My Depression Story | Mental Health Awareness

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[@nikaboolove]

I'm going through this exact thing right now. I'm truly so lost and confused. I've been through therapy and many depressions my whole life. I've faked a smile through so many situations that at the age of 23 I'm absolutely struggling to keep a hold on things. Last month I had two friends commit suicide together and it's just been unbearable. Your video has truly help me tonight.

[@thisiselodie]

Wow, such a hard thing to go through. I'm glad my video helped you in some way. You have made it this far, keep on fighting.

[@haleymoriarty4780]

Hi beautiful- You are so brave and loved and incredible. Thank you for shedding light on this and the financial struggles that keep people from accessing the help they need. Insurance needs to cover this fully, it can save lives. Sending as much love as I possibly can. ❤️ You are amazing and your story is empowering.

[@tevt585]

Thankyou for sharing this story i hope your feeling better x

[@tonet4sure]

thank you for sharing, i know this is long ago but i could feel you. i ave been struggling with this for a long time. and i just hope in christ that i get out ok.

[@thisiselodie]

Hope you find strength in your journey.

[@Angiebee.]

Thank you for this. I feel less alone.

[@mackeyjaylozada2453]

Thank you

[@englihswithmusic7413]

Very good and you're beautiul

[@monicahkaranja4291]

😢 Depression is killing me. How are you now?

[@monicahkaranja4291]

May God have mercy 🥺

[@thisiselodie]

I'm doing alright now. On medication which has been helpful. Hoping you are able to find resources and community to help you through.

[@dominiquefawnhill6919]

It is beyond helpful to see a woman who looks like me talk about what I live with everyday

[@thisiselodie]

I'm glad this video was of some help to you

[@iamryanlittle]

Thank you for sharing your story. Someone needed to hear this. You don't even know how much you've affected someone's life because of this.

[@thisiselodie]

+Ryan Little Thank you for your encouragement and taking the time out to watch.

[@daraghmay4998]

I've also had depression from a young age and I honestly think you're one of the bravest people being able to share a video about it with the world, lots of love from from across the waters in Britain

[@thisiselodie]

+Daragh may Thank you. Hope you are holding up.

[@josephevangelist2500]

My depression story. When I was in my late teens I suffered from a blood disorder called Toxoplasmosis. This caused me to be tired all of the time (for no apparent reason) and I found simple tasks exhausting. I wasn't particularly fit to begin with, but what strength I did have I lost. This, of course, had a very negative affect on my studies and other personal endeavours. As a result of this constant tiredness and failure I became very depressed. This situation continued until my mid-twenties. One morning I was laying on my bed looking out of the window. It was a grey, dreary, damp day. In my despair I said ''Lord, when are things going to change?''. I felt as though the Lord replied to me saying ''Start preparing for a change today''. It wasn't like I actually heard a voice, it was a thought that suddenly appeared in my mind. I was shocked by this, so I had to make a choice; did the Lord really answer me, or was it just my imagination? Now, this was before I started going to church (although I was brought up a Catholic). I chose to believe the Lord had spoken to me. I can't remember what I did the first day, but every day since then I have done something to prepare for a change. I'm now 36 and I have long since overcome that blood disorder and I have regained my strength. In fact I'm fitter now than I have ever been (by the Grace of God), and regularly go out jogging, this morning I did 13km.I have also been successful in my personal endeavours, so I give thanks to God, because when I called him, he answered, as the Holy Bible tells us: 'Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.' (Jeremiah 33:3)

[@clarkemcclinton]

joseph evangelist That was beautiful sir. I am so happy for you. PRAISE THE LORD!!

[@chaiussy]

i relate so so much to this, and i was in so many tears when you began talking about your pastor's son. you are so much stronger than you think, trust me.

[@thisiselodie]

Thank you. Hope you are persevering as well.

[@sydney1823]

I feel for you personally as I also suffer with severe depression. It's horrible and I don't wish it on anyone. I hope you find strength and become happy again💜

[@thisiselodie]

Thank you. I hope you find strength in your journey as well.

