My autism, setbacks, struggles growing up, and life progress.

Sorry I can't get the audio any louder than -5dB - everything is maxed out, so I think I need a more sensitive mic. That's why I'm basically eating the mic.
I hope this helps explain things and fill in gaps. Maybe this will be helpful to parents of kids with ASD.

[@kuronekonyan]

I'm also autistic, but I have no friends and no carreer. Be proud of yourself, you're doing much better in life than most of us.

[@keylanoslokj1806]

Facts. Most of us are really disabled in life. Or hold extremely basic, asocial, and repetitive jobs

[@ClumpypooCP]

Why not? How old are you?

[@hensli]

I’m not autistic and I have a couple friends and not much of a career. Everyone’s suffering, it’s completely normal, but you need to keep continuing to grow.

[@notashton.]

You van make changes person. You got this You!

[@EASFromTheWest]

I think what you should say is that it’s not good for any of us to play the victim. And diagnosis’s for people can create that. Like they’re somehow “unable” for fitting such criteria, but the truth is no one is better than the other. Autistics aren’t better than neurotypicals and vise versa. It’s always the majority that is the problem. I may not be autistic but since i’ve lived with people who are, i almost am autistic by association. For my mannerisms. But i don’t think I’m incapable of finding social cues. It’s just i think people are too harsh and not yet humbled with the cues they give, so if someone misses one single social signal, they go awry. I try to take everything in life socially with a grain of salt because of that. And just ponder it bit by bit, because i’ve seen how people who are slower and need more time to process things get treated.

[@Vativ]

You have a very soothing voice

[@aaronsjournal139]

Thanks 😊

[@injapan33]

You, sir, are a fighter. From the comments I have read, you are helping and comforting "the invisible" in our society. So many out there.

[@aaronsjournal139]

Thank you. I don't think of myself as one, but maybe I am in the eyes of others.

[@tayzonday]

Thank you for sharing. Lots of parallels ❤

[@Saberdud]

Some stay dry and others share parallels CHOCOLATE RAIIIN

[@ClumpypooCP]

You’re autistic ma chocolate rain boi?

[@mickeystix]

Love you Tay - you're a legend, my friend.

[@Cognitoman]

Chocolate rain

[@HXLIASMR]

Dude you have the Chocolate Rain legend of KZbin in here!

[@acromiss]

Very glad I subscribed. Your content is deep, emotional and connecting.

[@aaronsjournal139]

Thank you.

[@thatducklady]

Arcane obsessions, selectively mute, eye contact aversion, the shy kid, being spit on and not fighting back, loner, that feeling of being an outcast....you're telling my story, too...

[@bambooforrests]

…And mine.

[@rachaelsimpson7001]

Hi Aaron so lovely to see your face light up when you speak about your good memories

[@aaronsjournal139]

Thanks 😊

[@NOSfusion]

Man what story! From the possibility of group homes and never driving, to driving for a living a being fully independent. That's a hell of a success story if you ask me.

[@hardtek517]

You're handsome, intelligent, and self aware. You're a prize to anyone, and all of us. I really enjoy your stream of consciousness style videos btw.

[@src59n]

You're very open and honest Aaron. I too can relate to your plight. Although I wasn't diagnosed (until much later in life as borderline ASD) my situation was very similar to yours. It was also compounded by the fact that I was/am extremely short at 5'2" maximum height (Now 63 and just over 5') - life was bloody tough! I never got the girls. Always too shy to ask them out, very few friends etc etc.... I considered self deletion many times but there was always that residual part of me, the hardcore side that said f**k it, I'm gonna live with the life that I've been given and do it my way, alone or not.

[@MegaSpideyman]

Good for you. Sorry you have gone through that.

[@hyroshiblue8245]

I respect your bravery.

[@Oceangirl1234]

Keep going ❤

[@420mustard]

I subscribed a few moments ago. I believe in you. You're more high-value than you realize.

[@420mustard]

Just wondering, what kind of electronic music do you make? What producers are you into?

