my miscarriage experience ⎮ processing in real time, heartbreak, symptoms

Hello beautiful friends! This is a new series on my channel called Our Pregnancy Journey. We see a lot of pregnancy announcements on social media, but it's rare we get to see the journey getting there. I wanted to document our journey as we try to conceive. I hope you enjoy. New episodes every Thursday. In this episode I share my miscarriage experience. I decided to document this portion of my journey because it was the videos I watched on KZbin about miscarriage that brought me the most comfort during this time. I hope this video makes you more aware of pregnancy loss. I hope this video makes you feel seen, loved, and understood. I hope that this video would leave you with a little bit of comfort and encouragement. Praying for all those parents who lost a child or pregnancy.
Chapters:
0:00 First Signs Of Miscarriage
9:16 Ultrasound Results
18:55 Having Faith + Blood Testing
27:26 Processing Emotions
29:22 Bloodwork Results
30:00 Talking To My Midwife
34:40 Please Read
I have been deprived of peace;
I have forgotten what prosperity is.
So I say, “My splendor is gone
and all that I had hoped from the Lord.”
I remember my affliction and my wandering,
the bitterness and the gall.
I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:
Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.”
Lamentations 3:17-24
Videos I Watched That Helped Me During My Miscarriage:
• My Journey to Pregnanc...
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• My Early Miscarriage |...
• What is a blighted ovu...
• Bleeding While Pregnan...
• i was pregnant & had a...
Our Pregnancy Journey:
Episode 1: • Our Pregnancy Journey ...
Episode 2: • FINDING OUT I'M PREGNA...
Episode 3: • telling my husband i'm...
Episode 4: • my miscarriage experie...
Episode 5: • healing after miscarri...
Episode 6: • Trying To Conceive: Me...
Episode 7: • Bad News About My Fert...
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[@tarynthompson4141]

Hey to all in the comments, please be extra sensitive to what you write. For miscarriage mamas, it can actually hurt so bad to hear "you'll have another baby," "at least you know you can get pregnant", advise comments about future pregnancy etc. These words cut into my already broken heart when I lost my baby and frankly didn't help my grief over what never would be for this child I lost. They are grieving for a tiny life they never got to meet, a whole future that will never happen with this child, and baby they will never hold. I know its to give hope, but these comments can hurt deeply. Tell her your sympathy, tell her you're praying for her, share your own story of hurt and healing in this situation. Just please don't comment these things unless she says that is what she needs to hear. Just some advise from another mama of an angel baby❤

[@latasharoddan7202]

Momma of many losses and I know how she's feeling. Nothing you say or do can make her feel better. I do hope others are sensitive to her situation.

[@jayequellen]

Mama of two angel babies and I totally agree with you. Hearing these things didn’t help at all

[@kingkohli4952]

thanks for sharing. It is helpful and I will be mindful of these suggestions

[@nikkis7375]

Thank you for taking the time to write this. ❤

[@anitaprudnikow2088]

Totally agree. I hat 4 losses an year i am 9 years later no baby. So never say anything like "oh there will be more don't worry" if you have not been through it you have no idea. Dear angel baby mamas. We are in this together and only god can comfort our souls through prayers for each other.

[@tiegz9770]

And through all of this people criticized you for leaving the farm, for not going to church and for not "being content". I hope this can be a lesson for people not to judge especially if they don't know the full story. I'm sorry for your loss and I pray God blesses you guys with a baby soon ❤

[@jenniferortiz4881]

Thank you for being so vulnerable. I am so so sorry for your loss, Kian. Praying for you and Kyle. I just know God has your rainbow baby on his/her way soon

[@Kian_Wolfgang]

Thank you Jennifer! Appreciate all the prayers 🤎

[@jennav.4047]

My first pregnancy ended with a miscarriage. I still grieve that loss even though we have been blessed with our rainbow baby. When people ask how many children I have, I always say, “one but I had a miscarriage right before him.”Sending all the baby dust for your next baby.

