Seemingly worked out well and the udon meal looks delicious. chef! 😋

You're not very intelligent, are you?

That's pretty interesting that you're more than half Lithuanian - I wonder if you have Baltic DNA! (I love Lithuania so I'm a bit excited by that.) Your Mormon-cult rabbit holes are so interesting ha. idiosyncratic

Hi Ingrid, Interesting video. I only knew few things about mormons. I know very few things about my ancestors and probably I won't be able to have records because probably they are lost ... Oh Lithuania! Interesting. If you remember we spoke about of Lithuania in your last live, what a connection. Oh so you remember about the live! ( I'm commenting as I'm going through the video) You mom didn't become a doctor but you are , interesting how things went. generational traumas... For me it's the probably the case. Nice photo by the way. Have a good start of the week Ingrid 😊

Truly interesting ancestry! Btw, don't worry, I firmly believe that in the afterlife we cannot be forced to a "specific heaven" against our will. If we qualify for heaven we are free to choose the place that suits us. Or maybe there's only one heaven for all that suits every soul that gets there. That's just what I believe. But either way, I wouldn't worry about it. :)

I was Mormon for 26 years through and through. Just some nit picking corrections: 1) you don’t actually have to be related to be baptized for someone - Mormons just like to do that because it feels more special. 2) in Mormon theology the person getting vicariously baptized is actually given the option wether or not to accept that baptism, so they don’t necessarily become Mormon. Having said that, I don’t believe a word of it anymore 😂. That’s just the way Mormons see it.

Bueno....Gracias por compartir esto.

Very complex Ingrid! My children are all of Jewish (Ashkenazi & Sephardic) descent through their mothers side, confirmed by genetic testing. Have you ever done a genetics ancestry test? It'll pull a lot of this back out and confirm it. Could be surprising.

Hey Ingrid, I must say firstly that the picture of you and your uncle is just adorable! ☺Was fascinating to hear more of your own roots and heritage. I've long felt we're all interconnected in ways we don't often and may never fully even realize. Still want to look further into my own family's roots. Actually, I have a friend I've visited in AZ for years who married into a Mormon family, and another who lives nearby them who only found out recently about his own Ashkenazi Jewish roots, so you never know...Thanks for sharing all of this with us. -Carm

Yay - another collage vid! It's coming along really nicely. 😃

Hey Ingrid, Rocky and I watched and found this very relaxing. Lovely hues and textures there. You're making me want to hang more posters now. 🙂

So many lovely notebooks!! I love to see your drawings, it is always interesting to me to see people's drawing style. I also have difficulty using notebooks for just one purpose. I will start out thinking 'this is my journaling notebook' but it inevitably becomes a sketchbook or whatever... If the notebooks look too nice I also have difficulty using them at all, like I'll just ruin it with my writing haha. I never enjoyed journaling but do have a fear of forgetting what my life/thoughts were like in the past. So I try to write at least something every day but usually it is only a couple of sentences. Hope you're doing well!

Nice assortment of stuff! I don’t journal and have also felt like I’m a faux INFP. 😊 I do use writing to clarify and distill my ideas. This process is especially useful when communicating my thoughts with other individuals.

Hello Ingrid, Nice cloth for the table. That's lovely from your friend. Your books are well ordered compared to mine 😅 Even physics students, don't really understand physics 😂 Nice collection you have there. Those notebooks are lovely. Maybe this summer, one of your diaries may have some extra pages 😉 My notebook is my head 😅 I think throughout the years there are many pages which are full. Aux armes citoyens as a response aux enfants de la patrie. I have never journaled and I don't know if I will do it. My head is my big journal... I hope you didn't get overwhelmed by my messages lately. Thanks for sharing

