my hijab story (and why i took it off)

The Hippiearab Podcast --- S1 E19
Every Muslim girl has to face the hijab at some point in her life. I talk about my story with the hijab and the way I viewed it in different parts of my life. I used to look at it as something keeping me from living my life, to something I could not imagine living my life without. This episode is for every Muslim girl and her hijab.
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[@simonesimone1101]

Being a hijabi is 20000% easier when most people around you are wearing hijab too

[@bas_boussa]

I agree. But I would like to add that true strength is when you are able to wear it regardless of the environment you are in. I think that is a sign of great faith ❤ And even if a person were to be in an environment where the majority of women wore the hijab, they have to make the major decision of wearing the hijab properly and only for the sake of Allah (SWT). Good point though.

[@R35574]

I live in non muslim contry where 70-75 % people are islamophob and I stay modest in hijab in my college and work place its really difficult in initail phase but u will never reget it coz u know u dont wanna impress the world but only my ALLAH .. may ALLAH reward every hijabi ❤🥺

[@zakeernalir2871]

As a hijabi, I think being around Muslims makes it more harder because there’s too much judgement about if someone is wearing it right or wrong as if everyone are entitled to someone’s personal religious journey.. unless the non Muslims are Islamophobic ofc..

[@Light_Slave]

I am not a woman and I will prob never understand how hard it is for a woman to be wearing a hijab but the best advice for non-hijabis is to learn their deen and do more good deeds this will make your iman stronger and make it very easy And Allah knows best

[@ghulamsakhii]

AGREEEE

[@MohammedShahinsha-sp7cr]

I was filled with tears when she said " when you follow dunya , u will get nothin but if you follow Allah , dunya will follow you" - This statement is so strong . Thank you sister. It essences the life we live in a nutshell. Astaghfirlah , let all our sins be forgiven.

[@farahshakeel3222]

the statement is straight from the heart

[@rohailahmad4860]

Hit my heart too

[@aissatamagassouba9808]

Amine yarabi

[@farhanarahamath1717]

Farah, this is my first time EVER commenting on a video but I HAD to share it. It’s literally Ramadan right now and since the start of Ramadan I have been at my lowest with my Iman. I didn’t even pray not even once, didn’t even MAKE any effort to get out of bed, didn’t even touch the Quran. It was very bad. I couldn’t even fall asleep at night just like u said in this vid, every fibre in my body knew I was doing the wrong thing. I couldn’t be living like this. So literally an hour ago,I decided to change, and I started to watch Islamic videos before I fell asleep. I didn’t want to hear harsh words, I was looking for a soft push to Islam again, to restart everything. I came across ur video and started watching them. This was the 3rd video I watched and what u said from 23:23 till 26:50 made me ball my eyes out…because I am literally right here at 2:20 am watching a soft motivational video for me to get back on the right path towards allah again. I was not ready for those aggressive words, I just needed a gentle push into Islam again, to get my heart pumping again….subhanallah I’m speechless…im literally balling my eyes out…u said all the feelings I was going thru perfectly and it felt like allah sent this vid to me.. like he himself was sending me a message to me, subhanallah 😭

[@aminaiskatos4155]

You got this sis ! I’ve struggled too, I’m actually hoping to wear my hijab something I couldn’t even fathom wearing, but Subhanallah Allah guides who he wills and he put this in my heart. May Allah make it easy for you, please take an advantage of the last week of Ramadan it could literally change you forever for the better insha’Allah ! Allah knows best Allah is Al - Rahman the most kind the most loving and merciful.

[@afnanj]

her friend's reaction when she took off the hijab vs her mom's reaction when she put the hijab back on. She thought that her friends would cheer her for taking it off and that her mom would cheer her for putting it back on but her friends didn't really pay attention to it coming off and her mom cried and gave her all the attention for putting it on.

[@aytenxo]

SubhanAllah... you caught a huge detail, I didn't compare those moments before I read your comment wow

[@MuslimahTiktok]

To the uumah I say. “Do not lose hope, nor be sad.” (Qur'an 3:139)

[@dearkorina3157]

I'm a revert, and when I put on the hijab for the first time and looked in the mirror, I recognized myself for the first time. ❤

[@amalcr21]

May Allah bless you sister ❤❤❤

[@lamasamer5890]

This is so incredibly beautiful I felt it in my heart❤

[@asianatalia3528]

Ahahahah genti mali posta

[@filsanmohamud9774]

SubhanAllah! Allahu akbar! Thats so touching allahumma bareek may Allah swt make u steadfast on the religion ameen❤

[@pndgetsmewetterr]

i got goosebumps from ur comment, allahumma barik🩷

[@muslimah42]

Im an Italian convert who is also a hijabi and this video made me cry like a baby

[@meryemebanani8062]

Masha'Allah sorella, vai avanti❤❤ ce la faremo insha'Allah

[@multiverse-UFO]

😂😂🤣🤣

[@zedeinf]

ti amo sis for the sake of ﷲ

[@alessiacrevena3900]

I am also an Italian convert❤️ big hug to you sister ❤️❤️

[@lovelinesss223]

Mashallah ❤

[@Sofie2734]

Farah, I’ve been struggling lately. I wore (imperfect) hijab for not even a year when I was 17, (I’m 19 now), and I took it off last year. Im a born Muslim but my family doesn’t really practice so Im a bit like a revert. I had to teach myself to pray and all of the other things and I became really discouraged. So coming across this video even now is really really really incredible. I think it’s from Allah swt. You should know that this is an extremely powerful type of dawah and be so so proud of yourself.

[@tuxedo00]

You don't know how much respect I have towards people like you, who had to teach themselves everything in order to get closer to Allah. That's the real "chasing Allah". I was born in a religious supportive family, they always thought me islam in the most beautiful ways possible, alhamdulilah. And I still managed to find a way to struggle with my practice when people like you didn't even have someone to show them the right path, you're a literal superwoman. May Allah double your rewards on everything you do and give you jannatu al Firdaws❤

[@Steve60638]

You and i have a lot in common! Despite being born muslim, my family never encourage the act of a muslim should be. Alhamdulillah at 15, i decided to learn Islam and i felt like a revert. I hope this feelings never end ❤

[@WindaUlhaifa]

Sister Sofie, I hope you stay strong! May Allah make it easy for you❤

[@grrr9009]

Y'all allah bless u girls and show u the right way ❤remember jannah is waiting for us !! Dont risk this life for it thats nothing trust me stay strong 🥺🤍

[@hiwarda]

May Allah swt reward you for your efforts and make it easy on you. Remember, Allah (swt) only tests those whom He loves and loves hearing duaas from. 💕

[@UniMatrix_1]

I'm an Agnostic but in my bout of learning about Islam, I found your channel, and have stuck around since. I love your passion, humility and you're lived perspective on the Islamic faith. Much love ❤

[@speedyboi9885]

I wish you luck, you’ve got the whole Muslim community behind you

[@nejihyuga5008]

@UniMatrix_1 as a Muslim hijabi who has to face islamophobia daily because of my hijab , it’s very nice to see that there are still people like you who are so nice and open hearted thank you ❤

[@weezyyoungking]

May Allah guide you to Islam❤

[@AllahuAkbaruKabirah]

Ask Allah (the creator) to guide you to the truth with a sincere heart then read the Quran. May Allah guide you and us and keep us steadfast on the straight path.

