MY ACCUTANE JOURNEY: Why I Decided to Get Off Accutane

Hi guys! I know a lot of you were following my journey so I felt necessary to explain to you guys a little bit why I won't be continuing my accutane journey! Thank you guys so much for all of your support it means the world seriously I can't express that enough.

[@annabelclaire6247]

I'm coming up on 1 month on accutane. I'm on 40 mg, and I can already tell it is affecting my mental health. This past week has been pretty rough for me. (I'm also an already emotional person too). I'm going to continue just because I want my skin to get better more than anything, but if it becomes too much I may stop. I'm just so desperate for clear skin because I've struggled with it my whole life. All I keep telling myself is that if I can just get through a few months it will be worth it in the long run.

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

I definitely can relate to you on that! I pushed and pushed until I felt I couldn't anymore because clear skin was worth a few sucky months for me. If you decide to do that then please make sure you have someone to talk to about how you're feeling, don't endure that alone! Be strong and know clear skin days are ahead! Enjoy your happy days and try and think positively :)

[@kaylenerae7451]

I became very depressed the first month but after that I was fine. Now I’m glad I hung in there. Of course you need to do whatever is best for you. Just wanted you to know that in my case, it went away.

[@brynnlevitt3124]

You can get through it but go see your doctor and see if they can help

[@luis-il2fl]

Man up wtf

[@annikaa881]

fasting

[@paulaluzuriaga9416]

Liliana your accutane videos are really helpful! it would be great if you made more post accutane videos while you sort out what works to keep your skin clear/ healthier. I'm glad you made the right decision :)

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Ok I will definitely try and do that! :)

[@gabriellamonroy1182]

I’m starting month 3 next week and I feel the same w the depression and about not having a purpose. I’m hoping I am able to just get through it but I’m glad you made these accutane videos so thank u :) hoping your skin remains clear, and that you feel better mentally and physically. ✨

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Please make sure you are talking to someone about how you feel and stuff! Always make sure to communicate those feelings and thoughts. Thank you so much! Good luck on the rest of your journey :)

[@HoneysEffect]

I have depression right now, but I think it's from my lack of self esteem from my acne. I've been wondering if I should get on accutane for awhile, but I'm scared it'll make my depression worse. Either way, I'm so happy I found your videos. They were really informative and I enjoyed watching them. Thank you so much for making videos Liliana

[@eliseholman6301]

If it makes you feel any better, I have a history of depression and have been on Accutane for 2 and a half months with no mental health side effects (so far) :)

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

I definitely wouldn't say I regret going on accutane. Like to me I pushed and pushed because I felt those temporary feelings were worth me having clear skin! Not everybody experiences those side effects so I would just say make sure you are very communicative about your feelings and thoughts just in case! Thank you so much :)

[@byrtubeon]

To clear your ACNE completely just type in MOTWEIGH ACNE in the KZbin search box. Be sure to click on the "SHOW MORE" and read the 500 word instructions very carefully. It works 100%.

[@oliviadrew4584]

i started accutane 2 days ago. i was really excited to start but i am scared it is going to take a toll on my mental health which would be so bad. thank you so much Liliana for taking the time and being super real and raw with us. so much love and wishing you the best with your skin.

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Yay thank you so much! Please don't be scared! Just have positive thoughts and don't get in your head, it doesn't happen to everyone. Make sure you have someone to talk to in case you start feeling certain things. And yes you SHOULD be excited!!! Clear skin days are close sister!

[@aliciavomitsunicorns1815]

Awe I’m so sorry this is happening Me and this is my fifth month but I’m gonna continue on Accutane because I’m still getting active pimples. But above all your mental health is really important so I’m Happy with your decision you shouldn’t feel that way. You’ve helped me so much with your videos throughout my journey. You’re so beautiful and your skin looks amazing. Stay positive I will keep watching your videos you’re amazing luv 💛💞💛

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Thank you so much for reaching out! I hope your journey went amazing and that you have the clearest of skin! You're so kind thank you

