Overcoming self-doubt and getting out of an emotional rut|| a week of ups & downs in my life ⛅️

Hello, friends!
Thank you so much for being here 💛 I purposefully keep my videos mostly light-hearted but I do always make an effort to be honest with you all about how I'm feeling and what I'm going through. This winter has been extremely difficult for many of us in so many ways... I've felt very lost and super insecure.
I let myself become OBSESSED with numbers-- subscriber count, views, likes, dislikes, comments, etc. I've become rather addicted to checking the "status/progress" of literally every single thing I've shared on social media and it's had a toxic impact on my overall opinion of my self and mental health.
This behavior has to stop. And so, I'm making an active effort to redefine what success means to me and to be mindful of where I find validation. I've always begun to repeatedly tell myself "I am not defined by numbers" anytime self-doubt starts to creep in.
I'm SO immensely grateful for this community-- each of you has been like a sunbeam in this dark foggy time ⛅️ We're all doing our best given the circumstances and that is more than enough 💛
The BIGGEST hug,
Morgan
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[@anne-lisenogue9656]

I must say: you're one of my comfort KZbinrs. And the fact that you're so honest but also so optimistic is a great help with my own self-doubt issues.

[@HanSan17]

“You do not have to be exceptional to live an incredible life”, wow Mo, that was so impactful to me. I’ve been feeling that a lot lately, that I need to be this world changing person otherwise my life is meaningless, but that’s just not true.

[@loveandlilacs]

Morgan, I appreciate your transparency about finances and feelings of external validation. As a viewer, i love being able to see you succeed, but it keeps be grounded that you are honest about what you are going through. I am also someone who needs external validation, and I’ve come to realize that over the last year. Knowing this part about me has actually made it easier to feel better when I don’t feel that sense of external validation because I recognize why I am feeling off. As always, you are a breathe of fresh air and calm in all of our lives! ✨

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so much, Emma

[@allegra1149]

Another perspective: your community isn’t looking at the numbers. We’re just looking at wondrous you ❤️

[@------6ampoems]

What you feel you are lacking ( human connection ) is what you're providing , so generously , to others ( myself -- most definitely -- included ) .... thank you so very much morgan .... & yes , very important lesson about numbers ( your - anyone's ! - value is deep / wide / uncounted ) .... but do be sure to celebrate 40k ! ....

[@moder_nord2475]

I second this with my whole heart!! ❤️ Thank you so, so much Mo!!

[@KristenMelissa]

This is so insightful and true! 💕

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so very much for this perspective, friend!

[@franziska3514]

Lets give her all the likes and comments that she needs. Because it's such an easy way helping her to lead a better life. Love ya all

[@MorganLong]

Thank you, friend

[@missholidaygolightly5566]

Don't creators always say that January is the month where they make the least money, because brands advertise less after the Christmas period?

[@jenvcampbell]

Yes, this is absolutely true (speaking as someone who also makes videos). January and February are always the lowest months and this doesn't usually correlate with views. x

[@linz2472]

i’ve been feeling the hole in my life that comes from not having your weekly videos (which is absolutely understandable and completely okay of course - its life!) and so i went through your videos from a year ago and selected this one! WOW! this is confirmation that your videos are TIMELESS! its like re-reading a favourite book or re-watching your comfort show/movie! I always have had a lot of gratitude for your videos and have been keenly aware of just how special they are, but i guess sometimes it takes some time away to appreciate things even deeper than before! As I watched this a year later, i newly appreciated so many things! the small details, the quality, the music, the comforting way you spend you days, and your honest talks of struggles (which are super interesting to hear retrospectively). All of this is just to say THANK YOU! thank you for making these videos which mean so much, and will continue to mean so much to viewers, old and new! you have brightened my day and filled me with comfort and warmth and wonder 💕✨❄️☀️

[@MorganLong]

This means so so very much to me and is exactly what I needed to read right now. Thank you, friend

[@maiahabegger6984]

I'm not even joking when I say that I always spend the last five minutes of all of Morgans videos crying happy tears

[@monica_.]

Me too!! Those little talks at the end are like a heart to heart with a dear friend 💞

[@KatieRingley]

Oh Morgan 😭 I had 80k on Instagram in 2014 making plenty then it started to decline for algorithm reasons and I let this get to me so much that I ended up quitting social media and going back to full time 9-5(I’m a pharmacist). I remember just constantly thinking honestly that suddenly people hated me. It was so bad for my mental health. I just recently started again on KZbin promising myself it was only doing what I love which is content creation. Just know that you honestly have changed my life with your content (dramatic I know lol) but your peaceful spirit and your “wonderous” self is making such a difference. I hope the finances continue to uptick and line up. I know how hard mentally but also freakin stressful that can be! **WILL WATCH ADS START TO FINISH TO GET YOU THAT COIN GIRL**

[@MorganLong]

I feel like you really really understand, Katie

[@KatieRingley]

@@MorganLong amennnn sister ❤️❤️

[@gailfriedman7320]

So genuine and authentic. I’m certain you’ve moved the needle on this one and validated all those who share your feelings ❤️❤️❤️

[@anne-marierodrigues6751]

Since I've discovered your channel, you have become my "comfort KZbinr". Your videos always want to make me take some time for myself. I've just recently discovered you, so I am going back and watching some of your older videos. I really enjoy your reading vlogs. I put one on one night and lit a candle and sat down and read my book. I so enjoyed it. Keep up the fantastic work.

[@illusionaiti]

Morgan!! Thank you so much for the lovely feature in your video! I am so honored that you think so highly of my art, and are willing to share it here

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so so much, Amber!! It was very unexpected but you've helped me through so much of the "cloud" 🌥 I love your work and can't wait to see you get the recognition you deserve!!

