to relearn how to do life again. It was a roller coaster of every emotion. Feel every feeling and don’t apologize for feeling any certain way. It sounds bizarre but I look back on that time and I’m so grateful for it because it brought me to a place I couldn’t have even imagine for myself.

[@carolinepeters323]

Your maturity is absolutely incredible to witness. I’ve struggled with a break up for the last year or so and sharing your thoughts is helping me so much also! Sending you so much love xx

[@iamanovercomer3685]

couldn't agree more

[@vlheern]

I went through a divorce as a very young woman....I've been with my second husband for almost 20 years...and I want to give you two truths...the first is, this gets to be a season of "practice" for you... practice setting boundaries, practice accepting feedback, criticism, and judgement...a season of filling your emotional toolbox with the healthy coping tools you need...it prepares you for a the next "hard season"...(even if it is one brought about by a joyous event)...second... if you think of marriage as it is taught to us as Christians, this is a "one flesh" relationship.... in the simplest terms, if you lost half of yourself through injury or accident or illness (and survived it!--WHICH YOU ARE!), then it would be obvious that self-care, meeting needs, discerning wants, and relearning the basics of life without half of you would be what needed to happen next... and not an easy process... don't let anyone lie to you and tell you it should be easy and "just get back out there" Learn your value....you are a truly beautiful person.... your heart is heard from your words... you are in my thoughts and prayers... Leanne in Indiana

[@hannahpayne3162]

This is the kind of encouragement/advice I've been needing while going through my own divorce. Thank you.

[@juliv.4270]

Thank you Leanne- a year after your comment I’m reading it and it’s helping me 🙏♥️

[@AllySheehan]

Love, you are completely right about holidays and the loss of tradition, I think it's really an acute awareness of the loss. The same can be said for their birthday, anniversaries and days that were always spent with them. Grieving my dad right now around Christmas and his bday feels the same, so I'm sending my biggest hug

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Ally, how are you doing?

[@denal4011]

consider me "future you". I got married at 21 and stayed in a marriage that I did not feel wanted or appreciated in for 20 years, because it wasn't a BAD marriage. I wasn't in any harm, we raised our kids together SO WELL. We really LIKED each other a lot. We lived together amicably. Our kids were in a loving/safe home. But there came a time where I couldn't thrive anymore this way. My divorce was the HARDEST thing I've ever been through. Literally gut wrenching. I am now 49 and married to a wonderful man who tells me and shows me he loves and appreciates me every single day. Although I still mourn the loss of what I *thought* was going to be my life (even though I'm the one who ended it), I am SO much happier and content on a day to day basis now and a good, loving marriage is SUCH a joy you get to experience every single day. Your new perfect relationship is coming - and I promise you will still always mourn your first marriage, but happiness is awaiting you!

[@carlabarrick8538]

1st of all, I'm a single woman who is a true ally of other women and I believe that we should be as financially independent as we can no matter who we are in partnership with. SO, I'm completely behind you as a supporter of this channel so that you can rebuild your personal financial landscape again. I got you! You taught me a lot about finances in the past few years with your content related to it and you have helped me! 2nd, everything you are feeling is so in keeping with being shell shocked and being blindsided by the most important person in your life. You are on the right path of feeling those valid feelings then letting them go. You have a right to feel angry at times about being displaced physically and emotionally. As an older person than you, it does get better and you will be stronger for having gone through this. It will help you to survive and thrive going forward. And tell your family and friends how they can best be there for you. 3rd, I'm excited that your future is full of promise, eventually being with that amazing man who WANTS you, prioritizes your happiness and wants to be in an honest. loving partnership with you. You deserve that and so much more! I'm an OG subscriber and know that you are so smart, thoughtful, talented and love the little things in life like a good cup of coffee and kindness received. Disclose what you feel is comfortable to disclose to us, get out the content how you need to because you need to take care of you first now, on all levels. Your true blue subbies will understand. You'll get that Michel confidence back in the forefront and we are are here to support you however we can. Love ya girl!

