Mindset | LGBT Short Film 2019

Sam and her partner Jess, attend a friend’s party. The events that take place over the course of the evening force the pair to come to terms with the nature of their relationship and the future of their lives together.
Written and Directed by Amelia Crawford ( / ameliajcrawford )
Produced by Magdalen Lovegrove
Shot and Edited by Aravind Shanavaz ( / thelightpirate )
Sound Recording by Patrick Nunes
Score by Neil Athale
Sam played by Sophie Renae ( / sophierenae_1 )
Jess played by Chelsea Brown ( / chelseahbrown )
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[@kukubunny13]

this one hurt so different. i lost my best friend to cancer. we were only 16. it’s been 2 years and i still see her face every single day. the last thing she ever told me was that she loved me. i usually steer clear of movies and books that ‘romanticize’ cancer and terminal illness because it makes me mad to see something so awful turn into a ‘tragic romance’ but this was different. this felt real, and it shows how genuinely difficult it is to lose a loved one without glorifying it

[@Midscore-md4is]

Iam sorry for your loss

[@katerinakanellopoulou263]

Then u should read "The fault in our stars"

[@katrinaparker1951]

I lost my friend to cancer too.

[@katerinakanellopoulou263]

@@katrinaparker1951 sorry to hear that wish you the best

[@apkakre5318]

👋

[@peacock294]

This is one of the best short films I've seen. Truly captivating. At first I was getting pissed that she was cheating but then I understood. And how the 'cheating' part was revealed before the truth probably shows how she felt like she was cheating when she was not. Truly a masterpiece

[@a-mac025]

Yes! I loved this piece!

[@dibaldgyfm9933]

Thanx for this comment, I did not get the idea until I read your comment. ❤

[@renderz8435]

I think she’d regret her whole life for her girlfriend forgave her and was even happy she cheated because she could find someone else to love instead of being too attached to Jess who was dying of cancer anyway

[@lisaletendre5557]

@@renderz8435 her girlfriend was already dead when she 'cheated'.

[@darcieroark2465]

L

[@laura-ann.0726]

This film hit me so powerfully that I am still shaking a little, 15 minutes after the conclusion, and the headache I have from crying will last a couple of hours. I am a 64 year old lesbian transgender woman living in California. My transition came very late in my life, in 2016, and before that, I was married to the love of my life for 29 years. Lynn died on November 16th, 2013, of congestive heart failure. We both knew that her life was drawing to a close, but we both hoped that she had at least a couple of years left. She came down with pneumonia the weekend before her death, and that put a strain on her heart that she couldn't withstand or recover from. By the Grace of God, I got to spend her last day with her, in the hospital, holding her hand; If I had been away from home the day she died, I don't think I would be here today writing this. It has taken me most of these last seven years to find healing from her death, and to make a new life for myself. In August 2013, Lynn was hospitalized for a couple of days, to stabilize her heart, and when she got home, she sat me down for a talk. She just asked me to promise her that, if she had to leave, that I would not mourn her overlong, that I would move on, and find a new wife. Amelia, do you understand why this film affected me so strongly? It was as if you wrote the story about me, personally, changing only the fact that Jess and Sam are young, and Lynn and I were old enough to be their parents. For the first several minutes, I simply watched, waiting to see if the source of the tension between Sam and Jess would be revealed. I wondered, as Sam ran out and got back into her car, "where is Jess? Did she walk home?". Then, back in the apartment, the camera cut to the IV in Jess's hand, and I knew in the blink of an eye, that Jess was dying, or dead, of cancer. And I had to run to our bedroom and cry on my partner's shoulder for a while. If I understand the story, Jess was never there, except in Sam's memory. She had been deceased for some time when Sam went to that party, and the scene with the other woman on the patio, and Sam's reaction to her advance, is Sam fighting to reconcile her survivor guilt with Jess's wish that she find a new life. Did I get this approximately right? If not, is my interpretation of your work, in the light of my own experience, acceptable? Mindset is a beautiful film, flawless in every respect. The purpose of art is to evoke an emotion in the mind of the audience: appreciation for the artist's skill and talent, association with the content of the work, and the establishment of a relationship between the viewer and the art - that "why do I care about these people?" feeling. Mindset works on all of these levels. With your permission, I want to share a link to it on my Facebook timeline. Thank you for the work and the love that you so obviously poured into this project.