[@liron82]

Sweetest Morgan. I'm sorry you've been having such a hard time. I can really relate from my own personal reasons... This year was a hard one! I must tell you that you're videos here and on patreon are something I'm really waiting for every week! (and I cannot say this on any other channel) You, Landon and Roo really remind me of Me, my husband and our dog Luna. Watching your videos are like spending time with a friends we have things in common with. You are a sweet ray of sunshine! please remember that! Things are all kinds of grey, and never black and white. Even in a "regular" job appreciation is not something you always get even if you do the absolute best. Things are complicated and you have to remind yourself why you do what you do and the good people you have to support you and get your energy from in order to keep doing what you believe is aligned with YOU. Sending you a huge hug!

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so so so much, Liron

[@ellinorbogen4178]

I'm so relieved the tears at the end were happy tears! This week I almost failed an exam because I convinced myself I couldn't answer the question. My lovely boyfriend told me I was being silly and that it was better to hand in something bad than nothing at all. In the end I pushed through and handed in something I was proud of, but I almost failed because I was scared of failing, which is ridiculous... It's so easy to put all of your self-worth into what grades you get and in academia it is practically all that matters, but this video reminded me how important it is to see yourself as more than one thing and to value different things about yourself. Thank you!

[@CrisOnTheInternet]

Yes, also a bad grade doesn't mean you reproved a course, for instance I was taking a two-month Statistics course and I did great on the first examen then I failed the second and did great again in the final one, if I were so down because the second one went so bad I probably would fail the whole course, but instead I made a big effort and succeeded. Don't let that a bad result makes you give up, you can always work harder and go through it.

[@MorganLong]

Ah! It's ridiculous how all-consuming the fear of failing can be. I relate sooo much to this story Elli-- I'm really glad you were able to overcome the fear and I hope it gets easier and easier as time goes on. Grades do not define your worth or determine how successful you will be in life. You are the kind of person who lives with your whole heart, there is simply no way you can fail ❤️

[@helenawoods]

Hi Morgan!! :) I just recently discovered your channel this last week, and I just have to say - you are so sweet, inspiring and so very genuine. I love your honesty and realness. And your home is so warm, calm and cozy! Adore your vibe! :) I feel ya on the emotional ups and downs/loss of human connection this winter. For me, focusing on my core values and going within myself for answers (not looking outside of me for acceptance) is incredibly important to feel vital and joyful. Whenever I look outside of myself for love or acceptance, I feel instantly depleted of energy. I've gone through this with KZbin and Patreon as well...it takes so much time and energy to create videos. (sigh) It's a process, a journey. I feel like all KZbinrs go through these ups and downs. Take a rest if you need to. I took a few weeks off from creating this winter and it revitalized my spirits and creativity. In the end, the numbers don't matter. Years from now, we'll look back at this time and realize the numbers were never that important to the journey itself. The process of enjoying the work and having fun creating is what matters. :) But I feel ya on the money ups and downs...it's really frustrating at times. I'm sending you a warm hug and know that you are so fully supported!

[@MorganLong]

Hello, Helena!!! A couple of people have commented that I should look at your channel and I'm so glad to have been introduced to your work-- your videos are absolutely beautiful and I love the messages you share 💛 Thank you for sharing your ups & downs-- it makes the whole ordeal feel a lot less lonely, especially coming from another KZbinr. I completely relate to the "energy depletion" you describe. I hope to learn how to rest and find validation within more easily now that I recognize the toxic cycle I've been caught in. Your videos should definitely help : )

[@helenawoods]

@@MorganLong Oh totally! Working alone all the time, and for yourself, definitely takes its emotional toll. Now even more so with the pandemic and not being able to socialize and connect in person like we used to. I feel ya

[@mariaxspeed]

This vlog was so real. You touched topics that not many people like to talk about because their fear of being judged, at least I fear being judged whenever I mention not feeling like I'm good enough, like I'm not doing enough. Specially now during a pandemic, a lot of people are at home all day everyday and it doesn't matter the motivation you have at the beginning, bad thoughts and feelings will get to you because like you mentioned, there's no one to praise you and tell you how good you're doing. But let me tell you Morgan, you're doing amazing! You've accomplished so much since you started KZbin and being brave enough to do videos and art full time and successfully is already great but also you enjoy doing it and you're oh so good at it, and those videos make people feel better and that's why they subscribe and like and comment and that why Cheyenne subscribe too! Both of you inspire me so much, and I'm so happy she found your channel ✨ I'm so glad those were happy tears haha But let me say it again, and louder YOU ARE DOING AMAZING! That's the end of my rant 😁 I hope you're having a wonderful day x

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so much, Maria

[@mariaxspeed]

@@MorganLong That is so nice of you :) Like you said, society is to blame because at some point in our lives we've been told that feeling sad is wrong and honestly I think we are all doing our best, even when it's hard, specially during these times. But we'll get through it!!!

[@luciagarone1006]

Hello my dear, I don't know if you read each and every one of your messages. But I just want to say what my mom use to tell me. You got to love yourself first, then anyone else. You give your all 101%, but you can't please everyone. So don't be sad about it. There's days it goes well and then there's months it goes bad. But you got to keep your chin up high and do what your best. Never think of yourself that you're any less. You can't make everyone happy. As much as we try, we know that everyone appreciate things differently. For me you do a great job. Keep up the good work and be proud of yourself. 👍

[@Ckonefall892]

Morgan, thank you so much for sharing your experiences through this time of self-doubt. It is so helpful to know that I am not the only one going through this. Somedays, the numbers just take over your thoughts and it can be so hard to feel good when the ego is so caught up in how many likes or views you receive. But that is not where our worth is because we are already worthy! All we need to do is just show up to the world as who we are! I really needed to hear this message today. Thank you so much Morgan for being you

[@MorganLong]

I seriously could not have said it better myself, Christine!! Here's to showing up in the world as who we are 🌍✨

[@Ckonefall892]

@@MorganLong ❤️❤️❤️

[@plaidchucks]

I totally understand what you mean about finding purpose and validation outside of work/school. It used to be 50 or 60 years ago, people were more connected to their local communities through church and civic clubs. Now, I’m not religious at all and you won’t find me in a church service, but I do miss doing service projects. Civic clubs aren’t really much of a thing for younger people these days. I think finding a place to volunteer and connect would be a great benefit to many of us for finding purpose and community. I keep trying to move from connecting with people online to connecting with people in person, but with the pandemic isn’t even harder than ever.

