New album “Nicole” out August 12th. Pre-order/pre-save: niki.lnk.to/Nicole
@StanleySoekosin2 жыл бұрын
Autumn is my favorite ❤ I made a cover of it
@masmudahmad Жыл бұрын
Kooooooooooo
@33.putumeita626 ай бұрын
@irmayantiseptianaputri24774 ай бұрын
😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊
@irmayantiseptianaputri24774 ай бұрын
😊😊😊😊😊
@spicycatie2 жыл бұрын
It has been 4 months since I was betrayed by the person I thought I was going to spend my life with. This song just perfectly describes how difficult it was for me. We both promised we won’t outgrow each other but now we’re both strangers in each other’s lives. And right now I’m still having such a difficult time letting him go and giving up the ghost of who he was with me despite getting cheated on. I think deep down I will always love him but Niki is right and I have to believe that someday I’d be fine, it’s not my fault and all I can do is wish him well and start healing without him. I just hope it come sooner because everyday i feel more dead than i was the day before.
@marisadews2 жыл бұрын
so many people shared their break-up stories by this song including you. I'm so cryinggg
@Homieeeeeeeeeeeeee2 жыл бұрын
That's alr. For me it's been almost e yrs. Yes, I haven't doing fine. But at least I'm breathing atm. Sometimes I still longing for her, bcs being with her feels like a routine i couldn't skip. But guess that's the way so that we could grow. Cheers, hun
@Homieeeeeeeeeeeeee2 жыл бұрын
3 yrs, fck me
@keyshafirafirdausa12452 жыл бұрын
I hope by letting him go you will find your happiness with yourself or with someone else better. It's hard but you will be fine.
@Eleganttf22 жыл бұрын
Same, except its been a month since she left me for another. Already planned my future with her since she's my first but life has other plan for me it seems
@bulletrangercaliber9222 жыл бұрын
"But I'm letting go, I'm giving up the ghost" This lyric had an impact to me. It feels like it is for me. I'm giving up my ghost: my past self that keeps haunting and torment me. I forgive myself, I'll heal myself. For those who read this who have the same ghost as mine, in time, I hope you'll able heal.
@MarielKylle2 жыл бұрын
it’s “you’re the one thing i swear i can’t outgrow” for me 😭😭
@iandomingotv510 Жыл бұрын
Imcrying 😭😭😭😭
@altelasoftware29925 ай бұрын
its been a year now i hope all is well, strangers
@sydneyf.81932 жыл бұрын
the emotion of this song, niki never fails to paint a beautiful and melancholic story
@prataykarali2776 Жыл бұрын
The story she narrates through the song is just sooo true and soo much relatable ❤️once you find your love of life
@Reylandson2 жыл бұрын
I can't conceive the idea of having a brain that knows how to write like this. This is one of the greatest examples of lyricism I've ever seen.
@naulahamidah65122 жыл бұрын
I feel like particular rhyming styles belong to Eminem or Tupac or the other great old school rappers, some angsty lines sound like inspired by Lorde, and I do see a lot of Taylor Swift in nearly all her songs. That’s just my take, some random girl who is a fan to only songwriters. I think she’s the first Indonesian singer who can nail close to their levels of lyrical excellency, I very much agree.
@yenniaulia30612 жыл бұрын
And she wrote this when she was 16! 🤯
@justthisgirl29442 жыл бұрын
@@naulahamidah6512 still her songs is original
@naulahamidah65122 жыл бұрын
@@justthisgirl2944 no one says otherwise😀
@jaydgracia2 жыл бұрын
So far the best❤️❤️
@lilali97972 жыл бұрын
ok but the visual where the plane actually reaches the right side of the screen and disappears before the song ends is SO POETIC because how many times have we wanted to say what we wanted to and had to say to a person who leaves sooner than anticipated? IT'S SO HEARTWRENCHING AAAAAA
@wiltedhawthorn2 жыл бұрын
my girl giving us EVERYTHING in this album i bet. if she doesn't get the recognition she deserves, i'll riot.
