My life has changed a lot (transforming through fear)

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[@Lemon22-rb3hx]

People dont document the phase enough in your 20s/30s when parents are aging, and the light feeling of just living fades with the reality of life♥️ feels heavy but also beautiful. Really felt this vlog

[@Mac2Spice]

This phrase is beautiful: the light feeling of just living fades with the reality of life

[@esmefg896]

Felt this comment and the vlog 💜

[@chensonzungen9455]

This video really moved me. Tears in my eyes thinking about how human connection, caring about the people we love is really what life is about - even when that isn’t easy.

[@lucialaluce2221]

I think it’s great you have included this in your vlog. Life is complicated. I care for my brother who has Down’s syndrome and although some parts of caring are really tough and in some ways made worse by the stigma of society he is also one of my favourite people and at times caring for him also feels like a privilege. It makes my life better and helps me grow as a person. And it enhances our relationship too. Well done Tara. All the best for you and your fam. ❤❤❤

[@lindsay_dee]

Thank you for having the strength and foresight to make space for this content here on KZbin. It’s so important. I’ve watched and loved your videos for years, and this made me love you even more ♥️ What a beautiful honour it is to be able to give care to our parents. Beneath the pride and change is something much more wonderful. Something so loving and humane. Wishing you joy and love and serenity ♥️

[@rovnss]

i feel like this vlog didnt even need a verbal explanation. the silence and the slow-paced speaks for itself and it is beautiful. the message got through . we are capable of so many things . 💌

[@Jmlugo]

I cried. I lost my mom five years ago and every day I grieve not for the loss but for everyday I don’t get to spend taking care of her and laughing with her. This is such a blessing that you are able to be there in this phase of life. I’m wishing you all so many blessings ❤ xoxo

[@judimcdonnell6391]

I lost my Mum about that timeframe too and I hear you ❤❤

[@Flaubert]

A wonderful Video. Wishing you strength

[@carmenzapata4186]

I can honestly say I have enjoyed watching your content transform into something more vulnerable. It's beautiful to open up about caring for family members and showing raw honest footage of what that looks like. Always sending love your way, we love you Tara!

[@paigephillips280]

Another beautiful example of your life highs and lows mirroring my own... and undoubtedly transcending to many others too. I am undergoing huge life changes and the amount of fear and uncomfortable feelings I have lately is overwhelming. And yet... there's this strange sense of hope and accomplishment that accompanies fear when you meet it head on. I recently read this book called "The Mountain is You" by Brianna Weist. It is a beautiful poetic book about self-sabotage. The greatest gift I could have received from her words was to become familiar with the feeling of being uncomfortable. The magic in that leads us to our truest essence. Thank you for sharing your life with us. ✨

[@AlicatStyle]

Thank you for sharing such intimate personal parts of your life. I too am a caregiver to a parent. Sending you big hugs from Miami. 😘 ❤

[@ftis2588]

First of all sending lots of love and strength to your family. I’ve been a carer, it’s not easy at all and it’s not even necessarily the “looking after”, as it were, but the emotional toll of seeing someone you love ill, the practical effects it’ll have on your life too - like the knock on effects of not being able to plan for your future - and also just feeling not up to it on some days but still pushing through because you have to. I think you’re such an evolved person with so much insight into herself and you help people like me articulate how they’re feeling , especially during periods of transition. Lots of love to you and yours, and tell your dad we wish him well ❤

[@sarahmartin6855]

This is everything about life. It is such a privilege to have people we love, and to be able to care for them - even though it doesn't always feel like that in the moment...it's everything.

[@amandadoherty6902]

Awh Tara. You're some doll! Haha. Naw but seriously. You're a great role model for taking responsibility and facing fears head on. The world and social media lacks this real content so thanks for being real and vulnerable. Sending good energy to you and your dad and family 🌟

[@auntyvic]

8:09 wow, that’s so incredibly powerful! This video really blew me away

[@adelewalton2776]

So much admiration for you Tara thank you for sharing a glimpse into the realities of being a carer, something we will all likely become at some point in our lives. I loved reading Who Cares by Emily Kenway, a journalist who became a carer for her mum when she was diagnosed with cancer, it’s a beautiful book on the realities of care and explores experiences of carers across the world ❤

