Part 2: ExJW Waking Up On A Missionary Trip in Africa

[@laymanphil8513]

This testimony is overwhelming because I see myself in the 80s wasting my best years on behalf of the Watchtower society. I refused so much professional and sentimental opportunity for so many years that today (I woke up in April 2019) I can say that I wasted a large part of my life for NOTHING. I am happy that today more and more JWs are waking up all over the world. I do not want children to be raised in these toxic doctrines that only diminish man until his very end. A big thank you for your testimony.

[@rockpadstudios]

Many of us wasted years. I was lucky I never had any interest in living in an institutional environment like Bethel. After G Jackson ARC testimony it was over for me. Anyone watching it can't possibly believe Jehovah is blessing them. S "Lamb chops" Lett, Sam "the dummy" Herd, Tony "the drunk" Morris?

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@laymanphil8513 Hey Thank you So much for that comment. I really appreciate it. ❤️🙂 Absolutely agree.

[@goldenryan2277]

I was raised a witness and was all in from ages 16-21. Once I realized my dreams there weren't coming true and it didn't seem like a garrison was on the horizon I reluctantly left. I count myself lucky I got to claim some of my youth back all be it a few years overdue.

[@RiskeFactor]

No one wants to suffer anymore.

[@cultytalk]

🫂

[@chadstinemetz2870]

It’s nice to see young men wakeup. I was 60 years old and feel my life was a waist in a lot of ways. Congrats

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@chadstinemetz2870 hey Im glad your Awake now but I definitely feel for you, Its beautiful that despite the amount of time you had invested you still had the courage to wake up. Gives me hope about family members. Thank you my friend. 🙏🏽🙂🧡

[@hopelessidealist]

As a need-greater I would lay in bed every night fantasizing about jumping off my 24 floor apartment building, and thought I was crazy and ungrateful. At the time I had no idea so many others had similar experiences. So glad we made it out❤️

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@hopelessidealist WoW. Yeah Haha Its crazy how not alone we are. Appreciate your comment and Agree!:)🙂🫶🏽

[@HaNguyen-dy6xq]

Congratulations for waking up while you are still young. Embrace life. It's very short. Many are still mentally stuck with no way out.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Hey thank you for saying that 🫶🏽🙂

[@kalasatwater2224]

Many Africans waking up too

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@kalasatwater2224 that is Good to hear, I still think about the Local Friends I got to hang with, deeply sweet people :)❤️

[@tammyg8031]

Yes, they are❤!!!!

[@Sportliveonline]

i notice in Kenya Uganda Botswana Nigeria south Africa Gambia all speaking good English and some very clever they will start to ask questions

[@evahankova3616]

It's like literally grieving the loss of faith. Then, adjusting to new thoughts and ways .It takes time to sort out the emotions and, of course, face the congregation and friends and family. It's not easy from the beginning ,but it will get better and better.

[@tammyg8031]

Hey Noah, congratulations!!! So great to see so many are leaving and waking up. You are extremely fortunate to have woken up at such a young age

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@tammyg8031 hey Thank you for that, Its true, I am grateful. ❤️🤗

[@jakerides]

Hey man, I left the JWs when I was around 16, kept going for a while after that. I'm 38 now and trust me, you made the right decision! Life is so much more interesting when you can figure things out for yourself rather than listen to a bunch of old crooks. Hope your family doesn't give you too much shit, keep ya head up!

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@jakerides Hey thank you!, appreciate your comment 🧡🙂🙏🏽

[@Lorraine-i6p]

I am glad to see you have broken away from. All those years of brainwashing. You are now helping others. Keep. Up the good. Work. Auntie Raine. ❤

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

No Way!!, hey Auntie Lorraine!!:)) I have to/ Want to call you soon. I appreciate your comment, hope your well and talk soon ! ❤️🫶🏽🙂💜

[@BarbaraJohnson-vb7pp]

I gave my vital years to this cult…. (My 20’s, 30’s, 40’s.) For what?? Now in my 70’s I’m so glad I’ve been awake for for a long time now and I have been able to enjoy all of the “forbidden” occasions with them. I’m glad you woke up and felt that great feeling of FREEDOM. Thank you for sharing your exoerience

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Hey Thanks For sharing that my friend:))🫶🏽🙂

[@dacre6630]

An elder helped me to get out. I'll never forget him saying that it was all a big guilt trip. And that was it for me, the feelings of guilt cos id forgotten to pray, or id not studied the Watchtower so I couldn't answer up, and Id only done an hour in the ministry etc etc. It totally contributed to my depression.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@dacre6630 Hey That is cool, That elder sounds Like a Bro. ☺️🫶🏽

[@jehu8273]

Danke Dir!! Ist toll dass Du deine Erfahrung mitteilst. Ich war ca. 50 Jahre ein JZ und meine EXfrau ist es immer noch. Meine Tochter ist seit 20 Jahren eine Hardcore Pionierin. Ich hoffe sie wachen auch noch auf. Ich komme aus der Schweiz und grüsse Dich herzlich!❤ Alles Liebe Dir!❤

[@blackalien6873]

I always think Western Europeans are too sophisticated from this nonsense. Were you born in?

