My Experiences with Mental Hospitals / Psych Wards as a Schizophrenic

In this video, I tackle the subject of mental hospitals & psych wards, having been admitted to them twice in my life due to my psychotic symptoms.
I discuss the process of being admitted, what life is like while inside, and how being institutionalized changed my life for the better.
If you would like to learn more about my journey with schizophrenia, please check out this playlist: • Schizophrenia
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[@KonchokTW]

Someone from my Twitch chat told me to plug my channel here. If you all would like to hang out with me during the week, I stream games every Monday thru Friday at twitch.tv/konchoktw 💜 It should be noted that I do not make any money from KZbin or Twitch. My goal with my social media outlets is to spread awareness for schizophrenia and mental illnesses in general. Feel free to hop into chat while I'm live and ask any questions! I look forward to meeting new friends! 🧡

[@m4ssganja_gamer691]

👍🏽👍🏽

[@Jmandagreat]

Hey man I just wanted to say if you aren't already christian put you're faith in Jesus Christ he can heal you of anything just know Jesus loves you bro

[@trollisourbriteeggs6282]

[@jujuoof174]

That’s so sweet of you

[@yvonetubla7682]

@@Jmandagreat what you mean by this is "jesus christ alone" yet in the bible that phrase never appears once

[@desperado.racing]

It takes a hell of a big set of balls of steel to make a video of this. I salute and admire you sir.

[@daymenpollet4202]

Insane how the fella got through all that. Also extremely bizarre how he got tolled 'no' when he needed urgent help.

[@KonchokTW]

@@daymenpollet4202 I am still unsure why I was told no. It was the same mental hospital that I stayed at previously, and for the first visit, they let me admit myself? It was bizarre. I'm assuming there is more to the story but everything I was personally told is said in the video.

[@hand13932]

love big balls

[@Parodiafritz]

@@KonchokTWI’m not sure that it makes sense that a hospital wouldn’t admit a patient experiencing psychosis, if someone feels like they may harm themselves and want to be admitted that should be enough.

[@lonetemmie]

Jf​@@KonchokTW

[@lilyp8220]

"their brains may not have been in the best place, but their hearts were" thats such a kind way to put it. thank you for sharing your story 💕

[@r1hb33]

that’s gonna stick with me. what a beautiful saying. we are built to care, for community. hope you’re well! 💞

[@Melina_Evarblume_Seelie]

I just want to say I hugely respect you. You've lived with schizophrenia, believing you are being stalked and about to be attacked and even so, you've decided to show your vulnerability on the Internet. That's something most men can't do even when they don't have any mental disorders. You are essentially a hero. I hope you know that.

[@KonchokTW]

I just want to share my experiences is all. Schizophrenics have a bad reputation in my opinion, with many thinking they are absolutely insane and live in psych wards their entire life, or that they are violent. I am simply trying to spread the word that I am a human being just like everyone else, and I have *and* feel emotions.

[@Melina_Evarblume_Seelie]

@@KonchokTW Of course, and you are a hero for doing something so far out of your comfort zone like that.

[@gattasara]

​@@KonchokTWI've never heard of someone with this disorder talking about it! Just heard horror stories and tbh u just seem nice :) is saying "disorder" rude? If it is sorry

[@KonchokTW]

@@gattasara No worries at all, schizophrenia is indeed a brain disorder. Thank you for the kind words!

[@jujuoof174]

Yeah!

[@Sebowsky_]

Giving a voice to people without one is my favorite thing about the internet

[@TheKrodes]

Funny comment in the context of a schizophrenia video

[@jujuoof174]

Love your Living Tombstone pfp! And agreed!

[@Sebowsky_]

@@jujuoof174 Thanks g

[@Kenji314159]

Dude, you have a positive and likable personality. Keep up that positivity.

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you so much!

[@jujuoof174]

Agreed!

[@anima8450]

I've been to a psychiatric hospital 3 times for schizophrenia as well. I related so much to everything you said. The awful thing about not being able to use your cellphone, just wanting to go home so bad because you're sick of the place. Having to strip naked in front of someone and wear a hospital gown. It sucks so bad. When you're in those facilities you're in there for a week, but it feels like you're in there for a month. Also having the psychosis was relatable. I remember i was thinking people were after me to kill me

[@NightmareRex6]

and i heard they block the internet, they block infowars and truth telling stuff but allow fake CNN to exist. they dont want you to learn how to heal yourself becuase then nomore pill farm

[@roilo8560]

I was so surprised to find out i was only in there for a week and a half because it felt like a month lol

[@friendofp.24]

I'm glad you weren't in there for too long realistically. One of my family members has been institutionalized for 2 years. It's terrible that anyone has to suffer this fate.

[@Dr1ftsniper]

Wtf’s the point of having to wear a hospital gown?? Lol

[@Gwyllgi]

​@Dr1ftsniper ...cleanliness? No risk of accidentally ruining the clothes and having to pay the patient for new ones? Ability to identify patients from family? Use your brain.

[@TheDrumstickEmpire]

Don’t apologise for your stammer. I have a horrible stammer - it doesn’t affect my viewing experience. You got this :) Edit since I’ve finished watching: I’m appalled by your experiences. You should have been helped significantly sooner. And I mean actually helped, not half assed by your first visit. I’m proud of you for being a year clean! You’ve done amazingly well, things won’t be easy, but you’re doing fantastic. I’m proud of you :)

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you so much, you are too kind.

[@krappykobal]

the stuttering is so real, lol. ive had speech issues my whole life and stutter ALOT..i rlly get it lol. glad your doing much better now, well enough to speak about your experiences. I hope you're doing better now. and even though idk you, im really proud of you for being clean for THAT long. thats a really amazing milestone :).stay safe and have a great day/night :333!!!

[@KonchokTW]

I really appreciate this comment, thank you very much my friend. The stuttering really got to me in this video. I should have taken notice of it and took a break from recording, but oh well. I just prefer my videos to be my raw experiences with little editing, as I do not want to overexaggerate my case or make it seem more dramatic than it is. Thank you again!

[@daymenpollet4202]

​@@KonchokTWu did great fella, takes some balls to bring out the vid like this.

[@samueldubik4418]

@@KonchokTW I just wonder if you don't mind. Is the stutter something you did even before your mental problems or is it directly linked to your condition or medication you are using? Because it seems you stutter more when you talk about parts that make you uncomfortable. Either way as many people in comments already said. It takes some balls to tell a story like that. I wish you well, stay strong.

[@KonchokTW]

@@samueldubik4418 I have stuttered all my life. I have a diagnosis of "Childhood onset fluency disorder". However, I have been noticing it getting worse the longer I've been on this journey.