@seulgisbaguette15432 жыл бұрын
Shhhh she’s our little secret
@jan.9932 жыл бұрын
She gotta have at least one nomination for this album, if not Im gonna riot
@seulgisbaguette15432 жыл бұрын
@@jan.993 She def should 🙌
@chrislee70492 жыл бұрын
No way she doesn’t get it
@zerad33072 жыл бұрын
Count me in
@joshuadimayuga44002 жыл бұрын
I took this song a different way than intended. My grandpa just passed away and the way I feel the lyrics is through the perspective of my grandma and her love and story with him before he passed leading to the very moment he passed. Nothing but eternal love in their eyes, soul, and touch until the very end. This song made my heart cry a little thinking about it and thinking about how much we miss him. Beautiful song released at the perfect time. Thank you NIKI 🤍🕊
@marisadews2 жыл бұрын
I cry for this. My deepest condolences to your grandpa :"
@faith73612 жыл бұрын
my condolences. i felt the same. because my dad passed away. yesterday's my mom's second year of celebrating their anniversary without him.
@joshuadimayuga44002 жыл бұрын
Thank you for the condolences and messages of support everyone. Been a month since and it’s still difficult. The funeral and burial in Philippines (where he wanted to be buried rather than in Canada) was beautiful. And Faith, my condolences to you as well 🤍
@aireenfarah892 жыл бұрын
this song is perfectly worded for my situation… waking up every day asking myself “how is it now that somehow you’re a stranger you were mine just yesterday” and it breaks me a little more. it might take a while to heal, i know it… but i gotta do it. i cant be the only one living in the loop while he is already out moving and looking for next phases in life. it would be hard and i am not okay most of the days. how can I be? i lost the piece of puzzle that fits the vacant space in my heart… i lost the sunshine that brightens up my day and night, the one that illuminates the path when it was dark for me. maybe i was stupid.. i took this relationship seriously and thought this relationship was a beautiful feeling to ever happened.. but it takes two to tango… it takes two to make a relationship work. maybe i wasn’t worthy enough to be fought harder, not as much as your words when it do the convincing. i don’t know when will this feeling diminish but everyday, i just got to try.. even the sound of my heart screaming echoes throughout the horizon telling the world i don’t want to let you… but i got to do it… i have to do it…
@cleotells2 жыл бұрын
I don't have a lovelife, nor am I broken hearted, but I just have this urge to cry my eyes out and embrace this nonexistent pain while listening to this song. Niki, why T_T
@roses79012 жыл бұрын
same story :”)
@wilyanajo64342 жыл бұрын
In a happy relationship and I also teared up 😅
@fsfs40242 жыл бұрын
Same same sameeee. My tears, pouring down 😤😤😤😤🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲
@diansapuart2 жыл бұрын
I am single asf but still tearing up, this reminds me of my friend's story
@Rafa-zs2fm Жыл бұрын
Same, idk why I crying here
@_code7_2452 жыл бұрын
Stoopp her timing 😭 my ex and I were huge 88rising fans and niki was our queen. We got closer thanks to them and heard songs that got us together, but now a year later today I'm officially letting go. Bruh I can't, imma cry again 💀
@irfanfaishalh10542 жыл бұрын
wtf thats sad and awkward at the same time
@azureflute32662 жыл бұрын
imagine you both listening to this song and just.. cry in the corner 🥲
@al279912 жыл бұрын
BROOOOO, SAMEEE TT TT
@falasifahpuspitaningrum35502 жыл бұрын
Lyrics Saturday sunset We're lying on my bed with five hours to go Fingers entwined and so were our minds Crying, I don't want you to go You wiped away tears But not fears under the still and clear indigo You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine" "You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow" My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy Well, nothing then much has changed 'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor My soul, it gets sicker But I'm sticking to the screenplay Gotta say I'm okay But answer this, babe How is it now that somehow you're a stranger? You were mine just yesterday I prayed the block in my airway dissipates And instead deters your airplane's way But heaven denied Destiny decried Something beautiful died Too soon But I'm letting go I'm giving up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright Someday I'll be fine But just not tonight (Oh) Plunging into all kinds of diversions Like blush wine and sonorous soirées But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline I see you're all that can intoxicate Oceans and engines You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs 'Cause now my heart's home All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away And I'm not okay But I'm letting go I'm givin' up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright But just not Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones (Hm) Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down You've lost all solid ground Both dreams and demons drowned And this void's all you've found And doubts light it aglow I have so many questions But I'm pouring them into the ocean And I'm starting up my engine And I'm letting go I'm givin' up your ghost It's come to a close I marked the end with this last song I wrote I'm letting go This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you My great lost love.