[@philomenayap367]

I know my comment on this is super late but my sentiment still stands. Morgan, you are worth so much more than your quantitative growth as an algorithm on KZbin and I admire how you know yourself enough to stop yourself from stretching out too thin especially when trends like TikTok make you feel like you /HAVE/ to adapt to keep up. I LOVE your corner of the internet because it's so you and it's yours. And it's funny how you can say all these wonderful things about Cheyenne Barton when those are the exact things I think of you 🥺 It was like a 3rd person feeling to hear the person you admire say the sentiments you wish you could tell them. To see you now with 41.1k subscribers from 38k when I first commented here swells my heart with joy and pride. Never doubt the magic of your specificity. 🤍

[@MorganLong]

I so so so appreciate you, Philomena friend 🤍 ... 😭

[@shopgirl_ny152]

Thanks for being so upfront. I can't deal with vloggers who are nothing but positive all the time. That's not real life. Speaking of defining your life by numbers: I just applied to my 20th freelance job in three months, with no hits. It's discouraging, obviously. Now that many more people are at home, they are applying to jobs that we freelancers used to be able to get because we chose to work from home--or, as in my case, it was the only way we could get work in our chosen professions. I lost my last two clients when the pandemic hit, and I haven't had any work since. I have a very part-time job, but it's customer-facing and I'm anxious about being around people since the pandemic. Also, I will be helping out a family member come late summer and will need to work from home. Life stinks at times. Thanks for showing that--and for letting us know that there are as many ups as there are downs.

[@crystalcozycorner]

You are my comfort youtuber Morgan❤️ during my very anxious days your videos give my so much joy and peace! For me winter has been hard for me too,but it’s March and spring is just around the corner 😊🌧🌸

[@sophieshelton8394]

Hello lovely Mo. I have been feeling very burnt out this week as I finished a few assignments, so it was a big relief to see you had posted a long vlog. I have just made myself a hot chocolate and I am so looking forward to watching your video. 💛💛

[@nuggetstump]

The way you are talking about Cheyenne Barton, that’s how I felt about your channel! Yeah I’ve watched hundreds of youtubers for years, but your channel is so peaceful and inspiring and positive. It makes me feel so content and motivates me to make my life as peaceful and wholesome as I want 🥰 100% comfort watching! Even my parents watch!

[@leenabheekhun]

They way you described Bartons videos is how I feel about your one's. You make living life magical, and make it a wonderous thing to be able to be alive. I always feel like I've been given some magic when I finish watch your videos. Thank you so much for choosing to be a KZbinr and existing.❤❤❤

[@YourTrueShelf]

Hey Morgan, I have paused to comment on your midnight reverie as I have a few things to say that might help x firstly yay for the realisation, that's fabulous! And what you said about receiving validation just for being a good human was so true. I thought of two quotes as you were talking - the classic "comparison is the thief of joy", but also I heard iyanla vanzant say that "comparing yourself to others is an act of violence against yourself". That was very powerful to me. Big magic will help, I'm sure. I'd really also recommend 2 episodes of Oprah's super soul podcast. The first is called your own truth - this is so wonderful that I relisten regularly. It's a speech she gives, and it's phenomenal. The second is called you matter (still super soul, with iyanla vanzant). They are just wonderful for me. Liz Gilbert is also on there discussing big magic and the hero's quest, another great one. I love to share things that help me through hard times and self doubt. Lots of love xx

[@edwardcortes6668]

Hola Morgan!!! It is vital that when we have a problem or other obstacles-to either resolve it or learn to cope with it, especially if it is out of our control. Being productive, doing fun things will overcome any problems that we are facing. As I mentioned before, I read, meditate, exercise and do my yoga everyday. Also, I watch your positive videos in order for me to be uplifted and simply be positive throughout the day. Any time you feel blue, you have Landon and Mr.Roo to give you that emotional support that you need. We are always going to have obstacles in life, but the goal is to remain positive The mind is a powerful tool. The purpose is to channel all the positive energies and to observe the negative ones, but the key is to be aware of the negative ones and just let it go. In other words, don't react to the negative energies. Those bad thought will go away. Once the pandemic is over, I will attend a Vipassana Meditation Center for two straight weeks where you are away from social media, phones and not having contact with the people around you. It cleanses your mind and body. Everyone should try it. I have done it. It gets you away from all the distractions. You are provided with a room and offered free meals. All you have to do is donate whatever you can at the end of the program. For two weeks you just meditate. You will feel like a new person. In the meantime, just continue engaging in positive things and let go all the negativity. Remember, you have us to elicit these positive energies. We in the You Tube community will always be with you in spirit. Once again, I am proud that you are doing the things necessary to overcome these weeks of ups and down. Keep showing those videos. Take care, friend!

[@MorganLong]

I hope that you record your philosophies in writing, Edward. I know that you are sharing what you have learned from others but your perspective is still unique and valued. I would love to try the Vipassana Meditation. I hope you find it just as grounding when you're able to return. All my best!

