you exist for a reason || a dreamcore/oddcore/internetcore/traumacore playlist

remember... you exist!
Yalllllll! 1 Million views is INSANE! Thank you so much! I nearly had a heart attack when I saw it! You all have really made me happy! And I hope I've done the same for you! Thank you so much for watching!
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Timestamps in the comments!
(TRAUMACORE IS NOT AN AESTHETIC! It’s a way of coping! Traumacore has no gate keepers anyone can use it to cope! But not to “show off”. Mental health problems in general are NOT an aesthetic, they are real problems that affect people every second of every day and can be life changing!)
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I hope this helps someone cope with stress or depression because that's why I made it! These are songs that help me.
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• Blind Girl (popopoka)
I own none of this music!

[@mxlion]

Hey Everyone! If you like Drum and Bass you should check out my new release called “impulse 82"! Streaming everywhere! _Join my Discord with so many lovely people to talk to!! I’m also very active in the chat!_ discord.gg/2Cmw2Xt pt. 2 kzbin.info/www/bejne/m2a3qIB7rMamarM Timestamps: yw! 0:01 Mac Demarco- Chamber of Reflection 4:25 Sitcom - Still Life 7:40 Lily Potter - Oblivion 10:10 Jack Stauber - Oh Klahoma 13:10 Jack Stauber - Bubblegun 14:00 Current Joys - New Flesh 16:40 Cults - Always Forever 20:25 Molina - Hey Kids (slowed version) I hope this helps someone cope with stress or depression because that's why I made it! These are songs that help me. Also if you are seeing this it would mean the world to me if you could leave a comment! Even if it's just "first" it would be awesome lol. HERE IS AN EVEN BETTER PLAYLIST!! kzbin.info/www/bejne/aKTCqWaAndeUbac

[@bio8333]

Very considerate to leave that there, you are amazing

[@mxlion]

@@bio8333 ty!!

[@yuuika11]

this playlist has saved me a lot of times thank you :)

[@Neoillia]

Oh the title originally was "You dont exist" i suppose

[@mxlion]

@@indrejalam idk. Traumacore is more for coping. And in my opinion dreamcore is more just very relaxing

[@hungrydemoncreations2932]

My worst fear is having intense repressed trauma and not even knowing it until I do.

[@mxlion]

I’m so sorry. I hope you feel better! Sending you love! ❤️

[@hungrydemoncreations2932]

@@mxlion Thanks ! !

[@rosie-ti9dt]

I do and it hurts

[@hungrydemoncreations2932]

@@rosie-ti9dt I'm so sorry to hear that.. I hope you recover soon

[@ihatepeople5765]

yeh, i don't remember most of my childhood and i'm scared that i don't remember it because of some repressed trauma

[@piss3272]

the worst feeling isn't the crying, but the period after where you just feel empty

[@arkancer2210]

that's the best, moron

[@sillierthangooberous]

both are good imo- numbness feels better than feelings going: ➡️↘️↙️⬅️↖️⬆️↗️➡️↘️⬇️↙️⬅️↖️⬆️↗️➡️ but also the crying thing is also cool- but then again if anything happens then i just spiral so yeah- but i think we’re forgetting the emotionally rebooting and then feeling better, and then spiralling again and then emotionally rebooting _again_ and feeling better until an inconvenience happens lmao

[@okutann]

that's when you fill that emptiness with some good ass dreams or something you enjoy doing

[@wait-5905]

@Elright 2 please stop

[@julydelacruz5228]

I think you are right

[@jenbooob]

It doesn't always get better. Sometimes it just gets different

[@LyntzbartzkyPerez]

Im afraid not enough people realize this. Life is not an uphill slope, it’s like waves, there will be all time lows, but there will also be highs

[@wickedchild8501]

different is better

[@_6-6_]

Sometimes you’re up here, sometimes you’re down here, but as long as you’re going up and down, you’re good, that’s human

[@The_miIk]

I like that. I hate when people say it gets better. I never made me feel better.

[@idk_whyi]

​@@wickedchild8501 sometimes but not always

[@clappingallthemidtamaandmi331]

Start to 4:28 : chamber of reflection 4:29 to 7:41 : still life 7:42 to 10:09 : oblivion 10:10 to 13:13 : oh klahoma 13:14 to 13:58 : bubblegun 14:00 to 16:42 : new flesh 16:44 to 20:25 : cults always forever 20:27 to end : hey kids x it's not fair (slowed + reverb) I just list the song name for anyone need

[@nobody-ry9rz]

ty

[@j_stach]

Fun fact, the song New Flesh is a reference to the classic 1980's surreal horror film "Videodrome" by David Cronenberg. Long live the new flesh!

[@dustiemarzullo]

Thank you for creating this time stamp

[@ihavenoname4139]

Who was the artist for oblivion? I'm having issues finding it online without seeing anything else other than Skyrim

[@user--hooni]

​@@ihavenoname4139 it's Rufi-o

[@crowsinoto7889]

honestly, trauma core makes me comforted in knowing I'm not alone with these thoughts, but also sad because nobody should have to go through trauma

[@mxlion]

You are not alone! I’m here if you ever need to talk! Also I’m live right now if you want more! Also we can talk In chat!

[@crowsinoto7889]

@@mxlion Ah, thank you! It's okay though. I got a therapist to talk to :)

[@mxlion]

@@crowsinoto7889 that’s awesome!

[@dreamers5084]

same here, it makes me feel validated for what happened when i was younger.

[@weirdkiddo6463]

you're not alone, friend

[@Viaoo_]

Is anyone else afraid of their own family at this point? I can't be touched by them, look them in the eyes. I can't even hear my mothers' voice without getting anxiety. Sometimes I just wish it would stop, I wish it would just be quiet again. Like the good old days where there wasn't fighting, I didn't have to worry about tomorrow, I wasn't afraid of emotions, I could talk to people without getting anxiety attacks. I don't want it anymore, I know it probably sounds selfish, but I just needed to rant. I never like ranting, it makes me feel like i'm self-centered or attention wanting when in fact I get near a panic attack when any attention gets put on me. I just hate it all.

[@Neoillia]

Dont worry, i have issues with my family haveing conflict and everyone generally being a complete asshole to each-other, my family is an uncivilised cluster fuck. your not alone, i get my comfort from knowing when i have the chance ill just dissapear into the night when i have my own sustainable source of income, with just a note, "Dont worry im not dead or kidnapped, just fuck you is all." and a calculated amount of my debt or what they have given me free after charged rent, plus 200$, then i probly will not do that and just leave like a normal person but it give my comfort that i could and would do that. possibly adapt that idea to yourself, thats just how i get comfort, idk. just my shareing of my experience so possibly it could apply to you. and dont worry you not self-centered or even coming near attention seeking, your great and i wish you luck. you matter.

[@nameshow2652]

You are not alone. Everything is okay, wanting to be alone in quiet place is normal. My family was fighting since i was born, and my father was the real satan my whole life. Even now he got me that much traumas, that by the 12 years i already got to understand something in my mind is not normal. I won't speak about this now, because it will take me a couple of hours or smth :) Everything is going to be alright. I know, you was living with all of it for so much time, and I know you will overcome everything, you are strong, and i believe in you. One day, you will understand then everything is already far away, behind on the road, and by the time you'll look at this you might be calm and lonely.. More time would pass and you'll fing somebody who will care and love you!!! And everying is going to be alright!!!! I believe in you! You'll overcome everything bad, you are strong! A lot of people, even on internet (like me :P), believe in you!

[@havingagoodtime2859]

its fine to talk about your feelings here

[@geeswithane7yrago303]

You do not sound selfish I relate so much it'll hopefully get better. You will get away from those people at one point and be free from those that just chain you back.

[@lexychan5096]

Don't worry, i think everyone here that is listening to this music can relate to that and feel the same way as you but I'm sure things will get better. You know what i like to tell myself? that life is like a rose to get to the flower (being happy) you have to get trough Thorns (feeling sad or having bad moments) it may seem stupid but after crying i feel better, you just habe to be ok with yourself, don't mind your familly fighting, think about YOU before thinking about the others. I don't know for how long you've been living that but i'm sure that eventually things will get better!