[@keylanoslokj1806]

Everything is sales. What we realise is less relevant. Only neurotypical men can sell this persona. Even billionaires with Asperger's like Elon musk. Are only idolised for their wealth. No-one likes the actual weirdo beneath the glamour. Even their exes shit talk them and belittle their masculinity.

[@daniella8400]

I think the whole “high value” thing is what contributes to men being this way. Just work to be a good men, everyone won’t be high value and that okay!!

[@shirleypena4133]

@Henryyy In all honesty, Aaron is not a "high value" man, whether you judge him by the standards of today or yesteryear. He is gonna be forty-five this year, and his prospects of owning a home are bleak, unless he finds a woman who owns a home. He is also contemplating quitting his job at a time when hundreds of drivers are being laid off, and companies are going bankrupt. He has admitted that he has difficulty holding onto a job, and many companies are hesitant to hire new employees his age.

[@shirleypena4133]

@@daniella8400 He DOES NOT need to work at being a "good man", but instead needs to focus on having a better work ethic/attitude toward his job, while making a greater effort in his free time to meet up with single women who are seriously looking for a long term, committed relationship.

[@abigailh7715]

Your parents must be so proud of you! Don't compare yourself to others. You are wonderfully unique!

[@ktfoent]

💯

[@EthanJohnsonMay]

you're so relaxing and calming to listen to! props for being so vulnerable

[@blessedlife1206]

Agreed! He could make hypnosis videos because he’s so easy to listen to

[@raiden6156]

I knew you moved before you said it. Moving is so traumatic on kids. I moved twice as a kid so I know exactly what you went through.

[@aurelianutube]

Even as someone not on the spectrum, I find you very relatable. I really appreciated the examples you gave, like doing better in 1on1 talks, liking to move objects for the blur effect or making mental connections between images and sounds. It's like my world perspective just got a bit richer.

[@mat2436R]

Even though I don't have autism I can relate. I was bullied all throughout school. Be it my clothes. Anxiety, I was the new kid to a school a couple times in different cities. Fast forward at 36. I was married for 10 years. Last 5 years of marriage was horrible for me. Now I am 270 lbs gray in my hair. Need some dental work done. I have no confidence and my self-esteem is 0. I suffer from anxiety and depression and no friends. I just stay at home its where I feel comfortable. So I can relate to some of the things you go through. I appreciate you being vulnerable and sharing your story.

[@HunteroftheNorth]

Both my sons have ASD. My oldest it's very mild but my youngest son it's more prominent. It's really interesting getting your perspective on things as an adult and it's helpful for a father.

[@creamfalcon]

Aaron you need to pat yourself on the back more often. That first video took balls of steel and look how good that decision turned out to be. There is a bright future ahead for you with this channel especially when you are admitting it's therapeutic and helping you day by day. Organize that event its a great idea. Best of Luck!

[@ronnyanddonny]

Dude, you've done very well for yourself. It's not fair to compare yourself to neurotypicals; you have to do things at your own pace. But seriously, be proud. Your music is great too.

[@polloloci21]

I have two autistic kids. My oldest (6yrs old) is obsessed with light switches, ceiling fans, and garage doors. He’s constantly asking me to make garage doors (out or cardboard), leave all ceiling fans on (if I turn them off he gets so mad), we have light switches installed all over his swing set and our wooden fence. I’ve wired many battery powered LED lights to household switches in his small play house. The pool is his happy place. He loves the water. Most things he identifies with numbers- our house is not “house” it’s “910” , the car is the license plate number, the food is the qty of calories, 😢 he pulls his socks all the way up, doesn’t want to take his sweater off- even when hot. He doesn’t stand up for himself. Thank you for sharing your experiences- you motivate me as a parent by giving me insight into what might be going on in my sons head. He doesn’t really talk much. 😢

[@iloveyoumy4boys]

I love your stories. You don’t understand how many people’s lives you are saving. There are so many people with this spectrum who are suffering alone and feel they are the only one like this. I know my son is one of them. Thank you so much.

