Most OVERLOOKED neurodivergent trait on the planet?!

Possibly the rarest autism/neurodivergent trait? I hope I can bring some awareness to this and get people talking and sharing! I would really love to know what it is. Honestly even when this came up on my diagnosis, I didn't get given a name or any information about what this is. There's just a small paragraph included in my diagnosis report about it 😂
0:00 Intro
1:00 'Uneveness' with examples
2:27 Sound & light
3:07 WHY 'it' needs to be even
3:36 Stuck in loops
4:08 When does it happen?
4:33 Degree of effect
5:25 How it can look different
6:28 Outro

[@gailterry3134]

Yes! My uneveness issues are mostly with how things feel on my body. Like, both socks have to feel the same in my shoes and both shoes have to feel the same on both feet. I have spent way too much time tightening and loosening shoe laces. Also, I have to have both sleeves at the same length. Hate clothes that are too tight in some places, but too loose in others. This happens in so many other areas besides clothing. Mostly they are tactile, but can also involve things I see as visually uneven or unbalanced. It makes me feel like the Uneveness sinks into my brain and makes me feel (and look) awkward or incomplete or unstable...like something is really wrong with me. Which, then, makes me feel worthless.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

I relate so hard to the laces haha. Forever tightening and loosening. I totally understand the clothes and how they feel too, it's one of those things for me that it only becomes a big problem if I notice it or like, can't get it to feel right, then I spiral 😅 thanks so much for sharing, I understand the feelings of worthlessness, and it can be really lonely.

[@isabellammusic]

I was thinking OCD. Anxiety are heightened when you're overstimulated which leads to more intense OCD. I've struggled with that my whole life and I'm Neurodivergent. I supressed my stims and then my OCD got worse.

[@thecroft6070]

As you alluded to, it is OCD. It takes on different characteristics in different individuals, but is always about feeling you HAVE to to something a certain way. In my case, I feel compelled to go through the same routine every night - checking all windows and doors are locked (which is sensible enough), but also doing nonsensical things like touching the security chain in the same place, looking under the bed, and making sure the bedroom door is open at a 45 degree angle. Only then can I think about going to sleep. It's not detrimental to my health so I consider it a mild quirk rather than a "disorder". If anything, it's Obsessive Compulsive ORDER 😉

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Thank you! I can't believe I haven't considered this until I was actually filming this video.. Thanks for sharing your experience, I actually have a thing with doors too, they have to be shut, at all times, otherwise I can't do anything 😂 much like you I have routines, but they're more sort of a ritual that I assumed fell under autism, but there are definitely some things I 'have' to do that I haven't quite been able to put down to autism. Obsessive compulsive order, love it!

[@RobManser77]

@@CharlotteElizabeth3000From what you’ve said in this video, it sounds much more like autism.

[@Sunset1705]

OMG I can’t believe someone else has this!!! This is something I’ve always done but never really thought about it or had a name for it and no one else knows that I do it. As someone said, below, rather than OCD, I think it’s more related to needing patterns and order, or as you say, needing things to be “even”. I don’t do it because I think something bad will happen if I don’t - like with OCD where there’s normally some type of intrusive thought that accompanies it that is the reason for the behavior/compulsion, in order to get rid of the intrusive thought - for me, I just need it to be even. It’s definitely a sensory, pattern thing that I think would fall under autism. Super interesting.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Haha that's exactly it, "I just need it to be even". I definitely don't think anything bad will happen to me or others, I just need to get the feeling off me 😂 thanks for sharing, I'm so glad it's not just me that feels this!

[@OldTimer1970]

Wearing a watch is a no, and wearing my wedding ring still feels uncomfortable after 14 years (I have developed a stim by turning my wedding ring around my finger using the adjacent fingers). I can't wear a jumper without pushing the sleeves up past my elbow, but I can wear long-sleeve shirts as long as the cuffs are tight. I hadn't really thought about it before, unevenness describes it well.