[@radu2005ytb]

Stutterings are quite normal I have way worse stuttering than him:)

[@lyxthen]

Hi there! I'm 19, I was admitted to a mental facility when I was 11. My experience is very similar to yours in many ways, with the added bonus that I was a kid, and I stayed there for two whole months and I wasn't allowed to talk to my family at all for at least one month. I was admitted there because of behavioral issues (conduct disorder). I was lonely. Most patients were at least 13, the oldest ones being 17, admitted there because of eating disorders and depression. We had to share rooms with, I believe 10 other people? And shower under supervision. It was pretty terrible. They didn't treat us kindly, and mostly we were bored, but I remember that after breakfast they would let us watch TV around the time Phineas and Ferb was on. That was the highlight of my day. Genuinely we had very little to do, there were three old books in a shelf we had to fight for every day, and board games were rarely allowed, he had to ask a nurse and she would allow it or deny it depending on a set of arbitrary criteria that was never shared with us. I was also restrained, choked, and sexually assaulted by staff. I was eleven and very confused about everything that was happening. Every week a human rights supervisor would go to ask us questions but the older patients told me that speaking out could hurt my chances of getting out so we all kept quiet. The other patients were the best part. I met a lot of interesting people, most of who happened to be a part of the lgbt community. Lesbians, trans men, etc, so that really made me become more accepting of my own sexuality and gender later on. Some of the girls were also pregnant and had to be kept under supervision and eat different meals because of that. I actually found someone there who I was able to recognize, and who recognized me! At the time I did Taekowndo and turns out we had met before in a national tournament, which was wild. Sometimes I miss the people I met there, despite all the cruelty we were subjected to they were kind and we helped each other the best way we could. Over all, do not recomend the experience. I recognize it saved my life, I mean, most kids don't attempt suicide by age 11 and yet there I was. I'm better now, sure, but I am not sure the part where they low-key tortured us was really necessary for the healing process?? I feel like we need to do activism or something to reduce the abuses some institutions get away with. Pretty sure I got some PTSD from that. Either way, I hope you're doing better, man! Many hugs. Mental illness is a bitch (I suffer from dissociation) but life is worth it regardless. Thank you for sharing your experience!

[@KonchokTW]

Wow, your story hurt my heart. I am so sorry you had to go through that. I now realize after reading so many comments on this video that I got rather lucky with my hospital. I'm glad you are still around, my friend. Much love to you.

[@lyxthen]

@@KonchokTW I wish mental hospitals would be better man, they can be genuinely good for some people but a lot don't get the funding and regulations they need. I am always happy to exchange stories with other people who have had better experiences so I know things can change and be better in the future 🫂

[@KonchokTW]

@@lyxthen You are too kind. Your story really touched me! I sincerely wish you well.

[@tragediante]

not surprising you found paraphilic freaks in a psych ward and they influenced you to dive into that type of insanity with them

[@glytchthefox]

Such an amazing and relatable story. I have been diagnosed with Schizophrenia, chronic anxiety disorder, BP1&2, ADHD, and High Functioning Autism. I used to be 3 forms of medical lingo depressed and self harming. You brought me back a lot of experiences i still need to heal from, but the fact you brought up the good bits brought back all the good it did do me. In a way you helped me come to terms with the mental hospitals in a more positive light. Also, man, the stuttering in this video was real! I admire your bravory to post not only your story but for who you are authenticly. Im so glad i got this on my front page!

[@KonchokTW]

Much love, my friend. I have too have an anxiety disorder, ADHD, and autism. Among other things. Thank you for the comment!

[@luk4aaaa]

Disordermancy

[@secho88]

bros fucked

[@secho88]

bros brain must be a bunch of jelly

[@KonchokTW]

@@secho88 sounds yummy

[@flyingratdog]

13:40 My brother called 911 to get an escort to a mental hospital when he was experiencing psychosis but when the cops got there they were put off by how friendly and "normal" he was and asked if he wanted to drive himself. He told them that was a bad idea because he couldn't trust himself not to crash the car. Thankfully they took his word on that and didn't make him drive. Emergency services really need better training in mental health.

[@byrgenwerthh]

12:10 this genuinely scared me shitless because i'm schizophrenic and today my step dad bought a gun which has led me to having horrible, painful panic attacks. i have no idea if im right to be as afraid as i am or if im delusional. this video couldn't have been recommended at a better time, thanks for sharing. i might go to a hospital, even with the possible hardships.

[@KonchokTW]

I am so terribly sorry you are going through this. If you genuinely believe your life is in danger, then yes I would recommend hospitalization, at least until this episode of psychosis passes. I do not know your story with your step dad, but I relate with it. I had a bit of an episode when I found out my family purchased a gun, as I had a traumatic experience with firearms as a child and I jumped to conclusions and was very afraid myself. I sincerely wish you well. You got this.

[@byrgenwerthh]

⁠​⁠​⁠@@KonchokTWthank you so much, i'm sorry you went through that too. that's pretty much the boat im in. this video helped me get grounded, i found it very insightful. i appreciate you sharing

[@potatoman7594]

when my dad bought a gun, I definitely was scared of it a lot but I trusted him to responsibly used it because he showed me how to responsibly use one. has your dad taught you how to responsibly use it? if not, you should ask your dad, and I think having that validation in that he knows what he's doing with it might help quell some fears. guns are scary in general, so I think this might not all be psychosis. you could be fueling the anxiety but other than that I think your fear is valid, but the source of the fear (being that your dad might use it on you, or accidentally use it on you) is an anxiety that's being perpetuated by inner thoughts of insecurity. just like OP, I know nothing about your situation, but this is my advice on moving forward with your anxieties.

[@Japanadian]

this is a little unrelated but. I have a terrible terrible stutter, like i got speech therapy in middle school and my speach therapist sobbed listening to me. And despite moving frequently to different schools I had never met anyone with a stutter, watching your video really made me realize im not alone in this. Im glad youre at your best today and I just hope it continues. This video genuinely almost made me cry. Big love also from the south!

[@KonchokTW]

I was in speech therapy from 3 years old up until 14 I believe! I'm glad I'm not alone, either. Much love!

[@smugless191]

Hello, My experiences are quite similar, I'm 25, I had my first psychotic episode in 2020, shortly after covid lockdowns, and went into hospital for 11 days. My initial diagnosis was a psychotic episode, and I was put on anti-psychotics and antidepressants. The hospital was not bad. A lot of the things you described were the same. We were allowed to have our phones, though. We had to get them charged by the staff, and if they noticed you were using it too much, they might not give it back to you straight away. After hospital, I started seeing a psychiatrist fairly regularly and was later diagnosed with schizophrenia in the same year. I guess I was a bit lucky with that. About a year later, I ended up in hospital again for a while. I won't explain in detail here, but I came close to dying from a side effect of a new medication. This time, I was in hospital for much longer. I was released for about a week but ended up back in hospital again, as I couldn't adjust. I was moved to a different facility after a while, which was a bit like a halfway house. I remember spending Christmas and New Years there at the end of 2021, going into 2022. Simce I left that place I've been slowly recovering. I was blessed with a great case manager and later a really good psychiatrist. I'm no longer on any medications since about 2 months and doing well. I feel the happiest I've ever been and have felt this way for probably over a year. I do worry that I will regress into a delusional state again, but I'm confident that I would be able to get good help again.

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am so proud of you for staying strong and overcoming these hardships! I sincerely wish you well.

[@ashiok]

Hey, just remember that if you can feel this way right now (happy, positive, etc.), then you can reach that state once again, no matter what difficulties might come your way.

[@PinkBroBlueRope]

Hi, were you vaccinated for covid-19?