[@whitenoise546]

I'm not autistic, but have depression/anxiety and some opiod dependency thanks to my body failing me already in my 50s You're channel is a breath of fresh air, Aaron. Know that, even for someone who was lucky enough to find that "special someone". I'm praying best I can for all of us.

[@littlebit9698]

I also was a kid that loved legos and building things. Which wasn't the norm for girls. I always knew I was different but my mom refused to believe I was different than the rest. Finally at 30 I was formally diagnosed with ADHD. Thank you for sharing your life with us. But you are right the dating world is beyond crazy and the older you get the harder it is to meet someone.

[@BC-hmm]

Your authenticity shows powerfully. You’ll thrive in life. I just know it.

[@McHenryCruiser]

He’s 44 dude. Why would he start thriving all of a sudden for no reason???

[@BC-hmm]

@@McHenryCruiser Col Sanders didn't sell one lousy piece of chicken until he was in his 60s.

[@warriorforchrist30]

Your story is just as identical as mine, when it pertains to starting over socially and transitioning into a new school and city. I went through alot of culture shock and it was very foreign to me of how kids treated me in middle and high school as opposed to how better I was treated in elementary

[@reiko1273]

Thanks for making this. I've had anxiety and depression for several years, I managed to beat the latter a year ago. Anxiety still plagues me everyday - I literally fear the presence of other people - and it takes a huge toll physically and mentally but I have my reasons for which I must not give up. Life is a struggle, but I hope you keep working on yourself and I will too. We'll get through this day by day.

[@r.j.wheels6755]

I doubt you will ever know how much I needed this video in my life at this moment and time. Thank you.

[@Von.Juan.]

Glad to see you more upbeat, gratitude is essential for mental health

[@califax007]

Oh and I forgot to add, if you are lonely guys consider getting a animal companion if your life situation allows it, I used to have a dog that died and now a cat they have both helped easy my loneliness and given my life more meaning as It's my responsibility to take care of them and make sure they are happy and when they are happy I feel happier too.

[@juttamcginnis6779]

Hi Aaron. I am a new subscriber. I just want to say that you are a brave soul. Putting yourself out there takes strength. I see some similarities in our personalities. I have always suspected myself of being somewhere on the autism spectrum but, never formally diagnosed. I am a 52 year old female and struggle with many of the things you talk about. Congratulations on your channel and Kudos for speaking out!!

[@rockstarofredondo]

I met my husband on youtube. No joke. We’ve been together for 12 years.

[@jenjen2868]

This could be my story. I'm amazed how many things I can relate to. I got spit at, too by a boy who was much older than me. Bullied, ignored, and beat up. I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I also never got over it. Glad, you're reaching out now 🤗 All the best to you, Aaron.

[@emilydavis842]

I'm a girl lurker lol, just wanted to say you're a) genuinely good looking, and b) you have an attractive openness/emotional intelligence despite any ASD setbacks :) Very dateable imho, and also just happy your channel is blowing up 🩵

[@jvteam9513]

Female here as well, and I second all of this! :D

[@daniella8400]

What you see online isn’t the same as dating someone

[@tomchase4798]

I agree

[@somerandomperson5521]

He kinda looks like Dax Shepherd when he was younger

[@russellvarney]

Am 73 and didn't think of myself as dealing with a form of ASD (fortunately milder) till a few years ago. Thought i was an alien, very low social skills etc. school was a torture. became an artist so i wouldn't have to deal with a job, never had a real relationship. Still life went by like a freight trail.