[@angelbadkins1]

I love this and couldn't agree more! Beautifully said. ❤

[@HandmadeDawling]

I totally agree with Carla,!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@joannbaca153]

I couldn't have said it better! We love you and are here for you, Michel!❤

[@kellyl.3059]

Completely agree! We are here to support you Michel, emotionally and financially.

[@medinar5]

Also, what you said about anger is so true. The primary, underlying emotion is sadness but it is so much harder to come to terms with that, so it manifests as anger. It allows you to detach. Thank you for saying that!

[@EmilySmith-sq9dm]

almost 2 years ago I went through a really hard breakup (4 years). I got thorough it by watching videos of people “one year after breakup” and seriously being motivated to get over / reinvent myself. At the time I thought I would NEVER get over it or be okay again. Now it’s the best decision I’ve ever made in my life :) you got this girl. There will be random moments of loneliness for a while but use it to focus on what’s best for YOU!!

[@roxanamkp8842]

Been following you for 3 years but never really left comments until now. I know it's hard now, but it won't always feel this way. you're very strong and everything will be ok in the end 💜

[@annacarson34]

I love the sponsorships in the vlogs!!! Their so quick usually, and it’s so neat to see things you’re interested in! We know you wouldn’t promote something without first at least making sure it aligns with your values. It’s kinda like a KZbin ad, just better because it’s Michel. 😂 ❤️

[@pirategirlchristina]

I watched this a year ago knowing my long term relationship was failing. Now watching it again after the break up, it felt so good to hear you talk about things taking more energy than normal. I'm struggling with that right now. Thanks for sharing ❤

[@sheilavanduynfote5539]

You are brave, the hardest thing for me when my husband no longer wanted to be married. It would have been easier to grieve if he had passed away instead of grieving knowing I was no longer or loved. You are doing all the right things, work on you, lean on family and definitely reading devotionals and the Bible Helped me. You are in my prayers it is never easy, however God knows what is in your future, he saw something that He felt would be better for you.❤️

[@kyrstenosterloth2908]

I'm so excited for your future!! After my divorce, I felt totally lost, loss of security, like you've explained, and then I started spending so much time with myself and I began to realize that my security comes from me, and I wanted so much more for myself than what my previous marriage was. I don't mean to say that as a hurtful thing, but I think getting married young, and then divorced, you realize that you have a new opportunity to set new standards after growth you've had, and I am now remarried and I found so many more things that I appreciate. I don't hate my last partner, but sometimes (jokingly of course) that that was my trail run. It was incredibly difficult, but I am so thankful now (of course it didn't feel like it then) to be able to go through such a transformative, new found opportunity for the future. Sometimes I still grieve, but that comes more from feeling rejected. I filed but I didn't want to be divorced, I just knew I would stay stagnant. I feel so thankful now to be wanted by myself and my current spouse. Turning on background noise is helpful for the loneliness. I spent so much time "dating myself" and I learned to love myself again.

[@meganb1282]

After my last breakup it took me time to feel OK thinking about moving on. When I finally did it felt SO much better than I thought. It just took that time to feel *ready* for it. Everyone has a different time line too. You are so worthy of feeling loved and cherished and adored. Never lose sight of that. You are enough. It's just a process. Trust that most of us make mistakes picking our early adult year partners. Divorce stinks, but mistakes happen.. people also change, time changes everyone. I'm so glad you're working on healing and caring for yourself. It's hard. So much harder than most people realize. ❤❤❤❤❤

[@susan5978]

ty for this

[@Simply_Rache]

It’s amazing how you can not know someone (personally) but want so much happiness for them. Michel I know the man God has for you is going to be such an amazing man. YOUR STORY will definitely help younger girls out there. I wish there was more sharing back when i was in my first marriage. I felt so alone. This will definitely make an impact in someone’s life one day

[@firesidechatswithkristy677]

I've experienced something very similar in my mid 20's. My heart was broken. I thought it was the worst thing that could ever happen but now that I'm remarried, I thank God for my life now and realize that I would never have my life now if that previous relationship had not dissolved. I pray that God will heal your heart and one day grant you someone who absolutely treasures you 🙌

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Kristy, how are you doing?

