personal life update (infertility, religion, etc)

[@BlessingIrving]

Praying for you to get pregnant this year, Jaci. ♥️ Also, as a Christian, I appreciated how candid you were about your religious journey. For me personally, a relationship with Christ allows me to be more of myself. It’s when we get caught up in trying to be perfect with rules (which no one can be) that we actually are drawing away from God. Jesus already finished the work on the cross and so we can rest in Him. I love your channel and just wanted to share that. Have a happy new year!

[@WowzaTalent]

Couldn’t have said it better - God gives me peace but I am in no way a “perfect” Christian or even close to it and that’s fine by me. I also view religion as personal and other peoples beliefs have.. nothing to do with me

[@faithmariefit]

That’s a good word!🙌

[@Lavenderbaby]

AMEN! I’m so stoked to see this as the top comment. Since Jaci has been so open about her faith crisis I’ve been praying that her, Leif, Chelsey & Nick etc turn away from the false Jesus they grew up believing in and towards the Jesus as He tells us He is in the Bible- The triune God, who always was, is, and is to come. And when we die, we aren’t sent to a certain level of glory dependent on out actions here on earth. Jesus turned to the thief on the cross and said “today you will be with me in paradise.” The thief had not been baptized, nor married in the temple nor followed all the guidelines.. He simply realized who Jesus was and professed it. “That if you shall confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus, and shall believe in your heart that God has raised him from the dead, you shall be saved.” Romans 10:9 We are not saved according to our works, for “all our righteous acts are like filthy rags”. I know this all sounds ridiculous to those that… don’t get it.. so I am praying that anyone reading this and not agreeing would read the word of God for themselves and see who Jesus says He is and how He says you can spend eternity with Him after you die.

[@jilenayafa]

@@Lavenderbaby Amazing words❤️And I wanna ask you if you allowed, Have you ever read about Islam and the prophet Mohammad?

[@Lavenderbaby]

@@jilenayafa hey sweet girl, thank you for reaching out and sharing what you believe to be true! I have done thorough research into many different religions because I wanted to make sure I was believing the correct one. From my research I found the reassurance that Christianity is the correct faith- Jesus is Lord. And Islam, like Mormonism and every other faith, is incorrect. I know that sounds pompous, how can I say that my faith is the only correct one? But isn’t that technically what everyone believes? That their way of thinking is correct? I want to confirm that I know Christianity is correct because it differs from EVERY other faith in these regards: 1. It’s the only faith that believes you’re saved by Grace through faith in Jesus Christ, not by works. (How are they to know if they’re going to heaven or hell? When they are on their death bed, they won’t know if in their life, they did enough good to outweigh the bad!! What if they’re just shy of 1 good deed?) Well as a Christian, we can know for sure at any point of our life of where we’ll end up when we die- heaven, not because of anything we did, but because of our faith in Jesus! If Jesus was just a prophet and not claiming to be God, why did they crucify Him? 2. Only faith that our leader was totally perfect - sinless, fulfilled all his prophecies, and died and came back to life again 3 days later. Your Quran says- Mohammed had sin and was born the regular way and didn’t turn anything from non-living to living/ perform miracles..but it literally, even in its fiction, shares of Jesus being born of a virgin, and bringing clay pigeons to life, etc. 3. Only faith that believes in heaven or hell. No other options. The decision of where you go is made by the decision of if we put our faith in Jesus here on earth. Once we’re dead, if you rejected Jesus as Lord, there’s no purgatory or spirit prison, etc. its hell. The Quran states that God is the final judge and that Jews and Christians who at least believe in Him and do good deeds will go to a level of heaven (not hell) 2.62 Hell, for anyone that doesn’t believe in Jesus? Sounds hard right? But it’s also SO simple, all you have to to use believe! And that’s why we Christians are so eager to share this message, because we know it’s true, and because we know that anyone who doesn’t believe will spend eternity in hell. You don’t have to earn Salvation by your works! There’s no set of rules to follow to earn His love. We simply follow His commands - the 10 commandments- out of love for Him (thankfulness for saving us, and because we know He created us so He knows what’s best for us and we should obey Him) but we don’t have to worry that we didn’t do enough good deeds to make it to heaven. (In your case- wear a head covering, visit Mecca, follow dietary rules, pray 5 times a day, etc.) We are guaranteed our salvation only because of Jesus (God himself coming down here, living a sinless life, then willing dying for us) ~ wiping away the punishment of our sin, if we only believe!

