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“Pain and sadness are low vibrations,” is what I learned.
“I should stay away from that as much as possible,” I always thought.
And to deal with setbacks, I simply composed a song in the evening with a glass of Whiskey by my side. Making something positive out of something negative. Whiskey as a painkiller and Music as medicine. And when the song was done, I put it in the closet and that was it I followed this pattern for about 15 years. Till last year.
I ended up in a divorce with extreme consequences that I could not have imagined. I tried to deal with it by making music, but even that I just couldn't do. I was knocked out.
What did the universe want to teach me? And the answer was actually simple. I had to feel it all. The whole shebang. Sadness, anger, powerlessness, mourning... grief. Not another band-aid and a whiskey as a painkiller. No, I had to feel it completely. It wanted to tell me that if I don't proces my shit, my shit will mold and stink. If I don't look at my shit and process it completely, It will stick somewhere in my body, and I will probably get sick in the long run. This is just how this incredible ingenious human body works.
So I learned: Don't skip the pain, honey... It is needed to feel sadness, it is needed to feel angry. These low frequencies are needed. We need them both, the highs and the lows. To grow. To grow in this life, to grow as a soul.
And the next realisation was that I need to clean up my closet with shit. My shit. All the music I created and put in my closet for more then 15 years... Maybe even 100 songs are there, getting dust. A friend of mine told me: Do you really think it was the plan of the universe to give you this gift of making this incredible music out of your life experiences and just put it in your closet? Don't you think you became this gift to share it with the world?"
So, as a challenge for my self... every week I will release a 'shit' song, out of my closet, on Spotify. Starting with "Angel, where are you now". A song I wrote on a sad Whisky evening, feeling hopeless, wishing for support of an angel.
Here you find my first ‘shit’ song: Angel Where Are You Now (Raw & Uncut version)
• Angel Where Are You No...
All the best!
Adrian
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