[@erinchildress2950]

I cannot even begin to explain how special it is that you shared this with the world. I absolutely applaud you for this deep, deep level of vulnerability. I went through a miscarriage in July and watching the first clip brought back so many memories, but at the same time was encouraging knowing someone has experienced the same pain that I did. I will be praying that you get your rainbow baby. And I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I found so much encouragement in knowing my sweet babe was being loved by Jesus in Heaven. ❤️ I hope this reminder brings you the same peace it did for me.

[@biancaf8708]

The way I audibly gasped when I saw the title. Kian my heart breaks for you, I cried almost the whole way through this video. I hope you are able to continue to rest and lean on your support people, I’m so sorry.

[@tarynthompson4141]

I lost my baby girl at 17 weeks pregnant, it was our first baby as well. I know the heartbreak and I'm so sorry for your loss. This hurts so bad as a hopeful mommy. Praying for you guys.

[@Kian_Wolfgang]

I'm so sorry you had to experience that 😭 praying for you as well

[@Jellythebean22]

I’m currently going through the exact same thing 😔 We lost our baby girl at 17 weeks and she was our first. It is such a painful experience.

[@hopevitale8050]

Thank you for doing this Kian. My first pregnancy ended in miscarriage, and nothing prepares you for the hurt. I’m in my 6th week with number 2 and the fear is heavy, but so is the hope. Through the most vulnerable times of waiting, hurt, and lack of control is when our intimacy with God can increase, which is a major blessing. You sharing your experience will be so comforting to people going through it. Sending my prayers ❤

[@mjalphonse]

Oh Kian…. Oh Kian………… There are no words. The second I saw this thumbnail my heart shattered. Two of my sisters had miscarriages and the pain is unimaginable 💔 Praying for comfort and peace that passes understanding. I know I don’t know you and Kyle, but I’m genuinely grieving with you both.

[@armainestuart4951]

When I lost our baby, the ER doctor I had knee but was so kind and held my hand as he looked at me and my husband and reminded us that it wasn’t our fault. I’m so sorry mama.. the pain you’re going through is unbearable and it’s okay to mourn. You’re so loved and we’re praying for you ❤️

[@publius7682]

I started miscarrying around the night of October 31 and the morning of November 1, 2022 I was miserable. And I still am. It was/is the most horrific emotional thing I’ve been through. I’m so so sorry this happened to you and my heart is with you.

[@doodles-n-companyBernedoodles]

Praying for you guys. We lost our triplets last year. It was horrible, but God was so present and revealed so much of himself to me. We just had our son last month. Stay faithful- I know how hard it is. Feel the feelings, but remember the Lords promises

[@Lindseyhannah1995]

9/11/2021 I had an early miscarriage a week after finding out I was pregnant. I had no signs at all other than a teeny amount of blood my Dr said via phone was implantation bleeding until my first appointment. For the first time ever I didn’t find comfort in Jesus. All I could think was “how could someone that loved me let this happen?” My Dr helped a lot by reminding me “at least we know I am able to get pregnant.” And I just got hormone supplements to strengthen the next pregnancy. I got my period back about 6 weeks after that and was able to immediately get pregnant again. I see now that this baby I’m holding in my arms is why that miscarriage happened. I couldn’t imagine life without her now. You will get through this and come out stronger and when it is your turn for a baby, all the pain and grief and waiting will be more than worth it.

[@amberveg3791]

It took my husband and I a while to conceive (I have a PCOS) and we miscarried our first, but I got pregnant again a couple months after. It was very emotional losing the first and processing pregnancy. I have a 3 month old baby now, but I was in denial my whole pregnancy that it’s still surreal. I know how tough it is, but keep the faith. The Bible verse I meditated on when trying to conceive is when Jesus says, “If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭21‬:‭22‬ ‭NIV‬‬ Keep believing and keep praying. He will answer. I’m praying you get the family you dream of. You two would make great parents to raise good Christian soldiers. ❤️ I’m praying for your healing and praying your dreams come true.