[@paigesglittergloss]

Totally get what you’re saying. The LDS church is incredibly challenging and confusing, because religion and culture literally go hand in hand. There’s many issues that are overlooked and make no sense in LDS doctrine, there’s a reason so many people think it’s a cult, even though they consider themselves “Christians”. I’ve found so much peace in exploring a relationship with God rather than religion…religion often causes pain, striving, and power issues. Finding a personal relationship with God and learning about who Jesus actually was and what his sacrifice meant has been so fulfilling and comforting. Praying you have peace and find truth on your journey!

[@ericaexisting]

i rarely comment on youtube videos but as a mother, i just want to give you the opposite side of the spectrum with parenting! it’s great but it’s also hard. you can experience that same love WITHOUT being a mother. i think some people put it on a pedestal and it’s not always sunshine and roses. not to say it’s not great and that you shouldn’t go for it, just that you’re still complete and full and worthy without being a mother. you’re younger than me (by a little bit lol) and i think you’re incredible and doing GREAT things. i hope you get everything you want in life. but just remember you’re amazing no matter what. also, the grass is truly always greener on the other side. don’t forget that.

[@jacimarie_]

thank you for this perspective, i appreciate it a lot 🫶🏼

[@Michele-bm1zu]

I felt the opposite but I do agree that MANY women still live extremely happy and fulfilled lives who are childless. For me, I couldn't imagine my life any other way. I needed to be a mom and every good thing I envisioned in my life, had children somewhere in the picture. After years of infertility, we finally had our dream daughter and she is perfect (in our eyes, of course). But I truly didn't know or love myself until I became a mom. But it's okay if people feel the opposite. But the one thing I fully agree with is that all women are worthy, children or not and have the capability to live fulfilled happy lives.

[@Nancygracehearts]

infertility is such a hard road to walk, you are not alone. Praying you guys get pregnant this year ❤

[@lissseveneleven]

jaci can i say from a therapist you are so self-aware. i really noticed when you were verbally processing your feelings about infertility. not everyone has that level of self-awareness of trying to hold joy while also validating your own pain. "two feelings can exist at the same time" so so true. love to you leif & lady!

[@allisonlax]

Every time I see a friend of your post their pregnancy announcement it’s such a melancholy feeling. Like I’m so happy for them but my heart sinks because I want it for you so bad. Truly cannot wait to see you as a mom. All the baby dust your way for this year 🤍🤍🤍

[@rayanne-t1s]

jaci I’ve been following you for years now, and you are genuinely my favorite, even tho i’ve never met you. i wanted to let you know that you aren’t alone, and i know this might not help, but even if all of your friends irl are in a different stage then you, there are so many people who follow you that are in a very similar phase. we’re all here for u and in this together 💗 i just want you to know how much we all look up to you and seriously ily so much 💞💞 also PLS COME FOR A LIVE SHOW IN THE BAY AREA 😭 i wanna see u guys in person so bad!! again you’ve changed my life so much for the better and tysmmm 🫶🏻

[@evelientx]

im not religious but have done some research on the lds church and im so happy you’re putting yourself and your own identity over the religion you grew up in. also sending you the most positive energy towards your 2023 goals. i feel your positivity towards ivf and truly believe the moment youve been waiting for will come

[@madisonpaige6794]

You’re not alone Jaci🤍 wishing us all the best in 2023, manifesting so much baby dust!!

[@EmilyLena]

My husband and I have been trying for 3.5 years. We have done timed cycles, IUI, and IVF, and still we ended 2022 with no baby. It’s so hard, and I don’t have anyone in my life who is in the same stage as me. You are doing such a service by putting to words how this feels for those of us who are also going through it and feel completely alone. So I just wanted to comment to say thank you. ❤

[@CherylHuse]

I’m 35 without children and I can relate to your feeling. All of my friends have 3+ children and I do feel left out but the greatest feeling is knowing and trusting God’s plan for us. Celebrate everyone around you with the feeling and inner knowing that it will happen for you when the timing is divine ✨

[@jacimarie_]

i totally agree! love this mindset. thank you 🫶🏼

[@berrynicexo]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I went through 7 IUIs and they all failed. I felt the same as you each time, thinking it was going to work and it didn’t. I then moved on to IVF and what a game changer. IVF is totally doable and I find it easier to deal with if you’ve done IUIs because you know what to expect. I’m currently 35 weeks after my second transfer. I really hope it works out for you ❤

[@aintgotnotltc]

I love these positive stories about infertility. Congratulations on your baby 💕💕 I’m sure it will work for Leif and Jaci as well!

