My Testimony | Fatherlessness, Abuse & CPTSD

[@rebeccamcconnell7830]

You have such a beautiful testimony! The Lord has blessed and encouraged me through your story. Your strength and courage to open your soul is truly amazing. Your deep wounds and the healing you have experienced is exactly what we broken people need to hear. The Lord is the One who can truly give us the hope and the help that is so desperately needed. He has come to save, and to heal, and to love. We need only accept the gift of Salvation that He offers then we will find true hope and purpose in this fleeting life on earth. There will be much opposition to you because the world hates Jesus and His children, but "greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world." Please continue to have the courage to share because people need the Lord!

[@CaitTaylor]

I love this comment, Rebecca! Thank you for taking the time to hear my story. You're so right about the opposition, it's amazing what the enemy will throw your way once you're walking with the Lord and sharing the Good News. I appreciate the reminder that He that is in me is greater! I needed that encouragement this week. Thank you 🤍

[@HaroonPhotography-k3j]

​@@CaitTaylorSister how are you i Hope you are fine we are Running Christan Channel

[@StevensAutoservice-Almelo]

!!! W O W !!! So Powerfull !!! Preatch it Sista !!! 👌🏻💣💥💣👌🏻

[@bettybet6367]

Wow, Cait. I'm so glad that I got to hear your story. I'm glad you explained CPTSD. I have suffered that as well. Thank you for sharing with that someone out there that can relate. My story is different than yours, but has similar elements. There are no accidents, true. God picked this video at this exact moment in my life to let me know he loves me too. Thank you! ❤

[@MC-mk6gs]

I have left and got to go to court due to him lying and the narcissistic cop

[@aaiem7p]

. Probably one of the best and saddest parts of your story is the realization that some people really go through a lot and need help, while others make up a similar story to abuse the kindness and generosity of people who would want to help

[@elizabethtovar3603]

You are not alone. I’m amazed with how many details we share... another country away, a generation away. Thank you, I needed to hear your testimony... Psalm ‘thou my mother and father forsake me, you, o’Lord, never will’.

[@CaitTaylor]

I’m so sorry that you can relate but so glad the video reached you, Elizabeth ❤️‍🩹 I love that psalm too.

[@Follower_of_Christ498]

What an amazing testimony. You are going to help so many people. Your faith is obvious, you glow with the love of the Lord and focus on His living Word. May He shower your testimony with grace. God Bless you Cait.

[@kathrynpekrul4796]

Oh my word, sweet girl, what a beautiful testimony. Thank you so much for sharing, thank you for spreading God‘s love, and you are an absolute natural at doing a podcast. I can’t wait to hear more.

[@CaitTaylor]

Thank you, Kathryn! This is so kind. I definitely don't feel like a natural at this yet 😂 but I'm committed to continuing with whatever words God puts on my heart to share. 🥰 Thank you for your encouragement and taking the time to tune in!

[@PeezyElijah-sq9xr]

I Remember that!!! It's A Book thing... I Read That on my Bed... But sadly I was fearful.... I Had to Have Faith.... It wasn't Until many years later It Reached me Because THEN I Knew HIM... Now Everytime I see something like this It Touches me and Reahes me deeply and It Teaches me.... Because NOW I Know my Faith has NO bounds AT ALL.... I know my Imagination has No bounds.... JESUS Healed me and I know the Reason Why I REALLY DO FEEL LIKE THOS LETTERS ARE MEANT FOR ME... It's Because Of JESUS, HIS HOLY SPIRIT.... And the Convenience of Time... Haha... Praise GOD HE ALWAYS ON TIME🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️ and Even Tho ... HE Comes

[@francinesaitta7941]

You are precious. We met last summer st Debra's Summer Garden Bible study. I thought Debra had invited Cinderella. You are so beautiful and now I know why. You are God's Princess . I hope we get to see you again and I look forward to your next podcast. Love, Francine Saitta.

[@CaitTaylor]

Francine, this is such a lovely compliment. You are so kind, thank you! I remember meeting you, I hope to make it to Debra's study again this year and to get to know you all better. Thank you for taking the time to watch my story. 🤍 - Cait

[@elizabethvotra104]

“I thought Debra had invited Cinderella” 🥰😍💕

[@Beckisha22]

I love how slow she speaks, she articulates herself so well , she narrates the story so well , making you feel like you were also there . Thank you , Cait Taylor .

[@JoaoVitor-vr1po]

Is good who is learning English

[@CaitTaylor]

So kind, thank you so much for taking the time to watch ☺🩷

[@clivedyson8599]

Thank you Cait for sharing your testimony. I am 80 years old and I live in Motueka, New Zealand and I’m so sorry that your experience must have soured New Zealand for you. I stumbled across your channel and have been blessed by your messages. You have such an eloquent way of speaking which just draws your listeners in to what you have to say. May God continue to bless you and your ministry and continue His healing work in your life. Thank you so much.

[@FeralHomeMaker]

I was thinking the same thing. Like a perfect mom voice telling us an incredibly engaging story.

