paint with me: mental illness edition

[@jackieliuart]

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[@tobiasurey1434]

Thanks for Sharing. Presse keep in mind, that giving expression about all this personal traumas on the Internet is Not always the Right solution, as you Said in the last Video.

[@apaturairis2820]

I was so engaged and frowny listening to the health stuff, the pain, and the bipolar disorder reveal that hearing the words "today's sponsor" took me out 😂😂😂

[@jackieliuart]

@@apaturairis2820 i contain multitudes 🤭🤪

[@chimaobietoruom5596]

Petition for her to post that memoir

[@mizubiart6230]

You’re made of iron. Or rather wood. You grow tall and strong around obstacles, you make meaning and empower yourself through understanding. It’s so satisfying seeing you grow.

[@jackieliuart]

@@mizubiart6230 ❤️❤️❤️

[@annetanoh3891]

I wrote a memoir when I was 23. At first it was bc people said it was the golden age so I wanted to document my adventures. It ended up being the worst year of my life, I had never felt so depressed, so I was writing to cope. Then I finished it, formatted it and stuff, I was very serious about publishing it. Now I read it and it's just teenage angst😂😂😂 It is called "2023: an unofficial manifesto of young adulthood misery"😂😂

[@jennyuine.]

clicked on this video as soon as i saw it bc i live w/ BD1. being diagnosed w/ bipolar can be so destabilizing ... like it has literally taken me nearly 4 years to get to a point where i trust that there is a version of me that feels safe in my mind and body despite having been in a euthymic state for around 2 years. i've always admired not just your art, but also your words in articulating your experiences. thank u for sharing your story online in this way -- i wish i had the courage to do the same. also so very proud of u for starting your med journey! i swear once you find the right cocktail of meds for ur mind and body, u will be like "shit, is this how neurotypical people feel on the daily?" anyway, from one BD girlie to another, i'm sending u sm love and support

[@jackieliuart]

@@jennyuine. thank you so much for sharing - sending love and support right back 🫂❤️

[@LaCréé.e]

It's cute how you're always smiling when you talk lol I always thought looking at your first voiced over videos that you could really tell.

[@rosemaryhaze]

hi, person with moderate diagnosed adhd here. listening to what you’re experiencing, i understand how you might think what you’re experiencing are symptoms of adhd. many of the symptoms have an overlap with other disorders like bipolar disorder, since it’s not a personality disorder but a neurological disorder. oftentimes, symptoms of depression and anxiety also closely align with some of those of adhd. however, people with adhd suffer from a large variety of symptoms that are more than just issues with being distracted and overstimulation that have been present all throughout their life, including childhood, and cause problems in multiple areas of their life, not only one such as school for example. having adhd makes pretty much everything more difficult for me and has since i was young, and what you’re describing doesn’t really feel like actually experiencing adhd, it just feels like an overlap of a few common symptoms of other disorders being misattributed to stereotypical adhd. i’m not a professional though, but i would honestly take what your psychiatrist is saying into consideration and actually researching the symptoms that adhd has. i know not every professional is correct 100% of the time, but if talking to them about your symptoms and finding that a lot of them align closer with bipolar disorder rather than adhd, then i would trust what they believe. like others said, if you’re still not sure then you could definitely go and get a second opinion from a professional. wishing you luck on your journey!

[@SimonesBlankCanvas]

You are amazing!!!! The way you use words is like poetry. I'm forever a fan of ur art, and I love that u r so vulnerable about ur mental health, queen!!!!

[@leiasart4610]

You have such a special place in my heart, I don't comment much but every time I see you upload it genuinely makes my evening

[@jackieliuart]

@@leiasart4610 thank you for taking the time to comment - this absolutely made my day 😭❤️

[@leiasart4610]

@@jackieliuart that makes me happy to know 🥺❤

[@brennan_newton]

You are so talented. Thank you for continuing to paint and continuing to share your story.

[@piafleig]

Thank you for sharing your experience so openly! The painting looks amazing, by the way.