[@elizabethlauren5892]

Wouldn’t wish infertility on my worst enemy, truly. It’s SO hard. And the chats about people moving on to the next level and no matter what you just can’t even pretend to relate is just like a whole deeper level of lonely. However I want to say do not ever lose hope. I am currently pregnant with my miracle after fertility treatment and I am thankful my husband and I walked the road we did. I truly feel like we have a gratefulness and perspective on the gift of children that we probably wouldn’t otherwise have. Holding hope and space for you in 2023 and praying for success all around. Thank you for sharing 🤍🤍🤍🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@theposters]

Imagine if plane guy heard you articulate yourself this way 👀 Joking, but in all seriousness, I’m so excited for you and this chapter of your life. What is meant to be will be! We are all rooting for you 🤗

[@karissawidder9538]

SERIOUSLY

[@jacimarie_]

HAHAHA buffoon for life though🫶🏼 love u

[@arianamillias2878]

How special is it going to be when your baby is old enough to watch these videos and see how much their mom fought for them to be here

[@rileerosetta]

Girl I really feel you on the religion part, I have distanced from Mormonism in the last 2 years and soooo many people in my life have taken it as a personal attack. It's really hard to deal with just within my circle, so I really admire you for being willing to speak about your journey publicly. Thank you for being so open about your journey and helping me to feel seen. Wishing you the best on your fertility journey, and can't wait to see what's in store for 2023

[@cindyramirez8379]

I actually found you and started following you a little over year ago because of an infertility update video! I can relate 100%. Been married for 6 years, been actively trying for years on and off and I finally got pregnant in November for the first time ever after being told we’d never be able to conceive naturally. Sadly I miscarried at 11 weeks, right before Christmas, and although we’re completely heartbroken, we haven’t lost hope. We witnessed the most amazing miracle even if it was short lived. I know it’s annoying to hear a million different suggestions and stories, believe me, I get it. But I just feel the need to recommend napro technology before your IVF consultation. It won’t hurt ❤ love you and i wish you nothing but the best.

[@MaddieLucaMalan]

Not me crying reading this ❤ thinking about you and your family, I just know all your dreams of parenthood will become true one day, no matter what form it takes ❤❤❤

[@NoritaGharib]

❤ I’m so sorry to hear 😢 hoping and wishing you are blessed in 2023

[@haley_nicole]

So sorry for your loss ❤ I had a miscarriage a couple of years ago and it’s still so painful. We were blessed with our rainbow baby just a few months ago and it was all worth it. I wish you the best!!

[@Jovalle30]

My mami has always told us “ Gods timing is perfect … don’t live your life in comparison “ and I struggled with this message for so many years… but I think I’ve finally understood the meaning in the past year. I’m gonna live on my on my timeline! Praying for you and Leif this year! I just know y’all will be the best parents ❤

[@Gigjouy]

Infertility sucks and is so beyond hard. No one fully understands until you experience it. Your words and vulnerability is so heartfelt to me and I’m sure the others who have/are struggling with infertility. I so hope you get the baby your heart aches for❤️

[@tortor12341]

I have NOT been able to articulate my infertility problems the last 3 years, and you just did. I’m so grateful for you, because similarly so many people have gotten pregnant in my life and I’m SO EXCITED FOR THEM but also a lil sad. Sending posi vibes as we both go into IVF this year and manifesting the cutest squishiest babes in our arms for so many holidays to come ♥️♥️

[@almaha12]

this "therapy session" really gave me the validation I needed to start the new year , also I was so thrilled to find out that my birthday and yours are on the same day it's crazy , we love and appreciate you too

[@alliraa]

My husband and I started IVF a few years ago and have now moved on to surrogacy and girl…… I FEEL YOU. I love Christmas so much but seeing all your friends second babies around the Christmas tree and all the family posts - feels like it’s aimed straight for my heart (which it’s not). It’s hard to numb out and also stay positive, Thank you for making me not feel like the only one 💞🥂

[@iammellbell]

I totally feel you with being at that age where many friends and family are having kids and social media is just a lot of pregnancy, gender reveals, kids etc. And it's like you enjoy seeing your friends experiencing that but at the same times it can really drain you

[@stephalexanderr]

I’ve almost always known who you are, but recently started actually following along your journey pretty much exactly a year ago. I somehow discovered the podcast, then followed yours and Chelsea’s instagrams, your youtube, and tik toks. I went through a big move in June away from my hometown to a city where I knew nobody. You and Chelsea were literally my constant this year. I had so many WWS episodes to catch up on since I was a new listener which always lifted my mood and allowed me to get to know you guys better. I just want to say thank you so much for being you. Because you are just so yourself, you inspired my this year to really take care of myself, focus on good habits, be unapologetically myself, and not take life so seriously. The influence you have had on me is just so positive and I just want to say thank you so much. 🤍 and thank you Chelsea!