[@abby-joy-sparkles]

Yes I agree! ❤

[@juless5699]

This was such an encouraging testimony. I'm so sorry about all you have suffered early in your (still young) life. Your desire to point others to the love of our heavenly Father, through the sacrifice of His son Jesus, & the transforming power of the Holy Spirit...so beautiful ❤

[@CaitTaylor]

This is such a kind comment, thank you! I appreciate you taking the time to watch ☺️🙏🏼

[@michaelcannon128]

You Are Very Courageous To Share Your Past. My Prayer Is That You Receive All That The Lord God Has For You.❤🙏🏾❤️

[@CaitTaylor]

Thank you so much! 🙏🏼

[@michaelcannon128]

You Are Welcome Sister🙏🏾❤️🙏🏾

[@Mariposazul777]

I am a Latin woman in South America, I am a Clinical Psychologist and I want to thank you for being brave and share your story and encourage us with your testimony. Please dont stop because you never know who is hearing the message through you honey. And go ahead, that your healing is a process but sure in Jesus Christ. Muchas bendiciones y un abrazo mujer valiente ❤

[@jennifermora35]

Igual para mi!!! ❤️ DIOS LA PUSO EN MI FEED... Que belleza de mujer, que valiente hija de nuestro papá perfecto!

[@Lizbeth36961]

Hola Mariposaz777, en qué país se encuentra?

[@lhvp5332]

Thank you. ❤ you are a blessing. You are not the only one who experienced this.

[@CaitTaylor]

Thank you so much, your words mean a lot to me! 🩷

[@PeezyElijah-sq9xr]

Gloria Dios, Mamita, GOD Bless you🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️

[@waderivers99]

I am stunned. I have never heard anyone articulate a childhood that was so identical to mine. At fourteen I escaped with my mom, we were on the run and for years I looked over my shoulder. It effected me different, my ways of covering the shame manifested in many ways, primarily rebellion. At my lowest point I met God. It's taken many years to repair the damage. Ultimately I did the inconceivable, i had to forgive. I let it go. God freedom me from the bondage of hate and regret. You're testimony was is a blessing to others. God bless you for sharing.

[@Bless-the-Name]

Someone once asked me: why is there so much evil in the world. I told them the Book of Habakkuk covers the subject - but my thoughts speak to the Book of Daniel which says: The wise will stumble so they may be purified. I don't know how a wise person can stumble in a world that has no evil in it. Therefore ... evil serves a purpose - we may feel uncomfortable talking about. Learning to trust in God - through tribulation - is quintessentially the meaning of our existence here. We are all pilgrims on a journey to our eternal home with the Father in Heaven. Thank you for sharing ❤

[@keramidasnicolas2079]

_"Coincidences are just moments that God choses to be anonymous."_ I keep this one. Let me tell you, young lady, that you have great courage to share this testimony on the internet, whatever its usefulness for you or for others.

[@keramidasnicolas2079]

_"He cares too much to leave even one of us that has wandered off."_ He even abandons 99 sheep to find just one that was lost. ✝

[@courtr1588]

10:46 You have no idea how much I'm nodding right now... Every single thing... I know it. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@rochellefrank]

Thank you for sharing. I have lived a very similar life and pray your healing continues.❤

[@aspiecomputergeek9870]

I used to cry a lot in church as well. And I realized that it was just Jesus ministering to me, reaching down into the pain and just grabbing ahold of me. Again thank you for your testimony. It's good to meet people that have walked the CPTSD road. I know God has a good plan for my life and he's working on me every day. It's like that song Waymaker. He never stops working. God bless you. Keep standing up and speaking your testimony!

[@danielbourland1698]

I am 50yrs old. I can relate. My dad was a verbally an emotionally abusive drunk. He died 8yrs ago. I am glad he is dead, but I still have periodic nightmares about him. And even though I am a Christian, I have never had a close relationship with God, and I have tried. I am glad youj are in a better place now. Thank you

[@CaitTaylor]

I'm sorry to hear this was your experience with your dad, Daniel. You deserved so much better. I pray that God would reveal Himself to you as your true, Heavenly Father as you seek Him. Maybe this letter that was given to me would resonate with you too: www.fathersloveletter.com/ 🙏🏼 - Cait

[@elizabethtovar3603]

“Though my mother and father forsake me, you, O’Lord, never will”... Psalms

[@huertoterapia]

I write this comment to you through tears, it is a beautiful and powerful testimony. I felt moved when you talk about the love of our heavenly father, I needed it too. And there are so many "coincidences"... in my life, that brought me to tears. Father's love saved my life. Thanks for sharing it. I hug you with my soul. Love from Argentina. ❤🇦🇷✨️✨️✨️✨️

[@Karen-bv9di]

Cait, I needed to hear your testimony. I had found my father who committed suicide which caused horrible ptsd, among other very dysfunctional things in my childhood. Just recently I have been battling with panic and anxiety disorders from my past that were debilitating. Jesus saved me from myself so many years ago with a book that was circulating around called " Power For Living." He led me to you this morning, and I thank you for your story which we all need to hear, for so many of us can relate to your trauma. " I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me." Are words I live by when I am feeling anxious and " For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of Power, Love, and of Sound Mind." Thank you for giving your gift which is your testimony to us all! ❤️🙏 Karen

[@Anonymous-pk8bk]

I have a very similar situation to yours, which leads me to ask How old your were when your dad committed suicide? I would like to contact you if you’re ok with that. I mean just send a message if that be ok with you?