[@forhewhoismighty1863]

My husband and I just experienced this last month too. It's been a rollercoaster of emotions and even today, we're still grieving and asking the Lord to help us. I appreciate your vulnerability because I went through the same thing, everything you said and everything you experienced. I went to the ER and had a loving experience. The doctors and nurses were so empathetic and helpful and I was able to get my results quickly. I don't understand why God allows these things to happen, but my husband and I trust Him and know that He is God. He is sufficient and enough. And we allow God to do His will in our life, even when we don't understand.

[@rhondapelletier2141]

(((( hugs, love & strength)))🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Me, this complete strangers CARES❤️❤️ teary eyed right along w/ you……..

[@Breyerluvr4eva]

I am so sorry to hear this. Prayers for you and your family. I'm sharing this in case it brings anyone hope. In November 2021, I got my positive pregnancy test. By December 14th, I was bleeding. I had almost the same experience as you, the ER ran blood and did an ultrasound. They didn't have a conclusive answer. My hcg at that point was high enough that they weren't sure I was having a loss. Over the next few days, I didn't need them to tell me, I could tell the baby was gone. We mourned that loss. It was so hard. But praise God, we actually conceived very, very soon after. Once I had passed everything, my husband and I found healing through intimacy. We actually caught the next egg without me having a full cycle after the loss. By January 9th, I had a definite positive on an early test. God is so good. My 14 month old beautiful, brilliant daughter is sleeping in the next room right now. I hope this brings encouragement to anyone who reads it.

[@mamarobinson5024]

I am so sorry, Kian. I have had 4 miscarriages and know how hard it is. And the back and forth of not knowing for sure what's going on and waiting for results from doctors, etc makes it that much more emotionally taxing. Take as much time as you need to heal. Hugs and prayers ❤

[@whitwhit5402]

You have over 4,000 views on this video. I guarantee you've helped so many people right now who are about to or are currently going through the same. God doesn't waste suffering and pain isn't for nothing. Thank you for your ministry....you will be an amazing mother!:)

[@alyssabird720]

Except... He caused the miscarriage.

[@elinmagirius8698]

I am so so sorry for your loss. Praying for you and Kyle. Your faith is incredible and so encouraging!!!

[@flower-jp9cl]

oh my goodness,i’m so sorry for your loss. take the time you need to heal, praying over you 💓

[@shekinahmamba7320]

I am so so sorry for your loss Kian literally crying with you . Praying for you and Kyle don't loss hope GOD IS WITH YALL LOVE SIS ♥

[@kelseyarandall]

I am so sorry for you loss Kian 🤍 praying for you and Kyle. This video series, I’m sure, is so helpful to anyone who has gone through this, and for those in the future. So thank you for posting and sharing this vulnerable and personal experience. 🙏🏻

[@maddiebroadstone]

Kian, I’m so deeply sorry for what you’ve gone through, physically, mentally and emotionally. I cannot imagine this feeling. praying for healing and strong faith. Thank you for sharing such an emotional journey online, as a follower and supporter of you, (I believe I speak for a lot of us who support you) we are here for you no matter what. If you feel you shouldn’t/don’t want to post anything we won’t judge or question. All love, support and prayers ❤️

[@workofivory]

I scrolled and saw this title. I’m so gutted and I’m so sorry to hear this. Thank you for your vulnerability and honesty. Much love to you and Kyle 🤍

[@pranya8936]

my heart sank as soon as I saw the notification. I'm so sorry . Sending so much love and prayers. God will definitely give you your miracle baby. I will keep you in my prayers xx

[@makalsiashepherd3275]

Awww, thank you so much for opening up. This was so hard to watch you grieve, truly sad but God's got you all, happy you had a community of people to support you guys through the tough period.

[@jenn8815]

So sorry for your loss. I totally understand how your feeling since I went through that experience. I pray the lord gives you guys the strength you need during this time. Love ya Kian! 🥰

[@parkerd4421]

This is the first time I’ve ever seen anyone be genuinely vulnerable like this anywhere online. Thank you for sharing with everyone your experience. I can’t imagine what you are going through, I am so sorry for y’all.

