My Psychosis Experience | This Last Moment

[@canonicalgio7837]

I had a very positive experience of psychosis with grandisose delusions and thinking i was the centerpoint of evrrything. The worst part was being confined to hospital with peoplr in much worse states. Have post psychosis depression from realising i dont matter in any way to the universe. The experiences i had that made me think i was special still make me believe that normal reality is an illusion we stay in to keep us from freaking out by realising the truth.

[@layotheleprechaun]

Psychosis is the hardest thing you'll ever go through

[@Byhermirror]

For me it truly was 🤍

[@layotheleprechaun]

@@Byhermirror same

[@graceplatt9313]

Hello Anna, I found this video really relatable due to having a psychotic episode myself. In regards to your stress about global events, I really recommend the book: 'notes on a nervous planet' by Matt Haig (if you haven't read it already). It really ameliorated my anxiety :) Hope you're doing okay x

[@Byhermirror]

Ahh thank you so much Grace! I've not heard of this one, and I am in urgent need of book recommendations so it is on my list, thank you. I hope you are doing well with it all as well! x

[@hagerlefsay684]

Thanks for your video it was very helpful! if you don’t mind me asking, did you take antipsychotic? if so were you better when you came off them? 😊

[@Byhermirror]

Hi there! I took the antipsychotic 2.5 mg Olanzapine twice daily for about 15 months, and have it on prescription PRN (so I can take it for a few weeks or months if I want to). I’m taking it at the moment and I take it when I think I am at risk/going through a tough patch. I don’t think I’ll ever be completely without it but I am on a lower dose than I used to be! I also had Lorazepam but haven’t taken it in about five years :)

[@hagerlefsay684]

thanks for your reply

[@hagerlefsay684]

@@Byhermirror did you find that you were emotionally numb/ flat at all? does that get any better

[@Byhermirror]

@@hagerlefsay684 I definitely did I can see it in my old videos! I didn’t love it but preferred it to feeling at risk to psychosis for sure

[@itslayka5908]

Did you recover

[@Byhermirror]

I did - I don’t do a lot of the things I did pre psychosis to help stay well (drinking alcohol for example) but I haven’t had a full relapse in the past six years 🤍

[@itslayka5908]

@@Byhermirror do you take medications or are you off them

[@Byhermirror]

I take them PRN, so I might take them for a few months or I might nof (at the moment I am)

[@itslayka5908]

@@Byhermirror sorry for asking so many questions how long did your psycosis last of you don't mind me asking