[@valentina7453]

This playlist is two years old but I’ll never get tired of it.

[@mxaz7928]

me too, everytime i am sad, angry, I came here

[@t3r3n56]

same tbh, its pretty good

[@foxyelfawkespirata1862]

Bendecidos somos nosotros, siempre volvemos a esta playlist porque representa algo muy poderoso en casa uno de nosotros.

[@hannahbobadilla9507]

i was first introduced to jack stauber with this video

[@huwballbot3978]

Dementia

[@SpookeaBea]

I know this sound stupid, but I just wanna thank you for making this playlist. It *literally* changed my life

[@mxlion]

Its not stupid! You are very welcome! I’m so glad it helped you!

[@auraelbarkeater471]

No it didn't. They put 6 sad songs they've heard on a sadboi lofi playlist on KZbin and are making money from it. That's all this is.

[@friendlyauthor7435]

@@auraelbarkeater471 cease your tomfoolery you dastard fiend

[@loremtod]

@@auraelbarkeater471 cry about that

[@uch_a]

@@auraelbarkeater471 may be, but this playlist means a lot to me, regardless

[@etherealjupiter6944]

the funny thing is, I don’t remember being alive only until after I was like 11...I don’t know how to explain it, but everything seems like it was all a dream- i still question myself if I exist, and get loaded with thoughts about the world and universe. it drives me crazy.

[@mxlion]

You do exist!!! You are valid! You are a human!! I had the same thoughts as you! I get how you feel! I wish you the best! ❤️

[@etherealjupiter6944]

@@mxlion awh thanks, unfortunately I do believe we are government studied aliens from a far away plant of Azorp, (just kidding lol) but I do appreciate that I’m not alone.

[@mxlion]

@@etherealjupiter6944 hehe

[@etherealjupiter6944]

@KØI_Flow glad to see I’m not alone...on a good note, I was diagnosed with some sort of scizotypal disorder which explains a lot of these rapid and reoccurring thoughts, (and much other symptoms that are far too complex to write all on here) hopefully you get some sort of well being or coping system as well.

[@imannavieira]

Oh, my God. As a person with depersonalization disorder, I can relate so bad with your comment. :( I'm happy I'm not the only one.

[@MY-mx7si]

Do you ever look at yourself in the mirror and go: "Oh... that's me" look at your hands and just realize the figure in the mirror is you. It's such a strange feeling, I don't know what it is, it feels so weird like I realize I'm alive. edit : it's only been a month and I didn't expect so much comments and likes thank you all

[@MY-mx7si]

@@listlessdandelion3587 Right ? Like oh yeah this is actually MY body 😭

[@BlockyBookworm]

Yeah, been there. I exist inside my head more than the outer world- At least, to me.

[@haphephobia]

İ kinda live in my mind, daydreaming. Y'know about another universes and questioning if they exist, if they can after i die i want to enter them without any memories. Would be hella cool :>

[@BlockyBookworm]

@@haphephobia The answer is either "no" or "theres no way to take anything over, including evidence".

[@jax8352]

Same! I get those moments every once in awhile and it’s like “oh shit, I’m really here”

[@mifcreativemint5786]

i used to say the reason i exist because my mother kept me and i havent died but now i looked at my friends and thinks to myself "this is why i live so they wont be alone and let go of themselves as long as i'm here"

[@ender7910]

Just remember to not allow that to be a shallow reason, make sure you give yourself a little credit, friends no matter what have a chance of coming and going of course. Thanks for being a good person despite life though.

[@Depressedweeboo]

if only there was someone there for me

[@axe4590]

yo antes era así, quisiera ser tu amigo la verdad

[@axe4590]

@@Depressedweeboo algún día bro, no te desesperes

[@Depressedweeboo]

@@axe4590 sorry I don't speak hablo espanol

[@darrenj.7105]

Im at the point where i dont even know if ill be here for new years, but these playlists give me some ease of mind and a second to feel blank instead of in pain

[@ashynix228]

I don't know what's going on and this may be late and also may be kinda stupid since you don't know me and I don't know you, but it would be nice to know that you'll still be here when new years come...

[@sussyrat420]

If you read this, happy belated new years. May this year bring you peace.

[@Mr.happy689]

Hey man I'm worried about you Are you okay?

[@roses_diary]

lol i like how the passing by thing is the doot skeleton

[@mxlion]

Hehe 🙃 yeah I didn’t make the artwork but i love it!! The character is called Poka blind girl. It’s a very sad manga but you can’t get a copy anymore. I’m not sure why but it fits so well!

[@purrmagedon148]

​@@mxlion probably because of the multiple polemics concerning Poka and the original artist popopoka, some people are trying to censure their art and the fact that bullying exist now apparently :/

[@irldoII]

1k like

[@ghostmode9020]

WAIT I DIDNT EVEN KNOW

[@mikaylamarass983]

Yea lol

[@cookiesandpudding8485]

the first song just makes me want to walk out my house and start everything over

[@mxlion]

same

[@SuzysRedStripes]

I kinda do too

[@AlyZzz69]

I just wanna run away with my friends and make a new life with them

[@annaa4066]

Same, I even dreamt about it last night and it felt so amazing to run away from everything/-one.

[@bonetrousler]

Fr, like just go change my name and live out on a barn

[@bloomurr]

This specific playlist keeps appearing on my reccomendation every few months. I love it

[@mxlion]

Thank you!

[@Moji-pc4gq]

2 things 1) love to everyone in these comments facing difficult times. it’s hard at times to feel connected to this life or even keep going, but to know there are others floating in that same void is comforting. we’ll all get through this together 🖤 2) not a single comment i’ve seen has pointed out that the car light passing the person is the skeleton playing a trumpet meme

[@elhaykadosh6666]

I freaking know i saw a skeleton 😂😂😂 i started doubt myself until that comment

[@battlebuddy637]

Fuckin knew I saw doot. Thank yiu for pointing this out

[@extremely.hung.individual2693]

_doot_

[@idfk695]

School has literally crippled my mental health and made me go in a spiraling hole of depression. Grades are so overwhelming. Deadlines are always so near. I hate it.

[@ma.jbrony1754]

Especially with virtual school....

[@idfk695]

@@ma.jbrony1754 yep... its really stressful. If you want to vent or rant to me you can

[@ma.jbrony1754]

@@idfk695 I'm actually feeling better, but thank you! I appreciate that. :)

[@idfk695]

@@ma.jbrony1754 of course! Glad that your feeling better :). Just know that there's always people that you can come for help. Stay safe homie

[@ma.jbrony1754]

@@idfk695 😊💖

[@davi.brasil]

Today, a very good friend of mine, who is fighting with anxiety, told me his new life philosophy: "I decided, that my purpose is to fight. For what? Anything, for my life or for my own sanity, I'll fight". I really liked it and decided to share it.

[@xxbittersweetxx3332]

Hey that helps....

[@pulvenberg1709]

All I have.

[@templecatt]

nice clover pfp

[@davi.brasil]

@@templecatt thnx

[@davi.brasil]

@@xxbittersweetxx3332 Glad to know.

[@violetevergarden0123]

A feeling of emotional instability comes at evening and night while I feel numb during the day. I don’t know who I am sometimes and feel there is something wrong with me to the point I want to destroy “me”. Sometimes I think I don’t exist at all and can’t recall the past or important personal information. Thank you for the playlist and for comments that help each other feel less alone.

[@sparkstudies1675]

Sigh, seems like this is happening to so many people ❤

[@handletemplate]

i just wanna be freed from this curse (bpd)

[@timothybolger6171]

This is like (almost) exactly how I feel, it’s so frustrating. The worst part is I know it’s going to happen and I know even after I fall asleep the escape will only be temporary

[@FaunaEvers]

This was my first ever exposure to the dreamcore genre a year ago, and I can safely say it has changed the entire trajectory of my life. I love it.