[@mickeyrosa7226]

Courage and healing to you in your next phase of life. What a wonderful yet heartbreaking post you wrote. Sorry for your loss and may find a new love but keep the memories of your past love in your heart.

[@sararodrigues3470]

Sorry for your loss 😘

[@celeniarosa5232]

Thanks for sharing , Kiss and love from Dominican Repúblic 🇩🇴

[@usmanahmad5963]

I feel Sad for You

[@haduong9679]

Thank you for sharing your story. It moved me to tears. ❤️ from Vietnam

[@K-D-Palomar]

I can’t even imagine how hard it must be to lose someone you love. This short film got us all a step closer to understanding that immense pain. Great work, it was brilliantly captivating

[@kaitlyncollison6908]

irrelevant but |-/

[@laimayumdarshana7305]

I love her so much and my society norms are separate with us

[@arthurjohnson9135]

Losing someone you love feels like being stabbed in the heart.

[@Lio.GM22]

Sometimes you love someone so much that you understand you need to let them go for them to grow it sucks but you can't be selfish... I say this as I cry about letting someone go

[@marvric2989]

I understand this 100% had do similar my self lot times

[@msdeedy]

Why this is so realistic? I feel like im having broken heart, like i loose someone. Damn this film messed up my mind when i dont even have a girlfriend 😭

[@amoatisk]

I can feel the same, the film Touch deeply in my heart 🥺

[@williamsamewusika1737]

Felling same .its heartbroken yh

[@mariamaybarrel6279]

When your truelove becomes a memory😭❤️❤️

[@sunandagowda9978]

Truee✌

[@erialccrasher970]

So true I can relate to that😢.

[@sandra3247]

Beautifully said.❤️

[@eberechicharis1622]

Hello

[@mariamaybarrel6279]

@@eberechicharis1622 hello

[@mellowdy98]

Hold me tight while we are together, When I go away Our memories will hold you forever ❤️ Love this movie

[@user-dh4vx5hw1f]

Kood

[@a-mac025]

Me too! It evokes so much true emotion and pain of heart. And this quote you posted is very beatiful

[@bigmamared1]

Absolutely brilliant. One of the most poignant short films I’ve seen. I’m currently battling a recurrence of breast cancer after 21 years cancer free. This film has touched me in a way I can’t explain. Thank you and please continue to write, you’ve a magnificent gift and time is precious. Thank you again

[@papercrown2]

this is beautiful, but it also felt like being stabbed in the heart.

[@cihankibar5556]

yyyyyyy

[@Glitch_Voice]

You said it dude.

[@djilalibenmhamed-gx7ev]

❤🎉

[@djilalibenmhamed-gx7ev]

@@Glitch_Voice❤🎉

[@colourfully21]

Wtf, I was looking for a happy ever after movie/clip, and youtube was like: Hey, you should watch this, it's really good. Now I am crying my eyes out. 😭

[@Jackie-cy8gp]

I usually avoid watching films like these due to poor production, writing, acting, and storyline. However, this one was different. Everything about it was beautiful and the cinematography was on point. I couldn't tell you a single flaw about this short film. It was beautiful and just by the way this made, I can tell a lot of hard work was put into this. Well done!!

[@anicka7742]

snatched i feel the same way.

[@therainbowguy8056]

@snatched lol u sound like a true critic

[@miquelginer3945]

Aaaaa

[@RaiMamoFamily]

Here my love story with my wife 🙏 m.kzbin.info/door/tq_GO6YTCHqjpm4pC_Ixvg

[@Jana-ck8qc]

i'll recommend "kontrola" then :)

[@silolizo1098]

This short film is so meaningful to me because someone I love just got through cancer. Throughout her treatment and even now that she is cured, I still get these nightmares of what would’ve happened if she hadn’t made it through treatment. This short film made me cry.