[@mckenziekuhn3728]

Thank you so much for sharing about your journey with religion. Once I got passed the shock of admitting that I don’t have concrete answers, I began feeling so free. You were really respectful about it too. Hopefully you don’t get hate over it. Happy 2023!

[@ashleymcfadin]

I can’t even begin to imagine the depth of your emotions with this journey. May this year reveal the divine timing no matter the outcome. When your angel baby comes they are going to be so special. Love u Jaci🤍

[@shelbyshelton2052]

Something I've worked on in 2022 is being okay with being misunderstood. It's so freeing--I can see you starting to realize that in this video! Sending love to you!

[@kimberlymahoney8437]

Jaci! My heart goes out to you girl. It took my husband and I SEVEN years to get pregnant. Seven. What your going through it so relatable and so many go through it alone or suffer in silence. No matter how you guys decide to become parents fostering, adopting, ivf, whatever path you choose. Lots and lots of love 💗💗💗

[@catchthewavewithsam]

This was such a good listen!! As a 25 year old, really feeling this whole quarter life crisis thing, I resonated with so much. I recently in the past couple of years have found spirituality as my guiding force as opposed to an organized religion. I never grew up religious but just found that the universe and whatever the greater power is, is for me and is part of me. Sort of working through what all that means to me and how I can practice that in a way that works for me! Also I’m a stranger on the Internet who has been following you for like 6 years now and I am so proud of you! You inspire me so much and I’m sending you love on this journey of life!!

[@jeteaze]

I like how you talked about knowing yourself and feeling calm and confident in yourself. You should do that more. I'm a fan and it's inspirational.

[@Alyssa-ui7bf]

Same! I need so badly to learn how to be confident in yourself despite what others may think. I feel like Jaci is queen at that!!

[@shannnonnmarie]

starting a new journey is always odd yet exciting! the journey you're going on is so vulnerable and it means a lot you'd even talk about it. sending you all the love!

[@maggiepartin2624]

The concept of two feelings can exist a the same time is one that rings so true for me. It’s hard to conceptualize but is so freeing. Although I didn’t grow up LDS, I’ve distanced myself from organized religion the past few years and it’s hard. I still have big faith and align with parts of my Christian upbringing but always end up feeling less than or let down by church. It’s been hard to be without that sense of community, so im prioritizing community this year ❤ so much love to you as you go through IVF this year

[@skylarcunningham9276]

Loved this, Jaci! I definitely agree there are a billion life announcements from everyone during the holidays and it’s NOT easy. We appreciate you sharing your journeys! ❤ Sending good vibes ☁️

[@devinnmeadows]

Awe, Jaci. I understand the struggles of infertility so very much. My husband and I tried for 3.5 years before getting pregnant. Every moment that I didn’t get pregnant, I felt more and more discouraged. I struggled mentally so much and became bitter. I am praying that IVF works for you 💛 One thing I can recommend is the book, “It Starts with the Egg.” I took a large portion of the supplements recommended and got pregnant the first month after starting. It was a complete shock and after so long, I never expected it to happen. Sending you so much love and prayers, sweet girl 💛

[@Stephteoo]

8:43 !!!!!!!!!!!!!! This hit me so hard “Trying to get to the next chapter and you can’t”

[@hannahloveland5731]

I LOVE YOU JACI WE ARE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU AND WE ARE HERE FOR YOU EVERY STEP OF THE WAY ❤

[@jacimarie_]

i love u sm! thank you, it means the world to me 🫶🏼

[@Blue-dg8vb]

I completely relate to feelings of sadness around the holidays. My husband and I really felt it this holidays because we weren’t pregnant and I have recently had a second endometriosis surgery. Sending you all the best in your journey 💛

[@beccarichards946]

Jaci QUEEN. As an lds member, I do appreciate your thoughts. It’s refreshing to have someone so respectfully voice their decision to distance and to do so without so much hate. I think you are so wonderful and am glad you are doing things for YOU.

[@luvumuch21]

As someone who has been trying to get more than 2 periods a year for the last 5 years (not yet trying for a baby but trying to prep) hearing your outlooks on infertility is so helpful. Praying for you and your family this year Jaci 💕

[@juliam507]

As a 22 year old that is also going through challenges with religion, I appreciate how candid you are about this subject. Been loving your content recently thank you for being so authentic 🫶

[@malloryhunt2389]

I hope you have a surreal peace as you go through your IVF journey, and WHEN it works, you’ll be sooo celebrated!

