Opiate Withdrawals - Day five Percocet withdrawal - Update

Hey guys, I wanted to let you know, physically, certain symptoms have been ebbing. (WooHoo)
Now the mental and emotional feelings are rushing in. Depression and anxiety are thru the roof. But practicing my grounding techniques, and a form of meditation, called R.A.I.N.
I encourage y'all to look it up!
I'm still hanging on...
Peace and good vibes. - Jason
For all the people who have been so supportive, thank you for helping me, more than you could know... @therewiredsoul - @rockinrobertal

[@poppasmalls6982]

5 months sober at first it seems impossible but everyday is another day closer to feeling better

[@TheseFourWalls]

Congratulations!!! 5 months is friggin amazing. I'm gonna pin this comment, cuz your words are so true, and so encouraging to those going through the struggles of early withdrawal. Thanks so much for commenting, and again, massive congrats to you! 🙏✌😊

[@MaineReactor]

You deserve to be happy and you deserve the support man! We are happy to have you here with us! All the depression and anxiety is totally normal man. You will learn how to deal with the emotions as you balance back out. Be patient with yourself my friend! ✌🏼❤️

[@gretch8771]

Hi Jason OMG I’m ridiculously proud of you. You’ve come a long way, although I know it doesn’t feel like it. In fact, it feels like the worst days of our lives when in early detox....BUT it’s the chaos before the calm. The body, as you know, flips out before it heals. You are enduring that now but your healing process has now begun. Celebrate that in your mind!!! You will heal, just like everyone of us is & has. Me, Roberta, Shane....we are no different to you hun. The chaos in your mind & body right now is painful af but it’s the sign that your body has started healing. I promise you that’s the truth. Agree with RR - small portions of food please, lemon with warm water & a pinch of salt for your kidneys & adrenals, a multi vitamin, vit c if poss. I chain smoked for the first 20 days - so try not doing that hahaha - wasn’t overly helpful. Music, meetings, & try to NOT future think. The future will always take care of itself when you are doing the work in the present. Faith. Sorry long msg! I’m hopeless with small talk lol xox g 💙🙏🏼💙

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you so very much for that message, jam packed with so much kindness, encouragement, suggestions and support. The advice and the belief in me, that I've felt from this recovery family, keeps me afloat. (With a warm heart) Thank you for supporting my journey! 😊✌

[@gretch8771]

These Four Walls ♥️

[@addict2quitwithzach166]

It's Amazing to hear how everyone's story is so different but the root seams so similar. Thanks for sharing man.

[@CMoore8539]

Awesome, Jason!!! I’m so happy for you. Things will get better and your emotions will level off. Just take it easy!♥️

[@TheseFourWalls]

My emotions are all over the place... But I'm still hanging tough! 😊💛

[@CMoore8539]

These Four Walls, Yes, When we detox, our brains do that, but it will level off, and then, You’ll Be Completely Free!!!♥️ Congratulations to you! & Welcome to the Recovery Community!!!😊

[@austinepich5696]

Keep going man your nearly there only a few more days and then you can focus on you and your recovery and not deal with the physical side of things your so courageous for real I never could get thru even 3 days I went on subs and right now I wish I hadn’t your doing the right thing. Keep your head up depression, fogginess and all those thing will get better if you work on it. Your doing amazing

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks so much. I appreciate your support so much.😊

[@kickinaddiction]

Dang man I am so jealous you are killing it! You can tell you’re going through some tough stuff right now. You’re so close to the other side. Congrats on making it so far already.

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks, man. I'm getting there. One minute I'm feeling ok, the next I'm like UGGH! But, still going strong. ✌😊

[@MaineReactor]

It is a rollercoaster 🎢 bro for sure! Ups and downs!

[@jameysuniga6174]

You should be so proud of yourself..your doing what so many people have tried to do and couldent. Like myself i couldent get passed the first night but u are so far in and still going strong👍 have faith and dont give up you are doing awsome💖💖💖

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks, Jamey, for your continued support.