[@tulkali91]

😮 I was baptized today after being saved few yrs ago. I truly appreciate this testimony 🙏 I feel like your words are so close to my heart, I went through a lot of similar traumas and struggles and I definitely hit my rock bottom before I listened to God's call home. Thank you for sharing and congratulations on your courage and boldness to speak up for the Lord ❤

[@SDRicky]

I had seen many girls ,but your story really pierced through my heart , thankfully you have found the lord , no matter what happens in future , always stay in the path of lord. There is no one like Jesus , never will be . May god bless you and your family.

[@victorial8764]

The whole Texas clan of young women and their books, podcasts, and yt videos. This woman gives me so much more peace! God brought me to the right video. ❤

[@joyce6876]

Thank you so much for sharing Cait. I didn’t know that I NEEDED to hear this today, but I DID. I’ve been going through the mid-steps of healing and completely breaking away from a domestic violence relationship that I was in for 5 years….and many of the things you said that your stepdad did at the time….your testimony literally put me there for a moment because it happened to me from a different perspective. Your testimony has reminded me 1. God is here and working 2. It takes TIME to heal and let go of these things….and I haven’t been ready to begin healing because as you said…”I didn’t want to die, but I didn’t want to live either…” 3. I’m not alone…truly not alone. There are other people who understand too (like yourself) & especially God. 4. I do want to do this…for Him…for His Glory. I also watched your other video this morning about (how to fight back) & I’ve been going through a deep season of depression….& yesterday, I was just done. So I prayed to God and told Him just that and asked Him to change it or kill me…and He has BLESSED me with peace, engulfed me in a sweet tender hug and pulled me off the edge. And then brought your video to my page and I was reminded and it was made clear that the battlefield has been in my mind for so long…and I need to fight back with the SWORD of the SPIRIT, which is the WORD of GOD. Also, a word of encouragement that I heard before….some seasons we are hidden by the Lord so that He can develop, shape, and train us to depend on HIM and not our own understanding 🩵 You’re doing WONDERFUL work for the Kingdom of God and you’re GLORIFYING His Name so beautifully. Really, thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing your testimony with us…I really really needed to know that I am NOT physically alone on this earth in this battle of surviving trauma. May God Bless you and lead more people to your videos. 🩵💕

Your @CaitTaylor testimony is a genuine pearl to me 🥰. I watched several people speak intellectually about CPTSD, but you were the first believer on KZbin to talk about your own experiences. I could relate when you said, "Hard for my nervous system to lean into that feeling of calm because it never felt that. Life was unstable, and that was the norm." and when you pulled the covers up to your head and refused to talk to with the lady that asked about the school. I was in my mother's womb when the war broke out in Serbian (Yugoslavia) in 1991, which lasted until 2000. Due to this and other unfortunate circumstances, my mother's stress level was on 9/10 constantly when she carried me out. When I was one day old and separated from my mother, the fighter planes were so loud that above the hospital, even adult people were petrified. My father was less abusive than your stepfather. He gave us financial stability, but I constantly feared his random anger rages. He didn't beat my mother so heavily, but there were multiple examples of physical abuse. He wanted to prank me by pulling the boat into deep water when I was four. I in that time wasn't able to swim, and I got scared to death and started to shout, "Take me out, take me out," but he laughed at me and splashed into my boat. After this, I was afraid of water for years. Besides this, my father practiced occultism regularly (fortune telling, communicating with spiritual powers with a pendulum, etc.) 😔 Fast-forward (there were other traumas, meanwhile), and I accepted God's call at age 18. I experienced God's goodness in multiple areas of my life; for example, I suffered from computer game addiction, but I struggled with intrusive thoughts and froze many times when I got in danger. I regularly suppressed my emotions and was angry with myself about why I behaved so strangely. I started to process my past deeply more than a year ago. I spoke with my brother about these topics and realized that I had CPTSD as well. Right now, I am going forward on the healing journey. I'm sorry these things happened to you. It is encouraging that you look at them from the Romans 8:28 perspective. ❤ In your video, you mentioned that you are participating in therapy. Can you share some details about how you are healing?

[@malka8901]

I am a mom who has a daughter who was abused by her father unbeknownst to me as this happened after her father of my children separated from me. My daughter is in her mid forties . I am a born again believer. My daughter does not talk to her family(my ex-husband is deceased for many years. My daughter is not saved. Romans 8:28 is my life verse also. Praise the Lord. I will listen and see what you have today. Thank you.

[@Mablelight]

Am very happy to see you here Cait, I first saw you on tiktok like a year back and something about you kept me wanting to continue listening to you. I also noticed that you had stopped posting on tiktok but i have learnt about your mum's condition (thanks be to God that she is fine now). You have a beautiful heart, It is clearly seen through your videos. Am Mable, I am a Ugandan and I love you so much ❤

[@CaitTaylor]

Hi Mable! Thank you so much for still following along. I hope this podcast continues to be an encouragement to you 🤍

[@rmf2941]

"A father of the fatherless, and a defender of the widows, is God in His holy habitation." Blessings from Montana dear, young Lady. So many can relate and benefit for your testimony.