[@emmazavadell3986]

hi i missed you!! I'm really glad you posted this and talked about how you felt. I've been on accutane for 2 months now and I thought I was going craaazy because of the way I felt sometimes. im a suppppeeeeer emotional person as well but on accutane.... i didn't know who i was anymore, i didn't know what i liked/disliked, and it almost felt like i had no purpose in life! it was weird and i didn't want to self diagnose and say i was depressed, but it really did feel like i was. it sucks because i still feel these things (not as intense as before but they're still there) anyways i did some research and it turns out, lots of people who have been on accutane say they've had personality changes whilst on it! and idk just knowing that made me feel less alone and so did this video!! id always watch your monthly updates and as much as they reassured me they also made me wonder if i was the only one who felt that way. all in all im so glad you're taking care of your mental/physical health and that you talked about this because im sure many other people won't feel as alone now :) love u n stay happy xx

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

YOU HAVE SERIOUSLY BEEN SO SWEET TO ME THROUGHOUT THIS ENTIRE THING! Thank you! I'm sorry that you have been going through that :( It's definitely hard to understand and manage these feelings and thoughts. I'm so glad that I can make you feel like you are not alone because you definitely are not! If you ever need to talk to somebody about how you are feeling don't hesitate to reach out to me, I understand how confusing it may be :( I wish you nothing but the best always!

[@amandamariepena]

You’re beautiful Lils we are all so happy and proud of you! ❤️❤️❤️

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

I LOVE YOUUUU

[@okfinefine1073]

Can you please do a video where you show your skin closely to the camera because i think rightnow it just looks sooo good but i don’t know if its just because the camera isn’t that close to the face

[@nnaxhiely]

Fatlind Shala agree with you

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Ok I'll do that soon :) You can see my videos in my last month how my skin is looking! nothing has changed I don't really have any active pimples right now.

[@vimenodolie426]

I'm glad you made the decision.. the side effects are no joke. It's stressful and it can take a toll on your life.. Thank you for being a source of inspiration 🖤🖤

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Thank you so much! And yeah of course! Accutane is hardcore but worth it in my opinion!

[@chloievillafuerte]

Girl! Don’t worry much. I’m happy with your decision and I’m loving your skin. I’m on 4th month now. I get anxious alot too and I understand you. Anyways, with your situation. My suggestion is opt now for another treatment like lasers and stuff like that since your skin is clear now. Maintain it with another option that works as well for you. Check it out with your dermatologist. Hope everything is better still. Keep it up! You inspire me ❤️

[@paigetowey9791]

My daughter and I watched your videos because she is trying to determine whether Accutane is right for her. Honestly, you are a total badass and we appreciate your honesty and vulnerability. Putting yourself out there and being honest was helpful to us and I truly hope your journey without it stays positive!!

[@byrtubeon]

Don't bother with ACCUTANE, just type in: MOTWEIGH ACNE in the KZbin search box. Be sure to click on the "SHOW MORE" and read the 500 word instructions very, very carefully. It works 100%

[@auroreapruzzese2770]

I understand so well what you’ve been through! I’m on my 4th month and I’m a very sensitive person too and it’s been rough ! I have a lot of problems which doesn’t help so I’m taking an anti stress and plan to see a psychologist or someone who can help during this period...

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Yeah it's definitely hard to manage these feelings! It's good that you are finding someone to talk to :) Good luck on the rest of your journey!

[@Ccchelseaoliviaaa]

You look amazing!!! So happy for you!! I am now on month 30 on 60 mg, pretty much spot free only redness!

[@amarleensingh7568]

I’m glad you got off the medication. I got off after 2 weeks because it was impacting my vision...my face is a wreck right now, but I’m trying to fix it :(

[@madnicron10]

That's where I'm at right now. The two week mark also. My vision is really cloudy and blurry and I'm not sure if they'll take me off. Did you derm tell you not to take it any more?

[@amarleensingh7568]

Madison Ronevich yea it was because my eyes were so sensitive to light the next day after taking it that I couldn’t keep my eyes open while driving. Also, when I switched times I would wake up and there was no lubrications in my eyes. I’m still suffering...my eyes are so dry now...I’m trying to get the oil glands to start producing lubrication, but it’s not working...my eye doc said my eyes have some inflammation. I just wanna go back to before starting it to be honest...