[@a-mac025]

Sending so much love and many hugs. I know what it's like for something you have to only almost have happened. It is a beautiful grace and humbling mercy of the heavens

[@vyshnavi.p2970]

Wtf.. I am crying 🥺

[@khushboo4436]

I also cried

[@karmicvibez6377]

It's okay, stem cell transplants may help?

[@kuwarikutti]

I didnt

[@rathinavelkavin4149]

Its good to have feelings ❤️😭

[@empem26]

me too😭

[@jimbintz2424]

(senior cismale) At the start this read like a stale relationship breakup plot. Then at the end I noticed Jess's shunt and lack of hair, and Sam sitting alone, and realized the grief scenario, with reawakening. Well crafted, perfectly paced.

[@cryo11]

Can you continue it with a beautfiul ending? I'd like to see her move on little by little. I'd like to see the progression with the other girl and the trials they'll have to overcome for the new relationship to work?🥰👏

[@Foodie_888]

Losing your other half, you can never get over. All we can do is keep them in our hearts and hold to shared memories of joy and happiness. As long as the memories are there, they are never gone. But at the same time live your life with the better of version of you for having known loved ones that have past. At the party, it was obvious Sam was not ready and still in the grieving process. That process ended when she was "left alone" at the end scene. The next step is acceptance which could mean alot of therapy. So-called friends at the party knew about Sam's loss. The fact that Sam ran out screaming Jess' name and no one from the party ran after her to make sure she is OK. If they were real friends, they would've ran after her. That was tough to watch.

[@erialccrasher970]

I'm crying hard,this is so relatable 100%.I feel how she felt,I can't even try to date yet.😢 How I hate to see that she almost cheat at that party, but no,it's moving on girl...stop being feeling guilty of memory..i think I'm talking to myself here.🙁

[@atombiology734]

I love you, can we date please?

[@vanessajames1677]

Aww so touching

[@augustchild7777]

When you are a memory and it starts to fade away. ❤ this.

[@dsummerssummers15]

Not me crying my eyes out 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 this was one of the saddest/best short films I have ever seen!! I’m typing this as I’m sniffling and wiping away tears and videos don’t usually make me cry like this and feel this level of emotion 🥺🥺🥺🥺👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

[@digital-tiger_tord]

This was so unexpected, my heart hurts so bad... This short movie is a masterpiece

[@aepbuzz]

this was extremely well made, it was so realistic and i actually cried. i NEVER cry watching any show or movie but this was fantastic.

[@palo44ka]

When Sam is running out of the house, it is already doubtful that Jess has been there...I believe it was difficult to make it clear that Jess wasn't there at the party, but the edit is brilliant so the plot twist was understandable. I love that it's not straightforward, and yet so coherent and clear. great work! thank you!

[@tailgatecarpenter26]

Life will include loss. It's hard enough to process in old age but losing someone earlier in life hits harder and can be so difficult to transcend. My wife and I went to different high schools but fell in love and secretly got engaged four years before getting married at 19 & 20. Fast forward about six years and her health started failing her. This was a brutal twenty plus years of hospital visits and a load of diabetic related complications. I 'lost' my wife in our twenties yet endured driving her to Stanford Hospital for about fifteen years. Through agonizing pain and two comas we stuck together. Then in 2017 she suddenly died from a stroke. This morning, seven years later, the song "Don't Look Back" by Boston was on the radio and I smiled because it was one of her mottos. Life is to be lived regardless of the pain we endure. Looking back too often can stunt forward progress. Of course it's important to honor a loved ones memory but not at the cost of making the best of the rest of YOUR life as you can. I have watched this short film several times and appreciate the effort the actors, writers and production team put into making it.

[@katharina8005]

A beautiful and tragic film at the same time, which gets deep under your skin. From the scene where Sam is back home, I had to cry all the time.

[@juch889]

When one of the most beautiful thing turns to be just a memory who holds you back and stopping you to keep moving forward. This hurts a lot and I can't get over it 😥

[@a-mac025]

exactly :( sending so much love, I know.