[@medinar5]

Michel, I just wanted to say that everything you’re saying can be relatable to all of us, whether or not we are going through a divorce or even a breakup. There are so many times in life when we feel unwanted or broken down or not good enough (even though we are). You are sharing a universal human experience and I know that so many people will feel much less alone hearing this, so thank you for continuing to be vulnerable with us and showing up as your authentic self. It does not go unnoticed. 💖💕

[@stephaniedouglas9510]

Im going through my 1st divorce at 39. I waited way too long but its been such a growing experience. Try your best to focus on your own growth and the blessings that come with it.

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Stephanie, how are you doing?

[@atbvip]

Oh man. When you said you can’t wait to feel wanted that hit me hard. I was in a three year relationship settling for not feeling wanted but accepted it. Fast forward to me finally ending it and I was devastated but now I’m in a relationship and I feel wanted beyond what I could’ve imagined is possible. I pray that happens for you as well

[@irishtatted-uptink6733]

The most important part of all of this is taking care of yourself 💚 You are a adult now in Austin . See what does make you happy . Maybe it's an exercise class ,finding a favorite coffee place . A bookstore , a free music venue (not a club ) . When I got divorced which I hated having to do . I remembered my love of art ,photography, traveling. Getting together with people for game nights. Do a 30 day self care list . I remember writing every feeling I had the first 30 days of my separation. Do whatever makes you feel better . Work towards healing and being happy . Hugs and love ❤

[@NikitaUnique]

My dear sister in Christ: you are loved, you are wanted, you are valued, YOU MATTER. ❤️ This is something I’ve had to remind myself of during my own trials and tribulations, and I want to remind you of the same, especially on those days when you might not feel any of them. It’s not safe for me to share my story here, but as someone who has gone through something similar and is a few years out from the divorce finalization itself (I personally don’t believe in divorce, but it wasn’t my choice either, and that was a struggle in itself), I just want you to know that from everything you’ve said, you sound like you have a very healthy mindset despite the heaviness of the situation and the emotions that come with it. Praying for you as you work through the rollercoaster of emotions. I know it can be overwhelming! 🙏🏻 Perhaps the most important piece of (unsolicited) advice I can give you is to let yourself feel things, and acknowledge those feelings, but don’t let those feelings dictate your actions. Easier said than done, I know. But I think you’re already putting that into practice, and I’m so glad to see that. Don’t let those feelings destroy you and the wonderful person God made you to be. 💕 And for me personally, I do my best to remember to pray for the other party as a well. Which is not easy, but completely necessary! And I ask others to pray for the other party, too. Keeping you and Max in my prayers! 🙏🏻 May God light your path and bring you comfort as you continue to seek Him, especially during this current storm.

[@DahrensAGD]

Your transparency is not only therapeutic for you but some of us as well 💓💓💓 We will be okay 😘

[@Mtooma139]

You have no idea how much you story has helped me from beginning to where you’re at now with Jordy. Your story give me sooo much hope! I resonate to everything you went through. Im crying my eyes out today and I just keep watching your videos and telling myself it WILL get better. Thank you so much! You’re a literal Angel and I’m so happy how your story turned out for you and how happy you are! Sending hugs ❤

[@youmeandthetree2894]

Michel - As a slightly older gal, I have to say -- I am so proud of how you're navigating this time. I know it's hard. I know it's confusing to make decisions on what to share and what not to share. I would just say (in all things, really), trust your gut. It will take you to the most authentic places - and authenticity is how humans connect. You are connecting with thousands of strangers now for that very reason. I hope this doesn't come off as a comment made too soon -- but I am so excited for you. The things I experienced; the things I did after a break-up in my 20s would have never happened had I remained in that relationship. I would have never moved to NYC; never met some of the most precious people in my life; never truly learned how amazing life is when surrounded by the beauty of different cultures and mindsets and life experiences. I know that I learned more and lived more because of that break up than I ever would have otherwise. When I did choose to enter into another relationship, I knew who I was. I valued myself and enjoyed my own company. I knew what I brought to the table and what I deserved. That inner peace and knowing who you are is what will bring greatness your way. Now, I love and am loved so deeply. And that is just the icing on the cake of a life that I hope holds many more exciting and challenging moments. I wish the same for you, and I KNOW that what lies ahead is greater than you could ever imagine. Buckle up!