[@theevauwu7853]

Me: yea my childhood was pretty nice Also me: can't remember 80% of it

[@adellel.3827]

Yo same💀

[@Sunny00002]

Same

[@Batidora-ku2ci]

Same

[@taq99]

Same!!

[@user-bl8pw6cn2d]

I feel like you dont actully exist until like 4 or 5

[@ashyroses]

I'm at home with only my brother. No stress. No parents. Not being forced to be someone. It's nice.

[@leigha3122]

I have 6 siblings so it's kinda nice when that happens

[@eunoiamorosis]

I hate my brother cause hes an asshole

[@astrea531]

same

[@Nerochanx]

Everybody gangsta till he forgot to add "Step"

[@ashyroses]

@@Nerochanx Please use they/them😎👌

[@leaf143]

To whoever is feeling not good rn: Hi, I just want to say that no matter what is happening right now, no matter how bad it is or seems, i promise you are not alone in your experience. If you feel unloved right now i promise that there are people that exist that absolutely care for you and love you, even if you cant currently feel it. If you feel like things aren't getting any better i promise you they will. I wish i could tell you when but unfortunately i cant. But what i do know is that everything can and will get better no matter what. And if you feel like things are so bad that life isnt worth living right now, please please PLEASE keep holding on. Take this from someone who has felt all of this before. While whatever you're going through hurts right now, ending it all is not the answer. While you may not feel ok right now, i promise that you arent alone and that it will get better. Stay safe ❤

[@hhabmowerfrookst]

Well it makes me more sad to know that others experience it too and i believe i shouldnt be loved, im a piece of shit and i feel sorry for everyone who does it, my life is shit because of me so it would probably be better to end it.

[@Miyko33]

My father is gone forever beneath the earth beneath our feet

[@Asgotios]

Yes I'll do it. Furthermore, I want to have the pleasure of seeing my addictions and mental problems go before me.

[@dcim4803]

No

[@eepee_eepee]

I used to come here a lot. It's been a couple of years. Thank you for this, it really helped.

[@Josh-qb9co]

Growing up is probably the worst decision I made as a kid

[@sangwoo933]

Same.

[@lemonpie_vanilla]

So so same

[@hidethecrowd]

turning 19 in a few days life has lost a lot of meaning the last few years

[@Josh-qb9co]

@@hidethecrowd I am sorry to hear that.. I hope you're doing okay on your side And hey you made it this far, There is something waiting for you.

[@hidethecrowd]

@@Josh-qb9co of course! if life aint got no meaning you gotta look for it thats just the way it is

[@bruhbab0oey]

The only reason I’m not dead yet is bc I made it a goal to outlive the fcking Queen of England and I cant back out now So I’ll be here listening to this til then

[@rainwater.1493]

Please don't go, even if she dies. I know i'm just a stranger on the internet, but I care about you so much.

[@epicminecraftgamer69smith84]

I know it may not seem like it but people care about you, I've never met you but I care about you none the less. Please don't go.

[@iforgotoputausername]

Bro u aint immortal

[@carrotsd8735]

@@iforgotoputausername but maybe we are so fight me :)

[@TheBased_Department]

Oi, gotta eat some healthy food cuz queen seems outlive everyone

[@justsomesportfan9639]

I’m not really struggling with any like trauma and that stuff, but reading some of these comments makes me realize how hard some things people go through are. Really I’m just lonely, but to all of you guys and girls out there who are struggling with anything, I believe you. I know it might not mean much and there’s the chance you won’t even see this comment, but know even if you do or you don’t, I still believe in you. Have a good night, I hope to see you tomorrow.

[@manintheline5331]

This is a godly perfect playlist, god bless the person who made it, i couldnt make it without it right now, and it perfectly captures the character of the little blind girl

[@Derpysaur]

You don't have to have trauma to feel sad guys It's okay if you don't

[@Derpysaur]

@Emma Schwartz ❤️❤️❤️ of course

[@mika_7846]

This comment was on time

[@AZelene425]

thank you a lot. Ive been really struggling with validating my own emotions and i keep finding reasons as to why im suddenly feeling like shit all the time despite having everything go really well for me. Hearing this coming from someone else gives me a lot of comfort

[@Hes_Gone]

i will save this♥

[@annettebonteri3234]

my roblox girlfriend broke up wit me

[@brentlam5806]

I wish us humans could trade perspectives like lenses on a camera

[@dan.j.k5879]

Humans all posses consciousness and our minds are nothing but containers and filters we have limited by our various beliefs. Meaning we are only limited by our imagination, so if say someone were to go into a deep meditative state of consciousness and did necessary steps to be in the right mental state to expand there own awarness and thus there own mind, they could very well connect there mind with someone in the same state. So who really knows god what humans could do at that stage. Thats all i can really say on this topic since it has not been researched that much. 👍

[@XXdoubleReaperXX]

try some dmt lmao

[@elpathdigital4391]

That reminded me of an anime song called “broken camera” it’s the ending of the anime Geneshaft. You should check it out.

[@InVinoVeratas]

That'd make life too boring and predictable. Also, I love my solitude, it's how I hone myself.

[@saiyanprince6681]

Its real actually, its called sympathy.

[@EGMonstasViewing]

Honestly, it's 5 AM. I'm just sitting here singing along and letting my hallucinations bring me company. I'd sleep but I'm scared they'll get me so I just stay awake and try my best to ignore the paranoia and the darkness.

[@willowthesily672]

i thought i was the only one

[@punmaster6571]

...Just sitting, back against the wall wondering if theirs something behind me, Evan if I know it's nothing

[@pig276]

Damn paranoia is more common than I thought

[@user-if1lq1ic2x]

I am literally doing the same

[@foxtrot_143]

i have been quite a few different people through the years as i have listened to this. i like how replayable many of these are, exploring these artists along with similar ones even other genres has been a joy even after so many different songs and media i enjoy the surprise of still somehow finding myself here every so often. its a comfort mix for sure, just lovely. melancholic, joyful, nostalgic, comforting, relaxing, etc. it hits the right vibe

[@ri-gz6ye]

"the memories keep blurring, but i know they're there. somewhere."

[@--_j_--]

as someone with memory issues I love this hehe

[@ri-gz6ye]

@@--_j_-- awh thank you? I wrote this as i was realizing that most of my childhood felt like a dream rather than actual events :o thank you very much for relating, it made my day 💗💗💗

[@Sunny00002]

I don't remember my childhood i just have 3 or 4 memories from it and idk if 2 or them are a dream or that really happened

[@--_j_--]

@@ri-gz6ye aww ur so sweet xx

[@Jynxxxxx]

Wow... that's some heavy words, for right now I can remember a lot of events from my childhood (including all the fighting) but I can admit they are fading away. 😔

[@plum8810]

birth is such a curse and a gift. we’re all so special for being here, yet terribly, terribly unlucky

[@plum8810]

@LUCIA INES BUENO MARTINEZ oh, this! you put it into words perfectly. i couldn’t agree more. but for the sake of “optimism” and us having the capacity to go forward, i think it’s vital to think we’re special in a way or another. the idea of consciousness is so strange, how the minute your heart stops beating your consciousness will be shifted elsewhere we don’t know of. but being alive is definitely not worth it in all honesty. we only live on for people, our emotions and our existence to keep being. we feel happy when good thing happen, and sad when bad things come. so ultimately, we live on for ourselves and to feel happiness. but what would you do if you still wanna die even if you’re happy? even if you have people that love you and you love them back? we were never asked to be here and the only reason i get out of bed is because i have to- and i won’t even have any gains at the end. or maybe there is a gain? who knows. whatever that gain is i don’t think it’s worth it either way. lmao whatever idk why this turned out to be so lengthy. maybe i should stfu and stop thinking u.u

[@plum8810]