[@vickibruce3463]

As someone who cared for their dad after a major stroke, loss of mobility and cognitive function when they were only 50. I see you & feel your journey. Seeing a parent as vulnerable is so hard & being the person that is responsible for them can often take you to the darkest and frightening places. Now I know it was a privilege to have the opportunity to see my dad in a totally different light, but it was also (at times) the most devastating. I thought this video was beautiful and really resonated with a part of my heart that I don't often share. Love to you & your incredible family. Vicki x

[@Razberry52]

I have always felt my heart strings tug when you mention your family because I also have a Chinese Malaysian Dad and Irish Mum (I remember you mentioned this in a video YEARS ago and obviously it stuck with me). I don't know anyone else with this dynamic and so it feels emotional. I can't imagine what it must be like to see your dad's health decline like this but to see you able to be there for him and your mum now, and with such grace, is so incredibly comforting and heartwarming. Sending so much love to you all Tara ❤

[@robinwoolfolk93]

this video came at the right time!!!!! i’m feeling similar emotions and capacity for growth it was such a thoughtful video i’m a critical care nurse and i appreciate the caregivers when patients leave the hospital it can be tough but rewarding work i’m usually a silent viewer but i was drawn to comment and say thank you for sharing your vulnerability is inspiring i have much to journal about lol

[@jennys.6023]

Tara, you are love 💖I knew as soon as I saw this video, I would cry. Seeing you care for your father reminded me of the duty , love and respect we owe to our parents as they age especially as far East Asians (I am Chinese). Your patience and gentleness shone through the entirety of this video. You are one of my favourite YTubers bc you show each chapter of your life with such humility, empathy and love - thank you for existing 💛

[@layls142]

this is beautiful, im 2 mins in and already tearing up. you are so wholesome.

[@Ninasheehy]

I love watching your videos I find them so peaceful and relatable I really look forward to them every week ☺️ This video was beautiful thank you for sharing caring for your dad sending love to you and your family 💕

[@zerinasahar]

wishing your Dad a happy and healthy recovery and sending love to you and your mum. You are such a positive light and so inspiring. I hope you are taking good care of yourself as well as those around you

[@klaudiazav]

Hey Tara, I got your moving boxes a few weeks back. I haven't moved yet but I am moving at the end of the month. The weird thing is that I am moving to be my grandmother's caretaker. A crazy cycle that your moving boxes brought you close to your family and they will bring me close to mine. Moving thousands of kilometers to be closer to your family and help out is beautiful and selfless. No shame to anyone of course but I feel like a lot of young people have a strong desire to move to the big city and be successful, that's normal of course and perhaps necessary but in that you may have to leave your loved ones behind. I feel like our generation has become very selfish in some ways. While growing up, developing as a human etc. is important I feel like we have lost touch, we focus on ourselves too much. Everything, especially online, seems to be centred around bettering ourselves, daily habits and all that and I feel like there isn't as much focus on being a good friend or daughter. It's very brave to get off the hamster wheel of chasing after your dreams to make some space for family. I really hope no one takes this the wrong way, I just wanted to say that it's beautiful to sacrifice a bit of ourselves to be with family, after all they have sacrificed a part of themselves to raise us.

[@nickistormbriant2562]

ooooooft. I have been silently following you since your "lockdown solo dance parties in your loft" days & all of you videos make me feel a huge sense of calm and hope and inspiration all wrapped into one. but THIS ONE spoke to me unlike anything before. The game of the universe lining them up... jeeeeees. thank you. you've allowed me to feel a sense of lightness in the midst of a super heavy season of life - means more than you know

[@phoebe261]

Thank you so much for sharing this part of your life with us. It’s really so special that you give us this insight; I feel like it’s a really supportive community here, and we’re all hear for you.

[@Maaarleigh]

I think I needed to watch this at this exact moment, because I relate to so much of what you said and it’s really confirmed that I’m on the right path. So thankful for you being so open and honest.

[@seoidinquinn7651]

Love that your showing what so many people go through this is life ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@dafreshprincessxox]

Thank you for sharing this, caring for a parent is the reality for so many ppl ❤wishing you strength and lots of love. Virtual hug!