[@sydney1823]

thisiselodie Thank you:)

[@BriannaDawkins]

You're so brave, I was just sitting here crying with you. Thanks for sharing this.

[@thisiselodie]

Thank you

[@ceecee6083]

This touched me because I did everything you said in this video.. I never seen a therapist though now I'm getting better just learning to find stuff to be happy. There's days I just sit in the bathroom thinking should I keep trying or not but keep your head up❤

[@AbbyAdjei]

Aww, Elodie! You're so strong. I respect your courage, you're in my prayers and I will support you 100% of the way. :)

[@thisiselodie]

Thank you for your prayers.

[@victorialonda6758]

I just stumbled across your video.Just had to send you big hugs.Thanks for sharing awareness.x

[@thisiselodie]

Thank you for the hug. :)

[@CharaBui]

It is brave of you to talk openly about this +thisislodie. I'm glad you're not afraid of the stigma. More people coming out will help end the stigma completely.

[@thisiselodie]

+Chara Bui Thank you

[@caresse.isings]

Thank you for sharing! You are a beautiful, highly intelligent, educated and a very brave person for being out in the open about your difficulties. May you be blessed and remember always to Love yourself before anything else! ♡♡♡

[@thisiselodie]

+Caresse Isings Thank you for your kind words.

[@catmalik1188]

Videos like these are so illuminating. Stay strong Elodie! My best friend is also suffering from depression, and videos like yours are really helpful for those who have people with depression in their lives.

[@thisiselodie]

+Cat Malik Thank you. My thoughts are with your friend.

[@littleyellowlighter505]

This was beautiful! "We have to be okay with not being okay." SO true. I just made a video about this very thing. So nice to hear someone who understands. Thank you for your honesty and for sharing your story.

[@thisiselodie]

Thanks for watching and engaging with others.

[@ms.g8997]

I understand because I suffer so much and it's been 18 years of this torture thank you for this video, I needed it. Praying for all of us.

[@thisiselodie]

youre welcome

[@MADZYBOW]

I came across this video randomly and it touched my heart. Feel for you.♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ xxxxxx

[@thisiselodie]

+madeline baron Thank you

[@lifebytosin]

You video was touching. You are not alone. Rooting for you 👏🏾

[@thisiselodie]

+Life By Tosin Thank you.

[@88nuggetbig88]

Thank you for this video... We are not alone. 💖

[@thisiselodie]

You're welcome.

[@destinydcp]

Thank you for sharing your story!

[@thisiselodie]

+destinydcp Thank you for watching.

[@101missmary]

Thank you. ❤

[@thisiselodie]

+Eniitan Coker ❤ ❤

[@danzigvssartre]

I wish you all the love and peace in the world

[@thisiselodie]

Thank you

[@estelaburrows1526]

Thanks for sharing your story

[@thisiselodie]

You're welcome. Thanks for watching.

[@animeotaku15]

Thank you for sharing your story. I've felt trapped for the past 4 years. I left college. I hated my job. But my depression became worse once my parents passed away almost 2 years ago. My depression got so bad in summer 2015, I took a leave from work. Meanwhile, I was trying so hard to find a therapist but the costs were ridiculous, even with my insurance! In August, I tried to slit my wrists, but I couldn't do it. I just cried uncontrollably. I wanted to live. I've finally found a great therapist. I plan on going back to school next semester. It's not easy, but I'm incredibly grateful for my journey. Thank you so much, once again.

[@thisiselodie]

+animeotaku15 Thank you for opening up as well. I can't imagine how it must feel to lose a parent. Good luck with school. I hope your road to recovery is successful. :)

[@Brohhamm]

Thank you so much for sharing. I had such a hard time when I came out to my parents about my sexual orientation, and I got severely depressed. This video has helped me so much.

[@thisiselodie]

You're welcome.