[@user-yd4yr5hr3s]

Personally I have not been watching you long and you are my all time favorite I literally romanticize my life based on your videos your real life you share on camera is like my favorite character in a book you are exactly a huge part of what I inspire to be and have!! My goodness Morgan my sweet kindred sister you are so beautifully soulful and love and sweetness just pours out of you; and your creative intelligent gifted self just blows me away with the beauty you create!! And what a blessing to be so much and have so much and are yet so young I mean have so much that includes having the courage the confidence and the wild strong spirit to just take a leap into believing in doing what you love for a living that is so huge!!!! You didn’t get that spirit nor your talent nor your sweetness from any paid education that came from Our Creator and you co Creator of you and you just keep creating and developing you to your best version of what you desire as what that best version of you is to you much love and appreciation will become a patr❤️💕

[@varshakaverappa668]

I think life throws bigger, tougher challenges to the most optimistic people. I keep coming back to your channel because I feel positive watching your videos. When I go through something challenging, I try to remember that if the path that I am taking gets harder, then my success will only be bigger. This has worked for me mostly. Persistence is hard when the results don't show, but we have to keep moving because we love what we do.

[@coraskye4149]

Morgan I just want to let you know that the reason I started watching your videos and love your videos is because of how calming they are and that they bring joy to my life. I find now days that we sometimes get wrapped up into negativity about the pandemic and on your channel I have been able to feel at peace while consuming entertainment. All that to say I am glad that you are not like anyone else! Keep up the hard work!

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so very much, Cora 💛

[@BibliotacoraLibros]

Hi from Argentina! 🇦🇷 I am a filmmaking freelo and a little booktuber. I really understand what you say. But don't be sad, you're awsome. I admire you so much! There are days, or weeks o periods of time when we could lost our confidence. But you are great at this, youtube is wonderful because of pepole like you, doing high quality content. 💜

[@misanthropistbookworm]

Your video and the lovely message you include at the end ("believe in yourself, oh wondrous you") were just what I needed after a really long and tiring Sunday trying to save some of my plants who were suffering because of my ignorance, and I'm so tired and feeling like I'm the reason they are suffering or not as well as they should or that they may die... I never believe in myself, all the contrary! So thank you and don't let numbers make you sad or put you down. I, for one, enjoy your videos very much and I'd definitely be a patreon if I could afford it. :) Have a good week!

[@ezgi3987]

you make me feel so good, your videos are sometimes a relief to my anxiety and maybe an escape from my anxiety. thank you, sincerely

[@vivslittlenook]

Morgan, you are an inspiration and you’ve helped me so much this year, but especially now. For me this weekend, i saw an unexpected tragedy of the lose of one of my pets, and the other is in critical condition. I’m devastated and haven’t known what to do with my time. After watching this video, you inspired me to be creative and do the things I love. You have helped me in such hard times and brought a smile upon my face. Thank you Morgan 💛

[@onceuponafarmstead]

Morgan, your sweet, positive nature in every video always encourages my heart. I am sorry you are feeling weary. For me, my validation comes from the Lord. I am His beloved, I am accepted, I am treasured, and I am (as you would say) wondrous to Him. When I feel low, I remember Whose I am and it changes my perspective. This ‘season’ of winter will end friend. There is JOY and adventure to be found. You. Can. Power. Through. ❤️ Hugs to you from across the country.

[@heatherkane5913]

How beautiful (as always) to see your heart on screen. You are MY Chey Barton! You are who I'm looking to for how to mold my future channel. I love the way you film everything (especially the recipes with the hands coming from off screen and grabbing things). The self-worth thing is huge challenge for me as I am starting my own handmade business. I had to order boxes and packing materials last week after figuring out the sizes of all my items and maximizing shipping space, and the price tag really made me cringe. Not because I didn't think it was worth the money but because, "what if no one buys anything and I'm stuck with all these boxes??" And don't get me started on the emotional breakdown I had when figuring out my prices! Anyway, you always bring a sense of calm to my space and I look forward to having coffee with you every Saturday morning and catching up with you! ((HUGS))

[@audreysigouin3783]

you know, i much prefer smaller independant artists & people. it’s so true that everyone wants more and more followers/likes, but i find that sometimes being too big is where you loose me because you loose the intamacy, or maybe more the closeness with the community you bily. we became just numbers... i love everything you do so continue sharing your journey with so much lightness, love and creativity✨ Plus, it’s so true that i define myself with numbers, especially with school. I’m use to having good grades, and when i’d get one a bit less better (again with my high standard it can’t still be pretty good but not for me) i’d feel so sad and my confidence would drop... because of a number!!! i am too slowly trying to get over what years and years of programming have done to me... i feel the struggle💛

[@SheilaJoy]

Oh, I am the exact same way needing external validation in my work. It’s really hard being a creative. When I started taking on photography clients I constantly judged my work + compared it to others (and still do.) And when you add receiving money into the mix it can really hurt your soul AND creativity. Whenever I feel low + unworthy I try to reconnect with my why + create something just for me, and no one else. Starting a YT channel has helped me find a creative outlet outside my business!

[@MorganLong]

Oh my goodness, your videos are SO GOOD!! Your photographer's eye definitely shines through-- so beautifully filmed

[@SheilaJoy]

@@MorganLong oh my goodness that means SO much to me! i just watched the ending of your video about cheyenne and now i'm feeling the same exact way!! 🤩thanks morgan ❤️

[@RobertbKey]

Can I just express how refreshing it is to hear your transparency in these videos, Morgan? 🙂 You just have a way of sharing your thoughts with us in a way that is so. . . Inclusive! So. . . As though we are here with you! Just the fact that you are connecting with us, just the fact that you have a relationship with your community (just like you’ve said!) and just the fact that you are continuing to put forth the effort in your work is genuinely impacting our lives. I wish I could share the one-trick-to-solve-it-all solution with being afloat on KZbin, but one thing I can share is that I really do believe that you are doing a lot better than you think. I can’t wait to see how things progress, friend!