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@jehu8273 Hey Greetings My Swiss Friend!:) Thanks For your Comment:) 💜🙂🙏🏽

[@jehu8273]

​@@superfreakinzoomedin Meine Tochter war übrigens ca.12 Jahre in Südamerika. Sie taufte sich da und wurde Pionierin. Ich hatte sie besucht und wir gingen in den Predigtdienst. Ich habe dabei verrücktes erlebt und konnte nicht immer auf meinen Mund sitzen. 😂😂😂 Wirklich toll dass du von deinem Leben erzählst. Liebe Grüsse❤

[@tanianathan3361]

I woke up in 2022, after 20 years in but I came in as an adult. Had really awful experiences but ya know? I am so grateful and joyful to be OUT! Also, worldly people are so good, kind and its been eye opening- taking it slow still, still catch myself wanting to pray before meals like a reflex action 😂 but: I'm glad you are alive ❤ greetings from Finland! Your sister, T

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@tanianathan3361 Hey From Finland!:) Yeah The kindness Ive felt and been shown from the “worldly” people has blown my mind. All people including most JWs i believe just want comunity and love. Thanks For sharing!:)🙂🙏🏽❤️

[@StefWokeUp]

I can relate on so many levels. I love how you explain it…that you felt so alive when you woke up. That’s how I felt after the initial shock of it all. I’m so glad you are sharing this. I have no doubt it will help people.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Hey Thank For Your Comment, Really appreciate that One 🫶🏽🙏🏽🙂

[@RichKidNina]

Hey man, I just wanted to comment and say this resonates with me so much. I woke up in March of 2023. I can’t begin to tell you how deeply I felt what you’re saying. The feeling of guilt and shame for being a human and/or being authentically you was so painful to bear that death quite literally sounded better. Thanks for sharing your story it honestly was more validation I needed that I wasn’t the only one who felt like that every day of my 25 years of life. So thanks again dude you’re brave for posting this. Inspiring me to share more too ✊

[@RichKidNina]

Ps. The freedom is soooo unbelievably sweet you’re right. I am finally actually living the best life ever 😂

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@RichKidNina hey Thanks A Lot for that comment! I really appreciate the feedback back and that it resonates. I think the power is how alone WTer makes people feel, But we need to speak up if/ when were ready. ✊🏽 Thanks for your words🙂🧡

[@vincetriscell5838]

Fascinating , I can't wait for more. Don't stop , keep it coming. Your doing awesome just being you. Thank you so very much for your Bravery . and Honesty. Good work. 👍

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Hey Thank You GPV🥰😌🧡

[@EvelynnLandrum]

Thank you for your honesty. Your life is precious, live it to the fullest and be TRUE to yourself! You will be okay. ❤️

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@EvelynnLandrum Thank you for that comment. Very appreciated. 🤝🙂🧡

[@shalom2198]

Thank you for sharing. I am a ex Jw too. I turned in my resignation letter in 2021. Sending you support. 🎉

[@calboy2]

Thanks for sharing your experience as a JW and how you are trained to not believe your eyes

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Yeah Absolutely. Cognitive Dissonance my friend:)🙂🎃

[@johnc.mitchelljr.2716]

Missionary work in Africa 😮Yikes ! That’s full in. Oh shit. Yeah, something was wrong, big time! So happy you discovered the sham and are sharing your story 👍

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

🧡🙏🏽🙂

[@MarcRock76]

Not a witness, but my family is. Been watching these types of vids of lately…it just fascinating to me…..good job.

[@mamajan99]

A study in the psychology of cults for sure!

[@Adina-G]

Nice!!

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Wow thanks for your Comment, Its good to know and the more that know the better. Less people will feel trapped🩵🙂

[@WhattheSquawk]

Thanks so much for your video. I swear it’s like we get PTSD from all the time wasted, and all the years being lied to. Good for you to finally having your eyes opened! It’s terrible how we are so scared but feel free when we wake up! ❤ please continue to make your videos. Watching stories like yours is complete therapy for me! I see you have a little one from that car seat in the back. Thank goodness you are not raising her and false religion.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Hey Thanks For that Feedback:) Yeah PTSD is a real thing Ive found to be true personally. My Girls are my world and I will do my best to raise them with unconditional Love, It is The Way:)) 🙂🤗🫶🏽

[@Mr.DC3.1914]

