My Date With Death

[@HolyKoolaid]

Thanks for watching, everyone! Don't forget to smash that like button. If you enjoyed that video, you should check out this one next: kzbin.info/www/bejne/fKHYc6WvaaecY80

[@Jaggededge112]

Hey I have a MacBook Pro for sale.

[@Jaggededge112]

It’s a 2019 in perfect condition.

[@markcinco8405]

Curious about your MBPT. Understand if you don't wanna share. ☮️

[@LavaCreeperPeople]

Ok

[@Jaggededge112]

@@markcinco8405 sure what do you wanna know

[@Nathouuuutheone]

Can't wait for my life to start being meaningful again. I'm still in the wallowing self-pity stage

[@martinmckee5333]

I'm in a similar position. I hate my life, and try as I might, I can't figure out how to make it tolerable. I can "survive" each day as it comes, but not much else.

[@Antowan]

​@martinmckee5333 Sorry to hear. It seems to be more common . Even with religious folks. I think it is partly society. There is so much weird stuff it makes us feel isolated. Making a change feels impossible. Most days everything feels impossible.

[@hossmcgregor3853]

Realizing your faith is a lie sucks. But you are not alone. Lots of us have been where you are. It takes a bit to realize that the meaning you find is so much better than the manufactures meaning that religious leaders tried to pretend was in their holy book.

[@A-non-theist]

​@@martinmckee5333ME too. Know exactly what you're feeling. I stay in the house 90% of the time.😢

[@Nathouuuutheone]

@hossmcgregor3853 oh I never had a faith. I've just been through some stuff and I have lost almost all belief that anything can be done to better my situation or work on a worthwhile future

[@DataJack]

You are incredible and I am happy to count you as a friend ❤️

[@michaelmccarthy4077]

Thank you for opening up and being so honest.

[@HolyKoolaid]

Of course! And thank you so much for the super chat.

[@jgs1122]

Thanks!

[@HolyKoolaid]

Thank you for the super chat.

[@heavyfe4788]

Yo, I also had a near death experience after a 6 storey fall. Life really does different after that and I am basically living unapologetically. To better days!!!

[@HolyKoolaid]

Oh wow! That's a long drop! Incredible that you're still alive! Also, thanks for the super chat.

[@laurajarrell6187]

Holy Koolaid, Thomas, just so you know, I had 'unpatroned' last month only because of my own, extreme financials. I plan to come back asap, but hearing this, I wanted you to know. You are fantastic! As for fearing death, for me it is worse loosing others, aging and seeing them age, much worse than death. 👍💙💖💙🥰✌

[@hgec]

Thanks for this video. As a person struggling mentally it is encouraging to see someone show you a clean and realistic perspective to strive for. I wish everyone who is struggling to find their inner truth, and I hope that more content creators will make videos about these issues that are so critical to the public.

[@thelittlebluecottage6091]

It was my near death experience 2 years ago that led me to start questioning my religious beliefs,, which then led me to your KZbin channel! Thank you for everything you’ve done so far, and best wishes as you journey forward!

[@HumansAreStupid666]

I follow Christianity simply because it improves my mental health, I wouldn’t be here right now if I didn’t.

[@PearlpeglerOd]

Yes I agree. Don't waste your life hiding what you actually think or feel. I no longer want to bring any more pain into this world because I think there is enough pain in the world as is, but I also don't let people walk all over me anymore either. It's very peaceful❤

[@j3in725]

Goed gesproken

[@mwbhomee2802]

Wasn’t able to help out back when you had your accident but I hope this helps. Keep up the good work and get well again.

[@HolyKoolaid]

Thank you. This means a lot.

[@armandobayolo3270]

Oh, and thank you for sharing your journey through the post-trauma depression. Depression is insidious. Glad you're back on a path towards healing.

[@Zaft_K]

Oh, sweetie, I am so sorry you suffered with such depression.