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Ah man I'm sorry :( Yeah I remember the first week of me taking it my eye was bloodshot red but it went away thankfully. I hope you get that worked out! And I hope your skin clears up soon girl!

[@amarleensingh7568]

Liliana Madrigal thanks❤️

[@emma.l]

Did your eyes go back to normal? What dose were you on?

[@mpineda713]

Aww I had to get off accutane as well because it was affecting my anxiety but I wished I could’ve finished it. I have been off accutane for 1 month 1/2 and I can tell the difference. I would definitely get back on it again just not at the moment since my anxiety is bad even with out accutane so I just need to learn how to cope with it. Your skin looks great! I was on accutane for 3 months but it did wonders on my skin for those 3 months. It would be great if you would do like anxiety updates on how you cope with it or even beauty routines and if the vitamins have been helping with your acne. It would be great if you can keep your channel going. You have a great personality and I feel like your KZbin channel can grow more and even help with your anxiety or other people suffering from it. Please keep making KZbin videos 🤗

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Aw thank you so much! I will try and see if I can keep the channel going as long as I can come up with content lol! But yes seriously Accutane really does wonders for your skin it sucks that the side effects are so sucky :( I hope that you find a way to cope with your anxiety sister! Good luck to you :')

[@mandyhyp]

Thank you for the videos! I just had my blood test and about to start accutane. Really wish it goes well. Life with acne is tough. :(

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Ah I do not miss those blood tests :( thank you for reaching out! life with acne is really hard but I think it takes strong people to endure it! you are amazing and you will have the clear skin you have always hoped for!

[@kristywatson5981]

Girllll can we be friends!!?? I am literally the only one in my family and out of my friends that has acne! I have no one to talk to. No one understands. Ugh. I loved your videos they were so detailed and really helpful. 😁

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

UM YEAH of course we can!!! I'm here if u need to talk always :) thank u for being so kind

[@whatacutie6380]

I've been on accutance hoping that it'll go away once im done but nope it came back n i got even more depressed i swear it sucks cos acne just wont go away even if your skin gets clear for a short time it'll comeback.

[@kater6873]

You're stunning! Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us!

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Aw omg thank you so much :(

[@gilliancollins3324]

I’m so sorry you had a such a bad experience, I hope this doesn’t happen to me. Your skin looks beautiful & and you are beautiful ❤️

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

I hope this doesn't happen to you either! You are so sweet thank you for being so kind to me!

[@kelvinimartinez5081]

I’m on day 11 and I already struggle with depression but it was NOT as bad as when Im on accutane. it was so bad I would cry 3 times a day and my thought were so negative like never before. NOW I’m ok and I’m getting better but I really hope I don’t go back to feeling like that. But wish me luck. Can’t wait for my skin to clear up

[@Shrut-patel]

Your acne won’t come back just think positive .i finish my 7 month of accutane and side effects are really really horrible . I lost my hair a lot which no one talks about this side effect . But my acne is cleared so i m happy

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Thank you I'm trying to think positively! And awesome congrats on finishing your treatment :) I didn't experience hair loss but I know a lot of people do, I hope it gets better!

[@catiemeeth4602]

Have you noticed if your hair is growing back? And what did you do to help with the hair loss? I'm on month 3 and my hair is thinning so much

[@Shrut-patel]

Catie Meeth my hair is almost back to normal still having hair loss but not as bad as before . While on accutane no matter what u do u will experience hair loss becoz your hair is dry .so just use any hair serum to control dryness and u won’t complete loss your hair i also experience hair thinning so don’t worry

[@czhaok]

Word of caution for viewers, although she did 6 months and is acne free technically it’s a failed accutane course as there wasn’t 2-3 months of treatment post last breakout - which is fine and the right thing if you really felt that bad. But of course now seeing your new series a year ago where you’ve had to have another course - sometimes it’s worth seeing if you can stick it out

[@tommygoncalves9569]

Bro this girl is so beautiful oml my nigga. Like deadass if your reading this,,your so beautiful in every way love,,don’t let anyone tell you otherwise, and if you didn’t have a bf,,,,,lemme not LMFAO. Buh hella love sent yo way,,,I’ve been off of accutane for six months,,and I promise you shit only gets better‼️❤️

[@sophieo5324]

This makes me nervous. My daughter is 13 and will probably go on it soon. Acne has affected her mental health big time. Hoping her mental health doesn’t get worse, she’s got anxiety which she claims is partly because of her acne. She started breaking out very mildly at 10.