Most truly I say to you, a slave is not greater than his master, nor is one who is sent greater than the one who sent him.q John 13:16 . Jesus was SENT BY GOD - and called as SERVANT OF GOD. Acts 4:27 WHO IS OVER ALL? Ephesians 4:6 one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. GOD and FATHER is OVER/ABOVE ALL and that "All" includes the SON so they are NOT EQUAL THE BIBLE teaches that Jesus was MADE As Lord and Christ and as Son (ACTS 2:36, Prov 8, HEB 1:5), CREATED/PRODUCED/INSTALLED (Prov 8) , COME INTO BEING/MADE (Mat 21:42 - egeneto) and GIVEN LIFE by the Father - John 5:26 and it uses TODAY (Heb 1:5), and uses future tenses and is a prophecy in Isa 9:6 (Isa 9:6, - WILL BE) . If you are called MADE AND CREATED AND GIVEN LIFE, and NEVER CALLED in the BIBLE as Creator or Maker , then you are A CREATION. ALL FROM THE BIBLE From the Lord was this (this is referring to the chief cornerstone who is Jesus) , the word WAS is egeneto (made or came into being) - Matthew 21:42 and the exact Greek word used in John 1:3 - MADE, egeneto (came into being) - JESUS WAS MADE/CAME INTO BEING FROM THE FATHER , yes, Jesus was MADE/CREATED!, See also Acts 2:36, Heb 1:5, 1 john 5 Jesus in FACT mentioned the FATHER IS GREATER than I am. JOhn 14:28. BEFORE he WAS SENT, the Father is ALSO GREATER than Jesus. Most truly I say to you, a slave is not greater than his master, nor is one who is sent greater than the one who sent him.q John 13:16 . Jesus was SENT BY GOD - and called as SERVANT OF GOD. Acts 4:27 AFTER his resurrection the FATHER IS STILL GREATER than Jesus - WHO IS OVER ALL? Ephesians 4:6 one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. GOD and FATHER is OVER/ABOVE ALL and that "All" includes the SON so they are NOT EQUAL

[@christinesotelo7655]

@@Mr.DC3.1914What’s your point? Ridiculous.

[@Wisedupwoman]

@@Mr.DC3.1914 what the fuck??

[@justinisbecoming]

Thanks for sharing man! I can relate sooo much. At the peak of my “spiritual career” I was the most unhappy. So glad to see you on this journey and out of the cult. Keep it up and keep going 🙌🏾

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Thanks for the comment my Bro:))🫶🏽🙏🏽🙂

[@moonsong9472]

Really interesting. Thanks for sharing.

[@allib9742]

I wasted the best part of my life while waiting for Armageddon. My parents are 2nd generation, and I was told over and over "you will never graduate high school." Boy, am I glad I got out, now have a home and a career I actually like. Yep, like my life. When I was the ages of 12 I had very clear thoughts of depression and suicide. I literally wanted an airplane to land on me. I stood on the Golden Gate bridge. So very beyond sad.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Im sorry to hear that, But i FEEL you my friend. Thanks For sharing😢💜🙂🫶🏽

[@gabrielkoncowski1403]

Hi true bro thanks for sharing. Take care from England. We appreciate you and your videos

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@gabrielkoncowski1403 Hey Thank You!;)) 🙂

[@ethangalaz]

Hey Noah, just like a lot of us, we are all in this together. Pretty sick that you are able to talk about it and share your experience. Keep it up man.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@ethangalaz thank you 🙏🏽🩵🤗

[@iankelly6632]

Congratulations on being part of the I want to do what ever I want crew….well done

[@JOJACKJAPANLOLAMIYAZAKI]

Thank you for sharing your story my friend Noah just keep uploading and be strong and safe❤️.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@JOJACKJAPANLOLAMIYAZAKI hey Thank You. 🙏🏽:)

[@smooth-dancer]

Congrats on your escape. the magic of scorpion poison.

[@matthewmundy5805]

Thank you for your heart felt video.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Thank You. 🙂

[@Sportliveonline]

true everyone should have a testimony without being shunned

[@muma6559]

yes, the "flood of validation" that hits when you do some research.. is so good ! Great sense of liberation, true!

[@DeclineofJehovah]

"deal with the pressure of being alive" . That's intense and I feel you on every level of that. Its interesting because JWs don't even realize that they're some of the least happy religious people.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@DeclineofJehovah hey thank you, yeah I’m trying to keep that in mind as I stay honest about my story in the pain of having to give up family and self for a religion. Thanks for your comment.