[@erinquigley5021]

First I just want to say thank you thank you thank you for making this video. I know how hard it is to talk about this stuff, and you're doing the right thing by letting others know that they are not alone. I have been struggling with depression since I was about 13 years old (I am 18 now). I had a group of friends that were superficial and mean and were not very understanding when my brother was having medical issues. After months of his episodes we found out he has a rare disease called moyamoya syndrome which causes TIAs or mini-strokes. None of my friends were supportive and I started cutting. After a while I felt so miserable and alone that I showed my mom my cuts and so I started seeing a therapist. I HATED her so much and I HATED going and after only a few sessions I refused to keep going. Later on I kind of tried to ignore it and put it behind me and pretend it wasn't there. And in high school it came back worse. I started smoking weed all the time, I only wanted to go to parties every weekend, and I absolutely did not want to be at home alone in my room because that was when my thoughts were most painful. Eventually I broke down and started cutting again and I started seeing a different therapist because I could not bear it anymore. Still, I struggle daily with doing normal things like cleaning my room and doing laundry and dumb things like that because I just can't. I have only my two best friends that I hang out with now a days, and I drifted with a lot of my other friends. But even my best friends don't really understand what's going on in my head and I can never explain it. I just feel like living is pointless and trudging through each day is pointless and my entire existence is pointless. I get so angry at myself for not being good enough, for not saying the right thing, for memories that resurface of shameful things I've done. I can't fall asleep at night, and it's hard to get out of bed in the morning. I didn't intend on giving you my life story, but I just want to let you know how much it means to me that you made this video. The only person I talk to about my depression is my therapist, and to share your story with the world is so brave and I wish I had the bravery to even talk to my mom when I feel like I just want to die. You are an amazing person and I am so grateful for you.

[@thisiselodie]

+erin quigley Thank you for opening up to me. I think it's good that you tried therapy again. Sometimes finding the right fit can take time. The very first therapist I saw was horrible as well. I know opening up isn't easy but try reaching out to your mom. It seems like she could be another source of support for you. I have found that having a small group of close friends, rather than a large group of superficial friends is better for me. I hope your family will grow stronger and you can always contact me here or through my email listed on my channel. :)

[@LucyHughes654]

Wow! Thank you for sharing your story! :)

[@thisiselodie]

+LucyLovesYou Thank you for taking the time out to watch.

[@HakunaMahala]

thank you for sharing your story,

[@thisiselodie]

Thanks for listening

[@torronbrown3011]

this whole video made me tear up because it explains everything I go threw and my life but I really feel your pain im and the same boat im very damaged myself n depressed

[@asiankid9900]

Thank you for sharing your story. Be strong. Be happy. You're a beautiful Women. Keep your head up homie. I enjoy your vlogs. So keep making awesome videos.

[@thisiselodie]

+asiankid9900 Thank you for your kind words.

[@shannonhayden3514]

Thank you for making this video it's nice to hear I'm not alone. I'm going through a deep depression and have been off and on the past few years and I feel alone most of the time and just trying to get through it the best way I can

[@thisiselodie]

You're welcome. I thought I replied but it's not showing that I did. How are you doing now?

[@shannonhayden3514]

+thisiselodie thank you for asking,I'm actually doing a lot better. I've read a few self help books that have seemed to help my way of thinking and I've overall tried to just live a postive lifestyle, even through all the bad things I've been through. I still have days where I feel at my lowest but overall I can say I'm coping and doing a lot better. A book I really recommend if you haven't yet read it, is called the The Untethered Soul. It has definitely changed my way of thinking and has made me realize a lot. Thank you again for making this video, I'm sure you helped a lot of people including me knowing were not alone. Sorry for the rambling haha.

[@thisiselodie]

No problem. I will check out the book. I'm glad you are doing better.

[@shannonhayden3514]

+thisiselodie I hope it helps you as much as it did for me. Also idk if you have family where you live but maybe surrounding yourself with your love ones will help too. I don't have any family where I live, just my husband's so I feel lonely a lot ya know

[@thisiselodie]

I have to branch out a bit to meet people. But I stay connected with them.