[@ameliaetienne8521]

YOU are SO unbelievably GORGEOUS. You kind of look like if Angelina Jolie and Emily Browning had a baby!

[@saintmalone5537]

holy shit u look so beautiful! I’m on accutane for a week and untill now i don’t have any sise effects but i get why u are stopping with accutane :))

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Thank you! And yay that's awesome! I wish nothing but the best for you on your journey :)

[@saintmalone5537]

Liliana Madrigal thank u so much!

[@mission.naukariBY.TABREZ]

I beg to ask you please tell me how did you treat your pimples marks, scars, pigmentation after isotretinoin please tell me

[@User-3001-]

I’m about to start month 3, I haven’t had emotional changes but I can’t focus as much, everything goes through one ear and out the other and I really have to focus on things to get them like in school😓

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Yes I can totally understand that! I'm sorry :( I hope you are doing better

[@kevinsam3078]

Its been like 3 weeks on isotretinoin, im already a very anxious person , never had depression but after these 3 weeks im starting to get depressed, i dont feel mentally ok , and i have been getting really weird and scary thoughts , im not trying to scare anyone bodies differ , but im really concerned, going to book an appointment with a psychologist. I am really upset that no one focused on the possible mental side effects of accutane to me , i a,ready knew them but i thought 1)they wouldnt be this soon 2)they wouldnt be this bad Not to discourage anyone as she said , but for someone with a history of anxiety or depression, i suggest a simple conversation with your doctors and to be careful would be the right step before taking any pills

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

I am so glad you are seeking help and communication with other people. I am so sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time. Surround yourself with those things that make you feel that bit of happiness as much as you can! Accutane is no joke and some people feel these side effects more than others. The important thing is that you are realizing that they are only side effects and you know exactly what is causing these feelings/thoughts. I hope you get better soon, God bless always

[@OgilbyElizabeth]

I’m on the end of my 4th month and I’ve experienced anxiety ever since I started it. Is it a side effect for anyone else?

[@Sandra-vc9vk]

Yess I already had anxiety so it just makes it worse . I hate it . But I’m trying to push through

[@User-3001-]

You should check out medical medium on Instagram, he says drinking celery juice on an empty stomach helps eliminate acne, I’m on accutane now but wish I tried this first

[@eileentrillo4000]

Continue making videos please, you are so beautiful inside and out.

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Thank you so much! I want to continue, just finding it hard to think up content that you guys would enjoy! you are so sweet xoxo

[@kevinsam3078]

I have been reluctant to start accutane because of its shitty side effects , i went to dermatologists many times ver the past few years and they all prescribed it and i would just avoid taking it because of my poor mental health (anxiety) and keep saying i will just take it after the school year ends and would make some excuses ever since 9th grade ..im a senior now and i took my first 2 pills today and im worried about the side effects, i feel im more vulnerable to more anxiety and depression and im just hoping it all works well I have my 1st therapy appointment in about 3 weeks because i started to realize that my mental health should be a priority after years of anxiety and stress

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Yes! Definitely make it a priority. Make sure you have people that can continue to check up on. Remember to stay positive and communicate everything you are feeling!

[@savannam.1458]

dudeee, can we pls be friends lmao. I'm not trying to sound weird or anything but I really don't have people I can talk to about Accutane and acne and all of that because no one else I know is also going through it. anyways I'm starting accuatne on Monday and I'm kind of nervous because I/ve been dealing with keeping happy but just hope everything goes well... also i hope your acne stays the hell away haha, but regardless if it does or doesn't you're beautiful girl so keep your head up.

[@rayaan5531]

Simp

[@abdljalilsadaoui4438]

Did you stop dairy and sugar on accutane ?

[@nehan426]

Wow you look very beautiful now I am so happy to you ❤️❤️❤️

[@elsakraja8925]

Can you make a video to show what vitamins you take,Please?...Hope you get better❤️

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Ok I will! Thank you so much!