@nurnaningsih94072 жыл бұрын
@@naulahamidah6512 why not
@21shintaswift2 жыл бұрын
@@naulahamidah6512 to sing along better?
@Feruchadam2 жыл бұрын
Damn the boy that she wrote this song must be thinking all sorts of regrets now. I know she’s happy now but damn, a girl wrote what used to be her whole world for her, and must felt like tons of bricks now to let go such a rare diamond like Nicole💝
@jayem-nw5cn4 ай бұрын
"I know I’ll be alright. But just not tonight" struck my heart so much.
@wiltedhawthorn2 жыл бұрын
words cannot describe how grateful i feel that she decided to record this song again and damn, have to say i fall in love with this song like the first time😭❤
@hijkadek2 жыл бұрын
Me as well🥹
@erinm74692 жыл бұрын
i’m new here. when did she record it before?
@justthisgirl29442 жыл бұрын
@@erinm7469 she wrote this song when she's 16 and uploaded it like 3 years ago. She only just released the whole song in her new album now
@jezrayahgc2 жыл бұрын
this brings so much memories of relationships we've outgrown - people we thought we could spend the rest of our lives with; though we also know would eventually end
@dystephiary2 жыл бұрын
The song feels like the universe’s way of telling me to move on. And say goodbye to his ghost. It’s been four months since left after seven long years of being together.
@gynhendryana84692 жыл бұрын
Same with me too.. for seven long years of being together but i must let him go btw.. 🥲
@yellowsprinkles8288 Жыл бұрын
I hope u guys heal in your own pace that must hurt so much :c
@slashhack14632 жыл бұрын
Aside from the humming melody, as a 'lyrics person', how she transfers one line to another, rhymes, and chose the phrasings, I can't help but be stunned and be dosed of amazement each swing and turn of the song. Such brilliance and genius of Niki as a songwriter!!
@johnseredey2858 Жыл бұрын
and the fact that she is indonesian😭
@Khookies-lp2lu9 ай бұрын
@@johnseredey2858 what about it?
@ieantayoeh Жыл бұрын
When she said, “my great lost love” - you know that line will dig deep in your veins, it’s sad
@ObliviousMind-eg4mf5 ай бұрын
The one person who I cherished wholeheartedly, who made me feel whole, is the reason why there are pieces of me scattered everywhere. This is my first experience with heartbreak and seeing them with someone else in less than 6 months, really took a toll on me. A bad habit of mine is touching my wounds which prevents them from healing, I'm slowly getting there, I wish to make myself whole this time, so that whatever comes my way won't break me like it did last time.
@reimundangelosagansay65522 жыл бұрын
She's a real lyricist, artist, name it. A masterpiece.
@bramarmo2 жыл бұрын
niki's song never miss T_T
@ooo7Hannn7ooo2 жыл бұрын
Niki's voice is so calming.
@hikariii272 жыл бұрын
Emphasizing that one word “Goodbye” in the most beautiful and painful way. What an amazing talent.
@istoberi46012 жыл бұрын
NIKI never fails in lyrics mastery
@YankeeGonzales1510 ай бұрын
b
@dankemems47012 жыл бұрын
"and the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones" my favorite line. what an absolutely perfect description of the words "i love you"
@an.kwnvlogs Жыл бұрын
it's been 2 weeks since we broke up, we dated for almost 4 years. I gave him my everything and was always patient with him when he was struggling physically or mentally. He has so much trauma from his childhood that it was hard for him to open up to me despite me always trying to support him through it. After a certain point I got tired of being "the teacher," I shouldn't have to teach you how I want to be loved repeatedly for years. I decided to end things with him, but deep down I'm still so desperately in love with him, I want to be there for him and watch him grow. I know he feels the same way but he never showed that his actions would change, I feel like its a lost cause. I know I should move on but I'm so stuck on this idea that we can work it out this time, we can have our happy ending like we were supposed to... I want to believe we were meant to be together and we'll find each other again, I can't imagine myself with anyone else but him....
@sakilakarema53462 жыл бұрын
tHE AMOUNT OF PAIN THAT I FEEL WHILE HEARING THE LYRICS. GOD ONLY KNOWS HOW IT WRENCHED MY HEART
@jmuziks96882 жыл бұрын
I'm glad you finally released this song. It was indeed a masterpiece. 🎶
@mensrea12512 жыл бұрын
I’m usually a tune and melody person, but holy the lyrics. It’s mantra, it’s prayer. Where does such genius come from.