[@NissaMaezHartman]

Big Hugs, Thomas. I have bipolar disorder, so I definitely understand depression. Im glad you're getting through it. You have lots of people just out here in KZbin land cheering you on! ❤

[@enowmessi2844]

He needs Jesus Christ

[@GorrestFummp]

Hey Thomas, I’m a committed Christian who has struggled with a lot of the same stuff. Just wanted to thank you for your videos and your heart and love for people. I do believe there’s a God, but the church has caused so much pain and division. I’m praying for your mental health and would love to help out with your computer. Thanks again man!

[@HolyKoolaid]

We might disagree about God, but we both want to be able to heal and thrive and for there to be less suffering and pain in the world. Thank you so much for the kind words and the donation. It means a lot.

[@markrademaker5875]

Stop pampering Thomas. He hates The Truth/Beauty. Love him by showing him that his way of thinking is self-pity, not pity for others. Thanks. James 4:6

[@GorrestFummp]

@@markrademaker5875 I would disagree with your observation. I’ve watched pretty much all of his videos and he makes a point to explain why he’s making them, and who they are for. He calls out frauds, cheats, scammers and abusers who are taking advantage of people within the church, and if more committed Christians thoughtfully and honestly engaged with his content instead of immediately writing combative and holier-than-thou comments, then there might be less videos for Koolaid to make. But unfortunately, Christianity’s reputation continues to proceed itself.

[@markrademaker5875]

@@GorrestFummp I appreciate hearing from you. Granted, among professing Christians many are in it for themselves, not for The Truth's/God's glory. That does not give Thomas an excuse to deny The Lord Jesus. Thomas, sadly, is willfully saying "No." to Mercy and Grace [Psalm 14:1; Psalm 53:1; Romans 1, 2 & 3]...Thomas knows better; he is choosing to act foolishly. Read the book of Proverbs. The Author Talks, often, about how a fool is lazy and deserves a good old-fashoined spanking...Thomas is being intellectually lazy...maybe his motorcycle accident was a Heavenly Spanking...so far, Thomas is willfully ignoring It. Sir, sometimes love is tough. Thanks for listening.

[@earthlingg-y3e]

​@@markrademaker5875 As someone who knows how humans are fragile and your last day can be any day...idgaf for what I am about to say... The Bible has multiple contradictions, it has been debunked to the extent you cannot actually deny it. Not to mention how archaeologists, atheists,biologists keep telling people this but you guys think their dumb!! Telling someone whose gone through a traumatic incident and saying it's a spanking...shows you hold animosity because he doesn't believe like you. That's scary very scary and your a prick for saying that about Thomas.

[@wmralder]

I'd noticed something going on over the last year or so. Now I have a better window on the story, it makes sense. I'm glad to see you have handle on things. It's good to have a healthier, happier version of you back. Wishing you the best going forward.

[@HolyKoolaid]

Thanks. I'm still a work in progress.

[@tinawitte420]

@@HolyKoolaid Aren't we all, always, until we die? 🤗

[@cocococop6082]

@@HolyKoolaid you are totally wrong. Christian is it.

[@cocococop6082]

@@HolyKoolaid are you suicidal?

[@alitafullarmor5957]

​@@HolyKoolaidGod is watching over you and wants to heal you from your depression and anxiety even if you mock him. God bless you. 🙏 ~ Timmy

[@SandraHowardWoodward]

I am a life long Christian and I appreciate your perspective. Thank you.

[@SandraHowardWoodward]

@@HumansAreStupid666 well Jesus had been there for me through thick and thin. When I was younger, I really didn’t take my religion seriously but the older I became the he more I needed Jesus. My children don’t believe in God and that really hurts my heart but everyone has to either believe or not. Once I lost my beautiful momma , I got my act together, got sober and honestly I can’t wait to see my mom again in heaven. With the shape of the world and all of the evil, the earth is having birthing pains and Jesus will be coming back to claim his children. I’ve never pushed religion on anyone bc like I mentioned earlier, we all have to come to the realization or not. All I can do but is pray for ppl. I will pray for you tonight as well. The thought of burning in hell 🔥 for eternity just doesn’t appeal to me. I hope I kinda answered your question.

[@SandraHowardWoodward]

@@HumansAreStupid666actually no.

[@storba3860]

​@@SandraHowardWoodwardBut if God loves all of us why is Hell even a possibility? People are evil by nature or evil by nurture and if a person is evil by nature it's because God made them evil and if they're evil by nurture then God set up the system which made them turn out that way.