[@irregularlyregularly]

When I used to wear a wristwatch, I had to wear a hand chain or wristbands on the other hand

[@aonain09]

In my case (AuDHD), this is a case of predictability and certainty. The concepts of rituals and routines are more or less intertwined from what I’ve read in many autistic communities. In OCD, a core behavior pattern is: to get rid of the unwanted/intrusive thoughts, they feel driven to do something repetitively (compulsions). There’s no unwanted/intrusive thoughts prior to my rituals, nor any consequence (other than *my life feels like a mess because unpredictable = bad*) if I don’t act on the compulsion to shut all of the lights in my living room in a certain order. Correct me if I’m wrong now: in OCD, a person would i.e think: ‘’If I don’t shut the lights in the same order as always, my dog will die.’’

[@garageofdad]

I'm 62 now and been doing that all my life and am totally used to it. I enjoy being different and gain so much more in life than most :)

[@onseafilms1770]

I wonder if it has to do with symmetry and completeness. 'I've started a task, now I feel compelled to finish it else things don't feel right'. Here are a few examples for me: 1. If I'm visualising a word/phrase in my head as I'm typing but something interrupts that process, it throws me off and I feel compelled to finish the word exactly as I was expecting it to happen in my head rather than accepting any alternative. For example, if I'm googling something and the exact phrase I was thinking of drops down in the suggested searches? Not interested! I'm typing the whole thing out manually else things feel a bit off. Same with mistyping a password (I will not slow down if I trip over my fingers even if it means getting it wrong another three times!) or autocomplete (I might even delete a 'correct' autocorrected word just to be able to have the 'satisfaction' of typing it out myself). 2. If I scratch the left corner of my mouth, I feel I need to scratch the right corner at the same time. And even the very central point between (on the groove below the mouth just above the chin) at the same time as the two sides. It's again a subtle compulsion, but enough to make those parts of my face start feel itchy if I don't do it. And it's the same with either side of my nose and the centre between my nostrils. 3. If I scuff my foot awkwardly while walking along because the pavement is slightly uneven, I'll become hyper aware of the feeling of the ground on my feet until I've deliberately scuffed the other foot in the same way. 4. My parents let me stay up and watch the 1998 World Cup and I woke up the next day with conjunctivitis in one eye. They told me if I need to scratch my left eye, I should only use my left finger so I didn't infect the other eye. Anyway, all this to say that I haven't touched my left eye with my right finger or my right eye with my left finger for close to 25 years.

[@KaiSyversen]

Unevenness, likable description. And I hate wearing socks because they are either, too tight, too loose, itchy, moves around, or tighten while walking.

[@irregularlyregularly]

In college this developed into more OCD-like symptoms and I began developing numbering systems-like eating things in 3's making an even number of steps, etc. A buddy of mine noticed it and privately helped me to to get out of the mental trap that I was in at the time. So now its not OCD-like but if I wanna feel safe the evenness, equalness, equity or fairness of things helps my brain to calm down. The more I think and type...It might have to do with a sort of internal double empathy thing

[@Moddage]

While I don’t particularly relate to this experience as a whole, there were some fragments of it that I did relate to. Particularly regarding sensitivity to certain things setting you off depending on whether or not you’re having a good or bad day. There are definitely days, or even moments during days, where I can pretty much ignore almost anything that could/would otherwise negatively impact my day, mood, functionality, etc. And there are some days or moments during days where it seems like I’m being bombarded with more and more things that are driving me further into overwhelm and eventually meltdown status. Occasionally I become hyper-aware of negative stimuli on bad days and can manage to keep myself from heading down the path of overwhelm, but that is definitely not always the case and requires a substantial amount of deliberate effort which is a bit draining. That seems to be situationally dependent, like if I’m in a situation in public where I don’t really feel like I have a choice other than to remain functional(or at least appear so to everyone else) it’s a bit easier to achieve, if that makes any sense? With all that being said, I guess I will let you know if I am now suddenly aware or hyper-aware of a similar balancing act that has been going on subconsciously that I somehow haven’t noticed.😅 Regarding your end comment about needing to stop doing the sound effects, I would like to quote the wonderful Bob Ross here “you have to make the noises or it doesn’t work”

[@MrDaydreamer1584]

It sounds like OCD to me.