[@amandafowlkes3518]

I’m not one to comment on KZbin but I just want you to know you are so inspiring. You have a way with words and I am sending you all the positive vibes and prayers that 2023 is your year. You deserve it. Thank you for being you. Thank you for sharing part of you with this space. You are loved and people are cheering you on from all over.

[@meggiepettingell]

I just love and appreciate how vulnerable you were in this video. Ive always admired people who are just authentic and vulnerable! I LOVE you so much and admire you! you are a badass! I hope this year has MANY blessings for you! I'm a forever fan of yours!

[@jaclynnicoleturner]

Thanks for being so vulnerable and opening up. ♥️ you’re incredible and have such a good head on your shoulders. I am LDS and grew up in the church, and yes there are definitely things I love and hate about it. But I totally respect someone who finds the religion not for them. That is totally okay and I hate when people get so negative to others when they leave it when the biggest thing we teach is to not judge others. Literally doesn’t make sense. But keep doing you because you’re thriving girl and I’m so happy to see you so happy. I’ve loved following you for the last 6 years and watching you grow. You’re the best. Ilysm😚♥️

[@alyssaalvarado2130]

Religions are man made. There are holes in all of them. I don’t like when people say “oh so you’re religious”. No, I have a relationship with God. It’s personal. It’s real. It’s raw. It’s not formal. He is my rock, my best friend. Love your authenticity. 💕🙏🏻

[@whoaariel]

I literally could have spoken these exact same words about infertility 1.5 years ago. The best is yet to come! And it will be even sweeter than you think possible!

[@morganmillerrealtor]

I literally love you. This was so real and when you were talking about being left behind with friend stages, I almost just burst out crying.

[@jacimarie_]

love you and here for you 🫶🏼

[@baileydawnnn]

i love that you shared about faith. it is a journey & there’s no pressure! love the honesty, i think that is the most important thing. rooting for you 🫶🏽

[@libbypeterson8660]

I remember Amber posted a while ago about the quote “if you worry, you suffer twice” and I’ve been working on keeping that in mind when something has the possibility of disappointment at the end. Thank you for your vulnerability, feels like a FaceTime with a friend 🫶🏻

[@kassielindamood3774]

I’m going to keep that phrase in my mind coming into the new year. That really helped 💛

[@shaypark]

Last month, I decided to shift my mindset so I could start living a life I truly wanted. I was tired of living life according to others’ expectations of me and didn’t want to have regrets in the future about how I chose to live. Your video is an extra boost of encouragement for me to choose my happiness in this upcoming year. I’m excited to really BE in my slay era and be unapologetically ME! I’m already manifesting greatness for us Vapid Valley Girls in 2023! Love you and your content Jaci! Keep up the amazing work 💗💗💗

[@lianamillahh]

this is extremely relatable!! thank you!! i've been an infertile girlie for the past two years and suffered a miscarriage last year. after experiencing the trauma of having your dreams crushed, it's hard to go into situations hopeful and optimistic. however, lately, i've really embraced similar advice that leif gave you-- might as well stay positive bc you're gonna be crushed if it doesn't work out regardless. idk if you feel this way too, but there's part of me that feels embarrassed/ashamed/naive in moments when i was hopeful but then it didn't work out...like "wow you were so stupid for thinking that". but WHY? what is there to be ashamed of? don't let that negative self talk disguise itself for "being real" or self preservation. nothing is lost or wasted by being positive. if anything, it's the opposite: if you DO end up getting pregnant, you will have wasted so much time being an anxious debbie downer through it all.

[@sara-ashleylawrence9256]

I honestly want to make the part where you were talking about feeling left out but actually just being in a different phase of life a sound because that got me😭 I felt every word.

[@franziskajellinek]

the past 4 years have been extremely difficult in my life and one things i realized is how much better the good things are going to feel after having gone through everything in my life. Ever since I found you, i've felt such a connection to you like we are very similar and I truly think good things are going to happen this year. I love you so much and I believe in us!!

[@bonniemae1397]

I started watching you and listening to WWS after you were on Pretty Basic this year and you have truly inspired me and my outlook on life keep doing you💕💕💕

[@nina_allegra]

I totally agree with surrounding yourself with positive people. Also I think the most important thing is to try to be a good person, it doesn’t really matter if you do it because of your belief or because of your values.

[@BrittLyons]

Thank you so much for talking about this jaci. I'm currently 6 months into ttc and it's so much harder than I thought it would be. You validated all of my thoughts in 30 mins, and I'm so happy to have discovered your content. I'm right there with you on seeking peace for 2023. 💕 You're going to be an amazing mother one day!