@LUCIA INES BUENO MARTINEZ yeah, i guess so. we’re not special as in anything extraordinary, but maybe we’re a bit special in being extra unlucky for being born, y’know? yet no matter what we do and how high we go, we’ll never find a meaning or an answer, that’s just how the universe is constructed, i think. growing up religious then thinking this way suddenly- that yes, gods and traditions and ideas are constructs we created for own solace, it’s quite a turn. it’s a bit depressing too, thinking everything humans have ever reached is ultimately pointless. so living with meaning isn’t the right answer because there is no meaning. killing yourself isn’t the best reaction to being alive either. what the fuck :)

[@plum8810]

@LUCIA INES BUENO MARTINEZ i don’t think killing yourself is bad, but like i said, it’s just not ideal. i’m not talk about staying for the sake of others, but for the general concept of life which is to keep on going. i will never find a meaning, and frankly i don’t think any human will. “meaning” as in what life TRUELY means, without including your own opinions and prejudices. therefore, the only wise thing we can do is to go on, regardless of how much happiness or pain we’re in. to me, dying is the only thing i actually look forward to. i can kill myself right now, it really isn’t that hard. but it’s so easy, had i killed myself when i was like 12 or something it would’ve been fine but.. i’m too far into this and i think you are too? idk ahhah. maybe it’s wishful thinking, but i would like it if all this misery doesn’t go in vain hahaha. how about you, though? if you think that killing yourself isn’t bad, then what makes you stay here? what keeps you going? idk if this comes off with a mocking tone but i’m genuinely curious, because a part of me thinks just like you do

[@ozymandias8242]

CRINGE

[@-toriizaka46]

@@plum8810 hope is what makes ppl stay, if u didnt have my faith idk what i'd do tbh

[@tinywow344]

My emotions have been such a rollercoaster lately and it’s been hard to cope. Every time I see old pictures or movies I liked and stuff from when I was little I end up having an existential crisis of sorts about how I’ll never get that time back and how time never stops moving and nothing will ever last forever. I end up becoming so unmotivated and feeling so empty that nothing seems interesting anymore and all I can do is sit and spiral deeper and deeper. This playlist is so helpful for grounding me and bringing back to reality and remembering that there are perks to getting older, and this dull feeling will pass with time. To whoever needs to hear this, take a deep breath and remember it’s ok to not be ok. Every breath and blink you make is a sign that you’re trying, and that is perfectly fine. i think I can say that me and everyone else in the comments is proud of you. Whatever you’re feeling or experiencing will pass with time. Keep going, brighter times are ahead! When you’re at rock bottom, the only way to go is up ❤

[@proving9606]

Though my youth is in my past now, I have no regrets. I feel for the people that have had life rough, just know that I'm not happy because I'm tougher mentally or anything like that, it's the opposite. In fact, your tougher you've made it this far, all this bad and traumatic experiences and you're still here. Why not keep going and see what life brings you, so many wonderful people that you'll meet and care for you the way you care for them. You'll meet them I promise you that. So keep going not for what has happened in the past, but for the amazingness that awaits you in the future.

[@xeggnoggx6885]

*”Actors make good money for being the person they aren’t, then why am I not rich?”*

[@ibukimioda7437]

yeah, why am i not rich?

[@xknightx2001]

Damn thats my current mood

[@an_gel_707]

ooooo WAIT WHERE'S MY MONEY

[@sofof9846]

HEAVY cringe

[@Nova-bv5qb]

@@sofof9846 Shut, remember the person behind the screen

[@derpymule7977]

I have zero trauma, really great parents and haven’t been bullied for years, and even when I was it was really tame. All that does is make me feel all the more guilty for being as messed up as I am. I have no good reason to feel like this, but I guess I’ve been a lost cause from the very beginning, which I don’t want my parents to realise after they put in so much work and love that I’m unable to give back

[@mikaregen7658]

same bro. I'm privileged as fuck, but still I often feel like shit. I can't even name one single reason for why there is so much hate and anger inside of me. Whatever. Hope you have an okay day. Bye

[@riddim3824]

I feel the exact same way, have family that love me unconditionally, friends that are always there for me, yet all I want to do is die, really wish someone else had my spot in life and took advantage of it instead of me.

[@merlinian209]

I understanddd I feel the same way, but just know you don’t need a reason to have issues, mental illness can effect anyone it doesn’t matter how good your life is it’s okay to feel bad and you’re just as deserving of help as anyone with trauma. And you’ll never ever be a lost cause I know you’ll feel better one day with the right help and people. You’re doing amazing and your struggles are valid I love you and have a really amazing day or night

[@area51raider50]

Same. Both loving parents and great friends but somehow I just turned out different. Like, really really different. Both messed up and guilty. I don't even know if I can return the love I was shown because of my own flaws. But even so, the fact that they still care about me after all these years makes me want to tear up.

[@emmar.7716]

I feel the exact same way.

[@Pudding404]

"You exist for a reason." Now that's a title right there. I think so many people need to hear those simple combination of powerful words. It's stuck in my head.

[@RoyalGuzheng]

If you are reading this, I hope that day comes real soon where your wildest dreams come true. Where you finally feel that you are at peace with yourself and your surroundings. May your life be full of joy, strength, light, and ease. May you lead a life full of positivity and greatness. You got this.

[@someweebinthecommentsectio7719]

I don't even feel sad I just feel empty devoid of purpose and emotion

[@mxlion]

I'm the same way right now. I hope you feel better!

[@michthenutt2723]

indeed, the feeling of emptiness, one i am o so familiar with, the sound of a clock moving, the sound of the ocean. All o so emty and dead to me, if i could take one thing away from this world, ironically, it would be the feeling of emptiness, for all we gain from it is a lack of feeling, and rarely does it ever amount to change. It just drags you down deeper into the lake, till you no longer see light, and all you are left to do is to choke at the bottom.

[@alexchavezau1338]

I just feel that a bother and i feel useless plus my problems are always with me in my house

[@alexchavezau1338]

The only way i can scape is trough anime feeling some ones Happynes as my own knowing perfectly well that its not real

[@lovffle]

Same. I have no friends and I’m too shy so that sucks. I wish I had friends. The only friend who actually understood me and was kind to me was an online friend who hasn’t talked to me in awhile since she is depressed and wanted to take a break from her phone. I miss her (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

[@neharbelaid3717]

Y'all ever just sit in your room and think about you past and you feel empty...and then somehownthis weird painful feeling stucks you idk how to explain it lol

[@user-xy3il3jk3o]

I do this too. I rethink my whole past, to the point where I don't even feel anything .

[@alegria1813]

About the future too

[@morganh2603]

same here

[@xpxthy]

I either don’t have that sinking feeling, or is feels like it’s been sunken for a very long time.

[@haphephobia]

İ remembed staying up and wishing for, like, changing the past lol

[@clovermedia.]

me and my gf share similar traumas, and it doesn’t help much that were in an extreme long distance relationship, but this playlist makes her feel like shes closer with me and next to me.