[@GabrielleLaferriere]

Love your testimony I was born with TOF I had 2 open heart surgery. I was severely bullied in public schools. Was more bullied on the bus and my next door neighbor who even bullied me as well. I grew up in church my whole life. I got saved when I was 5 years old. I was baptized when I was 7 years old. I had the same issue with my life I felt un wanted and un love. I had trust issues with people and still do. I am 25 years old now over the years I lost so many friends ships and I even had to get another heart surgery. I am runner now did 12 5k races 1 10k race. It's been difficult bc I have struggled with speech and Dyslexic, I still can't be friends who are my age bc I am afraid that they will be mean to me or say something un true. I have 2 older brothers who are both married now. I am still single. I never had any boyfriends ever bc for me is hard for other people to understand me and what I believe in. Thank you for telling your testimony story. It means lot to me. I an trying to tell others about my testimony story. It's not been easy for me Bc I can't tell them my story about Zofran I wasn't a loud to talk about on Facebook or any where. That's the drug that gave heart problems. And more people have this issues I am trying to stand up for people, rise up.

[@bengumz7320]

Thank you for sharing your story. I'm sorry you had (and still have) such difficulty in your life. You were born with TOF? Tracheo Esophageal Fistula?? I was too. Many surgeries when I was born, lots of scars all over, made me look and feel very different growing up and I got teased a lot too. I am also a runner, even though TOFs are not usually supposed to be able to. Anyway, just wanted to wish you well --- I don't run across many TOFs. Hope you find strength, joy, peace, and companionship in Christ. That's something I'm working on. Take care!!

[@live.the.revival]

Thank you so much for sharing this!! I was in a physically abusive relationship similar to the position your mum was in, but thank GOD He gave me the strength to leave when my baby was just 6 weeks old. Leaving wasn’t easy, I was stalked afterwards, nowhere felt safe. But the police were amazing and kept us safe! The courts let us down time and time again, but we have been safe for five years now, praise God! It took me four and a half years to forgive him. Now I pray for his salvation (while also praying he never comes back in to our lives)

[@rashidbinzaiyed7149]

If you're praying for his salvation and let's assume that he surrendered himself to God, and still why can't you accept your husband and your child's father?

[@live.the.revival]

@@rashidbinzaiyed7149 that is a very long story, too much to put into comments. This was a long time before I found Jesus. Since then I’ve had another baby and got married. I’m praying every day for guidance, I certainly don’t believe I’m making every correct choice and have Devine understanding or anything, but I’m truly doing my best, with all the consequences of my pre-Jesus sinful life 🙏🏽 I made a big old mess that’s for sure! I didn’t deserve forgiveness. I’m forever grateful for God’s grace 🥹🙏🏽

[@andrebotha6305]

Thank you for opening your heart to us,total strangers.

[@friendofGod99]

Sharing this with us was undoubtably difficult for you. I felt like I was there with you and my blood pressure increased more than once. Thanks you for sharing with all of us and especially the pamphlet spelling out His gospel of love. You are old enough to be my granddaughter and I must say that I am very proud of you. God bless !!!

[@perspicacity89]

I was building my keyboard while listening to this podcast and I legit broke down and cried, as a grown man. I'm so so sorry you went through that. But it speaks to the goodness of God and to your resounding courage and strength that you've turned your ashes into beauty. God bless your gorgeous soul and heart.

[@chatwithjesusluvsall]

That pamplet she gave you is so beautiful and how amazing that she listened to the Lord's leading to give it to you. I rejoice you came to know Jesus and are on the journey of healing.

[@MaraBettencourt]

Thank you Cait for your testimony. You are a strong soul! It takes strength to confront our past and to share our vulnerabilities. I can relate to your story in many ways. I knew God, but I tried to heal on my own, but in the last 2 years, my past came back to "haunt me", then I realized I wasn't fully healed. I had to dive deeper into my soul, but this time with the help of God. When you accept God, trust Him, and Surrender your life to Him, you begin to change. I'm now on a healing journey. I'm noticing that if I listen other people's testimonies, it can be triggering, but at the same time I feel that I'm confronting my trauma/fear, which can make me feel stronger and I don't feel alone. Thank you Cait. Much love to you.

[@Miha_3030]

I’m crying listening to this 😭 sending love Cait! ❤ looking forward to your next podcast 🙏

[@CaitTaylor]

🥺 Thank you for taking the time to watch, it means so much. See you on 31/1 for ep2! 🥰🤍

[@frankg1963]

Your testimony is powerful, I have share your video with my younger daughter that I believe the holy spirt has directed me to do so. Thank you Cait for sharing your wonderful stories, never give up your ministry, you are changing peoples lives !

[@CaitTaylor]

Thank you so much for the appreciation, Frank! It is such a blessing to me, truly. I pray my testimony resonates with your daughter and God would move in her life just as powerfully 🙏🏼

[@Spectoral_on_SPOTIFY]

Cait, I'm floored by what you shared. I'm so sorry for the trauma you and your brother and mother went through. I pray for your total healing from CPTSD. Your control and articulation as you share your story is remarkable and you are a truly inspiring woman in the way you turned to God through this and used it to turn so many of us closer to our Lord. The Holy Spirit is working through you and I'm here for it.