[@Sun-ng7gj]

Are you a trained mental health professional?

[@MrDaydreamer1584]

@@Sun-ng7gjNo. Why do you ask?

[@irregularlyregularly]

OCD is debilitating. This isn't quite debilitating as OCD unless left unattended, and it becomes OCD.

[@Daniel-jm8we]

OCD traits are often associated with autism.

[@RobManser77]

No, this is 100% autism.

[@masteryoflife5133]

I’ve never had that, but I’ve had the habit of stepping over imaginary lines, and if I disobey my brain it will bug me to go back and step over it.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

That's a really interesting one! I do that, (not the lines), but I'll accidentally do something and then it becomes a habit that I have to do every time 🤦‍♀️

[@catbehindthecurtain]

I've heard a couple of creators mention similar things but I don't think there's an offical name/term yet or it's call different things depending on the flavor(s) of the ND. So, a complusion/dread thing for OCDers, a 'pattern recognition thing' for autistics, and maybe a 'vestibular sensory thing' when physical sensations/touch are involved? A little bit of everything bouncing around in our brains getting all mixed together? My daughter and I have always thought of it as 'needing symmetry' in our environment. Our clothes have to to feel 'even' on our bodies, so like the weight of things in our pockets has to evenly distributed. Rooms in the house have to look balanced - how the furniture is arranged and pictures hung on the wall - and if the window placement is 'not right' and throws things off, it has to be 'fixed'. We have hung curtains where there was no window in order to balance a room so we could arrange it. And so, so many more examples I could give. For us, it seems like a few different things kicking in together, sometimes in different combinations, but it all equals 'something feels weird, I don't like it, make it go away'. If we're able to do whatever it takes to make that feeling go away - GREAT! That means we process it, catalog it for future quick reference, and move on; probably doing this all day long and never really noticing it. It's only when our brain can't find the right pattern/procedure/routine to follow and automatically 'make the weird go away' that it bothers us enough to notice it.(???) This of course happens far too often because disrupting our patterns, procedures, and routines - in ways that never make sense to our brains - seems to be what the world loves to do.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Love that you and your daughter are on the same page with this! Me and my mum are quite similar haha. Interesting it's been mentioned by others, I definitely need to do some more research into this! I think you're absolutely right though, it could be for different reasons depending on ND. Thank you for sharing!

[@aiemys]

I don't think it's OCD. It does sound like an autistic trait that might be related to pattern seeking and needing order and balance. It might be compulsive, but that doesn't mean it's OCD or the underlying mechanism is OCD. It also made me think about integrating sensory perception. I'd research compulsive behavior outside of OCD and interhemispheric communication of sensory perception.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Thanks so much! Honestly it's the one thing that's bugged me the most over the years, not knowing what it falls under. Thank you for a good starting point 😊😬

[@aiemys]

@CharlotteElizabeth3000 I want to say my gut instinct with this is that it's more about sensory processing, and the compulsivity is secondary, but I don't know where that intuition comes from. . It does plausibly sound like something a young child might have accidentally started doing to self-soothe because her brain couldn't interpret all the different signals. Almost like giving yourself feedback. It also brings to mind split brain patients and sensory illusion experiments. Like the one where they put your hand in really cold ice, but it feels like it's burning kind of thing. What really makes me think it's not OCD is the lack of an obsessive element. You can have obsession without visible external compulsive behaviour and that fits under OCD, but not the other way around.

[@aiemys]

@@CharlotteElizabeth3000 it just occurred to me if it could also be a form of self-mimicry?

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

@@aiemys that's a really interesting thought actually, I've not really even heard much of self mimicry! In all honestly I'm really not sure where it all comes from, I just know that I get physical feelings of 'ick' when something is uneven or unbalanced, and drives me mad until I can fix it. Thank you again for your thoughts, it's been really really helpful!