[@abbiebeck-cohen7672]

You are such a beautiful soul. Sending love and light to you and your loved ones - thank you for being a source of comfort and inspiration to others

[@kolorfulkarol]

Tara I’m loving these videos so much and I’m so glad that you were able to escape the hustle culture of New York when the time was right, this feels calming but like you said still giving you the right mindset to have the energy to do what you want to do. Love this for you 🩷🩷🩷

[@Cooqquu]

This video felt like a hug. Thank you for sharing.

[@ladyyyyyy4630]

thank you so much for sharing this part of your life ❤️ this is so beautiful and i genuinely wish you all the happiness in the world

[@8minsclub]

Thank you for sharing this season with us. It’s videos like these that heal the world ❤ Sending you and your family so much love. From Montreal x

[@SashelyFeliciano]

Beautiful video! I could relate to so many things you said and it helped me release so many emotions I wasn’t even aware I had buried. All those moments shared are priceless ❤️‍🩹 Sending you lots of strength and love!

[@likewise6867]

sad and in some way beautiful... wishing you the best 💗

[@sarahsharpelol]

You’re an amazing human ❤

[@tsvetelinasamohodova9903]

Thank you feeling like you can share this, it was so so special and real and authentic and vulnerable! I know there’s all these weird synchronicities, but I also feel like life has just not been the same since last August and it’s so strange that it started at the same time for you. I really related to the whole thing of like- I’m scared of certain things and then when they happen (or worse things happen) you feel like you can just take anything on! You’re so special, keep doing what you’re doing. Enjoying the Irish vlogs! ❤

[@philippawood5047]

❤❤❤ I could relate to this - been caring for my dad who has advanced dementia. He no longer knows who I am, but it feels nice to be able to provide things I know he enjoys and give him some stability and safety. Hope your dad's not suffering too much with his shingles. 😢 It's beautiful you can spend this time building new memories with him and helping your mum too.

[@ashtuoni]

What a lovely, wholesome vlog. This actually reflects true life better than any other vlogs i’ve seen in years, thank you for sharing this. I think content creators tend to overcompensate with their content, where everything has to be exciting and glamorous. But life isn’t like that 95% of the time. It’s important we find value and beauty in it ❤

[@abiraouida]

By far, this is the most emotional video you've made ❤❤ it tears me as i miss my parents back home so much 😢❤ so much love to you and your parents ❤❤ love seeing this and enjoy with them 😊❤❤

[@josepha133]

I got sick when I was 12 and I'm finally doing better now but for 14 years I was heavily dependent on my parents' care and I thank you for showing this side of life on here 🙏🏼

[@cci0ncix3]

as someone struggling with health issues right now thank you for this video. it made me feel not alone. cried from start to finish. this is wonderful you get to help him out and be such a support. must be very healing for both of you

[@judimcdonnell6391]

This is real, this is life and I understand your exhaustion but also your fulfilment.. it’s hard being a carer.. it certainly makes you grow.. love and light ❤🌺

[@varshnarsh]

Sending lots of love and strength and healing energy to you and your family 💙

[@TheDaisyhg08]

❤ thank you for sharing such a raw and beautiful part of your life ❤ you are so amazing, were so lucky to have a friend like you.

[@nataliekeane8944]

My favourite video of yours ever! Incredibly moving and so relatable. You, my love, are an incredible and wonderful daughter. ❤️

[@talkingjournal4566]

Wish you more power, thank you for sharing so authentically!

[@Deeterrazas87]

I feel like the content of your videos is SO WHOLESOME.❤❤❤❤ i always watch them in the morning to relax.

[@brinajeffries544]

this was so raw and so beautiful, thank you for sharing

[@TarMarz]

thank you for watching 🥹

[@Mokgadi88]

Thank you for sharing this - it was v touching but also inspiring - and sending warmth 💚

[@francescaresurreccion9010]

Tara this video was beautiful! Very peaceful and so full of love❤

[@pureheartbadass]

this was lovely. thank you for sharing

[@marianacastro1134]

Thank you seriously thank you

[@yvettemadelaine]

Really wonderful video. Whole new level of respect. Thank you for sharing ❤

[@ambernyasia]

This video made me so emotional. Caring for sick loved ones is not easy but it’s a privilege to be in the position to do so. I’m in my last term of acupuncture school and it’s always so powerful to see how much this medicine helps people. I hope your father continues to get better. 💛

[@TarMarz]

this ❣️🫶🏻 thankyou!