[@jennabarnett6546]

I love the perspective you and Leif have of being positive and believing the IVF will work. That is such a beautiful way to view it and you explained it so well. I think that will help so many people, thank you for sharing it !!❤️

[@HealthyEmmie]

I’m here cheering you on, sister! You deserve and will receive nothing but the best! 🤍✨

[@parisbingham905]

Infertility is SO hard. Being hopeful is scary when you don’t know if it will work or not. Sending you guys the best of luck ❤

[@justisecaitlynn]

Thank you for being vulnerable about this. As someone who is recently single after being in a relationship for 7 years... Not really related to fertility, but seeing everyone around me getting married and starting their own families is HARD. This past holiday season was so isolating and draining. All you want is to have what those people have, but you feel so behind. You're not unhappy for your friends or family for having what you want, but it does hurt when it's something you've wanted your whole life. It's never about being bitter or jealous, it's just this fear that it'll never happen to you.

[@TheLondonlover03]

In a very similar place in life as you, feels nice to know someone else is in a similar boat. Thanks for being so open ❤

[@AG-ei5zi]

JACI! I feel so connected to you after this. I’m similar in the way that I could never force a belief no matter how hard I try - if I have no evidence or deep conviction I can’t make myself accept something as true. I never had a personal experience with faith even after praying and praying for one and it left me feeling like I had to fake it so be accepted. now that I’m older and have distanced myself from religion I take so much comfort in the unknown like you described - it’s peaceful knowing that I don’t have a standard to uphold or rules to follow and I can just do what feels right with my moral compass and live my life the way that makes me feel best. I never see this discussed on social media so I’m so glad you spoke up - never feel like your efforts are futile or it’s not worth the judgement because it really made an impact on me. lots of love in the new year ❤

[@natalietutton1452]

I feel you so hard with the struggle with religion. As someone that grew up in a very strict southern christian family that very much had a “this is the only way” mindset, it’s been so weird and challenging but also so freeing to realize as an adult that I can quite literally think and do what I want and what is best for MY life and it’s okay to not have it all figured out. Thanks for sharing your thoughts :) Hoping it’s an amazing year for you & your family!

[@kendrasadler565]

Sending love❤ my parents adopted me and my other siblings after not being able to get pregnant and they always said how even after the terrible years of infertility they can’t even remember the pain once they had us. I think we often get what we wanted but not in the time or way we want! I loved this video and rlly related on not being able to move onto the next chapter. LOVE YOU!!🫶🏼❤️🫶🏼

[@hannahmorris955]

as someone who is not religious but spiritual, manifestation is huge! your husband is right, let yourself be positive about fertility and babies. your body and mind work as a unit. ❤

[@iammellbell]

I love how you said you can change your mind, I think that's such an important message especially in your 20s

[@TeaLeafProphecy]

Recently hit the 1 year mark of TTC our first and I can completely related. Some months I could care less and forget we’re even trying. Others, I get crushed when the flo comes. Something that helped me a lot of talking with mom’s in my life, even my drs telling me it took them all years to get pregnant. We were similar too where once we knew we wanted to have kids we KNEW. Don’t even get me started on social media where everyone seems to be getting what we want except us lol it’s been a year of growth for sure. Sending baby dust to all those out there in the same boat! ❤

[@cahnerolson8398]

I started watching some of your videos in 2020 and I feel like I’m watching a real life coming of age story. I appreciate everything you share with your followers! ❤

[@cutieadds09]

Oh my god girl, YES! I’ve had a very similar experience with my faith transition. But it feels so amazing to let go of the need for approval from people who may never understand.

[@jennycarl3939]

My husband and I have been ttc for over a year and this holiday season has been super emotional for me. You put so many of my feelings into words and I felt less alone than I have in a long time hearing you. Thank you for sharing. Wishing us both luck this year ♥️

[@katjavestergaard489]

Girl this video couldnt have come at a better time! Your feelings are 100% relatable!!! Im 32 and its soo hard dealing with infertility year after year. We probably gotta do IVF this year too..which is both exciting & scary! Hugs 💚

[@okzeddy]

I love how authentic you are! Your videos are always so inspiring. I hope you have the best 2023 and all your dreams and goals come true 💗

[@jeri_chronicles]

Thank you for sharing & speaking your truth. Whatever 2023 brings for ya, I’m here for it 👏

[@jacimarie_]

thank you, angel!