[@michaelpercival3444]

You are doing awesome, sending love and support ❤️

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you so much, it's appreciated beyond words. 💛😊

[@rockinroberta9925]

You are doing great! Get to a few online meetings tomorrow. That will help a lot. Once you get into recovery you can start learning to tools to deal with your new senses. That’s why getting a sponsor is so important, you lean and rely on them in the beginning stages of this trip. My sponsor has been there with me through thick and thin through all of this. Isn’t it wonderful to know that you can ask for help? 1. Gratitude 2. Intention 3. Ask for guidance Practice this every morning. 💜🌈💜 you got this sugar! I adore you!!!!

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks, Roberta! I'm utilizing every tool at my disposal today... Hanging tough. 💛

[@michellevioletta4410]

You will feel better real soon. I know night sweats are awful and restless legs . Hopefully in a few more days you will feel way better. Take care💙ps. Mine would be the worst at night and the morning when I stopped . then after a week I was way better.

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank for your message. My physical symptoms are quite a bit better. (Till I lay down. Lol) It's more emotional and mental now. But I'm still fighting the good fight! 💛😊

[@acookiecutterstory2897]

Roberta's right. Food is your friend. The grossness of food will subside soon. Then it'll actually be wonderful to eat again. 🎶 music all day on and off saved my sanity too. After one month you'll really be flooded with emotion but it balances out completely. The pills want you to fall to your knees and come running back. If u wait and endure this withdrawal you will be like damn all those addicts on KZbin were right. Who knew? I was shocked I got better. Lol you are doing excellent. Keep fighting! We are rooting for you. 💜

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks for the encouragement. 💛😊

[@randytritt4610]

You got this brother!!! I kno what you going thru but you are a strong person bro!!! Yes it comes and goes but you need to do sumthing to occupy your mind...I play guitar and im constantly learning new songs and time flys by!! If you like to draw paint something!!! And drink lots and lots and lots of water that will get it outuv your system faster too because you will be pissing alot!!! You got this brother!!! I believe in you bro!!!!🤠👍🦅🎸🦅💜

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks so much, man. Your support and advice mean allot. I play keyboard. I think I'll get that out and write some tunes. 😊

[@randytritt4610]

These Four Walls there ya go brother wear the ivorys out on that thing bro!! Upload sum to i wana see!!! But like i said brother if you start getting down depressed just know im here for you man and i care!!! I kno it feels like sometimes that you feel lile you dnt have a friend in the world but you do i care and im telling you youve got a KZbin family that will pick you up when you are feeling down!!! We love you bro....and when you are down we will pick you up dust you off and keep pressing forward!!! But yes play those tunes and kno that you are priceless!!! You matter to us and we are gona stick with you for the long haul bro!!!! Now hold your head up and play that funky music white boy!!! Lol🤠👍🦅🎸🦅💜💜💜

[@TheseFourWalls]

@@randytritt4610 I had to read your message a couple times... It kept making me tear up, in the best way. It was so nice to get a message like that, from someone who understands... and it was so gracious and so kind. You know.... I sat, for years, terrified to reach out. Terrified to speak up. Because I felt such shame and embarrassment, and I feared being judged, and just.... EVERYTHING! I feared making my mom cry, when it came time to tell her.... But I guess that was my addiction talking. Cuz the response I've received, from family, friends and people like you.... It just gives me the power to keep fighting. The support has been what's lifted me up, and kept my mind straight. The secrets were killing me. Now I know what that "truth will set you free" bit was really about. 😊 Thanks for the love and advice and support. So many people have shown me they've got my back, and I'm truly humbled by the love and acceptance my new recovery family has shown me. I'm using it as fuel, to keep me fighting this fight. 😊💛😊 Thank you, so so much!

