MUM CONTROLS WHAT I EAT FOR 24 HOURS - ANOREXIA RECOVERY - I HAVE NO CHOICE!

Mum controls what I eat for a day, and the food she chose was DIVINE! (obviously)
I loved doing this, it was so fun!
Mum chose food she loves, and it opened my eyes to sooooo much that I have been missing out on! TRYING NEW FOOD IS AMAZING!
What would you like to eat out of everything Mum chose for me?
FOLLOW ME ON INSTAGRAM: / elzani__

[@irisfay3598]

Your mum seems to be a massive support for you, I’m so proud of how well you did x

[@elzani6744]

she really is! Ahh thank you so much xx

[@sarahfebruary]

When I look at you, I can see what a genuine, sensitive, kind and gentle person you are. I can also see the pain that you have been through. You're eyes are so expressive. And BEAUTIFUL! Much love from New Jersey USA

[@ambery7277]

Exactly

[@rosetree2624]

You can tell you and your mom are best friends 💕

[@elzani6744]

She is my best friend ever - the greatest x

[@jesslovely5365]

Her mother is gorgeous and has such a warmth to her ☕ loved the food choices she picked too

[@elzani6744]

isn't she so gorgeous!! And always so happy she lights up every room :D

[@lauraharrington7589]

Dawny K oh my god shut up? Have you any tact? This is someone with an eating disorder you’re talking about. Clearly you haven’t a clue how all of this works

[@its_msk]

@@lauraharrington7589 actually I do which is why I needed to comment. All of these viewers saying how cool and wonderful this was are uneducated.

[@lauraharrington7589]

Dawny K well if you’re so informed, think about how you would feel if someone said everything you were eating during your recovery was full of sugar. This is just a snippet of her life, you don’t know what she eats the other 99% of the time. It’s not just about nutritionally dense food during recovery, it’s about breaking through psychological fears around certain foods too, so this is a big step for elzani.

[@elzani6744]

@@its_msk I do eat fruit and veg and protein haha, this was a challenge video and also I want to eat fear foods! I have lived for so many years restricting myself and only eating a few things - being scared of so much. No food is good or bad, and after so long I want to eat what I want and what I am scared of.

[@lunadarkwood3272]

Your mum is an angel and well done Elzani you did great :)

[@elzani6744]

she really is!! Thank you :D

[@rachel.c.p9302]

In my opinion, the best way for you to weight restore and recover would be for you to ask members of your family to take over control of your food choices until you are able to take responsibility for eating enough for yourself. You seemed so much less anxious in this video and that makes TOTAL sense because trying to battle those eating disorder thoughts relating to when / what / how much to eat is utterly exhausting. If I was in your situation, I would hand over my food choices to a 'trusted other' in a heartbeat. Please be brave and do this because you have loved ones around you who can be incredible allies in your fight against your eating disorder. Much love xx.

[@omgfinally4340]

I do agree with the less anxious thing

[@BibsBR]

It actually makes sense! This method helped me through my recovery. In my mind I couldn't actively choose to eat a certain fear food, I could only eat it if someone suggested or chose it for me, because then I was "obligated" to eat it. So I could be craving a burger really bad, but if someone let me choose what we would eat for lunch, i would definitely choose something like a plain salad, but if that person said "hey, let's eat a burger" that was okay. I guess that really took the pressure of battling my thoughts hahahaha

[@bro-kc5xd]

yes! it takes the pressure off!

[@issymather8116]

you should try Nutella stuffed French toast with icecream on top!

[@elzani6744]

omg that sounds incredible!

[@matildaconnelly1982]

Love these challenges Elzani! Maybe Sataras choice next?

[@elzani6744]

they are so fun! Maybe, they are quite busy atm with school and exams but it'll be cool for the girls to choose again!