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so very much for your encouragement, friend! You've given me more confidence☀️

[@Poedog]

Your spirit and resilience reminds me of Anne from Anne of Green Gables. Your channel brings me such peace, hope, and imagination. It inspires me to pursue my own creativity even in the face of doubts and hardships. Don’t give up.

[@bespectacled]

Mo, this was so, so wonderful. I loved your discussion on numbers and external validation - as a kiddo in school myself, I definitely feel all of it. This past year has been very interesting for me in that regard. I'm at a place where numbers (grades, ACT/SAT scores, volunteer hours, extracurriculars) are dictating much of my life. Your videos and thoughts are so very real, and are genuinely so special to me (and clearly so many others - congrats on 40k!). You inspire me. And congratulations on Cheyenne Barton subscribing to your channel!!! That is so amazing. I feel much the same way about you and all of your support - it means the world 💛💛💛

[@fertilevessel1271]

I must say one of the best parts about your videos are your recommendations for other channels and content peppered throughout. Creative pep talk is an AWESOME podcast, thank you. I value your opinion.

[@annaspitz6449]

This video and words are *exactly* what I needed to hear. Especially today, I've felt like a lost failure, like I don't matter, and like I can't do anything. The fact that you were feeling like this too, or at least very similar to how I feel comforted me. And it gave me hope to get to something better!

[@_naiad]

Hurrah! Thanks Mo for your lovely Friday content, I look forward to it each week 🌻

[@ankita_rc]

please don't let the numbers make you believe your content is anything less than magic. I have been watching your videos for a long time now and they always bring a sense of peace and calm❤ you are doing greattttt❤❤

[@allierandall2007]

Morgan, thank you for all of the words of wisdom you have shared with us during this video!! :) we love you and everything you pour into your work and that channel. ❤️ I’m so thankful that you have taken the time to acknowledge and work around the feelings that you have been feeling around success, numbers, and growth. I also love love Cheyenne Barton so I totally, 100% understand the excitement of her subscription to your channel! :) I hope the rest of your March is lovely, Mo! 💚🌟☘️☕️

[@wanderingbeyondpages]

On the personal feedback note: I feel this. Haven’t been receiving nearly enough feedback at work although I’m new there and at the moment I’m in revalidation because I had knee surgery and just the physiotherapist telling me how well I’m doing this early on made me so incredibly happy - not just for health reasons but just hearing the words “look at you doing this so good” felt so good. You don’t get praised online by the people that mean something to you.

[@robbo3132]

Your approach to life, learning and personal growth are so inspirational. For sure you are moving yourself towards opportunities

[@x.bev.x3006]

Humans all exist on this Planet by the same means but we all live our lives differently. Life is a journey. Self doubt is a normal emotion. Your natural enthusiasm and joy shine through. Enjoy this time!! Criticism of others is a choice. Choose not to listen. You make me smile and that is immeasurable 😊

[@dinushiperamune9475]

Hello Morgan, Feeling down from time to time is not completely bad at all because that’s where we start to get the spirit to shoot for bigger. Life you’re having might be the dream life for somebody else. I know you from your videos only but I think they represent the sweet soul you have. And you wouldn’t believe that I am viewing your videos from a world apart and you still inspire me. Love from Sri Lanka ❤️

[@elizabethgeyer1337]

This video is so brave...I so appreciate your transparency. I will share, it took me many years to come to a place where I valued my own opinion over outside forces. At your age, I didn't have your wisdom. I see you value yourself by the way you carry yourself and in all that you do. You have so many gifts! My telling you that isn't as effective as you seeing that in yourself, however. You are on your way to always having your own back! Part of it is life experience. I often forget to like your videos, and I look forward to each week. I look forward to each and every one! You are so unique...I get such joy, and sometimes tears of happiness with your content. Bless you!

[@ionajones3616]

It's so interesting when you say other KZbinrs are your comfort watches. I just wanted you to know you are my comfort and uplifting KZbinr. Please keep creating and being amazing. Sending lots of love and positivity from Cornwall, UK :) xxx

[@phoebe8094]

Your to-do list said: “quality Roo time” and I’m not saying I cried over that but I’m not NOT saying that ok 🥲 I definitely resonated with SO MUCH of what you talked about it. It’s so hard to not look for validation through others. Sometimes I feel so boss and that I don’t need anyone else and then some days I feel like I’m falling so far down the mental ladder without anyone else around me. For better or for worse, I’ve definitely learned a lot about myself during this time. Your videos definitely contribute to my high moments, I’m always so grateful that you’re willing to share your low feelings with us.

[@MorganLong]

Roo deserves the BEST life. I love him so so so much and am entirely responsible for his quality of life so he’s always a priority in my day 🐾😭 I appreciate you so much, Phoebe 💛 I know it doesn’t help much but you are so not alone in what you’re feeling. I can’t believe it’s been a year but STILL, you are so much more whole of a person for making it through this🌱

[@sjthorn]

I fully understand the external validation thing. I don't often think I need validation from others, but when I really sit down and think about it, I do rely a LOT on what other people say. I'm always happy to see you succeed, and here's to only more success in the future. Cheers!

[@NightShadow16]

Hands down my favorite go to KZbinr! Everything about your channel is so lovely and comforting.

[@lauramc0788]

Morgan, you made a point that some of my friends have been discussing recently about praise and how when we are young and in school we are told constantly we are doing a good job. I do this as a teacher, constantly telling my students they did great, but then we go out in to the working world and it is very rarely that we are praised. There is a normal human need for external validation and I don’t think that’s necessarily wrong. It’s nice to be told you are doing a great job, regardless your age or experience. And so, friend, you are doing a great job and I am so glad to be a part of your Patreon community. Keep doing what you are doing, you bring so much light to my life in this heavy year.