[@jleezy612]

I love watching videos of adults with autism. I feel like it’s a glimpse into a possible future for my little boy. My son was formally diagnosed at 4 but I knew in my heart that he was on the spectrum at 2. No eye contact, non responsive to his name, obsessive interests, hand flapping, aloof, unaware of other’s existence for the most part. He was always extremely bright but didn’t even have words until he was 4 and just started being conversational now at 8 years old. I never thought I’d be able to have a back and forth dialogue with my child. I was so depressed and in despair, fearful of what his future would be like. Would he be independent? Will he find love? Be able to hold a job? Listening to you gives me so much hope. Even with your struggles…you’ve made it through them. You’re an inspiration and incredibly strong!! Thank you for being so open and sharing with us ❤

[@marcusseneca7962]

Well you may have struggled with your shirts years ago but clearly you have great style now :D The T-Rex shirt is great

[@aaronsjournal139]

Thanks 😁 it's great, isn't it? I was looking for t-shirts with synthesizer-related art on them, saw this, and had to have it. What's better than a t-rex playing a keyboard?

[@BenWillock]

This brought up a lot for me.. I often go through the same mental cycle when I think of my childhood. I had similar struggles with loneliness and depression, I was constantly miserable, locking myself in my room, never wanting to come out. I didn't even get diagnosed with ASD until I was an adult after I had a severe mental breakdown for adjacent reasons. And I used to just lie in bed and wonder "Why did nobody see? Why did someone who said they loved me let me suffer so much? Why couldn't they be bothered to help me?". I try hard to remember though, that everyone writes their own story, and while your version of your childhood might be filled with misery and depression, the people around you might remember things differently, focus more on the happy parts. Not that either version is any more or less valid, just that I guess you have to, as hard as it is, try and keep perspective on things. Try and remember the times that you were happy, and cherish them. Self-pity and blaming others is the best way to drive everyone who loves you away and to destroy your relationships with people, no matter the reasoning and cirumstances. Accept that the things that happened happened, and that if you cling to percieved injustices of the past, you can never move on and grow as a person. Not that you HAVE to forgive the people who did you wrong or didn't do what they should have done, but to accept that they're human and humans are flawed. This ended up being a bit of a jumble of thoughts so apologies if none of it makes much sense 😅

[@neazurer]

I hope your channel grows massively and you get the love you deserve man :]

[@MrRocksW]

Dude I find you inspiring im so sorry for your struggles.

[@rnt45t1]

Your childhood sounds really similar to mine. I was into a lot of the same stuff, and constantly building or tinkering with things. I was always drawing or writing my own stories. I outlined video game levels and designed my own characters in grade school. I didn't have many friends, though. Everything changed when I figured out women existed. My "friend" asked my crush out, during an all class field trip, in front of everyone for me. She just laughed as hard as she could. Nobody remembers it, I'm sure, but it still lives with me. I have had similarly unsuccessful romantic life as you, now I'm well into my 30s.

[@michellemarie9526]

You do have to give yourself credit! You're a late bloomer. That's fine. It takes all kinds. I'm a late bloomer as well. Even "normal" people go through insane setbacks which often place them right back to square one at your age.

[@nationalskyline]

I can relate to SO much of what you said. Especially the part about how it took you until 35 to fly "straight and level." Same ... it took me until 30 to get my s*** together. Never thought I'd drive or live on my own either. Also, feeling undesirable and hearing other kids say stuff like "eww." I learned to take better care of myself as I got older, but I still feel inherently unattractive, weird, and alienated.

[@danieldaniels7571]

The wild transition from father to mother also happened to me in 5th grade. I moved from Arizona to Wyoming. It feels so eerily like you’re telling my life story.

[@patrickchilds5486]

I have dysdonia Torticolles in my neck Head shakes hard to look people in the eye. Killed my confidence to this day. Stay strong! Cool hair.

[@MsLisa551]

Hi Aaron... I just saw your first video and fought back the tears. You keep doing this channel. It will change your life for the better. I'm in love with a 47 yr old man who's on the spectrum. He Never had that long term girl or one that wants to stick around. Right now... we have been a part 4500 miles. He enjoys my company when he comes home , he has tried to put the effort in to us but it never long term. It's like he can't stay interested or focused long enough. One day he flew home to have dinner with me 4500 miles ,, then got back on the plane to fly back to Alaska. I think he loves me. But nothing is consistent.