[@xainabshuja4215]

hey, i'm a muslim turned agnostic, and i was hoping you could tell me what you thought of the video? like i'm so interested in having a conversation, is there any way we can get in touch?

[@mae_lynn]

i’m soon to take my shahada (this weekend) and finding ur channel is so helpful. thank u for speaking about palestine as well 🫶

[@adwored]

Mashallah

[@bread_574]

welcome to islam sister ❤

[@Helloidk232]

Welcome to Islam ❤❤

[@sarraba2880]

❤❤❤

[@ayshaabdalla6563]

As-salamu alaykum please let me know if you need anything I’m here for you ❤️ welcome dear

[@coachsamm]

FARAH IM CRYING!!!! I’m a Muslim revert, not a hijabi yet but this is my first Ramadan and this video popped up and I’m ugly crying WITH YOU. Beautiful message beautiful video.

[@flyorchids]

Thank you Farah, I am that girl... I cried with you during this video especially when you said that the hijab felt like a hug from Allah. I feel exactly the same thing when I put in on during prayer. I only wore it once outside and it felt so peaceful, like the comforting embrace every girl needs... my mom told me fine you can be a Muslim, just dont wear the hijab and i know she doesnt get it, i know she also might be scared for me, its so difficult to make them understand the reality and at this point with all that's happening I feel more and more how the goal is not to make them understand. The goal is to stand up in the path of Allah. Stand up with our sweet brothers and sisters and never lose hope. Thank you sister Farah, Allahu Akbar

[@martinepeters9891]

In the original catholic faith the women wore hijaab. I understand the feeling you get from it. I get the very same.

[@fifi6677]

The goal is not to make them understand, you are absolutely on the right track. As revert myself, I have heard the same thing from relatives about the hijab, so please know you are not the only one ❤ Allah will make it easy for you sister, He will never let you down. I am proud of you

[@flyorchids]

@@fifi6677 Thank you so much sister, this means a lot to me❤️❤️

[@LookStarsAreShining]

Allahuakbar, Allah is greater. This means Allah is greater than what people say, and what people think... I won't tell you that you got this you should tell yourself that you got this, you should trust your power and iman sister :)

[@fatimaalaa2659]

May Allah guide your family to the light of his iman & guide us all closer to it

[@Lanoh24]

Hey Farah, I've had a similar experience. My struggle was with praying, not with the hijab. I thought that fasting, wearing the hijab, and giving donations and zakat were enough since I couldn't concentrate while praying. So, I questioned the point of praying if I couldn't focus, no matter how much I tried. It took me several years to learn to pray again and find peace in this practice. When my sister found out I wasn't praying, she told me, "It doesn't matter if it's to your liking or not; prayer is an obligation from Allah, and you need to follow it. Keep praying, even if you're not doing it properly while learning how to do it the right way. Don't quit praying, and make dua to Allah to teach you." I cried while watching your video because I remembered how I used to think and how I used to be. Thank you for sharing. 💖

[@Sarah-with-an-H]

Not Muslim so I’m watching your content to understand your perspective and it sounds like as an adolescent that the hijab brought out the ego which wants to fit in with everyone else and that’s why there’s a struggle. So the act of embracing the hijab is letting go of ego. So that in a way is freeing I’d think.

[@zayneb9264]

This was beautifully expressed.

[@Sarah-with-an-H]

@@zayneb9264 Aww thank you that means a lot

[@artycrafty8691]

That was beautiful ❤️ what you said

[@truthseeker803]

Thanks for the deep perspective. I'll copy it if you don't mind. This goes I guess for everything that brings good feeling and we let it go or do when appropriate for the sake of Allah.

[@momori5785]

i agree with what you said and i just wanna add that to be able to finally properly wear the hijab is ultimately because we want to please our creator and not anyone else

[@noname_9201]

You don’t have to be Muslim to support Palestine you have to be a human 🇵🇸

[@veronice_ronnie]

Did she talk about it?

[@Aminah31]

@@veronice_ronnie yes

[@anikatariq4733]

​@veronice_ronnie she did actually. The video's name is "palestine"

[@andreeas.2362]

did you rejoyce also at the attack of Hamas upon children?

[@LeviAckerman-nz7cp]

@@andreeas.2362no one does stfu stop justifying what israel is doing to palestinian children… what hamas did was horrible what israel did was horrible too and 10 times worse…. 6000 children dead in palestinian they had dreams they weren’t numbers

[@daisylilies2483]

I’m not a hijabi but Inchalah may Allah guide me to wear it one day before I die.. I just want to mention that few years ago I went astray but alhamdulilah Allah guided back, I’m praying again, fasting, trying to do my best when it comes to good deeds and staying away from sins.. I’m far from perfect but honestly the journey isn’t easy especially when you’re the only one practicing in your circle and living in the west but I’m grateful that my relationship with Allah is improving everyday. Thank you Farah for your touching story may Allah bless you 🫶🫶

[@tokachan3562]

May Allah help you , you build another circle and you also can repair your circle so yeah you just need one step and Allah will help you and guide you and gives you power , that how we all started 🤍. You need to consider wearing it cuz we really don't know when we're gonna die

[@Xades]

“May Allah guide me to wear it *one day* before I die”. This isn’t the ideal type of dua to say as you’ll probably wear it on the last day before your death. There are multiple duas that can help you on the App Store called dhikr and dua. May Allah be satisfied with your imaan and deen.

[@daisylilies2483]

Thank you for your support Inchalah ya rab 🫶🤍

[@user-kr4tu1dp6d]

May Allah make it easy for you ❤️

[@truthseeker803]

Funny enough, I was like you. But made a promise to pray daily even if I was in an airport or outside. Because the prayer is a gift from Allah and I started to not care about non Muslims in the west and what might they think about me. And I realized that some even respect when I pray even in the busiest of places. I became like reverts and myself before, more happy with Allah. Salam sister.

[@lostcause8486]

I'm a convert (15 years in January!) And wore hijab since a few months after I converted. We live not far from a place that had a "terrorist attack" so my husband made me take it off. It was the only time he ever forced me to do anything, but he did it for my safety. It was the most depressing time of my life (2 years). One night I went to him and told him I will put my hijab back on, and if he is not okay with that he can divorce me. I was actually legitimately scared he might actually leave, but it was so important to me. He just looked at me and said "okay". I also told him if he ever asks me to take it off again we will divorce. He hasn't said anything ever since and I am so happy to have my hijab. You know, it becomes such a huge part of who you are that it can feel like you are mourning the loss of a loved one.

[@yellowmellow4753]

Family and marriage is important too though. I advise you not to threaten divorce for this and that. Use wisdom.

[@Nazisonyt]

@@yellowmellow4753she understands her husband but her hijab comes first and he can’t force her to take it off .

[@eiwagarciabrito495]

Why do you feel like that? I don’t get it. Do you feel like you don’t have worth unless you wear it?

[@sarahnur7859]

​@@eiwagarciabrito495 why does it even bother you?? it's everyone's own choice..if they feel comfortable w the hijab let them wear it and if they don't its still their choice??