[@milaandersson2282]

So nice to see you paint again! All the best for your teeth

[@lisakarlsson8905]

This is the first time I heard about someone taking the same bipolar medication as me!! It’s so comforting know I’m not alone being a young woman stuck with this lifelong diagnosis🙏🏼❤️ I’ve been taking the medicine (200 mg) coming up on 4 years now and I’ve never expected vivid dreams or any kind of negative effects, exactly the opposite! I feel stable and have managed to live a very exiting and fulfilling life without worrying about loosing control over my emotions. I hope you can feel the same way soon❤️

[@Yours_sincerely_thedreamer]

OMG same I am also an artist with bipolar II. I have had severe depressive episodes since I was 6 and recently (23) started getting hypomanic episodes as well… urgh it sucks to have all those „seasons“ in my mind and have these drastic personality changes all the time. For the depression I am hooked on two different drugs, Quetiapin and Venlafaxin which help. I always dealed with it by myself, but I have started to admit myself to the psychiatry when it is really really bad which has also helped so much. It’s a difficult thing to handle, but you got this girl! And I think you are super funny :D

[@nyuhna1845]

Your description of ADHD reminds me a lot of what I'd complain about when I was younger. Turns out, it wasn't adhd, it was depression and anxiety. I couldn't focus on anything for long because every second I felt like I had a target on my back and someone was out to get me. Every little noise, simulation and thought pierced into my focus and I couldn't hold it together. I also couldn't read or watch movies but entirely. I just couldn't sit still and let myself get immersed for a whole hour or two because I was scared I'd be attacked. I also grew up in an unstable household and been through emotional and physical abuse. You sound a lot like younger me. I hope the medication helps and good for you to get the help you need.

[@jasmineosman2556]

I am also trying to understand if what I have is adhd (or possibly autism) or just social anxiety. I grew up in an unstable and emotionally and physically abusive household as well. how did you know it was depression and anxiety instead for you?

[@jessicayadav_art]

Such intricate, pretty painting jackie❤ ... Also, if you're suffering from literally anything new and detrimental upon taking meds (anxiety induced dreams and stuff as you mentioned 22:11 ) please inform the psychiatrist, prevention is better than cure yk !!!(cliché ik, still...) Hope you get well soon!❤

[@Slacked2196]

this is like when taylor tomlinson talks about being diagnosed bipolar and when she told her oldest friend, he said something along the lines of "see...its like your middle name...i didnt know what it was, but i knew you have one."

[@rhymingjade]

I personally like salon style! It looks like how when you go to someone's home and see photos of their family and friends hanging on the wall. It's not overwhelming to me, but rather feels natural and "home-y", which kind of fits your theme of joy and memory and relationships. The pieces would "bloom out" together of the wall, like how joy is not just the individual memories, but collectively shaped by all your memories at once (something similar to whole is greater than the sum of its parts). The linear-style is valid too, but I also feel that it's very structured and doesn't underscore the connections between paintings. Anyways, this is just my babbling opinion, and I don't know anything about art haha. Whatever you go with, I will enjoy what you have made nevertheless and will continue to support ur videos!!

[@jackieliuart]

@@rhymingjade ahhh thank you so much for taking the time to write this thoughtful affirming comment 🥹💕

[@sharongillesp]

Be *CAUTIOUS* with mental health medication!

[@quinxzel]

As someone who also has bipolar 2 and is an artist as well, your psychiatrist clocked me

[@dadd3longlegs]

Bruh, as soon as you said lamotrigine, I said to myself “i had nightmares and sweating and anxiety while on that one,” and then you proceeded to talk about your nightmares! No thanks. Im on abilify and so far, its been ok.

[@meghandog]

thank you sm for sharing!!! I have bipolar 1 and I am regularly like LOL that doctor was dumb and was typecasting me! she doesnt know the REAL me! but every time i sort of cycle back and look outside of myself im like wow I really am living mentally illllllll bro. i make video edits and will spend all nighters doing them only to finish and feel so depressed for like three days??? the brain works in mysterious ways. you aren't alone!