[@shadyabrown-hall5955]

This is beautiful yet sad. I'm in tears. Look at what God has done in your life despite what you have been through. Love you sweet sister ❤

[@SarahBearah2023]

Thank you, Cait. My older son Logan has no Earthly father. Abandoned since before birth. As a lone 51 year old parent, with a 21 year old disabled adult child, mostly nonverbal/mute with whole body seizures & fits of anxiety & rage... Please, pray for him to be healed. Thamk you. ❤

[@somethinggood9267]

I just read your comment and I'm wondering.....is it possible that demons are responsible for the muteness and the fits of rage. We hear a similar account in the bible....and the child was possessed by a demon. Jesus cast it out. Do you have people pray over your son on a regular basis?

[@DurityMike]

I am so grateful for your story. It is similar to mine. The funniest part for me was when you said, "I needed the whole trinity to help me" because of how you felt. Thank you for your courage. Everything you say is true

[@FaithAndPromises7192]

Cait 😢 your testimony fills my eyes with tear. It brings back memories of my own... And also a moment of reflection to how far ive come. Thank you for being vulnerable and for sharing your testimony. Keep being you and keep pursuing Jesus ❤ Society say 'yolo' (you only live once) 📌Belivers we live Twice!! 🙌

[@jpellenz92]

I'm sorry I could give you just one like, but I'm sure God will give you many more likes. That's such a beautiful testimony, God bless you Cait

[@keniavallejos2867]

God is so Good 😊! I have a friend who has a similar testimony. She saw her whole life flash in a second once she met God. And understood so many things about her life. She got so many answers ❤

[@andrewevans8456]

Your testimony is very powerfull! You are a very special and beautiful young lady and God is using you to reach many people! You have such a soothing voice which is very calming and lovely to listen to. Keep strong in the faith beautiful sister in Christ!

[@RoyMelendez07]

You are a living testimony of what God can do in someone’s life and how His love and mercy can transform lives. So proud of you. I’m sure God is very proud of how you have allowed Him to work in you after all your hardship growing up. God bless you so much.

[@aspiecomputergeek9870]

Complex PTSD and suicide attempts inpatient hospitalization for a year. These were all a part of my past. I was diagnosed on the autism spectrum when I was 11 and my father basically was raised with old school beliefs about autism and would constantly be telling me to be quiet and stop being weird. I developed CPTSD from being bullied growing up and being misunderstood by people but the whole thing is God really got ahold of me 10 years ago in 2015 and I was baptized and filled with the gift of the Holy Ghost and Jesus has really been cleansing me and helping me to deal with my past and just loving on me. Thank you for your testimony. It's good to know I'm not the only one that has been through this journey.

[@hilarybrown2528]

Your testimony will grow so much good fruit. Thank you. His pursuit is a love that refuses not to love. You are a beautiful daughter of a King! 🙏✝️🌷🙏

[@GodisGod100-bi]

You are much, much stronger than you think Cait. You are strong like a Lion 🦁 with the Tenacity as an 🦅 Eagle.

[@joshuamartinpryce1237]

The Father is the greatest supportive person in the spirit world.

[@micheleallen1402]

Such a beautiful beautiful testimony. What a precious girl you are. I am so sorry for what you endured as a child. My heart hurts for you. I hope its ok I share mine: I was born and raised in New Holstein, WI in a very good home. But deep inside of me there was an aching and hunger for more of God. When I was 17 I was shown in the Bible that “Ye must be born again”. I was told to say a “sinners prayer” I sincerely repented and cried rivers of heartfelt genuine tears. I was told I was “born again” But after a while I experienced feelings of the frustration and guilt of not being able to live for God. I could not seem to grow in God like the Bible talked about and continued to revert back to a sinful lifestyle. I felt utterly defeated Bc I could not stay faithful to God, His Word or His commandments. 2 years later I walked into an Apostolic Church and just like Apollos in Acts 18 I needed to be shown a more perfect and excellent way: The Gospel is the Death, Burial and Resurrection of Jesus Christ: (I Corinthians 15: 1-4). I learned to rightly divide the word of truth: The 4 Gospels: Matthew, Mark, Luke and John witness Jesus’ earthly ministry: He healed the sick, raised the dead, cast out demons and performed many miracles. In John 3, Nicodemus came to Jesus. They talked ABOUT being born again (JOHN 3:3-5 Except a man be born of the water and of the Spirit he cannot enter the kingdom of heaven) but no one was ACTUALLY born again in the 4 gospels. Before Calvary they were still under the law so it was not possible to be born again bc Jesus had not yet been glorified (John 7:37-39). This is why the thief on the cross was able to be in paradise...he was still under the dispensation of the law. It isn’t until the day of Pentecost, in Acts you witness people actually BEING born of the water by being baptized by immersion ONLY in the name of Jesus and BEING filled with the Holy Ghost with the evidence of speaking in tongues. Those years between the ages of 17-20 I was living on a repentance experience...leaving Jesus hanging there on the cross, so to speak. (Matthew 28:19, Mark 16:16, Acts 2:14-41, Acts 8:37-38, Acts 10:47-48) tells me I was not obeying the command to be buried with him in the waters of baptism and I had not received the Holy Ghost so thus was not resurrected to walk in newness of life. Therefore, could not live a victorious Christian life. It wasn’t until I was 19 that I was truly transformed and had the most amazing born again experience ever! I was born of the water as I went down in the name of Jesus (biblically not one person was baptized in Father, Son and Holy Ghost.) And I was born of the Spirit when I came up out of the water speaking g in tongues! It was the most powerful, glorious and wonderful, transformation experience I ever had. That was 39 years ago and I am so thankful to say from that point on I was then able to live an overcoming joy filled life bc from that point on I was truly born again. I will never go back to what I used to be!