[@emilycorkill7931]

I'm so sorry for your loss Kian, please be so gentle with yourself during this time

[@TheCobyFiles]

Thank you SO much for sharing this! I’m sure this was incredibly painful to relive as you prepared, edited and shared this video. Thank you for making all of us out here on the Internet feel a little less alone, for allowing us to feel like we can also be honest, and for promoting realness and honesty along with faith and trust. I’m so sorry for the heartache, but looking forward to see what is next for you. Thank you ❤

[@SJ-um2ym]

I’m so sorry you went through this! You are so strong to share this. Sending you all the love we are all connected to. Every light needs darkness to give it depth. You are such a sweet soul. Some sweet soul will need you to be it’s mother in the right time.

[@brittanya.8989]

Oh Kian, I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. My heart grieves with yours…You’re not alone ❤ Prayers for peace, healing, comfort, and renewed hope during this time. Much love to you and Kyle

[@melaniewalker5751]

Hi Kian and Kyle. I’m so so sorry for your loss. I had watched your video on Friday and woke up this morning and was journaling and felt prompted to pray for you. May His heart, His love, His strength and His peace overflow you today. Take care.

[@AW-zi7mp]

I am so sorry for your loss 😔 praying for you, Kyle and your future children 🙏🏻

[@mypianomypassion1254]

I am so sorry Kian!! Thank you for being such a honest vulnerable person, my heart stopped when I saw the title 😭😭 💔I will be praying for you and Kyle as you heal..

[@joiwood423]

I am so sorry for your loss Kian 🤍 Your Faith is so encouraging so hold on to God. I am praying for you and Kyle during this time!

[@rachelpotts7496]

Just seen this title, haven`t watched yet weeping with you. Praying that you will feel held. So many beautiful things your baby will be doing and growing in, in the Kingdom. I don`t pretend to understand what you are going through, but you are seen.

[@elizabethhope7623]

I am so incredibly sorry, Kian! My heart breaks for you and Kyle. Praying for the peace that passes all understanding for you through this ♥️♥️

[@allthingshealthy2314]

I am so sorry, Kian. My heart goes out to you. Sending you so much love and prayers. I’m glad you guys left the farm and hope this new chapter brings peace and new beginnings

[@butchyyy3823]

I just know God will turn this story around into a beautiful one . Keep trusting in the Lord he sees you ❤

[@onthedl87]

Sweet sister. My heart hurts for your loss but I am so grateful for your transparency. Thank you for your boldness and bravery to share. Praying for your journey.

[@cheyenneapowell]

You are such a strong and beautiful soul. I adore your courage to share your story. We need more people like you and Kyle in the world. Praying for God’s will in your lives💕

[@JusticeWaterson]

Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. My husband and I experienced this earlier this year. And it’s very difficult but I am praying for you and Kyle. God is your strength. We are now pregnant with our healthy rainbow baby and I just know that you will have yours too. God will bless you with a beautiful baby. ❤️

[@esteradabrowska9635]

I’ve been following your channel for a while and I just want you to know that we’re thinking of you and praying for you both. It’s an indescribable experience that you’re going through but God is here to listen and support you. He’ll stick around no matter what. you’ll both make it to the other side. Thank you for sharing and being honest x

[@elaynamatteoni8165]

So surreal, as I’ve been following your journey we too fell into the same unfortunate circumstances. We lost our pregnancy on the 12th at about 6 weeks. It’s so hard to go through but know you aren’t alone and I’m so sorry for your loss ❤ Sending you all the love & prayers for a healthy rainbow baby 🙏🏽

[@chelseakingston8236]

So sorry for your loss and the criticism you faced from people who weren’t kind enough to put their religiosity aside. I pray for your and Kyle’s continued healing, faith, and joy in this time. I feel that a miracle’s coming soon 💕

[@annamamiro]

Thank you for being vulnerable despite all the backlash the internet has thrown at you. Sorry for your loss. I pray God blesses you with yet another miracle, and that He gives you grace to remain patient as you and Kyle wait 🙏🏽❤️

[@teeshajanelle]

Biggest hug! I am soo soo sorry! Will commit to praying concerning this and your journey! 💕

[@HaleyGamber]

I am so sorry for you. As a momma who’s gone through one - I understand how you feel. I pray you and your husband feel Gods love during this time and lean into Him during this. Again - I’m so sorry for the loss of your precious child.