[@cultytalk]

Omg I absolutely LOVE your screenname!! Lol 😅

[@DeclineofJehovah]

@@cultytalk 😁

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@cultytalk haha Thank you!, Im on the fence about it but I appreciate the feedback back😆🙂

[@donnyetta]

Greetings from England. You are so courageous. I left by letter in January after watching hours of the Australian Royal Commission. Children matter! So do you. Heavenly Father will be there for you - Afterall - He did have written "Get out of her MY, people." ❤

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@donnyetta hey Friends From England!:) 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 Yeah the ARC was huge for me as well. Thank you For saying that. 🫶🏽🙂🙏🏽

[@halirumohammed4730]

I'm from Nigeria, i felt in love with this JW crap when I was 11 years old when I started knowing how to read, i found one of JW brochure (life for ever in a paradise earth) i enjoy the picture and brief comments in there, so i knew i can't come close to these people, but my curiosity got me in big trouble, i showed my elder sister, she bite the hell out of me 😂 'couse we are all Muslim, after the ol woning, i decide to wait after my secondary school, i get bethize 2002, i started having issues 2005, there was a case between me and a brother, the elders were not fear to me i felt 'couse the guy was richer than me, i believe in the organisation more than my life, my waking up started the year of COVID mr lett broadcasting (we are in the last day of the last day and the last day). My pains are my elder sister my sister's children and wife i brought to this cult my education my 33 years. But I'm more happy now that i knew religion is a hole bullshet, I'm a better person now... My love to you guys ❤❤❤❤❤🎉🎉

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Wow Man, thanks for your comment and sharing a part of your story. Im happy to hear that you are enjoying your freedom after gaining the brain wash perspective. ✊🏽🧡🙂🫶🏽 Love Back to you and your Family as well. ❤️🙂

[@emmanuellartey3176]

I love you Bro, you are awesome with great mind

[@elliotpaul-music9899]

Yep I woke up really fast and it was a shock for sure LOL!!! Much love ❤️

[@angelawhitfield7498]

My ex husband was an elder and we had to have the appearance of the perfect little family. Man did I work hard to make it happen. Attend all meetings, make sure children are still and quiet so they wont get disciplined by him, do all personal study for me and with my children and the ministry and training the children in the ministry. This consumed all of my teens and all my twenties into my thirties. My prime years...

[@AlyssaIrvine]

Your prime years are now because you are free ❤

[@IamEpicHill]

Hey glad that scorpion stung you for it made you realize what you were feeling was not right! I woke up very late in life, and it was a very difficult thing to accept. There is bliss in not knowing, but I rather take a little pain to get to living my real self. I still feel sorta numb at times so an interested in hearing more about your work on healing your inner child! Thanks!

[@toriwolf5978]

Just found your channel been fading for a few years good luck on your journey to a free and better life❤so proud of you for getting out of that cult!!!

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Hey Good Luck on your journey as well. Thanks For your comment. :)🫶🏽🙏🏽

[@mimiderooy8790]

I hope you heal and have a wonderful life. Much love and light to you. 🙏💕

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Thank you so Much for that comment, my deepest desire is to be on the side of Light!🙂🫶🏽🩵

[@mimiderooy8790]

@@superfreakinzoomedin i have 4 boys and 2 are still in. my youngest is your age and has struggled with depression but he tries so hard to put on a brave face. It is little things like what happened to you that may jolt your mindset into reality. Who wouldnt want to live forever? But their promises are actually whitewashed graves. It is so clear once you are out but hard to deal with while in. I cried for a long time once i realised i was duped and allowed myself to be duped until i had the courage to leave. So wonderful that you are being vulnerable and authentic - your testimony is heart warming. 🫶🏻😀

[@AlyssaIrvine]

I'm so happy you are okay. Welcome to the other side ❤ Happiness is here 😊

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@AlyssaIrvine thank you. 🙂🫶🏽

[@djbof]

I can not believe this is still going on I was pre 1975 and had struggles due to my orientation. I came from the door to door ministry and became a pioneer. I finally realized I was lonely and it was hard, however I left it all. I have had a great life and found someone and we have been together 53 years. I feel so bad for all the ones who grew up in it and that seems like the ones who are waking up. We did not have the internet so we could not do research and know about 1799,1873,1914,1925, however 1975 was the worst. Every inside cover of the Awake said God`s promise of a New Order before the generation of 1914 passed away. Brothers believed every word of it. You are still young , you have your whole life ahead of you. So happy you woke up because it is not easy.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@djbof hey Thank you So much. I really appreciate your comment, and your testimony of finding happiness on the outside after having enough courage to leave. ❤️🙏🏽

[@williamrfranz9248]

Thanks for this testimony. Interesting to listen to your explanation, your feelings, your thoughts 😃 this will help some people

[@marmieRH]

Wow what a story 😢 merci du Québec, I appreciate your experience in the jws. It helps me a lot because I know that every religion is the same and it scary 😨

[@mamajan99]

I disagree. Cults like this are 100 times worse than most church groups as it destroys your entire family and social network.