[@SeptisHighborn]

@@PinkBroBlueRope if you're attempting to correlate a link between a covid vaccine and psychosis, don't bother. The first vaccine weren't made publicly available until 2021, including the early ones for high-risk individuals and medical staff. The only side-effects of the vaccine are physical. Vaccines do not cause autism or any other mental health disorder.

[@catrielmarignaclionti4518]

​@@PinkBroBlueRopeThis is a video about a schizophrenic sharing his story and none of those people are as insane as you

[@dmrgen]

It’s very sweet you let the spider live at the 19:30 minute mark

[@DuringDark]

corner spiders are homies 🩵🩷🤍

[@KillerQ13]

This enrages me. I've had a similar experience with rural mental health care: They make it lonely and the beds are terrible, are quick to diagnose emotional dysregulation with bipolar, tend not to question self diagnosis, offer activities that have very little scientific value in terms of improving outcome (no CBT/DBT group therapy or the like), have no clue what complex trauma is, make admitting self more expensive with ER visit and ambulance ride, make the paranoid even more paranoid with fear of demeaning repercussions, overprescribe expensive medications like Abilify that make you nearly pass out just standing up. I've experienced ALL OF THAT. I considered it one notch above prison and a cash grab. No need to do proper treatment as long as the Medicaid/Medicare money breaks even and keeps flowing. Likely diagnosis: Severe attachment issues and Complex PTSD. Emotional triggers severe enough can cause dissociation that even the memory of your own self defeating thoughts can become muddled...it feels like psychosis but it's not true psychosis (you're aware you're experiencing it). Schizophrenics are not aware (they break with reality and that's that). Antipsychotics won't help will dissociation and can make the zombification even worse. What you needed all along was somebody to care about you (put hand on and pray). What you needed is a hug and somebody to hear you out. Those patients did more than any staff member and I assume your community here is doing more as well.

[@secho88]

i relate with having a hug. its all it is, touch.

[@kamufi_music]

hey dude i have Borderline Personality disorder. Maybe try to find a doctor that listens truly to what you say. I needed a long time to get the diagnosis and finally get DBT. But i can assure you that DBT saved my life. I don't think I would be still alive without it. I also experience visual hallucinations and paranoid thinking when my BPD gets out of hand (once it has been so bad I got misdiagnosed with psychosis). Maybe BPD fits you as well? CPTSD and BPD have a lot of overlap, and from what you wrote, it really sounds a lot like my experience. Also If you want to get into DBT you have to search for it yourself. Normal psych wards can never offer the treatment we need. Its more like a badge, its not fixing anything for people like us. I had to wait for half a year until i could begin DBT therapy bcs the waiting list was that long. Hope everything works out for you :)

[@d3vitron779]

Chronic dissociation sucks ass

[@sean..L]

I clicked on this video because the title and the thumbnail confused me but this was actually very informative; I'm glad you decided to share this very personal story to help educate and demystify people on this taboo subject!

[@ky1ethedestroyer]

I've also been in a crisis at the ER before, too. It's incredibly demeaning the first time. It's about time we talk about these experiences, whether negative or positive. Healthcare is a little bit stretched at this point in time, and I feel like it'll get better if we get more professionals and other care improvements. As somebody who not only has been through crisis, but is also entering the mental healthcare field, your experience was incredibly insightful...you're incredibly brave for speaking about your experience, especially with something so vulnerable. Best of luck, take care on your path to healing

[@bluelights7729]

As someone with schizophrenia, thank you so much for raising your voice for fellow neurodivergents who can't or don't have the courage to.

[@KonchokTW]

Much love to you, my friend. We will be okay!

[@momoapples]

I've only been hospitalized once, in 2020. I don't have schizophrenia, but I have anxiety, depression, and autism. I attempted suicide and ended up in a coma for three days. Because I was a minor at the time, I was forced to be admitted. After I awoke from my coma in the regular hospital, they transported me by ambulance to a mental hospital in a different city. It sucked and didn't really help honestly. I was there for eight days and cried for 6 hours straight my first night there. My mattress was made out of plastic, my hair was greasy because they didn't give me enough shampoo, and I was forced to be a roomate to someone who kept trying to make unwanted romantic advances towards me. She was later moved, thankfully, because she lied about having COVID and was forced to be isolated even though she didn't have it (the nurses wanted to teach her a lesson). We had our own bathrooms in our rooms, but you had to share a bathroom if you had a roomate. Every morning I woke up to my blood being taken, they didn't even wake me up first so I just woke up with a needle in my arm. The food was awful and one day it was so bad that one of the nurses took pity on us and ordered pizza for the entire unit. She was one of the only things I liked about the place. One of the other nurses was awful, she told us that the only reason we were mentally ill was because we were possessed by demons and that we had to ask God to forgive us. I know she's religious, but she's a healthcare provider and shouldn't try to force her beliefs on us by scaring us into thinking we were demonic or something. The activities were okay, I participated in everything because I wanted to get out of there ASAP. Everyone could make a 10 minute phone call to their parents once a day. I missed my mom and my bed. There was a girl in my unit who kept having blackouts and tried to kill everyone, she had to be booty juiced a lot. I had a lot of panic attacks because of her banging noises and violent behavior. After I left, I didn't get better, but I never seriously attempted again because I was afraid to go back to the hospital.

[@KonchokTW]

That sounds terrible. I am so sorry you had to go through that :( I am here for you!

[@momoapples]

@@KonchokTW Thank you, and thank you for sharing your experience as well. Honestly, it was bad but it could've been a lot worse. And it was four years ago. I do think I'm better mentally now then I was then, even though the mental hospital made me feel worse for a while. I'm grateful that there are at least some people who've had good experiences in mental hospitals, because that means that there has been effort put into making them better than what they used to be.

[@timh2859]

abuse is wayy too common in psych wards. I have heard that sentiment of not seriously attempting due to fear of being institutionalized time and time again. mental hospitals can be and frequently are hell on earth.

[@steamnamebbderinvade__]

@@timh2859 they CONSTANTLY laugh at patients due to thier god complexes!

[@alilaro]

Thank you so much for posting this. I know I need to be hospitalized, as I am becoming a danger to myself and becoming very paranoid, but with the horror stories of how mentally ill people were treated in Asylums pre-2000s have me so so scared to go, even if I know most mental health wards are very much not like this now. You have seriously given me a boost to start seriously considering it, not just for my family who I love, but for myself. You are an amazing and beautiful soul. I wish the best for you and every happiness!

[@KonchokTW]

I sincerely and wholeheartedly wish you well, my friend. I do believe it would be good for you. Though, every hospital is different. I do hope yours will treat you fairly. Just be completely transparent with everyone and get the help you need! I am proud of you.

[@SeptisHighborn]

If you have not already done so, I implore you to look into your local mental hospital. It's nice to hear that some people have good experiences with them, but many do not. I have friends who were traumatized by being admitted to them, and as some people in the comments have stated, they are rife with abuse.

[@alilaro]

@SeptisHighborn yeah, im really looking to avoid any new trauma ahah! i have a therapist who has recommended me a place that she herself has stayed at and tells me is really good. so hopefully if i crash again I have that to fall back onto.