[@laurwata]

You are going through so much during this season in your life. Please don't apologize for not being able to keep up with replying to comments, DMs, etc. You shouldn't have to apologize. It is important that you take care of yourself, physically and mentally, during this transition. You have many supporters on your channel who love you and only want the best for you. Take the time to accept the kind words from your supporters without feeling guilty for not replying. We love you no matter what because we understand you are going through a lot right now. Please take good care of yourself and don't forget how much you are loved! :)

[@Keepinitreal55]

I’m not divorced but I can totally picture and relate to what you’re saying. Any time we feel grief it can be debilitating

[@donalpaccio4233]

"One day I want to feel wanted and appreciated" I feel you so much! Going through the same thing. Sending you hugs from Paris.

[@kzfingerprint]

I really appreciate your open, vulnerable, honesty. It's so relatable. You're a gem 💎

[@ninaanddakotafox5840]

Do not feel bad for not responding to people. We are here messaging you because we love you and want to show you that. You are definitely in my prayers!

[@toniahendrich9966]

Michel... you are brave, dear one. You have a beautiful, authentic soul and God is giving you the strength and grace to get through this. One. step. at. a. time. You are not only encouraging and uplifting women your age, but you are also helping women my age - 49, having to start over at midlife. You are not only brave in the way you are navigating through this life change, but you are also brave in your vulnerability with us. Thank you for sharing your life with us.

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Tonia, how are you doing?

[@clarescheidler4359]

Wowza. I am going through a terrible broken engagement and I resonated with EVERYTHING you said. So reassuring to know I’m not alone in thinking all this. I’m so sorry you have to go through it because it’s so so hard. You’re strong.

[@oliviacurzi4124]

Michel, we don't mind and totally understand the sponsorship stuff! That said, I have been loving your page even more lately. Although you're including products, the videos feel sooo much more real and less focused on physical "things". We are here with you and are rooting for you!

[@carrieanderson4399]

It has to be so hard. I have so many friends and family who have divorced and it is for sure a loss. You will get through it at your own pace with the help from God. Prayers!!

[@tinatalks]

You are an amazing young women and it is so evident that God is working in your life!! I married for the first time when I was 50. 4 years later husband was in rehab. 4 years later he had an affair. I left after much counseling with a wonderful Christian counselor! I share my experience with others as I know that is why God got me through all the grief and depression. I try to uplift others and I know you will do the same. You are such a gift! Much love ❤️

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Tina, how are you doing ?

[@ritaelona7513]

I’m so proud of you. I know you don’t feel like it right now, but you are such a strong woman. My prayers are with you.

[@elecops9825]

I know it doesn't compare to the real thing, or being in a relationship, but I appreciate you and your presence so much 😊🤍

[@justarandomperson33]

I'm glad you mentioned anger. I feel like it's conditioned in women that anger isn't something we should express, but I honestly think anger is one of the most healing phases of a breakup/divorce. My anger is what healed me in my last breakup!

[@isawthesign4421]

Building a strong circle for yourself is success! Finding people to stand in your circle is an accomplishment. And I have every faith that you'll achieve it! You got this!

[@thekiknd]

As curious as I am to get to hear your whole story, I completely understand and respect your decision to not want to share everything with the internet right now. I wish you so much healing and peace as you get through this season of your life

[@maryrain2162]

Hey Michel. My heart aches for you. I have responded to you in the past. I too have also been through a divorce. It has been almost 12 yrs since we got divorced & our final judgement landed on my birthday. God really has a sense of humor, but now I realize it was a rebirth. Years of abuse helped me realize this. My life verse is Jeremiah 29:11...for I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper not to harm you...plans to give you a HOPE & A FUTURE. I also can relate to the financial stability issue, but GOD!!! I now have a MIRACLE HOME. I call it God's home...I only live here. My ex got the home I purchased 4 yrs prior to us getting married so I had a lot of anger & hurt. Now I have come so far. Forgiveness is what got me through. I am praying for you Michel. God is with you.🙏🙏🙏❤❤❤ Love you Michel, but GOD LOVES YOU MORE!!!