[@ArtThermon]

As a JW myself of some 35 yrs but faded, I can confirm that JW theology is not for everyone . Far from it. And despite what the JW leadership say and what even the rank and file seem to say, the JW theology is very controlling. They say that "love " is what unites them. Well after 35 yrs in this group I beg to differ. In my opinion what "unites" them is fear- the fear of being disfellowshipped and shunned even if one dissociates themselves. If one's family and "friends" are JWs, then shunning can be quite mentally overwhelming and many do not cope. In my case , i am not DFed but throughout my life, i made sure I had a life & friends separate to the JW. I had NO desire to "reach out" to climb the theocratic ladder to be a MS or elder. Furthermore I let my kids play sport and go to school camps etc both of which are expressly frowned upon in the JW world because it is seen to be "mixing unnecessarily with worldly people". My point I guess is that people should not devote all their time to this way of life because you will find it quite suffocating. There are many "good" honest hearted people with the JW ranks but just know that their friendship is conditional and if you choose to leave on your own, they will consider that as disassociation and you may be shunned as a consequence.

[@BramptonAnglican]

Thanks for sharing new friend

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Hey Thank you, I want to check out your channel, It Looks cool! Thanks For yohr support🫶🏽🙂

[@christinesotelo7655]

What a great story! You’re so right too, that it’s really a scary experience to wake up, a combination of excitement and omg, I’m going into Satan’s hands, type thing. The world becomes like a toy box when you’re excited about seeing WHATs there, then horribly frightening if you go through removal and shunning, in the blink of an eye there goes your family. You did a great job telling your story, I was really into it. Thank you. Your advice is wise: take it slowly. I really understand why there are PIMOs. WT takes everything away from you so FAST, it leaves you in shock. Take your time building your whole strategy of exit, because they do NOT remain your friends! ❤

[@Sportliveonline]

its a terrible fear

[@cultytalk]

👋 👋 👋

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

1000% Thanks For your kind Words!, Yeah I absolutely understand the Pimo stance. There is A LOT to contemplate while waking up. Its all by design which is the F’d up Part. 💜🙂🫶🏽

[@cupcakes1990]

I really relate to a lot of this. I had a similar thing leading up to the moment I allowed myself to research. I was being introspective after some time being sick and off the hamster wheel. I couldn't fathom getting back in the routine. I was so miserable and it didn't make sense since nothing was technically "wrong" at that moment. It was this internal battle between me trying to allow myself to think critically, but also doing all of the typical thought stopping stuff. I needed to just investigate and prove that this was the truth so I can snap out of this and just serve jehovah with confidence. I had to know all that was out there in order to be able to do that because nothing made sense. The rest is history lol. To know I wasn't alone for so many things not feeling right was huge for me also.

[@lilac624]

Handsome

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@lilac624 haha Tanks😅

[@emilienazaroff6557]

Congratulations! Thanks for sharing your story 🫶. We have been awake for about 10 years. We have kids your age & they are all out too! 🙏. You mentioned being from a small wine town… bye chance are you from Napa area? Best, Emilie Nazaroff

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@emilienazaroff6557 Hey yeah!, if your from that area Im sure I know people you guys did. And if your still in the area I’d love to chat some time!:) Also Thanks For your kind words!🙂🧡

[@muma6559]

A lot of people wake up when they move to where there's a need or missionaries, we did too. The expectations and what actually transpires are two very different things and that starts the questioning. It's like what the hell is this org about and the people in it are horrendously stupid. I'm looking forward to listening to your video

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@muma6559 🙏🏽🙏🏽🫶🏽🙂

[@MAGYTA18]

I just woke up this year. I lost 40 years of my life I feel so stupid

[@isabellagaladrielg8526]

U are not alone, you are free from a dangerous cult. U have one friend here in nm usa

[@videoprotectedcom]

and another one in new Jersey.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

🫶🏽🙂💜

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Hey Thanks Bro. ☺️🤗🫶🏽

[@justinporter458]

Mark Twain 1835 -1910 a famous Atheist Poet wrote ,,I,m not afraid of being dead, I was dead for billions upon billions of years before I was born and I never suffered the slightest inconvenience from it,,

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@justinporter458 i Love it😄💙🙂

[@jac9366]

well done, keep going ❤

[@Sportliveonline]

that masterbation bit is true

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Thanks You!🧡🙂🫶🏽

[@Elizabeth-dx5oz]

So very happy for your freedom. I wasted 33 yrs of my life, but it was just life's experience💪🤨 I paid the price of loosing my one daughter 😏 Keep making new podcasts please for younger jws 😊

[@cultytalk]

🫂

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Hey Thanks For sawing that. :)🫶🏽🙂💜

[@beelee7862]

Good for you!!!

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Thank you Friend:))🫶🏽

[@GaerwenYT]

You know it was my pioneer trip also what made me realize something was not ok 😅 had more time to really read the literature and all… Also realized this people didn’t need what we were preaching

[@rockpadstudios]

You are lucky to be alive, they don't broadcast it but many got infected over there and came back in a casket.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Really!?? That’s horrible!?? I haven’t heard anything about that but im sorry to hear that.😢

[@ramrod576]

Hopefully you are doing n reddit exjw. Glad to hear your story.