[@uz00maki]

Thank you so much for this! I recently applied for a position at a mental hospital, as I am already a caregiver for people in my family who have similar challenges and was excited about the chance to possibly help some more people through rough patches as well. Whatever the results of that interview, I will carry your experiences with getting help in my heart to give me a better perspective on what the person across from me is experiencing.

[@KonchokTW]

I respect your career choice! The only thing I wish for you, is that you treat the patients like any other "normal" person. Sadly, I was often treated like a child as if I was low functioning. Some of the nurses definitely looked down on some of the patients which is sad. But you seem like a good person! I sincerely wish you well.

[@uz00maki]

​@@KonchokTW Oh my gosh, thank you so much! And thank you for the additional insight, that's a valuable bit of advice to keep in back of my mind to check against since I am most used to caring for children. Important not to slip into a one-size-fits-all "mental groove" for everyone and foremost respect who they are as individuals!

[@NightmareRex6]

if you atualy try to help, they will fire. i seen several testimonies of CURED scitzofranic peaople who once they sied the enitys are NOT "just in there head" like the hospital drills into them and they are NOT THEIR THOUGHTS, and they are archonic or denmonic enitys, all suddenly if they belive that tuly the "voices" stop and they are cured, they fired a nurse for teaching that truth and curing some, there is no money in healthy peaople.

[@megumin1582]

not as a child, but i felt like i was being thought of as an animal by the staff, they laughed at me during an episode. just please treat your patients as human beings and even if it gets annoying be patient and try to understand them 💜

[@KonchokTW]

@@megumin1582 I'm so sorry you had to go through that! You did not deserve such treatment. I hope you are doing better now!

[@cosplaymistake]

taking away your cellphone really depends on the mental hospital, sometimes they’ll let you have more stuff if your not suicidal. I’ve never been inpatient mental hospital, only just holding at a regular hospital. I respect you sharing your experience, also i haven’t watched minecraft content in a while but this video made me click as I was curious about your experience.

[@vulpesrocktails918]

I was hospitalized for about a week just a few days ago. It kinda sucked, but it kept me alive, which is what I needed them to do. Thanks for sharing this, man. I'm sure it wasn't easy.

[@KonchokTW]

Much love to you!

[@miniyata]

The ending is actually so real bro the realistic outlook but looking at it in a positive light. Hope nothing but the best for ur future 🖤

[@jessewells4984]

Ive been diagnosed schizoaffective disorder since 2018, and ive been to 2 mental hospitals since. I relate a bit to your story, although quite different from mine, but my awareness of my illness plus the expectations put on myself and from the people around me, mainly before they knew of my illness, has made me feel like i should be able already to be a better person and im contantly compairing myself to who i think i should be. Your compassion for yourself and others has inspired me, and i hope i can one day be more compassionate of myself as well.

[@llwydni]

bro hearing your voice makes me incredibly happy for no reason whatsoever, you seem like such a kind and genuine person. im rooting for you!!!

[@KonchokTW]

You are too sweet ;_; thank you.

[@ian-online]

seeing you talk about your issues with your mental health combined with minecraft MY FAV GAME EVER healed something in me. so thank you so much and congratulations on your recovery man.

[@alixcozmo]

I spent most of my time crying when I was hospitalized too :/ we had card games too. the food was terrible. at night they came in like every 30 minutes and it was super annoying and not fun. it was super traumatizing for me

[@KonchokTW]

I am so sorry you had to go through that. I remember nights were terrible. The beds were so bad and the pillows were as thin as paper. Due to me self harming as stated in the video, people would come check on me every 15 minutes and open my door and let light through, which kept me awake all night. I was such a zombie from the combination of the insane dose of medications and the lack of sleep. I feel for you!

[@zegnar3420]

You deserve huge props for the bravery it takes to lay out all this stuff to the public. I have the tiniest fraction of a fraction of your experience with mental health related hardships, but I don't think I'd ever feel comfortable sharing something so personal and heavy online. I'm happy to see someone stay strong and keep playing the cards they were dealt in life well. We all need such examples perhaps now more than ever.

[@Hello-xp4vx]

really glad this came to my recommended front page. i just got out of a mental hospital for psychotic depression because of my bipolar. i was hearing voices forcing me to hurt myself, i was delusional and genuinely believed the staff of a certain discord server i was banned from were gangstalking me. i was admitted because i had a plan to jump off a building (because of the voices telling me that) and the experience was okay. i cried a lot too because i missed my family and wanted to go home. i stayed there for 3 weeks. it was rough, but got the help i needed by changing my medication to antipsychotics, antidepressants. i can relate to your story and im proud how much you overcame your struggles. rooting for you!

[@KonchokTW]

I'm very proud of you for reaching out and getting help! Thank you for the kind words. We got this.

[@greta1115]

thanks for sharing your experiences and i hope you're feeling well :) i graduated with a psych degree but i'm not in the field of mental health now. Hearing your perspective was super insightful because it's so much more tangible than having to memorize diagnostic criteria for an exam.. Listening to stories like yours is what got me interested in studying the brain in the first place a couple years back and now i'm in grad school for neuroscience, so again: thanks!

[@KonchokTW]

This is such a lovely comment, thank you very much.

[@Hannah7Banana]

I've heard so many bad stories about mental facilities... Back in 2020 I developed severe depression and almost k*lled myself. In 2022 I developed severe anxiety and cut myself. But I am a stubborn person and I found my own ways to cure my own problems with the help of my mom. Never got diagnosed, never took meds, never went to mental. I just learned how to meditate and control my emotions really well, as well as changing my lifestyle and mindset. Sometimes I still get waves of stress, anxiety, or depression but now I can handle it really well. I'm glad things have gotten better for you and I hope they continue to get better! I also relate to your autism and stuttering. But no need to apologize! It's just a part of who you are :)

[@KonchokTW]

I wish you well with your own troubles, my friend!

[@OfficialTheMan]

i wish i was as brave as you making a video like this i don't have schizophrenia at the level you have but i do have it a little and i also have autism and also a Buddhist i'm glad i watched this video i'm sorry you went through that mental health issues suck i have horrible anxiety so i know how bad it can get at times and i hope your life continues to get better

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you so much for this comment, my friend. Namo buddhaya.

[@Lvcifer--666--]

Thank you for sharing your story! Usually the first time in a mental hospital is the toughest, and we're not always ready for the help we know we need. I've been in Midwestern mental hospitals in around 2017-2019, but I always felt like everyone saw them much worse than they really are. I was very shy back then so I usually struggled to make friends, but people always were willing to pull me into their groups and stuff. We did get our own ROOMS tho... That's sweet👀 we always had to share with someone else P.S. super proud of you for the sobriety!! 💜

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you for the kind words! I'm proud of you for reaching out and receiving help all those years ago!

[@CestLePanda]

Not sure how but I stumbled upon this video on my feed and chose to listen. I think it's very brave of you to share this story. It must be very nerve wracking. I don't suffer from schizophrenia or bipolar myself but I do appreciate hearing from someone that does so candidly because I never know when I could have a friend or relative deal with this. I wish you the best going forward.