[@Armzin00]

@@storba3860nope God gave everyone free will my friend, he doesn’t send anybody to hell, that’s your own decision by not believing in your saviour.

[@NMbones98]

​@@SandraHowardWoodward I believe in the finished redemptive work of Jesus Christ we are sealed to the day of redemption sin will not take us away from our Lord at all 🙏🏾

[@gamozzie]

I totally know how you feel. Take the time to enjoy the healing process. It can be uncomfortable at times, but you’ll find yourself stronger in the process.

[@alexisthomas1144]

Just want you to know you have effected change in my life and I glad you are finding peace yourself. Thank you for all that you have done.

[@bicivelo]

God was the copilot in the car that hit you. Seriously man, thanks for sharing your experience and you continue to heal in your journey of life.

[@nicholasripp386]

Thanks

[@HolyKoolaid]

Thank you so much!

[@Tamara-ju3lh]

Something similar happened to me. I went through severe depression the year I left the church and though it was awful (I had the suicidal thoughts too like you) it helped me so much. I stopped fearing hell. I stopped caring what others thought, and I finished college and also started traveling. It's so crazy isn't it?

[@HolyKoolaid]

I'm sorry you experienced such strong post-deconversion depression, but I'm glad you turned out better on the other side.

[@Outsider4JC]

sorry to hear that. Were you truly born again at the time? iI only ask that because when I accepted Christ, I was filled with his Holy Spirit, and there was definitely evidence Jesus was real. The Holy Spirit actually changed the way I felt inside, as well as the way i viewed the world around me, so I knew i was different inside, and changed. I would hope and pray you would re-think about returning to Him, and asking Jesus into your life. Its a relationship He wants with you, not religion. Dont you want to at least be sure where you will go when you die? Why take any chances? Once you die, there is no turning back, and you never know when your time will come. we are not guaranteed another day. Just humble your heart, ask Him for forgiveness, and ask Him to take control of your life. Call upon the Lord and you shall be saved. Then you will not have to worry about where you are going to spend eternity. You will have assurance, and peace of mind and heart. He will transform you through His Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit is the evidence you have been saved. When you receive Him, you will know it. That is the difference between religion vs. relationship. I pray you think about it, you will not regret it. We are all going to either 1 place or the other. There is no other choice. no matter how hard to try to convince yourself. Yes, there is a hell. and its forever once you are there. And it aint no party, so please give Jesus another chance. At least keep it in mind. He cares for you, he really does. You dont have to go to church to find Him. He is right where you are. God bless

[@Naz34452]

You didn't stop fearing hell, you stopped fearing God

[@grapeshot]

Yep let's dance because as far as I'm concerned this is the only life you get and I plan to enjoy it to the fullest.

[@nlpascal]

Wow! Thank you for this. I am inspired. I noticed a decline in quality of content. I may have commented on that. This all makes sense now. I also noticed the increase in quality of your content lately. I'm really happy to see this. It makes it so much more impactful. I find it inspiring as hell. I struggle with similar demons and it gives me hope, hope that I can get back to better health and get back to creating better with more passion and joy. You always are authentic in good and bad times and I appreciate you.

[@markrademaker5875]

Hell? Demons? A real atheist doesn't use such words. The only words you get are time and chance...man up, no pretenders. You did not evolve to act like a whiny little girl. 1 John 4:10,11

[@nlpascal]

@@markrademaker5875What the hell is a "real atheist"? You make no sense and sound a bit insane.

[@gabiausten8774]

I had the same thing happen after a catastrophic surgery. I was like ,,who gives an F and why did I?”. I went from suicidal to Love, Experience, Greatness, Freedom, Boundless Hope, Kindness, seeing the BEST in the worst! And sometimes u ask yourself, if you’re just delusional, but you’re just free, so free… You will live this life no matter what, experience every moment of it and CRAMP IN AS MUCH JOY AS U CAN. Cuz there is enough happiness and joy out there in the world, most people wait for it and it never comes, but if you realize u can just take it, you grab it by the hand full. I went through hell and would never trade that experience. I had the worst things in life happen to me very early like you, death, sickness, poverty, harassment and all else…and it made me who I always wanted to be! I am my own HERO!