Ingrid, what you are experiencing is nothing to feel ashamed about. Your emotional reservoir is as vast and deep as your reservoir of knowledge. Just as you feel the need to share this accumulated information with the hope of making this world a better place, so to must this happen when you are overwhelmed with/by your emotions. Much like a dam on a river or lake that’s in danger of overflowing its banks, sometimes floodgates need to be opened as a protective measure. Your body is reacting/responding to something overwhelming and it is trying to do the same thing by shutting down certain operating systems to focus on others which require immediate attention. Floodgates are opened so all those welled up thoughts, feelings, and emotions can spill out so that the body can recover, recalibrate, and return to normal functioning. I think that because you feel things so intensely, situations that ordinarily might elicit a more subtle response in someone else instead cause you to feel an incredible seismic shift to your mind, body, and spirit. Ingrid, you are capable of so much more than you give yourself credit for. When was the last time you watched the very first video you posted on this KZbin channel from 10 years ago? Remember her? Look how far you’ve come since then and what you’ve been able to accomplish…all on your own! In times like these, it’s good to allow yourself(and others) a bit of grace and compassion: you deserve and owe yourself that much. Try not to fret too much over things that haven’t gone according to plan. Trips to Japan and Scotland, coming out to your parents, obtaining a drivers license, etc…all of these things will happen because you will make them happen and they will happen when the time is right for you! It’s great that you take everyone else’s feelings into consideration but eventually you must learn to live life on your own terms. I believe in you. When you learn to believe in yourself and what you’re truly capable of then all of the pieces will fall into place. I promise.😊 I feel better knowing you are home and someplace safe while this is happening. Please try and give your troubled thoughts and soul a good rest. 💙🌈

I enjoy your videos and look forward to them when you post them. I find them interesting and engaging. I am a counselor/psychotherapist, and I am also an INFP and I find a lot of commonalities in some of your experiences to one's that I have experienced. The negative comments are not about you as much as they are about what the commenter is experiencing. Everyone is different and everyone has a unique experience. Try not to take the negative comments too seriously. ~Rocky

Since the posts were removed, I can't match the names to the couple bad actors I'm familiar with out there. And there are a few bad actors that exploit people through the MBTI community. The sorts of people who will throw out this sort of accusation because they know it'll force an INFP to give it headspace, processing the accusation. I'm sorry to say, I have experience with this sort of bad actor who's doing it merely for their lulz. Getting some sort of kick out of putting one over on an INFP. 😟

I remember this very topic sending me into a spiral ten years ago where I was called an attention-seeker for having a KZbin channel, for my comic, blah blah. Because it's like, true and completely unfair lol. The person in question was saying they don't have a KZbin channel because they aren't self-centred like me (it was an ISFJ) and it was very draining and made me so upset, actually. Because like you say - what are we supposed to do? Never express ourselves? It goes around in circles. Of course in these situations I'd always retreat and cut myself from the world and in my head I'd be thinking 'okay so I need to vanish and never be seen in case someone thinks I'm attention-seeking' and then I wondered where it's ethical to apply for jobs, to show up to parties lol. So yeah it's ridiculous and I guess now maybe I'd be able to argue back a bit better, but I guess the big irony is that the people accusing are also attention-seeking, and in a toxic way.

Hi Ingrid, I guess you know what I think of you. I can be quite sensitive to comments from videos about things I care about. Well if you didn't post some of these videos I wouldn't have known you. Same applies for other people I met through the internet. As a regular commenter on your videos if I do so that often is because I appreciate you and in many videos I felt heard and seen despite we come from different backgrounds. Also when I chose to share some details of my life on the internet is because I somehow found out it's the way it works for me to find people who resemble me in some struggles. I was really hesitant to do so, I remember my first comment was on one of bufo's video which resonated with me so much it made me cry several times. At that moment I felt some sort of connexion and felt comfortable commenting then it somehow clicked. Some people didn't have the chance to find people in real life that's why we seek connexion through the internet, I don't know if I can call it attention seeking it's just we are human beings looking for people who respect us and appreciate us as we are with our struggles no matter how strange they can be. I've said it already but I'm here for the person who became my friend and I'm willing to stick around through thin and thick. See you next time friend

Oh great! Another "cooking show" vid! Just found this scrolling on my computer. Now I've got something to watch tonight before bedtime on my tv. So far I love the feng shui feel of your new kitchen. Light and airy. Hope you're settling in nicely.

Great points full of wisdom here, Ingrid. Yes, telling one's own story in part to illustrate the I'm/your-not-the-only-one-who-lives-this comparable experience of it. 😊

It comes free with being a social species.

Well, you ARE on KZbin, with a channel of your own. That's NOT hiding in your room, and IS inviting and seeking a response from others in the world. So to a certain extent , yes. You are seeking (very specific) attention. And we are giving it. Now, are you out there deliberately, maliciously, doing manipulation of others - pretending to have incidents, while you flail about like a wounded animal, begging for money or worse? No. You went into several of those negative KZbinr descriptions yourself. Those ARE "attention seeking". You kind of use us to hash out things, a collective group of odd fellows to use as a sounding board. Beats shouting into the darkness alone. I've done that. It's not fun and very lonely. What you do is probably closest to a non-Catholic version of a confessional, or therapy without a therapist. Maybe a weird therapy session group you run with yourself as moderator. Putting yourself out there. Why not? Who is to say what's right? Solving yourself is the biggest and hardest mystery you will ever undertake. We're listening, so as the great sage Bugs Bunny has said, "What's up Doc?"