[@jayye.8886]

omg yessssss

[@arctichare2740]

I think Blaze should decide! 😂

[@sunnybunny6275]

Elzani, I know this is an old video but honestly you saying ‘yes please’ to more syrup made me cry. You are so so strong and such an inspiration, and something that small in the eyes of people without ED's is such a big step for you. You've come so far since this video and I am SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!

[@HauntedOcean]

i love how your mum waits to take the first bite with you haha :’)) proud of u also x

[@wicklandtube]

Favorite place in the video is where your dad says he is proud of you.

[@Moffiioo]

Its really cool to see how much better you look and act! You're glowing alot more now! Keep going, everyone is super proud of you El!

[@elzani6744]

yaaaay! Thank you so much!!

[@christie8822]

yayayay you did it!! you should let your dad do it next im interested to see what he would be pick lol. your looking more amazing!

[@erinnicole5348]

Yes! I second this idea.

[@katiebwheeler]

Our French toast we dip in a mixture of eggs, milk, cinnamon and vanilla and then cook the pan. We put maple syrup on ours :)

[@elzani6744]

ahhhhhh sounds amazing!!!

[@hippymama100]

Yes! Let the bread go slightly stale first, then do all the above. AMAZING!!!

[@reidwill6604]

@@hippymama100 yup the whole reason french toast is a thing is to rehydrate otherwise unusable (stale) bread

[@summerrose1545]

You are such a nice person, very polite toward your mom, and so appreciative of her. She must be proud to have you as her daughter.

[@kirstyindark4972]

Your progress is amazing Elzani, absolutley divine 😘

[@elzani6744]

ahhh thank you! SO DIVINE!

[@kirstyindark4972]

Haha love it,honestly adore you and your videos. Its nice to know someone local is youtubing and creating awareness at the same time xx

[@Mari741s]

There's just something about an anorexic, who you can see, are ignoring the voice in their heads - and eating, while enjoying the food

[@aesyfreedom9655]

When your dad said “woah I’m proud of you” ❤️

[@ilySolida]

You've been rubbing off on me..I keep using the words devine & fancy ahaha.

[@justmeemi6350]

OMG same here haha

[@coloradonativewood9007]

I love how your mom encourages you. She knows that getting that first bite out of the way is the biggest hill. She is so tender and not forceful just lovingly leading you into the first bite to overcome that anxiety about it. A couple of strong women. I know you don't always feel strong but getting up everyday and saying this is going to be a good day makes you stronger, and every bite you take is a victory. Keep fighting those ED thoughts, and Fueling your body to get to the healthier you!

[@bunie3996]

I know this video is quite old, but THANK U for making recovery way more fun and exiting. It’s so scary, but you’re making it sound a lot more enjoyable and wholesome. Trying my hardest 💪

[@bluebell805]

I just want to say thank you for sharing these moments with us. You are doing so well and I know I am not the only follower who is so proud of you. My mum was a huge part of my recovery process so I love seeing your mom pushing you out of your comfort zone but also being so supportive. KUDOS to her. Keep staying strong, keep fighting every day. If you ever feel lonely or feel your vision gets clouded, please don't hesitate to reach out to me or any of your followers. The future is so bright for you Elzani

[@mckennalogie6968]

whenever I am having bad days when I don't want to recover, i watch your videos and i always get a surge of motivation to keep working hard in the right direction - thank you for putting your journey on the internet so that so many of us don't have to feel like we are going through this alone- much luv from the US

[@cassie2857]

Wow, I'm sooooo proud of you. After watching all of these videos, I really feel like I'm there with you watching you get stronger and stronger every day. I think I speak for everyone when I say you're quite the inspiration. You're glowing more and more in every video. You've got this!

[@gabicote9318]

The bond you two have ! It’s amazing! So glad your mother is a support in your recovery !! You’re both absolutely beautiful and your smiles light the video up!