[@black5f]

Thomas, thank you for sharing. Let me reply. My Mum and Dad died quite close to each other last year. I was not sad because the illness was short, they were both over 90 and lived good lives. We didn't always get on, but I was there to close their eyes literally. In the same year I turned 60 and just before that my gorgeous youngest who is disabled fell on me. I felt something go, like a trickle of water down my back. Within 3 hours I couldn't even stand up, for 4 months. Life pulled out the rug under me, was a fit healthy guy and I have never had to ask anyone to help me ever. An agrogation of all my foolish injuries over years came back. My days of abseiling and yomping 35 miles across snow fields are history. I had a disc removed, 1 year on I am getting back my mobility. But I don't want to go out anywhere, I get range anxiety, what if it happens again etc. Anyway, the clock suddenly without warning, starting counting down and this guy was suddenly reminded... I'm actually mortal? You haven't left a legacy cuz you are not dead yet. But you will? But with respect you are still young. We are recognised and known by our actions? I try and do something good every day, it can be as simple as saying morning to a stranger, stopping to help someone etc. It's is purely a selfish action, it makes you feel good inside.

[@j50wells]

Thanks for sharing. My father died in 2000. He was my best friend, but I was okay with his death. The grief was short and I moved on as he would have wanted me to.

[@gymkata]

Wow, so sorry about your accidents but glad you're healing both externally and internally. You've definitely contributed to my adjustment after leaving religion and I'm eternally grateful.

[@noisynorseman]

Hey Thomas, I had my own near-death experience earlier this summer and walked away with an attitude similar to yours. However, my religious family seemed to expect it to convert me back to christ. It instead had the opposite effect, making me more comfortable with my mortality. You described it in much better terms than I can, hopefully it'll help them understand as well. Glad you're back and taking charge of your mental state. You're an inspiration to me. Keep kicking ass!

[@iansaxby9264]

I feel you, dude, I came pretty close to dying in a house fire back in 2018, ended up with severe burns over about half my body. Had a complete mental breakdown after getting out of hospital, and would sometimes sit motionless in an armchair for 12 hours a day or longer. I don't think it's possible to avoid going to a dark place after severe trauma, any more than we can avoid pain and bleeding from a physical injury.

[@youtubestudiosucks978]

I'm so sorry for you 😢 Scars are a reminder, not of pain but that you were stronger then what tried to kill you. You're a survivor 😭

[@youtubestudiosucks978]

You're stronger then what you give yourself credit for

[@iansaxby9264]

@@youtubestudiosucks978 I'm doing way better these days. It took time, and the love and support of friends and family, but eventually things got better.

[@markrademaker5875]

Feelings are merely chemical reactions. Quite giving atheism a bad name, act like a man. 1 John 4:10,11

[@MrFester63]

I feel for you, brother. My wife is going through similar, tough struggles. She has gotten help, and I do what I can, but ultimately it's her journey. I can't heal her (no matter how much I wish I could), only stand by her, and love her. I wish you strength & love throughout your life! ✌

[@jessiemayfield6749]

I love your channel because it tackles exactly these real aspects of atheism. The animation was really cute and you’re really brave to keep riding a motorcycle and hang gliding, I’m too scared to even bike on main roads and I’ve never been injured. After what you’ve been through, I wouldn’t even dare breath.

[@1bean]

Everything you said sounded very familiar. So glad you’re starting to heal. I’m on that journey too. Thank you. I needed this

[@mikejankowski6321]

This is a beautiful message. I can relate to a lot of it. Keep being you (as if it needs to be said).

[@gullyfoyle3253]

I find virtually all of your content passionate and very moving . . . But this has me actually crying. Wishing you the best in recovery and all things going forward.

[@thunderbird3694]

I was a "True Believer" for over 50 years, then one day I was hit by a car, knocked unconscious for several days and suffered traumatic brain injury. When I regained conscious, my spiritual desires were gone and now I realize it was likely just a neurological response which my injured brain is no longer able to reproduce. If god was real then why would he take spiritual desires away from an accident victim? Most logical explanation is that the accident simply knocked sense into me and brought me back to reality.

