Photography as Therapy

[@jonnoarmo]

Love your content Nicholas. Glad I found this channel. Thank you for sharing your knowledge. Hope you are well and healing.

[@mikoajzeman3]

You are a great guy, this is an absolutely insane story, my mom was taking care of her ill mother recently and had a similar experiance with her brother who also was a bully in their childhood. I guess some people are just sociopathic assholes. I love your videos, you always have valuble things to say and it doesent even compare with the usual gear centred soulless photography youtube. You're a great storyteler with an amazing, voice, as a teen your honest stories put things into a wider perspective for me and i wish you all the best in the future.

[@tpictury]

There is nothing that makes me angrier than people harming their own family. All the best to you! I hope you are taking the necessary precautions to protect yourself and your family from your brother.

[@darjanstipic9515]

Thank you for sharing Nicholas, I'm sorry for the BS you've been served by your brother. I hope your dad gets better and that you'll be able to visit him soon.

[@altairquten]

Thank you for your insights! This is tremendously valuable to me, as someone trying to figure out his own life and how to deal with the easy and hard times that one comes across. Wishing you and everyone, who reads this, all the best!

[@nigelellaway2100]

Your courageous and great an example to us all.

[@paulsebring5326]

Man I'm so sorry to hear all this. I hope you are able to find peace of mind soon enough, and that karma has your back. Wishing you the best.

[@NicholasHornbrook]

Thanks so much @paulsebring5326, I really appreciate that.

[@Adogcallednoortje]

Holy moly what a story. I beg you, please don’t take the high road concerning money from your dad. I made that mistake once. It did not make it easier. Just made me angrier. Take all that is supposed to be yours and buy that Fuji.

[@NicholasHornbrook]

I'm so sorry @Adogcallednoortje. Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. At the moment I'm not sure what to do about any of this. The idea of letting such a scumbag win sucks, but on the other hand the idea of causing my dad any problem or hassle (fear or sadness) seems worse. I guess the scumbag wins. It's easy to win when you don't care who you hurt. I'll find a way to get my Fuji eventually.

[@eburneentertainment9903]

Interesting that you mention the light smearing on the R5. I have the R8, coming from the 5D mark III, and I've found it to be much more susceptible to losing contrast in bright situations even with the same lenses

[@NicholasHornbrook]

Good to know @eburneentertainment9903. Maybe it's the entire latest generation of Canon cameras then. I did a million A / B comparisons, shooting an identical shot, with identical settings, the same lens, and the R5 consistently had that issue, whereas the R (which I recently sold, regrettably) did not. It's not horrible enough to be a deal-breaker, but it is a bummer. I feel like, in order to get some better autofocus and video specs, I had to give up some image quality. Sucks. Weird that I can't find examples of anyone talking about it anywhere. But I have tried three different R5s, and they all had this issue, so I know it's not just mine. Weird.

[@eburneentertainment9903]

@@NicholasHornbrook agreed it isn't a deal breaker. How do you find the autofocus on your new camera compared to the EOS R? The reason I ask is because I was considering a used EOS R or a new R8 and I went with the R8 in the end for the improved AF, but I've not tried the R so I'm not sure (first hand, I've seen plenty of reviews) how much better the AF is in the newer DIGIC X powered cameras

[@NicholasHornbrook]

@eburneentertainment9903, I never missed focus on the R. The tracking is okay, but kinda mediocre. It works best with people. Grabs the eye like 85 percent of the time. Doesn't work at all with animals. But if you go into it with that understanding, it's not a problem. You'll never, for example, think it's tracking something, or focused on an eyeball, only to later find out that your image is not in focus. You'll know that autofocus isn't grabbing the right thing in realtime, and you can easily step in and override. If you shoot from the back screen, and tap where you want to focus, it's deadly accurate, and it's a great shooting experience. If you like to shoot through the viewfinder, moving the focal point around either with touch-and-drag on the back screen, or the directional arrow keys, it's slow, DSLR-like, and maybe not the greatest experience. If fast reliable subject detection is important to you, I'd avoid the R. But again, for landscapes, I wish I hadn't sold my R. I regret that now. The images coming out of the R were just clearly better in a lot of cases, but, the autofocus on the R5 allows me to capture moments I would otherwise miss. I did a pet portrait session the other day, and this cat was just impossible, and if I were on my R I would have walked away with nothing usable. The R5 saved me. So, it's a pretty big difference. The other weird thing though, is that when the R would grab an eyeball, it would always end up in focus, whereas the R5 will grab an eyeball and it ends up not being in focus sometimes. I don't know what that's about, but it's in focus often enough to have a successful shoot over all.

[@MykeBatez]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts on all this & your images. What a rough, bad time. I wish you peace & clarity as you and your wife move forward in life. 🩵

[@nicofuentes7149]

My 2 cents in this, planing between a R5 and the recently launched GFX 100 S MK II. Same quality as the 100 II (the workhorse of the brand) but more or less 2500 dollars off (video stuff chopped off) and AF similar to the R5 (supposed to be the first Medium Format camera with good/reliable AF), and the files have less weight. I would have an eye on that. So sorry about the hole situation, Hope all goes well

[@NicholasHornbrook]

Cool, thanks @nicofuentes7149. Long term I'm hoping I can eventually get a GFX100S II, and maybe one lens. And shoot on that in combination with the R5 and lenses I have for that. I think that isn't going to happen any time soon. Maybe in a year or two, and the goal could be slowly move my stills work over to Fuji and keep the R5 for video stuff (or fast action if necessary). I was doing tons of research on the GFX system, but for the time being I need to forget it, and just be happy with what I have.

[@grypheonix]

I feel this. I left my families Christian religion and CHOSE Paganism. Thankfully my family was understanding.

[@NicholasHornbrook]

Nice @grypheonix, you're very lucky in that regard. It's great to have a family that just loves you for you, rather than checking the theological portion of your resume to determine whether or not they are going to love you.

[@sameer_dhingra]

Like others suggest, don't let your brother have free reign with your "inheritance" by closing access to you dad. It's your dad, your half of the money and your brother should mind his own business.

[@NicholasHornbrook]

@sameer_dhingra thanks for taking the time to say something. My dad is texting me again. Besides in just a very generic sort of way we haven’t talked about what happened at all. If my brother has the power to throw me out of a house that doesn’t belong to him, it’s hard to imagine a scenario where I’ll ever get to see my dad in person. My hope, though, is that he recovers, finds a way to be happy again, and lives on for decades. I don’t want to cause him any grief or sadness. Ultimately I’d be fine with his money going to cancer research. I’d prefer that over my greedy evil bully elder-abusing brother getting one cent.

[@renashbellrn]

bro great cult