[@lwizack7599]

Hi Morgan! I just wanted to say that the way you love Cheyenne Barton's work is exactly how I feel about your work. Every single time I feel sad, I go to your channel and watch one of your videos. Also, some time ago, I was having an emotional burnout that lasted about 2 months and what got me to fight through that was you and your videos so I just want to tell you that you are what Cheyenne Barton is to you, to me. If that makes any sense :)

[@kathrynhouldcroft1423]

Such a beautiful- yet very authentic video. I’m scratching my head wondering why you don’t have more subscribers?! Your channel is definitely my ‘comfort KZbin’ and I find your films so calming, but also inspirational xx

[@rae_of_sunlight]

I'm catching up on your last couple of weeks of content after being ill and 💛 💛 💛 You deserve such lightning-fast growth for the incredible content you produce. But know that amongst the 40.4k of us (as I write) who already subscribe, there are so many lives touched profoundly by your work. I think so many bigger channels have a lot of less-connected followers, but you have a real concentration of people who are deeply impacted by you, and that's something the numbers cannot capture 💛

[@cynthiatricot1002]

I think your videos are some kind of magical moment in my week and I am always impatient to discover a new one. Thank you for your beautiful work and your kindfulness !

[@gabbvicente]

All I can say is: thank you for sharing this with us! I love your work, your content uploads the notification that I always love receiving!

[@sophiasusanne]

Hey Morgan, I don't usually leave a lot of comments or anything but I just wanted to thank you for your wonderful videos. This past week I sat my final exams of German law school, and watching your videos in the afternoon after my exams gave me a lot of joy in a very stressful couple of days, so thank you!

[@MorganLong]

CONGRATULATIONS on getting through those final exams, friend!!

[@gem010677]

I'm not sure how I stumbled upon this video but I am so pleased I did! I have been feeling the same way lately and you have managed to articulate exactly how I was feeling. I live in the UK and was made redundant last year due to Covid, so I started my own jewellery business. It started off pretty well but the sales have gone down and I have been slightly obsessing over the amount of people who open the emails, and abandon the carts etc. It has also been hard to get motivated to keep creating content because I feel like no one is looking at it anyway. So thank you. You have been the poke I needed to get out of my own head with it all! You have also remind me to read Big Magic...it has been on my shelf for about 3 years! 🙄🤣

[@amandalail3513]

I can really relate to receiving validation through external means. I have been having a difficult time lately with feeling successful in my work. At the end of the day I am usually rethinking everything I said and did and wishing I could go back and change things. This is not healthy or helpful. All you can do is try your best and find small ways to improve. Your video helped me feel better about my day today and I just want to say thank you. I appreciate you so much! Hope you are doing well!

[@MorganLong]

Thank YOU, friend ❤️ I can’t stand the feeling of constantly second guessing myself, or rather, I can’t stand being in a situation where I don’t have much support or feedback so I’m constantly second guessing myself. That kind of environment becomes so toxic! I hope that things get better- you deserve the best!

[@emiliedube5111]

AMEN! Ce que tu as dit à propos du fait que l'on grandit en apprenant à se valider à travers les yeux des autres est si vrai. J'apprécie tellement que tu discute de la santé mentale, puisque c'est parfois un sujet tabou pour certain. Chacun de tes vidéos me fait prendre conscience de quelque chose ou s'applique directement dans ma vie. Merci!

[@julesm9081]

There’s something so special about your videos too Morgan xx

[@katiejohnson5336]

I absolutely love you and your channel and you should know that you have a beautiful way of making living life feel beautiful 💜 you inspire me to slow down, to be gentle, and to read. Thank you for what you create and what you share! 💜💜💜

[@mariaamaro1127]

I love your videos, Morgan. They are real, transparent, and close to me. You are one of the unique KZbinrs that I follow because you are natural, brave and creative. You inspire me to dedicate myself to some job that really moves me to happiness. So thank you so much. I'm going to join your Patreon right now. It's necessary. Hugs from Barcelona! :)

[@jennycapper6650]

Morgan, thank you for this video. I haven’t been watching KZbin the last couple of months due to a lot going on in life. I missed your videos so much and was so excited to have time to sit down and truly watch. This was so needed. You are seriously such an inspiration. Thank you so much.

[@CabinTherapy]

Hello Morgan from Minnesota! I totally agree with you that me as a beginner KZbinr, the numbers (number of subscribers, likes, dislikes) are really stressful and it affects my mood so much. I tell myself I shouldn’t be affected by people’s opinion of my videos but it is hard to keep thinking that way because I create videos for people to watch. I want people to enjoy the content of my videos. So it is very hard not to be affected. I enjoy introducing my cabin life and hopefully viewers enjoy watching it. I believe It is important to balance my enjoyment of self expression and feedback from viewers. All KZbinrs go through this? I really respect all KZbinrs for their dedication to their work and tremendous amount of time and effort they put into their work. Thank you for your videos and your thoughts of positive motivation you are providing to all of us. Your videos always encourage me!!!