[@georgegillies5236]

Did your skin get worse in the end?! I am exactly the same... my mental health deteriated while on it & I had to stop after 3 months on 40mg. I am worried my acne will return.

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

I get a few pimples here and there around the time I am gonna start my period. My face isn't 100% clear but I am still happy with how it is!

[@tayyabakhan4372]

I'm on 4th month , but it disturbed my LFTs(raised ALT) so i stoped the medicine.

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Aw man :'( I'm sorry you had to stop, do you plan on going back on once those levels get normalized?

[@tayyabakhan4372]

@@LilianaMadrigalP I'm so scared, i won't go back on this medicine, right now I have no idea what to do, my acne is still as it is as it was before. Can you guide me please? I mean should i go back on this medicine once LFTs get normal or any other option?

[@loveyouindie]

Why lipstick are you wearing because girl you are serving looks 😍

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

loveyouindie AH thank u so much ❤️❤️ hehe im wearing the lipstick by glossier in the color Cake!

[@Sandra-vc9vk]

Does anyone else feel sick while on accutane? I get horrible anxiety and panic attacks and begin to feel nauseous.. maybe it’s just me

[@citlallimoreno9]

this is exactly how I feel :( I’m on month 3 and ready to give up. Did anything help you?

[@Sandra-vc9vk]

@@citlallimoreno9 nothing really helped me which is another reason why I only did 5 months instead of 6 I couldn’t handle anymore pills.. if you feel like u need to get off of accutane I say listen to ur body. My skin is still clear with just 5 months but I do get the occasional breakout here n there. Also u can try asking ur derm to lower the dosage I heard that helped alot of others.

[@emma.l]

will you be doing another update? I'm curious how your skin is now and if you still have any of the side effect

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

I have done updates :)

[@biancaf7945]

You’re gorgeous ❤️

[@maylissxo]

im really scared to start accutane 😭

[@MNM2884nick]

my doctor said that the mental issues were low-key bs. It's only on the list because logically people feel like this due to their acne and not the medication. Go for it, it's worth it.

[@eliseholman6301]

Don't be! I've been on it for 2 and a half months and have no mental health side effects, except for some crying spells (but I've started school which also may play a part in it). It is worth it, and my dermatologist constantly re-assures me that Accutane is a very safe drug.

[@saintmalone5537]

I’m on accutane for a week now, i dont have any side effects

[@sissinal100]

Im on accutane right now for 5 months!! I get emotional sometimes but like I dont pay much attention to it. I think its just all in my head. It just goes away when i dont pay attention to it and go out and dont stay alone for long times etc so just go for it its worth it.

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

@@MNM2884nick I have heard this too but honestly it doesn't really make sense because people do experience crying spells directly from accutane so it does have to affect SOME part of your mental health. I definitely think the trauma of having such bad acne can take a toll on somebody too but at the same time the feelings I began to felt were definitely at a random time. I think it's important to acknowledge the possibility of these feelings just in case! Some people feel them while others don't so definitely wouldn't classify it as ""bs" you know what I mean?

[@nehan426]

I start month 1 I don’t know 🤷‍♀️ why I am tired and I have a lot of acne after eat accutane

[@conjurs5632]

Shukria Akhlaqi did you get it prescribed or get it online

[@nehan426]

conjurrs This medicine can only be prescribed by a doctor !

[@conjurs5632]

Shukria Akhlaqi I found it online my acne isn’t bad enough for them to give this to me

[@nehan426]

conjurrs It is dangerous to take this drug without a blood test. Arbitrary ingestion of this drug may actually destroy your liver⚠️⚠️⚠️

[@SimranKaur-uj7in]

hiii what have you used for scars!! my acne has been going away but idk what to do about scarring

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

I haven't really used anything specifically for my scars honestly!

[@preetysharma1855]

Plzzzzz make a video on ur zinc and multivitamins... Plzzz

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Ok I will soon :)

[@jhyllanaanavhertaruc9835]

How many months was ur journey?

[@LilianaMadrigalP]

Six :)

[@extendoxl2101]

First.

[@mission.naukariBY.TABREZ]

Please please please please please tell me

[@markvargas449]

You didn't really need to be on it just change the life style eat better and all that stuff you know