@pribadyo2 жыл бұрын
istg the bridge of this song is EVERYTHING grabe sinuntok ang pader
@anastasiairma8899 Жыл бұрын
moonbin-ah, like the lyrics of this song, now I'm letting u go, be the brightest star in the sky so i can see u in a long time, be happy in there cuz no one can hurt u now my love, I'll still love u from here!🤍
@LunarPrism344 ай бұрын
I’ve been off and on with someone for 7 years, starting in highschool. She knows me better than my own parents do, or she used to. I’ve never been able to recreate what I felt with her when times were good, it’s almost like a high that I keep chasing. But she’s continuously left me throughout the years, sometimes understandably, but usually in an effed up way. I could not let go of this person, and I’m still struggling to do so. They’ve made excuses for why they leave, telling me it’s because of their problems, and then they’ll come right back telling me that they still love me. I’ve finally learned how to love myself, and how to appreciate the life I have. I think I will always love her, because of the times we had and the impact she had on me as a human being, but I can’t say I love myself while continuing to go in circles with a person who very obviously doesn’t love me in the same way. Letting go is unbelievably hard
@indrawoody43822 жыл бұрын
This is an old song of her way back before 88. Listen to her first version of this song, you'll appreciate how far she's come..
@fahmihuwaidi53852 жыл бұрын
can you put the link of the first ver?
@indrawoody43822 жыл бұрын
Just type Niki Oceans and engines, you'll see she's playing acoustic guitar while singing, that's the very first version of this song. People re upload it coz she probably take down her own.
@indrawoody43822 жыл бұрын
@@fahmihuwaidi5385 bangke lu fahmi, kitakan bisa pake bahasa indonesia ya, ngapain reply dalam bahasa engres 😂🤣
@belapoleka99142 жыл бұрын
@@fahmihuwaidi5385 you can see in this channel. Its so good kzbin.info/www/bejne/i4WngICrptKUr68
@chuchay17762 жыл бұрын
@@fahmihuwaidi5385 it’s still up there! just look up the title following her name : Nicole Zefanya
@wiltedhawthorn2 жыл бұрын
NICOLE IS COMING BACK AND EVEN STRONGER THAN BEFORE WOHOO
@madamesasha86642 жыл бұрын
I listen to this song while thinking about my friend group, that are not together anymore. Some of them might be hates me, but they will forever be my favorite living soul. There's a lot of things happened in June, and I wish I could turn back time so i can live the moment forever. ♾️ Beautiful things ends too soon.
@imrank92822 жыл бұрын
Joji finally getting recognised in music charts, it's only a matter of time before Niki does too
@azureflute32662 жыл бұрын
yess
@pyungjung55982 жыл бұрын
Three months ago when this song released, I feel like "Ah this song so sad" But just feel sad and nothing more. Until today, when this song playing on coffee shop while I'm doing my work, I'm crying alone because the lyrics so relate about what I feel right now. It's been 12 days my mom passed away, I don't know about my feeling, I just feel lost like half my soul gone. I am crying so hard when lyrics "I'm know I'll be alright, someday I will be fine, but just not tonight" I believe in myself if I am gonna be alright but not today. I'm not okay, totally not okay but I need to letting go, I'm giving up the ghost, don't get me wrong, I always love you that's why I wrote this long sentence. I love you always mom🤍 I wish in another life I still your daughter, see you on another life mom🤍 I'm gonna fine, don't worry about me.
@rollenamercado60332 жыл бұрын
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
@kentjustinegilig32452 ай бұрын
Same… i lost my dad too just this year and i swear it hurts so much… we’ll be alright… but just not tonight
@ynot4822 жыл бұрын
Ty Niki for bringing back this track with this rendition
@ElmitaSariBrbukit2 жыл бұрын
" I know i'll be alright, but just not tonight" That's hurt
@Pachuchichay_262 жыл бұрын
i don’t know if you’ll be able to read this, but if ever… hoping you’d someday be with someone who’ll treasure you same as me or more than I can give you cuz you’re always worth it. I’m sorry I failed you to the point that your love for me can’t be brought back. I’ll be loving you in silence, my last love, Ro💗
@novih6872Ай бұрын
😢😢😢😢😢
@Den-bx8io2 жыл бұрын
this song hits different when the reason of your separation is to pursue your own goals and dreams. I really miss him and literally crying right now.