[@Xsarahm95X]

I'll be showing this video to my mum tomorrow. She's always asking how she can support me and I've been avoiding trying to explain to her because she always says the wrong things. How can I expect her to know what to say when I won't talk to her though? She tries her absolute best and I know this video will help her and me. Your mum is wonderful

[@v3gancheese]

So freaking PROUD of you, Elzani!!💕 also i live in America and idk I never hear ppl say “divine” but since I watch your videos all the time, I say it now and im like omg 😂😂 ((not complaining!)) luv u dude💕

[@omgfinally4340]

Your mom is living her best damn life. High five

[@crystalgoddess4440]

Your mom always makes me smile, shes so sweet and always happy ☺️❤️ love this video youre doing amazing!

[@upsidedownrose7102]

I know this is an old video but your recovery journey is so inspiring. Especially since watching your video about your hospitalisation and looking at where you are now- you're killing it! ☀️

[@pouriaabadsafian]

*DIVINE* Elzani, if and when you get merch, it absolutely needs to say 'Divine!'

[@mysticmaisie3595]

Your Mum is so warm and lovely. A proper Mother Bear looking after her cubs!

[@dedoubecool]

When I was a kid my mom would make french toast for dinner whenever we had stale bread to use up. So good !

[@lillierose5241]

It’s actually so inspiring how supportive your family are 💖 I wish you the best you’re being unbelievably strong 💖

[@elzani6744]

they're so supportive!!! Ahhh thank you, it is rather hard but so worth it! xx

[@kecrn4132]

Elzani - I just adore you and your family and the relationship you have with them all! It is so special and your strength and relationships with them are def going to help get you to recovery and get you far in life! You are doing amazing things! And, the mere fact that you are so open to these challenges says so much about your motivation to recover! Big hugs to you and your Momsie!! What is your Mom’s name??👍💖💪🏻💕💗😘😘😘

[@jacksjacks9927]

I love watching your vids. Your mum is a saint and I hope she knows her worth. Your so so so lucky to have that love and support😃 I'm 58 female, single of five grown up kids, I came across your channel and I was mesmrised by you and your mum, I can't wait for the day you reach just where you want to be. I'm a huge utube addict but your vids always come out on top, you have so much going for you, you such a lovely girl, you re good looking, intelligent and loving¡

[@GracieLions]

Do those balloons behind you say 'Legal as f***', in celebration of your sister's 18th birthday?! 🤣

[@melliwika4166]

I've never been happier seeing someone else eat. This is a new experience for me as well. 😂

[@pkae]

I love how excited your mom is to make you eat her favorite foods :) she’s so lovely

[@elzani6744]

hahah she is the best! She loves food so much as well I love it!

[@kecrn4132]

Elzani - I wish we could clone your Mom!! And I loved your cheeky smile when you and your Mom were eating the chocolate and you said “it’s DIVINE”!!!! So good!

[@jellybabymurderer6570]

I have to say you're my favourite channel on KZbin atm! Great job continuously pushing yourself. You're looking so much healthier and happier. Cheers to your divine family and a healthy happy recovery x

[@julietweston-simons142]

You are doing so amazingly, well done! Tabitha farrar always says ‘eat what you want, when you want, as much as you want’ is eating without restriction. And however much this mantra leads you to eat is absolutely perfect as it is how much you need at this stage of your recovery. I find this really helpful and hope you can use it to really challenge yourself. Keep going, we are all so proud of you.

[@evewright1477]

You seem so much happier, it’s inspiring how far you’ve already come ! X

[@elzani6744]

YAY! That is so lovely of you to say! x

[@denamullen340]

You never had French toast!!! I can’t wait to see what you thought! My fave! Did you dip the bread in egg first? Also, add a little cinnamon and vanilla to egg mix. 💗💗 please try it this way for a vlog 🙏😄

[@elzani6744]

I can't believe I have never had it until now! IT WAS SO GOOD! Yeeees dipped in egg first! Ooh okay!! xx

[@kecrn4132]

Spotted Elephant - add vanilla, cinnamon and a wee bit of nutmeg!! Then dress it with cream cheese, bananas and real maple syrup! My fav brekkie ever! Completely DIVINE!!!😋😘👍💕