[@kendiminjie9478]

what am i doing watching this at 4am and crying damn

[@danielleclaassens1792]

I am...shook. Like there are literally tears running down my face...

[@writertraveler9923]

I recently lost a loved one due to cancer, and this captures it perfectly. Thank you for putting this story out into the world.

[@mollydirienzo1943]

No words to describe how amazing this was

[@anthonyperez9223]

Show it

[@poojaverma5720]

nothing is worse than the feeling of loosing someone you love...

[@sherryspivey5991]

I lost my wife of nearly 15 yrs 8 months ago so this really hit close to home I still find it hard to go on everyday.

[@michaela6425]

Im so sorry to hear that I hope your well and ok 💗

[@patheticlover1573]

Im so sorry 💕💕💕

[@23V33]

Look,I know you have probably heard this a lot but...I am sorry for your loss but you will find a way to move on. She is looking down upon you and loving and protecting you even thought you can’t see her. God bless you so much

[@martinmunitz6753]

I can’t begin to imagine the pain you felt, but I genuinely hope that now, nine months later after having posted this message, you have reached the other side and that you have begun to move on with your life, albeit with a repaired heart.

[@vivianvu99]

So hurt to hear 😢 I'm so sorry, stay strong my dear

[@TheNownow22]

I'm not crying you're crying !! Everything was perfect the actresses, the script, the music thank you !!

[@elearias6330]

Beautiful and sad at the same time. Is when you remember that LOVE is more than a memory, a touch or a kiss. Is when everything else is bogus around you. But your reality is the person that you love, kiss and touch. Still in you, when you love someone more than yourself is when you can really say that you know what love is. Cuz goes beyond than a memory, Love is not a memory is a feeling. Buried inside us, until that pirate came to your ship(💜) and rescue you. Is a treasure that is always going to be alive and you’ll expose like in museums. So others can see and learn about the most beautiful feeling in the universe. Take care and be safe 💜🌹♥️

[@a-mac025]

This is beautiful

[@MB.2727]

WOW.. this is stupendous!! Amazing plot twist .. this story really needs part 2/3/4 possibly 5.. there’s scope for soooo much more ..this is outstanding work.. The storyline .. the writing n the actors 💗♥️👌👌👌powerful stuff

[@kaushikishyam9448]

Really awesome, heart touching, thank you for the short film 🌈

[@tanyabhaskar2888]

i came here for some cute gay content and now i feel emotionally attacked (but in a good way!) what an incredibly moving short film, i absolutely loved this

[@jessicaa.m.3346]

i've just watched this film and i have to say that is amazing... I ended up almost tearing up. It is a difficult situation to see the person you love slowly fade away. That representation in that film is absolutely moving. Keep writing because you are amazing, you really are.

[@gabrielvk8073]

I've watched a lot movie's and only dropped tears twice, this short film was the third time. That pain is something you never forget. With time becomes more tolerable i would say, but it is always there.

[@user-iz3nt9fr7l]

This is masterpiece. PERIODT.

[@a-mac025]

Watching it a second time and noticing all the perfect nuances that add to the whole story-line and effect, it's just a gorgeous film. I CRIED... I can't even describe how relatable this is, because I am speechless and my soul aches along with Sam--I am her. I imagine you know how relatable it is, though, because you are the one whom thought it up, masterfully wrote it and put it together. Beautiful art. Can't wait to see more from you! :)

[@yeomansue]

I was crying at the end. This was awesome. This would make a great full length movie about her living on after her loss and coping and finding love again 😘😘🌈🌈

[@YaBoy_Omi]

My eyes are... sweating... Its not tears. This was beautiful

[@kristinachausheva9051]

This was truly amazing! OMG! 💞 My heart goes out to everyone who has lost a loved one! Stay strong people, you loved one won't be happy seeing from above being sad.. One step at a time can climb mountains.

[@greentra101]

My heart just got ripped out. 😭

[@ava130]

This is the best short film I’ve ever seen. An amazing story with great cinematography. Thank you for this! This was so well made!

