Passively carried down the stream of life

I feel much better today. I reflect on being passively thrown about vs taking steps forwards in life.
Sometimes i can't help but just let the stream of life take me where it goes and have no fight in me to actively make an impact on my own life. This kind of victim mentality isn't good, but i hope to take the reins a bit more with the help of therapy.
Kudos to the artist @fanatomyart for the intricate anatomy illustration!

[@fredrik625]

As an INFP who diagnosed himself with autism, I see myself in you and ressonate with alot of your frustrations and feelings of being overwhelmed. I think the things I've done that really sent me on a path to become more secure in himself has been the exploration of myself and my fears (fear of death, fear of the unknown ect) through psychedelics like LSD and mushroom (psilocybin). Which then led me to meditation (and some yoga to connect with the body) and exploration of more spiritual things (been mostly an atheist) like buddhist/taoist/new age teachings. Moving out of my moms place was definitely a big thing for me as it was stressful and scary, but such a liberating thing to live by myself and have those long periods by himself to heal and reflect. And finally being able to summon the courage to follow my passions through studying music which I'm currenly in has been amazing, easy to get discouraged as its not really a safe (rather risky) path to take, but being stuck for so long without any career or purpose I finally feel I'm unto something. It's hard to recommend psychedelics(it being scary and illegal) tho and its better to leave up for someone to explore and discover by themselves, and even then it can be hard to get a hold of without connections. Although different psychedelic mushrooms usually grows natuarally many places, like the "fleinsopp" in Norway. I personally believe from my own experience it can really benefit an INFP, but even more someone with autism as it has made me feel much more connected and "hollistic" in my body and mind. Already in the early days of LSD in the 1960s there were some testing using LSD to treat autistic children and it seems its getting a resurface lately. I can recommend a book called "Autism on Acid" by Aaron Paul Orsini and how LSD changed his course in life. This got pretty long, but I want you to know I appreciate you and I'm rooting for you every time I see one of these. I really am able to reconceptualize and look back at my own experiences through these and I admire your ability to so confidenlty express yourself here, especally at your lower more vulnerable points, as that is something I find challening for myself and when trying to express myself to others. My most valuable "take" from my life until now has probably been to to the things I tend to shy away from, even though they are things I feel like I need. For every thing I do despite the anxiety and fear, is a point of growth for me, and from that growth I feel more confident and I start to believe in myself more and more. So keep on keeping on Ingrid, I believe in you.

[@vondelpete]

Hm it sometimes comes into my head how much of the past few years for me were often caused by external events and I feel pretty similar at the moment, that there's just this stream pushing me places, and sometimes it's just about staying still and resisting it, sometimes I have no choice but to be pushed by it, but yeah, it isn't a feeling I like. I do think it's possible to fight against it though and I know I've done it in the past. But yeah, that feeling of not having the energy to fight is very relatable.

[@radishraven9]

Thank you for the comment, i have a hard time seeing past this way of thinking, but maybe i haven't reached that stage of growth yet. I am impressed that you have sometimes been able to fight against the stream 😊

[@Lafrono]

I feel a lot like you in getting thrown or draged through life. Cant really articulate that right know because I had a long day, but you are definetly not alone in feeling like that.

[@radishraven9]

Thank you for sharing, it is a relief I'm not alone! 😊

[@Ech645]

ENFP / ADHD i feel so alone with my racing mind, watching your videos always give me hope! when life is so difficult, you learn to find mining in the little things. all we need is peace of mind

[@radishraven9]

Thank you, yes we need to find some peace of mind 😌

[@jaytm2574]

That stream is always pushing us along Ingrid, the secret is that you can't fight it or swim against it's current - only swim sideways to direct where we can go along the banks. The important part is to see far enough up ahead to navigate to the place we want to pause along the banks, stay a while, then take off swimming again.

[@radishraven9]

Yes, thank you for those wise words 😊

[@sicparvismagna1294]

Hello Ingrid, Good to see you again. On homeopathy I think although one should be careful and not trust everything but nonetheless it may help sometimes. I do feel that life has always happened to me. I rarely have the choice in my life except some essential things of course and as a person who has been through traumatic events people who say ' be responsable for your actions and take things in hand ' may not be aware how it can be extremely extremely difficult to do this especially that usually a person hasn't chosen their trauma... Also sometimes one may accumulate factors that complicate things way too much ( family history, genetics, trans generational traumas , bad homeland...). I've always battled against the stream and it's very tyring when you do this your entire life... The problem is if you ' let go ' like some people may suggest you will probably risk to be drown ... I do agree with you on drugs and alcohol. I'm quite hesitant about experienceing new things compared to other people so you are not alone. I'm quite rigid about things but life didn't give me a lot of choice and it's also good time we have another thing in common. I'm sorry for these unpleasant words but sometimes people just don't take an effort to understand and assume some things and take them for granted but it's good to know people like you who are willing to listen so thank you Ingrid. It was good video as always,wishing you a good evening and good night

[@user-yy5ul1xs1d]

INFJ BPD / ADHD / AVPD. Getting attacked by a covert narcissist with smear campaigns, isolated, stuck with my pc and few gaming fellas haha... People I never taught would be in a campaign, ended in campaign, what a great life, and this is still going on, I have no peace of mind.

[@radishraven9]

Aww I'm sorry, that sounds like a tough combination of difficulties 😔