[@aiemys]

@CharlotteElizabeth3000 looking forward to the video update since I really want to know too

[@sarahedwards5766]

WOW thank you for posting this!! I'm AuHD and my whole life I've been so obsessed with things feeling even, even my friend dimmed a lamp on one side a setting lower and I was bugging out because the balance was off then, and with the touching it being even and with hearing just... thank you... i feel so seen! Thought i was alone in this. Touch a surface and it's cool to the touch gotta touch other hand in same spot to same surface to even it out lol.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Omg yes, touching a surface in the same spot (sometimes depending on temp, sometimes if its a textured surface)😂 pretty much daily here. Thank you for sharing! You're definitely not alone ❤️

[@aarondavis8433]

My youngest is autistic and this was something the doctors spoke with me about. She is regressive autistic (spoke normally till she was about 2 then lost the ability to speak, etc) and due to this was diagnosed early. One of the things the doctors suggested was to help overcome some of the sensory issues was to run a soft brush over each arm in turn for about 5 minutes each day in hopes of desensitizing her. It did help, oddly enough so did tickling her. She would actually come to me and say "daddy tickle me" I never understood why as I myself can not stand to be tickled. Perhaps it was her evening out. It's funny before you had mentioned ,in the first video I watched of yours, that you're autistic I wondered if you were. I forget exactly what it was but something excited you and you began stemming by flapping your hands in the same way my daughter does. To be honest it brought a big smile to my face, It's not often in the "neurotypical" world you get to see authentic happiness. When I see someone stemming like that, the physical manifestation of happiness, it can only fill you with joy. I hope you and my Rory (Aurora) never mask that away from the world, we need that.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

First, I absolutely adore your daughters name. Second, thank you so much for sharing this! I've not heard of desensitizing methods before, but it actually makes a lot of sense! Highly possible that it was/is her version of 'evening it out'. I'm very thankful that there are people sharing their stories and relating to my own experiences, it's really nice knowing I'm not alone 😅 also, the flapping, I do a lot when I get excited (or stressed) and there's probably tons of footage on my old streams of me doing it, I just never knew what it was or why I did it! So didn't think much of it. Thanks again for sharing this :)

[@tomchamberlain4329]

Stop saying so many relatable things! :) I get this too, it's one of many ridiculous things I do that I now realise is related to autism since I was only diagnosed a few years back. I think of it as "balancing" or "undoing" or something like that. Like if I scratch myself or feel a scratch sensation that only scratches one way along my skin, I often have to "undo" it by scratching the other way, and often it's like you say....I have to match the intensity of the action an cancel it out. Sometimes if I brush past something like a handle or a door frame, and I feel a particular type of abrasive scratch sensation on my skin, almost have to match it like this, but not just copy it, it's like my brain decides a layer of my being has been flaked off that exact spot, and I then have to physically use a different surface (like the back f a fingernail or another gentle surface) to lay the "material" back down. That makes absolutely no sense at all, I know. But hopefully you get it or someone reading this does. I don't know when I started doing this. I can't remember not doing it. I have a suspicion it might be related to Tourette's, because that's often comorbid with autism and since my bro has Tourette's (likely undiagnosed autistic as well) and has some odd twitches and physical movements that I look at and think "even though I don't do that exact thing you do, I think I do other things that come from the same place". If that makes sense? Might be related, might not, but I also have real difficulty with clothes twisting round my body like if I'm wearing a cap or a hoody and said headgear is not perfectly aligned front to back on my head, I feel really uncomfortable. Obviously being male there is a particular issue with boxers but I think I feel that particularly strongly, because they twist round so easily and it's not just a male anatomy thing I'm sure it's just purely the fact they are no longer perfectly seated. I guess this might also spill into the way so many autistic people have difficulty with seams. And by extension that might also then be related to Tourette's! But I'm just speculating there. Oh yeah big big relate on the sound effects thing hahaha. I'm an absolute random noise machine when I'm left by myself

[@gerzsone30]

"Limbic and motor circuits involved in symmetry behavior in Tourette's syndrome". I'd call it a 'tic'. I can relate, not specificly to the unevenness kind, but more like accidentally bumping into a certain object with a distinctive texture, material or temperature. There is a feeling of urge to sense it again on purpose, doesn't matter which side side. Be it a bathroom wall tile when reaching for a towel, or the edge of the kitchen counter when reaching for a glass. Not always, but more often when anxiety level is high.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Ohh. That's really interesting. So for symptoms that display in tourettes, can they cross over to other things or..? I mean I call some of my behaviours tics anyway, because I don't know what else to call them 😅 but I do not consider myself to have tourettes (I don't really know that much about it). I can relate to 'when anxiety level is high' - this always seems to exacerbate things!