[@DukeofBarrence]

A lot of your experiences sound very familiar. I didn't come to realize I had Asperger's until last year, and I'm 40 now. No relationships, probably an average of ~0.3 dates per year over my lifetime. Growing up was pure social confusion. Nothing came naturally or made any sense to me, and I had no idea why. High school was of course a nightmare. After one year of it, I begged my parents to let me home school. Social anxiety and the feeling of being a pariah was making my suicidal. Having no knowledge of it from an early age made things harder. Everyone just thinks you're a weirdo, even family and friends. Eventually I was able to get pretty good at faking it, as most of us folk are forced to do, but it certainly was never enough for dating purposes. I got burned and disappointed so many times that as a defense mechanism, it seems my mind started automatically suppressing my emotions. I've inadvertently become somewhat of a Vulcan at this point, living based purely on logic and reasoning. It's actually made things easier. I tend to see everything based on a cost/value analysis. I must say, in today's dating market, the potential ROI looks quite terrible, and the general odds of success are exceedingly low. There are other ways to find drive and meaning. My goal is to make early retirement and use my free time and the multitude of trade skills that I've learned to try and mentor young guys who don't have fathers, as I think fatherless children is one of the worst things currently affecting our society.

[@seatangle]

I'm autistic, too. I can relate to a lot of your experiences. My family moved when I was around the same age, and a few times after that. I found it so difficult and spent a lot of time alone as a kid. I'm 32 and feel very behind people my age and even people younger than me, especially when it comes to relationships. I'm trying to do catch up. Thanks for sharing.

[@louper3002]

You're a good lookin dude, in shape, articulate, with a secure job and a place of his own. Don't mean to repeat the old rhetoric you've probably heard a thousand times, but I guarantee there's a woman on your street even that wants a piece of that!

[@hurricanehan6073]

I hope you realize that you have a beautiful mind the mind of a true scientist. Society seems to put derogatory labels on people that they don’t understand. My brother is just like you with a similar childhood. He is good looking, has a beautiful soul, is thoughtful and one of the smartest people you would ever meet. He got married in his later years to a gorgeous gal with a beautiful soul. They are now expecting their 4th child. Don’t give up on finding a beautiful soul to share your life with, it will come when you least expect it. Please don’t listen to others that claim that being single is true happiness. You deserve someone just as beautiful as you to share your life with.

[@DancingSk3L3tons]

Thank you for making these videos. It helps me relate to my own son hearing you explain these things. It's hard for him to say what's on his mind so it's nice to get some insight from someone who may have gone through something similar.

[@AdamJC88Zeitgeist]

I think it's very strong of you to be sharing these stories of the struggles you've been through. For some people, social stuff just seems to come naturally, especially for people who grow up with siblings I think. For others, social stuff is a real struggle, it can be extremely painful, and it can be debilitating, considering we're a social species and we need to form connections with people. Thank you for sharing these things, and PLEASE keep going. I think this will help a lot of people, more than you know. Please keep telling your stories and posting these videos.

[@BC-hmm]

8:32 -- you've inspired me to reach out to a girl who bullied me in the 7th grade to ask her why (30-ish years later). If you like, I can share with you about how it goes.

[@weenerb2959]

How’d it go (if you don’t mind sharing)

[@BrokenInBeauty]

I as sure as the others that have liked and seen your comment would love to hear how it goes, regardless of the outcome! I hope you’re doing it for yourself more than to be affected by the girl’s response. Good for you, 😊

[@daniella8400]

Huh? She was a kid, kids so cruel & evil alot of times Why take something that happens as a 12 year old so personal?

[@r.m5883]

Yes! Give us an update

[@yeboscrebo4451]

Sounds like you’re trying to bully her back. Just forgive and forget

[@emzywillrich7243]

As a child, I spent months making a replica of the Jupiter II from Lost in Space. It turned out great. I later gave it to my younger brother, when I became older and wanted to put away childish things. He promptly destroyed it. I've always regretted not keeping it. I do have a nice model of the Jupiter II and The Robot from Lost in Space now on my bookshelf. It still reminds me of the one I built but was destroyed. I have a degree in law with an emphasis in Space.