[@CarolineEckblad]

what are your favourite podcasts?

[@99juj]

I hope you're doing better after going through all of that. I want so badly to see you win at life 🫶🏾Also, fire your dentist girl 😭

[@austongreen9883]

aw, I think your jokes are funny. it's like Zoomer poetry. And the bar might be too low but saying that is just encouragement to keep healing. I noticed that the people close to us tend to be more sensitive to our sadness because they know what kind of happiness we're capable of, even if they've never actually seen it.

[@onelove2230]

W Yap fest! This vid makes me wanna get a diagnosis bc I related a little too much 😂

[@alexiswilliams3233]

I also suffer from mental illness such as depression and panic disorder so your not alone ❤

[@hannahlippincott3909]

Agree let’s evolve wisdom teeth away. My surgery went smoothly but then the next few days I swelled up so much I couldn’t close my mouth.

[@Cyber_God8024-ben4]

What are some great drawing and painting books and how do you get better at making art

[@streetratdraws]

i dont know bout that bipolar dignosis- SO MANY women with ADHD or Autism/ADHD get misdiagnosed as Bipolar instead. Honestly, I know it would be REALLY HARD to get a second opinion or see another doc instead, so I highly suggest talking to other people that actually have ADHD or Bipolar to see if your experience resonates with either one.

[@stardustcitizens]

We have had the same exact dental experience LOL

[@BobbyMcDonald-wq7il]

You are an extraordinary! Gifted! Amazing! Woman, And most importantly you are; .. A constant transformational evolving evolutionary indigenous being to all there is, Don't allow those so-called doctors put in a box, your innate senses of birth allows you to feel everything Spread your paintings out linerally Because there more than just paintings, you're telling a story about your life, would love to explain more.

[@charlizesart]

Hello Jackie! Would you ever be willing to make small prints of your art work? I love them, but I am a highschool student. I understand if you can’t and I hope to see more of your vids🫶

[@Laura-vl6db]

It says like you have ADHD... I too have been diagnosed with bipolar and I think mine is just undiagnosed ADHD, especially when you were mentioning sensory problems.

[@Robustartpainting]

Nice 👍👍👍👍👍👍 Love

[@maharauf2842]

Drop the memoir!!!!

[@dontmindme.4220]

Thankful that youtube suggested me back to your videos again. Have a lot catching up to do. About the style of showing your art: I dont know if its allowed or possible go mix between the both. Meaning go go linear so case a but indeed putting two smaller ones ankve each other and then again a bigger one. Like a mix of both. Because I agree that case b would be too overwhelming. And case a too stiff. So maybe find a middle path, if its somehow understandable? Also I was dianosed with ADHD past month. It was a curse and relief at the same time. Fingers crossed on your mental health journey. Not sure if a psychiatrist can diagnose so quickly? You do need more testing. And to my mind I do see adhd in you and maybe it's trauma and traima response combined which is not meaning being bipolar (coming from a person who worked with mental health and neurodivergent personalities). Sure I onl saw your online version and wouldn't dare to diagnose anything at all. Just hope that you'll get more testings. Use your dreams to make so jung dream analysis. Really recommend it to you, because our brain is healing when we sleep and is sending us signs (such as the pulling teeth thing), and remembering your dreams will help you analyze what it was about.

[@kkekk07]

Bro are you okay?? Nice painting

[@jike_arts]

havent finished the video yet but gurrlllll what dentist are you going to??????

[@jike_arts]

ok i have now finished the video and holy shit i did not expect to relate so hard to all your mental health stuff o_0 getting a diagnosis definitely helped me verbalize a lot of things too... sincerely hoping things go better for you!!

[@jackieliuart]

@@jike_arts fr that dentist was sussy af 😭 i’m sorry you can relate but happy the diagnoses were meaningful for you too! 🫶

[@zevia515]

[@kynnedysimone133]

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