[@mickeyrosa7226]

Bravo and nicely done! That was very unexpected and had me crying when I don't even have a lesbian relationship. This was a lot to take in. Hope to see more shorts from this person. The first time I knew I was different and liked girls was when I was 10 and was crazy about my best friend then she died from a rare illness, a few years later and I can't even remember the name of the illness now. It hurt so much and for over thirty years from my twenties, I repressed my feelings for women because of her death and my parents unacceptance of my feelings for women until last August when I said no more denying who I am. Death of a loved one is never easy especially if you have feelings for them. It's hard to move on and meet someone new let alone come out of the closet. I hope those of you have feelings for someone in the gay community, have the strength and courage to face those feelings head on.

[@miraclethemagnificent1837]

17 is the magical number, that was how old we were when you slipped away. Sometimes we don't get to spend our lives with the love of our lives and I've had 2. One died the other went to live her life without me in it. We have to accept the things we can not change. Miracle and I are ready to go back to the planet we came from. Beautiful video, loved it and cried!

[@nora.t7414]

Woah....... I never cried so much in front of a short film before, but thank you. It was very very sad but the writing is incredible. Moving, touching, hard and yet so beautiful, thank you for that. Woah ❤️

[@zahrabintdaud829]

Legit.... I’ve never cried so much during a 12 minute video... omg...

[@sherlaneyuen6754]

This is so powerful, well made, articulate, thought provoking, delicate, beautiful, and heart breaking. Wow. 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

[@mariagabrielaperez8172]

Oh my God, my heart has broken into a thousand pieces 😭😭😭💔💔💔

[@cherrymaebosacodasig626]

💔

[@samsung3254]

I can only agree with all the praise already lavished on this production. Grief and loss, like so many things in life, are paths you walk alone. Hopefully you have support. If not, then I trust moments like these are the encouragement for some that they can make it through. To my experience, it is not that 'time heals' but that you grow into, accept and adapt to your new reality. Have patience with yourself and breathe! Thank You, again. ❤

[@alidaviolante]

Just came back to rewatch it!!!! I appreciated it even more!!! 💔👏🏻

[@mercuryinretrograde]

PLOT TWIST OF THE CENTURY WHAT?! This was absolutely amazing wow

[@soaimaileleota7525]

I must've watched tons and tons of mini films in different catagories and this had got to be one of the best Ive seen so far. Great acting for sure. I could feel the pain in the character. Great plot.. I love to be surprised with plot twist. Just amazing all around.

[@IndigoJas12]

This was beautiful! Best short film so far 😭😭😭😭

[@leachatee]

Omg i got goosebumps in my whole body up to my face for at least half a minute. This film was so moving, you did a wonderful job!

[@TheLightPirate]

There aren't many great things that has happened in my life. But this is one of the best things that has happened. Words can't even express.

[@shailjanandjha2782]

This made me cry, beautifully shot, written and performed. Thank you.

[@yanagamiart8170]

omg this was so well done and hella I'm crying out my eyes!!

[@joycee_e]

This film is so beautiful.. it just describes how it feels like to loose someone that you loved, oh gosh you make my eyes teary.

[@leaholicrombie]

Wow! This is simply beautiful. I did not expect that at all and it made me cry.

[@nikolabrzuch1108]

Oh damn... that took a turn I was not expecting 🤭 really well produced short film! Well done!! 🔥😍

[@sheillajoyce3141]

Besides the fact that this is super amazing the actresses are awesome they gave the story life and emotions, just perfect 👏🥰😭😍

[@joboden5031]

Oh my....wow. this is something else for short movies. This movie will stay with me for a long time. Absolutely beautiful, and brilliantly executed.

[@MalolaAnime]

This is gold. Both of the actresses on point.

[@NathFrance]

Wow !! Touché ! That's not what I expected at first. That's a powerful story with a great acting. I watch everything that's LGBT related and "Mindset" is among the best I've seen. Great job !