Please stop thinking it's your fault. Others will have their opinion, and treat it as. "that's nice". You have a life. Your decisions are yours. Don't let society put demands on you. Don't compare yourself or circumstances to others. Impress yourself. Perhaps you give good advice. Maybe one day you can look at these beautiful videos you made and solve this puzzle that is happening to you. Wish you well..

You do a really good job of describing this. Thank you for sharing as it will help others. I hope you can get the rest/restoration you need to move through this.

I don't think you are failing the exercise. Most likely the point of the exercise is to gain some information about yourself and wisdom. It happens even if you don't accomplish your original goals. Try not to feel shame. It's kind of like extra layer of emotion that takes your attention away from your more relevant feelings. (I'm autistic too)

❤ i go through this as well... i cant be creative when im like that, i want to just lay down all day but laying down makes it worse... and then talking to others is literally hard to do cause iis hard to even form the words.

Hang in there ❤

Looking like a real introvert

WHy are people acting like they understand what's going on here?

I'd be careful in using Meyers-Briggs to rationalize certain relationship dynamics you observe with others. People are far, far, far more complicated than this test can account for, and people not getting along is likely far more complicated than mere archetypal personality type assignments.

Ahh I am so sorry, Ingrid. :( I think you are in a pretty bad negative spiral that is caused by much more than just the planning. Give yourself some rest, sleep well, and when you can, take it only little step by little step. This makes such plannings more doable and less intimidating. And btw, if it helps, plannings are sometimes way harder to execute properly than they seem at first glance for all of us! The various factors simply make it difficult and in a bad state of mind it can be too overwhelming. Don't beat yourself up over it. It's not only you who struggles with the execution of plannings. :)

This, too, shall pass. I hope that you had a good sleep and are feeling better by the time you read this.

I am so sorry to hear how bad you feel :( But your problems are really understandable and nothing to judge yourself for. You need some time for yourself, and you are kind to your family, and it is great that you take their wishes into account, but kindness works better when you have the energy for it (that is, if you have the surplus to share). Every person has a different amount of it in different settings and circumstances. And if the world and your surroundings (or certain aspects of these) drain you, you naturally have the need to recover and recharge to be open to interaction with others (or to some actions like planning that may be confusing and terrifying because there is so much to consider). You can't spend energy on others if you don't have it. Please don't think badly about yourself in such moments and just give yourself the (mental) right to take care of your needs, even if that means postponing certain plans for a little while and taking a break from what causes stress and can't be decided upon at the moment. (Sorry if it sounds a bit too personal or straightforward). Also, there is nothing wrong with being distressed from something that triggers you personally and crying as much as you need to relieve the tension, in my opinion. Crying and feeling something is so much better than feeling nothing. I think it is important that you talk about your experience. I hope you will feel much better soon!

I think I would shut down in your situation and mindset as well. Maybe a staycation is just what you need. You're kind of reminding me of another KZbinr, Alisa Chung, who recently had a mental breakdown. She was living out on her own as well trying to deal with all the stresses of our somewhat dystopian society. Now she's back living with her grandparents recuperating, doing things she likes, painting pictures in a canoe etc. Seriously, the mindset and lifestyle this world pushes on you is unhealthy. The powers that be are literally trying to suck as much life force out of us as they can get.

Hello Ingrid, I'm sorry, I hope you will feel better soon. I read the description, you are not dumb and I don't think you are selfish. I understand that the the news you got from your friend can affect you so you had a shutdown. Honestly I'm somehow lonely as I don't really have someone with whom I can spend summer, I wished that somehow I lived in Sweden or some near country I could have visited you ( if you don't mind of course) maybe the only thing I can provide is that if you somehow come to France you are always welcome to pass by. Also you can write to me about whatever you like if that may help you. Well if you allow me to say ' you are already pleasant to me ' and I assure you I'm not sugar-coating, I do really mean what I say. Just to let you know I've never planned a vacation and maybe I won't able to do it. I understand that you want to plan a vacation to detach yourself from your parents wants. I only can say try to be gentle with yourself. Oh no! You are not useless!! Please don't say that. How can a doctor be useless? Maybe now you cannot take tickets because you are feeling exhausted but you are going to work and you are helping patients and that by itself can be a huge thing! I know you don't look for advice and it's not what this comment is about. I understand about taking others into account... I've lived this situation many times... I can't say I understand shutdown but I think you are who you are with your own struggles. I only know I am a weird person and try to respect each person struggles especially if they are kind and genuine which is the case for you. Whatever is going to happen Ingrid whether you go on vacation somewhere or not, you are the same person that I know who is definitely not useless, not selfish. Take care dear friend 😊 PS: there's always a weirdo willing to watch these videos :)

Hang in there. Feeling sad is normal. Just don't let it affect you negatively and try to do something fun...