[@bee-2000]

You're always saying it to us, but you need to be told yourself: You ARE enough. You really are too hard on yourself (as I'm sure you're aware of). It breaks my heart When in the middle of a beautiful video I hear you worrying you haven't got as much work done as you "needed" to. (This is all being said with so much love & empathy because I do exactly the same). But whenever I'm panicking that I'm behind on my uni work or whatever but I'm so tired I just can't do anymore that day, my Mum says "you'll get it done. You always do". And she's right. so trust yourself! look back at all the past times you've been worried about something but done it anyway. And keep perspective. I have learned that a lot of the times I feel overwhelmed it's because I'm making things harder or more complicated than needed. So I've adopted the Motto " keep it simple". Whenever I feel overwhelmed & my brain is running away with itself, I pause & reasses. Do I actually need to do this work today? would it really be so bad to do it tomorrow? How can I simplify the task so it takes less time? If I keep working solidly despite being exhausted, my brain is sluggish & tasks take longer anyway, so it's actually more efficient to take a break or go to bed and finish the task another time. You have to listen to your body. I'm saying all this to you as much as myself because these are things I've had to become better at practicing because my mental & physical health has been rocky this past decade, with migraines, stomach ache, chronic fatigue etc etc. I have had to learn to accept, respect and work with my body. Think of it as looking after your inner child. you work so hard. Maybe too hard. please take care of yourself, for all our sakes. Because only then can you fully enjoy the fact you're doing what you clearly love💛💛

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so so much for this, Bethan Lily. I love the mantra "keep it simple" and oh my goodness, the perspective you've just provided with "caring for your inner child"-- WOW. I think I've definitely been neglecting my inner child, and you've in a way, given me permission to prioritize taking care of her, of me ✨

[@bee-2000]

@@MorganLong I am SO joyful to hear my comment resonated with you 😌. you've created such a caring, loving community, you should be incredibly proud of yourself. Even if your viewing metrics never go ' tik-tok' scale, the community you've created is so genuine and cherished by it's members. I always learn so much & feel greatly comforted when interacting with your content and reading other people's comments. Think of it like friends. Better to have a few close friends who genuinely enhance your life, than know everyone but feel isolated and like a fake version of yourself. Sending hugs to you, Roo & Landon. And spring is coming, so the winter blues will melt away. Like nature, no feeling is permanent💛

[@moder_nord2475]

Playfully serious is the best kind of serious!😂❤️ Thank you Mo for this boost into the weekend! ☕️🥞☀️

[@satopin7770]

thank you for being candid about your struggles too. I think we all struggle with validation and not feeling enough. I have been feeling like I'm not good enough for my little booktube channel recently and this was a perfect video to watch right now. you have created such a wonderful part of the web and I love visiting you over and over again!

[@Lindseyscozycorner]

I can relate to this sooo much. After a year my channel still hasn't taken off and even lost a couple subscribers so I often feel like why even bother (even though it's something I love doing so much) Feeling discouraged. I love your videos so much! Hope you are feeling better now. 💛

[@annevanbrunschot7235]

Dearest dearest Mo, thank you so so so much for sharing this and thank you even more for being who you are and doing what you do. Your channel has helped through a very difficult period in my life and I still every time you upload something I feel so excited and happy because I know it's going to be a wholesome, amazing, lovely, inspiring piece of art that leaves me feeling lovely and warm. You are my favorite youtuber ever!!!! Thank you so much! You are not defined by numbers, but I promise you, each of those numbers is a soul who loves you and your content dearly, I certainly do! I'm a composer myself and o boy do I know the struggle! This is amazing and wonderfull and important content and you are a magical being. All the love, Anne (fellow Hufflepuff)

[@julesm9081]

ive fallen in love with YOUR videos..- they are so relaxing to listen to and watch xx

[@niikacaine427]

"Sometimes I look like a turtle. I think the turtle is my spirit animal." Thanks for being so vulnerable with us. We are proud of you morgan.

[@dianaharper4190]

Morgan this is coming at the perfect time for me!! I am also struggling with this. Especially with imposter syndrome. I just got a few new contracting jobs as a video maker!! But I feel like every second I am faking it till I make it. And I feel like one wrong move can make it all vanish. I am so excited, but also all of my self worth is relying on these gigs. I find that if I ever have an awkward moment or have to ask a question I am completely a mess on the inside. I believe in you! I see you. You are absolutely one of my favorite creators! We can do this.

[@MorganLong]

I am SO FAMILIAR with these feelings! It gets easier but it’s always there. It’s especially difficult when people have a vision of the type of video they want but they have no idea how much work it will actually take and the supplies/equipment it requires. Really though, you know your stuff and everyone else is faking it until they make it as well. There’s a reason you were hired for these gigs- you absolutely have what it takes, Diana. Whenever you’re unsure, just ask yourself what YOU want to do and inspiration will come 💛

[@MaddieCassidy]

so amazed by the level of production value you put into every single video, mo! you have such a phenomenal eye for capturing the moods and feelings of scenes. 💌

[@allisonweaver1001]

Morgan, today was hard, and this video was timely. I took an exam and needless to say it didn't go well. I've said this many times but Morgan you're a blessing and I hope you know that. All 40k of us appreciate you and I know you'll add to that number! Just keep creating

[@MorganLong]

I’m so sorry to hear about the exam, but know that that single exam really doesn’t mean anything!! It’s so minuscule in the grand scheme! Good enough is good enough :) And for the record, I’m sure you’re doing far better than good enough! Big hugs, Allison friend

[@flowerchild9045]

I see so much of myself in you as well! I am a major perfectionist that graduated last year valedictorian from a good college. I miss the praise, I miss the ability to tie my worth to how well I can perform. I am learning to find my worth in far more but it is a daily struggle! Working a job I find no meaning in where I don’t feel valued has not helped. I see you and hear you and feel where you’re coming from! There is a reason I instantly will click on your videos on Fridays. Your area is a place I find peace and understanding and is almost like solace to just feel heard.