[@mikeyswift2010]

It's funny that you say that you are "high functioning." As if you are just scraping by intelligence wise. Meanwhile, you come off more intelligent and together than 90% of people I see on youtube or the rest of the internet. You are doing great bro. Keep that shit up!

[@debbiejohnson7758]

Just finished watching. I'm so glad things are turning around for you, Aaron! Yes, Gratitude plays a big role in that. Being grateful for everything we already have, including the simplest things we all take for granted. Being able to walk, talk, hear, taste, smell, and see for instance. The water streaming out of the shower head. The warm, cozy bed we slip into for a comfortable night's rest. The progress we've made in the last 5 years, 10 years. Then, think about how much better off we are than So Many other people around the globe! It really puts things in perspective for me!

[@jjmurphey88]

Can you show us some of the childhood drawings? I might have autism, but my son might too, and he's like this- very detailed, I feel proud to be a mom of someone who thinks this way, its intriguing, we never run out of interesting things to talk about or explore together. Having him gave us both new skills on how to manage our quirks.

[@tjtampa214]

You really are strong minded. 💪 You've struggled through. 🤺 I was always shy 🌼 and to this day have missed a lot of "life" that others have had but now I realize - that may have been a blessing in disguise, seeing how much trouble so many people have been mixed up in. We all have pain and suffering of some kind tho, I am sure of that.

[@jeffha4057]

I can really relate to how school felt like a nice big family where everyone supported each other. That changed quite a bit once high school hit.

[@andrzejk1030]

I love taking my g wagon at night and driving through the cities and rural areas listening to your videos. Record more please. At 34 I learned from your videos Im autistic aswell. All these years I struggled and no one told me, but I still made it. I would suggest to not put so much value on relationship with women, when you get the ability to date them and you know thats all biologically driven it really looses the initial value we perceived before. We are born alone and we will die alone, stay strong, learn to value yourself and progress for the sake of progressing in your eyes, you dont have to prove anything to anyone. Its easy to say, especially when we have this feeling we live for others and want to be noticed and valued, but you have to do this truly for yourself only, and eventually people will notice. Its counterlogical but it really works. Listen to the youtube channel 1st man and look what he’s preaching, and that what seems like a nightmare for you is what other men are seeking. We are strange creatures.

[@joearnold1843]

Aaron, you look very young for a 45 year old. I've seen a lot of guys younger than you look much older. That's something to be thankful for. Keep up the good work.

[@Ale-ru8br]

you're a good guy Aaron

[@sharlitagiles2337]

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your journey. My daughter is five and recently diagnosed with autism over the summer. Your journey gives me hope for my daughter to be able to thrive as an adult.

[@christiandavidlenz6300]

Thank you for being vulnerable,honest and insightful without becoming hateful,misogynistic and revenge-driven like observable in certain communities online. I don`t even want to mention the name because it damages a group of people that already has increasing problems ! You actually do pretty well and are probably more funtional than alot of us in the comments, who can relate and sometimes even look up to you. Still, it seems challenging for you and it is just human to miss companionship, community and support, so this is an emotional battle. IT really is interesting how people like us who lack social skills still need proximity and companionship and also romance just as much the extroverts. Sometimes our behaviour makes us seem like we do not want to socialize but it is much deeper than that. We have been scarred by certain types of interactions, have a certain fear of challenging social interaction and accompanied rejection and even mocking. Yet, we have a deep desire of genuine interaction but the problem is that type of interaction is hard to come by so we shy away of alot of the time. Anyway, thank you for the openness and there is a lot I, and we, can relate to.

[@debbiejohnson7758]

💜 For the algorithm. I see your subscribers are approaching 3K now! Congrats!

[@nationalskyline]

So interesting hearing you describe your childhood interests. Things like that make people unique - I like that way more than boring "normal" people.

[@TheCatsUnited]

I like that your videos are "sort of all over the place." I think it's great to just get it out. Thank you for your videos!