[@jessicaseibert5509]

We are all here for you. You are an amazing person and have so much support behind you

[@clairehawkes1112]

I think we are all so happy to support you whilst you go through this. We all would want that for ourselves and wish it for you ❤️ You are so wise for your years, it’s good for you to talk of bitterness the way you do. Proud of you. This is a very articulate video.

[@cassandraboyer7068]

Michel, you are a wonderful person with a sweet soul. So happy to be a part of your community. Take care sweetheart!

[@serenabaney997]

This feels so trivial to comment because it nowhere near as painful as divorce but I had a really big break up in 2017 right before the holidays. It was horrible. It was even worse to see he was spending it with a new partner. I really struggled. However at the time I connected with my now husband who was experiencing his first holidays officially divorced. Two years later we got married. We now have a son together. And I could cry right now typing how thankful we both are that though we went through serious heartbreak we are with someone who genuinely loves and values us. We both stepped out in faith that year knowing though we were abandoned by the people we loved at the time that God would forget about us and bring us something better for ourselves. At the time neither of us were certain what that meant because who is to say it’s a new partner that makes things better but for us that’s what it was. Praying over you. Thank you for your honesty.

[@serenabaney997]

God *wouldn’t forget haha

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hello 👋 Serena, how are you doing?

[@esmeehartje]

Hi Michel! I really admire your openness about your situation! Even though you might not feel strong, your strength is apparent in every video! Your ability to stay positive throughout this situation is inspiring! Love and a big hug from the Netherlands 💕

[@alexandralord3679]

I can’t believe anyone wouldn’t want you and appreciate you🥺 sending you so much love. There are better things ahead for you❤️

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Alexandra, how are you doing?

[@candicepenland]

I like what you said about the excitement of the future and not knowing what your future looks like. There was a time when I was so lost in my life and was feeling lonely. But then I started thinking "My person is somewhere out there in the world. He might be at the grocery store right now or maybe going through a breakup or he could be right down the street." Like he literally had to be somewhere out in the world logically. And something about that comforted me. Sending you positive vibes

[@lesleyterrazas3947]

I just was about to say that a lot of us would love to keep listening to your podcast! You are so inspiring, relatable, motivating and have a great voice to be listening to for hours! ♥️

[@lisebelanger1692]

Wow, as I was listening I kept thinking, she's going through the same thing I was, and I was married for 22 years, and it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. To make the decision to leave because of the very same feelings you described. Not feeling appreciated, loved or wanted.....and I feel your pain, I wanted it to work, but it takes two people to be a couple, and I loved being a wife, taking care of someone, giving them my 1000%. But you can't keep giving without getting anything in return....so be kind to yourself, give yourself the time to heal, everyone grieves differently and don't ever let anyone tell you that what you're doing is not right, or how you should feel, we feel what we feel, simple as that. Keep your shine on my lovely, we're still here for you, and we love you back ❤❤❤

[@darlenerich3229]

There is a verse in the Bible regarding Giving thanks in everything. I had cervical cancer at the age of 28 so was not able to have children. That verse made no sense to me at that time. I am a nurse who was taking care of children at the time but we would sometimes get adult overflow on our unit. Shortly after returning to work, we had 2 adult patients, one with prostate cancer and the other one with thyroid cancer. I was able to really understand what they were feeling. Sure, I wish I could have had children and never have had cancer but it made me a better nurse. I finally understood that verse and how it related to my life. I am also divorced. 20 years now. When I married I planned on staying married for all of my life. Praying for you since I have been where you are at. God bless you.

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Darlene, how are you doing?

[@amandaellis9656]

I am astounded at your maturity level! You seem so wise beyond your years! I’m 11 years older than you and you’re teaching me a lot! I find you very inspirational so thank you! Lifting you up in prayer during this difficult season in your life! You are very strong! 💛

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Amanda, how are you doing?