[@Scarygothgirl]

I relate it to OCD. It's one of the things I experienced as a child before I started heavily masking (I am late diagnose autistic due to my high masking, currently trying to unmask and make sense of my mental health history).

[@tanaka9959]

Finally, I''ve found someone who work exactly like me ! It's just so cool to see im not the only one to be like that. I know this going to sound ridiculous, but could u make a place where people that "have the same thing" can chat with each other ? Like, i think it could help some people (including me) to have a better understanding of themself and also make friend... Sorry for my broken english XD, english isn't my main language

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Thank you for commenting! That's a really good idea, I already have a discord (from my twitch streaming days), but it's definitely something I will think about creating if others would find it helpful/want to meet others 😊

[@Touay.]

Ah yes, the need for symmetry!

[@serenabear6272]

I feel like this could fall under " just right " ocd ! Thank u for videos ! (:

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

''just right'' - love it 😅

[@bendo9162]

I always described it as a need for balance or symmetry, though not only in the geometric sense, but also in e.g. a rhythmic sense (e.g. doing somthing twice on the right side of the body would fill me with the need to do it twice on the left side as well, and after that sometimes the need to repeat the same pattern backwards, i. e. first on the left side, then on the right side). For me, there is a strong sensory component to it that can show itself in multiple ways. E.g. if I step on a crack in the road, I feel an "echo" of the sensation in the foot I touched it with. To restore balance or symmetry (and thus, to have this "echo on my other foot as well), I have to step on something similar with my other foot as well. The need for that feels a bit like an itch. For me, it can be ignored to an extent or be "overwritten" by a different pattern, but, it is quite uncomfortable. Additionally, restoring balance or symmetry does not always have to mean that I have to repeat the same pattern on the respective other side of the body in exactly the same way. Sometimes aspects of it are enough (e.g. I can step on a different but similar crack in the road with the second foot, or sometimes, even a line of shadow is enough). This may be related to what you describe in the situation whe you punched the steering wheel in the car.

[@TheLastEgg08]

I do this even when I’m dancing and it’s not compulsory or obsessive it just happens on its own so kinda weird.

[@SteinGauslaaStrindhaug]

Same... The worst thing is when I have a pain or injury on one side of the body (and I get that a lot because I'm hyper mobile and also pretty clumsy); because I really hate the asymmetry of the sensation; but it also would be _very_ inconvenient to have the same pain in both legs 😅With only one bad leg I can at least walk fairly normally with my cane. But for minor pains like cuts or burns on one hand; I have occasionally tried to even it out somewhat by pinching my skin on the other side.

[@sambarker7930]

I get this. Its even little things like if I catch a glance of my nose with one eye then ny other eye has to also catch a glance of it. I also group syllables together into two groups when I'm reading, ideally 4 at a time (I actually do this with numberplate too constantly. If I take say the Essex boys' Range Rover numberplate, F424 NPE, then "F42" is the first group, "4" is the neutral outlier as there's an odd number of syllables in the registration, and "NPE" is the final group. Another example would be AA07 AAA, where AA0 and the Sev of seven is the first group, and the Ven of seven as well as AAA is the second group). I think in some ways I'm fortunate though because I'm very aware its not actually important, so I can overcome it

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Omg yes, I actually do that too with the sight thing, damn, so many layers to this 😅 the number plate thing is really interesting, I don't do this with syllables, but I do group (physical) things together when it 'feels right to do' - like you, this isn't super important, so I don't need to do it all the time. Thank you for sharing!