[@heywaitMarlee]

Where you described your experience with the therapist is so eerily similar to mine. I had I think four meetings with a therapist but then once we had a 'plan' she invited my parents to be in the room and talk with us when she knew I wasn't comfortable with it. Long story short my parents put up this fake happy front but when we were in the car they yelled at me and scolded me the entire way back home about the session. I didn't go to a therapist for almost nine years after that. It finally got to the point where I was actively thinking about jumping underneath a subway car every day on the way home from work and screaming in my sleep at night before I broke down and found another therapist. I'm just so scared that this is never going to end. I feel so trapped in my life. Your story is the story of all of us with depression. Please keep fighting.

[@thisiselodie]

Thank you for sharing a bit about your experience. I hope your therapy experience will be better this time around. I've learned to stand my ground more, if you're not comfortable with something your therapist does or says address it.

[@taram9200]

I'm dealing with this so thank you!

[@thisiselodie]

I hope you have some support. If not, feel free to email me.

[@mschocolatdevine]

it will be ok my sister GOD bless you

[@thisiselodie]

thank you

[@kimdavis7058]

Jesus said, I am the way, the truth and the life. No man comes to the Father except through me. let me help you.

[@zoewilliams3175]

Thank you so much for posting your story, I have been dealing with my depression for some time now and I want to start my own project to raise awareness for mental illnesses but I don't know where or how to start, I would love to get some advice.

[@thisiselodie]

if you email me at my business email located on my channel page. I'd be happy to talk more with you.

[@secretjohnson9162]

it going to be OK honey love you always🙌😁💜💜💜

[@thisiselodie]

Thank you

[@kimdavis7058]

I have seen doctors, didnt do me any good. I totally rely and put my faith and trust in Jesus. He is my Lord and Savior. We will suffer here until he returns. Jesus said, Let not your heart be troubled, for I am with you always. Are you saved? Have you accepted Christ as your personal savior, do you believe that he died for you and paid your sin debt? If so, you will be with him, he abides in you and you in him. please let me know.

[@luekezie4300]

great comment Kim. Keep relying on Jesus and remember he listens to your needs always.

[@loverofjesus4856]

Kim Davis AMEN

[@andyspark5192]

I recommend to sign in for the upcoming summit in January. overcomingdepressionandanxiety.com/ I got rid of depression and it happened almost me not noticing it. That was just simple dietary change for some other reasons. I had no explanations how that worked out but it did. Then in May, i watched a summit, that explained everything. Now it's your turn, to get rid of depression without the meds.

[@danielleslife1062]

I'm 16 and have had depression for 5 years,I went to a snotty bratty school ,and I didn't belong there,I did not think I was better then everyone else.Iv always put my self before others,It's just me.I don't talk about my feelings ,at all.Iv been to long term and short term treatment,and also out patient.And it's not helping me ,I try so hard to push my depression away, My parents love me so much,But they don't even notice I'm depressed again because Iv been doing this so long.Im getting tired of feeling this way,I sleep 24/7 I never have any willpower do do anything productive .Its phone ,bed,shower.All day.And I'm scared to go back to school,Iv been homeschooled for a awhile now,but have to go back to regular school because I wasn't doing my work.Its coming on to fast and it's hard.Its overwhelming,I'm 16 ,and idk what to do.Your story is helping me and others to know we're not alone.Thank you for having the courage to post this.💙

[@thisiselodie]

+Danielle'sLife You're welcome.We are very similar. I'm not a trained professional, but I would encourage you to get involved in things you like in school. Even if the the other kids are bratty or snotty and may be a downer on what you get involved in, at least it's something to do. I remember being in HS and doing sports and clubs and sometimes you just hate it in the moment but longterm for your own personal growth, I realized it's worth it. People always made it seemed like once you leave HS people stop being uptight, and I wish someone told me that's not true. What is true, is that HS is a bubble, and you are forced to interact with the same ppl over a long period of time. Once you exit HS, you are more autonomous and can decide how involved people are in your personal life (but there's always issues in the workplace). Learning how to navigate your situation will be SO beneficial later on in life. Just know that your life is a book series and these people don't even have character names in your story. My advice is to learn how to share your feelings in a constructive way (because that's something I struggle with as well). Sometimes I think people just dont care, but they do; they just dont know how I feel. Sit your parents down and tell them what your feeling and what you need. Example: "I feeling anxious about returning to school. (Explain what happened in the past). I REALLY need extra support from an outside source so that I can do better in school. [if you've done research on some places or support options,show it to your parents.] This is what I have found would be the best kind of help for me. If you could help me do more research to find a good solution, I would appreciate it. I don't want to repeat what occurred last time and hope we can develop a strategy so I can be happy and excel in all aspects of my life." My thoughts are with you and if you ever need to talk, you can email me at [e-mail] :) :)