[@greenblood5640]

I can't believe such a beautiful girl had to go through all of that. May God bless and protect you every day.

[@jacktrades8551]

This is the second video I have seen of yours and since you said you like comments I would write another one. When we see somebody we don't realize what all they have been through And we seem to always think they have it all together But little do we know? Or we will say if they knew what I went through until we listen to what they've been through. But all pain is pain It doesn't matter what level it is. Thank you for sharing your testimony I can't comprehend what you went through.I am On the other side of the world In another country. George saint Pierre did a podcast with Joe Rogan about his high school bully and how later on in life He ran into him when the man was down on his luck and george was able to alter his course by helping him and forgiving him. Can't comprehend how much the Lord loveplus.I am amazed every day. I enjoy how Much you love the Lord.Thank you for sharing again.

[@cbl336]

It takes a lot of courage to give such a transparent and heartfelt testimony. As others have commented, you're a natural and have articulated a message that mirrors many of our lives, and gives us hope, inspiration and faith that we can change. Our heavenly Father is always there for us, and for all to turn to Him. Thank you and God bless you 🙏

[@debrajvaughn]

Absolutely incredible. 😭♥️Thank you for sharing!! Praying that God uses this to encourage everyone who needs to hear it!🙏🙏🙏

[@CaitTaylor]

Thank you so much, Debra! Me too 🙏🏼🥹🤍

[@usertdineen]

My story is so similar only we moved to Australia in 1999 . Eventually same mum got divorced while my father was in Ireland. I too am just getting to know Jesus and also forgive even my grandparents and ex for not letting me see my son . Im going to church tomorrow morning for first time as i prayed last night that all i want is a close relationship with the father in heaven. I can relate so much to your testimony even though im a guy who was a young boy when i too seen my mom getting beaten by my father you have given me hope and faith to keep going . God bless you 🙏

[@overcomerrama1741]

Gosh CAIT !!! How relevant how relatable how TRUE!! The Lord bless you tenfold for making this video!

[@ryanlong382]

I grew up in a very similar environment. I had to "go to battle" for my mother more than once (only once I was old enough to stand up to him). I can relate to how you must have felt even though you had it much worse than I did. I know how difficult it is to heal from that. I'm so glad you chose to grow from it. Thank God. Isaiah 54: 13-14 👍

[@stephenhall8653]

I am very sorry Cait. The pain of bad memories that seem to bind us up for years. I will pray for your needs and God's provision.

[@mindbox11]

You are very beautiful in and out. I am so surprised at your testimony and grateful that you are doing well. I listened to every word. God likes to put us in a circumference in an instant, and thank you God for making Cait safe and loved.

[@shawnsimpson1900]

Cait your story breaks my heart, But I'm so very glad you could share it. I hear the such hidden pain covered by numbness. I do see God healing you, But I also such purpose in your pain. God is using what you went through for such good. Bless you sweet sister I truly Love listening and learning from you. May God give you the Peace you long for, For you are a Precious Daughter of God!!!

[@aaiem7p]

. God bless it is nice that you stay focused through Romans 8:28 I was apprehensive about listening to another person speak about their issues in life because we all do have it. I do agree with you that it is hard to really have a perspective when we don't have the full story. When someone is starting with that perspective I can say there is some genuine truth to where they're going. Thank you for that. It is hot as a child to not have the parent around but obviously we all have learned to make it through. Domestic violence is a big challenge and for a child it is very strange. It's not something we can fix nor should a child need to worry about something like that. Panera gets easier and there's never a perfect solution in life. As bad as it may be, there are many children who are often or go through far worse in other countries. Nothing excuses bad behavior but we also need to have gratitude for the blessings that God has given us. I can imagine for a little girl it is tougher. There is something in most men that causes us to want to fight and fix problems. Without that feeling I don't know what a little girl would conclude. At this point I'm only one third of the way into your story so I'm going to listen to the rest. But I do confess that I probably grew up with the Savior complex trying to prevent other people from going through the same drama. Communication is good, but we can't fix the past and we can't save everyone. We should not spend a life trying to correct history. God bless

[@CarmenChayilChan-gj4mj]

Wow!! This is such a powerful testimony! Thanks for sharing!! I was so touched and teared up! God loves and heals you from all your traumas! 8.28! Amen!❤

[@leenyloves]

The KZbin algorithm led me here and I'm so glad. What an incredible testimony and I pray it encourages someone who might have experienced something similar. God bless you and your walk, sis -in-Christ 🙌

[@bellis7772]

That would be me.