[@worstworkshop]

Other people have said it, but it's called "symmetry," and it's more often associated with OCD. I am diagnosed "severe" OCD, and there's a lot of intersectionality. If I have you wondering if you also have OCD, don't worry. You have me worries I also have ASD, so at least that's symmetry.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Thank you for this! OCD has been mentioned a lot, and I honestly hadn't given it much thought. I also don't really know much about it, but there's been tons of helpful comments so I have a bunch of stuff to go away and research now. Haha, symmetry is one word for that 😬 I think there is a lot of crossover with neurodivergence in general, but it's entirely possible that you could be!

[@Jco176]

Bruh wtf how have you just described me PERFECTLY. Are you me??? Am I you??? I try bringing this up with my mates and they all look at me like I'm genuinely fucking insane so I honestly thought it was just me. Seeing this vid, and the people in the comments..... Man, if this is the catalyst for me getting off my arse and seeing my GP I'm gonna be pissed off.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Yessss!! I relate, I've tried to explain it so many times to people irl, and they look at me like o.O good luck if you go ahead with seeing a GP!

[@itsicandy]

It sounds like OCD to me, my son who is ADHD and possible autism is the same, we call it his 'tics" He will need to repeat a behavior in even repetition. A lot of that has to do with touch and sensations as you describe.

[@jeremytipton6076]

Yeah, OCD, me and my brother both have it. I'm also autistic.

[@ellaboobella8770]

I feel the same way about that. So weird.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

So glad it's not just me 😅

[@upbeatoffbeat5293]

Magnefized is my new fav word

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

😂

[@Kauffy901]

Like a lot of people have already said, it sounds like OCD-- except not, kinda. (Though in another video, you said something about flicking a lightswitch at the bottom of the stairs a certain number of times-- that sounds OCD). Obviously, there's compulsion involved. Also, it sounds obsessive (as in, you have trouble "moving on" until its satisfied). The disorder part is relative: how impaired are you? How much does it affect your functioning compared to that of a "statistically normal" person of your general demographic? Recommended reading: Jon Richardson's special about his OCD. (kzbin.info/www/bejne/jKTdoaKBj6-Ca6c) I do have compulsive behaviors, but I'm also PDA, so I'm also compelled not to be compelled by anything. Yes, thank you for asking-- my life IS a picnic. I have been fairly obsessed with symmetry since I was little, but I think my inability to keep things in balance, and through doing design stuff, realizing that you can have symmetry in an algebraic fashion: that is, the two sides can be equal without being equivalent. For Americans reading: equal means that two things have the same worth; equivalent means that the two things are functionally the same. For example men & women are equal (ideally-- we enjoy the same rights, etc.), but not equivalent-- on average, a man will have an easier time reaching things on high shelves than a woman, while at the same time, a woman will have an easier time producing another living human from her body than a man would do. .. symmetry in algebraic fashion, so I stopped designing things that were symmetrical visually, and started to think further into what other qualities about something I can compare. Like, rather than just the temperature of the touch, what was the pressure? Length of time? Order of contact (fingers first, heel first?) Speed of contact-- was it a tap, a slap, or as soothing as a nap? What about considering that you already do this? What if your accidental contacts are actually your subconscious trying to discharge the Powers of Satan™ that have been building up? And it's Satan his sulfury self that wants you to even it out (that is, put it back OUT of balance)? I do find that once I start parsing stuff into these kinds of questions, it comes apart, partly because it becomes too confusing to adhere to.

[@henryskyy5123]

Maybe 'symmetry constraints'?If not so,it's google's fault,because I asked google to translate the german term😊

[@user-xv9pm4nr4d]

I definitely did this as a child. And then realized that it was pfrowned upon or thought of as strange by other people. So I stopped doing it. It doesn't mean that I didn't want to do it. It means I didn't do it. And now I'm not sure. I feel the need to do it as an adult. But so many things that i've masked over the years Seem to have disappeared but then have they or on my just suppressing them?