[@Nazisonyt]

@eiwagarciabrito495 ?.. imagine if her were forcing her to cover up ? Some femisnist you are ,women have autonomy over what they were , correct so let her wear hijab it isnt about slef worth

[@user-wv7zk6um5i]

The fact that Hijab alone allowed her to realize how much we all like to do things just to please the people around us, so many of us claim its not for others its for us, we want to be this way because it is what makes us happy, and we all deep down know that it is not true. One way or another we end up doing things that are for others more than they are for us. And hijab literally breaks you out of that mindset.

[@KlaaKaur]

Hi Farah, I am a sikh, but i watch all of your videos. You are a blessing to all of us. Being humans, we all have our destinies attached to us and paths predestined. But love knows no boundaries, and i always pray well for you. May Allah be pleased with you. May Allah ease the pain of those suffering in Palestine ❤

[@douaeelhajoui9898]

Peace be upon you, I read your comment and wanted to ask you what Sikh means if you don't mind me ask !?

[@KlaaKaur]

@@douaeelhajoui9898 of course, I'm a sikh and follow/practice Sikhism as a religion. Just like our dear Farah is a Muslim and practice Islam as a religion/faith. We call Sikhism(English), Sikhi. Sikh means to learn in Punjabi (language). ❤️🤗 thank you for asking

[@douaeelhajoui9898]

@@KlaaKaur no no I know it's a practice but my point here was what do U believe in and do U have a book based on !! Cz unfortunately today lots of people claimed that they believe they are right but when you asked them evidence they don't have any or they have a book that has nothing to do with their claims they just blindly follow their community rather than question about the purpose for their life and what their maker really said ! And yea thanks for your reply and kindness ❤️ I do appreciate it.

[@afram4477]

So much love for our sikh family. I have always respected and loved what your faith and your commy represents

[@KlaaKaur]

@@afram4477 Thank You So Much for you love, May Allah always protect you and your faith. Islam is as beautiful, I love my Muslim brothers and sisters all around the world. Our faith teaches us humility, to be of service to one in need and to always remember our creator with each breath. ❤️

[@rosehaniah]

I’m a mother to 2 teenager girls…..Allahuakbar you make me cry. I can imagine how your mother felt when you told her that you want to wear hijab again….Allahuakbar. I always pray that Allah will always guide my girls. I understand they will face more tests than I do due to the current situation in the world….and they still very young at 11&13 wearing hijab in EU country in the public school….please pray that Allah will always make it easy for them

[@zeybae8220]

May Allah guide your girls and protect them insallah.

[@Thenanaherself]

When this video came up on my feed I was completely stunned because it came at time where I was struggling the most with my hijab. I took it off a year ago and nothing felt right since then. Thank Allah for sending this message to me. Thank you Farah ❤

[@thecatthatateaflyinduoling2513]

All power to you sis❤ May Allah make it easy for all of us😊

[@flavoursoffoodwidfari9393]

Same here..I too needed this video. It came at the right time

[@dnvnty]

why does this feel like a universal experience? I also experienced a life-changing Ramadan during lockdown that brought me back to Islam, and it was like I was reborn as a new muslim trying to re-learn everything about Islam from a better perspective. Thank you for sharing your experience with us, and thank you for shedding light on Palestine Free Palestine until it's backwards 🇵🇸🖤 may Allah ease their pain & suffering 🥺

[@lights143]

Ikr? It was the Ramadan that helped me to always pray in time 😢

[@blueperson1500]

Fr same lockdown Ramadan transformed me. I completely changed as a person like I became so much more aware of the rightness and wrongness of my actions subhanallah!

[@aytenxo]

FR THO!! I was like girl something about that Ramadan just made all us connect to Allah swt :,)

[@89098ss]

Same happening to me right now

[@selcan135]

When I was invited to a mosque to attend a Qur'an reading session for the 1st time in my life, I cried the entire session thinking "What did I do to deserve to feed my soul with Allah's words?"... :(

[@souadachtouk1452]

Wow😭😭😭😭🫂🫂🫂🤍🤍

[@Gojo..satoruu]

🥹❤‍🩹 mashallah

[@selcan135]

@@Gojo..satoruu thank you 🤍 May Allah be pleased with you 🌹

[@ktenologist.]

omg girl u made me cry 😢

[@imxni16]

37: 53

[@annaforjesus]

You are so inspiring!!! Thank you so much. I am a Dutch girl - I am the only Muslim in my neighbourhood and in my family. Wearing the hijab properly for Allah is my goal but there is also so much fear. One day I’ll go out and wear it all good and the next day I get so scared what people might think. I pray for courage and daily motivation to keep going. I reverted just less than a month ago but Allah has been in my life for a long time. I want to stay on the straight path with Him and for Him to never let me go. Blessings and peace upon you, assalamualaykum 💓

[@kimmmidijk]

Same, ook 🇳🇱

[@truthseeker803]

Salam Alikom sister. As a born Muslim having the privilege to read Quran and seeing reverts and their struggles actually inspires me, specially when you guys in a western materialistic society. I can give you a tip. I visited Netherlands. Just look at how many Moroccan women wearing it and facing sometimes prejudice and still doing it for Allah and for themselves despite everything. You as a white person could help the other sisters normalizing it for the other non white sisters. I was in Poland and was happy to see Christian nuns covering their hair and no one was bothering them. So don't worry sister.. and take step by step, what more important now is the 5 daily prayers and helping other people and learning about Allah and the learn the morals of the prophet and his companions and the rest of the prophet like Jesus.

[@bobabobatea]

Sister leaving what Allah has made compulsory like praying, wearing hijab and other things that are only done for Allah is shirk just because of what people might think. It's putting people's thoughts over Allah's commands

[@ummisohayb9661]

​@@kimmmidijkI m from Germany wearing niqab got insulted attacked speated thrown out of bank and so. On but my flex is that for all this Allah is going 2 b giving us the paradise inshaallah and knowing how they ll b punished because of what they did to m on yawm Al qiyama and that that's maybe why Allah will let m taste the taste of paradise it's all worth it. And don't forget what we are facing nowadays comparing what asya women of Pharao has faced or the combing woman of Pharaos daughter or Sahaba and sahabiyat May Allah guide u all at the right path give u Iman and open the doors of Jannah for u Amin

[@razinamarjan1110]

Inshallah may Allah make it easier for you and the rest our sisters to get the courage and strength to adorn the hijab. Alhamdulillah I was raised surrounded by Muslims all around me and went to an Allah girls Islamic school too... So I understand also, that it must be hard when theres a few or no hijabis to connect with 💛💛

[@user-kg1eb7lr2e]

As an orthodox Christian I am not sure if it is ok and if it is my place to comment under this video but you really warmed my heart and I got really emotional because that's exactly how I started believing in God again. And I swear I know that my angels are always around and I feel that everyday and I feel so blessed. I also feel blessed for your videos,thank you so much for warming my heart and reminding me that love exists ❤

[@dearkorina3157]

Anyone with a good heart is welcome 😊 we want peace with those who love God.

[@truthseeker803]

God is one. So anyone who worship him and remembers him is welcome to even befriend Muslims. Sadly, the media portrays muslim in a bad way. But Farah is a good example of a good Muslim who don't judge others.