[@karik726]

Everything you said is totally normal. One thing that helped me when I caught myself missing my relationship was trying to notice what is here now that wasn’t here before. It could be as simple as a friendship, a book, peace, moments of real joy, consciousness, a clean slate… And remember, as paradoxical as it is, your ability to to be alone is equal to your ability to love. Master being single and being alone. When you begin to date, see your intention. And maybe it’s not to find “the one”, maybe it is skill building, enjoying the company of a man over a coffee or lunch, working on your confidence and discernment. You got this! ❤️❤️❤️

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Kari, how are you doing?

[@brynnlynnbeauty]

You are SOOO mature. I am four years older and girl you are way more mature and well spoken then me. I am so proud of how you are handling this. It is so nice when you open up and share your feelings. I love your content and I feel like you have all the opportunity in the world. Eventually you will find someone who will make you realize why this marriage didn’t work out. Wishing you nothing but love and happiness and sending you strength during this time of grief

[@KateBlank-x7g]

You are so wise beyond your years1 I'm 67 and feel evolved emotionally and spiritually, but you inspire me with your wisdom !

[@nancyimbleau1795]

Leave him behind and live life for yourself to heal. Sending lots of encouragement your way! Life will get better and will be better for you.

[@ritabeard1008]

Michel Please know that you are handling yourself with so much grace and maturity! ❤❤❤

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Rita, how are you doing?

[@AmyLongley999]

The thing with all the sponsored videos is that i genuinely trust you and know that you actually believe in the products you promote so it doesn't even really feel like a sponsorship. It just feels like a fun haul I get to watch or new product to learn about!

[@Kayleighbarnette]

I have never walked through what you are walking through, but the grace that you are showing is so admirable. This is your career that YOU have created and built, and we are here to be your support system, and to make sure you continue to thrive through every up and down in life. Keep fighting, keep pressing on, and one day someone will walk in to your life, treat you with respect, and will never walk out. Much love! 🤍

[@Hollyfae]

All the love to you! We are 100% behind you doing sponsorships and never mind hearing about the great, intentionally selected things that you tell us about. I think this kind of video is so important too, really helpful to people who are feeling alone and exhausted. I experienced a tremendous loss a few years ago (not a divorce, but I have had one of those as well) and it was really hard to be around people people because it made my loss so much more apparent, when I was alone, I could have moments of reprieve (my brain was not alerted by doing laundry or watching a tv show), but when I was with people it was like my subconscious was constantly aware that something was off (I wouldn't have been here, they would have been with me, I would have had to pick stuff up for dinner after this, I never would have seen this person outside of something like this happening, etc.) and it was beyond exhausting. I hope that you are getting plenty of rest. Can't wait to see where life takes you :)

[@gabrielarocha1105]

Michel, i know it’s hard to believe during this season of your life but rest assured you will find someone better and you will be loved, cherished, adored and wanted ! It might not be tomorrow but please know that person is out there and one day you will look back to this day and learn that all you went through was well worth it! Sometimes God will put you through situations like this because he doesn’t want you to stay and settle since he knows how much more you deserve. -coming from someone who went through a similar situation. Xoxo

[@cuberlychaos1435]

I live my life and my faith by reminding myself “God gives us what we can handle” as much as it can feel like an attack, we can take it as a gift because you are here now to help other people with what they are going through. You can now empathize with other young women feeling these same feelings as you. ❤️ Hang in there!

[@ghiastar]

Obviously we only see what you put out to the world, but I think you have been nothing but mature and extremely positive or at least looking for the positives in this situation so far. You are so beautiful and so strong and the universe has massive plans for you! ❤️

[@ghiastar]

I volunteer as tribute for the coming over to just watch hgtv! It might take me a couple days to get there from south Australia though

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Mcmeow, how are you doing?

[@luvsnursing9946]

Continued prayers for your healing. Feel what you need to feel. Do what you need to do to heal. Always be you because you are wonderful just the way you are.

[@susanspann5731]

I am much older than you are and my divorce was over a decade ago. You are handling this with grace and positivity and you are inspiring so many people. God will send you someone who will truly love you but spend this time building up your life and helping others and that will help you heal. Take your time and grieve. It is ok. It is like a death in the family. Take this time. And you will eventually be ok.