[@Froxerii_nuffles]

Yooo I can relate to this comment so much :((( Im also in a ldr with my gf and we’re both trauma victims, but our traumatic experiences are quite different haha :)) Hope you’re feeling alright tho stranger! ❤

[@TheMountAndBladerX10]

I love the fact that you have a girlfriend and i hope you two will be happy together. A pillar of respite for each other. God bless your relationship

[@DrawMasterwithaPen]

i used to listen to this playlist on a very hard time on my life, discovering about my autism, trying to solve my problems with social interactions. and thanks to the songs that i listened to, i could keep up doing what i love, writing and drawing my ideas and projects, at point that today (with the help of my psychologist, of course) i can say it was worth investing myself. now im listening to it while im writing a scene of one of my projects, and I'm very happy to see that this video continues to have views from people. im so glad ro had founded this video one day, and i hope that it reaches more and more people. also i hope that people who are dealing with any kind of problems who are making your days more and more grey can finally reach happiness and stability on the life they want, let yourselves have the time it you guys need :) (sorry if i writted something wrong, im from Brazil)

[@fungusmeister259]

It's alright my friend, youre getting there I believe in you

[@_sleepy.catz_]

I'm home alone, No stress No family I can take a walk if I want No problems No work Only calm vibes, just laying in bed

[@haphephobia]

Ayy this is early-pre-demo heaven-

[@annamcdearmond19]

Your lucky u can go anywhere I cant even go down town by myself yet

[@_sleepy.catz_]

@@annamcdearmond19 im not either but my mom wont know if shes not home

[@Lillaiss]

i miss this feeling

[@oliwiakl615]

Me too.. 😞✋🏻 Thanks god we have calm vibes then

[@margaux-trnv]

jack stauber's songs makes me feel like i'm alone in a bubble, escaping from the reality.... and i love that

[@Mars-rv9um]

yeah. jack staubers songs are amazing. i feel safe while listening to them... edit was a spelling mistake-

[@avery-vecnaswife67]

Samee

[@MsShowtime]

Thats how i feel when i play video games

[@jestertheclownfromthegayto4115]

Same

[@Ohenryyy]

Same 😪

[@PastelGxre]

Found this in my recommended I am now going to mention that the ‘car’ passing is the doot skellie and now listen to this on loop for the next 3 years :)

[@StarWarsNerd1465]

Something my mama always says, and i will forever stick by. “People go through shit, no matter who it is, others are just better at hiding it. Be kind. Help them, and they might just help you.”

[@kyokokirigiriwithafroghat614]

“i’ve gotten so used to ignoring my feelings and pretending that they don’t exist that i unintentionally ignore them for weeks and eventually i’ll have a day full of mental breakdowns and such” gang rise up

[@bobwasowsky270]

I feel you, no idea where that came from, but only recently I noticed that my natural reaction to any emotion, when I'm not by myself, is to repress it immediately, to not show I've been moved by anything. How does that even happen? How to rid of it? I want to be more truthful, more myself, not hide

[@ultratfk7479]

You too huh

[@jacobsmith8017]

same

[@ifuckingloveyou4703]

Here

[@ifuckingloveyou4703]

Im here 💀

[@iblake4806]

i wish that night time could last forever you know

[@syrimcbubble4224]

Bro yes

[@goodycat3062]

The planet would freeze and everything on it would die

[@lumináriaaaa]

Eu queria que aquela noite pudesse durar para sempre com você

[@addskum]

@@goodycat3062 ngl i wish it would for a day.

[@madeli.4779]

People with sleep paralysis could never

[@ladyalt5745]

“What’s you biggest fear” The fear that after death you are still conscious in your body you are aware you are dead you can still feel stuff like the person lowering you into your casket you can’t move you can’t see but you still have your thoughts you can feel your body decompose the worms eating your flesh the memories of your life becoming more and more vivid until you can’t even remember who you are who your parents were you can’t remember anything your just a empty husk.

[@lilichaii]

why does this playlist encapsulate my emotions and trauma so well 😭

[@Ozzy-worsttaste]

Ohh you wanna relax whay i upload ? Music is share

[@phiephie.]

hey guys remember when we all wanted to be teenagers? hey guys remember when we thought our teen years would be the prime years of our lives? hey guys remember when school was about learning? hey guys remember when the biggest thing we had to worry about was what we would wear? same. i love you guys. if you need a reason to stay, please let it be me. i love u so much

[@estebanoicata3951]

having a rough day, this playlist appear out of nowhere, i read your comment and feel chills in my back, thanks

[@doctorhealsgood5456]

;_;

[@herbatkaustarej4567]

i love sleeping

[@pandaprince7677]

Honestly if you thought out of an 80~ year lifespan that the prime of your life would be when you are most hormonal, riddled with acne, self conscious, confused, and undergoing drastic brain and physical development, and still not legally able to do most things you want on your own you're kinda weird.

[@estebanoicata3951]

@@pandaprince7677 I don't see it like that, I think is most about how we perceive the word when we were younger, and how it was easy to find reasons to feel happy, but time passes and everything change and now is more complicated, but it doesn't have to be, and it's worth it to cry in a comment section of a KZbin video and say to a complete stranger that one comment makes you smile when the world is falling apart

[@itzrainingtac0s920]

I like being alone but i don't like the feeling of being alone

[@brown-axolotl7244]

I can relate to this so much.

[@itzrainingtac0s920]

@@brown-axolotl7244 mhm

[@12dar12]

I understand this all too well😂

[@shreveport3134]

Same

[@chwdpjd100]

i like drugs

[@ayindiagarcia2430]

This playlist helped me through one of the toughest moments of my life. I’m still recovering and come back to it every once in a while. Thank you for this

[@Shahzarzflavarz]

I used to not want to exist at all when I was in middle school….. the reason was I always got picked on for being so painfully shy, quiet, and the ethnicity I was born with (i’m filippino and black) i’m sure it was mostly cause I was different. The older I got I look back on that and just really sort of appreciate that experience I had, it made me know that I’m alive.

[@marydarkheart13]

You got this keep up the good job

[@rindknidbkbskdn1616]

this comment section is the CEO of the saying “suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids not to die”

[@Foible]

Pretty much, we gotta look out for each other because no one else will

[@xiao425]

@@Foible mhm

[@cupcakejack7375]

True

[@luanmantilla3575]

the mofo'ing island of misfit toys

[@okkotsuzs]

@@Foible yep :(

[@papsz7385]

imagine being thinking about life and suddenly a ball of light passes over your face over and over again for 25 minutes

[@bazzfromthebackground3696]

Spooky scary skelemons.

[@motivatedvergil2725]

Ha, Doot Doot

[@Mars-rv9um]

theres alsoo a person in the background.

[@maciethestore9590]

LOLL

[@katherineridings3909]

its a train im pretty sure

[@tedeanto42]

How time flies, I remember being 14 years old when I found this playlist, I was so messed up emotionally. The 15 years were... good, I was a good girl, I did everything my family told me to do. Now at 16 I'm sinking again... and I haven't been able to recover, I'm anxious and scared, staying depressed is holding back my goals and desires, but I don't understand what's wrong with me....

[@John-wf5dm]

Your not alone we all don't know what's wrong with us we just gotta keep it together long enough until we figure it out or embrace and forgive it

[@natalialuba2074]

honestly, this playlist made me feel all the emotions I never considered feeling, thank you

[@jebediahda8755]

my worst fear is slowly forgetting everything, and sadly that is happening right now. i cant do anything about it, but i keep forgetting things. important things like what day it is and my friends names. i dont remember what i did yesterday, i never do. and im just sitting here, losing important memories.

[@randompotatoo9268]

Same, i forget about chores, what someone just told, what day it is, or even for me i think that the days are repeating so its ok i feel the same way too

[@dioincenerito]

I seriously hope it's not dementia, but if it is, i'm so sorry for you :(

[@calladaydream]

i feel like thats kind of that i have i could be on my ipad, phone, computer whatever and my parents ask me to do something and immediately i forget it(i may be because im watching yt and stuff lol but i forget really important stuff not long after i get asked)

[@nightm4res372]

I already forgot about the 98% of my childhood bUt lIke iM sTill oN mY chIldhOOd 😃🔫

[@ladyart3375]

I feel the same.. I'm literally forgetting everything. I don't know what I did the day before and what I even ate. I don't remember if I already said something to someone and I don't know if I don't repeat myself, because I just simply don't remember.. Sometimes I even forget that I'm hungry- Oh and ofc I never (I mean now- I knew that before..) know what day it is now. It's so strange.. like I'm slowly fading from this world..I really wish to just disappear and I want everyone else to forget me huh.

[@cosmolvr]

Remember the time when we all wanted to grow up? Now we all want to go back to being as a kid because we didn't know back then that growing up meant having to fight a battle *every single day*

[@jaydewithsomebeans4068]

Kids who wanted to grow up to leave their parents quicker: chaa chaa real smooth. But fr, yeah I do, I miss being a young toddler and not understanding half the things going on, just kinda chillin and drinkin chocolate milk or somethin. When we grow up, shit just gets worse because we start to realize how shitty stuff is. Wish you the best.