[@sean_miller]

This is such an interesting anecdote. I’ve become an agnostic Christian over the last couple of years, but my spiritual instincts are still alive and well. I’ve often wondered if these were mere biological responses. I’ve read research on religious experiences that would seem to indicate so. Your case seems to reinforce that idea. The apparent fact that it’s a biological instinct also lends a certain amount of insight into why people hold onto religiosity so tightly. It’s deep in the wiring.

[@thunderbird3694]

@@sean_miller "spirituality and religiosity map to a common brain circuit centered on the 'periaqueductal grey', a brainstem region previously implicated in fear conditioning, pain modulation, and altruistic behavior."

[@thunderbird3694]

Watch "Why we believe in Gods! Dr. Andy Thomson" - MythVision Podcast interviews Andy Thomson (author of 'Why We Believe in Gods')"

[@sean_miller]

@@thunderbird3694 Thanks for the recommendation. I'll give it a watch for sure!

[@sybo10]

so true, thanks for being honest

[@thomasvanetten1984]

Very touching video! Keep doing what you are doing, it is more helpful than you can possibly know. Stay strong!

[@brian1204]

Someone once said: “if you’re not depressed, you aren’t paying attention!”. I may have remembered this wrong, but the clearer I see the worse the world looks. And yet, there is still love, still joy and wonder. Still work to be done, both to get better and to make the world better.

[@Dragontron20]

Exactly. Those who think, who use their mind, see the world for what it is, good and bad. Though recently, I've thought it wiser to somewhat filter the amount of bad news information coming through because it does affect me. Focus on the good in your life and not on the world's bad.

[@Dragontron20]

@@jjphank Your book teaches God made a flat Earth (see Genesis 1).

[@brian1204]

@@jjphank 1. No evidence for any god 2. No evidence for hell (aside from what we create here on earth) 3. Quoting a 2k yr old book supposedly written by illiterate ignorant men doesn’t forward the theme.

[@deductivereasoning4257]

@@Dragontron20 your astrophysicists say existence could be a simulation. A simulation means 2 dimensional, which means, everything is flat. That's why 2 dimensional pictures can never prove something is 3 dimensional. So, what proof do you have that existence is not a simulation? The question is rhetorical by the way because you surely parrot astrophysicists...

[@deductivereasoning4257]

@@brian1204 your eyes have 4 exact circles. Exact circles don't exist in nature, only in intelligent design. Even the greatest of artists cannot freehand the eyes. And then, your eyes are perfectly symmetrical with each other and with the eyes of 99.99% of the world's population. Perfect symmetry also doesn't exist in nature, only intelligent design...

[@SnakeAndTurtleQigong]

Sending you tons of love! We all appreciate your sincerity and vulnerability. Thank you for choosing to stick around and to help us continue to learn and grow. 💙

[@ptjohnson67]

You are an amazing person. Full stop.

[@Santiago8041]

I am not a regular visitor to your channel, but I do appreciate your views. It is important if your work can help others leave the fear of Hell behind. It is a good thing not to fear things that are not real. I have no fear of death, but I still have some anxiety about the transition. Glad you made it and are moving beyond depression. You are way too young to waste any more of your one chance to be alive.

[@krisiswallace5389]

The irony of being a fellow skeptic and having to hear this message at the moment that I'm going through in my life plus my values.....I have been away from this channel to long and it would take my hours to unpack all the layers of value this 1 video added to my life!

[@evansyoung]

Hey Thomas, despite everything that has happened in your life, you're still breathing and living, touching and inspiring, captivating and motivating. If everyone could do same the world will be a better place. And always remember, no matter how hard we try, trouble will find us one way or the other. We're good👍😄

[@thepurplebox380]

I wasn't expecting to make a cameo in this video 😂. Love you Thomas! Thank you for everything you do!

[@HolyKoolaid]

You and Ethan were the best Karaoke show by far! Hope you can make it to the next FF. :)

[@thepurplebox380]

@@HolyKoolaid I can't wait!