[@ohwatermelonninja]

Hey Elzani ! I'm from South Africa (I remember saying your mum lived here for a while, if I'm not mistaken) My mum also used to make us French toast like that - we used to put jam on them haha. (and cheese sometimes and bacon) Your mum is so amazing - you two are like besties. So lovely to see. Big hug and thank you for sharing your magic with us xx

[@TwinkleStarLemonFruit]

I love the relationship between your mom and you. It’s the kind of love that every daughter deserves. She’s a gem and both of you together make s great team ♥️

[@drewtyler4974]

French toast with sugar and cinnamon sprinkled on it is really good! Definitely recommend x

[@no1Animallover101JAB]

You mum is literally super women she’s such amazing support for you elzani but you are the true little amazing gem so proud

[@ewajackowska4115]

Hi Elzani, you're doing great! I see you're still struggling, it takes a lot of time for you to start a meal and I think it's due to inner hesitation but you've got it girl! On the way of being more spontaneous with your food choices 🙌🙌

[@ilikeyoutube836]

I noticed it takes her a minute to muster up the courage to eat, but I'm so proud of her when she does

[@whatsthestorymorningglory61]

Your mom is such a lovely person! I recognized that you aren‘t so hesitant with your food any more and that you just get a bite and don‘t distract yourself so much. That‘s so good!!!! Maybe, in a few weeks time, you‘ll be able to just go with the flow and eat the second bagel? You could eat three if you fancy them.

[@finkpanik]

Elzani, youtube’s very own chocolate connoisseur!

[@themontrealgirl95]

I love the fact that your mothee eats as slow as you :) less intimidating. I love her ❤️

[@ceirinsmith]

Have you ever had a cinnamon roll/bun?!!? The Belgian buns you had look a lot like them, but cinnamon buns with cream cheese icing are the best you should try one next!

[@martynkaadamczewska7911]

Seeing you being so stressed about it, but staying positive and excited like a child is the most wonderful thing on earth, I love you so much aw

[@gracemae4732]

Shout out to Mama-zani for making me laugh out loud 3 times already so far and only 10 minutes 20 in yet hahaha!!! Has really brightened up a rubbish day, thank you!!! Legends xxxxx

[@gracemae4732]

"I just got a fat sultana" cracked me up too. Actually loving this long snackage clip of you two, so funny xxx

[@randisuttles4454]

I love how much your enjoying food, it's actually a great thing to bond over to. Good for you sweetheart

[@linnea8143]

You inspire me so much in my recovery, thank you Elzani for sharing your experience you’re doing absolutely amazing💓 Lots of love

[@AngelicasRecovery]

I’m so glad that your mom is so supportive! Please never take her for granted. I miss my mom so much :(

[@elzani6744]

I am so lucky to have her honestly don't know what I'd do without her, I will never take her for granted... Ahh I am so sorry :(

[@luciajellybean7666]

Keep it up!!! All the food you eat looks divine hahaha :)) lots of love from New Zealand!!!

[@elzani6744]

it was so divine!!! Ah awesome, love right back to you from the UK :D

[@twilafreek25]

Elzani, you're looking SO GOOD these days! Radiant! I'm so proud of you

[@kathy97.]

You're one of the only people I click the video RIGHT AWAY!!! I love your video's Elzani. I'm so excited seeing you recover!!

[@emilywebster6623]

I loved you and your mum talking at the end, about South Africa and Mildred the ghost. When you're both talking about random stuff together, it's so lovely. 😊 xxx

[@elzani6744]

Emily Webster Hahahah I thought I’d include it, Mum is just the greatest!! xxx

[@JypsyApril]

You two are SO sweet!! ❤ And I thank you so much for this Video! I wached it a minute ago and was still struggeling with my ED although I did quite well the last days. It got me "back on track" to wach your video! 🙏 Your strength is impressive and very very motivating! Thank you so much for sharing your story! ❤

[@Roos8891]

Your mum is so supportive and lovely! It really helps when you have people around you that eat the same things and at the same times as you during recovery. It’s one of the hardest things I found when coming out of hospital as I always felt I was eating more than everyone. The food she chose looks so yummy and got me really wanting to try French toast now too! Also uncut bread is the best 🤗 hope your ok! Xx

[@RosieCarlile]

You have such an amazing relationship with your Mum! You did so well angel!