Hello Ingrid, Nice to see you again. Ah yes, somethings can be really annoying. I missed the esfp video, I will try to check out later. That's a bit sad , what is happening at your workplace. I hope it will change somehow. Thanks for sharing. It was good listening to you. Take care

It seems your boss is ranking your colleagues based on the position of Si in their respective stacks. Which is basically ranking people by their obedience to rules/authority. IxSJs have Si 1st, INFPs have Si 3rd, and ESFPs don't have Si in the conscious part of their stacks. That would make an order looking like ISxJ (Si 1st) > ESxJ (Si 2nd) > INxP (Si 3rd) > everything else. The only thing not matching this little theory is ENFJs not having Si in their conscious stack. Maybe he/she is an ESFJ, and has Si 2nd ?

I approve of those ducks. Hm yeah I really do think that ultimately if you're introverted, this idea to always push yourself isn't actually so useful. And I know in my own experience, those days where I pushed myself to socialise more often just left me in a state of misery, even if the actual act of socialising wasn't so bad in itself, but having to process so much (and often, living a life that didn't align with who I was, I felt I was wasting valuable time that could be spent developing myself at home). I think that it's good to make ourself uncomfortable in small doses as required but it's even more important to recognise who we are, naturally, and what we require, and to accept that it's totally fine to be this way.

¡Aviso! Achtung! Warning! The following video contains “fowl” language: viewer discretion is advised. Collective Universe: “Your usual table mademoiselle?” Ingrid: “Yes, Ingrid INFP, party of one.” Ay, pobrecita, the cosmos seems to be doing everything in its power to thwart your attempts to make a video. It really SUCKS when you find yourself an idyllic spot, hoping for a little peace and quiet, a pause for a moment of personal reflection and suddenly everything and everybody wants to invade your space and all of your senses. I feel for you. Being perceived and judged by the avian community is not always a pleasant experience but being the consummate professional you are, I think you handled things well with feathered friends( fans). If a party has to meet a certain of criteria in order for one to attend then is it really still a party? Lots of unknowns, lots of expectations, unfamiliar people in a possible unfamiliar setting, having to engage and endure superficial small talk for hours on end, feeling pressured to participate in party activities that one might find little interest in or be totally uncomfortable with…and what is your reward for this societal obligation? Probably an overwhelming experience that will take several days to recover from: good or bad. I think small intimate gatherings with people you know and trust are the best way to go. Remember, there’s plenty of other ways to make connections and meet new people which involve a lot less stress. Good luck. BTW: The two ducks are male mallards( recognizable by their green heads and white ringed necks) and are probably a couple. Mallard ducks for some reason have a higher incidence of same-sex sexual relationships than other bird species. Ingrid, I think the two drakes were just celebrating pride 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️and just wanted to show mutual respect for fellow ally.😊 Celebrate pride 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ Celebrate duck pride 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ Happy Trails!

Talk therapies are known to not be of great help to autistic persons. For various reasons. We have a hard time identifiying our own feelings because of alexithymia, so we can't really work on that. And then there is the problems related to our attention (lack of focus, hyperfocus, special interests) which can't be adressed by CBT. So in the end we just end up being gaslighted by the therapist without having made any progress. When it comes to talking about ADHD and autism, I got lucky because my mom was diagnosed with ADHD around the same time I was. My dad doesn't really want to acknowledge that (because of cultural reasons). I have less trouble talking about that with my extended family. Especially with my cousins. Mental health topics seem to be way easier to talk with other Millenials, or gen Z. The older generations just don't seem to understand the benefits of a diagnostic (in general, not ADHD/autism specific). Yeah parties are something really difficult. When I was still a student, I couldn't really escape them because it was a core part of social life. And then there is alcohol. Sometimes I got lucky, it helped me unmask / get rid of anxiety. Other times it just tuned hypersensitivity to noise to overdrive. If there are more than 10 people, my brain just unplugs (shutdown). Now I just avoid big parties (and alcohol) every time I can, unless it is a very special occasion like a marriage or a special birthday (30s, 40s and so on).