[@Sportliveonline]

when you went to Africa did you notice all the poverty the orphans widows starving without money was there a program to help them there are thousands asking me for money like in the book of james where it says help the orphans but the watchtower with all its money does nothing to help and yet

[@thirtyyearcosmetologist]

To be honest I had a woman tell me 20 years ago after I told her I was one of JW that Jehovah’s witnesses are some of the most miserable people and I would have to agree. The constant pressure of everything. The reason you probably struggled with masturbating was because it was an escape and offered relief. Congratulations! You are still young. I feel like my moral compass was fine tuned when I left that ridiculous religion. I don’t have the same struggles anymore

[@culturedboor]

Masturbation and guilt, such a common story, yet we had so little idea how many others were feeling the same pain, wondering if they had committed the unforgivable sin, etc.

[@lh1673]

Wow experience from a former missionary is big! Thanks😊May I ask, Were you praying to Jehovah to save you? And when was cured, did you thought your prayer was answered. Or was your critical thoughts already working about death and was able to realize it was LUCK that you survived?

[@robfulano2552]

He was not a missionary. I have been a missionary through the society, Gilead, it means living in a missionary-home, get allowance and been taken care by the local branch for your food and bills. It’s like being a bethelite but taken better care of. Not just preaching in another country, those were called need-greaters.

[@lh1673]

@@robfulano2552Oh yes, I forgot about that Need in Greater place. Actually this org has many words in their world😅

[@lh1673]

@@robfulano2552May I ask, were you a missionary in Africa? If so, is it true of those broadcast videos showing the African bro and sisters as if they are having comfortable life as JW?

[@robfulano2552]

@@lh1673 No, I was a missionary for nine years in the Caribbean..so I can not have an opinion on the African situation. Where I served, brother and sisters were rich, poor depending on their personal situation. We had families with mansions, BMW’s with drivers and also poor sisters living alone with kids.

[@ramiroonn]

Bro's definitely related to Togi💀

[@teresareilly4576]

Yes I understand the pressure . I wasn't brought up as a JW , but I thought it was the truth. That's until I really got to know what these sooo called christians are all about . I got sexually abused by a sooo called ministerial servant. It really effected me . I told the Elders , and because of the 2 witness Rule BS I was Not believed. Even though their were 5 witnesses who seen what their dad did to me . Even his wife saw . N said Nothing. I always was judged . N this time I was judged AGAIN. I don't want to go back . I feel free . Only Jehovah knows us . Only he knows our heart conditions. I will always believe in Jehovah , but Not all the Elders n the Government Body say 😢😢

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@teresareilly4576 oh Man, Im really sorry for what ever thats worth. I have a good friend that has a similar. He was drugged by a MS that was an SKE graduate and then abused. I agree about the God part as well myself. Hope your finding healing and Peace now. 💜🫶🏽🥲

[@mr.atheist8848]

@teressareilly4576 I hope the Ministerial servant is now in jail

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Sorry I didnt realize how my comment made no sense, Just updated it now. Im sorry my friend for your experience.❤️

[@teresareilly4576]

Thanks so much . I'm ok . Getting there slowly. Thanks again for sharing your experience 😊😊​@@superfreakinzoomedin

[@chrisdeluen2608]

Everybody struggles with masturbation it’s because it’s normal

[@Sportliveonline]

yer the little hand goes down inside the trousers

[@simonf7367]

Just viewing your videos now. Well done. I’m out for 4 years now myself. Did the elders come for you at all? How are you being treated by your family?

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@simonf7367 being mostly shunned by close family and friends with the exception of some extremely kind hearted humans that understand being human. Elders have tried once to talk, But there is nothing to talk about. And glad to hear of your progress 🙂🫶🏽

[@meimeix1202]

Remember elders are sinners just like everyone else, they make mistakes too. Only God is our perfect parent, advisor, best friend and savier, rely only on God instead of those people in the organization. “Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving, let your petitions be made known to God; and the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your mental powers by means of Christ Jesus.”-Philippians 4:6, 7

[@sohu86x]

God does not exist.

[@nobodyeverybody9277]

What happened to "by their fruits you will recognize them" polemic often used by Watchtower to "prove" that the "mistakes" of the leaders of Christendom are among the proofs that they are false? And how can an adherent of the Watchtower organization "rely only in God instead of those people in the organization" when these two are cosubstantial in JW doctrine, that obedience to those "taking the lead" is obedience to Jehovah and vice versa?

[@Dontlie2024]

​@sohu86x go and watch some of Dr James Tours lectures. He is a synthetic chemist. He might teach you something.

[@christinesotelo7655]

True. But like the GB, no Elder apologizes. That’s a big factor in being human: recognizing when you’ve been wrong and making amends. Consider also that Elders are young and inexperienced with much of life and should pursue Higher Ed before Counseling others who may need true therapy.