[@giessel]

I am newly Orthodox. This resonates with me. I love this Woman. I so admire her devotion to God, humility and strength to practice modesty and speak truth. God bless anyone who is reading this. ☦️

[@ummisohayb9661]

I was an orthodox Christian too before embracing Islam

[@userofyoutube123]

You are welcome sister/brother. We can really have good friendship with also non muslims and they can always tell what they think.

[@heyitzasli]

Farah, i have wanted to wear hijab for as long as i can remember. This story truly touched my heart and only made me realise how much more i want to wear it. InshaAllah in the near future i will.

[@AishaBatool-fe6qo]

When you look in mirror maybe you would not find your as beautiful as you can be without hijab but at that time remember that whom you want to please yourself, others or your Lord and I believe your answer will be MY LORD .....thinking this will strengthen you in a way nothing can...the idea of your creator loving you is so beautiful that nothing can beat it.... Hopefully this will help you a little bit even if it is 0.1%❤

[@Roe531]

InshAllah :) May Allah guide you and give you the strength

[@aaishamohamed7335]

Honestly there is no ‘near future’. You won’t put it on, trust me and if you really want to, start right now and don’t falter. If you don’t feel it, force it. Your discomfort isn’t worth disobeying Allah S.W.T. Inshallah, you’ll stay strong, making dua for you over here 💞

[@jenniferbarri01]

Thank you for your amazing Islamic content. I’m a revert of about 2 weeks and it feels like a lifetime already (it’s an expression, not meant to be taken literally) just from the tests and challenges especially with the hijab and what’s going on in Palestine… but I know in my heart Islam is the truth. Allahs tests are a blessing, and I pray our ummah stays strong and continues to grow stronger. Love you sister and all our brothers and sisters around the world. It’s insane how I don’t have any Muslim friends yet but already feel a sense of community anyway inshallah. Looking forward to your next video!

[@itslouka850]

Hey do you want to have muslim friends ? or are u not that social i just thought i can suggest you some discord servers

[@jenniferbarri01]

@@itslouka850 I do want Muslim friends, thank you :-)

[@FS-008]

Welcome to Islam Jennifer 🤍 I’d be happy to be your new Muslim friend 😌

[@minttea7]

I'm Muslim from Russia. My father nationally is Muslim, and stepmother is converted. You know, my parents never said me that I have to wear hidjab, but I had to wear modesty(skirts's length is longer than knee) Well, some day I start pray. It was 2 years ago after my first Ramadan. Also previous years before my Ramadan was struggling... sorry for English.... And I think it was depression. I understand that my parents was divorced, I just can't even imagine and understand this fact so many years...and after that my teenager phase, emotional struggles, I feel so bad after school, my friends weren't true friends, I din't do my homework ect.... Sorry, I had bad thoughts. I suffer every day with poker face. I start to study about psychology, some things hurt me (my relationship with parents), but also I found on KZbin islamic video. And they were so touched. After years I'm understand that my happiness isn't have a lot of friends (I finished school, and only two person chat with me, lol), not to be as beautiful as it is in Russian standard, not to be ideal (procrastination~~~). I find meaning of this life in Allah

[@lallal7528]

Аллаху Акбар сестра!

[@roastedmind5640]

So proud of you, sister ! Keep going ! Allah is always with us.

[@AishaBatool-fe6qo]

Hope you find your happiness....May Allah give you a peaceful life ahead!

[@samiaahmed5118]

الله اكبر❤

[@souadachtouk1452]

Hmdillah ❤️

[@beth4389]

when you said you're going to be harsh I thought you're going to be judgmental but girl this is so sincere and soft and beautiful. thank you so much for being transparent

[@mediaintegrationservices419]

Hey Farah, I am white male who is relatively new To Islam and hearing you talk about your experience truly makes feel like I have chosen the right path after losing some very important people in my life. The dedication Muslims show toward the word of Allah in practice on a daily basis is truly awesome inspiring. I hope I can show my kids the beauty of Islam and inspire my daughter to embrace the hijab and feel strong and beautiful wearing it. I have introduced it to her at seven and she likes to wear it on occasion, but Masha Allah she embrace it full time.

[@fatimad470]

May Allah bless you Farah and bless your mom

[@abidearifi4019]

This video was the last push I needed to put the hijab on😌

[@0TabtabBoo]

I want to wear the hijab and I needed a little push i saw your comment and that makes me feel that am not alone inshaAllah i will wear it very soon

[@lunaamaya_]

@@0TabtabBooi’m also planning to wear hijab in a few days offically, dw you’re not alone in this 🤍 Inshallah, it gets easier for us

[@sahrauyar3985]

may Allah make it easier for you Insha'Allah

[@0TabtabBoo]

@@sahrauyar3985 bark Allah fek I put on the hijab yesterday I am not used to it yet but inshAllah with the time i will

[@sahrauyar3985]

@@0TabtabBoo May Allah make it easier for you too🤲🏼 i Will pray for Allah to make it easier for you and for me to wear it soon Insha’Allah

[@moonjoon4582]

I've been struggling with the question if I should start wearing the hijab for a while now. Can't believe how right the timing was with this podcast, I'm literally crying with you. Your words touched me Farah. They reminded me of my journey. The ups and downs. This feels like Allah hasn't forgotten about me either and I can't begin to describe how beautiful this feeling is. May Allah be pleased with you. May he reward you for softening and reaching girls that have been struggling with the hijab. Thank you Farah. ❤️

[@sophiaalvi992]

Bro i feel the exact same subhanallah. I’m also really struggling with the idea but I’ve been feeling this internal urge and I really can’t fight it anymore. Inshallah i think it’ll be a tough journey but I feel like with everything going on, it doesn’t feel like I have time to wait around and think about it anymore ygm? Subhanallah i also feel like this video was a sign for me. I remember seeing the thumbnail a couple weeks back and I essentially ignored it because I could tell I’ve been feeling so intense about this issue that watching something about the hijab would probably sway me - but that was such a scary prospect. It’s hard to face something like this where you know it’s right but it’s SO hard 😭. I feel like that continuous push, however, is Allah swt as you said. He hasn’t given up on us. Good luck with everything girl and inshallah we’ll have the strength to start on the right path

[@Kuschiwawa00]

do it for HIM 🩷

[@toudakebbou6183]

Listening to you was like sitting with a close friend who loves me. Allahumma barik. I still dont wear Hijab. May allah guide us all. Jazaki Allah khir for your open heart videos ❤

[@miraculousfan1547]

I'm an 11th grader right now and listening to this literally brought tears to my eyes. This is the first year I finally felt ready to wear my hjiab to school and public places. I was so nervous about the backlash I'd get from wearing it and I've slowly felt more and more comfortable wearing my hjiab everyday. I'm still learning everyday and trying new ways to wear and trying everyday to put up a proud face and know that Allah SWT would be proud that I'm finally ready to begin my hjiab journey. Hearing your story helps and let's me know that I'm not alone and not the only person who's gone throught an emotional journey. Honestly thank you from the bottom of my heart bc this truly let's me know I can do it and I can love who I am looking in the mirror💞✨️

[@Coffeesunsets]

May Allah reward you and give you strength and help you, along with the rest of us muslim girls! 🩷 it’s not easy living in current societies and overcoming certain things… I hope In sha Allah we are all reunited in Jannah :’) even if we may never see each other in this temporary world. Then we can laugh off the struggles we had and in sha Allah see what Allah was preparing for us in Jannah all along.