[@abigailargenzia7296]

I think it’s such a courageous and brave thing for you to do to share such a vulnerable and heartbreaking experience for others. I am so sorry for the pain you’ve been experiencing, it’s so incredibly difficult and that baby will always mean so much to you. When I lost our little baby last September i was absolutely heartbroken it had felt like a piece of my heart and soul left me forever. I have never felt so alone in that moment and months to come and I wish I had a video like this to watch. While your heart will never fully heal from losing a baby, there is hope and a Lord that is faithful through it all. We welcomed our little rainbow baby this September and she’s everything we could have ever imagined. I will say there is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of our little baby, one day we will meet again and that gives me the hope I need each day.

[@melissaysitall7703]

I haven’t even watched video yet but I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine how this must feel. It scares me honestly that this could happen to me one day but grateful that even in just reading your caption knowing you hold to God so strongly through it. I’ll pray for healing & mourning at this time 🙏🏽💛

[@butterfly-kb4cn]

Sending you and Kyle prayers, I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m at a loss for words but I pray that God is wrapping you in his love and healing!

[@bayleemarievanryswyk4388]

This was a beautifully done video and series so far. I cried when you cried. I'm so sorry you went through this, not because God won't use it, but because it hurt. Thank you for sharing with us even though it's hard. I'm glad you had good community around you to support in this time. Praying for you!

[@rebeccagatlin1191]

I am so incredibly sorry about your loss. Just experienced two losses in the past 7 months - there is nothing like that kind of pain (physically and emotionally). Praying that God will comfort you and Kyle during this time ❤

[@isabellalacy9901]

Kian, I just wanted to say that you have been so vulnerable during this whole journey. Thank you for documenting this even when you didn't have to. I am so sorry to hear this and I am mourning with you and Kyle. Wish y'all the best and sending you some rainbow baby dust your way. Much love to you and Kyle.

[@AmarachiNnadozie]

Love you so much Kian and thank you for inviting us on this journey with you ❤ I will be praying for you and your family and I thank God for his mighty hands upon your life. Will always be supporting you 🫶🏾

[@MoTheCrown]

Wow Kian! Thank you for sharing I can’t imagine how tough these last months have been on you guys, while having to still navigate comments and opinions of others :/ The comforting thing is that God knows and understands, even when others do not. Praying for you and Kyle to experience so much joy and peace that surpasses all understanding from God. ❤️❤️

[@Kian_Wolfgang]

Thank you so much, God is the ultimate comfort and everyone's prayers have really helped us have peace.

[@andreaa4600]

Oh Kian and Kyle, I’m sorry for your loss! Praying for you guys through this tough time! My husband and I have had two reoccurring miscarriages and they have been the hardest thing we have ever experienced together. It never really gets easier but know you have people praying for you both and you are not alone!🤍💔

[@hannahdejongh3862]

Kian, I am still busy with school so I am not in this stage of life but I am touched by your bravery and vulnerability. I will pray for you! 💞

[@llama5371]

I am really really proud of you, Kian. God will give you guys a precious baby in time, the world just isn’t ready for the baby yet. I’m sending you & Kyle so much love and hugs! ❤️

[@ennyadelaja7285]

Thank you for sharing this Kian, God is truly using you to help and support others. I pray for His love, light and peace to surround you and Kyle on this journey 💛

[@08COCOPUFF]

Thank you for letting us into your life and being brave enough to tell us the truth❤ You are bringing awareness to something that happens to often and is never talked about. I’m very sorry for your loss and I hope you heal and find happiness again🙏

[@jessicaromero6595]

Aww girly, I am genuinely praying for you.❤️❤️ thank you for sharing, you and Kyle are amazing. Love y’all. ❤️

[@GCL82]

Kian, you charted this heartbreaking loss so beautifully. I am so sorry for what you went through and am so in awe at how you held tight to the Lord throughout. It was so affirming to end on such a positive note...that piece of Scripture from Lamentations brought tears to my eyes.