[@TheAbsoluteStateofThings]

You are a very very good storyteller, better than many I've scene on KZbin. You construct your sentences to flow really pleasantly despite how hard this video must have been to made. I've struggled with bipolar type symptoms from severe ADHD and years on years of trauma, and I relate with a lot of what you say here despite the difference in our conditions. The bursting out crying while at the doctor's appointment really hit me, as the same thing happened when I looked for help. Really really big respect for finding within yourself to make this video and the other videos on your channel, will be subscribing

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you, my friend. I wish you well with your own troubles! I was finally diagnosed with ADHD a few months ago myself.

[@juega331]

It's pleasant to hear life experiences from someone that lives it so differently, great video!

[@XanderAintStreet]

It is really brave of you to talk about this, i have myself been in the mental hospital 3 times because of a very rough depression. It is very helpful hearing other People talkin about their experiences❤

[@judge_che]

Really great video. I work in a psychiatric hospital and it was interesting to learn about what an admission is like from your perspective. It was also cool to see the similarities and differences between your hospital policy and mine. I'm glad you're doing better and remember that after you've left the hospital we staff are still rooting for you.

[@mosspiece]

You are so real for posting this and speaking so openly about your experiences! I've been through 4 psychotic episodes in the past 10 years, 2 of which got me in the hospital. I remember almost nothing from my visits but the people I met in there. I think about the laughs and kind moments I shared with others at the lowest point in their lives all the time. I'll carry their words of wisdom with me, as jumbled as they might be, for the rest of my life. Much love to you, and I hope your recovery continues to go well.

[@KonchokTW]

Much love!

[@consumptionof]

Thank you very much for sharing this, man. I have schizophrenia as well, diagnosed since 2018. I've been to the psych ward twice, yet I wasn't admitted either time. They didn't see an urgent need for it since I wasn't a threat to myself or others, I was seeking psychiatric help on my own initiative, and when they said "we can admit you if you want but you don't have to," both times I opted simply to go home. Funny thing is, the second time I went, there was this chair beside the intake desk at the ER. I told them about my symptoms and they asked me to take a seat when they were done, then asked me to come back and sit in that chair because they didn't want me to be too far away from them. I guess they were scared I was going to have second thoughts and run away lol. That time, I brought a backpack full of random stuff like clothes and my Kindle that I thought I would need. Among my possessions was a Bible, and fortunately they let me read it in the "waiting room" where they put all the psych ward aspirants. Another guy and I read the Psalms together; in that room, the TV above my head playing movies I could hear but couldn't see, fearful of my future, not knowing if I would still be sane enough to be a Christian by the end of the week, the songs of David gave me great comfort. Psalms 6 and 30 in particular are my favorite. I know you said you're certain you'll relapse, but I hope from the bottom of my heart that you won't. You've grown so much since the start of your journey and you're clearly a kind soul. Hold onto reality as tight as you can, for as long as you can. It's tough with this illness, but I believe in you.

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you so much for this comment. Your words truly touches me. I wish you well with your journey as well, my friend. It's so lovely how religion can help humans out, despite us sharing many different thoughts and beliefs.

[@justanothercomment]

As someone else on the rocky road of recovery from psychosis, this video was so wonderful. Hearing you describe experiences so similar to mine made me feel less alone, and your voice and personality is so comforting to listen to. Thank you 🥹❤️

[@KonchokTW]

Thank YOU! Stay strong, my friend!

[@Paige-to1mi]

I really appreciate you making this video. It’s helpful to hear to other people’s experiences.

[@handleiguesss]

You are such a beautiful human, I can just tell from the way you talk. Love you, stranger, and I hope you live a long and happy life!

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you so very much. You are so kind! Much love.

[@MrKaftpaket]

I hope I don't sound insincere or mean spirited when I say this, but I really like listening to you talk. You have a nice speaking voice and the way you describe these events, even as traumatic as they were to you, is easy to follow and understand your feelings and actions at that time. I personally had to go to two mental hospitals in my lifetime and even though it wasn't due to the same mental problems you had, my experiences are VERY similar haha. The first time was a true nightmare for me and I didn't stay long as it was very scary and traumatic for me. The second time was much better and helpful and since then my life has improved a lot. I did have a somewhat hard time after the second visit, but I found a therapist who was absolutely perfect for me and I love them very much. They changed my life so drastically, that it's still kind of mind boggling to me how fast my life improved thanks to them. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us, it helps to hear that you're not the only one struggling with mental health.

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you so much for the kind words. I was reading off of a script in this video, I used to be able to wing it and just ramble for my commentaries but as I've gone along on this journey I've found it hard to process my thoughts and turn them into words due to the mess of a salad in my brain. I'm glad I was able to say what I wanted to say in this video. Also, I am so proud of you for reaching out and getting help, and staying strong! You got this, my friend.

[@face_nemesis]

really relate to getting set off by algorithms online. theyre trying to be helpful and recommend things i want, but if im in a bad space i will think someone is trying to kill me.

[@asheis_dead]

thank you for being so open with this, i can relate to almost everything you were talking about. i have bipolar i, anxiety, and bpd, and have been admitted 3 times, all attempts, the last one was very serious. the first hospitalization was the worst, they misdiagnosed me with depression and put me on ssris which sparked a bad manic episode down the line. you're so right when you say the people there are the nicest people you'll ever meet. i feel like the patients there with me actually cared, and helped me open up in group therapy which helped walk me down from my manic episodes that landed me in the hospital in the first place. thank you for sharing your experiences man. no one talks about this stuff, even though its one of the most important topics nowadays. we have so many people struggling with mental health and we tend to ignore, make fun of, or infantilize their issues, which does nothing. but sharing your story i think helps a lot (also congrats on a year clean! im hitting that in a couple weeks)

[@KonchokTW]

I'm so proud of you for staying clean! I believe in you, my friend.

[@glasssawsslipperstraws7410]

Thank you for sharing your story, for all the bad things the internet can bring, its kinda beautiful that we have technology for anyone to be able to share their stories with the world. ❤

[@k2a2l2]

glad u were able to get help man and wish everyone best of luck going through this

[@ElifYlmaz-zb8kq]

As a future psychologist, this is very educational. Thank you for your contribution as an individual!

[@BlackCatsBowTies]

Thanks for sharing this. Im really proud of you man, and I give you the biggest hug I can. I spent a couple weeks in a psych ward for the first time earlier this year. Patients on a psych ward can be some of the realest people. When you're there, everyone is near rock bottom, so no one has anything to hide. I found my interactions with other patients to be very genuine. We were all going through it in one form or another. Anyways, much love man, and once again thank you for sharing ❤

[@KonchokTW]

Much love to you!

[@Kozy]

thank you for sharing, man, this takes so much bravery that doesn't go unseen. amazing job painting the scope and narrative, my heart goes out to you, yo

[@JoaoPedroRomao]

I might be trippin but it really looked like you stuttered the most in moments where you talked about traumatic experiences. Hope you are doing great my friend. God bless you an your family

[@Dexobite]

It’s unnerving how similar this was to my own experience at a mental hospital. I guess they have the same routines for each hospital. I remember my hospital had a bit less in it (no sofas or vending machines) but everything else was basically the exact same. I spent my 7 days playing solitaire by myself or playing kings in the corner with the one other friend I had. I remember looking at the high walls outside in the little courtyard and wondering if I could somehow jump the wall. I never want to go back, and it’s why I never told my counselors about my mental health again. (They we’re the ones who sent me originally). The only fun part I can remember is being in the ambulance at like 3:00 AM because it was like a roller coaster.