[@georgecisneros5281]

Man, I really feel you, when it comes to so many issues. The strange thing with me is, I had a pretty constant and almost exclusive relationship with girls in my early youth, to the point I had only “girlfriends”, and many of them at a time, in my elementary school days. Only getting a male friend or two, in my latter days, before high school. I didn’t even know how I attracted them. They just clung to me. Though, it was mostly platonic, for obvious reasons as we were very young. Many of them wouldn’t hesitate to use “boyfriend” and “girlfriend” in discussions between us. I was never grossed out, or steeped in the “cooties” thing at any point. As I simply enjoyed female company. I wasn’t at any point concerned whether it was strictly platonic or even more, either. But, little did I know, once the whole “courting” phase between the sexes, particular once puberty hit, I seemed to, almost over night, lose this “ability”, or whatever it was. As I was now suddenly a “loner”, or at least alone, and abandoned by the feminine of the sexes. There wasn’t any signs of new found revulsion on any of our parts. It’s just as if I no longer had this unmistakable “charisma” that I apparently had with them earlier. As if it was now spent out. The male children, who had previously made fun of me for my relationship with the girls, weirdly, to my eyes, we’re now pairing up with many of those females themselves. Yet, I, who had stuck with the girls all that time, could not get a relationship, either in the old platonic way, or more importantly now, in a romantic sense. Naturally, I felt a bit betrayed. Though that’s something I’m only coming to terms with now. But, more so, I was completely bewildered. What had I done to cause females to leave me alone, and, what had these boys around me begun doing that brought them to them instead?! In the end, that’s a question I could never find an answer to. And, unfortunately, it’s as much a situation now, with this odd dynamic carrying over to my current life, twenty some years on, as it ever was! To the point where, much like you, I am, and have always been, since the “courting” age came upon me, all but entirely devoid of romantic relationships! I dare say, few question have struck me so readily, in such an important portion of my life, for so long. But there it is…hanging over my head. Almost as if I’ve been reaping a punishment that I never realized I had committed all those years ago.

[@cetera.1778]

Thanks for this. as a 23 year old, I also have Asperger's. I'm fairly normal but suffer from feeling inadequate. I've got to learn from these to know that the feels may never go away and I should try being less in my own head.

[@tiffknox6158]

Aaron, I’m fully crushing out on you! I think you’re super cute and thoughtful, articulate and funny. I saw your first video and it resonated with me. Life does seem pretty pointless at times. I struggle with that kind of thinking and feeling too. I’m not sure why you popped up in my feed but, Hello! I also used to live in Santa Barbara. I moved there after high school. If you have any interest in communicating or meeting a new online friend I would definitely be up for that. I find you interesting. Ciao for now.

[@aaronsjournal139]

Hello to you too! Yeah, I'd be down to chat. I have an Instagram for that purpose (link on this channel in "about" section). You were in SB? I love these "small world" moments.

[@larssullivanfan2496]

Let's go Aaron!! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 See.. the ladies love you already. You are awesome man! 💪🏻😎

[@athianocommunity2938]

You bring that feeling of home to the table, i come always back to your channel

[@abigailh7715]

You have a fascinating mind! Surprised you didn't become a bridge architect or engineer. I love how intricate your mind works. So bright and interesting

[@akferren1]

You’re super attractive and well spoken and seem like a genuine guy..I’m not sure why someone hasn’t scooped you up..I hope you meet your person🙏🏻

[@MrAutospec]

Go, Aaron!!! Bro, I`m a truck driver too, but not driving.

[@kelownatechkid]

I really appreciate these videos!

[@minoozolala]

Yeah, you’ve got the imprint you speak of and you will indeed have to be very mindful of it and always find ways to work against it. Be very loving toward that hurt and outcast boy within you. But as a woman, I have to tell you you are very good looking - and you are smart, talented, etc. - the whole package. You are definitely going to end up in a relationship. Just make sure she’s very kind and understanding. Minor suggestion - sit up straight, carry yourself in a confident way.