[@greydmon5439]

Love you, brother. Thank you for this, and all your work. This really reminds me of my own journey, a number of years ago. These days, I'm in a good place and have a meaningful life. But there was a time where I stared down the barrel of a .357, deciding if I was going to stick around. I'm glad I did, and I'm glad you did. Keep up the good and hard work of authenticity and empathy. You are not alone.

[@johnburnside7828]

Truly beautiful! Thank you for sharing, and may you continue spreading truth and beauty for a long, long time to come!

[@mckaylapaddock9319]

As someone who's been disabled since I graduated highschool, now in my 30's, I've struggled with depression and suicidality. I love hearing that you decided to focus on living your life and enjoying it❤️ And I agree, deciding not to care what other people think was freeing for me yrs ago, but it's only been in this last year of my religious deconstruction that I've actually started to fear death less, but surprisingly also don't hope to die as often. As a Christian, I was always terrified that I was doing something wrong, it no matter how hard I tried, Good still knew my true thoughts and feelings and I'd still end up in hell. I did also stress about if I was practicing the right denomination, or even the right religion. Now I'm much more free and less terrified. Maybe being free is that stress makes it easier to just want to make the most of this life, rather than being eager for it to be over and just make sure I get into heaven. It's a strange new feeling that I didn't expect.

[@stephaniesomera8695]

Hello, my story is similar to yours, I started my deconstruction of Christianity and I have never felt more free. I also struggled with the fear of hell and whether I was in th right denomination. I wanted to let you know that your not alone, and I also struggled with this. Your comment made me feel seen and I just wanted to let you know that you are free to be you. When we take life to seriously that's when we become depressed, frustrated and these things bring the death process faster 😆 to our physical body. Enjoy life and be yourself, free yourself and put behind irrational fears of death or life itself and embrace death as end to your journey to make the most of the time we have here. So many people take life seriously like if it were some competition on who get the right God correct and it not your wrong and we hate you. This is not love, love brings peace, love brings hope and love brings life. So just be and love.

[@Error_404_Account_Deleted]

We miss you, please come back!

[@MogMailman]

What an encouragement - I would never have guessed you had gone through all of that. You’ve made an impression on the way I think and how I defend myself from religious dogma. Thanks for making me part of your legacy!

[@leedsdevil]

You DEFINITELY need to put your image as an avatar of Satan on some merch! But seriously, having been through an injury and temporary paralysis @ 9 months ago, I understand your disappointment in life continuing for a moment. I'm glad you came through the other end. Best wishes for your continued recovery, both physically and mentally.

[@StopWhining491]

Glad you decided to stick around. Thanks for the hope you learned from this experience.

[@johnyohannan203]

Thank you for this very pertinent and timely message -- thank you -- I needed this!

[@MachineintheMonkey]

I like you Mr Koolaid suffered a life altering injury at work(rigging construction). My left arm was severed just below armpit. It was repaired over a number of operations and years and I went through the exact depressive state as you did. I ended up with about 20% function in arm and hand and glad to say I survived and still work with my hands in a nursery (plants and trees) Everyday I try to inspire my younger work colleagues about never giving up and always being yourself, thanks for the video mate🤙🇦🇺

[@doneestoner9945]

I wish you all the best. Love ya 💜

[@syzygy808]

Fantastic to see you broke through another ‘life-wall’. Probably the hardest one in a humans life. Congrats! Sent a present via PayPal. Hope it helps with the equipment! ❤😊

[@77Nails]

I can't love this video enough! My motto since being diagnosed with Young Onset Parkinson's Disease 9 years ago, my motto has been "Live your best life Now!". Thank you for this video. We all need a reminder to enjoy each day and take each moment we have and breathe it in. I have become a major advocate for educating the public about Parkinson's disease and I suppose that will be my legacy for however long. As you said, I won't care or know, I will be dead. I am okay with dying and okay with there being nothing after this life and actually, that has given me a lot of peace so now I can live in the moment and just take life in. Great video and thank you for sharing with us!

[@mercurydime8152]

Thank you for sharing that terrific and nuanced perspective of life‘s ups and downs. We all go through them! Just keep swimming! You’re an inspiration to many!