[@KonchokTW]

I will never forget that ambulance ride. The feeling of being literally tied down to a stretcher and wheeled into the back of one is just so haunting. I hope you are doing okay nowadays, my friend.

[@lightinshiningdarkness6603]

Your video popped up in my recommendations. I have a distant cousin who's suffering from some sort of psychosis and his family isn't handling him well. He's not getting the help he needs and I don't have any power to help but idk what could be done. Thank you for sharing your story and spreading awareness

[@dashsmash2665]

Really makes you think, people can feel and think this way because of a disease, i'm to privileged to even notice at times to know how much people like you have to deal with. My heart goes out to you, man, i know a bit more about schizophrenia now than before this video. Thank you for that, and hopefully, you don't relapse any time soon. On an unrelated note, I recommend listening to some NSDR videos to calm down. It helped me at my worst, so maybe it will help you as well :) (NSDR andrew huberman, it should be a 10 minute long video from virtusan) Hope this helped in any sort of way and good night.

[@HarrisonWeber21]

Much respect. Wishing you love and care with your condition.

[@KonchokTW]

Much love to you!

[@real_yunicellular]

I was in psychosis early 2023. I was locked in after threatening my mother with suicide and murder, and was sent to a room. My doctor gave me a medicine named abilify which made me incredibly suicidal and depressed, and when I asked him to remove it he said ”You don’t have the power..” Had it for 7 months. The first time I was locked in was 2 weeks then I was locked in for a month in March. I tried to deceive the doctors, so I was released early but locked again. I understand you perceive the mental hospital can be good, but from my perspective I would rather have psychosis than receive help since the help was worse.

[@itsameArmio]

I went to horsham. The kids were awful, people had seizures right in front of me several times, the entire place was dirty and had nicotine patches everywhere, the food was so bad that me, my roommate and a few others got food poisoning AND A STAFF MEMBER ACCUSED US OF FAKING IT AND HAVING BULIMIA despite the fact i threw up right in front of her and even showed her that my hands were dry, my stuffed animal was locked inside a closet but another girl got to keep hers, etc.

[@burritowyrm6530]

dude, the part where you stumbled over your words so genuinely as you tried to remember that traumatic experience with your old bully, damn i was crying. you're a real G for making it out

[@KonchokTW]

Oh, I apologize. The goal of this video was not to make people feel sorry for me. I just wanted to share what my experiences were in mental hospitals since the only ideas people get about them are from movies and television shows. I appreciate the kind words, though. Much love.

[@burritowyrm6530]

@@KonchokTW nah nah i mean, in a beautiful way it touched me dude i didn't mean no disrespect haha. i'd say you did that and much more, it was inspiring.

[@KonchokTW]

@@burritowyrm6530 Thank you so much.

[@gneissguy6544]

I really appreciate the representation, i feel like stuff like this is kinda just left behind closed doors and not talked about much. Definitely scares me to even consider getting mental help when mental institutions don't have staff checks to make sure they are not abusing patients. But i guess not many are even willing to take on these jobs these days anyway. I hope you are doing well ❤

[@KonchokTW]

I believe I got lucky while I was locked up. Due to me self harming one night I was in there, they very well could have chosen to tie me up and restrain me to my bed. That would have been terrible. The fear of that happening helped me stop self harming oddly enough haha.

[@jaz4527]

oh man this vid genuinely made me tear up. I’ve had a real rough time this year but hearing you talk about your story really inspires me. I’ve been just questioning why I’m going though through the things I’m going through but in a way your story helps me realize I’m not alone at all in my suffering. That to be human is to at least live through all goods and bads. I wish you a happy happy life.

[@KonchokTW]

Much love to you. I wish you well with your own troubles, my friend.

[@ck-en5ik]

Thank you for this cause I've been admitted 4 times in total and I'm only 18. They chemically restrained me, and I'm honestly just running away from the system, yk? Like I don't want to let them trap me, I don't talk to no one about anything. I don't want to put myself in a position where they can hurt me again, even if it means I tweak out- I'll just fucking lock myself in a room, I'll never go back, they'll have to chemically restrain me again and just fuck me up. Whatever.

[@punkrat5704]

Hey, thanks for making a video like this. While not a schizophrenic, my clinical depression turned into psycotic depression during highschool while also being hospitalized during that time. Even though we're different i find this very comforting because I'm shy and too afraid to talk about something like this, speaking of which you are incredibly brave for doing something like this and actually going through it uploading it. Don't worry about the stuttering, i stutter too sometimes, which i can totally get how annoying it can be. I'm also autistic so the way i speak might be weird haha, anyways keep it up and keep taking care of yourself man. Mental illness and trauma is a very rough battle to deal with (and you're strong for being here).

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you for the kind words! I sincerely wish you well with your troubles as well, friend.

[@hatlessgojira]

i have schytzophrenia and its hard, my first episode was in 6th grade and i related to this a lot im happy you are able to tell this story without treating schytzophrenia like q conversation starter or a scary story

[@nothingelse1520]

I've never been in a psych ward but I used to work in the mental health field, my degree is in psychology. I like hearing these stories "from the other side". Its very educational.

[@steamnamebbderinvade__]