[@ariellathebohemian6381]

God bless you and your mom. I am so proud of you for choosing recovery! I am praying for you and I as well am struggling with an eating disorder and am currently in the midst of a bad relapse. Much love 💗💗💕

[@tazzjensen5948]

So proud of you. So good to see u smile 😍

[@elzani6744]

ahhh thank you!!

[@pouriaabadsafian]

Elzani, please do a Q&A with your incredible mum!

[@sandeeanderson4693]

It is wonderful to see your mom being such a support for you. Trying new foods is hard for you but you handled it like a champ. Keep up the great work.

[@aastarkapocius6556]

Wowowow! All of this food looks absolutely devine hahahah, but seriously. I'm so proud of you but now you have made me crave it all! 😂😍🤗

[@emilyfrancis-isabelle7803]

You and your mum's relationship is so special, she is incredible. Proud of you gal x

[@KaiiiK02]

I've been here from the start and it's so amazing to see you looking so much better, I wish I could just give you a biiig hug!, you're such a huge inspiration and so beautiful inside and out, i'm so happy to see that you are doing good

[@GabrielleLeGrange]

I'm from south Africa living in England now ♡ your mom is so nice I haven't seen my mom in years ! Good food choices mom loved the French toast

[@elzani6744]

Gabrielle Le Grange aww I bet you miss her! Omg so did I haha yuuuum!

[@puli4906]

I must say I am pretty impressed by how you approach the problem all together. I suffer from an eating disorder myself but I really struggle to talk about it with my familiy even though it might help them...

[@ally5034]

Elzani you go girl! You're so inspiring thank you so much for sharing your story - AND your hair is so shiny and your eyes are sparkly again :) :) yay xx

[@aliceincrazyland3946]

ELZANI! Try the French toast dipped in egg vanilla and cinnamon and then fry it up and add some syrup! It’s even good with a small dusting of powder sugar as well! I used to eat French toast all the time as a child, but I haven’t had it in so long!

[@elzani6744]

omg sounds amaze! You should have some again soon!!!

[@180chrissi]

Elzani, honestly, you're such an inspiration! And I love you and your mum's relationship 💕

[@elzani6744]

180chrissi ahhhh that is so lovely! So do I I am soooo lucky to have my best friend who is also my mum 😄

[@kathleendowner6506]

Hi I have been watching your videos what a lovely beautiful girl and what a lovely family I am 51 years old and in recovery after 36 years 😁 better late than never but I can't believe how alike we are in food thinking you love cibbatta bread choclate joy pots but you are like me you eat cream then choclate I dip my choclate in coffee I love apple pie crust cause its like shortbread and I always leave the crust till the end thankyou for your videos I totally relate to you and I spend ages tidying and putting off eating but I am listening what I just fancy it's such fun like you said going for meals with the family and sharing meal times and food is such a sociable thing it feels so powerful when you conquer your fear I am so proud of you you are a lovely girl and I am so happy for you blimey you have inspired me and I'm 51 years old but you are so right we must challenge our food thoughts everyday and it gets easier it's so funny you keep saying I can't remember when I last ate that so do I I had a double mc chesse burger after 10 years and desserts are the best just to eat what you want when you want it's like starting to live its such fun thankyou for sharing and lots of love you are a true inspiration xx

[@daisyharrison9228]

Ur mum is so lovely and supportive I love you Elzani u did amazing xx

[@tofutofutofu444]

i adore your relationship with your mum, it reminds me of me and my mum. you are so brave n we all absolutely love you and your family 💘

[@erinnicole5348]

After watching your last video, I totally thought to myself "I wish she'd have her mom plan a day of meals". And you delivered! Bravo on your successes, you're amazing!