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Susan, how are you doing?

[@susanspann5731]

@@patrickmckinley6679 I am well, thank you. How are you?

[@patrickmckinley6679]

@@susanspann5731 Am fine Susan, where are you texting from?

[@renee2105]

im currently going thru a similar situation and i really appreciate your transparency and vulnerability. I have 2 daughters, which makes the situation is 2 times as hard. its SO hard to share WHILE u r going thru it...def hits different.

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Renee, how are you doing?

[@birdie6916]

You are wanted, you are appreciated, you are loved. You are all these things and so much more, Michel. My sister went through a divorce. It was hard, so so hard. She found love again. Everything is a lesson... the pain, the joy, the grief, the anger. Life takes us on so many twists and turns. Sending love.

[@juliettediehl]

I had to say goodbye to my 14 year old dog today & it’s been really hard. But I want to thank you for 24 minutes of truth & vulnerability + helping distract me from crying for a few minutes ❤️❤️ I keep reminding myself that God gives us only what we can handle & I pray that God continues to show us Him not only in the good times, but in the hard times, too ❤️

[@theextremebudgeter2775]

Please delete this comment if you feel it is not helpful to your journey. I always felt that maybe Brook was quite shy and that is why he came across less than devoted in videos but then when the vlog came out a few months ago and he was growing a mullet - it just felt so jarring to me the way he talked and acted that I immediately saw the writing on the wall. I compare that to your father's gentlemanly ways and the way his love shines through with so few words. I know there is a future someone out there who will be your true partner in everything. I went through a blisteringly bad experience a few years ago but it directly led to me meeting the father of my daughter and now I look back with a strange fondness on every awful thing that led me to that place and I genuinely thank God for putting me through that as each step led me to the most beautiful gift of having my child.

[@taylormills108]

I have never been bothered by your ads because I feel like you only have contracts with companies you really love so I feel like it’s still genuine content. I’m really glad you are sharing this journey, I fell like it’s really helpful for anyone else who feels like they are “restarting”

[@savlove9688]

Be strong. Stay beautiful. Never lose yourself. You are your most important priority. Wherever you go in life. Do not forget though we are mostly all strangers we have watched all the parts of your life you have shared with us. We adore you. We come back to hear about you, your opinions and your world. We are here.if you need to post videos expressing your hurt. Or happiness. Venting or explaining....even just talking over some Macha with some fellow followers and friends. We.are.always.here. do whatever brings you peace. Keep things private or share . But we are always here. As we always have been. And everyone watching and commenting. Be kind. Be considerate . Try on her shoes. She is hurting. Do not post hurtful or unkind things. Please.i also want to add. Everything you feel. You pray. You think. Everything you speak on. Every word is so completely valid. You are valid in all that you feel. And that you still have it in you be optimistic and positive is so beautiful and special. It shows the special love God has put into creating you♥️

[@tonyaquinn8227]

You are amazing Michel. Sending you huge hugs as you go through this difficult journey.

[@jessicakathleen3363]

Thank you for continuing to share and be so honest. I can relate so deeply to your journey and your videos are really comforting. This season of life is very lonely, but your story helps it feel a little less lonely. 💕

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Jessica, how are you doing?

[@yo-31]

You are already loved and appreciated by your friends and family.... You are doing great!

[@KRC-es1xi]

Take into consideration that your channel is still growing too, you will eventually make more and also this is kind of unfortunate but you’re probably more relatable and interesting to watch in this season of life, it’s raw, it’s real and it’s unfiltered and people love that kind of content because it does help others.

[@katytyner7578]

Michel you are so incredibly strong and I completely admire how you are dealing with everything. You are simply amazing.

[@patriciamurray1720]

You are wanted and appreciated by so many people .. your smile lights up all of us

[@cm7393]

When you mentioned that you are reading about forgiveness I had to subscribe. Is refreshing to see someone approaching this super hard moment with that mentality. 🙏💝🌷

[@ginagomez11]

Your heart is too pure and hopeful to ever get stuck in bitterness - you got this.