[@sammylg22]

If I didn’t know your story and heard your other podcasts I still would’ve thought you were wise and strong in your faith, intelligent and an amazing woman of God who I would look up to. I just found your channel and thank you for sharing your story. I pray for your healing and celebrate what I imagine God has brought you through.

[@chantalhounsom744]

Brave, brave young lady...I honour you for sharing this hope filled testimony! May you continue to flourish (and share) as God's precious daughter...🙏🧡🙏

[@kraxlee]

You voice is very soothing and creates a calm in me. I'm an Entrepreneur so, life is always a rush. Your testimony had been tragic, yet, you tell it in such calmness that puts me at peace. I came from a loving Christian family and abuse is foreign to me even within my relatives. I'm planning to donate into you and learn more about you.

[@shinigamialessandro]

you are a girl of disarming sweetness. she broke my heart. I wish you all the best because you deserve it. There is so much evil out there and we must fight it together. It's not easy, I know. especially when she touches us personally. but it can be healed, I have a similar story to yours and little by little with God and therapy I start to feel better. all my love

[@lindamartin3577]

Thank you for your courage to share these painful memories. I am praising God with you for His love and for His work in your life. Truly, Jesus desires life abundant for each of us. He hears our cries. He is our Healer. He is everything good-love and light! Your testimony stirs me to give God thanks.

[@Memmyries]

Such a beautiful testimony! Thank you for sharing it with us! God is always with us, nudging us towards him, he is the perfect gentleman. He has known you and loved you beyond measure, since the day you were conceived! May God continually bless you Cait! ❤❤

[@r-i24]

What an INSPIRATION this testimony is💯💯 *Cait, this is just the beginning of an amazing life God has planned for you. Jeremiah 29:11* I was so glued to every word you spoke. *As a Catholic based in India, will pray for you daily and at the Blessed sacrament on Sunday and Eucharistic elevation.* Continue to share Jesus' Love and be His light to the troubled world. Really would love to meet up someday🙏🙏

[@venesy5664]

Great testimony. Well done for sharing the way you did. Very brave and powerful. Our Father, our True Dad is wooing is all the time, we just don’t understand nor realise. His heart is large. Very very large. The pain He felt for you Cait and all of us was poured out upon that cross. Thankyou Jesus for Cait life her bravery and all you’ve done and are doing and will to do as You and she move forward with her life. Thankyou Lord. Amen 🙏

[@cjfeltz2470]

Such a beautiful and powerful testimony!! God's grace has been with you since the beginning!

[@christopherr316]

Speechless! It’s amazing, Cait! 🎉🤩✝️

[@CaitTaylor]

Thank you for taking the time to watch, Chris! ☺

[@christopherr316]

@@CaitTaylor Wouldn’t have missed it!

[@DaveTweedy-xb1gk]

I’m sure you have heard this before but I’m sending you a heart felt “if you ever need anything, assistance or support” please keep my contact information! God is using you dear one, thank you for sharing your testimony. Keep the faith Cait and may God wrap his arms around you just now

[@sarahthompson7851]

Wow! What an amazing testimony! God bless you! Listening from Virginia usa 🇺🇸

[@donnag.3611]

Thank you Cait for this beautiful testimony! It's so packed w/ both your heart & the Lord's heart for you!

[@the.life.eternal]

Powerful testimony, Cait! Thank you for being brave enough to share your story. Thank You, Lord for saving her and strengthening her to share this with us!

[@familiacorniel1106]

I almost cried 7 times while listening to your testimony. Truly, this is powerful.

[@loriboyd4420]

Amen Sister. Never stop leaning into our Lord

[@henryrivas2525]

What amazing testimony?Thank you for sharing your life with the world! It's the world that will hear.! And the world we'll know that there is hope for them as well. I work at a woman's prison and even in there, women would know that there's hope for them through your testimony. And they could be free from their mind, and they don't have to be a prisoner of their own heart. Thank you so much. ..

[@giselle_raimairi]

God bless you beautiful❤, it’s such a blessing to have you be alive and well and I’m so thankful to God for you ! ❤️

[@ErnestJamesjr]

Your a walking testimony of the GOOD LORD. Blessings of the Lord be upon you Always. Appreciated sincerely keeped

[@alexprieto8277]

I have a similar backstory where my father is concerned. My father and my mom were together then separated before I was born. then my father went to prison. I grew up not knowing my father and my mom told me some things about him but I never really thought about him. I grew up in an abusive household. my grandfather was an alcoholic and my mom didn't make enough money to live on our own. growing up like that as a man is hard. I'm expected to be a certain way but instead I was very anxious and "shy" all the time. I'm just now getting through a lot of this stuff and getting my life together at 35. I suffered with mental illness for 15 years, I experienced panic attacks, depression, anxiety, delusions, etc. I'm now well enough to continue trying to get work and move on. but it's not easy. thank you for sharing this. I'm sorry you went through all of this. You are strong.

[@emilyjackson9234]

You are so incredibly strong. The way you kept your composure throughout this whole video… thank you so much for sharing.