[@26beegee]

I have watched this a few times now. Hope you are doing well!

[@batking911]

Had a motorbike accident last year too. Still waiting for my claim to be sorted. Weirdly I was not afraid of dying in that moment, and I was ok, light injuries only. But it really shook me up. No wonder it’s been a difficult time for you and hope you’re back on your feet (and bike) now.

[@Dr7strings]

I love your content, sir! Glad to hear you conquering life issues with authority and continuing to make your truly thought provoking material! 🤘😎🤘

[@RussellFineArt]

I’m a Latter-day Saint Christian and really enjoy your videos, please keep exposing corruption and wrongs in religion. I firmly believe that the primary purpose of religion is to teach how to love one another, serve one another, don’t judge and forgive others. The moment religion teaches to take rights away from people or cause harm to others, that’s not religion, that’s wrong stupidity.

[@Praying_Light_Force]

Israel And Palestine Is The Corruption And Wrongs In Religion If It Was A Country. What A Disaster.

[@millax-ev6yz]

Bro, glad you're still with us. That was a lot to open up about. I'm much older than you and you have definitely found more meaning than myself. I'm not at peace with death or the idea of it, the only relief is no more problems but then I wouldn't exist to realize those problems are gone. I do wonder about legacy, but like you I'm not focused on others perceived legacy of me. I want to get to the point you are at where I can say "wow, this was a great ride and the inevitable end is ok with me, I've been adequately fulfilled.". Also I'm impressed with your comeback, truly inspiring!

[@mizotter]

Thank you for this beautiful message and for all you do for the human community. Sending you BIG LOVE. Be well.

[@marydewitt9623]

Where there is life, there is hope. This is a very uplifting and hopeful message. May you keep standing up the Grim Reaper for a long, long time.

[@ivanj.conway9919]

Wow, Brother, so this is why we have not heard from you for a while now?! Wow. So sorry to hear this. Hope you are on the mend now. Not an atheist myself, but I feel the work you guys do is important, and I wish you much love and all the best, regardless. Warmest Wishes. Out For Now.

[@amygrowls]

I NEEDED this so much today. Like….exactly everything you said. This is wisdom

[@dennisbergendorfii5440]

Welcome back! Thank you for forging on in your mission. I think I needed to hear this today.

[@filipisandre]

ive missed your videos! to me you’re as much a cementing piece of the atheist community on youtube as the atheist experience, the line, owen morgan, forrest valkai, dave farina, gutsick gibbon etc- so it’s good to know you’re doing better and healing - was worried for a while there. please keep doing what you’re doing, it’s so important and it helps a lot of people, regardless if someone or some group of the internet doesn’t agree with you in the moment. reactionaries will always be reactionaries. you’re doing good, educational things.

[@DeanEnroll]

Thoroughly inspired! Thank you, Thomas!

[@andrewlam8678]

Thank you so much for sharing such a personal story. Wishing for continued healing and freedom :)

[@joyousdog1]

Thomas, I'm so sorry you've been through this. Having been through depression and various injuries and illnesses both acute and chronic, I understand. I think one of the things that people don't expect is that they can bravely face a true crisis, get through the worst of it, and then fall apart. Sometimes it's not the immediate, dramatic issue that knocks us down, but something else that knocks us sideways, later on. Sometimes it's the cumulative effect of many small pains. And sometimes, the frustration of experiencing something that can't be fixed, no matter how hard we try, is what shocks an otherwise confident person into giving up. Now that you've battled so many of these things, I hope remembering that you came out the other side ready to go on and enjoy life will bolster you for the future.

[@markrademaker5875]

You should not feel sorrow/sad, Thomas evolved from hydrogen, what could be better? 1 John 4:10,11

[@grafinvonhohenembs]

Thank you. Wishing you all the best!

[@undrwatropium3724]

You have inspired, as well as educated me and I enjoy all your views and videos. Thank you for what you're doing. I truly appreciate it ☺️

[@heathercornell7184]

Thanks! This video hit home and I deeply appreciate you sharing.