Holy shit, I've been there 7 times and the 1st time nearly killed me to starvation and electrolyte imbalance and I got out of there because I threatened that my parents would sue for wrongful death, but worst case, the state attorney general's office would sue. I was having constant autistic meltdowns they wernt equipped to handle, but they did come to the conclusion that warehousing me was causing these meltdowns, so the patients made sure to give me activities to delay the meltdowns. They sent some patients who came from Terrell State Hospital: one of them didnt believe that riding in a car with geared up gangsters was wrong, which I concur because I dont think it was willing, but wrong place at the wrong time, she had fetal achohol syndrome btw so talked, made sense, but could not go beyond simple ideas I.E plain text stuff. They sent her friend who was drugged up a certain way or got a lobotomy, I dont know which one, and a murdrer who couldnt control his impulses; he just beat the body into its simplest form; he just pissed me off rather than scaring me; he acted like beavis and butthead, despite being smarter than them obviously, and got downgraded from max security to minimum security for good behavior. I had a south korean nurse, who sounded so crazy, I literally said "shouldnt you be in this asylum too? because you are just as crazy as I am" while constantly saying "I belong here, so im not exempting myself" who was upstairs threaten to send me there if I didnt go hide in a corner and get a literal drop of water because it was "legal limit" which I told him harshly, was horse shit, and I ended up spamming FU, to intimidate him away from me and he retreated; he would have been a constant target for me if I was sent upstairs, as I would force him out, no matter th restraints I got, which they could have legally put on me for an entire day, but almost nothing would be able to deter me; I had no dignity to be humuliated from, and I had no fear; only those who took steoroids deterred me because they grossed me out, which was about the only normal emotion I had, but I could probably report it for police investigation and arrest them for drug use. They ended up calling a SWAT team because of my threats, and now, I just wanted to fucking test their high asses and talk some sense into them, though it is funny looking back. I was in there for almost a month and almost got legal representation due to a rule that medicaid is supposed to give you a lawyer in a institutional setting such as a hospital, nursing homes (seriously, high-functioning autistic patients have had to olmstead sue to get out of these places, which is a case that prevents unecessary institutionalizations to put into a community intergrated setting, such as a non-profit group home, getting a HCBS waiver, CLASS, etc.), assissted living facilities, ICFs, State-Supported Living centers (they seriously operate like adult orphanages!) etc. in that time period. Other times were uneventful besides them laughing at us because they had god complexes, which in my last stay, I shrilly told them that and shamed them, and that made them stop for an entire day, and again, tons of threats to olmstead sue because they kept ending up in the hospital when community services would clearly prevent these hospitalizations. I remember one guy who took meth and was worried something in his blood vessels would go to his heart and kill him after a day or two because his DOCTOR told him that so wanted a substance abuse bed at the local community mental health center or sue, which in this case, he meant the state attorney general would sue the hospital for allowing him to die. They had things like religous lessons from a guy from south korea who went to kryzakstan for international aid, and afganistan, recreational therapy I couldnt go to but only once, a cabinet full of board games but an inadaquately big common room and a tv with coloring opportunities in the morning, alongside the obvious CBT sessions in the afternoon. All these hospitalizations could have been prevented just by putting hydrogen peroxide in my ear to clear my inevitable excessive earwax growth, because I would feel like I'm slowly being gasligthed because I would barely understand much, though hear it. Btw, my diagnoses are moderate-functioning autism, Severe ADHD, though weirdly enough, my IQ is 109 and I actually did well in math, reading, and social studies, Moderate anxiety and depression that can get serious, if my earwax isnt cleared, its major and acute, BPD, PSTD, ODD.

[@ihuvvvcuncur2617]

Very cool and informative video! Glad you took time to talk about your experience and upload a video of it for others to see. I wish you many many clean years to come and when worst come to worse that you'll handle it and get back on track! Best wishes and good luck!

[@Dragonaiis]

thank you for telling us your experience :) I was admitted once in 2020 for suicidal ideation. It’s been tough but I think I’m slowly getting better. I’m wishing the best to you man, you’re so brave for talking about this so openly.

[@g4ur1b0y]

You are very brave for sharing your story! You should be proud of how far you have come. I too have been to a psych ward, but that was when I was 14. I hope you feel better! and I am here for you if you need me to be.

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you so very much!

[@SeptisHighborn]

Thank you for sharing your experience. It's incredibly important for mental health awareness to reach a wide audience, because so many people don't realize they need help, or convince themselves not to seek it. I've struggled with depression since I was 13, being diagnosed at 14. I very nearly did not make it to adulthood, but I've been lucky to have the motivation to seek help, and I've had a few good friends in my life that were able to help me through some of my worst episodes. I urge anyone who feels like something is wrong to seek help. Therapists are hit and miss, but keep looking until you find the right understanding person to get you through your lowest.

[@KonchokTW]

This. I've been in therapy since I was 3 years old, and it took me until I was 23 to find the perfect one for me. It's kind of sad it took that long, but I am happy now, and that is all that matters. I am proud of you for staying strong! You got this.

[@Chappelroanfan]

I've been twice for OCD/autism/depression and I had a really pleasant experience.

[@CaretakerWanted]

Thanks for sharing, me son. I do not have schizophrenia, but I do have major OCD. As you know, that disorder is a freaking mess, to put it lightly. Nothing but an endless roller-coaster loop of obsessions and compulsions with your brain believing something will change if you do or think something for the five millionth time. I have never been to a mental hospital or psych ward, but I have had two significantly long therapy sessions spanning almost a year with each. That, along with medicine and mental tools, has drastically helped me because if I had not sought help and been a part of the second prolonged therapy timelapse, there was a good chance I would have ended it. Once again, thank you for sharing, and I am happy to hear you became better through your decision to seek help.

[@ce11o71]

Thanks for speaking up on this topic. I really respect your courage to tell all these stuff and post them online. There are some mean comments here, and they suck. I learned a lot and gained a lot more confidence from this video, and I hope everything goes well for you my friend.

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you for your kind words! Much love.

[@karendaniel450]

I'm in the process of becoming a psychologist even as I struggle with my own mental and physical health problems. Part of the reason I'm working so hard is because of the shitty treatment I've received in the past, the people that were supposed to help but didn't. The other part is because I remember the relief that came when I did recieve the help I needed. I try and listen to as many personal stories as I can, like yours, just so I can remember what it's like being on the other side. But I've also... really struggled this year and knowing there are other people like me, fighting as hard as I am, helps. We deserve peace and happiness. Thank you for making this video.

[@KonchokTW]

I believe in you, my friend.

[@imskyskyhigh]

In my mental hospital, they'd check my room every 5 minutes. Mostly at night, they'd either slam my door or leave it wide open. Sleeping was impossible

[@KonchokTW]

Sleeping was awful for me as well. I eventually just propped my door open with my trash can so they could just peek inside without having to open my door forcefully and wake me up.

[@FVerz]

I've never been admitted so this was very interesting to hear, continue talking about your experiences !

[@tomaslobos1326]

what an absolute king for talking about this, takes a lot of strength. i'm an atheist, and still the idea of some christian people praying for a buddhist is so incredibly heartwarming. glad you are doing fine now and hope it stays like this, greetings from Chile

[@eng_420]

You really seem like a nice/funny guy. I very much enjoyed listening to your insightful experience and i wish you the best of luck in the future

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you so much!

[@SyphistPrime]

The misdiagnosis while at the mental hospital hits home for me. I was admitted to a mental hospital in January of 2020, just shy of all the shenanigans that year brought. I was told I likely had BPD by a friend and ended up with a diagnosis of BPD Tendencies due to the convincing. Well, 4 years later I figure out I'm autistic due to convincing from my psych and taking the RAADS-R, then day forward to last week I figured out I likely have CPTSD. Autism and CPTSD together exhibit a lot of the same traits as BPD but for different reasons and have slightly different nuances. A lot has changed since that visit (including discovering I'm trans) and I've learned a lot about myself. As much as your difficulties differ from mine, it's nice to find solidarity and commonality in our experiences with simple things like a misdiagnosis.

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you well! Also, trans rights! 💟

[@kuya8329]

This is an amazing video. Thank you. I'm 18 and have always wanted to become a psychologist, and having you talk about your experiences with a mental hospital while playing minecraft is peak content. It's a very nice comfort game to get your mind off of things. I'm very glad you don't apologize for your stuttering. It's not even remotely bothersome, and very understandable. I'd be so nervous talking about anything even remotely this personal.