[@CherylLynnAKALopez]

Hey Jason , I'm coming to you from Shane Jay who recommended you. Hang in there , life in addiction is hard getting rid of that addiction is harder but it can be done , its gonna take a lot of hard work ...physically and mentally. Of course your body is acting out but let me tell you...if ur strong enough to start this ur strong enough to finish it , please try not to start another drug aka suboxone or anything else it's only gonna make things harder in the long run because that will be another drug ur gonna need to get off . Dont feel embarrassed or any shame , what's done is done and ur trying to make things better , do it for urself . Life is a rollercoaster full of ups & downs but it is worth living. Remember its always darkest just before the dawn , keep moving forward , keep ur head up , know ur worthy of a life free of drugs and go get that life . You can do this

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks for your encouraging, supportive message. 😊💛😊

[@matthewhastreiter1199]

Praying for you brother! I'm on my 7th day of getting clean myself

[@TheseFourWalls]

Congratulations on your 7 days! (Or 10 days, at this point, since I just saw the message.) Congratulations on fighting to get back the life you so deserve. Thanks for commenting, friend. ✌

[@theKaufmanTapes]

Wow . . you are really doing itI have only actually done this once with a doctor about 6 years ago and he gave me benzos . . it helped a lot. Jason please don't listen to bad thoughts . . you will get well, become strong and help many people. Rest and pray . . benzos for 2 weeks taper down to just before bed. Plz go slow and treat yourself good . . after 10 yrs you deserve a break

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you very much, for your continued support. And thanks for the great advice as well. You guys are really helping me along, and keeping me focused. 😊💛

[@humacao01]

I see you just celebrated your 1 year anniversary.... congrats on that... as I sit here watching videos because I haven't been able to eat or sleep on day 5 to 6... Watching for any light at the end of this tunnel but really wanting to just sell something to get high or eat my gun.....

[@TheseFourWalls]

Hello, my friend. I want to say I'm proud of you, for battling this. You're a fucking warrior. The light starts showing up, at the end of that tunnel, so gradually that it's hard to see it at first. But I promise you, if you keep fighting, and reaching out for support, you're gonna get thru this. And you're going to have control of your life back. Reach out to me if you need to chat or vent. My email is Zennorjd82 at gmail dot com. (It doesn't allow me to link it, so I had to write it out that way.) Much strength and respect, my friend. 💪😊✌

[@hunterhoward9025]

Hope you’re doing well ❤️

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you, my friend. I'm coming up on two years sober from the pills, at the end of this month. 💪💛

[@jaimereynolds258]

You are doing really well. You got this 🙂. You just look a little tired. Other than that, I was going to say you look good. Also, blue is a nice color on you. I was never an opiate person. I was meth and coke. Sorry about the restless legs and stuff. I get really bad restless feet. I often have to get up and walk around, take a hot bath with Epson salt, or I just stay awake.

[@TheseFourWalls]

Same here with the getting up, Epsom salt baths, and taking a walk. But, I'm hoping the worst has passed. (Physically) thanks for your support! 💛

[@markkolthoff879]

I’ve did this several times ...and it takes time I didn’t physically feel well for over a month off herion ...I’m 5 years clean from that but picked up a oxy contain habit 2 years ago so technically I was clean 3 years ...I’m in middle of detoxing now using gabapentin but small doses and using cough syrup to sleep ...I am hoping you are well now

[@brandondrake4047]

When I went through withdrawals I had a tough time day 3 was the worst it was my 2nd time getting off it so it only took 7 days the first time it was 14 days but during those 7 days I had to walk 20mins to work every morning in December weather because someone hit my truck and totaled it so it was definitely a challenge but I pulled through trust me bro after withdrawals you don’t want to have to repeat that or shit show but you already know that lol take care man

[@TheseFourWalls]

Yeah, I DEFINITELY don't wanna feel those withdrawals ever again. But having to walk to work in the winter, while Withdrawaling?! Damn, you're a warrior. All I had to do was lay around the house, pissing and moaning. Lol.