I think a lot of introverts, like myself, can relate to a lot of what you're saying and feeling. I've definitely experienced times where my mind would simply not let me focus on something other than what was happening. Like a mental block. Although, more often I'll go more inwards into my own world and basically daydream or create stories in my mind and basically get disconnected from the outside world. I might use the outside world to create a story in my mind or question what's happening (Ne), but usually the outside world isn't the focus but rather a catalyst for what my mind can create and theorise. In true intriverted fashion, I've never been drawn to noisy places and crowds of people. I've tried clubs and bars just to do it, and I've been to a concert or two. I've even sung karaoke a couple of times! Karaoke is awkward and I don't love the attention (even from a small crowd), but a large crows of people like you find at a concert can make me cold sweat and my eyes ache from all the sensory information. Genuinely, if a lot is happening (music, lights, people talking and seeing lots of peopple), my eyes will hurt and I might start developing a cold sweat and a mild headache. Self-care is important. No need to push yourself too hard if you don't feel up for it.

🙂very interesting

Hello Ingrid , I understand that the world is challenging with sensory sensitivities and even more when you are an introvert. It seems those ducks appreciated you. I see your point. I relate to you to some extent about isolating and parties. Monotropism ? I don't know about it. I will check it out. The laser analogy is great. Oh yes conversation partners are hard to find but whenever we find them we can forget about the party or the setting and focus on the different topics we can talk about. Yes , going to party can be not fun and as you said you can't know until you go and find out by ourselves. I just wanted you to know that despite the challenges you are unique and here we appreciate you as you are. I know you know that but it's good to remind you from time to time. I also reiterate that I appreciate alot these videos because I feel seen and heard and it's heartwarming that we do share similar things. Have a great evening and good start of the week 😊

Ducks! My favorites! Yes, meds kinda' dull every thing out, so now you are getting a sensory overload. My youngest daughter is extremely sensitive that way (sound)so it's difficult for her in loud social situations (diagnosed autistic). She's also got her headphones for zoning at home. You do NOT have to have sensitivity issues to be irritated by seagulls. They irritate the crap out of me here (and they have to fly over a mountain range to do that; dedicated *astards). Monotropism is an excellent theory, especially since it was derived by a group of autistic researchers. Who better? Neurodiverse should speak for the neurodiverse, since they 'see' it from the 'inside' perspective. It's almost a hyper-concentrative state. You are now getting distracted, and unable to not 'filter' out those things and stay on topic. Makes it more draining to a certain extent. Some of this may just be normal introvert issues too, or post med adaptation as you re-acclimatize. I still recommend some form of adaptogenic herbal to smooth out the bumps. Post party wind-downs can be hard, since as an introvert you are always second-guessing your actions afterwards ('was I too forward? did I say something wrong? why did I say that?'). You have to learn to let those things go, hard as it seems at first. You'll find the Sensors forget almost everything you say or did anyway (or interpreted it totally differently). Pets help a lot too - don't know if your new home allows for it, or if you are even predisposed towards cat/dogs/whatever (thought you weren't towards dog?). My daughter has her dog (me, I have my rescue Norwegian Forest Cat). The right one can calm and refocus you, and help you 'recharge'. Just got to find what works for YOU, Ingrid.

Wow

Hello Ingrid, Always nice to see you again. Yes moving to a new place can be challenging. I hope you will get used soon to your new place. I keep dwelling on the same thoughts and I use the internet to distract myself so I can relate. Yes Ingrid, I find your voice calm and soothing but obviously it's not the main reason why I'm here on your channel, it's because I appreciate you as person and if you don't mind me saying ' because you are my friend ' I do relate alot about being thinking the worst case scenario. My imagination can run wild on what could happen especially that I have been through a lot of events so I already have a glimpse on how bad things can be... That's why the worst case scenario doesn't work with me. Yes mee too I often don't control what's my brain is thinking I can think about random things at any time and in any place. So once again I relate to you . I can understand about the energy going. Sometimes I had to learn to insist so people can hear me especially with administration, it's so tyring so I understand too. I hope things with your parents will evolve for the better. it was such a raw and honest talk and it's always appreciated. Wishing you all the best friend. Take care

The root cause of most people's psychological symptoms and syndromes is spiritual. The more spiritually enlightened we become, the more these syndromes will disappear.