[@lorraineculp1504]

Oh Michel, I'm so proud of you and my heart hurts for you at the same time. I have a granddaughter almost your age, and I know the pain you're feeling at such a young age. When I was mourning the loss of a relationship I remember the shock of the anger. As a Christian woman, it seemed *wrong* somehow to allow myself to feel anger. You will grow through these stages of grief. Your self-confidence is shaken but you will be strong and self-assured again! You are a *Daughter of the King*! You were created in His image! Your integrity comes shining through even as you struggle to find your footing in this difficult season. Your life was uprooted, yet here you are building community, refusing to let bitterness overcome you. Forgiveness is for yourself, for your growth. This is a time for self-love and acceptance. God is preparing you for the next season. When you least expect it, God will place the right man in your life. He will look at you with more love than you ever imagined possible. He will respect and adore you. He will want to be a better man so he can be everything you've ever needed in a relationship. He will thank God every day for the beautiful gift of your love. And you will know what a rare treasure this is because you've seen the other side. We love you and pray for you daily. ❤

[@julia-xi2jp]

I understand that you said you over committed but I can honestly say that your ads in videos are SO genuine. I can tell you love the products you are talking about and have saved a few for when I need them🤎

[@lc9521]

Michel - Thank you! I had to pause the video and comment right away....THANK YOU. Thank you or talking about "feeling wanted". I got divorced when I was your age...and was engaged a few years later...even though those relationships didn't work out. The realization that I was worth feeling wanted and appreciated is what got me through everything. Having friends and family question why I didn't stay in a relationship that made me feel un-wanted and ultimately less of person...was the hardest thing have had to endure and though I am still rocking the single mom thing....I know now that I deserve better and waiting for that feeling is worth it. Thank you for the courage to talk about it.

[@alexandrahaze]

Watching this while you’re on your honeymoon with Jordy. Owww 😭❤️❤️❤️ you give me so much hope. I’m so happy for you ❤️💍

[@beverlyr307]

I am so glad I came across your channel. I so look forward to being able to watch these as they are helping me cope during a difficult season and journey. The feelings you express are so relatable! I cry when you cry because I feel the emotions too! Your such a strong and beautiful soul! Thank you for sharing and taking us along on this journey. You are not alone.

[@gria2003]

Thank you thank you for saying you hate dating because I'm right with you. Dating nowadays has changed so much since you were dating. And don't let me even get started about online dating apps and what they expect and what they want and how things should move at a no alarming rate. Not trying to scare you but I would rather be single than date then go after one bad relationship and another just because they want Netflix and chill.

[@luciaconnor3427]

Divorce is like dealing with a death. It will be something you never forget. But you’re so lucky to have family and friends support🥰 it’s so hard to ask for things when you had someone in your like your were used to. But it will get easier I promise

[@debrak13boyd42]

We love you darlin. Choose to find joy in each day. Even for a moment.

[@patrickmckinley6679]

Hi 👋 Debrak, how are you doing?

[@breealexander3924]

You are beautiful inside and out, please don’t let anyone take that from you. The confidence to get on film and continue to work through these videos/clogs amazes me! It’s still fresh and I pray that this pain you feel passes soon. Again take each day as it comes…much love! 💗

[@bittersweet3925]

Your sponsorships really don’t bother me at all, you make it really natural in the conversation/ it’s not a big deal at all. I’m just happy to see you! It’s like a talk with a friend I miss. I truly only wish you happiness. Things truly happen for a reason, sometimes we just don’t understand why until later. Good things will come. I wish I was more like you. You are so strong and kind. Truly wishing you endless happiness. You deserve the world!!!! You deserve to feel loved and wanted and appreciated. Even if you’re getting one thing done a day, you’re doing amazing. It’s hard to feel motivated, and hard to be emotionally available for people when you’re hurting. I live in Texas too and I’ve been really dry too, I recommend the “Watermelon Glow Niacinamide Dew Drops” right before putting on your makeup, it smells nice & it also hydrates your skin. Niacinamide helps your skin absorb in moisture I believe.