[@mayautumn4900]

@@jaydewithsomebeans4068 This makes me want to curl up on the couch with some chocolate milk and watch Disney now 🤣

[@ozymandias8242]

CRINGE

[@casey3889]

I don't want to be a kid again. It wasn't much better. I'm in a better spot now. I just wish my mind was as well.

[@Nova-bv5qb]

*laughs in wanting both*

[@jasonwilcox6637]

Adults are kids who lost their way, forgot their dreams, and sold them to the world. It doesn't have to be like this.

[@ajmod73]

Is no one going to talk about the glowing trumpet skeleton that flys across the screen every 8 seconds?

[@korusooooo]

Thank you for enlightening us with this information.

[@moschino8754]

LMFAO

[@brunop.8745]

thank you, i thought nobody was gonna mention it

[@Nova-bv5qb]

OMFG I THOUGHT THAT WAS A MOTORCYCLIST

[@zora3599]

i thought it was a car or somn-

[@blaze6865]

Sometimes I feel like there’s no value to life at all, we’re all gonna die anyways, and other days I feel the there is big meaning to life and it’s beautiful... it’s like an ugly tug-of-war 😭 edit: thank you for the likes,comments and words 🙏🏻 it’s really hard to release sometimes but I do think there is value in life, when I’m older I just hope I don’t regret what I didn’t push for because a lot of old people actually regret what they didn’t do more than what they did do. We will never live this life again and I think that’s a good reason to give it all we’ve got 💪🏼 humans are an extremely complex and complicated species and society is beyond fucked so know you are far from alone

[@Jasmine-ww9tn]

I understand you. I feel the same take care friend ♡

[@Neoillia]

The mortality and ending of life give it meaning, makes the time alive matter, because its in rare quantity. just like gold is valuable because of its scarcity, time is as well, and in turn life is included. both have meaning because both are finite.

[@nathanwong103]

There's no meaning to life cause we all die anyways. Just make the best out of life! Work hard, have as fun as u can, find love, build relationships, and be selfish. Life is all about the happiness u can achieve with others. It's worth living.

[@geeswithane7yrago303]

I litteraly sit up crying nights cause I'm just thinking about my own existence. Why it's useless. Even go as far to thinking I should just end it cause it's no point to this life right? Everything is shit right now why should it get better? But it might actually get better once that's why I just live now for a better time in the future

[@clammqwq]

It all just feels so blurry that i can't even differentiate whats real and whats not from reality and my dreams time to time. Some days i'd just blanl out and snap back and remember "ah i'm here." i feel like verything is just caving in on me time to time i can't even remember how i spent the day and just get really woke at night trying to distract myself and watch my comfort streams, they feel so nice to fall asleep to. All i know is just to get through another day and just live there's still a part of me that wants to see if there's anything really waiting for me and if there will be a home i'd go to.

[@ruboxide4282]

The audio quality is quite unlike anything I usually encounter and it's phenomenal

[@ziiana_zii7862]

Coming back here after got back to being empty ~

[@the-letter_s]

my biggest trauma is holding my father in my arms when he was shot dead because of his skin colour. being constantly harrased and belittled because of my race really made me bitter and self-hating for every little thing. helps to have music like this that helps me remember i have a purpose beyond being someone's 2-dimensional villian. also helps to have internet strangers to vent this too, since i can't afford a "real" therapist anymore. hope everyone here finds success and happiness in life, one way or another.

[@the-letter_s]

@@tehepookie the fact that you cared enough to take the time to type this is actually really comforting. thank you, my friend. i'm doing a decent bit better, especially since his killers got their dues.

[@user-0613]

i’m so so so sorry that happened to you, just know that you are absolutely beautiful and i’m sure your father was too. nobody deserves to be shot because of their skin color. nobody.

[@the-letter_s]

@@user-0613 thank you, my friend :)

[@glowingnettles4689]

It’s so disgusting what happened with this beautiful planet that people die because of their race,what isn’t even important. I’m really so so sorry for you I know I can’t do that much with my words but I just want to tell you that I’m here for you if you have any problems. Lets not wish this happens to your family again even if it’s so sad again that we can’t just forget racism because so many racist exist on this world and I want to burn them down so bad. All bad persons need to go to jail so the peacefully ones can life their life’s, but I also think not racist or not homophobics or not murders have their bad side let’s just all die and let the earth regenerate because it’s a unique planet and people don’t care about that. Ehem yeah I write another poem again sorry for that. I love you and we all hope racists will get jail for 10000000000000years. Stay safe

[@the-letter_s]

@@glowingnettles4689 people have been killing each other in the name of such irrelevancies since the days of Babylon... i don't really have any family left for the most part anyways, mostly for the same reason my father passed. i absolutely agree with you though, people who do such rotten things for such rotten reasons deserve an "equal and opposite reaction"... can't say i agree with everyone dying though, humanity is capable of living alongside nature instead of on top of it if we just remove the malefactors keeping us all down... you don't have to apologize, i appreciate you taking the time to write a response, my friend. thank you, and stay safe as well

[@Paaizer]

In the city you're never alone. That's the weird part. Being alone in a place full of people, but unable to be truly alone to be sad in peace.

[@pandaishh5292]

Wow

[@olshay8767]

I like to call this "Crowded solitude"

[@schweinefleischteinvonreic5573]

now that i recall, i remember feeling less lonely when i lived in the countryside, life quality wasn't that of great but the friends, the neighborhood, the animals, lord... the mf landscapes..

[@Hes_Gone]

Feel alone in a place full of people is the worst that actually be all alone, in solitude at least you can heal, you can work your way to the top.

[@minchyoda1602]

they don't know you though; most of those people don't know you, but being just there will cause consequences, just as everything else here

[@soup-de2jf]

i found this song in a strange time of my life i always knew something was wrong with me but i didnt know at the time. I knew i had depression but there was something else following me now i know its OCD, it feels a lot bettter knowing whats wrong with me rather than wandering around. And now im not longer a girl, and i am a different person than the person who first found this video. for anyone who is wandering and reading this, it gets better, coming from a person who tried to committ years ago, it gets better. Just hang in with yourself and it get better and soon itll be all worth it.

[@janstachu7744]

Despite everything, I was always the caring one. But when even my close friends started to backstab me about three years ago, everything started to go downhill. And it goes constantly, even if I don't realize that in the moment because of the different moods I generally have at different seasons (dk if this is depression). I just don't want to think about this stuff when my mind lets me not to. But every fall, bad vibes are kicking in harder and harder, and now I'm in a state when I'm catching myself laughing out of habit, or to fit in, or to comfort person I'm talking with, or to relieve stress release up tension talking about personal problems (spoiler, doesn't work). If I'm happy or amused, it's only for a really short moment. I'm not suicidal, but I don't have willingness to do anything, working on personal projects and going out basically only because I know how bad and hateful towards myself I would feel if I didn't. I'm turning 17 in december and I feel lost. And old. I feel like I, as of person, am going downhill since the kindergarten as well. Currently I have 2 good friends, but I don't even know if I can call them that, it's weird sometimes. It may be all in my head, I may be stressing too much - it's possible - but I'm not able to recognize this. And I'm no longer in mindset for helping others, it's too overwhelming. And it's really terrible feeling when you realize younger you wouldn't like the current you. I-- don't know. I just don't know. PS: I actually stood up from keyboard in the middle of comment and asked my mom if she could sign me to a psychologist again. I don't know what you are going through Anon, but if you didn't already, please do the same. Even if you are not convinced, or scared - do it, there is no reason to. I promise you, it'll only help, possibly save you. Pinky promise Anon. You want to be happy, remember?