[@miraculousfan1547]

@@Coffeesunsets In sha Allah may we see each other someday sister 🙏🏽I'd honestly love to me able meet you one day and talk out the struggles!

[@user-kr4tu1dp6d]

May Allah make it easy for you ❤❤

[@jihenelamti2097]

virtual hug.. I felt like I was sitting with a best friend that I never had, I was crying with you, seeing my past through your journey. Thank you for sharing this and being honest about it. I feel so proud to see girls like you. May Allah protect you and Protect Palastine

[@talibah_fatima]

This could be possibly my first comment on KZbin after 13 years of using it. I couldn't resist myself but say what I felt watching you express your heart out 😭 I'm the person who is bad at hugs even worst at verbally saying 'I love you', but Subhanallah I kept feeling like saying this to you again and again and hug you and cry together ❤ It blows my mind to know how another sister across the world was going through similar pain (I was scared to fall asleep even by mistake) and later experiencing the most spiritual feeling on earth around the same time 2020 Lockdown Ramadan! Hit the lowest point of my iman (giving up on life itself astaghfirullah) My heart... I could feel the blackened hardened heart 😭 Allah took me away from all my blood relative and all friends just so that I find Him, see Him only left by my side... none but Him ❤ After a period of seclusion within my small family home, the best thing to date happened to me!! Can't describe in words I relate to you soo much when you say 'I miss that feeling' I too wish I could have captured it in frame... only if I knew it was not going to last forever(The fact that Iman fluctuates was a recent knowledge to me) Subhanallah thaaaat feeling when you KNOW you are loved by Allah the Almighty ❤❤ Everything else sets apart even your dearest parents Your video is a proof for me about the vastness of Allah's Mercy... His Love. Here I was thinking 2020 Ramadan was my special year. It felt like Allah was showering His Mercy on me alone sorry idk how to express it right way 😅 I pray you stay steadfast in your deen and hopefully I can better observe the hijab, in a way Allah is pleased... not what hijab style is trending! What a day the algorithm suggested me your video I seriously needed this recheck 😅 Jazak Allah Khair ❤

[@bhhz0]

Mashallah ❤

[@ray___2002]

May Allah bless you sister ❤ and keep u steadfast on deen😊 May all of us get to reunite in Jannah 🥰🥹💗

[@nehalyt5150]

Love you for the sake of Allah sister ❤

[@radiumlyte]

my dear sister in Islam, I feel the same way you do - it is heartbreaking to read the news about what Palestine is going through. But true justice is with Allah. And in the Quran it says "none will be wronged." Imagine Jannah for the Palestinians and zaqqum for those who hurt them.

[@fatimaaah936]

Farah your story is uplifting.. i want to share my struggle with Hijab ...so i am from Pakistan... So one of my closest friend is getting nikkahfied tomorrow ma sha Allahhh tabarakAllah... But the thing that is bothering me is that people from her in laws(btw her in laws and her to be husband are religious and very kind ) became interested in her in one function where she was without hijab ( although she wears hijab when outside) so I am trying to shake this thought off my head .. that if I want to get married i too have to look pretty like her without hijab ..... My distant family members also pressurise me to take it off ..but i have stick to Hijab always... I am struggling for marriage .. i am also short ... 😂so u can imagine i face double taunts .. one for being a hijabi and other for being short... So i am praying to Allah to give me strength and reward me with righteous companion and in laws...which would make it so much easy for me to live hijab life ... Ameen Farah! If u are reading my story kindly share a few comforting words

[@editorn1806]

You know Farah, despite the fact you said you weren't going to be nice, it still felt like you were being kind and your genuine feelings shone out far clearer and brighter. If anything you were welcoming and nothing about this felt like you were scaring us from the hijab or anything of the sort. I thank you from the bottom of my heart sincerely. jazak allah khair and may allah grant us all hidaya.

[@benn5389]

The way you wanted people to look at you back then, is the way i’ve been looking at you NOW with your hijab ❤️ you amaze me in many ways & You inspire me💘💘💘

[@smartyfun2014]

May Allah bless you, my dear. Your story made me cry a lot and be happy at the same time. I have a slightly similar story about my hijab. I didn't start wearing it as young as you, I started at 16 years old. I remember wearing it with a group of 4 friends as a pact after discussing life at another friend's dad's funeral. But as soon as two of us took it off, I started doubting myself; it was summer and hot, and one of the friends that took it off encouraged me (not to blame her, but my Iman wasn't that strong). So I took it off. It was the evening, so I didn't go to school without it, Alhamdulillah, just around our neighborhood. I don't recall how I felt, but when my big sister saw me, she was mad. My mother is dead (may Allah bless her soul), so she was like a mother to me. She said I never pressured you to wear it, but I couldn't condemn you for taking it off. That night, I couldn't sleep, I had nightmares, and I think it was a sign from Allah. The next morning, I put it back on and never took it off, Alhamdulillah. I am 39 years old, and believe me, it gets better. It's a journey, your clothes get more modest as you get older. Keep asking Allah for guidance, and he will always be by your side. All the love for you, dear Farah. Blessed Friday

[@munaaliii]

🫂🫂🫂

[@dropyourcroissant830]

This is so beautiful thank you so much for sharing💓

[@angien.6236]

This topic about modesty resonates with me as a Christian. I can't relate exactly since we are talking about the hijab here, but the Bible states that our bodies are a temple, so we should honor it. Even though I don't wear hijabs, this video hit me as it deals with the struggle of going against what's popular in society and giving up on what others think to live more wholly for God.

[@roseiyera]

I feel the same, modesty is definitly something that I have been trying to pick up but also struggling with. It's like I'll wear crop tops because I think they look cute but then feel extremely self conscious and uncomfortable when I do.

[@ax94]

Farah you don’t know how much I relate to the feelings you went through. Not being able to sleep, Feeling depressed, Feeling like my heart was dead, and It all changed in one Ramadan when I had The feeling to actually practice my deen, I was so ashamed of myself before and I felt like I can’t face Allah. Now my mindset has changed. From time to time I think about how I was and how I am now and feel the urge to thank Allah . AlhamduliAllah "عسى أن يهدين ربي لأقرب من هذا رشدا" احبك فالله يا اختي فرح ♥️

[@fifiines4239]

I think all arab girls went through this phase, because most of us wore it at adolescence, you know, hormones and puberty and being easily influenced, it was hard to wear it right from the first time, it was hard to let go of the "normal" trendy cool clothes and switch to an outfit that covers our body fully, as women it's natural to wanna show off our beauty, our body and our sense of fashion,so we have to control this urge, may Allah swt guide us all into tawbah and guide us into wearing the hijab properly for it is an obligation for all Muslim women. thank you for sharing this farah

[@amnazar9348]

not just arab girls tho, Muslims in general

[@beomgyubestboi26]

Tbh I don't think it's necessary to say that "everyone" had this phase it's just not an argument

[@Amila-ym7ny]

As a Bosnian that started wearing it at the ripe age of 26 lol (so this year for me) I can see why it would be difficult for teenage girls and young adults. I had the free range to wear generally whatever I wanted despite my family being "Muslim." I was able to experiment with fashion and express myself so I am thankful for that in a sense, but I don't think I've lost that expression with the hijab either and if anything I feel like the hijab adds to my self expression at least as someone living in the US. I am white and LOOK white and no one would assume I'm Muslim from looking at me and that's 1 reason I started wearing it. I wanted to LOOK muslim because it's the most important thing about me. If I stopped wearing the hijab now I would just blend right in and I think my iman would suffer bc I would lose the reminder that I'm Muslim (idk if this makes sense)

[@MuslimtoIslam_]

@@Amila-ym7nyIt makes complete sense. Alhamdulillah, I’m from a family who’s implemented hijab from a young age and alhamdulillah, I’m surrounded by many Somali Muslims at school. Despite all that, I want to become a Niqabi because I feel like it’d be a big reminder to me for my deen which would make me watch what I say and do.