[@wuzo603]

we’re here for it all girly 🩵

[@xForeverXXI]

A very wholesome vlog Tara. God bless you and your family 🙏💗

[@dalsiec]

sending you love ❤

[@bbbinkyyy]

i think you said in another video or on ig that your a manifesting generator? everything you described at the end of the video was spot on for what it is supposed to feel like for generator types when they are living in alignment 🥰

[@BloodClotCryin]

Thanks for sharing this ❤

[@EDG1965]

I loved this. ❤

[@shaistaali9802]

So much respect for you for vlogging this. This is the single most significant vlog I've seen that reaches parts of ur brain and heart where normal vlogs don't. This is precious. Reality for many people is this. Thank u for being so open and honest. May Allah/God protect u and keep giving u strength to power through daily. Every moment was precious in this vlog

[@froufou100]

Well done Tara - important awareness xx

[@deirdrestacey]

Incredibly moved by this video - so much of it was familiar. Thanks Tara x

[@asal3757]

For nerve pain i highly recommend looking into thiamine (vitamin B1)!! Almost everyone is deficient in it unless you eat high quality pork everyday

[@allesae]

love as always ❤❤❤❤

[@nim_19]

This was really sweet 🥹❤️

[@aliaelborai]

would love links to your favourite guided meditations

[@TarMarz]

playlist on my page ❤️❤️❤️

[@aliaelborai]

@@TarMarz Thank you Angel

[@goddesschess]

Feel you ❤️‍🩹 we’re going through a lot

[@teganholman8551]

Such a beautiful video Tara ❤️

[@MDWJS]

Your Dad is so adorable. He must be in so much pain with the shingles . Make sure your mum gets the vaccine

[@vickitollemache5000]

Love. You’re a good daughter.

[@SelinClayton2]

This is a really beautiful video Tara

[@traceymacyogavlogs]

Beautiful vlog Tara ❤

[@haniqb]

May god bless you and your family

[@sheenasavaria6050]

Thank you for connecting with us❤

[@MyNameIsTlo9]

Long time follower sending you ❤

[@stefanieaeiou]

❤ wow Tara, lot's of love to you

[@issey-roquet]

I had shingles on my neck, and it was THE most painful thing I’ve ever experienced. Even a strand of hair touching the skin patches would send shocks of pain. On occasions when I get stressed, it comes back in little pimples sometimes on the same nerves. I really feel for your Dad. In case this helps, spraying or gently applying colloidal silver really helped soothe the pain and blisters. I also used Weleda skinfood or la Roche posay Cicaplast when it felt like it needed moisturizing or just something to create a barrier from anything touching it. I also was a caregiver for my mother for many many years, she went through cancer treatment and also had a severe bacterial infection at one point. I know it takes over so much of your life and energy. It’s particularly hard caring for a parent, and seeing them so dependent on caregiving, needing help with a lot of their basic needs. It can be a hard time, but also a peaceful time at times - Taking care of those who used to be our primary caregivers when we were babies. You get to learn a lot of about yourself, how strong and caring you can be and how much love you can give. Sending you lots of love. You’re stronger than you know. You’re doing great. It will all be worth it. ❤

[@alixdt9617]

Thank you for this video..🫶🏻

[@hannahjspear]

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[@guilainejeanpierreart]

Dear Tar Mar, I'm praying God for your father to heal!

[@patrickgabrielmendy9337]

Awesome

[@user-hb3uy4le3x]

❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏

[@27yioda]

Where are your parents from?

[@Hellokittyrockz101]

i really appreciate the breakdown chat at the end (even if it was rough to edit down the 8 min haha) but i seem to always be so aligned and connected to what you’re saying and really appreciate you creating an open conversation via youtube and instagram (connected w you on both about several topics). i think its content and moments like this that remind me all the positive aspects of social media. i think human connection is one of the many blessing we can experience in this conscious life and really appreciate you allowing for that. 🥹🤍

[@javvibes]

🥺💙🥺💙

[@rose_quartz_loveandlight]

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[@anonpls809]

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