[@smalley27]

Thank you for sharing your story and showing such love and compassion to others. I will pray for the health of your future blessing❤️

[@nkee5092]

Oh Kian I feel your loss keenly: my first pregnancy ended within 2 weeks of getting the positive and I was devastated- it was only after that, that all my friends will children suddenly started sharing their miscarriages. Every single one of them had one, at various stages. It was so comforting to know I wasn’t alone, even tho you don’t wish it in anyone! Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable and giving comfort to ALL women embarking on a fertility journey. So looking forward to a successful pregnancy for you and Kyle ❤

[@MrPandabee]

Oh Kian, I am so sorry for your loss. Please take all the time you need to heal and grieve. Praying for you both

[@DaughteroftheKing782]

Thank you for your vulnerability and honesty and opening your heart up to us so we can be in prayer. I’m so so sorry you experienced this, I am praying for you all to experience Gods love and peace despite the heartbreak. Love you!!

[@oliviamendez2058]

Oh Kian, bless you and Kyle! I have had 4 miscarriages and they are so much more tough physically and emotionally than I expected. You aren’t alone! Praying for you and that the Lord May comfort you both and keep you in His hands during this time.

[@FreedomINSurrender]

I am so sorry that your going through this. I have friends that have gone through the same thing. You are not alone !We will be praying for you ! ❤🥺

[@jaynez9027]

Every time someone else shares a heart breaking miscarriage, women all around feel less lonely. I am so so sorry. Losing your first baby is amongst the worst things. I’ve been there. I leaned on my husband so much, so glad you have each other. Sending hugs

[@mimbriggs4627]

I had a feeling something was wrong because there was no social media announcement. I'm so so sorry. My heart breaks for you. Praying for a beautiful rainbow baby. 🙏❤

[@kimalbaez2120]

I'm crying with you, I'm so sorry Kian and Kyle. 😔🥺 I'm gonna pray for you right now. God is faithful and He will never abandon you. Thank God you had a community around you ❤️.

[@jasminebeard6421]

It breaks my heart to see you like this. Praying for you guys! Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

[@bethia.v]

I’m so sorry, Kian. Wish I could give you a hug - praying for you, and that peace that passes all understanding would be present.

[@abtellone2281]

We went through an early miscarriage in May. It was horrible. After 18 months of trying. I’m so so sorry. Praying for healing!

[@tatianarodriguez6566]

You guys are both loved so much! Thank you so much for sharing your experience raw and unedited!❤️ You are not alone, I experienced a miscarriage with my husband in August and I know exactly how you’re feeling❤️ There’s going to be days you’re going to be comfortable sharing and days that are not so comfortable with sharing. When I was going through the miscarriage, God had to remind me as I was upset that through the pain he will be there with us. It’s in God’s beautiful timing💞 You guys inspire so many couples! I will keep praying for you both!❤️

[@AgnesA98]

I’m so sorry for your loss 😔. I pray that the Lord will continue to comfort you and Kyle in this difficult time 🤍

[@rosalieo5045]

Thank you for sharing this even though I imagine it's extremely hard to discuss this, especially online. I went through a near death experience with an ectopic pregnancy. I just want you to know you are not alone; your body and psyche will need time to adjust. With time and a whole lot of support, you will pull through. It took me a long time, but I had no support from anyone.

[@Japhiaaa]

I’m so sorry for your loss Kian, I’m praying for your rainbow baby and your healing. 🙏🏽❤️❤️

[@joycecelis3038]

You're so brave, God is crying with you. A big hug to you guys:(

[@kacinicole]

My heart aches with you and Kyle 💛 praying with you as you await another precious miracle 🙏🏼

[@Ro19303]

I am really sorry for your loss kian! I hope you are doing better, and that you and Kyle go through this together in the best way possible. 💙

[@victorianatalie4555]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I suffered a miscarriage as well at 6 weeks after we told family and were trying for 6 months. We had our rainbow baby a year later and I heard in a book once “I wouldn’t have had my baby now and they’re so perfect for me” and that is so true with my daughter. Blessings to you and your husband ❤️💕 I can’t wait to see my little angel in heaven one day 😊

[@brucasluveroth]