[@brandondrake4047]

Yeah I do it for my wife I have a vehicle now but turning on some music and walking to work I think it helped detox me I was so cold that I couldn’t tell I had cold sweats and the restless leg syndrome lol I think I benefited from it plus exercise is key along with eating healthy or anything at all like you said I didn’t want to even look at food at my job I would hate going in there I would smell this overly unbearable smell of cardboard which sounds stupid but when withdrawing your scent becomes so strong for me atleast it would make me sick but a walk in the morning was good I was probably doing everything right besides eating and I tried all I could just to feel better lol I’d say the worst part about it was forcing myself to stay up and then when it came to bedtime I would be waking up every hour and up for 30mins but thank fricken god that kinks over lol

[@TheseFourWalls]

@@brandondrake4047 Taking walks has really helped my restless legs as well. And I totally agree about the sense of smell. I now seem to smell things no one else does, cuz my senses are really heightened. 😊✌

[@acookiecutterstory2897]

If u can binge watch movies or TV. I watched so much walking dead and the rain on Netflix lol it fills the time! 💞

[@TheseFourWalls]

Lol, I'm watching The Rain on Netflix right now, 😊

[@acookiecutterstory2897]

@@TheseFourWalls haha awesome

[@maryanderson1633]

Wow hope you cleaned yourself up? I broke both my legs October 2018 tibial plateau fractures 4 surgeries and I will never be the same! How do you escape the pain and addiction? If I dont take the percocets I am always in so much pain!!! But when I withdrawl its just as bad. Im at my end, I can not escape this nightmare it really is horrible! Thank for sharing...

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you for sharing as well. 🙏 I'm over two years sober, and my body has had to learn to adjust to the pain. It took quite awhile... But physical therapy, acupuncture, lifestyle changes, and taking better care of my physical AND mental health has helped A LOT. It just takes time, willpower, the help of others, and finding other alternatives... But we're all different and require different things. Wishing you the very best, friend. 🙏✌ Thanks for your kind, supportive comment.

[@Fireefly100]

jesus crist going tru an mild whitdrawl from kratom atm but gone tru an long tramadol whitdrawl holy crap when i think back.

[@JadaHolley86]

How do you feel now? I know it’s been awhile since you made this so you must be clean for sometime now? I’m scared to get clean because I hate the withdrawal how long did it actually take for the physical and mental depression to go away? I’m so scared to do this what if it doesn’t go away is what my mind says! 🥺

[@TheseFourWalls]

I feel free. 😊🙏 It took my mind about three months to return to normal. The physical past 3 was over within 12-15 days. Then it's all about finding ways to keep yourself (and your mind) busy. Reaching out and finding support is really crucial. Once you've got the tools to creating new coping strategies, you can remove the "crutches". I believe in you, and I'm rooting for you, friend. 🙏

[@averymargulies2124]

Bro my legs too.. can’t quit Ut sucks seriously

[@TheseFourWalls]

I know, the legs for me were the worst part. (Make sure you're getting lots of potassium; uncooked potatoes, bananas, ect. - that helped somewhat.) Sending you positive thoughts and strength, friend. 💪🙏✌

[@kellyandersen3856]

Early and late in recovery you can suddenly be triggered. Even by just boredom. Eat well, do a job, hobby, maybe volunteer. Help someone. I started working out again. People like us, need to stay busy. Idle hands...

[@TheseFourWalls]

Hi Kelly, thank you for your comment. You're absolutely right, regardless of where we are in our recovery, being triggered happens... In all kinds of ways. I have over a year of soberity now, and I still fight the temptations when something triggers me. I think I've just become much more mindful... I've learned not to be as reactive. And yes, helping someone else is the best way for me to combat those temptations. I don't know how helpful I am, lol, but I just try to listen and identify and empathise with others who are struggling, and offer them the same advice and support that was so freely given to me. Thanks again for your comment, my friend. ✌😊

[@kellyandersen3856]

@@TheseFourWalls Even at age 50, finally beginning the job I always dreamed of...so triggered over this Christmas I almost could have lost it all. Again. Amazing how it is SO easy to rationalize one's way down the slippery slope. Totally forgetting the nightmarish events we've gone through in the past, somehow.