[@christinesotelo7655]

@@sohu86xGod does not exist as presented by mankind.

[@margaretmukasa2998]

Life is stressful enough. JW adds to the pressure and mental illness.

[@Obudzona_]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@Obudzona_ 🤗🫶🏽❤️❤️❤️🙏🏽

[@stevel2407]

Can you explain more about the fear in looking at other materials about the jw group , what was the fear of , the people themselves or to God? What is your faith like now ? Hectic story mate .

[@Jesus_Christ_Conquers]

Fact is, is that we never die. Our body does but not who we are, and that is our Spirit. I use to believe that when you die that is it but then in 2009 I left my body and saw everything as clear as day, that is Outside of my body. Saw my Spirit which moving vibrational energy. Picture melted glass that you can see through, moving like smoke and yet the melted glass smoke moving fast. Since then I knew that those that teach soul sleep are WRONG!

[@Des7iny7]

We were never born & we’ll never die 💗🤍💗🤍💗

[@Jesus_Christ_Conquers]

@@Des7iny7 I forgot to mention that my spirit has a light of it’s own that only I could see when I was out of my body. Also crystal clear fluid though. Comparing it is like comparing being in dressed in a heavy outfit from head to toes with a cold that muddles your ability to see things clearly in a body vs being free of it. Nonetheless, I will finish my mission and purpose here till the very end and then I will shed this vessel. Sorry I had to put it so crude.

[@Sportliveonline]

which country did you go to in Africa

[@randyfournier8299]

Why are the animals totally violent with each other, sin? I don’t think so.

[@christinesotelo7655]

So, in the JW paradise, where illustrations in WT magazines show babies running after lions and the mom is standing there with fruit on her head, and grinning. What happens? The lions drop their sharp teeth out? The jaw pressure of some animal slackens? Is it an evolutionary phenomena that happens? No more canine teeth and animals are vegetarians? I’ve often wondered about the stuff they say about the paradise earth.

[@dancingnature]

I’ve got a biology degree and plants do everything that animals do except move around. They eat ,drink ,reproduce and they are very aware of their surroundings. They don’t like being eaten and will let others of the same species know that they’re being attacked . The other plants will ramp up production of toxins and repellents . In some cases they’ll “call“ for assistance from an animal that eats the plant predators. While animals use sound to communicate, plants use pheromones. That idea of vegan lions always made me laugh . Felids are obligate meat eaters . A veggie diet would kill them.

[@christinesotelo7655]

@@dancingnature wow. I love and appreciate the explanation! 🌹

[@hoppscraft]

You are still young, you can reset your life around sonething ,dont go atheist because of à false cult 🎉

[@videoprotectedcom]

No religion, no pressure. Religion = $$$$.

[@painterdawn2]

The last thing he needs is some random person on the internet telling him what to do.

[@hoppscraft]

@@painterdawn2 random as à key word ?

[@shirleytatha8189]

Which country in Africa did you go to?

[@cesarguadarrama8732]

You we're slept all the way útil now

[@zee.___moose941]

Im 40 and going to the meetings and doing the study.im not bptized or anything never will be im not JW material im a convict lol. I can see through the bullshit but i keep going anyways . The meeting hall is right next door ,i think im going out of spite at this point because some ppl arent happy im there 😂 a ex drg addict criminal making them look bad .

[@falling043]

How did you go on a missionary trip without going through Gilead? Normally going on those trips on your own are a bit frowned upon.

[@rogerelder1196]

Much of this distress is from the doctrine that Christ's sacrifice only covers Adamic sin and not personal sin. That only works will cover personal sin. Therefore, hoping you are doing enough, but not knowing for certain that you are. This by definition is not Christianity. It's an Arius doctrine. Read a bible transcribed by many reputable scholars, ask God for help in understanding. Don't let the experience turn you away from religion or God.

[@halirumohammed4730]

I'm starting life new no friends noting no one to call my friend, my community the Muslims and others are making life hell to me but I'm happy i go on with my business, i just need friends to communicate with that all, i dont beg for food i go out, i buy property and sell, lands, house, i build for people etc

[@uptoncriddington6939]

I wonder if you said anything to the well-dressed stuck-up-looking guy?

[@sohu86x]

Don't waste anymore of your life in religion! I wasted 12+ years studying Christianity in seminary and university. Keep waking up!

[@racevanandros2916]

We are TAUGHT directly by Abba/Christ. I was lost in pharmakia for a time after leaving the jw/door knocker cult and warned from beyond, not to have sex with spirits, it's a common thing now. All has been infiltrated by the original perverse rebellion (the watchers, fathers of giants/nephilim ) be no part of the world. No salvation for abomination, Christ's blood only covers the seed of God's women, the crowning creation, OUR FAMILY. Thank you Bruh for this testimony 🕊️

[@sohu86x]

@@racevanandros2916 More nonsense.