[@capricon4941]

Alhamdullilah I started to wear my hijab way before I hit my puberty. All thanks to my Mama, she used to advice me to wear hijab when I was around 9 n then later on it was very easy for me to carry my hijab. May Allah SWT bless us all ❤️🇵🇰

[@Kitchenasmr3]

This video made it so easy for me to continue my hijab which I was having doubts about, lately. This helped me to reassure my priorities to myself.

[@aafiyaansari4999]

I can't express in words what I felt after watching this 🥺

[@HAppytobeHer]

I reverted 5 months ago and started immediately wearing hijab and abaya. Recently I wore modest clothes that wasn’t abaya I felt naked- while wearing modest pants 😅 Alhamdulilah for my change of heart ❤

[@FoodLover-xm6eb]

I'm a Muslim man and watching you gives me hope for our sister out there, God bless u all

[@fishbarbeque8540]

Yes, mashallah.

[@fatin9880]

god مو اسم ل الله

[@dampidat._.3888]

​@@fatin9880There is no God but Allah :) so saying God means Allah ofc, if ur a muslim that is

[@fatin9880]

@@dampidat._.3888 نعرف ٩٩ اسمه ل الله "god" مو واحد منهم

[@SalemPhiladelphia]

@@fatin9880it’s a translation. الي كتبه هو مترجم ل اسم الله

[@MMMM-ui3ct]

Thank you for supporting Palestine 🙏🏽

[@someoneyoumayormaynotknow3924]

Shes muslim no need to thank. We are alm one ummah

[@fairyondnd]

​@@someoneyoumayormaynotknow3924you Dont need to be Muslim to support Palestine you need to be human💞

[@luohuashijie]

From the river to the sea, Palestine will be free 🇨🇳🤝🇵🇸

[@SalemPhiladelphia]

Isn’t she Palestinian?

[@Litburningasshole]

@@SalemPhiladelphiai think shes saudi

[@sunshineemma3048]

As a non hijabi i have so much love for hijabis niqabis etc.. they are the most gorgeous walking thing on earth i admire them sm i cannot wait for my hijabi journey

[@Tqn1shaaa.x]

I’ve honestly struggled with Hijab a lot. I’ve taken it off twice because I felt like I wasn’t ready enough but I know it’s mandatory. I’ve been trying my best to get on Deen & I’m happy with how my progress is going but I’ve been really desperate to try the hijab again but I feel kind of stuck. Inshallah soon enough I start wearing it again & I can honestly relate with this video a lot.

[@user-wk4uq5bi4n]

People who spew bs about "Muslim women oppressed b hijab" which is very famous narrative in India...have no idea how deeply we feel about it. May Allah bless you

[@SalemPhiladelphia]

What about the countless women who are r*ped, assaulted, harmed in India? How come they don’t focus on that narrative? Isn’t that oppression? You should reply with that

[@dbuc4671]

Iranian women feel very differently. What do you say to the families of Mahsa Amini, Armita Gervand, and all the hundreds of other Iranian women and men who have been arrested, detained, tortured and or killed in Iran for "disobeying" the inhumane so-called "mandatory hijab law"? of course u won't say anything about that. because u think Allah's word is the "bEsT".

[@SalemPhiladelphia]

@@dbuc4671 where are you from

[@dbuc4671]

@@SalemPhiladelphia it does not matter where im from or what culture i belong to. i dont have to identify as a specific _anything_ to know that murdering innocent people is wrong. i just have to be human. dont pro palestine supporters say that too? _"you dont have to be arab/muslim to support palestine, you just have to be human"_ like........the literal _irony_ of that. iran stands with and supports the millions of palestinians who are being killed, and yet _also_ supports the killing of its _own_ people who have different beliefs than the regime. that just exposes how double faced islam is. the fact is, its uncivilized and barbaric and regressive to kill anyone just because they refuse to follow a religion. muslims who think they are being "good" muslims by killing women for "cOMmiTtInG🤡sInS" are hypocrites. i wont go on because i could go on all day about why its wrong, but it is wrong, and thats a forever fact.

[@bluebeaver0]

@@dbuc4671 ok? those people do not define our religion.

[@Buthyful]

Taking off hijab doesnt make the lady Non muslim, it makes her a sinner, and we all are sinners, some more than others. Never give up on repenting, we all have our struggle and we just need to try our best.. May Allah help all of us

[@ReasonAboveEverything]

"Hijab is a personal choice, but you are a sinner If you take it of".

[@Buthyful]

yes, not all personal choices are correct by definition :) Prisons are full of people who executed their 'personal choices'@@ReasonAboveEverything

[@AftermathNihil]

Jazakeellah for sharing your story. I also cried during this. I grew up muslim but never really cared about it. I also went through a phase where I took off my hijab and stayed that way even in adulthood. Subhanallah. I always ignored my family, especially my mother but she never pressured me and always made dua for me. I recently started practicing Islam and the wearing hijab and my mother passed away 2 years ago in the pandemic. She never got to see me in the state I am in now. InshaAllah one day we'll meet in Jannah and she will know her duas were accepted. Aameen.

[@user-cp4qu3nb1v]

ameen

[@safinabakridi6385]

Ameen

[@carolitoffana]

I deleted my TikTok long ago but I truly missed you, I thought about you a couple days ago and today your video showed up! I'm not Muslim but I love your content and personality! ♥ free 🇵🇸

[@7asssonny821]

this video is just so insightfull for me as a man, knowing what some women go through in there journey to finding Allah.

[@Sallyat2002]

You can’t imagine how much I needed to hear every word, that’s it, I am wearing a hijab in a couple of weeks when I buy some scarves and abayas. Thank you so much for sharing this. ❤❤❤

[@dearkorina3157]

Stay strong sister ❤ focus on your prayers and insh'Allah Allah swt will make it easy for you.

[@dropyourcroissant830]

Me too insha’Allah!! Lets keep each other updated 🫶

[@EmpressAfiaX]

Me too InshaAllah, lets hope it goes incredibly well and easy sisters!