[@Zeartist]

I can tell you this right now. I'm no psychiatrist, but I know for certainty the friends you made sincerely cared just as much as you did for them. They just grew older and changed like everyone else. People grow and discover, learn, and move on. It's normal for this to happen. It's rare for people to stay friends forever. We all grow by the minute by the hour and by the day. I hope this helped you understand what you're going through is normal and apart of growing in life.

[@funcionario]

"why are you tired? you don't do anything"

[@thesaddestdude3575]

"Ugh are you depressed or somthing, fucking get up you lazy piece of shit, wakey wakEYYYYYYYYY!" ughhh.... - My family

[@Grandpa-insect]

oh shit this one hits way too close to home

[@funcionario]

@@thesaddestdude3575 I'm sorry:(

[@thesaddestdude3575]

@@funcionario So am i... Its wierd they used to be supportive.

[@funcionario]

@@thesaddestdude3575 when we are children they are then we grew up and started to understand (I'm sorry if I don't understand what you mean, I'm br)

[@lesale3024]

ngl the only thing worse than memory loss is when memories get unlocked and they still don't explain why everything's wrong

[@consmith9000]

PTSD is a bitch.

[@milk4254]

It would be nice to forget stuff more easily

[@bitemyshinymetalass7393]

hah hah.. fuck thats true.

[@somegirl9673]

@@milk4254 it is but forgetting to much could also lead you to forgetting the good memories. My memories are weird and vague with both good and bad memories. I’m not sure why it’s like that but I wish I could remember things more clearly even it it meant me remembering the bad stuff clearly as well.

[@DeadlyEnough]

Handing out diagnoses won't help anyone. However perhaps you're viewing the world through someone else's eyes. Perhaps your standards do not meet with how you actually view the world - and that is why everything seems off. It's not too uncommon to have your life's values and expectations set by others. So, in slight optimism, perhaps review your perspectives - what is important, what feels right and wrong. Sometimes that helps more than reflecting upon the past.

[@charlieandhisantics9954]

I'm almost 6 months clean of self harm. If I make it to November 9th without cutting, that'll be 6 months!!! Update: Its been about a year since i posted this and a lot of shitty stuff has happened and it made me relapse, but today im 3 weeks clean! It may not be as huge as 6 months, but i used to do it daily, so its a huge accomplishment for me. Jan 28, 2023: 1 month clean again!

[@mxlion]

Congratulations! I remember when i started my journey. Keep it up! It might be hard sometimes but you CAN do it!

[@wessd6204]

hey man! how's it going?

[@yourlocalhornyhyena]

Ay bro! Hope you are fine, been thru some stuff like that. You can do it!!

[@sep4614]

congrats, lots of love and hope next year you come back with a one year streak!

[@theuntitledgoose]

It's been more than a year, what's it's like now?

[@somekid9161]

I found this video almost a year ago, I always listened it non-stop.. it was the closest thing I had to comfort at the time. Looking back at this I've seen how much I've been able to heal from the enormous trauma I've faced. Life has gotten better for me thankfully, of course things are getting worse with my home life but I'm with someone wonderful.. Within 10 months of meeting them I went from the quiet and traumatized girl who was about to give up in life to a childish/immature student who tries their best to succeed I got cheated out of my childhood, but now that I acknowledge it, I can act childish around my friends without feeling guilty about it

[@tophatoctopus1997]

i see people comment something around the lines of "why do i feel bad? there's nothing wrong", and i just want to say that there doesnt need to be something wrong in order to feel bad. the reason its so important to identify trauma is to treat and heal said trauma. you dont need trauma in order to feel depressed, or anxious, or suicidal, or detached from reality, or paranoid, or anything. you are valid, and you aren't hogging the spotlight or stealing resources or anything like that. you are allowed to feel these things, always.

[@kleineitalien4246]

I don't even think it is some trauma that they have, but some lack of meaning/purpose. Only a few come here to listen while feel sorry for themselves for some problem. But I wish they find the way to change, because it's not only about solve problems, but how you see them and all else (appealing to knowledge of philosophy, here).

[@linal00l]

i love u for saying that man u are certified cool

[@waka5795]

thanks

[@ice_cream_mochi]

reading this genuinely helps, so thank you. i doubted myself a lot after i tried going to a therapist for the 1st time, and when she realized i didnt suffer from trauma (just lots of anxiety) she told me I didn't need to be there lmao

[@templecatt]

i feel empty but whenever i say that my brain thinks im saying that to myself for attention. my parents are nice. my sister is nice. home is good. school is okay sometimes. im spoiled, i shouldnt feel empty so maybe i am hogging the spotlight

[@kathrensmall1259]

My mother yelled at me before this so I started to cry and then I found this and it made me feel better

[@mxlion]

Oh I’m so sorry! I’m in the same boat as you so I know how you feel! I’m glad it helped!

[@misschuckito1311]

I get yelled at a lot to the point that I'm used to it, it's weird hearing someone cry about it when for me it's nothing new.

[@caspertheghost4458]

Sheesh I got yelled at to before I fell asleep on the bathtub

[@hanac5586]

@@misschuckito1311 Some people are more sensitive and it's an okay thing to cry about. But I feel you, if it happens a lot you just stop caring. It's still stressful and annoying but you get numb. The sadness turns into annoyance. That was actually how I got the courage to get the police involved. I was mad and wanted to do something about it

[@isislimbaco4264]

I get yelled a lot by my family and sometimes by my friends people even call me a crybaby

[@Neo-ry3jk]

Love the animation. It fits so well with the music. There is kind of a lonley, calm, soothing feeling to it.

[@Zarwis-tls123]

for all of you who sees this comment good job, you've have been working hard

[@clara6188]

"we're just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids to not end it."

[@weirdestpersonguaranteed2244]

Where does that quote come from?

[@losonder136]

that quote sounds nice

[@odditycat2716]

How I became close with my best friend!!! 3 years ago we saved each other's lives at our worst points and we've been each other's favourite person since.... I love them more than anyone or anything else /p

[@Jasper-ni1ok]

My chemical romance, right? How to know your tired of breathing is by listening to them. They acknowledge that your tired. They acknowledge that its okay and that you deserve better. They acknowledge that it doesn't always get better. But they also let you know that you aren't alone. Idk i may have even got your quote wrong but I know that Gerard said that in an interview and he really helped me. He helped so many. It's just nice to think I found another heh.

[@Nova-bv5qb]

YEP

[@brown-axolotl7244]

I don’t think that I’ve gone through anything traumatic but I still feel so stressed out and kind of empty for no reason. It’s frustrating that I don’t have anything to pin this on or to blame. I think my parents love me, I don’t really have friends but that hasn’t bothered me until recently. I don’t know why. This playlist helped me a bit. Thank you

[@Lulu_0809]

Same, idk if I should be commenting this, but it’s nice to know I’m not the only one. Hope everything will get better one day

[@qualityname2055]

yeah same. i dont have a reason to be sad, or anxious, or angry so why do i self-deprecate myself :/ i feel you 100% ur not alone

[@alittlebitd3ad]

@@qualityname2055 this is literally me- I really want to know if there's a name for this because I want to get rid of it

[@alecs9884]

same boat.

[@Threalboy]

same

[@damienmggot.1369]

I'm in a better place than I used to be when I arrived every afternoon from my school to listen to this playlist, it gives me a feeling of nostalgia. Everything is going to get better, you just need to believe.

[@ButteredMushroom]

Really want to thank you for making this playlist. I got sick today and listening to some calm music made me feel a lot better.