[@HolyKoolaid]

I'm glad it resonated. And thank you for the donation. ❤️

[@eloz9726]

Thank you for being so honest and open about your journey . 💞

[@SuperflySister]

I needed to hear this. Thank you very much. I love you.

[@miablossom73]

I’m glad you are okay now. It’s hard being in a slump. To be so low life is temporarily meaningless. ❤it’s so good you came out of this and I hope as you continue to move forward you even take your own advice and find the good stuff. ❤

[@dianarising7703]

I am so glad you are doing better physically and that you have battled your way out of depression. Depression is insidious. I think you are very smart and personable and do great work helping me and other people to understand things that not everyone learns in their life directly, but it is great that that is not hugely important to you. I look forward to your future videos. Please keep an eye out for a recurrence, because it has come back multiple times for me, and I know that has happened to many others, too. You might be surprised, but it can sneak up on you again.

[@Angel_nerdlover]

I love this video so much. I recently have fallen back into old patterns and this made me snap out of it and start doing right again genuinely thank you so much for making this.❤

[@danielbarker7496]

Thank you for your work, it has helped me a lot of ways . I wish you much healing!

[@johnblackledge4009]

I think you just touched a nerve. I didn't realise that I was suffering from burn-out until your description. I think - It's time for me to get back imto the world. (Please put in the notes: who is the composer of your superb electronic ending music?)

[@Khyranleander]

Condolences on the crappy year! I can empathize with the depression, makes even the simplest chores or social activities seem like too much effort. Still, glad to hear you're healing, best of luck, man!

[@elsepoulsgaard9691]

Thank you for all your videos, they are enlightening 👍 take care

[@AltClev37]

If you go before me, I’ll remember you as one of the people that helped me get away from my religious beliefs that I was really struggling with. So thank you :)

[@horaciolerda]

¡Gracias!

[@HolyKoolaid]

Muchas gracias!

[@picnickphotos6149]

Appreciate you, your life, and videos!

[@Mantuamaker]

For any engagement ;) Seriously, I enjoy the videos, and this is an important video.

[@dennisdelia9524]

i love the way you talk about religion! you are the new Christopher Hitchens!!! You are awesome...love from Orlando!!

[@4567-u2b]

thank you so much for articulating exactly how i feel so succinctly

[@originalhazelgreene]

Love you man. Thanks for staying on YT for us

[@Wooferoni]

This is such a beautiful video. Thank you for sharing, it is inspirational.

[@barrymoore4470]

Inspiring video. Your outlook is reminiscent of Epicurean philosophy, which teaches that fear of death is folly, and that the time that we have should be invested in pursuit of positive goals. It is sobering to reflect that in the fullness of deep time, we all will be completely and utterly forgotten. But our lives can still have meaning, namely the meaning that we ourselves create, temporary though that is.

[@gatorboymike]

"Being dead isn't scary. It's how you GET dead." - Aron Ra

[@Ephesians-yn8ux]

Not a great quote

[@Stygian60]

Hey Thomas. Hope you are still getting better. Can't afford more for now so I subscribed to the baby level. Keep up your excellent work! 🤘😎❤️

[@elihinze3161]

I'm so sorry that you've gone through this. As someone who's come face to face with death a few times in my life and come out the other side, it's so worth it. Thanks for leading/living by example

[@aguyunderatree2004]

My friend, you had such a great impact on my life and on many others lives. Many of your videos talking about the evidence of Christianity not being great and all of these other topics began my thought process and deconstruction. Now I’m free from dogma, religion, and pressure to always do as I feel God tells me, even if what I thought God said was absurd or unfair. You helped free me, and I’m forever grateful. Keep shining bright dawg 🤘

[@ashleybonkajo6654]

I am glad you are on the mend.

[@danielmiller7346]

Wow...bravo for your bravery! Thanks for posting this.

[@darwinskeeper421]

I have been following your videos for the past few years and appreciate most of them. I'm glad that you haven't met an untimely demise just yet.

[@thinking_about_beer]

I had wondered why your videos slowed down. I appreciate the content you create!!

[@Momoftwoboysandonecat]

OUCHIE!!!! I'm glad you're traveling! Be safe! Or safer.