[@racevanandros2916]

@@sohu86x "Don't Waste Yourself." Bruce Lee

[@sohu86x]

@@racevanandros2916 Didn't take long to reveal your true self - a racist bigot. That's what Christianity taught you? You should hate Jesus too, he's a Jew.

[@CarlStJohn-x9w]

I disagree. Jesus is Lord. Jesus saves. Faith in God is life changing. ❤

[@allisonvelazquezz]

Omg, i have a lot to say about this video. 1. For a long time, you felt that your natural impulses were a burden (even though in school, we’re taught that masturbation, sex, and pleasure are natural parts of being human). I went through the same, and I thought it was even worse because, as a woman, I was expected to have “pure” thoughts. 2. I’ve felt great sorrow for my gay brothers and sisters who were made to hate themselves. If it was hard for straight people like us, I can’t imagine how difficult it must be for the LGBTQ+ community. 3. People experience spiritual awakenings in the most unexpected ways-who would have thought that something like an animal bite could mark the beginning of a new path in life? Haha. 4. Validation within the ex-JW community feels like a hug to the heart amid one of the toughest existential crises we each endure. Thanks to your video, I was reminded that, even though it was hard, it felt good to meet people from all over the world who felt the same way. Someone on another continent, in a different language, also felt like a “bad Christian” for doubting their faith; someone else cried for the life that could have been, and others just kept going. Thank you for sharing your story. Wishing you a wonderful life ✨

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

Hey Thanks So much for your Comment!, at the end of the day, It feels the best to be seen for speaking your truth as your authentic self. Thank you for your validating, Kind words as well. And Like Wise!🙂🩵✊🏽

[@devinmedeiros9466]

I am a ex jw

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@devinmedeiros9466 i see Ya my friend🙂

[@RiskeFactor]

I always enjoyed the ministry.

[@NicholasPitts-u4m]

Congratulations brother but plz don’t give up on Christianity because of the after affects of that cult. God is real and Jesus is god. The New world translation is a horrible misrepresentation of the true bible.

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@NicholasPitts-u4m hey I see you and Appreciate you saying that. I believe in God and am doing my best to navigate after the effects of what I was told for so long. ❤️🙏🏽

[@elpablo5463]

Jesus Christ is Lord and Savior. He is God in flesh. He died for our sins and payed the full penalty. This is what JW cult don't teach. They mess up the real biblical doctrine with their false watch tower teachings. I hope you find Jesus.

[@krislivelylively9560]

If you don't want to put your gift on the altar go see what the world has to offer

[@blahblah2blahblah260]

Why do yall always assume someone wants to leave just to go do bad things? Maybe we just want to be free from all the judgemental holier than thou i get more time than you so im a better person hypocrisy and fake smiles . I left in 2017 and i live a simple life without all the time mandatory be here or there stuff. And no more walking on eggshells hoping not to stumble somebody because of the color of my car or how many doors it has😂. Yes jws are that extreme but dont know it.

[@krislivelylively9560]

Most married Brothers do a little of that before sexual intercourse so I feel guilty😂

[@stevenm3428]

Agree, don’t waste anymore time focusing on “religion”, but do spend your time studying the Bible and learning about the true Savior, Jesus Christ. The Bible is 100% true. God gave us His word so that we could have a relationship with Him through His Son and our Savior Jesus Christ. It is a free will choice to accept Jesus and experience His gift of salvation.

[@Wisedupwoman]

cease and desist! You can trigger people's PTSD with that crap

[@ADP2085]

​@Wisedupwoman if that's the case then all the more so why they need the true Christ to be healed by his spirit and not the one pushed forth by religion

[@Wisedupwoman]

@@ADP2085 keep your RELIGIOUS views to yourself, you unkind human

[@godfollower4952]

Separation from God is not just being gone it's hell....please apart from the JW study what hell truly is ....they lie ...you don't get anymore chances ...you die apart from Jesus you will experience hell for all eternity....please read matthew 25 in its original language. Our good works cannot save us ...life without Jesus will lead to hell for all eternity....I love you and pray you will find Jesus in all of this confusion of watchtower theology...it is a false religion

[@Sportliveonline]

now what it really is ~~~no one knows doesent matter what Religion it is how do you know whats written in the Bible is true in the first place ~~all will say its faith and yet all have contradicting views

[@WilianMoreiradaSilva-Burke]

Hey I totally understand you. I’m so glad you are free. I spend many years pioneering… do you have what’s up I would love to contact you

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@@WilianMoreiradaSilva-Burke Thank you! Yeah My email in in my Bio so shoot me a message and we can get in touch:)

[@WilianMoreiradaSilva-Burke]

Please how can I contact you?

[@superfreakinzoomedin]

@ I got your email!, will Talk soon:)