[@rinokumuras.b1tch601]

WOW omg I loved this. The storyline is great! I understand the characters and it's so fun to watch her life and learn everything about her! I Really loved it, My dad is a director and he even said how great this was when I showed him! Truly wonderful!❤️

[@JC-uj3zj]

Beautiful in every facet. You wrote and made a wonderful film. Thank you. I was tearing up in no time. Good luck with all your future endeavors but doesn't look like you need luck with that kind of talent.

[@ashleikerby6700]

That was the most beautiful thing I ever saw, my eyes will never be dry again 😭

[@preenachugani4623]

this took an unexpected turn, such beautiful writing!

[@willowrosenberg8486]

Perfect. Acting, filming. Music. Just perfect. Crying 😭

[@sandra3247]

Wow! I would say one of the best shorts I've seen in a long time. Heartbreakingly beautiful. Well acted and very emotional.

[@sophbennett1760]

This was one of the best short films I have ever watched it made me very emotional and it broke my heart at the end to know what happened to both characters and it was truly amazing and you did an awesome job 🥺👍🏻

[@cosmicgrime3792]

My t-shirt is all wet from crying...& I don't know how to stop ..... 🎉🎉 Amazing WORKKKKKKKK🌨️🔥🔥🔥

[@saintkat8983]

This hit me like a truck 😭, also this is one of the best lgbt films i've watched. Beautiful and at the same time it hurts.

[@bamzy1095]

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏🤝🤝🤝. This is wonderful , Good is an Understatement . Authentic and amazing is the word !! ✊🏾🗣🗣

[@rakeemanajiy5889]

This was both heartbreaking and beautiful. ❤️🥺

[@oonamaria2810]

Wow. That was so beautiful, and obviously the best short film ever. My heart is touched.

[@monamishka4033]

this broke my heart.. what a beautiful movie!

[@TheAmoshaya]

this is the most beautiful and emotional short film that i have ever seen

[@sofske2553]

This was absolutely incredible. Beautiful short.

[@trevorama]

From one filmmaker to another, bravo! 👏🏼 This is the best short I’ve seen in a long long time. Looking forward to seeing what else springs forth from your formidable talents. ❤

[@annarabano1853]

After watching this, My reaction was literally like this 😲 this short film is a gem 😍

[@Sarrymee]

Thought she cheated. But the twist tho.. 😣😭💔

[@CandieT18]

Great movie ! Really enjoyed the story and the acting. Those emotions... great job !! 😍

[@blackwhites]

right 😍

[@stevethomas74]

Really well done, from the writing to the acting, cinematography and directing. The actress who played 'Jess' in particular; her eyes and face absolutely encapsulated the emotions so powerfully, such a striking looking lady! Props to everyone involved and I hope you went far with this 🙂❤

[@JC-uj3zj]

Well done Amelia Crawford! Thank you for this story and this perfect way you and your crew presented it. Keep up the good work. I'll be looking out for more from you.

[@ruffoink9181]

This made me cry. I know what it's like to loose someone that means the world to you.

[@marlie676]

OMG I'm crying the twist is to much

[@nik.97]

This yet another film I'm crying at 😭

[@ryeinglis1595]

oh my god this is gorgeous

[@ZZ-ez1kg]

Wow.. this really got to me. So beautiful and sad. Such a powerful short story.

[@1isgrl88]

WOW!!! Just Wow!!!! Beautiful punch to the gut... ETA: Lost my wife of almost 18 yrs just this February so rewatching this is still a punch to the gut.😢

[@christinastroup438]

Such an incredible and touching movie. I felt it to the core and hope to see more of your art. You are an amazing story teller and thank you for trusting all of us with such an incredible piece.

[@nathalief25]

Wow. Shocking but powerfull. Awesome short, probably one of the better ones out here. Congrats on making this masterpiece 🥰🥰🥰

[@EKing-km9it]

thanks for making me cry at 2am i really appreciate that

[@jotripodi9872]

All I can say is wow....can't see through my tears right now.....thanks for posting

[@TheWittySam]

This is THE best short film I have ever seen.

[@wennawoo3482]

Wow! This was so beautiful, so moving, so well done. Thankyou for creating this. ❤🧡💛💙💜