[@danielleslife1062]

+thisiselodie Thank you ,Your one of the nicest people Iv talked to in a long time.Im trying to get my life together,But it's gonna be hard.From doing nothing all day to doing school work everyday,Is gonna be difficult .Im really wanting to be a mental health technician.Or a therapist.I feel that's what I'd be best at.And I love helping people.Im trying to be positive and not be negative.But ,Sometimes I feel like nothing can help me.I have probably been on just about every type of medication.Im only on one now and it's just useless.Theres this "thing" that happens that I'll be out of a hospital for 2 weeks - 2 months and I'll get depressed and suicidal .And go back.This time has been the longest Iv ever been out.My family I feel so ungrateful,They've given me everything and I'm always rude to them,I always stay in my room.Its not fair to them.Theyve been threw all this shit because of me.And it's not right.

[@thisiselodie]

Danielle'sLife You're welcome. Sometimes medication is just masking the issue and switching constantly can aggravate the issue. I hope you are able to find a solution to cope. You're not a burden to your family. I hope this New Year is a good year for you?

[@kimdavis7058]

I too suffer from depression. I totally GET IT. I never talk to anyone but God about it. People that have not had it, dont care, dont get, tell you to "cheer up" They dont even answer your calls because we are like the voice of doom. I have no friends, dont leave the house except for church. i really get it. I just ask JESUS to give me his peace and rest. Im usually always crying my self to sleep at night too. But I love you and I understand, I GET IT.

[@thisiselodie]

+Kim Davis It's good that you have God in your life and go to church. Reconnecting with God has helped me realize that I'm never truly alone. I'm glad you were able to relate with me. Have you tried to get professional help ?

[@kimdavis7058]

+thisiselodie yes I have a pyc ive been with him since 2003. He is good to me and does everything to help. He knows he can only do so much, I rely on the GREAT PHYSICIAN, OUR LORD JESUS, He knows our every need before we even ask. I love you as a Christian, as Jesus loves you and as a human being. Im here if you need me, just call me at 904-238-1288. I love you.

[@nono-go1ze]

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[@stonestone8619]

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[@eyelovebrothersmusic]

[@chelsear1799]

SO STRONG

[@s.s5414]

I don't usually do this sort of thing and I don't wanna bombard videos with my blog posts but this one means a lot to me. I'd love everyone to read it but if you suffer with depression then I really hope that you give this a read. I'm doing this because I genuinely want to help people. Click on the link. Hope it helps xxx reasonstostayalive.weebly.com/blog

[@isabelmoore2246]

I'm a depression sufferer my self and this video reached out to me . Could we talk I follow you on instagram so could you dm. Me

[@littleyellowlighter505]

I know we don't know each other but I also suffer from depression and am looking for people to connect with. You're not alone.

[@daricnd]

it will comet an end, reach out to GOD

[@roxettecash783]

I just love you !! Your sweet your kind and your so down to earth and honest !! Thank you !'

[@thirdsideofthecoin5514]

Hey I'm making an advertising campaign in my state to help tackle mental health. Could you call me one day so we could talk about what message we're trying to send and the insights we have into mental health so far and see what you think?

[@thisiselodie]

+youngmanpoetry Sure. I'd love to help. You can correspond with me through [e-mail]

[@meowtara3992]

I recently posted a video about my experience living with bipolar disorder. Feel free to check out my video on my channel! ☺️

[@sydneyw173]

Hope this article helps as you continue to recover www.jw.org/finder?pub=g17&issue=201702&wtlocale=E&srcid=share