[@HanSan17]

When you said “that’s not me”, I resonated with that so much. I’ve been feeling such a pull between what is truly me and what I think I should be

[@MorganLong]

I’m so familiar with this feeling! I really think that being truly you is what will have lasting strength when all the trends fall away ❤️

[@RandiLynnReed]

Oh gosh, you don't even know how much this hits home. It is such a horrible feeling to feel like you've put your heart and soul into something you're proud of and then you put it out into the world and it feels as though no one else thinks so. My shop had hit a stand still after Christmas and for the past couple months its been a very discouraging quiet and then to top it off I launched the biggest shop update I've ever done (so much time and financial investment) and then flop. Hardly any interest at all and it is SO hard to not feel like a failure. But you are so so right that we cannot depend on numbers and likes and shares and views to tell us our worth or our success. Life is always going to ebb and flow, and that truly is the beauty of it, so we can learn to appreciate and be grateful for all we have and for what is most important in our lives; our family, friends, love, joy... I need to go listen to that podcast now and have a real sit down with myself to figure out how I might find success and value and worth from within & not be controlled by what I can't control! As always, thank you so much for being so vulnerable and honest, it always makes me feel so much less alone on this creative journey. Hugs, Randi

[@MorganLong]

I feel you SO much, Randi!! The products you create are so so so beautiful and I know that once you have your audience, your shop will thrive! I'm not sure if it helps at all...I know that it looks like everything I've done is a success (and with my new definition, it most certainly is) buuut Vlogmas was a total flop for me and I've been literally getting NEGATIVE subscribers. My channel has been growing slower than before I had 1000 subscribers! So I think the flop is bigger than us. Hang in there

[@angelicapizzo9859]

I found your channel a couple of days ago and I just fall in love with every video. I really feel as I am understood. We have a lot in common and it is nice to follow someone who shares the same interest, and at the same time is so authentic and genuine. I am still at university (last year) and this past year online has been really difficult so I completely understand how you feeling.

[@julesm9081]

I watched all the way through... and no tears until you said that last sentence - thank you

[@amyfhurwitz]

Thank you for sharing and validating these very real feelings. I'm a fellow Portlander and completely relate in every capacity. Always cross my fingers that I might run into you at a local bookstore ☺️

[@TheSelkie1990]

I've been feeling the same way about my music channel...it's still in the beginning stages, so it's a small channel, but I work really hard on the videos and share where I can. It is a very niche genre for Celtic music. Thanks for the reminder that it's not just about the numbers! I needed that. :)

[@julie230397]

Let's make a promise together viewers : for now on, comment something under Morgan's new video so it can help her with the algorithm. Let's make this little act, a thank you for all the work she does for us. Thank you so much for your content, I always keep your videos for my self care days. Lot of love ❣️

[@AmberAnastasi]

Would really love to see the music played listed. I feel so relaxed listening and would love a playlist or something to continue through the day.

[@MorganLong]

These are some playlists people have made with the songs I use in my videos and they make me cry happy tears 🥺 open.spotify.com/playlist/2WDjevLBR8c8EwUcV0Jed6?si=8OMzAjiOQyehm6hwJLCwxw open.spotify.com/playlist/1wNy8U8Dbm86lT5zqaO0F9?si=2CUdk3bUSAybRSHC-rHdeQ open.spotify.com/playlist/1frgRKgh64lo7PbDhhxDqu?si=Fd8jVOZqSg2gj0LcSKKGlg open.spotify.com/playlist/6PdsHBVldvJfj4IapNXtpi?si=xNknLTm1SAeL3qrktK65EA

[@jessicasmith9117]

I don’t know anyone right now who can’t benefit from this type of video. Haven’t watch yet as I just got back to WiFi but title alone makes me want to make sure my friends check it out. And knowing it’s made by you I can guarantee it amazing! Thanks Morgan and hugs to you! 💛

[@xiaofeimu4662]

Dear Mo, sending you a big hug. ‘being is more important than doing’ made me see the light at the end of the tunnel when I was going through dark days. Love conquers！

[@philomenayap367]

Mo' just before I get into the video, I just wanna say that your videos keep getting more and more ✨CINEMATIC 🎥✨ at every turn. And I love your new "In this video..." addition! It's like I'm watching a Gilmore Girls "Previously on..." catch-up!

[@philomenayap367]

Okay starting fully, now!

[@carlaalvarezcentrich7298]

Love your content!!! It’ll get better for sure, we all feel down sometimes, but your content shows a lot of quality and love, and that always works☺️

[@kawtaramrani9507]

I think the key is letting go of what we can’t control and only focusing on what we have control over! And that focus is what brings the fun and the passion 💕

[@stephnorman64]

I love your channel! Thank you Morgan ❤️

[@katiem5598]

Mo, you are amazing! I've subscribed to you since you had 9k subscribers and seeing you grow has honestly been so inspiring. I truly feel blessed to have been on this journey with you and seeing you be so authentically you! Your videos have provided me with such a warmth during this crazy time we're living in so thank you for giving us all a moment of calm and clarity. Keep being you! x

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so so so much for being here since 9K, Katie

[@deborahmeyers7839]

Morgan dry your tears do you know how lovely you are and how much I look forward to your videos? And my goodness those beautiful beautiful beautiful flowers you pressed into gold frames soooooo beautiful like you are. You know what I think I think there are alot of channels who feel the same way too because of social media ignore numbers because you are a star numbers cannot dim your light. 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so so so much, Deborah friend 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌼

[@deborahmeyers7839]

@@MorganLong 😘

[@ventureswithdogs1163]

I have been so scared to put my art out there and become a full time creative. I also require validation from others so to think people might not resinate with my art scares me. Thank you for being so open about these things! It makes me feel less alone and gives me more confidence to go for it even if things aren't super successful in the beginning. I absolutely love your videos!

[@thequietinside3201]

Morgan, you have quickly become my favorite KZbinr. You warm my heart & make me feel safe.

[@MorganLong]

Thank you so so much, friend