[@morganhopman5670]

Thank you for talking about this and being so honest about your struggles 🥺 my husband and I have been struggling with infertility also and it is an extremely lonely, isolating and heartbreaking experience. Hearing other people talk about it makes me not feel so alone in my struggles. Baby dust to you ✨

[@brendagaffney3601]

Your energy and vibe is something else Jaci. You’re so smart and confident in yourself it’s incredible. Sending you the biggest hug and heaps of gooooooood energy for 2023. Everything is coming together for you 💘

[@debchaffin]

lately i’ve been seen you with a kid everytime i dream about you! ITS GONNA HAPPEN! I AM SO EXCITED TO SEE YOUR LIFE IN 2023!!!!!!!

[@keeleybombard7360]

Thank you for talking about this!! We love you and want you to feel like you can be open about your journey!! I am religious but don't think that my journey is right for everyone :) You are figuring out your own beliefs and feelings and that's what you should do!! If something is right for you, it will find you. Sending love in the new year, and please always feel free to be open about your genuine experiences even with these difficult topics, and remember that nobody (especially from a religious community) can decide what your experience has been. You know what feels good with your soul and you know what your true peace comes from, that's for you to decide! You go girl

[@Kaykers012]

So proud of you Jaci! Here supporting you through another year! Thank you for authentically being yourself and speaking your truth. You’re an inspiration xo 🤍💗

[@meganxcalista]

You’re so genuine & that’s what always draws me to your videos💕2023 is going to be THE year. Love you Jaci!!

[@londonjones717]

Thank you for sharing Jaci 🫶🏼 One of my 2023 goals is for you and my sister in law to have a baby. I would cry my eyes out. Always rooting for you with all your endeavors! I feel you on the religion talk, haven’t been in a few years. Sending love ❤️

[@MadeByElissa]

Completely relate to what you felt about the holidays. It’s really hard ❤ And the feeling left out & like other people have moved onto the next stage without you, I feel that. And wanting to be happy for others at the same time, realising it’s not about you, etc. It’s really difficult. Lots of love to you.

[@katelynmatth]

the makeup is slaying honestly 🫶🏻

[@Alyssa-ui7bf]

Thanks for sharing about your religious journey. I think the way you worded everything was fair to you and your values AND fair to LDS people and agnostic etc. Just very thoughtful and intentional, thank you 🙏 Something you said really resonated with me- how you take comfort in the NOT knowing. That’s a great perspective shift. And it made me realize: me too…. I also take comfort in not knowing what happens after we die (even though growing up LDS we all thought we knew- even though I never felt like I did personally). The comfort in not knowing is also actually making me live a better life. Because it had been a cop out for me in the past “oh I don’t know but it’ll all work out in the afterlife.” But as far as I know, THIS is my life. Right here right now. And losing an uncle to suicide this year and just seeing how fleeting life can be humbled me and made me realize- I don’t know what’s to come. Tomorrow or after we die etc. and so I need to life my life NOW today and every moment I’m blessed with. TLDR and my main point in this comment: Disregarding the pretense of knowing what is to come after this life has made me live a better fuller and kinder life.

[@jacimarie_]

i couldn’t agree more. thank you for sharing and i’m very sorry about your uncle ❤️

[@Alyssa-ui7bf]

@@jacimarie_ thank you so much 🫶

[@takecarejac]

Hey Jaci, I grew up in the Jewish faith and wanted to share some wisdom from it that someone taught me. Asking questions is how we come back to ourselves and find our own way towards a higher power. Questioning your own faith, the readings, and the people in the religion is actually encouraged because the most powerful way to God is your own way. If God is in every corner, nook, and crack, straying from what other people believe is not straying from God. It is just finding a higher power in your own way. We all have our own path to spirituality, and that should be celebrated!!! You asking questions about your faith is sooooo relatable, and I’m sorry you’ve gotten negative feedback about it. As a long time listener to your pod, it saddens me that people could think you ever have bad intentions. Good luck with it all. Loved this vlog ❤️

[@kd5542]

Jaci I’m going through the EXACT same thing with infertility. It’s so good seeing your feelings and thoughts on this because they are identical to mine. It’s so hard. Praying for you and your husband! 🫶🏻

[@totallyfab95]

Love you Jaci

[@amandapulley8314]

Thank you for being so authentic. Your genuine spirit and kindness always shines through ❤️

[@lindseyisidro4115]

Not sure you will see this but just wanted to say I so appreciate your vulnerability. I have not gone through infertility myself but have close friends who are walking through that now so this gives me greater insight on how to be a better friend to them. I also really appreciate your honesty around religion, this is the content I love just real and honest.