[@chessgame00]

New Sub here! Hi 🖐 ..Great content, thank you. So, everytime my head leaves my pillow, even for just a second, I have to flip my pillow over. My whole life.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Hi!! Haha ah you're a pillow flipper, I'm the comeplete opposite, can't flip it because it feels 'different' 😂 thank you for sharing!

[@jakubjozwik152]

First time i found anyone with similar issues. Sounds like ocd.

[@wesleyehowell]

when I delivered newspapers as a teenager, if I passed by a telephone pole or streetlight on the way down a street, I HAD to pass by it on the same side on the way back, or I felt like I'd left a string or rope wrapped around all the obstacles I'd passed. to loosen it, I needed to go back the same way I'd come. while eating chips, I HAVE to chew the same number of chips on each side of my month. I also have OCD in playing Solitaire. I have to alternate colors in the Stacks of Cards I'm making. I get it! LOL!

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Omg me too with the solitare 😂 thank you for sharing!

[@jeyjey9153]

Could it maybe be a form of ocd? Because I recently saw a video by aspieworld, that if he touches a certain stone with his one feet, and has to go back to touch it with the other feet. Or do you mean, that it has more to do with sensory overwhelm?

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

It really could be! More research needed. But yeah there's two aspects to it for me, like, I'd have to go back and touch the stone because 'I just have to', but also yeah, the sensory overwhelm aspect too.

[@jeyjey9153]

@@CharlotteElizabeth3000 I'm also still in the process of learning about autism. It's so hard to tell wether it could be the one thing or the other. Especially because there are so many things connected/ linked to autism like trauma, ocd, adhd. Is it PDA or depression? Is it sensory overload or PTSD? Is it dissociation or a shutdown? Sooo many questions. It's so confusing. But videos like yours are helping so much to understand. Especially because there a so many desinformation out there. It's really helpful to get a personal insight on autism. Thanks so much ❤️

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

@@jeyjey9153 I know! It's such a minefield. I'm still learning myself, but I thought I would just share my experience along the way. I'm so pleased it's helping, thanks so much for your lovely comment! ❤️

[@Passing_for_Neurotypical]

I kinda now what you mean maybe. I like swimming and I don't mind walking in the rain, but I don't like if someone puts some water on my neck. Since it's like a sensation in one location and is too much in one location, both in temperature and location. Same deal with temperature in general. I can deal with cold or hot fine, but yeah if only a little is too cold or too host it sucks. But it's not all over my body, but only in certain locations. So I'm not sure maybe this is different. But I like commenting and maybe others can related.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

This actually made a lot of sense to me, I really think a lot of people (not just neurodivergent) experience varients of this 'thing' (whether it's ocd or not), and it's a really difficult f**king thing to describe 😂 but as soon as you hear someone else trying to explain it you're like ohhhh.. yeah I have that! Or something similar. Hope that all just made sense and I didn't ramble. Anyway, thanks for sharing!

[@jabberwockytdi8901]

A type of "OCD" type thing? ( don't really like using any acronym with "D" in) like eating food in certain order, needing things to be in even numbers or in fives etc. Be interested if "eveness" goes with being more ambidextrous than hard wired left or right handed?

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

An interesting perspective/observation! Definitely more research needed. Just glad I'm not the only one who experiences this/similar feelings!

[@aricnorman8558]

I do some pretty weird shit in the name of symmetry.

[@GraySmithMusic]

Liked this before even watching.

[@GraySmithMusic]

Actually, I changed my mind; you crazy.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

@@GraySmithMusic 👀

[@A.AInc.]

You are evenly beautiful on both sides 😊 😍 😊

[@dus10dnd]

maybe unbalanced or asymmetry, or something

[@gillrobinson3517]

Research the fuck out of it. Yeah. My life

[@meatme53]

Sometimes if I’m walking and one heel scrapes the ground. Sometimes it’s an urge and I start it, sometimes it’s a mistake. Anyway I can’t walk “normal” again Neil I feel bad be gotten the scraping length and/or depth of “pressure”is more or less even to my satisfaction.

[@CharlotteElizabeth3000]

Omg yesss. I do this too!