[@Sallyat2002]

@@dearkorina3157 @dropyourcroissant830 @empressafiax I FINALLY WORE IT! 🥹

[@musicenthusiast96]

ive always been struggling and i felt like this video reached out to me at the right time.. it's hard to stay strong when there's so many people, influences, boys LOL involved and honestly nobody rly cares until you make it important for yourself. so thank you so much for this video... cried watching this

[@rachelelisabeth3487]

Hi Farah! I recently reverted and I've been slowly creating more modest outfits but it's been hard! I never thought I would have to replace my whole wardrobe, but slowly slowly, that's what is occurring. I have never felt more comfortable and secure in who I am though, and that is a blessing of Allah. It is so hard to be the only one in hijab, but it is worth it.

[@darcy11.]

you made me cry so hard and i wish i can be like this one day i have never wore hijab before i dont think i am ready but actually i know that i have to wear it and that makes me feel uncomfortable too but i love you my muslim sister

[@faridakhan9186]

Every time you talk about a topic and your experiences I feel like your telling my story. It’s like we have been through the exact same experiences. Trust me your not the only one and I just want to say I’m so proud of you for improving yourself and working hard to make yourself what Allah wants you to be. Love you ukhti🤍

[@oolcc]

this was so emotional❤️ i often struggle with my hijab, and its always at its highest when i dont chase the dunya and its lowest when i try to please ppl and low selfesteem. some ppl shame hijabis that don't wear it perfectly, or remove it, or that you need to be perfect to wear it... but your video is what we need! it resonated with my heart 100% i could feel the raw feelings we go through and things we don't want to admit on this journey... allahuma a3ina a thikrika w shukrika w husn ibadatek!!

[@qandeela]

Thank you for sharing your story Farah, idk why but I pictured you being perfect from the very start but after listening to this story I felt like I can get better too because look at you now so many people look up to you but it wasn't like that from the get-go. It's okay to get swayed away for a while but the key is to never stop trying

[@suzankadri729]

Thank you for your videos!!! Sending hugs and love!!! 🫂🫶❤️

[@daenerystargaryen889]

May Allah SWT help our brothers and sisters in Palestine. We have to keep them in our prayers. I have been waiting so long for this Video THANK YOU

[@sallyhansen2993]

Subhanallah I randomly remembered a close childhood friend of mine and looked her up on the internet. She wasn’t wearing hijab anymore and I started feeling frustrated and upset, asking myself “why would she do that. Is because she wants to fit in society? Is hijab a joke?”. So along with these harsh thoughts, I began watching videos of muslims criticizing others and exposing kind of videos. It was like 1 AM and I am like I need to go to bed but I just genuinely could not. The bed was hot, my mind was swirling and I felt uneasy in my heart. I stumbled upon this video and subhanallah. Wallahi I cried thinking of the mercy of allah and your reminder of it. I thought of the hadith where allah comes running to his servant. I thought of my old friend and I also cried for her. Perhaps Allah kept me awake so that I could make duaa for her, so that is what I did. May allah have mercy on us all and make us constantly remember him Ameen. I grow and I just keep learning about my faith especially this past Ramadan and the crisis in Palestine. Islam is a mercy for the people and most importantly allah is a mercy. It is a relief from the dunya, subhanallah l

[@material_vision]

Farah, thank you so much. This was profound to watch and cry along with.. you are such an incredible story teller, I needed to hear this story.

[@reema811]

Same here. My hijab in college was scandalous. A good inch of hair showing in the front, short skirts and tight clothes and god awful lot of makeup. When some grils would point out that i am showing too much hair for a hijabi, i would answer that I am not hijabi, and i was so close to taking if off, but I live in a religious country and although alot of girls were taking it off, the general society did not approve. So i kept wearing it, and with time passing i stated believing in its nessecity more and more, i started to wear less makeup, wear a cap so my whole hair was covered. And with covid and masks i let go of makeup entirely, and i actually wished i would never take off the mask because i had so much insecurity about my complexion without makeup and i do hear alot of remarks about my looks, my pale yellowish color. But i remind myself that it is for the sake of Allah. May Allah guide us to be better muslims every day. My biggest regret is that during that time i visited the states and spewed so much negativity about hijab and Islam among the americans i talked to. I wish i can get back and tell them that i was just a rebellious stupid teenager then, and i don't believe that anymore.

[@aaishamohamed7335]

Just a note, the yellowish complexion is probably due to low iron level. I’d recommend getting that tested so it doesn’t affect you much when ur gets really bad

[@reema811]

@@aaishamohamed7335 thank you for caring enough to comment ❤️ thankfully my health is excellent and i have tested recently, but that's just how my skin is, alhamduliAllah

[@Local_y_Vocal]

I’m a new Muslim and this inspired me to wear hijab better. ❤

[@nightthinker4440]

I cried along with you.. Such a beautiful video, I really needed that right now. I think there are a lot of sisters out there who may also need a video exactly like this. I mean there are dozens of videos about the hijab that are rather neutral or with the rational reasons out there or that are softly motivating or give tips how to slowly come close to the hijab and whatever, idk just all kinds of videos. But I've never watched a video like this, that highlights the emotional aspect to it and how it can impact one. Just beautiful, every story is unique and so is every hijab story and I really enjoyed listening to yours. I think it would have motivated me in a whole other kind of way a year ago when I started really thinking about wearing the hijab. I hope it helps other sisters out there, who are struggling in any kind of way. Even though I now am really at peace with my hijab alhamdulillah, I still needed the video somehow. It felt even more than your other videos like sitting with a friend, and just deep-talking with them. I wish you all the best Farah, may Allah (swt) bless you for your inspirational content. And may Allah (swt) bless the oppressed everywhere in the world, especially right now in Palestine, who are suffering by the unjust and oppressors, and may Allahs (swt) mercy be upon them, and may he give them justice in the here and the hereafter.🤲🏼❤

[@aizasiddique9751]

Your videos feel like a hug and they are the continuous motivation for me to get better 💓

[@juderivera6625]

Thank you Farah. I reverted a few months ago and I haven’t started wearing it…but, when I put it on, it’s just as you describe; like a warm hug. I hope to be strong enough to wear it full time soon, inshallah.

[@ashreefacp9121]

The glow that came to her face when she said about Ramadan❤🥺

[@maabsalah6050]

Thank you so much Farah. You have no idea how much this video touched my soul!

[@Nothingngngngnngngn]

I listen to your podcast at school since I quit music, it has really helped

[@sumaiyarameez]

I needed this. You really made me cry. I do wear hijab but there’s always room for improvement especially in the mindset. Jazakallah.

[@inetalukosius566]

You are so incredible, authentic and COOL, Farah ❤ I follow you on TT for few years and so happy to find your KZbin channel where I can listen to your longer stories. You are so beautiful in all the ways. Thank you ❤❤❤❤❤

[@Me-uw3vb]

Your experience is such a good reminder! Jazaki allah for sharing it with all of us ♥

[@justarandomhuman6387]

Thank you for opening up and being vulnerable in front of us farah 🥺💕 your story is so inspiring and you made me cry wallah 💖 thank you so much for this 👍

[@AchievewithA]

I’m a revert, Alhamdulillah. I put it on when I first took shahada and took it off over time. The restlessness is real! When I understood that we wear it for Allah swt, it not called for me to wear it, I am so at peace within it. It brings me so much joy and it truly does bring us closer to Allah when we focus on pleasing Him.