@JowaniTinBini2 ай бұрын
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@meganloyola2 жыл бұрын
this is such a masterpiece. the emotions are overflowing. 🥺
@KenzoDW Жыл бұрын
"Heaven denied Destiny Decried something beautiful died" Such heartwarming lyrics
@indahdwi492 ай бұрын
Niki ini lagu favorit aku, setiap ada waktu kosong, curi2 di waktu kerja, di halte bis, di jalan aku pulang ke kosan lagu kamu selalu jadi pilihan buat playlist aku. Aku suka dengan suasana magis yang dibangun oleh Ocean and engines aku suka dengan senandung yg bisa aku ucapin di setiap langkah aku pulang. Pokoknya I really love this song and you Wkwkkw thankyou ❤❤
@alienmeyer2 жыл бұрын
This is SO beautifully-written. I feel the words even though I'm not broken 😢 You are a genius, Niki!
@helenawongulangu4793 Жыл бұрын
Feel the same😢😢
@minorchord2 жыл бұрын
We need an acoustic version now 🥺
@dankemems47012 жыл бұрын
that would be the original version
@shoera52372 жыл бұрын
DAMNNNNNN I REMEMBER THIS WAS MY FIRST NIKI'S SONG BACK THEN WHEN SHE HAD HER LITTLE KZbin CHANNEL im so amazed she finally released this!!! i hope you can release Lullaby soon :(
@wawjonas2 жыл бұрын
YES PLEASE LULLABY
@shoera52372 жыл бұрын
@@wawjonas FAMMMMM SING ALONGGGG, AM I DERANGED TO MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUU (screammmfhdgsjdh)
@naomiaprilperegrino96932 жыл бұрын
YES SAME!!! THE URGE TO GATEKEEP THO 😭
@mariaarossaa2 жыл бұрын
her songwriting is so unbelievably brilliant. No words sound forced, they all have meaning behind them, absolutely stunning
@Elfarielle2 жыл бұрын
Song is immaculate :") she is one of the top lyricist and singer storyteller for me ❤️
@lianashleyasence2142 жыл бұрын
Damn if this song won't hurt you, brb I'm just gonna cry in the corner.
@JasminEsmundo2 ай бұрын
I hope he's also feeling the same pain I've feeling tonight.
@nanana-ym6nq2 жыл бұрын
Saturday sunset We're lying on my bed with five hours to go Fingers entwined and so were our minds Crying, "I don't want you to go" You wiped away tears But not fears under the still and clear indigo You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow" My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy Well, nothing then, much has changed 'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor My soul, it gets sicker But I'm sticking to the screenplay Gotta say I'm okay But answer this, babe How is it now that, somehow, you're a strangеr? You were mine just yеsterday I pray the block in my airway dissipates And instead deters your airplane's way But heaven denied Destiny decried Something beautiful died Too soon But I'm letting go I'm giving up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you That's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright Someday, I'll be fine But just not tonight, (uu-uuh) Plunging into all kinds of diversions Like blush wine and sonorous soirées But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline I see you're all that can intoxicate Oceans and engines You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs Cause now my heart's home All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away And I'm not okay But I'm letting go I'm giving up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you That's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright But just not Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia Two years ago And the first time I learned real world superpowers Lived in three words They revitalize my fraying bones, oh Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down You've lost all solid ground Both dreams and demons drowned And this void's all you've found And doubts light it aglow I have so many questions But I'm pouring them into the ocean And I'm starting up my engine And I'm letting go I'm givin' up your ghost It's come to a close I marked the end with this last song I wrote I'm letting go This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you My great lost love
@cstraussky2 жыл бұрын
well what i can say that can't waittt for your album. First before and now Oceans & Engines ... *brb prepare all the emotions*
@xyranahyumimirrar81572 жыл бұрын
NIKI singing this song with her mature voice hits different. MANIFESTING FOR ON THE DRIVE HOME TO HAVE ITS STUDIO VERSION TOO 😭😭😭
@10-kaylaanandhiya36 Жыл бұрын
had to give up my boyfriend going abroad for college, yet we still trying to make it work for both of us. i sometimes don’t know whether we could make it or how and when this would end, i hope there’s no end in our story though ❤ i always play this song whenever i miss him alot on certain days, thank you niki for this song 🥺❤️
@rizzamayramos Жыл бұрын
7 days to live eto Yung iniyakan ko Ng sobra
@audreyeol Жыл бұрын
I heard this song for the first time today and I don't know how something so sad can be so beautiful at the same time 🥺
@abiyahhhh10 ай бұрын
Niki, you perfectly wrote a song that describes the feeling of losing someone. It's been 5 months since I lost my partner and best friend. I don't wish this kind of pain to anyone because it really feels like you lost a part of you and he brought it with him. I always love him but I have no choice but to let him go. I want to see him thriving in life. I want him to be okay. I want him to find himself and appreciate life and the genuine people around him even if that means not having me in his life.