[@alanielove7871]

Loved this! Thought about doing the same challenge after seeing Rebecca Leung do it! No one knows your food rules like the ones closest to you! Great job challenging yourself ❤️

[@anna-kristijrstad9115]

Wouldn't it be fun tasting chocolate from other countries? I can send you a whole nut chocolate from Norway? Its soooo good!

[@silverspice5107]

Norwegian chocolate is incredibly good! I agree.

[@roosnijhof8807]

Or tony chocolonely from the Netherlands

[@annikaf7053]

German chocolate is also really good

[@carolinasuzin6364]

it's the first video I watch from you and I already love you and your smile it's sooooo perfect. Much love from Brazil

[@juststephani5549]

Another great challenge elzani💕 you are doing fabulous! You and your mom are a great team. You, very much as I, were blessed w wonderful families 😊keep going girl you're doing amazing

[@teganohara1513]

So fricking proud of you Elzani!! You're so strong and wonderful and you've come so so far! Give me hope. Had a proud cry watching this. 🐌☀️

[@nanaimogirl2000]

Mmm try maple syrup REAL maple syrup on your French toast. Yuuuuuum

[@kecrn4132]

colleen JAY - oh yes!! I am a fairly recent convert to real maple syrup- I always preferred the “fake”..... but I think it was somehow ED related....because REAL Canadian (!!!) maple syrup is sooooo beyond DIVINE!!!

[@aristahenriot7450]

I just love your mum she is so encouraging, and well done for eating everything she gave you. X

[@JuliaAraujoFraga]

so happy for you sweetie! i already had an ed too and i know how bad it is. proud of you. still recovering too xx

[@chloeporter419]

Your mum is an absolute star!! And I’m proud of you x

[@stephaniefremont2426]

Your determination, positivity, and strength is so inspiring! Thanks for sharing your journey

[@millienewman136]

well done Elzani! You did so well letting your mum take control, it’s so hard when Eds are all about control but you kicked it’s ass! Well done you!!🥰

[@ievadash5717]

Elzani, please don't stop making these videos! You are such an awesome person and your positivity is inspirational, it helps so many people going through tough times! And your mother is so lovely, keep up the good work

[@Following.moonshadow]

i love your mom sm 💜 and so proud of u, boo!!! You're doing so well holy smokes

[@lucie7547]

Hello Elzani, I'm french, I have an eating disorder and you're a big inspiration for me, your videos help me a lot to don't give up!

[@arismith8072]

I wrote a little poem for you 💞 thank you for sharing your story & being so brave. you've inspired me to start my own recovery & it's terrifying but knowing there's someone out there going through this with me makes it so much less scary. keep fighting! Elzani she speaks with graceful bravery fighting for recovery I can't explain how inspiring you are to me you're my hero, Elzani!

[@hollyvipond168]

Your Belgium bun looked absolutely DIVINE!!! 🙌🙈😍 xxx

[@matitabu]

Elzani I am so proud! Also your mum is absolutely amazing and such a wonderful person 💞 (also I need to try those Belgian buns!)

[@kecrn4132]

Matías Rubio - meeeee too!!

[@crohsapien]

Hey Elzani! You said briefly here that you always wanted to live overseas. If you could go anywhere, where would it be? (And what sort of cuisine? lol) :D

[@MidnightStarRuby]

20:50 “coffee time! ...👀 that was my cup” 😂😂

[@elevenbyfive]

Nestle Crunch bars used to be my absolute favourite thing! They still sell them in Tescos and i think they have white ones too. You and your mum are a great team. The Divine Diners!!!! Love you, Elzani. Keep at it x

[@pumpkingirl1235]

Love your Mum! You both should have a television reality show!