[@joseangelalvarez74]

Great testimony! Sorry to hear about all the trauma you went through and may God grant you healing!

[@louisebester1660]

Wow! You brought me joy and hope to deepen my relationship with God my Father. He is not angry with me. 🙏🙈

[@jazznutz]

Bless your heart and soul. Thank you for sharing in such a real way. I just know you are blessing so many besides me. I believed every word and was riveted!

[@aussiejim5688]

Hi! I am new to your channel and this is probably the 3rd podcast I have seen of yours (and a subscriber). I realise you posted this nearly a year ago but thank you for your openness in sharing your testimony. Your story broke my heart in many different parts of your story. Particularly that reading you read out coming from Psalm 139 which may even be my favourite chapter in the whole Bible. I praise God for you. He holds you in His hand as your strength and resilience is amazing. On a side note, you also have a wonderful speaking voice. It's so clear and soothing. May God continue to bless you.

[@charisedaniels1237]

Thank you for sharing!!! The hardships we go through can become a blessing in our lives and the lives of others. God really is always there even when we feel alone. I look forward to future vids.

[@CaitTaylor]

So true, Charise. He is working all things together for good even in the hardest moments. Thank you for taking the time to hear my story and for following along! I appreciate you 🤍

[@linetteruffino9576]

We're here and listening. Firstly, thanksgiving and praises the Lord for lending you a calm approach in order to express the storms you've endured. Thank you for your bravery to share your incredible testimony. It lends hope and extends inspiration. May your journey bless you, offer strength right back to you, especially on days you need it most. Lord & Heavenly Father, Creator of Heaven & Earth; Maker of all that is seen & unseen. Blessed & worthy are you for opening the need to connect us as we forge ahead knowing in our heart of hearts your sincerity, falling to deeper faith for all that you today, forever & always. We offer gratitude, a need to welcome you and a love that can never match your majesty. Here we are. In Jesus name Yadah Yahweh Amen🕯️🙏🏽🌱💫🫶🏽🙌🏽

[@amandabriggs6527]

Good job my beautiful Sister! May God bless you, guide you, and keep you safe. I am SO PROUD of you and thank God for using you to share your personal testimony and encourage other women! All glory be to God! 🙏💜🙏

[@rose5566]

God bless you dear. 🙏 You have been through so much for such a young girl. Your faith in the Lord is what has saved you and your testimony is going to save others who are going through similar trauma ✨✨✨

[@GrownGirlGlowUp]

Thank you for sharing your 828 story. God Bless You!

[@aestheticiantrishmccarty1317]

You have such a sweet calming voice. ❤ thank you for sharing! Please continue speaking!!! So many need your voice

[@Melisit83]

I had depression for decades. My daughter had depression, anxiety and ADHD from 12-16. Through a prophet God told me to stop with the medicine (to which at this point we were both addicted to. My dose was the highest available and even then sometimes it didn’t work). I stopped it but restarted it after a few weeks due to headaches. The prophet called me and asked me if I was still taking the medicine. I said yes I had very bad headaches. She told me to fight the headaches with scripture and to not ever take it again. Since then we both stopped taking every medicine and stop saying I have depression, my daughter has adhd, etc. God cute me, I had joy I was able to wake up, the headaches stopped. This was a year ago, I had no faith or relationship with him back then. He still healed me. He can do the same thing for you. All it takes is you asking. You are his heir and his daughter. Believe it and he will do it!!!! Thank you for all your videos! They are beautiful. You have a new subscriber here ❤

[@alexandra7751]

I pray humbly for my loving Lord Jesus to extend His grace to have the ability to use my voice to speak my story. I am speechless and have a hard time to open my voice to share. You are a courageous and brave beautiful soul. You inspire me and my heart is full of love for you. Praise God that you won the victory of life. I myself have CPTSD. 😢💔

[@bellis7772]

Dear Cait. I am crying. Wow...! There are a lot of parallels in our stories, a lot! I too grew up without knowing my father, him getting a new family, and the deep feeling of rejection from it that became ingrained in me. The knowledge and longing for God throughout my childhood. The eating disorder. Crying all throughout a church service that my friend brought me along for. Even down to the quote that you ended the video with, Psalm 40:2, it was one of the first verses I memorized when I got saved two years ago. It was like hearing somebody else tell me my story, and it made me look at areas of my life that are still somewhat covered in shame (the fatherlessness) in a new way, in a way that softens my heart towards it. Thank you for sharing your testimony!❤ As you can probably hear it had a big impact on me. And thank you Jesus for bringing me here; your love, consideration and timing never seize to astound me!!🙏❤️🙏

[@billiehaoneohaokip8140]

Thank you so much for sharing this. May Christ who has rescued you, always be your comforter.

[@PeezyElijah-sq9xr]

You Gotta be Interviewed Girl... Cuz I've had the same Experiences, Just not ALL of them... But Thank GOD I can relate to you a Little bit.... That's Just amazing... Your story Is Beautiful.

[@rebeckaruneson2803]

❤ Thank you for telling your story. I have also CPTSD and it makes my heart happy to for the first time hear someone who tells both about CPTSD and the christian perspective. God bless you and protect you!

[@CaitTaylor]

So happy you’re here! 🤍🤍