@tiooonyut90445 ай бұрын
This is the biggest heartbreak I have ever experienced 💔
@tourneykoksettingan29995 ай бұрын
☹️☹️ you know what hurts the most? She gave me many reasons to leave yet I stayed. But when I gave her multiple reasons to stay, she still left me anyway😔💔
@cherrym32027 ай бұрын
I just saw this song again on my youtube feed and decided to listen. This song broke my heart the moment i first heard it, but also healed it as I dove into the lyrics, meaning it kindof helped me move on, it's like talking to myself but someone else is giving me the words to say while I was still moving on from him.. Niki is such a great artist. I truly appreciate her songs, I'm sure alot of people relate to her songs and i hope she gets the recognition she deserves. I love her 😭💗💗
@alejatoledo47112 жыл бұрын
This song just... Man, enserió amo mucho como canta NIKI, es tan arte
@jamieferris926310 ай бұрын
niki😢 thank you for this wonderful story and beautiful song
@abdushobur69622 жыл бұрын
how good is she?! like look at that words :((. i totally cry and so proud in the same time
@merakioreopotatoe836711 ай бұрын
oh to listen to NIKI at this lonely night, you tell the story perfectly.
@rizwarramadhan97312 жыл бұрын
she's a good singer and a good poet at the same time,unbelievable
@belapoleka99142 жыл бұрын
Finally this kind of niki is back. Love her indie vibes before at 88 rising. ❣️
@senjagt2 жыл бұрын
You’re so single that no one comes in mind while listening to this masterpiece but still you bawled 😔
@samasami242 жыл бұрын
i'm doing fine and relationship's healthy as ever, but idk how this song made me so broken and tearing up and all......
@rachelleanneremigio7523 Жыл бұрын
It was last year when we lost that kind of "connection" we had before. I almost thought that we'd end up together. I indulged myself in this fantasy that he will be the one to save me from all these emotional turmoil and trauma I have locked myself into. I didn't care if I seem too emotionally needy. When he is around, I am happy and that was all that mattered. We used to spend late nights kissing and cuddling and I thought that was already enough sign that he actually liked me - that it will lead to something beautiful. But it was just a fantasy I created inside my head, and I have put him in this kind of pedestal that he can't even fathom. It broke my heart when he was starting to slowly slip away until he's out of reach. I mourned the supposed loss I had. One day, I woke up realizing all the sh*t I placed upon him. I realized how much I have depended emotionally on him expecting that he will continue being there for me. I realized how selfish it was. I realized what people meant by "You have to love yourself first before you love another person" - you have to be self-sufficient first so that you won't have to look for validation on other people. This song has helped me with those realizations. I started letting go of regrets - regret of not being my best self when he was around and regret that I did things that eventually made him walk away. I forgave myself, started picking each bit of my crumbled self (bits that I thought he should be picking up), and slowly put them back together again. The experience has been transformative to me on an emotional level and if anyone were to ask me if I would change anything that had happened, I would tell them that I would retain every single detail of my encounter with him. The experience changed me for the better and I think I can embark on truly healthier and happier relationships.
@yourwife7826 Жыл бұрын
thanks for d song Niki, it's literally my comfort song :')
@4mmirah10 ай бұрын
why do i have to end this year with a heavy heart
@axhie2 жыл бұрын
I am tearing up, this is why I love you niki ❤
@ariannekayecastor37022 жыл бұрын
Niki has the power to make a whole heart break in just 4 mins.