[@mediumjimmy]

Hi there, you just popped up in my suggested and I’m really glad you did. I don’t have schizophrenia as far as I know-but I do have some other stuff, mainly persistent depressive disorder, PTSD (which tbh I think I have C-PTSD specifically but that’s as far as I’ve gotten with that diagnosis), anxiety, and I’m trying to get tested for ADHD. I haven’t been a full on in patient at a hospital before, but I did this program called “partial hospitalization” where I basically went to the hospital everyday for ten days for intensive group therapy as if I were an in patient only I got to go home at the end of the day. It was really scary to go but I’m really glad I went….it helped a lot and I even made some friends…I really resonated with a lot of the stuff you talked about. Everyone there, all the patients, were the nicest people I’ve met. Ranging from my age (23 at the time) to a woman in her late 80s. We all got really close over those ten days. Talking about our issues together really helped…I’m thinking I might even go back again if things get scary again for me, because I know they can help me. Thank you for talking about mental health stuff. It’s really important and not enough people advocate for it.

[@AmphibiansAreCool]

Im impressed with how good you are at describing the experience. Personally i would be feel better with ever seeking help because of how much i know about it now

[@cuygor7132]

We really gotta reform the system, man. I was only in there once, but I’m so scared to go back that I never wanna show my mental health issues again. They basically treat you like a prisoner, charge you thousands of dollars for a few nights stay, and believe that you’re a moron. All because you’re just someone who needs help and can’t take it anymore.

[@anormaluser5750]

thank you for this. ive been having trouble since a few months ago i started having psychotic thoughts. thankfully i think im getting better though im not in medication yet. but hearing your story really helped me realize i will be okay

[@Baditow]

crazy how the very moment you consented you turned into a prisoner

[@JesusGreenBL]

Thank you for sharing this. Last year I experienced an 11 month long episode of psychosis, triggered by drug withdrawals. I still don't know if it was a one off thing, me and my psychiatrist have discussed the possibility that I could be schizophrenic and it could reoccur, but I've been psychosis free for 5 months and off antipsychotics for 3 (at my doctor's suggestion, we're seeing if I'm fine without them - don't ever stop antipsychotics without your doctor's say, it's dangerous!), so I'm crossing my fingers it won't happen again. It was a horrifying experience and I'm really glad I decided to seek help when I did, before my psychosis got even worse. I don't think any person who has never been through psychosis can really begin to comprehend just how sinister the feeling of being in psychosis is. It's not even just about the auditory or visual hallucinations you can have, but also about how you feel mentally and how the world around you feels. It sneaks up on you, and you quickly go from feeling alright, to living in a world of delusions, paranoid, afraid, convinced people are plotting against you, or watching you, or planning to kill you. You can't trust anyone, even your friends, family, loved ones, could all be in on it. Laughter, smiles, sounds of joy, all suddenly become threatening, they must be _laughing at you_ . Whispered words, shouts, conversations you walk in on, all must be directed at you. I'm immensely grateful to my family, the few friends that put up with me during that time, my psychiatrist, and most of all my therapist who I think was the key to me finally losing my paranoia (when medication alone wasn't getting rid of it). I'm so happy you've been doing better lately. Wishing you the best going forward. Even though you may encounter psychosis one, two, three, or many times again - I think having had that experience and knowing how to handle it, you can continue to progress forward and grow and make something positive out of your experiences going forward. Stay safe!

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you for the kind words, and thank you for sharing your story! It is very touching.

[@MetanoiaMystery]

Hey man. Was in the ward for a month 3 years ago. Those beds suck haha. Mine was a bit weirder. We all ended up watching a psychological horror one time for movie night. The EXTREMELY homicidal kid couldn’t stop laughing the whole movie. The ward can be real weird sometimes.

[@boyworldwideweb]

Just got this recommended to me. Haven't finished the video yet, but I love your voice and you have a sweet personality. This might sound odd, but I like your stuttering too- as someone who sometimes stutters really badly and is embarrassed by it, it's nice seeing someone else talk like me too. I don't have schizophrenia (or, at least I'm not diagnosed) nor have I been to a psyche ward/mental hospital before. However, I have come very close to going to one myself since at the time I had very very bad and persistant s* thoughts, which I have dealt with most of my life, however these felt even more scary due to it coming out of nowhere. I have also felt "insane," and have had symptoms of psychosis before, and I've had a few "episodes" specifically with these traits- hallucinations (auditory and visual), scattered thinking to the point I could barely focus on simple sentences, and extreme paranoid thoughts that someone was out to get me, or I was somehow in danger for my life (which I still actively deal with). I have been diagnosed with a few mental illnesses, though I'm not sure if I have anything else besides that. I want to one day get a therapist and get diagnosed or discover myself. I have been suspecting I may be autistic for a few years now. I relate to a lot of what you've said. I admire that you're open about this too, it is very hard to come out about this type of stuff, but please do know if it's worth hearing; I feel seen! I don't relate to many people at all, or connect with much people, but it always feels a little less lonely when I hear others who can relate. Thank you for making this video, much love. ❤️

[@KonchokTW]

Your comment made my night. Thank you so much. You seem like a lovely person! I sincerely wish you well.

[@PiotrKrystowski]

Great video! Very brave of you to share all this stuff. I went to a mental hospital on 2 different occasions but living in Poland the experience was far worse. Great message at the end. Get help. These hospitals are there for a reason.

[@fiftytwocrickets]

I am schizoaffective and luckily have avoided being in the psych ward since my diagnosis. But I had been before prior to my diagnosis and to two PHP (partial hospitalization programs) and in my honest opinion they allllll stink oh my goodness! This was a really good video. I love hearing about other peoples perspectives when they suffer with the same thing or something similar to me! I also relate to your stuttering! I developed cognitive and speech issues after developing schizophrenia!

[@KonchokTW]

I sincerely wish you well, my friend. Thank you for sharing!

[@anotparticularlynotableguy]

This story really touches me. I got reccomended this really late at night and i have to say, youre very brave for sharing this story. I wish you all the best

[@mayochupenjoyer]

i also have experiences with mental hospitals, but they were the pediatric ones. the first one was in 2019 when i was 12, and i was very depressed and actively planning suicide. i hated it there, but the other kids were super awesome and i loved meeting them. i’m still in touch with one today. the second time was in 2021 when i was 14, when my symptoms of OCD had me in a really bad toxic cycle than included taking off parts of my skin because they “weren’t perfect.” i was really resistant to go back and fought with the doctors a lot, although never physically. i eventually got admitted though, and the head psychiatrist slowly convinced me to accept help for my OCD (i believed the diagnosis, but i didn’t believe that treatment would help because “my OCD was helping me be better”). it’s been over three years now with ups and downs, but it’s never been quite as bad. my symptoms are doing better too, even though i know they will never truly go away

[@SillyandgoofyAnim8or]

congratulations on a year clean!!!!

[@3MB3Rx134]

I’m so happy that you have began recovering, and congrats on your 1+ year clean!

[@michaelsong3733]

I'm happy at least one person actually got help from those hellholes (in my personal experience, at least).

[@dutawe]

thank you for sharing your story❤️ this is sure to inspire other people to reach out. i watched this video twice!! you are a very likeable guy and im sorry you had to go through all this. i don't even know you but im genuinely so so proud of your strength and endurance. i wish you the best❤️

[@KonchokTW]

Thank you so very much for the kind words!

[@jestone7216]

that remind me a dark period of my life. you made me drop a tear

[@OwlDX]

I am honestly happy for you, I am praying for your health, I also stutter a lot, dont let it get to you.