I had a feeling for some reason this would happen after not seeing an Instagram post. I am so so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being so vulnerable and taking us on this journey. Lots of love to you w

[@fiddlersonthefarm]

I'm so sorry for yours and Kyle's loss and I'll be praying for you both during this difficult time. My heart breaks for you and I pray for healing and that you get your rainbow baby soon ❤️

[@taylorblair8496]

I’m praying for you and your marriage that God continues to give you strength and blesses you abundantly. I pray that you will continue to have a community that prays with/for you. I’m so sorry that this has happened to you. You are a light

[@bayleecountryman9591]

So sorry for your loss ❤️ So appreciate you being vulnerable and sharing your experience- just sharing what you’re going through will help so many other women going through the same thing

[@joymwendwa6959]

Exactly. People say she shares too much but she knows and i think the thing you said above is why she does it. To help people through stuff

[@nothandotshuma]

I’m so sorry for your loss❤️. I hope a blessing comes out of this for both you and Kyle, God bless you both!❤️ I’ll be keeping you in my prayers(:

[@briannaramos6677]

I’m so sorry for your loss. 😔 Sending you and Kyle my deepest condolences and prayers. We love you Kian. You aren’t alone. ❤️

[@livsrenewal3350]

I am so sorry. I’m sending prayers your way. I can’t even fathom what you’re going through right now, but I admire your faith. I praise God that even though your feelings towards Him may be mixed at the moment, He has blessed you to be such an amazing woman.

[@sherbetstraw]

Kian my heart breaks for you. Can’t believe your honesty in sharing this. You’re such an amazing person and you’ll be an amazing mum when it happens for you ❤

[@victoriagoodwin1345]

I love your content and your and Kyle’s journey and have so much respect for you both. But, in love, I don’t know how wise this was to share in this order of video. I want to clarify I have NO issue with you sharing your experience with a miscarriage, that is an isolating experience and I’m sure it helps people to know they are not alone. But for this to have happened months ago, and still post 2 videos prior to this as if you were pregnant when you knew at the time of posting that you were no longer pregnant, I’m honestly not sure how to feel about it. I respect your right to post as you choose, but felt compelled that this may have not been the wisest way to share.

[@elizabethperez8125]

Kian, I'm so sorry. I literally JUST went through this *exact* same experience. Found out I was pregnant end of September. Spotted for a while, with extreme pain / bleeding happening on the night of October 31st (where I was 9 weeks pregnant). We found out I miscarried that night in the hospital. It was horrific, and I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. We wouldn't have been able to do it without the support of our friends, church community, and faith. My heart breaks for you and Kyle but know that it does get better. Talking through it has helped too and we are hopeful for the future, but it's a surreal mix of emotions. Praying for you both during this time (prayer is truly powerful).

[@alliwood8559]

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope for healing for you. My dear friend had a miscarriage last year, and I know how hard it is to lose a child. Her prayers and dreams came true as she just had her rainbow baby this last July. I know that healing won’t be easy but I hope that you will find some comfort soon. I will be praying for you. 💜

[@melaniegoertzen3876]

Praying for you. So sorry for you loss❤️ Love and support you guys!!!

[@stephanievasquez163]

Kian I'm so sorry for your loss. ❤ I understand the pain you're going through. I will be praying for you and Kyle! Sending you a lot of love ❤❤️🙏

[@MollysStory]

I'm so sorry for your loss Kian. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I know this will encourage many women who have experienced a miscarriage. God has good things in store for you in the future though it may be hard to understand what He is doing right now. Sending you hugs!

[@laineycorderman6555]

I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. Praying for you both!♥️

[@soannacadet5166]

Thank you for sharing your experience Kian. When I saw you posted your first video for pregnancy journey I was so excited for you and Kyle. Seeing this truly breaks my heart. However, it is so encouraging to see how you’ve anchored yourself to Jesus even though this was not the outcome you hoped for. Through your vulnerability you and Kyle have have spoken of the kindness of God even in loss. Praying for yours and Kyle’s continued healing and complete recovery as you grieve the life of this precious baby and anticipate the miracle of a new life. ❤