[@drellz9361]

Thank you Aaron you are loved

[@inthesky7836]

In 5th grade I was called "way to dress" by a 1 bully. My mom got me cloths from picken save, corduroy blue paints, plaid shirts, cheap shoes. I didnt really care much at the time, I punched him one time in the hallway after he made fun of me. I gained some respect then. Tho, I wasnt a fighter and scared to really get into a real fight. I burned bugs with a magnifying class at lunch break and long recesses. I was taller than most then because of a very early growth spurt which others had in high school and was great at tetherball and handball. I went to 9 different schools before high school and was an only child. I know what its like to be the one left out, the outcast. To have crushes on girls but no confidence to even talk to them at all

[@kleek9581]

Your videos are a godsend for so many

[@emzywillrich7243]

Aaron, your parents should have put you in a private school with much smaller classrooms, so you would have had a better chance at interaction with other students. Being an extrovert and never having suffered from loneliness, I do have compassion for those that feel that way.

[@ForrestWade]

dude you are so awesome. thank you for sharing

[@realHampson]

rock on brother, glad to see you in better spirits this time around! life is a process of discovery and it involves hangups at times. the hardest part is over, keep the momentum up and embrace what life has to offer. remember there are a lot of people out there who are dishonest or out for themselves so always trust yourself. competence leads to confidence 👊

[@antwxnsmith]

thank you for sharing your story it touched my heart

[@Vanessa-ff1jz]

Your hair looks soooooo good like this!!

[@jaye5872]

Wow can't remember the last time I teared up so much at a video. Thanks for sharing! Congrats on your progress and proving the doctors wrong! You should be very proud of yourself! 👏🏽 May this be the start of even more progress to come!

[@Katherout]

i love your videos i hope you never stop making them

[@MarkM_]

Hang in there, Aaron. I want to give you a positive statement here. Please believe me, I really mean this. While you are concerned about how women would think if you tried socializing with them, there are definitely women out there thinking the same thing about you. Women like good-looking and kind guys. You have both of those qualities. Some of these women are probably just as nervous as you. I have some really good methods of picking up women. If you want, I can give you the details below. One statement that always stuck with me was, "If you can't make it, fake it. If you can't fake it, fuck it."

[@LarrySalamander]

So much to relate too in this video! Great video dude!

[@sewsinthedark]

Thank you for sharing. I think you are helping people.

[@brainsweep]

I’m happy I found your channel. Keep up the good work.

[@joinveronica5041]

Thank you for your content ! ❤

[@Scorge120]

This is awesome man, it's great just listening to you speak. Pls keep on telling your story! From a fellow sound engineer, the audio sounds great as well.

[@gayleoverly7613]

You are an absolute inspiration. You are just such a great story teller. I can so relate to you

[@stephanieshifrin4285]

Just found your channel. Thanks for your honesty and for letting us know what your experience is like.

[@TMac473]

Nice to see you more level headed and grateful for things. I’m the same way when I’m in a mood it’s hard to see the silver linings.

[@TheNeverposts]

Nothing better than giving yourself some credit. Looking back at some of the darkest moments in my life, there's nothing better than thinking: I handled that pretty well in the end though. Sometimes only we know how great we are.

[@sharonkostiuk3011]

You are glowing you look so much happier.

[@thehorrorfanx]

Very inspiring. You have really overcome so much. You have no idea how many people you are helping with your words and story. I’m subscribing to join your journey of discovery and empowerment. Best wishes for much success and growth.

[@Vanessa-ff1jz]

You are amazing, please don’t put so much pressure on yourself. For what you have gone through you are clearly a fighter and are doing far better than anyone could have imagined.

[@Vanessa-ff1jz]

God this is so heart breaking. I am truly so so sorry you went through this. Kids can be so mean. It’s no wonder you developed low self esteem. Life experiences has been incredibly unfair on you. What they did has stayed with you and they probably have no idea or even remember it. Wish I had met you in school and had been there for you for all that.

[@Miss_Sippy]

This is a great video. Thank you for sharing. For being a voice for so many.