[@erica7268]

How much percocet were you taking everyday and for how long? I just ordered high dose of vit c and I have kratom to stop tomorrow. I only take 20-40mg a day but it’s basically an antidepressant for me. That’s what I’m worried about. I’ve tried every antidepressant out there and none have helped. Percocets were the only thing that made me somewhat happy and productive.

[@erica7268]

And not to mention my chronic pain... which is why I took it to begin with. You can do it! If you’ve gone 5 days please don’t go to suboxone or methadone the withdrawals from that is 100x worse than what you’re going thru now. 🙏🏻 ❤️

[@TheseFourWalls]

Hi, my friend. I was taking about 150 mgs a day. I'm now 15 months clean, and am slowly putting my life back together, after 13 years of pain pills. I'm proud of you, for fighting to get off the pills. I hope you're doing great on your journey, and reach out if you need support. Stay strong, my friend. Thanks for commenting. ✌🙏

[@Cartwright21215]

48 hours sober my stomach feeling a lot better I’m never taking percs again these last 7 months been hell on earth when I didn’t have the drug idk why I started taking them again 7 months ago smh

[@TheseFourWalls]

Congratulations, my friend! I'm proud of you. Keep fighting the good fight. I hope you're still doing well. ✌🙏

[@Cartwright21215]

33 days clean now

[@TheseFourWalls]

💪🙏✌ Amazing job, my friend! Congrats, that's awesome to hear.

[@susannec659]

Jason have you ever listened to any speeches on KZbin by NA people and AA people? If not you're missing out on a real treat? Just Google NA speeches or AA speeches. And the Al-Anon speeches are great too.

[@TheseFourWalls]

Yes, I've been listening to lots of NA speeches, and going to lots of online meetings, at intherooms.com - It's been a great help! (And I love Al-Anon) Listening to these courageous individuals is humbling, and incredibly helpful. 😊💛😊

[@flarejioral]

How you take oxy mg? On Day?

[@TheseFourWalls]

I was snorting about 150 mgs a day.

[@OMARLYYT]

Help i wanna get out of perks 😔 tell u i been lossing to much of my life ,can u help me to motivaded to leave this

[@TheseFourWalls]

Hey friend - I'm really proud of you, for making the choice to take your life back into your control. It's an uphill battle for the first 8 to 10 days. After that, it's all mental. If I could do it, anyone can. It's just about soldiering through, and reaching out for support. Getting connected to the online recovery community was crucial to me. If you need to talk or vent, my email is Zennorjd82 @ gmail . com Be proud of yourself. You're a warrior for fighting this fight. Stay strong, friend. ✌

[@gisselxoxomendez4200]

I could help you!

[@jasminemania2984]

@@gisselxoxomendez4200 help

[@susannec659]

I'm so proud of you. Roberta sent me. Lol. So what are you eating. If I may be so bold please try not to eat animal protein or processed food or soft drinks. A little table sugar might be okay. please try to go vegan, lots of fruit, berries and melon. Salads are good of course, and steamed vegetables rice and sweet potatoes also white potatoes, but for deto, not as good as fruits. Not too many nuts and seeds or oils either. My two cents.

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks so much for being here! And thanks for the great tips. I could live off fruits alone, so that should be easy. I just haven't had much of an appetite. (I did pick up a few cans of salmon, I know it's not as good as fresh.) But thanks for your thoughtful recommendations. :)

[@vintagebleachedblonde4322]

Did you make it off ?

[@TheseFourWalls]

Yes, I'm a year and 9 months sober. 🌻☺🙏

[@vintagebleachedblonde4322]

These Four Walls I’m so happy for you!!

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you so much, my friend. 🙏💛☺

[@kellyandersen3856]

There's no shame in healing.