@yuniaryanthi45816 ай бұрын
I felt a betrayal, and this song just hits me so much. But as time goes on, i know that i have to let someone go. "I'm letting go. This is the last falsetto i'll ever sing to you...."
@Wooossahh2 ай бұрын
I met this girl, we’re doing good, getting to know each other. Talking almost everyday. But one day I saw her post something about her ex-boyfriend and this was the background song. I searched it and now listening to it. Song hit me hard, I didn’t know shes going thru something like this. I felt like it was true love they had but the relationship didnt work out anymore. It says she finally had all the courage to let go of what they had and how she felt home with him once. Its just seems so real for them and I realized myself I wouldnt be able to give her the same way she felt because of him. Me not having experience true love. Idk I just felt sad about it. Cant be feeling like this. I have to better myself but i guess we staying with self-love so we can avoid getting hurt.
@karuramos28942 ай бұрын
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@rimarima407 Жыл бұрын
I've so many questions But I'm pouring them into the ocean And I'm starting up my engine
@naylaparamitha22402 жыл бұрын
everything about this song is so beautiful
@looxe328227 күн бұрын
never ever thought I will relate to this song, all I know when this got release I really enjoyed the vibe of the song. But now here I am looking in the ceiling wishing things went better when we still can do much more for each other.
@adilgufron98412 жыл бұрын
The best music of the year, NIKI, RICH BRIAN, AND JOJI MAKE ME SO HAPPY AND SO BANGER !!!
@keziamarlyna62602 жыл бұрын
i really cried so hard when i was heard this song, its so beautiful song i swear. what i experienced is also very relate with this song. thank for Niki a lot ❤️
@maryangelalasaga46772 жыл бұрын
it reminds me of leaving my hometown for the very first time. love this, Niki! 😭🥺❤️🔥
@fajarsurya17139 ай бұрын
repeated all day long in my room, thank Niki
@nikinseo Жыл бұрын
I'm a fan of Niki for the last 3 years, but when she released Oceans & Engines I just put it on my playlist but never listened to it because I was going through a hard breakup with my ex gf and I didn't wanna do anything, for months. After HITC in Jakarta, I suddenly remember haven't really listen to this song and god I was crying so loud because It's perfectly describe how I feel about my last breakup. Now I play it on loop. Thank you, Niki. From your biggest fan, (also) Niki. 🫶🏼
@smokyboy63702 жыл бұрын
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@fragilecaprisun65722 жыл бұрын
Niki is such a talented and great songwriter and storyteller
@likeathousandstars2 жыл бұрын
can't discribe how i loveeee this song 😭❤ niki never failed, omg!!! i'm soooo happy knowing niki as a best singer ❤😭 her so talented i swearrr. love you niki ❤😭❤
@TOWHGHTVTHD3 ай бұрын
I hope my absence gives you peace that my love cannot give.
@r.unknown14242 жыл бұрын
I'm so proud of you niki, so proud.
@spampotatochipsfries2 ай бұрын
I LOVE NIKI'S VOICE
@sharmainepaniamogan2 жыл бұрын
This song made my heart pour out everything
@user-rn2jh4us6d2 жыл бұрын
this song is opening wounds i thought i had healed
@dewanggaagung20112 жыл бұрын
Even u didn't choose me in the end. Im still wishing all the best for u and ur dream.
@indianajones88395 ай бұрын
when she said Baby don't cry I felt that
@PROD5VE2 жыл бұрын
NIKI is a huge inspiration to me and I WILL produce a song for her one day.
@japzrave1549 Жыл бұрын
This is too beautifully written!
@Ysabel-rb4my11 ай бұрын
Why does every comment on here sound so poetically beautiful, I don't even think those words go together but
@marianm1872 жыл бұрын
i have this song on loop, it's literally addictive!!♥
@KryzlRivera-ui8sg4 ай бұрын
It has been a year and 2 months yet i still can't get over losing my greatest love to a tragic accident, he was my everything and the day he died my whole world shattered. Destiny declined to make us end up together and nothing can ever make me heal from this kind of pain. grief will forever be a part of me now. I will be fine but i can never heal from him, he was indeed my great lost love.
@AkiPagaduan Жыл бұрын
Thankyou for being such an amazing artist Nicole. Happy Birthday Queen!!!
@imanueltumampas8006Ай бұрын
If the world has a thousand ways to separate us, then we must also have a thousand ways to stay together, ily