[@emilyrosdahl]

thank you for opening up about infertility❤️i’m not married or trying for kids but i definitely feel left out like you. everyone seems to be moving on in life and getting married & i feel lonely. i know there’s more to come for us. praying for you & leif. you will be amazing parents ❤️

[@mollybachmann131]

thank you for this, i needed to hear it! I know it’s a lesser scale but I’m in my mid twenties and allllll of my friends are in serious relationships - I have been single for years. It’s so hard for me to move onto that phase of life with them & the holidays really brought me down as well. Sending u love 🫶

[@sara.sofies]

I love how you expressed yourself about religion. You can clearly tell that you’re very woke/ open minded and that you have reflected a lot about this. Just like you say being a good person should be the most important thing. Growing up Christian I’ve questioned a lot of religion as well and definitely feel like I don’t have all the answers although there’s a lot I don’t agree with within my religion. Books that really helped me understand religion and spirituality better was A new earth and The power of now by Eckhart Tolle. I truly feel most people would find a lot of help in reading those books. Thank you for sharing so open heartedly about your journey. You’re so reflected and it’s super inspiring to listen to you❤️❤️

[@CiaoBellaFran]

First of all thank YOU for sharing and being vulnerable. In regards to motherhood I don’t know how it is to be a mother because I’m not a mom, yet. But i can relate to being isolated from a friend group. I am in a season of life that i have many different types of friends who are in different seasons of life (single, engaged, married, have a kids and so on), truly so thankful. But it can be difficult being in a season of singleness and wanting to be in a relationship and you’ve been trying and not working…sucks. I wish you the best and know this - this season of life that you’re in, appreciate it. Take it all in. Everything happens for a reason in a season. I know you will be an amazing mother someday and that is soon, truly believe it. But don’t give up on being a mother and continue to have hope. Lastly, in regards to religion - I grew up in a Christian and religious household and it’s tough. While I was trying to find find my way and navigate life religion was pulling me down until I found my relationship with Faith and Christ. Your relationship with Jesus shouldn’t be based on religion. Religion says “you cant do this, you can’t do that, strict”, while Faith says “I just want a one-on-one relationship with the Lord”. Anyways, I hope you find your faith. Will be praying for you! 🤍

[@allisonkelly3922]

I appreciate you sharing your perspective and just sharing what you’re thinking and feeling. It’s so valuable to so many of us. Praying for a pregnancy in 2023🫶

[@brinleyjones2126]

Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable! Proud of you jaci also unrelated but you look so pretty in this ❤❤

[@Elena-bk4fs]

love this so much ❤ it’s ok to be vulnerable! i’m glad you shared this

[@sheamaemedia]

Jaci, I have never seen anyone root for people publicly the way that you root for people. You are SO empowering to others, and you literally love like Jesus does - I am literally rooting for you SO hard in this season!!! Go Jaci go!!! 🤩🎉

[@makell3490]

Love the honesty. I grew up LDS and recently left. HARDEST decision ever but definitely the right one and am so happy for you!

[@sierraryan4086]

I’m currently doing IVF right now, my transfer is in less than two weeks! Super exciting but completely understand the wall that you exposing putting up. I know you already have an appointment down the line, but I’m located in socal too and you should look into HRC. They have multiple locations all over and I have tons of friends and family that love them and I do too so far. Hope you can get in to just have a consult because it’s a process and just getting the information is really nice.

[@megan_chin]

Jaci- firstly sending so much love, peace, and prayers as you navigate this chapter of your life. I admire how vulnerable you were. It really broke my heart hearing about the loneliness you felt as it feels like most of your circle is advancing to a stage in your life that you can’t get to and it’s hard for you to have hope and feeling both supportive and sad about your own situation. I’ve also been struggling with loneliness too, and you put into words perfectly kind of how I’ve been feeling, so thank you for making me feel more understood. Also, I’m Christian, and I want to say I support you no matter what label you put on your beliefs ❤️❤️ I get that you’re sharing your own personal experiences, so anyone who is bashing you from a “religious standpoint” is just being disrespectful. I think it’s normal for your beliefs to change over the years and no matter what faith you subscribe to, for it to fluctuate over time. This is just what I think, but I’m not sure if we’re supposed to have things all figured out. What’s the fun in life if you know everything there is to know but still have to go through everything anyways. That was actually kind of hypocritical of me because I’m such an over thinker, planner, and control freak. Lolol sorry for absolutely going off but we love you Jaci and I know 2023 will be a good one!!

[@MeganBell]

Jaci, you have such a positive mindset. Thank you for being such a good influence here on KZbin!