[@syhmponia]

So you wore a hijab and then you took it off and started wearing it again? I wore the hijab for 4 years because my family forced me to wear it. 8 months ago I took it off. Now I feel a little bit regretful. Actually I understand its importance, but I don't have the courage to start wearing it again. Because I worry too much about what people think about me. I mean people will say "Is this girl really wearing a hijab? 😂I saw her with her hair and now she has put it back on" And when I took it off my friends congratulated me. Because at that time I wasn't really doing it on my own will. They knew how happy I was, so it will be very strange to wear a headscarf again😕 I'm undecided.

[@zee4277]

​@@syhmponia subhanallah all the reasons you've given for being scared to put the hijab on again, do you think they'll matter to you in 5-10 years time? life will move on and your friends will go in different paths and this moment of what they think about you will not even matter. what will matter is whether you decided you were going to put on the hijab or not from what you've explained, it seems you have a bad relationship with modesty already, being forced to wear it. but it's your opportunity to rewrite your past experiences and chose to wear it for yourself if it's difficult, learn about allah and his attributes like farah says. understand the one you're doing this for and it'll get a lot easier for you to do it inshallah. may allah make it easy for you

[@syhmponia]

@@zee4277 Thank you for your comment. There are several reasons why I don't want to wear a hijab. The biggest one is that I don't feel beautiful in a hijab and I don't have a good history with hijab. I wish my parents hadn't forced me to wear it, so whenever I wear the hijab, I always think of my past experiences. Another reason is people's prejudices and negative opinions towards women who wear the hijab. I see a lot of examples of this around me, people don't care about the opinions of women who wear the hijab, or they look down on them, and that makes me feel bad. Right now I don't feel ready to wear the hijab. As you said, I will try to understand more the importance of it. I will try not to think too much about the past. I will try to pray more and when I am ready I will wear the hijab again. I will not care what people think.I hope I can do it.💫

[@judybeik1083]

Thank you for sharing your story and reminding us what the point of hijab is. I am one of those girls who was on the fence, wore it and took it off years ago, and now I’m convinced. Alhamdulillah.

[@fatimaabdulrahman4278]

Thank you جزاكي الله خيراً This was so peacefull to hear

[@armeeen]

Assalamualaikum Farah. This is my favourite video that you've ever done. I recently started wearing the hijab, and if there was any hint of doubt or regret of making this decision in my heart, it has completely vanished. Hearing your hijab story right after i've started my hijab journey is so inspirational for me. When i tried the hijab for the first time and saw myself with hijab in the mirror, i also got emotional just the way you did, that part of your story was so relatable for me. It also made me wonder why i never wore the hijab before. Your previous videos have also been a huge factor in making me want to start hijab and also just being closer to Allah and Islam in general. They have motivated me to prioritise Allah and Islam over this dunya. I hope you continue making these types of Islamic videos, you don't realise how motivating and comforting they are. May Allah guide all us Muslim sisters to wear the hijab properly and make it easier for us to understand and follow His Deen, and May you be blessed immensely in this life and the next Farah. JazakAllah for these beautiful videos ♥️

[@syhmponia]

Our story is not the same but it is similar. I can't tell you for a long time, when I was 11 years old I wore the headscarf under pressure from my family. I didn't want to do it but my mother was scaring me." If you don't wear the headscarf, I won't send you to school, I will cut your hair short like a boy," she told me. So I had to do it, I hated it so much. When I was 15 years old I made friends with disrespectful, people who were not Muslims. I was very lonely and I had big problems with my family. So I tried to keep up with them. It didn't bother me because I started to think like them. I was no longer a Muslim. I lost all my faith. It turned into hatred. The fights with my family became more and more. I disrespected and made fun of their faith. I hated religious people. These throughts are not my own. I was influenced by my friends. 8 months ago, my parents allowed me to take off my headscarf. I was so relieved, I didn't feel ugly anymore, I thought the hijab was about patriarchy and I didn't wear it anymore. Recently, I started to study Islam a bit more, thanks to Palestine. And I came back to my faith, but it started to make me feel very bad. I was ashamed of what I had done, ashamed of God, like you. I remember what I said to my parents, how I made fun of their religion. Yes, my parents were wrong, but I went too far. Now I pray more, I pray more.I regret what I did. I am even ashamed to pray in front of my family. Taking off the headscarf does not make me as happy as before. Maybe I will wear it again. This is gonna be hard. Everyone got used to me without a headscarf. They congratulated me for doing it and they officially started to like me more. I will try not to care about their opinions. And, most importantly for me, I don't talk to my Islamaphobic group of friends anymore. İf I start wearing a headscarf now, they will make fun of me.

[@aleezabatool8141]

Thankyouu so muchh I needed thiss May Allah make this life and the hereafter easy for you❤️❤️❤️

[@reem.nk2]

That video really hit my heart 🥹 thank you for your honesty and share your story , Big love to you Farah 🤍

[@khadijahbilal5087]

This is the most heartfelt, beautiful, and sincere video I have ever seen As a 20 something hijabi myself I can relate to it beyond words May Allah bless you this is honestly unreal the effect it had on me Love you for it

[@sadeemasali1751]

Alhamdullah I've never struggled with my hijab, being born and raised in Muslim country where wearing the hijab is the norm definitely helped I'd say, so I thought to myself 'this won't make me cry' but just like many of the people in the comments, I did. I think that finding Allah is truly a life altering journey that not many are blessed to experience. You have reminded us of our individual stories with Allah, our moments of revelation. I am so so proud of you Farah, and I truly hope that all Muslims and non-Muslims alike find their way back to Allah.

[@lucy8280]

Wooooow ✨🌹 Just so raw and beautiful hijab story. Recognise many parts of it. Thank you so much for this video 🙏🏽✨🌺

[@Urmom-ix1ux]

U do not know how much I needed this farah. Thank you so much.

[@TThh32]

Farah, I just wanted to clean the kitchen while listening to your video and now I’m watering the counter with tears. Thank you for your honesty. When I listen to you I always feel like I’m connected to someone who is like me. Jazakallahu kheiran

[@naseeralatif7045]

There is so much barakah in your page, May Allah bless you

[@1isaja]

I was tryna find somthing to listen to while i journal, and girl u literally changed my life! Especially ur moms word gosh thats so smart yet so real

[@bilquisahmed815]

Assalamualikum sister Farah. Jazakallah for this video. I too felt closer to my Imaan in that lockdown ramadan. May Allah grant you and your family janat til firdous al ala.

[@salmamohamed3962]

Farah this is so special girl! I bet a lot of us -muslim girls- can relate. What you’re doing is great cuz it’s like telling all of us you’re not alone. And it’s so sincere of you to share such beautiful story. May allah reward you jannah sis.

[@AM-vv8jl]

You are so honest and funny, I really enjoyed listening to you

[@esskay3694]

First time watching you and bawling my eyes out. Thank you for not beating around the bush, it really hit home.

[@medwizard702]

im so happy i found this video. Jazakillah Farah

[@aminakazzaz8048]

I'm so proud of you. That touched my heart. اللهم ثبتنا على عبادتك