[@Lazyeggcake]

Personally, the worst type of trauma is the type when you know it’s wrong, but they give you mixed signals and confuse you on wether or not what they did is wrong. I have that type. And I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me

[@sugoish9461]

I'm not sure exactly what you went through (of course), but I went through pretty bad emotional abuse as a young child. I used to sit and feel like my head was just swirling and I was constantly dizzy from not being able to come to a decision whether I was in the right or not, and not feeling like I couldn't drop the question because it was so important. I've gotten help through a good therapist for the past year and I can just say, I don't feel that at all anymore. I'm so fricking thankful I got through that. So, just saying here, so can you. It may take time, it may take a lot of energy and effort, but you can get out of that feeling. I remember how horrible it was, but it is escapable. Sending love

[@Lazyeggcake]

@@sugoish9461 Thank you for your advice and help. I do hope I get pasted this one day. :)

[@l.symone3611]

My whole entire family and everyone around me. They say it’s me and at this point I think it is, I just want to float if that makes sense

[@Lazyeggcake]

@@l.symone3611 me too man. But Im sure it isn't you. :)

[@loi8921]

turning it on would not be good I think you should take it as a lesson and I know you feel horrible but calm it can only be a scenario although it can come back as many times as you want

[@tiitelitam8662]

There is two reason why I exist. 1: my parents wanted a child. 2: I haven't died yet.

[@pianoman7753]

I hope things exist positively for you right now, and if they dont, I hope you find the strength to overcome Whatever obstacles impede your path. I wish you good fortune and happiness and easy resolution to the things you face. I wish you the best, friend. Feel the music to it's best extent. We wish you the best here, friend. Not everyone is here for themselves. Some are lost like you, some seek resolution or thought provocation some are here to learn or grow. You only get one shot at being here, make the most of it even if most of us cant understand it I love you even though I dont know you

[@tiitelitam8662]

@@pianoman7753 thanks. And I love you too.

[@tiitelitam8662]

@@pianoman7753 this really means lot to me. Because nobody haven’t said they love me in a very long time.. I hope you have a wonderful day or night and please take good care of yourself. ❤️

[@daughterofchrist5764]

Jesus loves you ❤

[@chrisdiddis9461]

Wow :0

[@fm56001]

i cant take this seriously with the doot skeleton passing by

[@sun-ny]

With all those "cores" I thought my head was about to explode from the shockwaves emitted from my headphones. But this is also nice.

[@jojonapton]

I feel like I'm watching myself In 3rd person. everything feels like a vague memory, slow and distorted. It's amazingly horrible, life...

[@nveah7468]

i know what your talking about, like when you think back about things you see things in 3rd person and it's like your stalking yourself.

[@jojonapton]

@@nveah7468 yeah kinda, it's hard to explain it because we all experience things differently even if we experience the exact same thing we take it differently.

[@bubbeline8217]

i think u both have depersonalization! a lot of people have it, so don't be scared! i just thought u 2 might want to check it out, so you can get explenations and stuff! :) love u

[@bubbeline8217]

@@nveah7468 this is a short description of depersonalization from wiki

[@jordyncalloway7149]

Derealization or depersonalization is what I’d say it is :)

[@aphelion7756]

I kinda like how the leaf on their head just kinda splats into existence after the light goes past haha

[@Sai1ence]

This video is a never-ending loop of the doot skeleton stealing the head leaf then running away.

[@lolersthe4th880]

Can't say I'm in the best place atm but I've been on this roller-coaster long enough to know that I can't have the good times without the bad. Love to see such a supportive comment section - it's clear that this playlist really resonates and finds people when they need it most (I absolutely wasn't looking up any mixes, but kept seeing this pop up).

[@nerdklutz]

still the best playlist I've heard till this date

[@raquela8438]

i dont like it when my mom is nice to me, because when shes mean its easier to hate her for how shes treated me. when shes nice i just feel anxious, guilty, and overwelmed. when shes nice she expects me to be extra loving in return, i dont know how to do that. it never ends well.

[@elenatellez8756]

hey sameee.after all shes done she thinks she Will get something back of me but either way i have to give her something back like a hug or kiss but i feel guilty or overwhelmed idk.its like i cant do anything and im just being controlled

[@mantispenis4192]

me too bro,, except its dad for me

[@Alex-wi8xm]

Attend only the expectation and nothing else helps?

[@saltylemon8203]

Everything’s gonna be alright dude. It’ll get better soon, I swear :)

[@marina-fn1bk]

same except it's my dad, so i get how u feel ♡

[@xlurien_x]

guys, pls remember that trauma comes in all forms! do not invalidate yourself based on others experiences that could be worse than yours, since almost everyone goes through some sort of trauma within their lives, no matter how small. have a good day/night! ily

[@linal00l]

thank you man ily u are also very cool and valid :D

[@core413]

ty!

[@thefoxandthehound81]

[@end4567]

I understand what you mean but I'm not sure if I can follow. It seems that those who go through the least pain have the loudest voices and I feel like that's me right now. There are people who get beaten on a daily basis and I'm here having existential crises because someone yelled at me once. I don't know, it feels so egotistical of me to do it considering that those who get beaten don't seem to cry about it constantly, even though they should be the ones doing it. I have a lot to go through but it still doesn't feel as bad as other people have it. I'd like to stop but I just can't.

[@xlurien_x]

@@end4567 oh, i understand what you mean. you are correct, at times some people speak over others experiences and invalidate theirs. this is not something people should really be doing, rather taking the time to listen and empathize with one another, along with educating ourselves on certain debilitating issues. i was not trying to imply that people with not as significant trauma should be speaking OVER others, rather being able to acknowledge their own problems and not bring themselves down. i don’t want you to feel bad to reacting a certain way to yelling based on how others react to more severe abuse. this is somewhat of a bad mindset to have for yourself, as you might end up hiding your own problems/isolate yourself as a result of feeling like you have less trauma. it is only a matter of enforcing the normality of talking to others about these issues, especially in the extremely severe cases in which you mentioned. we have to be able to achieve this without speaking over others. i know this is a long message, but i hope you understand my point! also, you can talk to me ab anything anytime. my user on insta is x_emilyyxoxo_x if you want someone to vent to :)

[@zboyfl7624]

Y’all be strong, strong in the real way. Sometimes you’ll face something that you have no idea how to deal with. So just know that even when it’s rough, recognize that it’s up to you to recognize the worth of owning those hard times by knowing that things will get better because you want them to. That even if it doesn’t seem obvious now, something can and will change. Fight, win, and relish the opportunity to do so. Life’s a beautiful thing to those who are living. So live

[@bberrybibi]

This was my go-to playlist during the pandemic, I became extremely depressed and listening to it gave me some sort of internal peace. Now I've gotten properly diagnosed, and it's been almost a year since I've started taking meds + psychotherapy. Listening to this again brings me such a bittersweet feeling, yet I somehow feel happy because the feeling of peace is still there, but this time, it is not because it relieves my pain, it's because it brings me happiness, something I thought I'd never feel.

[@extraordinarynt4317]

Meanwhile people are talking about trauma and nostalgia “Did anyone else realize they’re a tall man standing beside the lamp?”

[@haphephobia]

This is hella scary, good thing i can't see it-

[@Mars-rv9um]

thats what i keep saying...

[@sariel632]

I thought I was the only one

[@amanwithnoname4657]

Also the thing going by the screen is Mr Doot

[@craigtucker3273]

Yes. its my demons

[@valeria-xp4dh]

I feel people's eyes on me. I see things moving around me, things that shouldn't move by their own, things that aren't even there. I'm scared

[@taspiix]

finally someone who i can relate to

[@denise-rp4ou]

Same but idc at this point im tired caring about things.

[@geeswithane7yrago303]

@@vanessale1903 no lol

[@mcpie566]

I experience the same thing. I was scared of it for such a long time, but now it’s a comfort. They don’t change, they don’t leave, they’re there for my best and worst moments. I’ve named them, and I sometimes talk to them about life and thinks that've happened. Sometimes I lean back, close my eyes, and think about how it’s like I have so many silent, secretive friends protecting me.

[@moonhall]

I think that's schizophrenia-

[@bogdanfechet7617]

My mom does not reconise me as family , only calls me for work, never apreciate what i do. Life is falling appart. Fiction is my escape from reality

[@thewhitesakura597]

I hope Everything gets better for you! My best wishes for you! Don't give up!

[@crynauct]

I seem to be the only person I've seen so far to notice or really care, but I really appreciate the fact that the audio visualizer has the lower frequencies on the left and the higher frequencies on the right.